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welcome-to-the-neotheater · 8 months

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Non-Comprehensive List of Things I Love About AJR City Savers

AJR WEBISODE: CITY SAVERS (youtube.com)

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0:00, I love the implication that they are spending 3/4 of their waking hours on this club and they don't have any free time between that and the band

0:12-0:15, he's holding this box with his bare hands normally for a few good seconds here, and only at the end does he decide that its actually super radioactive and he jerks his hand away from it really fast

0:20 Yeah that's going to help get the paint off

0:23 The old logo looks really weird to me after being used to the current one

0:30 he is so fucking proud of himself for putting a leaf into the trash can

0:35 "We founded this city savers club to protect this fine city we live in", the protection of course being kicking a piece of cardboard about 5 feet

0:38 "We start off at 4:30 in the morning, first item on the agenda, song" They're singing songs for the public, (specifically, the "youth" , 1:10) at 4:30 in the morning, "first item on the agenda"

0:48 none of the children are paying any attention to his song, the only one who even looks at the camera is a parent who, if anything, seems unimpressed

0:52 they did this shit in public

1:06 great camera work there

1:13 "We really feel like it gets our message across"

1:20 this is entirely useless

1:35 Does he have a meterstick? How does he know?

1:37 There's no god damn way they can hear him inside their fast cars, probably with windows up with him speaking at slightly above speaking voice

1:42 "Morning Deb!"

1:46 Outfit change from previous scene, these are different days. He does this regularly.

1:53 "NO!"

1:57 He's no longer doing something useless, this is actually disruptive, as you can tell from the honks

1:59 Unless one was added in the jump cut, you can see in the previous shot there was not, in fact, a baby blue jay's nest right there

1:59 What purpose does the word "baby" in "baby blue jay's nest" serve? Correct me if im not up to date on bird knowledge, but aren't all nests built by adult birds build the nests for their babies? Is he trying to say that the baby blue bird built the nest? I don't think baby birds can build nests. Is he just referring to the fact that the birds that live in the nests are babies? This is either redundant or wrong.

2:05 "I've submitted my application for the city savers club almost a dozen times now... I really hope I get in this month". He has been applying to enter this "club" (it has 2 members and does nothing of value) for almost a year.

2:17 Jack checks behind the curtain as if there's any way Adam was just hiding behind the curtain

2:22 Ryan is already so bored

2:28 I counted a 5 second pause before "What?"

2:40 Their brother attached a headshot in his resume as if they wouldn't know what he looked like.

2:43-48 this is just great

2:05-48 Jack and Ryan have created this fake club and have, for almost a year, been holding this over their older brother's head and having him submit formal applications to join his younger brothers' fake club and they have been denying all of them. If that isn't the most sibling shit out there, I don't know what is

2:48 "Graffiti" is a child's chalk drawing

2:55 "Can't get this out", he's using his shoe to remove washable childs chalk from the street. "Can't get this out" have you tried water??? They have to make that shit so it's easy to get out of children's clothes, and so that it washes away when it rains, if this "graffiti" is such a problem get some water and spray it

3:01 "Surprisingly pigeons don't just eat breadcrumbs". Look, I've never been to New York, but if the pigeons there are anything like seagulls, it should be 0 surprise to someone that's grown up there that the pigeons will eat whatever you give to them.

Idk what those are (skittles?) but they don't look like you should be feeding them to pigeons

3:07, they're feeding chunky peanut butter to the pigeons. naturally

3:12 LEE!!!!!!!

3:18 He runs away immediately after hearing they're going to try to put that sweater on him

3:20 They were already talking to him at an unreasonable distance apart but now even more so as he's gone entirely off screen and they continue to talk normally to him for I counted 7 seconds.

3:27 The cut off "Lee-". How long did they do that for?

3:29 Gotta love the "we're saving the world!" music that comes in here

3:30 Pre 2020 mask

3:33 All of the water has fallen out of his hands before he reaches the plant

3:37-41 I don't know if this was planned, I don't want to know if that was intentional

3:52 Wow! Look at this plant!

Throughout the entirety of this video they do nothing actually helpful for the city (yet continuously act like they're saving the world). Their "good deeds" are either entirely pointless ("traffic control", trying to get rid off the paint with his foot at 0:20, "singing for the youth", "watering" that plant) or actually slightly harmful (blocking some car because of an invisible blue jays nest, refusing to let their brother into the club, feeding shit to pigeons that they should not be doing, trying to get rid of a child's drawing)

Jack stated in an interview once that he's actually afraid of pigeons

Adam is a climate activist now, and I like to think that stemmed from not being allowed into city savers

Damn did I write a lot for a video under 4 minutes. I feel like one of those people that keeps interrupting movies to talk about deeper meanings or explain the jokes now.

#ajr #ajr brothers #ajr songs #maybe my friends are right about me being autistic #oh well

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therowdymagpie · 4 months

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The Main 6 as AJR songs(pt.2.5): Living Room

A/N : This one is going to fall on the short side and have a bit of a different format because of my lack of connection with this album. I do think it's very underrated and has some unsual gems but I also haven't done as deep of a dive into these songs and relate them to the characters mostly based on feeling and aesthetic.(As always: spoilers for all routes of course)

Asra : The World Is A Marble Heart (/Growing Old on Bleecker Street)

In how there are undertones of frustration about a seperation in the entire song.

In how ~Feel like I need to forget you / Runaway girl, cause I let you~ could be guilt about the Mc being left behind during the Plague.

In how ~We could have been, we should have been what your heart couldn't handle~ fits so well with the backstory and destroys me each time.

In how a marble heart being a pararrel with Asra's distant attitude in the beginning and sometimes throughout the routes.

In how HEART METAPHORS (I will never stop making heart puns, why should I? *wipes away tears*)

Nadia : Big Idea

The idea of making it Big into an industry that is clearly setting you up for failure and all it's struggles can be a pretty good relation to Nadia is trying to build up Vesuvia again after the end of the Red Plague.

~Now you're on top of the world tonight / You can do anything you'd like / And through that struggle, we made a start / You can do anything you want~

No because seriously, the Big Idea has this feeling of extreme ambition despite the odds, that really suits the Countess.

~Pro tools, and a mic, and a big idea~ whic is basically about Nadia starting to bring the city back to it's feet but only having it in it's worst shape, some very corrupt people of power and a dream.

Julian : PitchFork Kids

~Just Vibeees~

The song and melody literally sounding like you're a criminal with an angry mob chasing you (I mean come on the title literally is "Pitchfork Kids")

~We had to part, couldn't break her heart 'cause their blood pumps through her veins~....I meannnn reference to MC's resurrection and Asra's connection orrrr MC's resurrection and Asra's connection.

~I know they're coming for me~

~And why should I spend time running for my life?~

~It's the loneliest life that we live~, as mentions to Julian's perceived life as a wanted man.

"Oh oh, she's the rough and the rowdiest kid" ?!?!?!?!?

Muriel : The Green And The Town

I really like to imagine this song as an ode to Asra and Muriel's friendship, I think that melodically it's a really good indication of their bond.

Especially since It has this woodsy and relaxed vibe at the beginning that progresses into a more lively and energetic one which really combines the two.

The references to childhood, with people like Lucio being the Giants in the beginning and no I'm still not over that tale

~And we will grow without our parents /Cause soon we will be giants too~

Lyrics refering to people always finding their way back to one another, which again really reflects Asra and Muriel's relationship as well with the Apprentice later on...

Portia : My Calling

A pop song?

With a bouncy and fun energy?

With Incredibly adventurous undertones and the feel of brand new beginnings? Oh yeah, it's all coming together

Refering to "My Calling" as Portia's chance to finally be in the spotlight for once is an obvious choice here. I mean ~And I wonder, is something in the water make me wanting more?/ Make me wanting more~, makes so much sense for Portia's longing.

(Maybe the water being in relation Portia's desires to sail and her conncction with the sea and travelling)

The idea of possibilities and all the different things you could accomplish, is very present in the song as a hidden meaning and you could easily connect it with her character.

Lucio : Woody Allen

A Loud and Obnoxious song under the wrong light, with a LOT of mixes and over the top beats really reflects Lucio's personality...

~Called you up so we could reminisce/ About the old days, gold days /How we've been /The city's rusty after what we did~ as well as ~Im the king of the island on a rusty throne~ referencing Lucio's time as the Count.

The use of Woody Allen as the title of the song and in the lyrics in general, being a controversial person fits A LOT with Lucio's character and how people perceive him whether that is in Vesuvia or even in the fandom.

~Finally, I'm right where I should be~ and the feeling of finally being on top the world thats all around the song.

~Make our way through rusty towns /Lift the weight up off your back /You're with me love, just relax~ matching with his and Nadia's relationship during both of them ruling Vesuvia. Him being nonchalant and trying to calm down Nadia thinking he has everything under control.

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aroace-poly-show · 8 months

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This is the fic i was reading: defining love by tinkonka. have i finished it? no. apologies if it takes a weird turn. however, i present two pieces of YEHFDKSKJKLFJSDLKFS: 1. implied arospec rui and 2. the most BASED emurui takes ive seen in my whole entire life.

and for completionist's sake, here's a few more fics i have bookmarked, in no particular order!!

poor communication kills by HakaiEve: THE og aroace wxs fic. also recommend their other wxs works too because they get them. (also i think they have a tumblr with some aroace wxs art, if you haven't seen it yet!)

ikanaide by Gummysaur: maybe im just a sucker for sick fics and poetic language but. they all just care about their idiot troupe leader so much.... there's another one by them with the reverse plot of tsukasa taking care of emuruinene too that i remember relating to quite a bit!

the study of the sky, the sun, the star, and the moon by JadeMeraki: MY FAVORITE SERIES OF ALL TIME THE LANGUAGE THE HEADCANONS THE ABSOLUTELY UNFILTERED RAW TAKES i love this characterization and have accepted every word into my personal canon. i love this.

and by the same author, with hope: rui writing letters to his future self. im genuinely not ok reading this fic. the crossed out lines. the language. the despair and the hope that defines rui's core. this fic inspired me to write my own journal.

polysho nails by nonchalantatall: to be perfectly honest i do not remember this fic but 1. miracle paint reference 2. acey's favorite band reference (ajr) and 3. i must have saved it for a reason so now you will figure that out

How to Be Free by SkylerHyrule: VBS FANTASY AU (featuring the one and only tenma tsukasa and co). looooooove the way this is written and also this author understands vbs so well. really fun akian interactions too, a rarity in the field. If you like vbs i would also recommend their Misadventures of VBS's Clothes!

Infinity Spectrum by kjcoded: mizuki focused fic! the way this author describes gender stares directly into your soul and gives feelings you didn't even know you had a voice. i think about some of the lines in this daily.

Disparate Threads by MiyoatThePineapple: a little tsukasa-focused poem on creation and loving your friends a whole great deal :) (i am a sucker for poetic language)

if you're ever tired of being known for who you know (you know, you'll always know me) by dizzi_dizzy: like it says on the tin, tsukasa through ichika's eyes. it has been a while since i read it but again. bookmarked it for a reason. i think it had some great language on the passage of time?

july 27th, 2015 by anonymous: i left a comment here about dragonfly symbolism and characterization. i think that's all i need to say about it actually. yeah. loved it.

that was... a lot more than i thought i had. lol. anyways. book club!

ourgh saving all of these to my marked later thank you so much acey i will have so much to read. if i remember some bookmarked fics in particular that i really liked i will recommend them to you as well. book club!!!!!!! :3

#asks #to read later #aura tag ☆

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fiddler-sticks · 10 months

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HI OMG I HAVE NO IDEA IF YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS BUT YOURE BASICALLY THE AJR MUTUAL AND I NEEDED TO TELL THIS TO SOMEONE SO HERE U GO.

SO. you know how the album is called “the maybe man” ?? but the first song is called “maybe man” without “the”. and the last song is “2085” which has a ton of parallels with the first song, “maybe man”. well, in the song “2085” they refer to the number as the year 2085, but guess what?? the 20th letter in the alphabet is a “t”, the 8th is “h” and the 5th is “e”. so 2085 basically also means “the”.

so in conclusion, the last song basically is called “the”, and the first one “maybe man” which creates the perfect loop of you listen to the album on repeat. “the” “maybe man”. “the maybe man”. i suck at explaining but omg this is insane, i knew they were geniuses but they have once again proven to me just how incredibly genius they are

(btw, i didn’t figure this out myself i read it somewhere else. so idk if this is like widespread knowledge and i’m just late to the party but yeah, my life has been changed forever)

I've heard a few people talk about a 'loop theory', but that's on another level! That is amazing and I love that :D

#thanks for the ask :))#music stuffs!!!!#ajr #the maybe man

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scalesandclaws · 2 months

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rainbow_arrow Fanfiction Masterpost

(this will update with time/creation)

Published/Currently Updating: Untitled Trash What Are the Odds? (+ Imperfectly Nothing.) To String You Along

One-Shots: forever (and a little bit) Shot in the Dark A Stupid Idea Third Time's the Charm Enduring

AU's and Stories that are Mostly just Ideas: Miraculous Drum Corps (Drum Corps AU) Bleeding Me Dry (Vampire AU) Sorrow and Rapture (I just wanted to write smut) Cosplay AU Coffeeshop AU Weak (College AU) DnD AU (they play it) Untitled Trash B-Side (Untitled but scenes from other perspectives) A Festive Illusion and Whole Lot of Mistletoe (Christmas special for wato)

Untitled Trash (AO3 Link)Tumblr tag and *secondary tag*

A 'distance Adrien from his father so he’s not Entirely Devastated when he discovers he is Hawkmoth’ fic. It begins right where season 3 ends off, if Lukanette actually got a damn chance and Adrigami tried like 8% more. Chloe gets a (very slow) redemption arc of sorts. There’s also a good 10 chapters i refer to as ‘Lukadrien summer’ where i just kept finding new tropes i wanted to write as you watch them both slowly realize they love each other. Fun facts: -it’s a Long Boy (currently over 300k) now nearing its end (10-ish more?? i need to update this one more often i know) -written prior to season four so while I was Wrong about some things, i think it’s more wild how Right i was about others. Perspective: Primarily Luka and Adrien switching each chapter, with ~guest~ perspectives including: Chloe, Nino, Marinette (as Ladybug) Music: Neon Trees, Fun. A playlist of every referenced song

What are the Odds? Tumblr tag

A ‘so i can see what canon is doing and I’ll allow it to happen but show it’s not going to be good in the long run’ fic. Takes place six years after current (season five as of now), Hawkmoth is defeated, Emilie is revived, and Adrien and Marinette, after figuring each others identities and saving Paris, are dating. The story starts with the inevitable Adrienette breakup. It’s long and messy and with Nino studying abroad, Adrien turns to Luka for comfort during this time. They get close. Perspective: Luka and Adrien (split chapters) Music: a playlist

To String You Along Tumblr tag

A Lukadrien Bridgerton AU no one asked for that came to me during a literal fever dream. Luka is a violist in a quartet, Adrien is a Duke, Perspective: Luka and Adrien (alternating chapters) Music: a playlist

Reprise Tumblr tag

An ‘everything terrible than can happen happens to Adrien’ fic. It’s poetic and sad and was written before season five, which ended up being a lot worse than what I saw to be the 'worst case'. **this fic is under construction Perspective: Luka (mostly) Music: lovelytheband

Miraculous Drum Corps

A ‘very self-indulgent AU’ fic. Gabriel Agreste is a high end fashion designer and definitely turns heads when he makes the move to design This, while is a Lukadrien endgame fic, focuses a lot more on all the characters and all the various aspects of drum corps. The buses, the free days, the friends, the exhaustion, the intensity, the fun. Perspective: no one and everyone Music: *I literally listen to drum corps shows when I write this*

Weak

A ‘god things would be simpler if they were older’ fic. It’s a college AU! Very angsty, overwhelming Perspective: Adrien, Luka, Nino, Alya, Marinette, Chloe Music: AJR (yEAH, that Weak)

Coffeeshop

A coffeeshop au fic. (if you’ve read Untitled, you know how dear this is to me) An aged up fic, the main difference is that None of the heroes know each other, and Mari is not the guardian, making it nearly impossible to figure out identities, as they swore to secrecy. Marinette finally got around to asking out Adrien, who promptly turned her down (didn’t consider that, huh), allowing them to get to be the best of friends. With Adrien still modeling for his father, Marinette is also attempting to build her own fashion brand, and thankfully with the help of Adrien, who enthusiastically shows off and wears anything she’s created. The two visit a coffeeshop where they meet a barista who Marinette takes interest in, to have him only take interest in Adrien. A silly flirty AU that I have not worked on in wayyyy too long. Perspective: Adrien, Luka, Marinette

(pls be patient I am writing a thesis)

#masterpost #getting things organized

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dreamscape-popstar · 10 months

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Are you doing better mentally? Where have you been?

Ah, man. I'd like to think that most of the time we have been doing better mentally until the seasonal depression kicked in again. Couple weeks ago, our favourite band of all time released their new album that one million percent gave us more motivation to live than ever before (Literally so obsessed with The Maybe Man by AJR, everyone go listen to it, it's game changing AND life changing) Aside from the occasional brain mush, things are slowly getting better kinda. Probably will never be truly okay but we're getting to a point in time where things will be less bad.

And yeah sorry for the long absence, beforehand, everything was kicking our ass and everything got too overwhelming to handle. I was eventually gonna make a "Sorry we've been gone" post but asks usually motivate us better so. Hurrah really.

We're slowly getting back on the art grind, there was a long period where we didn't draw much and also being a system with a pedantic need for organization, tracking, and basically cataloguing new member splits and all that. A strenuous week long stint of making member profiles took a chunk out of our art time. Kinda embarrassed it took so long but eh, what can you do.

We'll get back to the arts, mostly work up the energy to revisit the ask blog and do some other stuff. Hell, maybe I can post some character reference sheets we made.

#popstar asks #popstar mod hunter #honestly you'd be surprised how often we draw and how much of it we never post #for some things it's a no brainer considering it's for personal eyes only #but yeah it can be like a character drawing or w/e and we just never feel the incentive to post it idk

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drysdaales · 2 years

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Hi this is for you and @gayravi but I've been listening to My Calling by AJR bc I like the song and honestly? Pretty Rooster coded

Like the lyrics:

"A heartbreak and a hundred red balloons, now I'm off the floor

So here I go

I'm coming up, it might be my calling, my calling

I'm coming up, it might be my time

I'm taking off, you might say I'm all in, I'm all in

I'll send a postcard from the sky"? Yeah

(Heartbreak could refer to Mav or to Jake in the hangster exes universe tbh)

wow how DARE you this is real rooster coded i’m throwing up @gayravi are you SEEING THIS

#stardustsea #chelsea our new brand has come so fast

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splickedylit · 3 years

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Just finished After the Storm, it has fully colonized my head and will for the foreseeable future, I’m love them all. Do you have a playlist/know of someone else’s playlist for the boys?? I’m looking for more ways to process my feelings. Alternately, what’s your biggest Rich song.

Aw hell yeah, I'm so glad you liked it! And also: actually yes! Some of them are tiny and some of the songs repeat, but I do have a few unlisted youtube playlists I've picked at over the years haha

[Rich][Thena][Basil][Liam]

Under the cut b/c lyric-quoting is long, some special mentions to:

You're Not Alone by Marie Miller, which is a simple little song but also speaks to a side of Liam I hope showed clearly even though his role in After The Storm was predominantly a horny one.

I wanna save you, I wanna save you from the pain. I wanna help you, I wanna help you feel the same again. I wanna fix you, I wanna fix your brokeness. I wanna change it, I wanna change it for the best.

I Hope That I Don't Fuck This Up by Dollar Signs, for being my Rich+Trimmer song

I sat down to write you a love song, and it was full of clichés It wasn't impressing anyone Even though I tried really hard, all I came up with was: "You are a possum living in the trashcan of my heart You're a possum in my heart"

The (afaik youtube-only) mashup of Confident and Womanizer for Thena - the traded refrain of "you're a womanizer, baby" and "what's wrong with being confident? ;D" is *chef kiss*. Either song by itself would work but I just love a mashup okay

Turning Out by AJR is in Basil's playlist but really it's my Basil/Mitch song, and more for Mitch--the heartache of the refrain "I'm a little kid, and so are you--don't you go and grow up before I do" is, ahhh

I hold you I hold you closer then I ever knew I could do But I'm confused I thought I'd recognize when love was true, but I'm confused Am I ready for love? Or maybe just a best friend Should there be a difference Do you have instructions?

16 Tons by Tennessee Ernie Ford--it's in Rich's playlist but I also have an entire lyricstuck in my head for it for the Hastings generally and the Merrill siblings specifically. The chorus is originally referring to mining towns and being paid in company scrip so you get buried in debt you can never escape, but it transposes pretty easily over into 1. the weird horror of your entire genome being purpose-built for war and 2. Rich's situation on the Sympatico

You load 16 tons, what do you get? Another day older and deeper in debt St. Peter, don't you call me 'cause I can't go I owe my soul to the company store

#televisiontelepath #Boat Boys #Rich Merrill #Basil Wright #Thena Merrill #Liam Beaker #I should be sleeping after work but I'm typing this up instead and fiddling with youtube playlists lol #it seems pretty pitiful to call like five songs a playlist but listen some of our characters' Whole Deals are like #easier to sum up with songs than others are haha

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fbfh · 3 years

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light up the dark [VI] - leo x reader

genre: mid adventure domestic fluff overture, romance, smutty lemony bit towards the end

word count: 3k

pairing: Leo x gothy!child of eros!fem reader

requested: very much so, yes

warnings: magic manipulation powers, feelings are hard and weird and scary, some innuendos, the phrase hot gusher out of context, the word dirty talk, trying to "proposition [someone] in front of two for one cookie crisp", brief credit card theft, jason thinks ketchup is spicy and gets clowned on for it, one use of the word lube in reference to mechanical lubricant, shirtless leo remember that one piece of shirtless leo viria art?????? remember the caption?????, your facade is beginning to crack, deadpan joke about being dead in space, making out, whole lotta sexual tension, brief mention of a boner, teeny tiny bit of grinding, getting interrupted, c*lypso

summary: after an extensive shopping trip, you, Leo, and Jason settle into your airbnb and wait for the others to arrive. Jason takes a nap, and Leo helps you dye your hair. You return the favor by helping him make dinner which leads to two things; a well timed boner, and a poorly timed visitor.

listen to: power and control - marina, 100 bad days - ajr, all I ask - adele

a/n: let's play spot the zack and cody reference within the first paragraph

also surprise the series isn't dead!! a shock to all but mostly me!!

as with all smexy smutty nsfw content, all characters are aged up to 18+

Standing in front of a wall of hair dye taller than you are should have been exciting. It would have been, except for the fact that all the colors were various shades of honey mist auburn. You really don’t want to have to make a separate trip to a beauty store for hair dye. Your eyes land on a firetruck red box, and gratefully, you realize you won’t have to.

“Perfect,” you muse, throwing it into your cart, along with the other stuff on the list you’d divided between you. You grab a few other things from the beauty section while you’re there; some makeup, eyeliner, a glass nail file, and a tiny pair of oil slick cuticle scissors.

Nearby is a guy a little older than you in a varsity hoodie and sweatpants squinting at a two in one shampoo label.

Perfect, you think, beginning to approach. You work your magic - literally - and within a few minutes you have his credit card. It takes way less time than it used to. You also didn’t have to smile and flirt nearly as much as you used to. You’re relieved that you don’t have to fake enthusiasm around rich douchebags the way you used to, and a new inky drop of fear begins to stain the corners of your mind. You can’t even bear to admit it to yourself, but you’re kind of scared. Before you can begin to question if you know what love is and if you’re capable of experiencing it without the influence of your divine heritage, you shove it all away. Not the place, not the time. You speed up a little, passing an endcap of candy, and knock a box into your cart.

On the other side of the store, Jason checks off items from their half of the list as Leo tosses items in the cart, talking along the way. Of course, you came up in conversation rather quickly.

“She’s… a real piece of work.” Jason says, treading lightly.

“You said it, man,” Leo agrees, sliding a pack of coke onto the bottom of the cart. Jason thinks for a moment before continuing.

“She seems to,” he tries to figure out how to phrase their dynamic, “not hate you as much as everyone else.” Leo laughs at the accuracy of the statement. He can tell Jason has something else to say, so he’s quiet while putting paper plates and napkins into the cart.

“Hey, Leo?”

“Yeah?”

“Just… don’t let her hurt you, okay?”

He stops for a second. He’s so lucky to have a friend like Jason, one that will genuinely look out for him, but sometimes people caring for him still catches him off guard. Really off guard. With no idea how to begin to verbalize that complicated mess, he takes a split second to collect himself.

“Thanks, man.”

His smile is sincere.

Don’t let her hurt you. Can he just do that? Not let someone hurt him? Especially someone like you. He’s only had a few long term crushes before, all just out of reach and only getting further away. Only one had amounted to something - not that he could call what he had with Calypso ‘something’. She certainly wouldn’t. He looks around, trying to shake off the sting. He starts to get that unsettled, itchy feeling when he focuses on stuff like that for too long.

‘At least I got some good stories out of it,’ he thinks, messing with the back of his hair and fixing his hoodie strings.

“Here.”

He turns around, coming face to face with you, holding out a box very close to him.

“Hot gusher.” You say softly. What? His cheeks heat up, pulse speeding up suddenly. He glances at Jason, who’s at the other end of the aisle asking an employee something. Are you implying something? Are you trying to proposition him in front of two for one cookie crisp? He’s unable to look away from your gaze, intense and striking. You couldn’t possibly mean what he thinks you mean. Your fingers brush and he’s struggling to find an elegant way to say ‘hey, maybe the grocery store isn’t an ideal place for dirty talk’.

“W- uh, sorry, what?” he says, laughing in an equally hushed tone, needing to make sure you meant what he thought you did. You glance down, then back up.

“They’re spicy gushers. I thought you’d like them.” the feeling is gone in a split second, the same time it took to arrive, and is replaced with relief. He looks down at the box, realizing he’d taken it from you at some point. He laughs at the ridiculousness of his previous panic.

“Thanks,” he says, a reflective smile on his face.

You realize how comforted you are to see him smile, really smile, when you catch yourself having to keep a neutral face. One of the first times your resting bitch face has been intentional. Before you can say you’re welcome, Jason comes back over. You hand him the card.

“Pin number’s 0401.”

They both stare at you, skimming the label of a granola bar, completely unperturbed.

“How…”

“Credit card theft.”

The logical part of Leo’s brain starts to speak up, telling him to raise his guard, that his stomach should be twisting. If you can just take someone’s credit card without a hint of remorse, who knows what the hell kind of damage you could do to him if he got closer to you? And he really wants to get closer to you.

“Oh,” you pull a small pop top tube out of your cart and hand it to Leo, “this is for you too. You know, since you don’t like coffee,” you trail off as he reads the label. Caffeine and electrolyte drink tablets, red berry rampage flavor. He looks up at you, feeling warm and… something else, something ineffable, at the gesture.

You stare at each other, eyes locked, surprised at the strangely intimate feeling stirring in both of you.

“What are those?” Jason asks, snapping you out of whatever that was.

“Spicy gushers,” Leo says, smiling again, “I didn’t even know they made those.”

“Hot mango,” Jason reads from the side of the box, “that actually sounds pretty good.”

“No way dude, you can’t handle spicy food.” He starts to protest, and Leo continues, “You think ketchup is spicy!” He looks shocked.

“Okay, that was one time! It was a weird brand and there was way too much pepper in it!”

You bite back a giggle at their bickering, taking note of how much better Leo seems to be doing and finding surprising comfort in their banter.

It doesn’t take long to get to the airbnb and get set up. You all dump your bags in your rooms, bring in the groceries, and shove everything into the cabinets in a reasonably organized manner.

Jason heads upstairs to unpack and call Piper, announcing a few minutes later that they should be here in less than two hours.

“Perfect,” you pull out your hair dye from the last bag. It’s not exactly the manic panic wildfire red you’d initially wanted, but it’s definitely better than nothing. You stare at the box for a second, then up at Leo who’s trying to get one more bag of chips to fit in with the others.

“Hey,” you say, just loud enough to get his attention, “do you… can you get the back of my head?” He looks at you, questioning, and you hold up the box dye. He smiles, once again noting your softened edges around him.

“Yeah,” he agrees, and minutes later you’re in the bathroom, adorned in a big tee shirt covered in all your previous hair colors. He’s staring at your shirt, eyes dancing over the swirls and splatters of color. It reminds him of a painting he’d seen once, unable to remember the name.

You shake the bottle, skimming the instructions again, then start speaking to him, eyes still on the box.

“Take a section of hair, about this much,” you demonstrate, holding out a section of hair, “rub in the dye like this…”

You hand him the second bottle of red dye, and he starts on the back. His fingertips start separating out a section of your hair, and you still, a shiver running up your spine. He hesitates for a moment, then continues, and you hope he hadn’t noticed. His breath fans your ear, and you can feel the heat radiating off his chest. Your lungs are shallow suddenly, squeezed tight like a bouquet clutched in a shaking hand. You find it almost impossible to focus on dying the front half of your hair.

You don’t want it to stop, you realize. His fingertips dancing along your hair, the glimpses of his incredibly focused face in the bathroom mirror, the way he’ll gently turn your head to make sure he didn’t miss a spot.

“Shit,” he leans back, hunching forward. You look behind you, eyes landing immediately on the spot of red dye on his shirt.

“Shit,” you echo. He looks back at you, waiting to see how he’ll react.

“Oh, it’s all good - no worries. I already have a ton of motor oil and lube - lubricant… machine grade, petroleum based engine lubricant-” he laughs, “stains on this shirt anyway. Don’t sweat it.”

You almost laugh. A giggle bubbles up from your chest and stomach, but catches in your throat. Before it can come out, he slips off his dye stained gloves, and tugs off his dye stained shirt from the back. It seems to happen in slow motion. In a mere moment, your eyes engraving every detail, every line and curve and freckle to memory.

There’s really no delicate way to put it; he’s fucking jacked. Deceptively so. You’re frozen in place, cheeks flushed. You suddenly wonder what it would be like to be wrapped up in his arms, held so close to him.

You snap yourself out of the thought, all of that occurring in just a few seconds. He leans past you, setting the dye stained shirt carefully on the counter, glancing at you intensely.

“Are you checking me out?”

You make yourself roll your eyes and turn away, replying, “I’m sure you’d love that.”

Angled away from him, you momentarily reprimand yourself, squeezing your eyes shut and mouthing oh my god. You turn back to him, not recalling the last time you had to deliberately keep up your aloof front around someone like this.

“So, are we finishing my hair or just gonna leave it like this?” you ask rhetorically, motioning to your half done hair.

He watches you do this, confirming his suspicion that you’re really not as cold as you let on. A smile blooms on his face, and he doesn’t think he’s ever seen anything as… cute as that.

“Yeah,” he replies, slipping his gloves back on. The things you do around him seem to mean more now. He notices the way your eyes flutter closed for a moment when he plays with your hair, working in the dye, or the way you still for a split second when he gets a little too close to the side of your face, checking that he didn’t miss a spot.

He doesn’t want this to end either. But eventually, your hair is fully saturated with dye, the timer on your phone counting down slowly. There’s still some dye left. He sits on the closed toilet.

“Your turn. Do me.”

“What?” you laugh.

“Yeah, a little streak - up here.” He leans forward, sectioning off a part of his hair.

“Seriously?” you ask.

“Yeah. Unless you don’t want to match…” he muses. Your eyes get this dreamy look for the briefest second, then you’re turning back to shake the bottle some more.

“I guess… I mean there’s too much dye to throw out, we might as well do something with it.”

It’s his turn, now, to feel the warmth from your body, your hands running through his hair. His eyes want to close, and bask in the feeling, but he refuses to miss out on the view of you so soft, so close to him. It doesn’t last nearly long enough for either of you, and much too soon you’re pulling away and throwing away the gloves and empty bottles.

By the time you finish cleaning up and throw out the garbage, it’s time to rinse your hair. Hanging your head over the tub, you let the water flow over your head until Leo tells you it’s running clear. He does the same, and you point out too late that he only had to rinse the dyed part, not his whole head.

You both laugh as you wrap a towel around your hair, teaching him how to do the same.

“Sweet, I’ve always wondered how to do the spa snail towel thing.”

“The spa snail towel thing?” You try in vain to fight another laugh.

“Yeah, you know… cause it looks like a snail, and they do it at spas…”

“Oh… my gods…” you laugh, exiting the bathroom and heading down the hall, “I”m going to get changed.” you call.

“Am I wrong?” he asks after you, and you bite your lip to stop yourself from laughing. He heads to his room to do the same.

A few minutes later, you’re carefully pulling on your top, when he calls through your door.

“Hey, I’m gonna be in the kitchen, come down when you’re ready.”

“...Okay,” you agree.

You check your outfit in the mirror. You can still feel his fingers brushing your neck. Your head tilts at the memory. Snapshots of him pulling off his shirt in slow motion flash in your memory.

You realize how much of an affect the last hour has had on you. Your stomach drops.

You can’t possibly be falling in love. No way. Not a snowball’s chance in hell.

You’re not the falling in love type. At most, you’d hook up with someone a couple times on the rare occasion you thought they were hot, too.

Oh, you decide, that must be what’s happening. I just think he’s hot. I mean, duh. Of course he’s hot. Did you see him in there?

That’s all you have to do; hook up with him once, maybe twice, then you’ll get over it. It’ll make his ex jealous, and they’ll get back together. It will go just like it always has. Then you can move on to whatever the next crisis is.

You take a breath, resolving to follow the plan, exit your room. You throw yours and Leo’s old clothes and towels in the hamper, and head down stairs. He greets you, and pulls you into the kitchen.

“I have something to ask you.” Your brow furrows.

“...Okay.”

He takes your hand in his, the other behind his back.

“Will you…” he looks at you, gaze piercing, “...be my sous-chef.” he finishes, holding out an apron, matching his.

You study him, a hopeful, surprisingly confident look on his face. His hair is still damp. You’re sure yours is, too. You wait a beat, before replying slowly.

“Yes. But I’m not wearing that.”

“That’s fair,” he says, setting the apron on the counter, “I will have to dock your pay for being out of uniform, though.” You let out a puff of air from your nose, biting back a laugh. He pulls out a skillet, bowl, and oil, and begins preheating the pan. You watch him pull out more ingredients, and begin to set things up.

“Right now we’re waiting on that,” he says nodding at the stove. You nod, inspecting a bottle of seasoning he’d pulled out, and settle into a comfortable silence.

He thinks back to the last time you had time like this - playing twenty questions at your apartment. A pit forms in his stomach as he remembers the conversation veering to Calypso, as it always seemed to. He shoves it away. Not this time. He steadies his nerves. “So, you want to play twenty questions?”

You agree, coming closer to him.

“If you could go anywhere, where would you go?”

Your eyes flick over to the clock. You have a solid hour, hour and a half before the others are supposed to get here. You stare at him, brushing hair out of his face.

“I’d be dead in the endless void of deep space.”

He cracks a smile at how on brand that response was. Your fingertips trail down to his neck, rethen shoulder. The smile doesn’t leave his face, not completely. Your heart beats loudly in anticipation.

“My turn. Do you want to make out?”

His head snaps up, eyes locked with yours, trying to tell if you’re serious or if this is another example of your distinct sense of humor. But he can tell it’s not - there’s something a little too close to the surface in your eyes.

“Yeah. Yes, totally-”

You grab his collar, pulling him in for a kiss, and leaning back against the empty counter.

His lips are soft and warm, moving gracefully with yours. You barely register that the first kiss ends before you dive back in. You angle your head, deepening the kiss. He plants one hand on the counter, the other making its way to the small of your back. You flick your tongue past his lips, and his grip on your waist tightens. You clutch his collar tighter, other hand moving through his hair, still damp at the ends.

You can tell he’s enjoying what you do by the way his mouth quirks up ever so slightly at the corners, and by the way he starts to harden beneath you. You roll your hips into his, and he falters, sighing, breath fanning your lips. Not quite a moan, but you’re getting there.

The front door opens before you can.

Leo pulls away reluctantly, very reluctantly, and turns off the stove.

“That was fast,” he says, panting slightly and still very flushed. They’re not supposed to be here for a while, still.

A tall girl enters the kitchen, dark strawberry blonde hair pulled over her shoulder. She looks between you and Leo with a sour expression on her face.

“Calypso,” Leo says.

"...Hi."

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blufox234isadumbname · 4 years

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storyboards ig of the dream smp but as a stageplay because I had Bang! by AJR in my head

vvv explanation of why i think the song is fitting below vvv

From a set design stand point, this stageplay performance would have a stage, with a main podium in the centre back. The podium is about a metre and a half high, with stairs facing the audience. Possibly, there can be a small entrance in the stairs for actors to enter in/out of. Atop, there's a stand where the button will be, which has significance during the first and final chorus. Aditionally, screens on either side of the podium (with steps behind them for hidden access to the podium) can be used for displays, such as the L'Manburg flag throughout the performance This is just what I had in mind,, I imagined this as a stageplay because MMMMM THEATRE :))))

as for the song: I imagine that this song has mostly Dream as the speaker, refering to the events of the Dream SMP. Dream is a puppet master, he controls and enables the conflicts to gain benefit. He's making a fun and catchy tune about reaping the harvest from war as the cost of it means nothing to him. Here's how I imagined it;

I get up, I get down and I'm jumpin' around And the rumpus and ruckus are comfortable now Been a hell of a ride but I'm thinkin' it's time To grow (bang! bang! bang!)

> the opening lines are for the start of the dream smp, where Dream is settling down with friends, it's all peaceful and lovely until Dream hands off the attention to Tommy. Through that, he sparks the brief wars over the discs. That in advertedly causes the next war to erupt

So I got an apartment across from the park Put quinoa in my fridge, still I'm not feelin' grown Been a hell of a ride but I'm thinkin' it's time To go (bang! bang! bang!) (here we go)

> Tommy finds L'Manburg with Wilbur, dancing around, and creates new beginnings with other members. At this point, Tommy only started his development as a character, he's not exactly "grown" yet even after taking responsibility of L'manburg. hence the line. Even so, they all salute together as a nation.

So put your best face on, everybody Pretend you know this song, everybody Come hang Let's go out with a bang (bang! bang! bang!)

> Eret reveals himself as the traitor and presses the button atop the podium , where Dream's allies come to attack the L'maburgians. The line "put your best face on" is refering to the betrayal, Eret lying to all of them to join Dream's side. I imagine that this is also in reference to Dream's mask, a symbol for siding with Dream. All those who "put (their) best face on" would don the same mask as him, or rather become another pawn to Dream. A symbol to show their loyalty to him. And the line"pretend you know this song" is about pretending to hold the same ideals as the hero's side until reveal. In this case, Eret pretended to follow with their song of freedom to join the side that they were trying to emancipate from

I'm way too young to lie here forever I'm way too old to try so whatever Come hang Let's go out with a bang (bang! bang! bang!)

> Dream only initiates most conflict because he can, he's a reverent of chaos. He sees the war as fun for him. He's gotten tired of the stillness so he just joins in the war for fun and for his benefit. And the "bang" directy refers to the exploding of L'Manburg near the end of the war. He dances with Eret, with him leading. He's the one using Eret to get what he wants in the war, using him the puppet he sees him as.

Feel like I'm gonna puke 'cause my taxes are due Do my password begin with a one or a two? Been a hell of a ride but I'm thinkin' it's time To grow (bang! bang! bang!) (metronome)

> This is where the Schlatt Administration begins, with everyone rattled about while Schlatt, Quackity and George stand on the podium. (not for long, George just looks around then dips) The taxes refer to Niki having her's raised, while the password refers to Fundy's secret base, where he hid his Spy Diary. The third line refers to Tommy, starting his growth of character and rallys to take back L'Manburg

Man, I'm up to something, ooh-dee-la-dee-doe Thank you all for comin', I hope you like the show 'Cause it's on a budget, so ooh-dee-la-dee-doe Yeah, come on here we go, yeah, come on (here we go)

> The Manburg Festival is here, with the first line about Wilbur turning insane. In time with the metronome ticking, symbolising the ticking time bomb that is both the festival and Wilbur, the festival goers just have their heads go side to side. The second is about Tubbo's speech, thanking the citizens for attending. The third about Schlatt revealing his intentions of executing Tubbo, him and Quackity holding Tubbo down on the stand

So put your best face on, everybody Pretend you know this song, everybody Come hang Let's go out with a bang (bang! bang! bang!)

> Now, WIlbur's best face is one of insanity, revealing hsi intentions of chaos instead. The song of freedom he knew became warped and twisted, to the point of being unrecognisable at least in his mind. The "bang" here is caused by Techno, appearing behind Wilbur, firing the rockets to the podium in time with the beat.

I'm way too young to lie here forever I'm way too old to try so whatever Come hang Let's go out with a bang (bang! bang! bang!) (Bang! bang! bang!)

> Like Dream, Techno wants to cause anarchy for his own benefit and also because he can. At this point, both WIlbur and techno hold the same ideals and agree; that to end it all, Manburg has to "go out with a bang" Tommy tries to object but he gets punted away

Been a hell of a ride but I'm thinkin' it's time To go

> Tommy's has had enough, everyone is rallied together as Pogtopia and fights

So put your best face on, everybody Pretend you know this song, everybody Come hang Let's go out with a bang (bang! bang! bang!) (here we go)

> Finally, we see Dream's own act of deception. He isn't the one to betray Pogtopia, however he baits them into thinking they are safe as he surrenders. He does in fact know the song, but couldn't care less. And as the final "bang" goes off, Wilbur emerges onto the podium and presses the button on the stand, just like Eret (reference to when it was never meant to be)

So put your best face on, everybody Pretend you know this song, everybody Come hang Let's go out with a bang (bang! bang! bang!)

> The withers are released by Techno, putting back on his face of anarchy and fighting the government system. The song he knows is not one he particularly likes, so he challenges it and threatens to abolish it. Meanwhile, Wilbur finally reaches the peak of his insanity, seeing the song no longer real. He finally goes out with a bang upon the button press, and dances around in the ashes while everyone else runs around in fear

I'm way too young to lie here forever I'm way too old to try so whatever Come hang Let's go out with a bang (bang! bang! bang!) (here we go) (Bang! bang!)

> Finally, the villians come together and dance around, with Dream taking the lead like with Eret. He is, after all, the true villian of the SMP. Techno faces away to the podium, to tear down the symbol of power. Wilbur collapses, dying to the hands of Phil and crying because of his actions. And Dream bows, happy with the result of such a chaotic performance and hopes the audience thinks the same.

#wilbur soot #technoblade #tommy innit #dreamwastaken #dream smp #dream team smp #story board #stageplay #performance #mcyt #shitty sketch #my art #blusart #eew eww #he lp

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cheselswood-archived · 3 years

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i can’t take another panic episode when i get off the stage, man

a ches elswood playlist (spotify link)

tracklist under the readmore | trigger warnings: mental health struggles, abusive / toxic relationship references, death, vomiting mention, drowning reference, suicide (this one is a better safe than sorry warning, I wasn’t sure if it applies or not and I’d rather overtag then under)

Record Player - Daisy the Great feat. AJR (I’m in an elevator, it's goin’ down, down, down. I spent forever with my feet on the ground but not now ‘cause I don’t wanna do the wrong thing. Guess I gotta go and get famous for doin’ nothing. Crack a smile, crack a smile. Stay a while, stay a while. Am I holdin’ for applause? Is it gone? Is this on?)

Moonsea - PHILDEL (There are diamonds on the floor you can’t take back. There’s an eyelash on the board, does she wear black? I called it, I called it, I called it. All the violence that I swore you could have back. There’s red varnish on the door, I don’t wear that...)

The Archer - Adam Melchor (This is how you turned me to the archer from the arched. This is where you turned me to the marksman from the marked. This is how I learnt how to take the arrows in my back and shoot them at the stars.)

Personal - Against the Current (When you let those blue eyes turn gray I took it personal. When you took my hero away, I took it personal. Now you’re not here when I say “I took it personal.” I took it personal. Now every night I scream at your ghost when I miss you the most. I’ll lace up my armor and fight for us both; finish what you started and crown your stone.)

The Lucky One - Taylor Swift (And they tell you that you’re lucky, but you’re so confused ‘cause you don’t feel pretty, you just feel used, and all the young things line up to take your place. Another name goes up in lights, you wonder if you’ll make it out alive.)

3 O’Clock Things - AJR (Would you go running if you saw the real me? Maybe you’d love ‘em. Yeah, maybe you’d feel me. But I’ll never ask you, no that’s super scary. Sorry to bail, it’s already three o’clock. It’s too hard to tell if anything’s real or not.)

Venom - Icon For Hire (Don't meet their eyes, it's hypnotic, make you forget that it’s toxic. Caught up in all the chaotic, sold you a lie and you bought it. Before you know it, you’re nauseous, hands down your throat ‘till you vomit. Collapse from all the exhaustion, and now they got what they wanted.)

CASTLE OF GLASS - Linkin Park (Bring me home in a blinding dream through the secrets that I have seen. Wash the sorrow from off my skin and show me how to be whole again. ‘Cause I’m only a crack in this castle of glass. Hardly anything there for you to see, for you to see.)

East of Eden - Zella Day (If I wanted to stay, you don’t mind you’re a true believer. Take it up with the badlands, creep on in like a concrete fever. Keep me from the cages under the control, runnin’ in the dark to find east of Eden.)

Making a Monster out of Me - Katherine McNamara (And I don’t know how to recollect the morals that I always did possess. Don't know where it’s leading me. It took all of my strength to find a place, the open road back to happiness. I’m not what I used to be. I’m losing control, taking me over. Won’t you just let me be?)

Good Girls - CHRVCHES (Is it easier when you don’t have to count to ten? When you don’t have to pretend? I want to know that feeling. Is it easier when you don’t have to start again? When you don’t wanna make amends? I want to know that feeling.)

again&again - Against the Current (Now it’s all in my head, in my head, in my head, in my head. It’s over and over again, and again, and again, and again, yeah. Can somebody stop time, keep my hands from shaking? I’ve tried, but somehow I’m breaking, again, and again, and again and again. Yeah, it’s over and over again.)

Humpty Dumpty - AJR (I got friends in a lot of weird places, wonder if they’re gonna call depending what my face is. What my face is, I could fake it, I could move away, or I could suck it up and face it. Humpty Dumpty, when Humpty Dumpty, when Humpty Dumpty went down. He said, “screw it, I’mma smile right through it, and I’ll scream when no one’s around.” Humpty Dumpty, when Humpty Dumpty, when Humpty Dumpty went down. Hе said, “screw it, there’s a big crowd looking, and I’ll scrеam when no one, when no one, when no one’s around.”)

How Not to Drown - CHVRCHES feat. Robert Smith (You promised the world and brought me it hangin’ from a string, stuck it in my mouth, into my throat, told me to sing. That was the first time I knew you can’t kill the king and those who kiss the ring. Tell me how “it's better when the sun goes down.” We will never escape this town. I wasn’t scared when he caught me, look what it taught me. Tell me how “it's better if I make no sound.” I will never escape these doubts. I wasn’t dead when they found me, watch as they pull me down.)

#if i wanted to stay you don't mind; you're a true believer (season one)#it's kinda funny how i paid for college when youtube was an option (musings | generic)#call me wild drinking up the sunshine (musings | season one)#so save your breath; give a little of what you have left (playlists)

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thelittlestcheshire · 3 years

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even if you have to cry, don't let your crown fall

a love letter to luxor’s ches elswood

Well, it’s finally time that I feel ready to post this, and while I’m aware it may be bittersweet with my upcoming departure, I hope you enjoy it nonetheless. Today I present to you a three hour Ches playlist, divided into sections and covering her entire time at Luxor, from when I first picked her up in June of 2019 all the way to now. There’s quite a few plot references, and small (and not as small) references to other muses throughout, especially when it comes to Elliot, so keep an eye out for those as well!

I’d like to thank Lex for giving me the idea to make these, and her support throughout the process because without her, these playlists wouldn’t even exist. And thank you to everyone who has gone on this journey with us, while I’m sorry I need to dip out early after this event to focus on my health, I love y’all so much.

The standard Ches tws apply (poor mental health, alcoholism, etc etc), and anything I think may be a bit abnormal / section exclusive is noted on the sections.

twist me like a key, then you open the lock | pre-luxor:

the section of time before I played Ches at Luxor, very James heavy. additional tws: Death (Sign of the Times), Toxic relationships (nothing explicit tho)

Sign of the Times (Jasmine Thompson) [ Remember everything will be alright. We can meet again somewhere, somewhere far away from here. ] // Sweet Ophelia (Zella Day) [ Singing like it's a full moon, careless now that he has you. Turns you on to the right songs, promises that you're hooked on. ] // Couple of Kids (Maggie Lindemann) [ Now I'm fallin' heavily, recklessly, trying not to lose my sensibility; but gravity, it pulls me into you. ] // Glowstick (Sofia Karlberg) [ You play me like a line-up; long con, you make me wise up. ] // Crying in the Club (Camila Cabello) [ Ain't no crying in the club, hey, hey, let the beat carry away, your tears as they fall, baby. Ain't no crying in the club, hey, hey, with a little faith, your tears turn to ecstasy. ] // Ember (Katherine McNamara) [ Reignite; you lost your grip on me, and now I blaze wild and free. ]

nobody shows up unless i'm paying, have a drink on me cheers to the failing | summer & fall 2019:

the first time I was at Luxor playing ches, from June - October 2019

7 rings (Ariana Grande) [ Been through some bad shit, I should be a sad bitch. Who woulda thought it'd turn me to a savage? ] // I'm a Mess (Bebe Rexha) [ “It's gonna be a good, good life;” that's what my therapists say. ] // OMG (Little Mix) [ Oh my gosh, I did it again. He said I broke his heart, it keeps happening. ] // Only Angel (Harry Styles) [ Couldn't take you home to mother in a skirt that short, but I think that's what I like about it. ] // LA Devotee (Panic! At The Disco) [ Drinking white wine in the blushing light, just another LA Devotee. ] // Woman Like Me (Little Mix feat. Nicki Minaj) [ I made a few mistakes, I regret it nightly. I broke a couple hearts that I wear on my sleeve. ]

all of this emptiness i've been sharing, it never comes when i want it to | winter 2019:

the period of time Ches went home to be with her family and was away from luxor additional tws: vomiting (Habits (Stay High))

Carmen (Lana Del Rey) [ Darlin’, darlin’, doesn't have a problem lyin’ to herself ‘cause her liquor’s top shelf ] // How You Remind Me (Avril Lavigne) [ And I've been wrong, I've been down, been to the bottom of every bottle. These five words in my head scream, "Are we havin' fun yet?" ] // Playing God (Paramore) [ This is the last second chance (I'll point you to the mirror). I'm half as good as it gets (I'll point you to the mirror). I'm on both sides of the fence (I'll point you to the mirror). Without a hint of regret, I'll hold you to it ] // Habits {Stay High} (Tove Lo) [ Staying in my play pretend, where the fun ain't got no end. Oh, can't go home alone again, need someone to numb the pain. ] // Bedroom Window (The Pretty Reckless) [ As I look out of my bedroom window; is it all real or just fantasy? I have lost touch with what makes me human, I have lost touch with reality. ] // Impossible Year (Panic! At The Disco) [ There's no sunshine, this impossible year; only black days and sky grey and clouds full of fear. ]

i wouldn't say you got the best of me, i'd say you got me somewhere in between | spring 2020:

Ches’s return to Luxor, and the months following leading up to her mass text about Leo’s dad following the Lake Bash

3 O'Clock Things (AJR) [ Would you go running if you saw the real me? Maybe you'd love 'em, yeah, maybe you'd feel me. ] // Wild Heart (Bleachers) [ Well, everything has changed and now I can't tell what matters. I will find any way to your wild heart. ] // Rise (Katy Perry) [ When the fire's at my feet again and the vultures all start circling. They're whispering, “you're out of time.” But still, I rise. ] // Don't Stop Me Now (Queen) [ I'm a rocket ship on my way to Mars on a collision course. I am a satellite, I'm out of control. ] // Princesses Don't Cry (CARYS) [ Girls, so pretty and poised and soft to the touch, but God made me rough. Girls, so heavy the crown, they carry it tall, but it's weighing me down. ] // Save Rock And Roll (Fall Out Boy feat. Elton John) [ You are what you love, not who loves you. In a world full of the word 'yes', I'm here to scream... no, no (no, no). ] // Making a Monster out of Me (Katherine McNamara) [ And I don't know how to recollect the morals that I always did possess. Don't know where its leading me. ] // We Don't Have To Dance (Andy Black) [ You're never gonna get it, I'm a hazard to myself. I'll break it to you easy. This is hell, this is hell. ]

tonight it's alright, i can see the tunnel at the end of these lights | summer 2020:

summer camp and the months leading up to a new school year

Night Owls Early Birds (Foxes) [ A wild fire inside me burns. Why do I look like I'm wear for worse? Save me, save me, go underneath the ground. ] // Too Much (Carly Rae Jepsen) [ When I party, then I party too much. When I feel it, then I feel it too much. When I'm thinking, then I'm thinking too much. When I'm drinking, then I'm drinking too much. ] // Royal Blue (Alberto Rosende) [ My regrets are a shade around my neck I know. It's torturous, and there's a burden that I can't let go. ] // Who You Selling For (The Pretty Reckless) [ And when Roger showed me I was building a wall. I've been waiting a long time, waiting a long time, waiting a long time, waiting for it to fall. ] // Heavy (Linkin Park feat. Kiiara) [ You say that I'm paranoid, but I’m pretty sure the world is out to get me. It’s not like I make the choice to let my mind stay so fucking messy. ] // The Archer (Taylor Swift) [ I've been the archer, I've been the prey; screaming, “who could ever leave me,” darling. But who could stay? ] // Everybody Lost Somebody (Bleachers) [ And there's a reason I wake up alone in strange places, a reason I see myself in a million faces, a reason I can't stop it all from changing. So come on, motherfucker, you survive, you gotta give yourself a break. ]

no cameras catch my muffled cries. i counted days, i counted miles | fall and winter 2020(/21):

a new school year, from the start of the semester right until the aftermath of the kings’ party

So It Goes (Guards) [ I don't know who I am but I do know who I'm not. I'm just looking for a friend, I'm still searching for the plot. ] // Wasabi (Little Mix) [ Love to hate me, praise me, shame me; either way, you talk about me. ] // Think Before I Talk (Astrid S) [ Maybe I should think before I talk; I get emotional and words come out all wrong. Sometimes I'm more honest than I want. ] // Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince (Taylor Swift) [ No cameras catch my muffled cries. I counted days, I counted miles to see you there, to see you there. And now the storm is coming, but... ] // Sober Up (AJR feat. Rivers Cuomo) [ Won't you help me sober up? Growin' up, it made me numb, and I wanna feel somethin' again. ] // The Show Must Go On (Queen) [ Empty spaces, what are we living for? Abandoned places, I guess we know the score, on and on. Does anybody know what we are looking for? ] // Waiting For A Friend (The Pretty Reckless) [ My head is like a prison cell, I'm all by myself. I'm waiting for my friend to come and break me out. ] // Sober (Demi Lovato) [ I'm sorry that I'm here again, I promise I'll get help. It wasn't my intention, I'm sorry to myself. ] // Eight (Sleeping At Last) [ I'm just a kid who grew up scared enough to hold the door shut, and bury my innocence. But here's a map, here's a shovel, here's my Achilles' heel. ]

i got this handled, i don't need rescuing | spring and early summer 2021:

ches’s progress from the end of march until now

The Man (Taylor Swift) [ I’m so sick of running as fast as I can, wondering if I'd get there quicker if I was a man. And I'm so sick of them coming at me again, 'cause if I was a man, then I'd be the man. ] // Princess (FLETCHER) [ But we're all going through it, so why do we do it? Why do we hide? ] // Humpty Dumpty (AJR) [ If I can't breathe, then you can't see, but aren't you excited that I'm giving you the best me? ] // My Mistake (Gabrielle Aplin) [ Am I jaded? Am I meant to feel this way? I'm a loser, getting beat by my own game. But if I falter, well, at least it was my mistake. ] // The Climb (Miley Cyrus) [ The struggles I'm facing, the chances I'm taking; sometimes might knock me down, but no, I'm not breaking. ] // breathin (Ariana Grande) [ Some days, things just take way too much of my energy. I look up and the whole room's spinning. You take my cares away. ] // Clean (Taylor Swift) [ Ten months sober, I must admit just because you're clean, don't mean you don't miss it. Ten months older, I won't give in, now that I'm clean, I'm never gonna risk it. ] // Not a Pop Song (Little Mix) [ A hamster on a wheel that's how it feels tryna be real. These unrealistic expectations said we'll make it if we fake it. ] // Queen (Loren Gray) [ Eyes on me like I'm a prize but you better recognize I'm not your angel 'cause I belong to me. ] // The Cure (Little Mix) [ This happiness was always inside me but Lord, it took a minute to find me. ]

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hello! i would like ur 40 song wiblur playlist

anon thank you so much for asking <333 while it would’ve been easier to just drop the link i have so many thoughts about everything so i explained why every single song has its spot on this list which was IMMENSELY fun for me

(also: if anyone does want the link i can provide both apple music and spotify but if u would like the apple music link i’d rather it be through dms or an ask off anon that i can make private!)

another also: i bolded all the songs for ease of perusing if you don’t want the director’s commentary and bolded + italicized the ones that i think fit Very Well

another another also: wrote the second bit of this on my laptop and the keyboard is p funky so if there are any typos or things that do not make sense i will try to fix them asap haha

saint bernard by lincoln: this is one of those like. Dream SMP Songs that i added because it fits into so many different relationships and plot lines and arcs but i think there’s some connection to c!wlbur somewhere out there. idk i asked my friend and he said to add it so this one goes out to him

amnesia was her name by lemon demon: ghostbur song ghostbur song! mostly comes from this lovely animatic

o valencia! by the decemberists: okay this is one of those songs that only really has one lyric that fits but is an absolutely banger so it’s here anyway. you’ll also notice a trend of quasi love songs that i relate to c!wilbur’s perception of l’manburg and i think this song shows this in a really cool way, esp with the chorus (‘and i swear to the stars i’ll burn this whole city down’ is The Line)

achilles come down by gang of youths: another one of those Dream SMP Songs. i think this fits better with c!tommy but i like it too much to remove it. this is a somewhat common trend with the earlier songs on this playlist (i’ve been building this thing since january, for reference)

brave as a noun by ajj: another Dream SMP Song. i think certain verses fit better than others when it comes to wilbur’s character but that ones that work really work

harness your hopes by pavement: a song that is one here for vibes alone. i have no idea what these lyrics mean. all i know is that i heard it, thought of c!wilbur, and put it on the playlist. thank you all for being here

evelyn evelyn by evelyn evelyn: sad-ist made this a tommy and tubbo song (as she should) so it’s validity on this playlist is questionable but folks used to compare it to wilbur and tommy’s relationship during the pogtopia arc and i think some points were made there

the execution of all things by rilo kiley: i’m so excited to get here because this was the first song i put on the playlist that i think really works and i thumb nailed an animatic for the last verse and november 16th so! i think it’s a good l’manburg song and the last verse has some good ghostbur lines (‘and lately you’re all alone with nothing left but sleep/but sleep never comes to you, it’s the guilt and forever wakefulness of the weak’)

i’m just your problem from adventure time: this ones a bit tricky since at is my favorite show of all time and i cannot detach this song from its in-show context very well but there is a very cool animatic with this song that landed it a spot on the playlist

man burning by josh ritter: almost became an animatic but the audio i wanted to use (which i recorded at a josh ritter concert and it’s just him and his guitar and there’s echo and it’s very haunting and pretty) has my stepbrother singing in the background and i could not edit it out so. that will probably not happen. but anyways the only hole i would pick in this song is that it’s mostly about self sabotage which isn’t really applicable but i think the imagery is cool

mamma mia by abba: here me out. here me out. this is another song that fits so well and i have spent so many hours thinking about this and somewhere there is a note on my phone explaining how every single line relates to c!wilbur’s entire arc from founding l’manburg to the resurrection (made when we thought gbur was going to get resurrected in january) and just. the metaphorical ‘you’ is l’manburg does this make any sense (another almost animatic except now that wilbur’s actually back it might become an actual animatic)

the other side of paradise by glass animals: no idea why this is here other than being a Dream SMP Song. it’s good tho

infinitesimal by mother mother: they saaaaay it stared with a big bang but they saaaaaaaay it came out of a small thing latelyyyyy i’ve been feeling like a big bang You Know

curses by the crane wives: had a thing drawn out for this song showing the comparisons between c!wilbur and c!niki because of the chorus and i think the last two lyrics of said chorus are the best thing about this one

lonely eyes by the front bottoms: gotta admit that i have no idea how this song got on here but i’ve come to associate it with ghostbur based on vibes alone. it’s a friendly song he’s a friendly ghost it works. the other tfb song coming up fits a bit better methinks

king of new orleans by better than ezra: not to put better than ezra on my c!wilbur playlist but like. something about the whole ‘tasing something up to let it fall’ motif makes me think

get me away from here, i’m dying by belle and sebastian: another almost animatic song (there’s a trend here). not only does the story told in this song work i like the lines ‘play me a song to set me free/nobody writes them like they used to so it may as well be me’ in relation to my l’manburg

montgomery forever by the front bottoms: certain bits and pieces of this song fit so well, specifically the chorus and those bits in the last two choruses Yeah (’montgomery forever and ever and ever and now they’re blowing it up/(x2)/as you started laughing and crying and trying to explain how all you want to do is leave’)

don’t look back in anger by oasis: out of all my almost animatic songs, this one got the furthest. the animatic, which I got pretty far in thumbnailing, was about wilbur and tommy and kind of drawing comparisons between their characters, also about the revolution in general. maybe i’ll finish that animatic one day idk

snow by ricky montgomery: i wish i had a link for this so bad but!! saw art on twitter!! with the lyric ‘bury me six feet in snow’!! and went ahfsdjfk!!

burning pile by mother mother: a Dream SMP Song. also a jam there’s no real specific connection for this one but i think it could fit in a couple of ways

rounds by the oh hellos: in the same position as snow except it was on tumblr..... @ whoever made this comic i saw these lyrics in your brain is massive and your art is incredible

lovely by mt. eddy: on here for vibes alone. there’s something in the lyrical content too, but my thoughts in that regard are not very fleshed out

adventures in solitude by the new pornographers: ah yes..... the song that prompted this all...... this is a beautiful and incredibly well written song and if you’re going to listen to any song off of this playlist i’d encourage you to listen to this one. it’s place of here is mostly cause of the chorus but the imagery in the verses could all represent a part of c!wilbur and i’d love to explore that more

caught in the middle by paramore: obligatory paramore song. i think it got on here because limbo = ‘middle’ but i’m not quite sure. on the verge of being deleted if i can find a better pmore song

delicate by damien rice: one of the oddest songs on this list and i am well aware that it sticks out like a sore thumb. a song that’s on here pretty much because of one lyric, which is ‘and why’d you sing hallelujah/if it means nothing to you’ which i related to both eret’s betrayal and how my l’manburg is hallelujah yknow

bang! by ajr: almost animatic song. i think we all know what the bang is here

somewhere only we know by lily allen: ik i said don’t look back in anger has the most potential to get made into an animatic but this song might actually take it place. on par with adventures in solitude in terms of how pretty of a song it is, and probably even moreso. it’s kind of turned into a ghostbur song in my head, and makes me cry like an infant child every time i hear it

a pearl by mitski: i cannot defend this song’s place on here past the line ‘it’s just that i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended’

eight by sleeping at last: the official c!wilbur song needs a spot on here <3 if i can dig up the clip of cc!wilbur talking about this song in relation to his character i’ll add it but until then yeah <3

always by rilo kiley: no idea why this is on here but it fits well!! could not tell you why!! banger!!

celebration guns by stars: it’s a hauntingly beautiful song about war, and kind of one of those that necessarily isn’t about wilbur but moreso his place in the story? idk how to explain it but yes

passerine by the oh hellos: it’s. it’s from the . the fic. yeah h

oh, you are the roots that sleep beneath my feet and hold the earth in place by bright eyes: added this after the real resurrection and i think it’s because fo the imagery? also the last verse

we are beautiful, we are doomed by los campesinos!: all i have to say is ‘i cannot emphasize enough that my body/is a badly designed, poorly put together vessel/harboring these diminishing, so called vital organs/i hope my heart goes first, i hope my heart goes first!’ has always made me think of pogtopia era wilbur :(

dead weight by jack stauber: no real connection other than eret played this song during a break during the ghostbur’s january ‘resurrection’ and i heard it and went :0

point me at lost lands by tired pony: gives me season on l’manburg vibes..... i love how free and passionate it sounds and that's p much the only reason it’s on this list haha

ghosting by mother mother: added this five seconds ago because i could not BELIEVE it was not on here. ghostbur song. mans sang it on that one stream with the reverb and everything. the lyrics ‘i will be kind and i’ll be sweet/if you stop staring straight through me’ hit particularly hard back when everyone thought that ghostbur was actually wilbur in disguise

#oh man. oh man #this was so fun ty anon #i'll do some spell checking after i write my english paper but for now take this #wooo boy #also if i interpreted canon wrong i do apologize i am here to have fun and think about fictional character #anon #ask

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