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chat. dad!leon with a cute lil baby he calls 'bug' because she loves spending time in the garden and always shows him whatever critters she's managed to scavenge...
#she comes inside with a worm wriggling in her hands and he's like âoh! okay!â#or he finds her out in the garden in the dirt playing with little pill bugs#oh im gonna go mental im im GONNA EXPLODE#amber shut up#not writing#my wip list is so LONG i dont know what to DO.#leon kennedy x reader#dad!leon#yeah im gonna write this its so over
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the place me and my roommate were supposed to move into today was so disgusting and uninhabitable we just took our stuff and left and now we're gonna be staying at airbnbs and hotels until further notice/until we can find a new place hopefully quickly...........im in my homeless drifter era y'all!!!đđso if im not as active then thats why LMFAO
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#bro was literally trying to rent us a silent hill apartment#we already paid first and last too which was 2700k and he said hes not gonna refund us EVEN THO WE DIDNT EVEN MOVE IN!!#like first month i get BUT NOT EVEN THE SECOND MONTH?? all landlords go to hell#looking back at the og listing like.....yeah i can see why he never took pics of the outside......literally looks like a landfillđ#we're SO LUCKY that uhaul allowed us to keep our things stored with them bc if they insisted on our shit still being dropped off#we woulda been so screwed/forced to move in and then would have had to hire ANOTHER uhaul to move back OUT lol#AND I HATE MOVING the idea of unloading all of our stuff just to pack it again literally makes me wanna perish#but even tho i may be a homeless drifter rn that wont stop me from also working on my oneshot between searching for placesđ#the oneshot has a smut scene at the beginning LMAO and smut takes me forever to write so id been putting it off#but now that im over that hump (pun intended) i think ill be faster now brrrrrrrrrrr 9k words so far#its probs gonna be like 40k LMFAO maybe longer... idek#but also ill be hella busy trying to find a home so LMFAO who knows...chat im so fucking TIREDDDDDđ§ââď¸đ§ââď¸#my moms trying to see if she can fight him and get our money back but it aint lookin good bros#if i randomly open commissions then youll also know why LMAO
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kissing lighterâs scars while laying in bed together.. thoughts?
yes. the biggest reason i donât write it is because i literally am in love with wriothesley and itâs like the exact same concept so i donât know whether to write for lighter or wrio. BUT SINCE THIS IS AN ASK, I SHALL DELIVERRR !!
lighter doesnât get many scars now compared to his time in those underground fighting rings. he doesnât even show them off, choosing to be almost fully covered up. so on one particularly warm night in blazewood, he couldnât handle the heat and took off his top, the scars now on full display.
i donât think he particularly wants to acknowledge it either as it is a past he seems to want to depart from. however, the way your eyes follow its shapes, itâs clear that youâve got something more on your mind.
âwhyâre you staring like that?�� he was one to be rather straight to the point, clearly speaking his thoughts out without filtering them first. his smooth voice cut through your train of thought as he makes his way to you on the bed.
âhm? oh, youâve got a lot more scars than i imagined,â you say so nonchalantly, a light blush on his face now. youâve imagined this before? youâve imagined him and his body before? he canât help but smirk to himself after knowing that. he gets under the sheets, letting the blanket loosely cover him due to the warmth.
you got a little closer to him. it was becoming difficult for him to tell whether his body was feeling hot from the weather, the blanket or from you. your hands gently traced the edge of his scar on his shoulder, sending light shivers up his spine.
âcan i kiss them?â your voice was so soft but it didnât negate the fact that his eyes were wide from hearing you ask that. he stuttered, trying to give a response but words couldnât come out and instead just nods to you.
he could feel your breath on his skin, warm and ticklish. it wasnât before long that youâd begin placing small kisses along the scar. if he wasnât blushing before this, he was definitely all red in the face now. ârelax, iâm not going to bite you.â you tell him with a smirk on your face, knowing that he was getting a little tense. he could barely think of any words to say and even if he did, theyâd make no sense at all.
since he has made it clear previously that he doesnât want to talk much about his past, you decide to not ask him about it. instead, letting your kisses do the talking for you, reminding him that you still love him despite everything he has been through.
#lumiresponds Ëâ§âââ#lighter zzz#lighter lorenz#zzz lighter#lighter x reader#lighter x gn reader#lighter x you#zenless zone zero lighter#lighter zenless zone zero#I HATE WRITING DIALOGUE !!#its not much but i feel like itâs bad#idk am i just worrying over nothting ??#anyways YES MHM ANON#I LOVE THIS THOUGHT SO BAD YOU DONT UNDERSTAND#im going to kiss him stupid too#from his scars to his face yeah#sorry i need him i desire him carnally#slowly this was gonna turn a little different#but then remembered i had to keep it sfw LMAO#oughh lighterâŚâŚâŚâŚ.#SOON EVERYONE SOON YIPPEEEE
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I need people to realize how horrible 'stalking/constant surveillance/breaking into each other's homes is how the Batfamily show love' is. Like i really need someone to just acknowledge how horrific saying this bullshit is.
Like even fics where they're shown as happy and healthy and with good ties, you've always got this thing where none of them have privacy or any boundaries with each other. Which is directly antithetical to actually having good relationships. And this invasion via hacking and stalking and breaking into homes is portrayed as a positive, good thing; it's just how they show love and care to each other, after all. But for some reason I just personally don't find stalking, lack of privacy or boundaries, and emotional manipulation funny, endearing, or healthy, and just end up disgusted at the attempt to sweep it all under the rug.
#my dc posting#dc#batman#batfamily#jason todd#barbara gordon#bruce wayne#dick grayson#tim drake#damian wayne#listen i can only take so much of it before i just breakdown okay#apparently controversial opinion but a family where its normal to vreak into each others homes and manipulate each other and stalk and#invade boundaries and autonomy and privacy can NOT be healthy#no matter how much you try to dress it up all cute w 'this is just how they are' 'its how they show their love' its never not gonna be#unhealthy and bad and toxic#like yeah they do do that. they are like that. either acknowledge it or stop trying to justify it#god this actually irks me so much#i try to idk. suspend my disblief but theres only so much i can actuallt fucking take before just#its just. im trying to read happy fluffy fics. but i cant be comforted by a family that normalizes breaking boundaries n invading privacy#and its specifically that the author aleays disregards it. instead of fixing it or making it better they opt to keep it and come up w excuse#s for it#and thats what actually triggers me#'i broke into ur house cus if i asked if i could come over ud say no' is actuallt fucking horrifying stop trying to make it seem loving???#im writing this while having a panic attack dont mind me đ#but its like. if you can write the batfam w/o bruce hitting his kids or any other horrific thing that they do#then why must you keep the boundary&privacy breaking? why cant anyone even seemingly try to write a batfam#where theyve worked their issues abt this out best they can n have healthy established boundaries w each other??#like if u can write them all hanging out together 24/7 n bruce being s good dad why is this one simple thing the One Thing#nobody even tries to address properly???#'aw dick broke into jason's saehouse bc he wanted to hangout but jason would say no if he asked' aw. maybe dick should learn 'no means no'
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why do they do this and can they stop it please
#im gonna puke theyre so gross#ewwwwwww ew ew ew#can they fuck off i hate them so much#ship so ass i have to kill myself#hold on guys wait phone call#ok yeah theyre putting me down tommorow#clawing at my own face gnawing on the bars of my enclosure Guys im so OKAY !!!!!!!! im good !!!!!!#the mere sight of them makes me want to retch#its fucked up that they let this happen. why#jello shut up challenge#bill and ted#bad movies awful fucking movies. horrible characters fhe whole things shit#im like actually shaking#coughs up blood hey gusy hey#hi. passes out and hits my head on the corner of a conviniently placed table and dies instantly#i need to go like shake something really hard or something like actually theyve fucked up my brain to a concerning degree#whyd couldnt my autism hyperfixate on learning how to cook what the fuck is this#AAAGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??;;;_!â?$!!$!$!!?#kay im normal now i think#just btw ive spent like 20 minutes writing and deleting tags im. hhwwwhghh#twirling my hair kicking my feet im sooooooooo normal hahahha#ignore the laser pointed at my head. dont look at the sniper on that hill over there im normal im good !!!!!#hm. well i gues s the hyperfixation isnt dying thats good
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got asked to draw two of my old wc rp ocs :-) left is cicadahop, right is scallopstar
#my art#wc oc#squints. its been a dogs age since ive posted anything wc oc related#oc#BUT YA!!!! these guys are old. i think i made cicadahop 2018-2019 but i could be wrong/i have no way of checking haha#and scallopstar was made 2020.? i think? both are vaaastly different#if i were to play them today i think id keep a lot of things the same for cicada. shes just a silly girl who wants to make friends and#and be kind. as for scallopstar. i think id change a lot#one reason: ive gotten a lot better (I HOPE) with storytelling now that ive been playing dnd for a well over a year#and since i also run two different campaigns. two: i have more experience writing a character with an arc that turns them into a villain#three: i was really going through it at the time so. erm. LMFAO plus i was like 16 so ANDKJFGNJDFHBGJH#but yeah!!! kinda crazy looking at my old art and seeing how much ive improved#also a weird feeling to draw them again but not a Bad weird feeling. been doing a lot of reminiscing#thank god we can copy/paste tags bc if i had to rewrite this all id be so sad HAHA#the crop was weird so i wanted to fix it before it was too late lol#since these 2 are ocs im not gonna indicate this was a request the same way i will with the other requests lol
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Buddie unintentional cuddles can power me through a whole week, so the prompt 3. Person A waking up to Person B curled up and sleeping on top of them really spoke to me <3
hiya thank u frida and @colonoscopys for sendin this one in (and an anon too!!!) very much distracted me from my wisdom tooth woes. i need to add a disclaimer that this is NOT kink itâs just sleepy drunkenness please trust me lol (rated t even!!!! not horny!!!!!!! just unbelievably stupid!!!!)
bed-sharing prompts: person A waking up to person B curled up and sleeping on top of them
put on a slow dumb show for you | 2.2k | read under cut or on ao3
Buck wakes with the same unshiftable heaviness on his chest that he gets mid-panic attack. Exceptâhis body is incredibly confused, because while the physical pressure is bearing down, making breathing a struggle, every other cell in his body is telling him the opposite: no reason to panic, heâs warm and swaddled and safer than heâs ever been.
His brain scrambles to organise this juxtaposition of sensations. The room is dark, and not unfamiliar, even if heâs spent the night in here less than a handful of times. Eddieâs digital alarm clock is blinking at him, and Eddieâs recently mounted dĂŠcor of three framed photographs on the far wall is facing him, and Eddieâs entire fucking body is draped over Buckâs and crushing the breath out of him.
Oh. Okay. The second half of his cells were right, thenâheâs safe. His heart can stop racing now. And it does, a bit.
But his brain keeps reaching for puzzle pieces, laying them out for assessment before him. His mouth tastes like he licked the bottom of a public trash can, and thereâs a sharp twinge behind his temple, and he feels more than a little nauseous.
Thatâll be the last five tequila shots Ravi pressed into his hands pre-karaoke. Eddieâd just stumbled off stage, arm-in-arm with Karen, fresh off a Youâre Still The One duet that had Karen sniffling half-way through and making grabby-hands at an amused but equally-smitten Hen. Buck had only enough time to whoop as Eddie curtsied dramatically before they were calling his name.
Buckâs good at a lot of things, but singing is not one of them. Heâd whined and stammered and straight-up crawled under the table before Ravi, sweet, evil Ravi, had ducked down to join him with a tray of shots. After that isâa bit of a blur, to be honest. There was some Carly Rae Jepsen, maybe? He remembers sliding back into their booth next to Eddie and watching the rest of their friends be disgustingly romantic.
That, coupled with the best friend heâs a little unbearably in love with singing the most hopeful love song ever written, is just a recipe for Buckâs heart to get a little messy. And maybe it made him bolder with his affection than usual? Clingier, anyway. He mustâve been pretty needy for Eddie to let him crash in his bed. But Eddieâs always making sure Buck has what he needs, so that isnât anything new. And Eddie mustâve been pretty wasted too, if this total lack of personal space is any indication.
Buck doesnât think Eddieâll mind waking up like thisâa perk of having a physically affectionate straight best friend is that heâs mostly oblivious to a classic no homo situation. He breathes deep, weight on top of him grounding instead of suffocating, lets himself tentatively wrap an arm around Eddie to hold him steady as his chest rises with the depth of his inhale, and closes his eyes again.
Except Eddie snuffles and shifts and then jams his knee directly into Buckâs bladder. After the drinks he put away tonight? Buckâs dangerously full bladder.
âFuck,â he squeaks, desperately trying to shift Eddie to the side. âOhâfuck.â He clenchesâeverything, really, because heâs too old to wet the bed and too fond of the life he has to wet Eddieâs bed, as the aftermath of that really only involves fleeing the country.
In the end, fear of that outweighs any qualms he has about waking a peacefully slumbering Eddie, and he all but shoves him off, gasping a breath of relief when Eddieâs weight shifts from his bladder to his thighs.
âWhuâwhat?â Eddie slurs, scrambling up with a pinched expression. âBuck? Whatâs wrong?â He sits up clumsily, straddling Buckâs thighs.
âNothing,â Buck says, voice strained. âSorry, Iâm sorry, justâreally need to piss. AndâŚâ He gestures uselessly between them, face contorted in apology.
âOh,â Eddie frowns. âOkay. Cool.â
âCool,â Buck echoes, feeling hysterical. âUm, Iâm gonnaâŚâ He tries to tug his legs free from under Eddie and Eddie clambers off obligingly.
Buck swings himself out of bed and hurries down the hall to the bathroom, cursing himself for everything from waking Eddie to ruining what couldâve been the cuddle session of his dreams to going and fucking falling in love with his best friend in the first place.
He lets the door swing shut behind him and absentmindedly lifts the toilet seat, shoving a hand into his boxers and then just about leaping a foot in the air when the door squeaks open again and Eddie shuffles over to stand behind him, resting his chin on Buckâs shoulder.
âUm,â Buck says, feeling dizzy for reasons that are only partly alcohol related. âUh.â
âDâyou need a hand?â Eddie asks sleepily.
Buck laughs nervously, frozen facing the wall with his hand down his boxers. âUh. What?â
Eddie yawns, muffling the back-half of it into Buckâs shoulder and crowding closer, plastering himself along Buckâs back. Does Buck have alcohol poisoning? Is this the tequila version of an absinthe hallucination?
âDâyou need me to hold it?â Eddie clarifies, nuzzling Buckâs shoulder gently.
Buck chokes on his own spit, body buckling as he pulls his hand out his underwear to thump his own chest. No, he skipped straight past the alcohol poisoning, heâs dead, not even a coma could dream this up.
Eddie steps back, frowning in concern when Buck finally spins to face him, eyes wide. His whole body is taut, stark contrast to the sleepy slump of Eddieâs shoulders.
âDo Iâwhat?â he manages.
âSorry, I wasnât, like, trying to baby you,â Eddie says, looking unsure. âBut after earlierââ
âEarlier,â Buck echoes. Eddieâs gaze has dropped to south of Buckâs navel, where his boxers have rucked up enough to leave a considerable amount of his happy trail on display. He yanks the waistband up quickly, and Eddieâs head snaps up too, cheeks dusted pink. Then his face, his perfect, beautiful face, falls.
âWait, Buckâdo you not remember? After karaoke?â he asks, taking a step back. âOh, IâI didnât think you were that drunk.â
âI wasnât,â Buck insists, racking his brain, and oh.
The tequila-soaked memory swims up, Buck desperate for the toilet and stubborn about being able to get there himself, despite tripping over his stupid Bambi legs not two steps from their table. Eddie laughing and slinging an arm around him, half-carrying him to the menâs room. Buck standing in front of the urinal, frowning and arms flopping helplessly at his sides.
âEddie,â heâd whined. âMy hands arenât working.â
Eddieâd laughed again, fond and warm, and asked if he wanted to sit in a stall.
âNo,â Buck had pouted. âMy zipâŚâ Heâd turned to Eddie, lopsided grin and beseeching eyes, and Eddieâd shaken his head and come to stand behind him. Heâd undone Buckâs zipper and asked, âAlright?â and Buck had pouted some more.
âCan you help?â heâd asked, mortifyingly pathetic. Eddieâd raised an eyebrow and snorted, and then Buck had said, âEddieee. These are my nice jeans. My hands donât work. Your hands are perfect.â
Eddieâd muttered, âMight as well happen like this,â and slipped a hand into Buckâs jeans andâah. Held his dick while he peed.
âOh,â Buck says now, voice small. âFuck, Eds, Iâm sorry.â
Eddie narrows his eyes, somewhat blearily. âWhy? I wouldnât have if I didnât want to.â
âYeah, but I knowâI donât think weâre on the same page. I donâtââ Buck closes his eyes and presses the heels of his palms into them. âI donât think it meant the same thing for us.â
âOh,â Eddieâs face is suddenly unreadable. He crosses his arms over his chest and takes another step back. Buck wants to cry. He basically tricked his best friend into touching himâdoesnât matter if Eddie did it platonically, because drunk or not, genuinely needing help to piss or not, Buckâs pretty sure his own intentions were not all that innocent.
âIâm so sorry, Eds,â he says. âI was drunk as hellâthatâs not an excuse, but it wonât happen again. IâIâll be better at keeping it to myself. The last thing I ever want is to make you feel uncomfortable around me.â
Something passes over Eddieâs face. âWait,â he says slowly, âyou asked me to hold your dick as friends?â Thereâs an uncertain lilt to the question, like he truly doesnât know what the answer is anymore.
âUh,â Buck says. He could use the confusion to wrestle the cat back into the bag and then ship said bag one-way to Nicaragua, but Eddieâs looking a little lost, arms crossed in his black vest and boxers and mismatched socks. Buck canât be the cause of that. âNo. Iâm sorry. I wasnâtâI swear I wasnât trying to trick you. I was just really drunk.â
âOkay,â Eddie says, stepping forward again and reaching out to tug Buck in by the hem of his t-shirt. âWhatâs the problem then?â He slides a warm hand under Buckâs shirt, smoothing it across his skin.
Buck inhales sharply, blood rushing to his brain and cheeks and cock so quickly he reaches for the porcelain toilet tank behind him to steady himself. âW-wait. Were you holding my dick as friends?��
Eddie blinks at him, disbelief slowly overtaking the slack sleepiness of his facial muscles. âYou thoughtâis that generally something your friends do for you?â
âNo, butâŚâ Buck falters. âWhyâwhy did you, then? Why else would youâŚâ
âI was holding your dick because I want to kiss it,â Eddie snaps, and then claps a hand over his mouth, eyes wide and horrified. âI want to kiss you,â he amends. âYou, not yourâI mean, sure, that too, but. Can you say something.â
The many million times Buck has daydreamed and fantasised and wished for this, heâs never anticipated fuzzy patches in his memory of it. But these things are clear: waking up with Eddie plastered to him like he wants to touch Buck at every possible point, Eddie following him in here unprompted and pressing up against him with unchecked affection, because even in his sleepy state Eddie just wants to make sure Buck has what he needs, even if what he needs is help holding his dick in a context thatâs soft and sleepy and miles from sexual.
âYou came in here to hold my dick,â he says, grin spreading.
Eddieâs cheeks are so rosy, rosier than theyâd been with the flush of alcohol, even. âI came in here because I didnât want your uncoordinated drunk ass pissing all over my bathroom.â
âAw, Eds, you romantic,â Buck says, stepping closer. Eddie sighs exasperatedly, tilting his face up expectantly anyway. But, ohâ
âDid we kiss already?â Buck asks, heart dropping. âDo I not remember?â
Eddie brings up one large palm to rub Buckâs sternum gently. âNah. Didnât seem like the right time. I kindaâI wanted to do that not-drunk.â
âOh,â Buck says, sagging with relief. âGood.â Eddie gives him a sleepy, wonky smile, and Buck says, âIâm not drunk now.â
Eddie huffs a laugh, stepping back and patting Buckâs chest. âNope, just hungover and harbouring the most toxic tequila-flavoured morning breath anyoneâs ever had.â
âDonât forget desperate to pee,â Buck grins. âYou gonna help a guy out?â He flaps his arms limply, batting his lashes at Eddie.
Eddie grumbles unintelligibly, lips twitching with amusement as he bodily rearranges Buck to face the toilet again. Buck melts back into the cradle of his arms, safe and sleepy and sated enough that his dick doesnât do any more than he needs it to right now, even with Eddieâs warm hand wrapped around it.
They stumble back to bed, Buck belatedly remembering heâs not washed his hands but deciding not to care if Eddie doesnât, and when Buck flops down, Eddieâs right back on top of him.
Buck wheezes as the breathâs punched out of his lungs, and it becomes a laugh, and this time he wraps both arms firmly around Eddie to hold him tight. Eddie exhales into the crook of his neck, breath hot and a little gross, and then lifts his head to press a close-mouthed kiss to the corner of Buckâs lips.
âThis one doesnât count,â he murmurs against Buckâs cheek. âI just canât believe you thought I wanted to hold your dick as friends, so. Itâs an almost-kiss. An IOU. Tomorrow Iâm gonna kiss you till one of us passes out. Not as friends.â
âAs enemies,â Buck whispers solemnly and then grunts when Eddie digs an elbow into his ribs. âAs anything you want, sâlong as I can keep the kissing and the dick-holding andâthis.â He tightens his arms around Eddie, feeling his chest reverberate against Buckâs as he laughs.
âDeal,â he agrees, nestling closer, messy hair getting in Buckâs mouth as he shifts. âBut just so you know what I wantâand I donât mean to skip aheadâthough I guess weâre doing the regular dating bases all out of order anywayââ He sighs, deep and satisfied as he gets comfortable, and says, âIâm ready to have and to dick-hold you every day of the week, you know?â
Buck didnât know, but now he does, and in eleven monthsâ time when he and Eddie are saying these words in front of their friends and family, sans penis, not one single person can blame him for lurching forward and kissing the adoring smirk off Eddieâs face miles before poor ordained Bobby gives him the go-ahead. Doing true love in order is overrated, anyway.
#911 fic#buddie fic#this might be the silliest thing ive ever written im so sorry frida and rain#911#buddie#i was gonna say i have no defense for this bc the only painkillers iâm on are ibuprofen and paracetamol#but turns out iâve had a fever all afternoon so letâs conveniently blame cognitive impairment for whatever this is yeah#writing tag#im posting it to ao3 because its over 2k but like. perhaps it shouldnt be immortalised over there.#bed sharing prompts#mine
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#PHEWWWW HI GANG#im writing this via tumblr web so bear with me but i hope everyoneâs 2025 has started off well so far !!!!!! a lot has happened on my end#(the good and the bad but we are thugging it out!)#iâve received very wholesome messages from my lovely moots which iâve taken a sneak peek of and will be replying to when i get the time !!#anywho! i donât know when iâll be back on here bc my creative juices have been DRAINED so yeah :C i didnât wanna leave completely so i#archived my acc for a bit while i sort things out :3 â my reason for doing so is mixed really. more on losing motivation and just basically#stuff to worry about irl BUUUUT i missed you all so much and me being here and making a post means its kinda getting better on my end so ya#prob not relevant but iâll enable my asks again if anyone wants to leave anything so that i can come back to it again when i log on sjdnksj#also also iâve been watching âthe apothecary diariesâ s2 and its so amazing !! i also started âa sign of affectionâ and let me tell you how#much i was kicking and rolling around my bed KSNDKSJ#gaming-wise i recently pulled for c0 arlecchino but lost her weapon to clorindeâs weapon đđđź but shes amazing and i love her gameplay sm!#AND AND OMG LADS.??. WELCOME BACK CALEBBBBBB OMGGG i havent done the main story yet but iâm excited !! i know ppl have mixed feelings over#him and his actions but hes so up my alley so ik im gonna be eating it up hehe. i did manage to pull for his standard 5 star which is#exciting too !!! anyway i want to try and get back into writing again because my mind has been brewing yet another heavy chrollo angst đ˝#(i love putting my husband through grief)#or maybe iâll start w finishing off a couple of loose ends from the fics i never finished đ (iâm so sorry)#welp thatâs all from me !! i love u all <3
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just finished reading dungeon meshi (I will never recover) so take some sleepy thistle panels I collected
#im gonna read golden kamuy next#it was what i was reading before i got side tracked with dm but i was only on like chapters 20 something#and a mangaka i rlly like has made alot of art for it and i trust them to have good taste in stuff#plus the arts pretty and i wanna understand it better#so im getting ready for a whopping 314 chapter read#if i finish all of it that will beat my current record of longest manga ive read (rn its beastars w/ 196 chapters)#so yeah im excited but also...#i have a feeling i will not be getting over dm anytime soon#ESPECIALLY thistle's character. my heart#broke#a little learning more about him#and all the theories of what he might represent and symbolise... sigj#its such a good manga. its got a good balance of silly/serious/tense and lowkey horrifying moments#and the characters . oh the characters#PEAK character writing dare i say#actually insane stuff#100% recommend#ill stop rambling now bye byeee#thistle dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers
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đ and đż for the ask game!
hello thank you so much for this forest fairy themed ask đĽ°
[from this ask game]
đ ⢠share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings
but how funny would it be if i shared like a codywan or anidala headcanon here
just kidding there's no pretending im not a one ship bitch lmao here is a headcanon for obikin i have: obi-wan is very bad at giving gifts and anakin is very good at giving gifts - and obi-wan feels bad initially when he gets a gift from anakin because of immediate jedi-flavored guilt and obi-wan flavored neurosis but he loves him enough that the happiness wins out over the shame & anakin loves obi-wan enough that any gift from him is immediately like 10/10 amazing. won't shut up about it for weeks. padmĂŠ is tidying up their bedroom and throws away a pile of junk and anakin almost divorces her because that was a gift from his master >:( yeah maybe it was a "hazard" but it was obi-wan's hazard that he made to give to anakin >:(
đż ⢠give some advice on writer's block and low creativity
ok this is fun especially because i feel like im dealing with this rn so let's see if i can figure out a way to take my own advice lmao BUT the number one rule i think is to not force it. if you start forcing it then it just feels bad. and even when my writing is objectively bad, as long as i'm having fun then i don't feel bad, which makes the whole thing fun and a net positive...but if i'm sitting staring at a blank word doc and trying to make myself write then im not gonna like what comes out and i'm not gonna like the process or how i feel after either
so take a walk instead, clean your place, take a shower, go to the gym, do a reading assignment, go to a coffeeshop with a book - anything but write. and for me, after enough time has passed, usually doing other things makes the words come easier when i find myself back in front of the blank page.
this can suck especially because i try to limit my writing times to a block of the day, but i've definitely also learned the importance of being fluid where possible - if the words aren't coming during my hour in the morning i set aside to write, then instead of forcing it i'll go to the gym first and take a shower (afternoon activities) and then i'll write in the afternoon instead. or i'll write while dinner is cooking if that's when the words are there. especially now that i have so much noncreative, academic writing i do as well as creative writing, i feel like i never want to force the creative writing. i'm spending so much time forcing the research writing parts already and the moment i start feeling like my fic writing is just a different flavor of my academic writing, i'll get burned out for sure
#asks#so yeah to get over writers block just work with your writers block#i think that works for me a lot because im not like really a writer#i know writers who say to just write through it#but that's cause theyre published authors and thats their job#but its my hobby#so if my brain doesnt want to do the hobby today then thats ok#we'll try again later#i would never force myself to knit a scarf if i hated every second of it and wasn't in the mood and it wasn't a gift for someone#im not gonna force myself to write for the same principles
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Day 5: Photography/Makeup
Stained Lips, Stained Cheek (1.9k words)
Lights, visuals and music were all clear, all that was left for Esora to do was her makeup. She liked everything about their pre-show rituals backstage, especially since she and Yuka started dating. Kyoko and Shinobu would squabble, Esora would tease them and Yuka made sure to capture anything embarrassing. Another thing she liked was how much Yuka was able to be affectionate, even if they both get embarrassed.
#crow's scribbles#crow's writing#d4dj#d4dj groovy mix#yukaeso#yukaeso week 2024#yuka jennifer sasago#esora shimizu#there is only 2 of my submissions where they're in a relationship which is. not as much as I wished lol#this is one of them.#the drawing is a bit messy and i have a few complaints w myself but im shutting my mouth from being negative. nuh uh.#their outfits are the d4fes remix ones bc i didnt want to make a whole new outfits for peaky only to not use 2 of them lol#a hidden supporter for yukaeso week (and me) is my older sibling. i wouldve cancelled yukaeso week many times before if it wasnt for them.#they gave me a lot of ideas for yukaeso week so PLEASE thank them. theyre the reason you have the fics and drawings now.#im not gonna say other stuff here until its over but yeah. bye.!!
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stuck in an endless cycle of being annoyed about some of the stuff that was in the trailer and then i see how excited other people are and start thinking "well maybe some of the stuff that upset me could go in a different direction than im expecting. and there was still some cool stuff in there. maybe im overreacting or jumping to conclusions" and then i remember what exactly i was annoyed about and start thinking maybe i was right the first time and then i just kind of feel sad thinking about how excited i was over the first two movies compared to how ive been feeling about the more recent movieverse content and then i get frustrated with how it feels like im not allowed to express these feelings and opinions with how defensive some movie fans get and dismiss all criticism as needless hate regardless of who its coming from or what theyre saying and then i go Okay im normal now . until im reminded of the movie again
#i feel like i should probably stop thinking about the movie but its kinda hard not to wiht how everywhere it is right now lol#it doesnt help that a lot of the stuff that stuck out as not so great to me are things casual sonic fans and the average movie watchers#or people who only like the movies and not the games probably wouldnt care about . so obviously thyere gonna be glossed over a lot#and a lot of people will think anyone whos concerned about those things is just being nitpicky and sonic fans hate everything etc#but honestly my initial anger over some parts has died down a lot im just feeling more . empty i guess. than anything#and also with the whole ''things could go in a different direction than you expect'' thing. yeah thats true. that could happen#but a lot of the stuff i didnt particularly like is just stuff that im inherently not a fan of . like sonic working with gun#its just such a weird writing choice even if it turns out they betray him or are lying to him or something#and also some of the more optimistic takes im seeing are just . idk guys.#i dont think that actor who is already confirmed to be playing a human is secretly voicing rouge#i dont think gun is gonna be portrayed as evil for killing maria when we already know gun was formed AFTER maria died in this universe#sorry .#and this isnt even getting into issues with some of the people involved with the movie
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lowkey wanting to give mali a bit of a rebrand in terms of her personality. lowkey wondering what i want to do with her. highkey wanting to be here but the muse is not cooperating ( nor are my energy lvls in this heat. )
#* â Ę É â đđđ ⎠out of character. âŻ#( is this how i say that im back )#( yes )#( yes it is )#( or at least for a moment )#( im still on the quiet side )#( so much so that even my coworkers noticed which is like )#( so embarassing for me JHSAJHASJAS /hj )#( im always trying to put on my biggest :> persona at work so )#( lmao but yea going through it )#( still )#( dont need to elaborate but yeah thats still a thing )#( i might lurk over more on my multi.... )#( im rlly feeling daeng )#( and im also feeling mali but idk )#( i think its been my fault for writing her like a bland ass baked potato )#( like ye she is a bit inexpressive bUT ALSO SHE ISNT LIKE )#( ugh anyways thoughts are thinking )#( im gonna try to do smth )#( dunno what exactly but it will be smth )#( writing ffs in the meanwhile again ;; its been rlly nice )
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[full of turkey and deviled eggs, half asleep] I don't think this story is sad enough actually I think I have to make it worse
#my mom complained abt the ql ending again so i went off on a tangent on how good a reunion hug between al and sam would be#so now im âhm i touched on it a little in chapter 2 that his presence was comforting even if he couldnt touch but. make it Worse#just keep making these boys upset actuallyâ#cause when ur brain is filled with mourning for someone you want to hug your bestie but. what if the one person you most want to hug#cant. they can be there#they can be there and talk to you and hold your gaze and tell you a joke but they cant touch you#not even long distance the normal way. long distance in a way that a plane ticket cant fix#of course there are the homosexual undertones yes yes but the core denial of closeness is what im getting at#imo from how we see boy interact#sam is a physical person. he likes just gently touching his friends#he may not be like a giant hugger specifically but in the gentle baps on the head to just shoulder brushes and close talking#hes a physical person so the denial of that with his closest bud must be agony over time#anyway yeah im gonna make it sadder!!! its my mental illness i get to pick the sadness!!! whos gonna stop me!!!#and i will be writing him happy at the 4077th. as recompense.#and writing big bj and hawk and trapper and co holiday family happy time. it is good.#.yappin
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#i need to say this somewhere. like. tangible where people can see it and so im not alone or something#and i cant do it on twitter for reasons#and i cant do it on bluesky for reasons#and i cant really talk to anyone one on one for reasons#so i have this friend. and at first they were just really cool and funny but i shouldve fucking known better#because this happens to me so goddamn often#fell in love with them#because OF COURSE i did#but its almost impossible for us to be together. for reasons.#and at first i was okay with that and i still kind of am because having them as a friend is also amazing#like genuinely theyre a wonderful friend#but part of me also is in so much fucking pain over it like its starting to physically hurt me#im writing poetry abt this guy i made a playlist i made a pinterest board im fucking cooked#and every time i talk to him i feel like i fumbled it all#i havent yet i just have issues that convince me i did but so far we're still really close#i just overreact#im still so scared that one day theyre gonna go âactually youre a creep fucking weirdo and im not talking to you any moreâ im fucking#im so sure its gonna happen#theyre gonna notice eventually if they havent already#and then im really gonna be fucked#i just hope i dont annoy them as much as i fear i do and i hope they like talking to me as much as i like talking to them and#yeah#im kind of down bad#in the worst way
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once again i am being subjected to "educational courses on generative AI" (lengthy advertisements that the higher ups want us to watch so they can say that we are trained in AI)
#it's a contact year we need to show that we spend a lot of tiem not only maintaining this stuff but also learning and improving the produc#we provide#they never define what they mean by AI or how the AI actually works its driving me insane#whoah this adobe ai can generate an image for you and insert it into the image you have have without learning photoshop#yeah but HOW. where are these images being pulled from? what methods are used to produce this shit#HOLY SHIT: most programmers dont actually spend that much time programming. they actually spend a lot of time in meetings. helping coworker#reading emails. reading documentation. HELLO???? YES??? THOSE ARE NORMAL THINGS TO DO???#yes attending meetings is annoying but the solution is to fucking reduce the amount of meetings and ensuring that meetings are efficient#NOT TO ADD AI????#the stupid fucking AI building half ur code isnt gonna reduce the time spent looking at documentation!!!! u can't trust the AI to be accura#to be accurate so ur gonna have to go to the documentation anyway!!!#âu can just code not worrying about syntax blah blahâ so writing psuedocode??? doing a top down approach to get the big idea#and then write the little stuff later???#im so fucking livid this is SO DUMB#literally all the shit they mentioned in passing sounds actually useful instead of the generative AI bs#no i dont need a little guy to write my code for me#but a guy who checks my syntax? that suggests i look at a particular function from the library? that sounds useful!!!#âif i ask this thing how to do X it will tell me how with steps!â#Okay so will the documentation???? hello????#omfg this guy conviently skipped over the part where the AI gave a WRONG ANSWER#bro i can read the screen it did NOT accurately describe the game#âhave it generate the game for youâ the point of the little shit is to learn how to do stuff so you can apply it to the big shit#god im just so enraged#mr supervisor is this a good use of company resources?#you are billing t he client for ME learning ai bullshit#sir you having me sit through hours of learning the newest buzzword concepts. is this a good use of 8 hrs the client pays for me to be here#chit chat
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