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#the spirealm#xia zhiguang#huang junjie#feeling unwell#about how vulnerable lanzhu was here#also that look in his eyes?#and when lingling fed him the litchi?#yeah extremely unwell#i'm this close to opening ps to start giffing again
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That new Undertale newsletter has me feeling very normal today.
#I'm normal about it. in case you were wondering. super normal. what? yeah no i'm like. extremely normal about it.#well. perhaps I am feeling a little unwell. emotions jumpscare!! ahahahaha oughhhh#i really like the little gif of toriel at the beginning though#things i say
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I realize I haven't drawn these two interacting with each other DIRECTLY in years even though their mutual hate is the ONE piece of lore that hasn't been changed or edited in any way and used to be Ella's only lore for eons.
#lizard's art#creepypasta#laughing jack#laughing jack rewrite#ella greenwood#creepypasta oc#didn't draw it for the longest time bc I went to therapy and. Yeah I've explained it before lmao#however now I know how to draw these two for upsetting -horror- story reasons and not extremely mentally unwell 15 year old vent reasons
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extremely normal shit
#rhett and link#gmm 2431#yeah extremely normal shit#just two dudes at disney#with their baby carrier#once again:#the joy on rhett's face upon cuddling link makes me unwell
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actually I'm not done thinking about teru and ritsu's friendship. I think teru might be one of ritsu's first real friends. ritsu isn't like,, the most social kid in the universe, and I think he has plenty of superficial friends (see: "I talk about the weather with pretty much anyone") but I think the only real close friends he has are teru and shou. and I think it's bc both of them are people he met without his Perfectly Ordinary Middle Schooler mask. he has to fill the role of honor student, perfect son, doting brother, etc. all the time while ALSO trying to blend into the background and be inconspicuous, and that's part of why he lashed out like he did during the cleanup arc, but with teru and shou, his first encounter with both of them involved him being an arrogant little shit that's willing to pick fights, which contradicts the perfect kid act AND the perfectly ordinary middle schooler act, and is in fact much more honest bc he's not hiding this kind of nasty side to himself. and that honesty works out for him with these two! teru sees himself in ritsu because he's also kind of an arrogant little prick, and aside from initially trying (and succeeding) to intimidate him, teru looks out for him and risks his life trying to save him and they genuinely get along pretty well! and with shou, he sees that ritsu is willing to fight him on his own and he's like "oh you're fucking nuts, we need to be best friends now" and immediately respects him a lot just because he's not gonna run away from a fight he's certain to lose. idk, I just think it's important that ritsu's first real friends are ones who saw him in rather ugly circumstances and wanted to be friends with him anyway
#mp100#ritsu kageyama#I have. BRAIN WORMS.#if this seems extremely rambling it's bc I was forming these ideas as I wrote#idk I just think a lot about the bit with tokugawa where he's like ''I'm just a perfectly ordinary middle schooler''#and tokugawa says ''yeah those don't exist''#I feel like we acknowledge the fact that he had to fill the honor student/perfect son role a lot#but he ALSO had to try and blend into the background (which tokugawa attributes to him acting like his brother)#and I think an important part of his development is acknowledging these negative parts of his personality#like. he can be arrogant! and aggressive! and kind of a shithead!#but he's also a loyal friend and very brave and such a good brother#such a theme of this series (especially the final arc) is about being honest with and about yourself#and accepting both your flaws and the good parts of yourself#and I think it's important that teru and shou saw him at these low points for him#also!! I'm thinking about his fight with shou#and how there was no way he was gonna win against him but he fought him anyway#and then how that's repeated when he fights shimzaki to buy shou time#idk. he's a brave kid.#I am literally always thinking about ritsu. help me. I am unwell.
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#coroika#splatoon#splatoon inksona#splatoon oc#yeah#not much to say herejk hdaksd#sorry for putting squibby there twice shes just extremely mentally unwell#some xanax would fix her (and me probably)
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The Me who bought tickets to see TMBG in february 2023 and the Me who's going to actually go to the show next month are two completely different people
#slash extremely negative#it's funny to actually live this whole sort of cliche of: the time between buying tickets and going to the show can be so absurdly long#with what was supposed to be my 1st 'real' concert no less#'i bought the tickets as a teenager but i'm going to see them in my 20s etc' and stuff like that#and then when it gets rescheduled too... well. a year and 9 months is in fact a pretty long time!!!#and i'm not even talking about rescheduling due to covid because god at least i didn't have to deal with that i guess#(it IS funny though that by the time the 30th anniversary of flood tour ends#flood will be 2 months away from turning 35. so yeah lmao a lot happened in the meantime huh)#anyways day two of going crazy going insane for no reason other than well i guess that's just my life now!!!!! 😃😃😃#me when i say i'll stop documenting my rapidly progressing mental breakdown online and then keep doing it anyway#but idk maybe this will heal me in some way. my only hope rn no joke#and my mom actually seemed to be unsure if i we should book the hotels and stuff because. ig i'm this obviously unwell even over the phone#but BY GOD this is the only thing i can really look forward to right now i really need this to survive#(trying to forget how i was doing in september of last year when they rescheduled the tour#and i couldn't even be sure if i'd ever get to see them in the end lollllll#and at the heights of my tmbg obsession this was my number 1 dream. i mean it still is)#also i think i'm finally entering my tmbg autumn era now with some more frequent listening after not doing so for a while#how could i let myself pretty much forget that i love tmbg??? and that their music is so good and makes me happy???#they're still my fav band of all time just like they were back then. THAT didn't change at least#it's just that now they share that spot with sparks also lol. can't choose between them and why should i anyway#what else. ig i just hope i get the energy to finally draw tomorrow at least#because if i don't turn the ideas i have into reality then they will never become real! and that would be so sad#so maybe this can be my main reason to continue for now. whatever#goosepost
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decided to read up on the REAL Rimbaud and Verlaine. What the fuck. What the fuck. What the
#That was a. JOURNEY#so yes wow they were gay!!!!!!!! Verlaine shot Rimbaud!!!!!!!!! They were dysfunctional and toxic and ran away together to London and#YES THEY WERE GAY!!!!! BUT VERLAINE was 27#AND RIMBAUD WAS 16. Btw#btw#Verlaine also abandoned his 18 year old wife and newborn child. also#And then a few years later left Rimbaud alone in London. By the way. Whilst Rimbaud was still a teenager. Btw. Whilst they were#extremely poor. By the#Anyway yeah the parallels are oughhhghghg asagiri what the fuck#I’m ILL I’m UNWELL i#Time to devour the rimlaine tag on tumblr dot com
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I hope to be able to communicate. An emotional vibe
[Mirage 28, Story: Stephen Murphy, Pencils, Inks and Letters: Jim Lawson (as far as i can tell and so says the wiki). 1 page each by Eastman and Rich Veitch, not included]
[The style for this issue has a softer painterly look to the duoshade. All panels are horizontal across the width of the page.]
[ID from alt: Two panels, Leo leaning over to look at Raph, who's in profile and glaring slightly downwards. He asks "Care to talk about it?". Close on Raph's face, still not looking at Leo, he says "No." END ID]
ID from alt: 3 Panels. Casey leans over, gripping bridge trusses on either side of himself, asks "Hey bro', What's going down?" Raph's feet dangling over the edge of the bridge, its shadow cast on the water below. Raph says "The River... I suppose..." Close on Casey as he looks down skeptically "Um, Yeah. -- Hey, talk to me Raph. Really talk to me."
ID from alt: Three panels. Raph in profile, gazes down somberly, he says "Can't. You wouldn't understand. You're... You're human. You can't possible understand. Wide to all three of them, Casey has shuffled closer, one hand still on the truss. He says "Say what? I'm what? You can kiss off, Pal." Leo on the other side leans back a bit. "The what about me Raph? Why won't you tell me?". Close on Raph, annoyed now. "You're crowding me Leo, you're both crowding me. -- Don't crowd me." END
^gets sick every time i look at this one (HIGHEST OF COMPLIMENT)
ID from alt: Two panels. Close on April's hand. Holding a small turtle in its shell. Caption box "No... not this time, baby." Raph in the foreground, still upset. April and the other turtles sit along the bridge, all apart from Raph. April still holding the turtle, looks over to him. Caption box "When the hell will he simply accept all that's happened to him?" END
Second caption box references April's line in the 3 issue Raph got de-mutated arc. Which he spent the most time being looked after by her.
ID from alt: Two panels. Raph sitting with his back to his brothers, looking down and upset again. Wider shot shows everyone on a raft, the other turtles sitting and Casey pushing raft along at one end, Raph facing the rear, tense, observing the water. April sits between them, not facing either direction, observing Raph. END
ID from alt: Two panels, nighttime. The group sits around a camp fire, Casey standing to tell a story "-Like so much red white and blue Alpo. See, man, there was this..." Raph stands facing into the dark. Caption box: Raphael stood apart from the rest of us..." Wide of the landscape, moon reflecting on water, surrounded by trees and distant mountains. Caption box: "... And stared intently across the moonlit water." END
ID from alt: April and Raph trying to move an unconscious being, mostly humanoid with amphibious features, their three bodies lit against complete blackness. Raph holds her under the shoulders and says "You take her feet, I'll get her head." April kneels to hold her ankles and says "Thanks, Raph." END
ID from alt: Intricately detailed depiction of one of the aquatic beings while still in the egg, curled with its still developing limbs and large eyes. Caption boxes: I am conceived anew -- And as I grow -- I watch my people wither. END
ID from alt: Wide scene lit by the camp fire. April kneels with the beings head in her lap. Four more of the species approach her and the body. Casey stands back closer to the fire, and the turtles, even further back, towards the shore line. Caption box: They've lost her. END
ID from alt: 1. Two panels. Caption box: ... The only four of their species.... The turtles stand in line, Don, Mike, Leo and Raph, looking over the water, and the four remaining beings heads sink below the water. Caption box. "... just like-" The beings completely unseen now. Raph turns his head, looks behind them.
2. Two panels. Dramatic close up on Raph, looking back. The hint of pupil in the normally white eyes adds to the expressions intensity. Close on April meeting his gaze. Eyes wide with shock. She says a quite "-Omigod". END
ah. i was just gonna tag rant about this its getting way too long. oop
As i said earlier. this was ANOTHER ISSUE that was adapted into 03 during the Leo angst era. so they swapped Raph for Leo.
(NOT MAD ABT IT. i could go on a very long talk abt raph leo interchangeability and every time they've done that in adaptation, and why so many of the raph leo conflicts are about them being so so similar.
and how they are the person the other gets/gets them. and loss of that understanding due to separation or injury causes the blow ups.)
ANYWAY
03 didnt have the events that happened to raph that are referenced here anyway. those being. Raph almost being killed in a drive to solo kill the shredder (which... Leo Does btw) but more importantly admitting to Leo that he feels he has no control, that he cant think through his emotions.
And, again as mentioned, the de-mutation. It took him from weakened, to childlike, too deteriorating illness, until he's a particularly emotive large turtle, and then even less so to a normal smaller and smaller one. And this was caused by a very powerful being that thought he'd be happier that way, after feeling all the guys bask in the water, and be in awe of real baby turtles.
So these are the things he can't talk to Leo or Casey about. And this comic issue is one thats in the mode of "something written by april" like journal entries. And it wouldnt be clear cause i removed the CONTEXT lol. but that is her seeing a vision, from this dying being, of her [the being's] life and history, and its like. not pretty! not good things happening to the extincting amphibious humanoids.
So the lack of control, emotional and LITERAL, over his fate, his body, his being his mind? The things he cant tell his human best friend or his leader and brother. She goes through something impossible, she has no control, she fails at saving this being. And she sees it. And they see each other. And their is not a fix it at the end of that. She doesn't tell anyone else why she gets spooked. Everyone is just standing around each other in the moment, where its all not okay.
#some shit#turbles...#im so so so ill about this. positively unwell.#stephen muphy of the puma blues huh. you dont fucking say (<- extremely poetic indie com about humanity and enviroment)#was trying to let it speak for itself but yes also btw. the fish ppl. yeah listen.#DO YOU SEE. do you see. just motif. he looks to the water and she looks to him. HE LOOKS BACK?#i mean. and not to be biblical or greek classical or honestly. vonnegut-ian? but the way he turns around. to look at her. and how that is#often a thing that seals ppls fates. but it doesnt change his fate. its her. knowing it. in that moment.#it just lights my blood on fire and makes me so so so naw she ous. nauscious. nauseous.#LOVE. when i have to exit the tags for smth to long and. BRO. my syntax. my registre. it gets all different. literalllllly can not help it.#well. enjoy. i said more than i even meant and i meant to say a fair bit.#23-27 are for real for real. the weird comics deserts. there so left field and. need to be chewed on but not really always in a good way.#(i mean non as bad as... 18? the msg one.) so i was taking my tales of break and then. BOOM. this shit. ARGHHHHHH#wifi blogs mirage
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Whenever you post anything regarding the combaticons (and first aid) I get such a huge surge of dopamine ( ◜𖥦◝ ) thank you for sharing your work 💕
THANK YOU they are my special interest and i worry sometimes it’s too niche for the (checks blog and whimpers) three thousand and change followers this blog somehow has so i’m glad
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when I joined tumblr I was some stereotypical giddy lovesick schoolgirl twirling my hair/drawing hearts in my diary/etc about some guy in the 60s. well 7 years later and nothing has changed
#I'm EXTREMELY unwell i just#i#he is so#he#is#like literally#except this time not only was he born half a century before me and/or dead but he's fictional as well. to add insult to injury or whatever#i am sooooooooo ill and lightheaded#AND even worse i can't even go on a reblogging spree to cope because theRE'S NOTHING TO REBLOG on this whole website ahfbegehhhsejehegerhrh#ramble#oh yeah obviously this is about dennis tanner. again
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#yeah you know what#i'm never saying anything again#like it couldn't have been half an hour#after i tagged the last post 'i've never laughed so hard w a fic'#and boom.#part 22#like what the actual fuck#i've been extremely invested in this fic for the last thirty something hours while ignoring major life responsibilities#and now i'll have to wait until wednesday to have a clear enough head & time to continue#i am also quite very unwell#and this is one of the best things i have read#the shoebox project
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I'm a major supporter of the theory that people suffering from mental disorders aren't a minority in the slightest, it's just that people who can afford being diagnosed are.
Honestly, why would we think the majority of people are doing just fine in a world where over half the population can't even afford basic necessities such as food and clean water, let alone mental health diagnoses?
Not all countries have free healthcare and those that do are usually filled to the brim with mental health patients and people waiting for vacancies to open. Public health (in countries that have it) is entirely too understaffed and underfunded to deal with a mass influx of mentally ill people! But being unable to access healthcare doesn't mean you aren't ill, it just means you're neglected.
So, when someone says "there can't be so many people suffering from mental disorders out there", all I can hear is "I don't understand smack about how the world works and how inaccurate estimates can be and as such I'll parrot the very beliefs that lead to diagnostic biases and medical neglect of the poor like it's gospel"
Moreover, add the whole stigma mental illnesses and therapies still have amongst the general population and you'll have underdiagnoses even among those who actually can afford to get their mental health checked, which doesn't contribute to the stats in the slightest.
#diagnostic bias#misapplied statistics#you wouldn't believe just how many undiagnosed mentally unwell people you have around you#I'd take a wild guess and say a good 80% of people have some sort of mental illness or disorder to some degree#most of the time people just power it through and pretend everything is okay but... it's not#the system as a whole is extremely sickening! how can mental sanity thrive in it at all? (hint: it cannot)#so i wouldn't trust statistics all that much. we aren't a minority and i'm sure of it! in fact believing we are only feeds the stigmas.#just look at the sheer amount of people who smoke or drink or do other drugs and tell me if we as a species are okay? no we ain't!#a mentally healthy person wouldn't 'drink to drown their sorrows' because they wouldn't have sorrows that need to be drowned in first place#and the worst part is that there's probably not a single mental health specialist trying to do research on it#(and if there is they're definitely underfunded and unencouraged)#and remember: not actively seeking a doctor when you can doesn't mean you aren't ill it just means you're pretending to be invincible#'but neurodivergences aren't the same as mental illnesses' sure! but they still affect our lives and need special care#think about a neurodivergence like the mental health equivalent of a congenital illness: it's from birth but it still causes difficulties#so yeah going undiagnosed on neurodivergences isn't cool either
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I... finally finished rd and I want to cry???
#not gonna get too into it bc it's very weird and hard to explain#but i've been incredibly sick and unwell for almost a year (come december/january-ish) and i started por halfway through march i think ?#and it truly just clicked something into place in my brain and was one of the few things that brought my anxiety down during this past while#like all the specialists and treatment plans and medications and pain just kinda dulled a little bit when i would get home and be all like#okay. time for game :D#and it sounds so dumb and cringe but i genuinely don't care bc it helped get me through some truly awful days#it's just... it's been nice to have something that helps me so much especially considering I've also been extremely emotionally unstable too#but yeah#it's just been really nice to have these games and I'm sorta really sad it's over#o well. just gotta replay them soon lol#nqp#gabe rambles#gabe plays#fe#fe rd
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I think something is maybe broken in me. Not in a self loathing way but like. Broken bone except its my ability to engage with the things I love
#I can't play pokemon. I can't bring myself to draw. I can't be with our chickens. Writing is hard and I get very little from it#I think I'm losing grip with my rational thinking to a degree. I keep thinking I have to make something better that counts so I can have#Something worth Sacrificing and being able to sacrifice that would let me go back in time and fix everything. I want to fix things. Please#None of this is a joke btw im extremely unwell and grieving. Crisis mode has passed at least for now but it's not good#But yeah I don't think of it like I'm a broken or worse person I think of it like. I've lost the ability to want certain things and it's#Kinda fucking with me
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//So I have today and tomorrow off, so hopefully I’ll get to replies and a couple new opens over the next two days🤞
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