#yamazaki tomie

[mjstral]

Yamazaki Tomie

Tomie has a new design now!

I'm not talking about her because I'm obsessed with Michiko of the people who think they have the right to take my character and my art and post it somewhere else affirming that's disrespectful having a character named over Tomie Yamazaki :) I hope to not see anything more from those people because I really love Tomie, she's been my first OC for BSD fandom (that is becoming more and more toxic over the years) but anyway!

And now some basic info about her!

Name: Yamakazi Tomie Age: 25 (in my ff), 21 (in canon) Nationality: Japanese Affiliation: Blue Bamboo, Amazzoni Occupation: • librarian (before) • whatever the Amazzoni are (after) Ability: none Likes: books, cats, rainy days Dislikes: Dazai, ignorance Trivia • Tomie's inspired by the real mistress of Dazai sensei; • Tomie and Dazai were ex lovers, they broke up for many reasons, one of them is Dazai being a womaniser • "Blue Bamboo" is the name of a collection of stories written by Dazai sensei

If you're curious feel free to ask me about her!

[anisaanisa]

“It was right where Tomie had been killed. The carpet had soaked up far too much blood…”

Tomie | 富江 | Kiss (1990) by Junji Itō ☆

[still-fatemeh]

Pandora's Box

Dark era! Dazai osamu x oc

(The character has a name and a physical description, but feel free to ignore them as you please. The character is named after Tomie Yamazaki, the lady Dazai sensei committed double suicide with. Of course, it doesn't nod back to the real person, I'm just using the name.)

Word count: 1.5k

Her eyes scanned the bar's atmosphere with an expression coated in aloofness, only to land on the bottomless pit of nothingness that was dazai's sole visible eye.

"Aren't you planning to tell me the occasion, dazai-kun?" She said as she sipped the drink, letting the familiar burn of alcohol bring its comfort.

Dazai merely eyed her, looking half-amused and half-bored. Tomie looked like a doll wearing human's skin, a porcelain doll whose life was sucked away of all colour and vibrancy, as if she belonged among the dead. He had no doubt she's long been this way. But there was a beauty to it, to kiss a dangerous doll crafted by the melancholy of this world.

The Shadow Assassin.

Port Mafia's solo assassin with a dangerous ability suited for killing people in close proximity, using infection. A drop of blood from her delicate finger could infect a blade, and the most shallow cut from it would be fatal. But as soon as the blade got out of her close proximity, it'd lose its infectious capabilities.

He sighed quietly and took another sip of his drink. Then, he spoke:

"The occasion? I'm just drinking away my problems."

"From the “occasion”, I meant the reason you wanted me here."

The response was supposed to have a hint of irony in it, but dazai failed to find any humour in her words.

Dazai tilted his head to side, an amused smirk tugging at the corner of his lips.

"Ah... you caught me."

He muttered while staring off into space, leaning casually against the counter.

"The truth is, that I have something I need to ask you."

It wasn't often he asked her for favours with such downcast expression, she noted mentally.

He knew his ways, how to put on an airy flirty smile and play the charmer. She disliked that facade more than anything in the world... But this wasn't anything like that.

"Go on, ask away."

She hummed, tapping her fingers absent-mindedly on the bar's counter.

Restless and relentless, the tapping was, he thought.

He smirked, his gaze never leaving her, but he didn't speak right away. He took a deep breath in and out. His mouth twitching a little as he thinks.

"...can you do me a favour, tomichan?"

She raises a brow, eying him with a gaze full of suspicion. Apparently, she couldn't fathom the reason behind him beating around the bush.

"Just say what you want from me."

Tomie spoke out bluntly, putting her glass down on the counter.

Dazai paused, thinking for a moment. Then he spoke again with a small, bitter smile.

"...I just want you to touch me."

Tomie looks bewildered at his request for a second.

"So... You want another night that goes that way?"

She looked down at her drink, letting out an amused snort.

"Guess I'm in no position to object, huh?" She taunted, trying her best not to throw another snarky remark his way.

The executive glanced down and chuckled humorlessly under his breath.

"Don't pretend like that wasn't a great night for you."

His smirk faded, and he took a sip of his drink before continuing.

"... but I... don't want that right now."

He cleared his throat and set his glass on the counter.

"I want you to try to kill me."

She merely raised a brow.

"Me?"

"Yes, you."

Dazai meets her gaze, his face a mask of eerie calmness.

Disgust and ire swam in her expression, two emotions he rarely saw her display.

"Do it yourself, you must be a professional in that field by now."

She mumbles, her tone laced with irritation.

"It's true, my ability nullifies the power of any other gifted that I touch, but... yours is rather exceptional."

He finished the drink, his fingernail flicking the shot glass.

"See, the remnants of your ability are microscopic. I couldn't nullify it, even if I used my ability on the bloodstain. It'll penetrate deep and infect my bloodstream before the pain even begins! Seems like a fabulous death to me. Just do it, try to kill me."

"Is that an order?" She hissed, her face losing a big portion of the ever-present amusement.

"No, merely a suggestion."

Dazai played with the glass, wearing a bored expression.

"But I know you want to do it. You hate me, don't you? After all, I screwed you over and brought you into this hell that you can't step out of. Don't pretend like you don't want to. I know you want to try. I've seen the disgusted glances you throw at me, I can feel the irk that burns in your heart whenever you talk to me. I've seen how the void in your soul eats away at you. I've seen what you really are. Do it, show me you have the heart to be one of..."

The sound of glass shattering made him pause. It made all the heads of the folks in lupin turn towards them to see what had happened.

Without applying any pressure, the glass shattered in her hand. The broken pieces of glass fell onto her lap, and on the floor, the irritation in her expression grew tenfold.

Dazai's 'No Longer Human' prevented him to have the same fate as the shot-glass in her hand...

What a pity...

That would've been a nice way to die...

"No. If it's not an order, then no. I don't want to be responsible for your pathetic demise."

She spat out bitterly.

"I'm not the type to waste a bullet on something that's already dead."

That was her response to dazai asking her to kill him. He'd apparently forgotten how much the girl could be troublesome sometimes...

Dazai tried to remain unaffected by her words. He grinned slightly and slowly nodded.

"You're right. It doesn't take a genius to see how empty you are."

His demeanour remained composed as he paused, then lifted his eyebrow in a slow, deliberate manner, fixing his gaze on her, the grin lingered.

"... But I also know you don't just want to kill me, you want to devour me. You want to see me suffer... and yet I know you hate yourself more than anything. You have no empathy, you take not a single ounce of joy destroying the people that have wronged you. You're so hollow you can't even bear a grudge. Am I right?"

Dazai's words were the bare truth. Not even one word of his words was misplaced or wrong. But tomie wasn't surprised. She was used to his viscous way of slipping into people's minds. His grasp on the human mind was beyond that of what a normal person would be capable of. But sadly, dazai had no way of guessing what goes on in people's hearts.

"Maybe."

She replied curtly, staring at the remains of shattered glass on her skirt.

"You're no good at living dazai, both of us know that. You were born with something rotten inside you and if people get too close, they'll find out. Or maybe..."

Tomie paused, thinking. Then her bloody red lips curved into a self-satisfied smirk.

"There's no rotten thing. It's just emptiness. Like... you weren't meant to live. But, seeing you lose against life itself is always one big source of entertainment for me."

His face was a blend of amusement, listlessness, and a small bit of something indecipherable.

"... So... The precious doll gets a kick off watching me fail?"

He asked. He wanted to sound sardonic, but it didn't quite come out that way. His voice was strained, like a kid that's trying not to cry. The notion was enough to terrify tomie.

"I do see life as a game that I'm losing badly at."

He sighed quietly and leaned back in his chair, letting a faint smirk come to his lips.

"You are right. I wasn't meant to live."

Tomie was observing him through her now hazy vision that alcohol had caused.

With her chin resting on her palm, she just looked at him. No witty commentary, no more jabs, no more banter, nothing.

And dazai could swear something flashed across her expression. Something he wasn't particularly fond of.

Pity

Tomie was pitying him.

She was looking at him like that again. With pity in those glassy eyes.

She was looking at him in the same manner people look at a wounded dog, wondering what the poor thing had done to deserve such tragedy.

"What can I say? At least your agony amuses me, so it's not completely useless..."

Dazai was silent. Eerily so. The stillness between them was jarring, like the shock of a bucket of ice water that was poured over her head. The noise of other regulars was ever-present, but it only served to unnerve her. His eyes were way too big, way too empty for a boy his age.

"... If my agony happens to amuse you, then why don't you tell me things that are sure to sting? Why don't you aim to make me hate you with those words of yours and say things that will destroy me?"

"Am I not... doing that now?"

Tomie pondered out loud with an arched brow. The tense silence was gone. She was thankful.

The girl gave him a subtle look of curiosity that morphed into a lopsided smirk.

"Why, do you think I can do better?"

Dazai gave her a long, unblinking stare. His mouth curled into a sharp smile, his dark brown eye glistening like a lollipop, as he stared right at her.

"Yes. I feel nothing right now. But I know you have the ability to pierce straight through me."

He paused and then spoke again

"... Just do it. Tell me the one thing that's bound to cut deep. Because I know you've been waiting to use it."

Tomie's lips curve into a drunken smile in response to his words.

"I'm not... gonna give you the satisfaction of hating me. I want to keep you on edge, unaware of how much damage I'm actually capable of."

Her smile was uncanny, 'cause it doesn't quite reach her eyes. Or does it? It was... hard to figure out.

Dazai narrows his eyes as he watches her, staring as if he was trying to see past the facade she puts on the surface. He's no stranger to analyzing a person's expression and body language. He does it subconsciously all the time.

It's not fake. It doesn't appear to be deceitful. Maybe he just isn't used to seeing that on her face.

"... Your smile doesn't reach your eyes... which means you're nervous, or you're lying."

He sounded a bit confused.

"...am I right?"

"Oh, are my deceptive abilities lacking, perhaps? Or are you just growing more and more paranoid?"

She calls over the bartender for another drink, while giving him a false innocent expression.

"Unfortunately, it's the second one. That's just how I smile. I thought you might know it by now."

Dazai's eyes darkened, his left eyebrow twitching, and it was just barely noticeable. He was amazing at masking his emotions, or so he thought he was.

Her drunken smile was... weird. It was weird. He couldn't make sense of it. He couldn't stomach it.

Was it that hard to pick up on a seventeen year old girl's inebriated behavioural patterns? Maybe it was because he was fumbling it.

"We both know I'm not paranoid. I'm just good at recognizing lies."

His eye flickered around her expression, looking at her dead eyes, her amused smirk, her face pale as snow and lips red as cherries as blood flow rushed to them. The words “beautiful porcelain” flashed in his mind.

"You..."

He pauses and then finally speaks.

"...Are you really as numb as I am, tomie-chan?"

She smiles as the bartender hands her the drink.

"Maybe."

Tomie smiles once again as she puts the glass to her lips, her lips staining the glass a pretty red.

[spiraphobia]

Listing the ones in the poll that for me are the scariest. I am sure there are so many others that I missed - so feel free to share them in the comments below.

[silvermoon424]

My manga collection (October 2023)

I did a post detailing my manga collection back in 2021, but it's grown a lot since then so I figured I'd make a new post! It was also a good time to do so because we're repainting my room and while there's usually a ton of anime merch in front of the books on my shelves, now it's all been packed up. So there's a clear look at the books without me having to move anything, lol.

Anyway, without further adieu, here we go! My manga collection is largely shoujo (specifically magical girls) and horror manga.

Pet Shop of Horrors by Matsuri Akino

Pet Shop of Horrors: Tokyo by Matsuri Akino

The Clique by Yishan Li

Frozen II manga by Arina Tanemura

Dark Metro by Tokyo Calen and Yoshiken

Yokai Rental Shop by Shin Mashiba

Confidential Confessions by Reiko Momochi

Pichi Pichi Pitch (aka Mermaid Melody) by Michiko Yokote and Pink Hanamori

Magical Girl Site by Kentaro Sato

Reiko the Zombie Shop by Rei Mikamoto

Les Miserables (manga adaptation) by TszMei Lee

Nightmares for Sale by Kaoru Ohashi

Presents by Kanako Inuki

Mail by Housui Yamazaki

Dark Water by Meimu

Tale of a White Night by Tooko Miyagi

Goth by Otsuichi and Kendi Oiwa

Beautiful People by Mitsukazu Mihara

Attack on Titan: No Regrets by Gun Snark and Hikaru Suruga

In Clothes Called Fat by Moyoco Anno

A Girl on the Shore by Inio Asano

Bride of Deimos by Etsuko Ikeda and Yuuho Ashibe

Limit by Keiko Suenobu

Helter Skelter by Kyoko Okazaki

Dolls omnibus (in Japanese) by Yumiko Kawahara

Ibitsu by Haruto Ryo

A God Somewhere (Western comic) by John Arcudi and Peter Snejbjerg

Beauty (Western comic) by Hubert and Kerascoët

Ah! My Goddess by Kōsuke Fujishima

Only One Wish by Mia Ikumi

Higurashi When They Cry: Festival Accompanying Arc by Karin Suzuragi

Chronicles of the Grim Peddler by Lee Jeoun-A

PTSD Radio by Masaaki Nakayama

Elfen Lied by Lynn Okamoto

Ikigami: The Ultimate Limit by Motoro Mase

Happy Sugar Life by Tomiyaki Kagisora

JoJo's Bizarre Adventure: Phantom Blood by Hirohiko Araki

An Ojamajo Doremi artbook (in Japanese)

Mermaid Saga by Rumiko Takahashi

Dolls by Yumiko Kawahara

Maid-sama by Hiro Fujiwara

Franken Fran by Katsuhisa Kigitsu

Hell Girl by Miyuki Eto

Gurren Lagann by Kotaro Mori

Doll by Mitsukazu Mihara

Mantis Woman by Senno Knife

Various Sailor Moon artbooks from the anime, manga illustrations by Naoko Takeuchi, and fan artbooks

Sailor Moon Eternal Edition by Naoko Takeuchi

Sailor V Eternal Edition by Naoko Takeuchi

Puella Magi Madoka Magica by Hanokage

Puella Magi Madoka Magica: The Different Story by Hanokage

Puella Magi Madoka Magica: The Wraith Arc by Hanokage

Puella Magi Madoka Magica: The Rebellion Story by Hanokage

Puella Magi Oriko Magica by Kuroe Mura

Puella Magi Oriko Magica: Sadness Prayer by Kuroe Mura

Puella Magi Tart Magica by Golden Pe Done

Magia Record: Puella Magi Madoka Magica Side Story by Fuji Fujino

Assorted PMMM and Magia Record artbooks

Pokemon Adventures (aka Pokemon Special) by Hidenori Kusaka and Mato/Satoshi Yamamoto. I own the complete set of the RBG, Yellow, GSC, FRLG, Emerald and HGSS arcs as well as a few volumes from the RS, DP, and Black/White arcs.

Various Pokemon 4koma (in Japanese)

Pokemon: I Choose You by Ryo Takamisaki

Phantom Thief Pokemon 7 by Miho Asada

The Rise of Darkrai by Ryo Takamisaki

Pokemon Diamond and Pearl Adventure by Shigekatsu Ihara

The Electric Tale of Pikachu by Toshihiro Ono

The Art of Pokemon Adventures by Satoshi Yamamoto (both English and Japanese versions)

Pokémon Mystery Dungeon: Ginji's Rescue Team by Makoto Mizobuchi

Pokemon Ranger and the Temple of the Sea by Makoto Mizobuchi

Various Junji Ito Manga:

Dissolving Classroom

Fragments of Horror

The Liminal Zone

Sensor

Black Paradox

Gyo

Uzumaki

Tomie

Deserter

Tombs

Lovesickness

Smashed

Shiver

Frankenstein

Remina

Venus in the Blind Spot

No Longer Human

Twisted Visions (artbook)

Uzumaki coloring book

Uzumaki (original printing) by Junji Ito

Museum of Terror by Junji Ito

Soichi by Junji Ito

The Drifting Classroom by Kazuo Umezu

JoJo's Bizarre Adventure: Battle Tendency by Hirohiko Araki

Orochi by Kazuo Umezu

Be Very Afraid of Kanoko Inuki! by Kanoko Inuki

Wonderland by Yugo Ishikawa

Shadows House by Somato

I Had That Sane Dream Again by Yoru Sumino

Is Love the Answer? by Uta Isaki

Nightmare Inspector by Shin Mashiba

The Ring by Misao Inagaki

Wonder House of Horrors by Miyako Cojima

Puella Magi Suzune Magica by GAN

Puella Magi Kazumi Magica by Masaki Hiramatsu and Takashi Tensugi

Magia Record: Another Story by U35

I also have some manga in storage like Inuyasha and Kitchen Princess, but that's about it!

[kavalyera]

Some characters that inspired Ophelia’s character<3

Being a Volgirre, changing oneself is common. Ophelia constantly changes her appearance to appear pretty and at best, prey like to others. Of course, being a kindred, she’s not really a prey. At her core, Ophelia is a romantic although it’s sort twisted in how she views love. She views love as an obsession, a curse because she’s a hopeless romantic and being obsessed is the only way that she genuinely feels attached to anything otherwise she gets bored of it and abandons it.

When it comes to being an author, Ophelia is ruthless to fully envelop herself in the minds of the characters she writes. She’s a sociopath who wants nothing more than to feel satisfied with her own works, an “obsessive artist” archetype if you will. She will kill for the perfect scene to write but it’s okay in the end, because her works will always be perfect and all those kills will mean something in the end.

She is seductive by nature, playful almost in how she conducts herself to kill. Of course, she still loves her husband, she finds that seducing weak willed mortal men for her to kill is absolutely thrilling—a sort of addiction that thrums through her undead veins like the consumption of vitae.

And despite all of this, Ophelia is still very much a kind of person that, if you are the right person, will be enjoyable to be around. She’s ambitious, extroverted, and since she’s a writer, she understands emotions quite well and will try her best into cheering you up if you do feel bad. Just be prepared for um, helping her load a body into a car trunk however!

characters: asami yamazaki (audition), dorothy daniels (a certain hunger), lou bloom (nightcrawler), elaine parks (the love witch), daniela dimitrescu (resident evil), tomie kawakami (junji ito), evelynn (league of legends), sadie collins (last night in soho)

[tomieyamazaki]

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[paperbacksandpetticoats]

Reading List - 2021

All the Murmuring Bones - A.G. Slatter

Hani and Ishu's Guide to Fake Dating - Adiba Jaigirdar

Cemetery Boys - Aiden Thomas

Still Sick, Vol. 1 - Akashi

Bloody Mary, Vol. 1-2 - Akaza Samamiya

Fire Force, Vol. 3 - Atsushi Ohkubo

Soul Eater, Vol. 12-14 - Atsushi Ohkubo

Kiss of the Rose Princess, Vol. 1-9 - Aya Shouoto

The Demon Prince of Mooch House, Vol. 1-3 - Aya Shouoto

Behind the Scenes!!, Vol. 1-7 - Bisco Hatori

Mellenium Snow, Vol 1-4 - Bisco Hatori

A Curse So Dark and Lonely - Brigid Kemmerer

Chain of Gold - Cassandra Clare

Ghosts of the Shadow Market - Cassandra Clare

Kenka Bancho Otome, Vol. 1-2 - Chie Shimada

Goodbye, My Rose Garden, Vol. 1-3 - Dr. Pepperco

Six Crimson Cranes - Elizabeth Lim

Spin the Dawn - Elizabeth Lim

Unravel the Dusk - Elizabeth Lim

House of Salt and Sorrows - Erin A. Craig

Wotakoi, Vol. 1-5 - Fujita

Haikyu!!, Vol. 6-15 - Furudate

Jujutsu Kaisen, Vol. 0-13 - Gege Akutami

Love in Limbo, Vol. 1-2 - Haji

Horimiya, Vol. 1-2 - HERO

Edens Zero, Vol. 10-13 - Hiro Mashima

Fairy Tail, Vol. 29-53 - Hiro Mashima

Fairy Tail Zero - Hiro Mashima

Fairy Tail: 100 Years Quest, Vol. 1-8 - Hiro Mashima

Fairy Tail: Gaiden (Lightning Gods) - Hiro Mashima

Fairy Tail: Gaiden (Rhodonite) - Hiro Mashima

Fairy Tail: Gaiden (Twin Dragons of Sabertooth) - Hiro Mashima

Adachi and Shimamura, Vol. 1 - Hitoma Iruma

Skull-faced Bookseller Honda-san, Vol 1 - Honda

The Inheritance Games - Jennifer Lynn Barnes

From Blood and Ash - Jennifer L. Armentrout

The Crown of Gilded Bones - Jennifer L. Armentrout

A Kingdom of Flesh and Fire - Jennifer L. Armentrout

A Shadow in the Ember - Jennifer L. Armentrout

Labyrinth: Coronation, Vol. 1-3 - Jim Henson

Kamisama Kiss, Vol. 1-2 - Julietta Suzuki

Dissolving Classroom - Junji Ito

Remina - Junji Ito

Tomie - Junji Ito

Kiss Him, Not Me!, Vol. 1-2 - Junko

The Girl in the Steel Corset - Kady Cross

Blue Flag, Vol. 2-7 - Kaito

White Stag - Kara Barbieri

God Save the Queen - Kate Locke

Blue Exorcist, Vol. 10-15 - Kazue Kato

Strawberry Fields Once Again, Vol. 1-3 - Kazura Kinosaki

Sweat and Soap, Vol. 1 - Kintetsu Yamada

Play It Cool, Guys, Vol. 1-2 - Kokone Nata

The Ancient Magus' Bride, Vol. 1 - Kore Yamazaki

Toritan, Vol. 1-2 - Kotetsuko Yamamoto

The Keeper of Night - Kylie Lee Baker

Beast Master, Vol. 1-2 - Kyousuke Motomi

A Rush of Wings - Laura E. Weymouth

Feelings: A Story in Seasons - Manjit Thapp

The Hazel Wood - Melissa Albert

The Night Country - Melissa Albert

Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation 1 - MXTX

The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System 1 - MXTX

Love on the Other Side - Nagabe

The Girl from the Other Side, Vol. 10-11 - Nagabe

The Vampire and His Pleasant Companions, Vol. 1-3 - Narise Konohara

Fruits Basket, Vol. 1-4 - Natsuki Takaya

Stardust - Neil Gaiman

Sadako-san and Sadako-chan - Noriako Sugihara

Yakuza Lover, Vol. 1-2 - Nozomi Mino

The King's Beast, Vol. 1-4 - Rei Toma

My Little Monster, Vol. 1-3 - Robico

What Big Teeth - Rose Szabo

Ice Planet Barbarians - Ruby Dixon

Mermaid Saga, Vol. 1-2 - Rumiko Takahashi

A Dowry of Blood - S.T. Gibson

King of Battle and Blood - Scarlett St. Clair

Doughnuts Under A Crescent Moon, Vol. 1 - Shio Usui

Twilight: The Graphic Novel, Vol. 2 - Stephanie Meyer

A Sign of Affection, Vol. 1-3 - Suu Morishita

Shortcake Cake, Vol. 1-2 - Suu Morishita

Sasaki and Miyano, Vol. 1-4 - Syos Harusono

Go for it, Nakamura! - Syundei

Spy X Family, Vol. 1-4 - Tatsuya Endo

Ensnared - Tiffany Roberts

Blue Period, Vol. 1-2 - Tsubasa Yamaguchi

Black Torch, Vol. 1-5 - Tsuyoshi Takaki

Iron Widow - Xiran Jay Zhao

Those Not-So-Sweet-Boys, Vol. 1 - Yoko Nogiri

Don't Be Cruel, Vol. 1 - Yonezou Nekota

Our Dreams at Dusk, Vol. 1-4 - Yuhki Kamatani

[sskk-ao3feed]

Las Mil y una Noches

by NaleDellacroce

Uno donde Chuya le contara mil y un cuentos a Dazai

Words: 2832, Chapters: 2/90, Language: Español

Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M

Characters: Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Oda Sakunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), Paul Verlaine (Bungou Stray Dogs), Arthur Rimbaud (Bungou Stray Dogs), Sakaguchi Ango (Bungou Stray Dogs), Lippmann (Bungou Stray Dogs), Doc (Bungou Stray Dogs), Albatross (Bungou Stray Dogs), Ice Man (Bungou Stray Dogs), Piano Man (Bungou Stray Dogs), Mori Ougai (Bungou Stray Dogs), Yosano Akiko (Bungou Stray Dogs), Ozaki Kouyou (Bungou Stray Dogs), Tomie Yamazaki, Fukuzawa Yukichi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Bungou Stray Dogs), Nikolai Gogol (Bungou Stray Dogs), Sigma (Bungou Stray Dogs), Suehiro Tecchou (Bungou Stray Dogs), Fukuchi Ouchi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Akutagawa Ryuunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Relationships: Dazai Osamu/Nakahara Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs), Akutagawa Ryuunosuke/Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Jouno Saigiku/Suehiro Tecchou (Bungou Stray Dogs), Ozaki Kouyou/Yosano Akiko (Bungou Stray Dogs)

source https://archiveofourown.org/works/48477904

[mjstral]

I'm not really back but I found myself with some free time so why not? Here's Michiko and Tomie! I'm sure you've noticed some changes in their appearance, but that's not the only thing that changed; I've officially changed Mary's name (for many reasons) so now she's entirely inspired by Michiko Ishihara. I will not brag about it and just leave these three pictures here :) hope you like it! P.s. the fourth picture is Michiko Beast version.

[lumiiberry]

Adding to the list of shit I say/think when I’m tired:

Ned’s De-Yassified School Survival Guide

“Where’s my brain? I must have left it at home, damn it..”

“What if toes had feet?”

If insects went to high school, bees would be cheerleaders

Using cotton candy as a base for a bio weapon.

Grappling Hook with the hook part being akin to a Venus fly trap (pretty cool, tbh)

Miscellaneous thoughts about Queen Bee from helluva boss

That one part of the Kirby RBAY theme song (English dub)

“If the next words out of your mouth aren’t ‘I’m sorry,’ I will peel your foreskin off like a banana” (damn wtf)

Food (my appetite is so bad right now)

Offerings for my deities (ex. Loki is getting a shot glass filled with a mixture of hot sauce and pop rocks)

Elevator music for some reason

“Easier than Loki in a frat house” (idfk)

Meta Knight as a concept

Full of h e a d a c h e

Miscellaneous quotes from Patrick Star

Those dubs of G1 my little pony

Tomie as a concept (lol imagine her trying to seduce a gay man and he is just having none of it)

Why the fuck do all the cute villagers in acnh avoid my island?!

Meeting the anti-me.

What if the infinite alternate dimensions are just each person’s perspective?

RIP to Tsukiko and Yamazaki (was actually rooting for them in Tomie)

Circus music for some reason (help me I’m scared)

I’ll update this if I have more.

[juleeofthewest]

Missed this gang. Might continue their fic... sometime soon? Depends >u<

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[thisphantom]

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Hi I’m glad you’re feeling better. I was wondering if you could write a Dazai x a gender neutral MC where he finds out the reader has depression but also finds out the reader has healthy coping mechanisms and they talk and teach him about it.

Thank you

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"I want a happy ending with you..."

Characters: Osamu Dazai

Warnings: depression, overthinking, insecurities, coping with depression, mentions of reader not eating, gn!reader, mentions of suicide (Dazai's death), maybe bad English?, idk if Dazai will be ooc but just in case, brief mention of panic attacks, it's quite long, ngl;

Notes: hello, Nani~! Thank you so much for worrying~ ♡. I'm happy that you requested, though I must say you caught me by surprise with this request. Personally, as someone who deals with depression, I don't know if I have a coping mechanism for depression? I just try and distract myself from overthinking? (Never ignore your feelings, please. Look for someone willing to hear you) But I'm glad I can talk about this. Also, I'll be speaking from MY experience dealing with depression so I want to be clear that not everyone deals with depression the same way just in case anyone gets confused, ok? Well, I hope I can do this without fucking up. And sorry if it's too long for your liking and uhhh maybe the end is a bit rushed?? Idk, I'm sorry. And sorry for posting this so late!

Osamu Dazai isn't only known for his amazing and shocking books, but also because of his tragic ending. He died by committing suicide with his lover, Tomie Yamazaki, on June 13, 1948. But an opportunity came and Le Comte de Saint-Germain gave him the chance to continue living as a vampire moments before his death... And he accepted.

It is well known that Osamu Dazai battled with depression most of his life, attempting suicide more than once. His decision of living as an immortal is still a mystery.

But he doesn't regret being an immortal being, not now that he met you. You were the most beautiful and extraordinary person in his eyes and nothing could change his mind. You were gorgeous and deserved to be treated like royalty. You were his light.

But he was no fool. Though he always seemed silly and loved to tease, that didn't mean he was a fool, on the contrary. Of all thr guests in the mansion, he was the most observant and attentive to any physical or emotional change in other people. And he knew damn well what you were thinking or feeling.

Depression. You were battling with depression, just like he was.

It all started with the panic attacks you started to have when you arrived at the mansion. I mean, who wouldn't be anxious? You were all alone stuck in another century in a mansion full of men. And if that wasn't scary enough, those men were vampires. You had all the right to be anxious.

He didn't pay much attention to it at first. I mean, he helped you to accommodate in the mansion and was always there to get a smile out of you, but he didn't really think anything else about the panic attacks.

That was until the sudden episodes started.

They started out of nowhere. The night before you could be giggling and dancing with all the guests in the house then the next day in the morning you were oddly quiet. The forced smile on your face when any of the guests were talking, but as soon as they took their eyes off of you, your smile would disappear and you would remain silent again while you stared into space.

When you two started dating, he noticed more about you that just screamed what you were going through. You were always overthinking about the most simple things and were constantly insecure, asking yourself is you were good enough for him or if you could ever make him happy. Then he noticed that you barely slept at night, but always felt sleepy during the day. But what made him step in was when you refused to eat your meal once when you clearly didn't eat all day.

Dazai knew what was going on inside your head and, while he didn't know how to help himself, he wanted to help you because if he helped you he could be better. So he decided to talk to you about it.

"Oh, that..." you whispered, not knowing how to talk about it. "Yes, I'm aware that I did wrong on skipping my meal today... That's why I'm going for a walk."

Anyone else wouldn't have thought anything of what you said, but not Dazai. Dazai felt his chest sink as you said the words "go for a walk." He didn't know if you also had those thoughts and, although he had resorted to double suicide on multiple occasions, he tried to ignore those thoughts and if he dragged you along with him he would lose you forever.

"I'll go with you." he offered, hiding his fear in a smile. "How impolite of me it would be to let you walk alone at this time of the afternoon, don't you think?"

You stayed a few long seconds in silence, contemplating if nothing would happen if he went with you. In the end you agreed to his offer with the thought in mind that maybe, just maybe, this walk could help him too.

"But eat something first." he ordered, his tone still soft and gentle. "I won't let you leave until you eat something."

Although little, you were able to eat the delicious dinner that you had helped Sebastian make. You ate quickly because you wanted to go out and clear your mind. You didn't want to, you had to.

"Can we please go to a walk now?" you pleaded and Dazai had no choice but to go out with you. Using the door, of course. Through the window it was going to be difficult for you.

Dusk came and the sky was painted a set of orange and purple colors. The atmosphere was perfect for a date like those you two used to have from time to time, but today was going to be an exception.

You both walked in silence without any exact destination. Dazai expected you to say something to him, but you only admired the beautiful surroundings. What distracted you was a quiet and lonely children's park. You looked at Dazai, and without waiting for an answer, you walked over to the swings and began to swing.

"Come sit with me." you called out to him while smiling softly.

He quickly sits on the swing next to you and rocks with you. You both enjoy the relaxing atmosphere, the afternoon breeze, and the soft laughter that you both let out. For a moment, you both forgot the real reason you had come out. You felt happy to be able to enjoy this moment with him, even though you knew that this joy would vanish for the moment, but you didn't care. At this precise moment, you didn't care because you knew that the reason for your happiness was Dazai.

But... You stopped. You stopped because even though you were happy with him, you had to talk to him. You continued to rock, but your laughter stopped.

"Dazai, love." you called, causing him to stop.

"Yes?" he answered.

"You know... I know that you better than anyone can understand what's happening to me. These sudden mood swings and so on..."

Dazai stopped swinging on the swing and looked at you. He didn't know what to answer you, although what you said was true: Dazai could understand you better than anyone.

"Sometimes I go out to distract myself." you continued talking. "I'm always looking for something to distract myself and try not to get consumed by it. I'm trying, I swear."

That piqued his curiosity. Distract you? Did that work? He personally never knew how to deal with his depression, since he lived in other times, but he was interested in knowing how you managed to deal with it.

"What things do you do to distract yourself?" Dazai asked interested.

"Oh! Well... I sometimes sneak to hear Mozart playing, which relaxes me." you started to explain a little embarrassed. "Or I bake too. Sometimes sleeping helps."

"That's... I didn't know there were ways to help deal with this." Dazai admitted, fascinated. "So you do things you like to distract and relax yourself?"

"That's correct." you gave him a small smile.

"I see... Can I try something like that too?" Dazai asked.

"Of course! Just look for things that can relax you." you recommended.

"Writing works... And spending time with you."

You blushed when you heard what he said and lowered your head, smiling.

He loved you. You both loved each other. You might have your problems, but you loved each other deeply. Your wish, his wish, the wish of both of you was to overcome whatever life threw at you and be together... For eternity.

[badass-at-fandoming]

Who is "The Girl" from Dazai's Route?

[TW discussions of suicide]

When I read Dazai Osamu's route in Ikemen Vampire, I knew I was in for a very sad story. The historical figure didn't have an easy life. Lo and behold, Dazai tells MC about an incredibly tragic incident from his past.

Because the incident is so heartrending (and because he's Dazai and this is What He Does), Dazai reveals his past in the form of a story. Though the story's protagonist is obviously him, complete with sprite, he refers to the protagonist as "The Man." The other character in the story is called "The Girl." Her name is never revealed. After a troubled childhood, the Man becomes an author. The Girl is a big fan of his work. When she spots the Man drinking at the bar she works at, she's delighted. She approaches her idol and praises his work for how it manages to capture the torture and travails of her own inner life. The Man accepts her praise, and the pair become best friends.

However, company isn't enough for their misery. Being poor and disabled fucking sucks. After her father hits her one night, the Girl proposes a lovers' suicide to the Man, and the Man pretends to go along with it. Instead of buying poison, he buys sleeping pills, and on purpose doesn't give her a lethal dose. The pair fall asleep. The Man wakes up, but the Girl doesn't—she figured out his deception and ate the remainder of the pills. The Man is riddled with guilt, even though her actions aren't his fault.

During my initial read, I assumed "The Girl," like "The Man," was a real historical person. Dazai is based on Dazai-san, so she must be based off someone too, right? Nope! I read a whole biography of Dazai-san's life, and it turns out she's an amalgamation of several people.

As we know, Dazai-san had extremely poor mental health. He attempted suicide four times—the second and fourth time with others. The fifth time he and his lover died.

1929 - attempted sleeping pill overdose

1930 - attempted suicide with Tanabe Shimeko by throwing themselves into the sea at Kamakura. Tanabe-dono died.

1933 - attempted to hang himself in Kamakura

1936 - attempted sleeping pill overdose with his ex-wife Oyama Hatsuyo. Both survived.

1948 - committed lovers' suicide with Yamazaki Tomie by throwing themselves into the Tamagawa Canal

Let's go over the double suicides one-by-one. 1930 was not a good year for Dazai-san. In spring, he'd moved to Tokyo to study French Literature at the Imperial University and learned upon arrival that, due to his family's status, his degree would be handed to him regardless of his own efforts. A budding Communist, Dazai-san found this state of affairs deeply offensive and discouraging. While he had his own apartment, Dazai-san lived in walking distance to his brother. Previously, the brothers had a distant relationship, but being neighbors encouraged them to steadily become closer—until his brother abruptly sickened and died.

The loneliness of a new place, meaninglessness of his studies, his brother's death, and his fragile mental health already did not make for a good situation. By his second university semester, Dazai-san gave up attending classes. He met up with an old high school friend, Oyama Hatsuyo, and they fell in love. Dazai-san petitioned his family for permission to marry Oyama-dono, but they instead forcibly separated the couple. Dazai-san was left alone in Tokyo, and promptly imploded.

By "imploded," I mean like, performed a bunch of risk-taking behaviors like excessive drinking, drugs, and unprotected sex. During this period, he met Tanabe Shimeko. Because the biographer was a little shitty, I don't know a lot about her besides that she was a hostess at a bar that Dazai-san and other writers frequented. And she was miserable. When Dazai-san received the news that the University was to expel him, he agreed to Tanabe-dono's proposal to commit suicide together. The couple traveled to Kamakura and threw themselves off a cliff.

"The Girl" from Ikemen and Tanabe-dono both work at bars, and both befriend Dazai-san during a period of poor mental health. While Dazai-san hadn't yet written the works he's most famous for, it's conceivable that Tanabe-dono had read his few short stories. Her fan status is unclear.

The next joint suicide was with Oyama-dono, and it contains the same sleeping pill scenario as in the Ikemen flashback story. Unsurprisingly, 1936 was another terrible year. Like, almost cinematically bad. After publishing an essay about how much he loved his friends, said friends trapped Dazai-san in a mental institution. Like, they told him "hey, let's have a writer retreat at this resort," and he didn't realize what has happening until he heard the key turn in the lock. Granted, Dazai-san had a terrible morphine addiction which needed to be treated, but. My God. He spent a month locked in a room, dealing with the withdrawal.

Dazai-san could further not catch a break when his wife Oyama-dono cheated on him with one of his friends, Kodate-san. Literally right after he got out of the mental institution, she informed Dazai-san of the affair, and asked his blessing to marry Kodate-san. He said okay because what else ya gonna do at that point. Unfortunately for literally everyone, Kodate-san and Oyama-dono's marriage didn't last. Kodate-san dumped her, and she ran back to Dazai-san, begging him to help her die. Dazai-san agreed.

The biographer argued here that Dazai-san didn't want Oyama-dono to die. He loved her deeply, and for years, remember. The biographer argued that Dazai-san bungled the sleeping pill dose on purpose. Later, Dazai-san wrote a short story (which I sadly don't remember the title of) which is heavily based on this incident with Oyama-dono. In that story the husband purposefully lets the wife live. The Ikemen scenario borrows this plot beat too, but "The Girl" is totally different from Oyama-dono.

The last relevant incident is the one that ended Dazai-san's life, so, as one might guess, it doesn't share a lot with the Ikemen story. Honestly one of the scariest aspects of Dazai-san's life, for me, is how he was able to hold it together through all of World War II. He survived all the bombing and trauma by telling his daughter fairy tales in their bomb shelter. It's when the war ended he fell apart.

At the time of his death, Dazai-san had a wife Michiko Ishihara, two mistresses, and four children—two of whom were a year old. One mistress was Ōta Shizuko. Similar to "The Girl" in Ikemen, she was a Dazai-san super fan who specifically sought the author out. She offered him her diary to use as writing material, which Dazai-san transmogrified into The Setting Sun, arguably his most famous novel.

It's with the second mistress, Yamazaki Tomie, that Dazai decided to die with. Yamazaki-dono was beautician and war widow. Abandoning Michiko-dono and Ōta-dono, he moved into with Yamazaki-dono. Besides the fact that Dazai-san wrote like he was possessed, I don't know a ton about their time together. They died.

Taking in the facts of Dazai-san's life, "The Girl" shares DNA with several real people. She has Tanabe-dono's occupation, and the fake-out suicide method Dazai-san chose for Oyama-dono. Ōta's fanaticism of Dazai-san and his work lend to her character. It's not as easy to discern who gave The Girl her poor mental health and bad family life—mostly because multiple of these women had those. One doesn't think about self-annihilation when one's feeling great.

I went into Dazai's flashback sequence thinking we were getting a real historical event, but what I got was possibly more in tune with the Dazai Osamu experience. Many, many of Dazai-san's works are semi-autobiographical—and that "semi-" has haunted fans and scholars for decades. Deciding what's truth and what's fiction is part of the fun. In the introduction to his English translation of Ningen Shikkaku, Mark Gibeau notes that the novel tantalizes readers with how it plays with the myths surrounding Dazai-san's life. In true Dazai-san tradition, Ikemen Vampire does the same.