#yalls act like my abusive best friend sometimes

[maybeamiles]

Minecraft Twitter stop canceling creators for (checks notes) talking to someone challenge (impossible).

[cometcrystal]

for the anon earlier. some random pnf headcanons 💯 i might have talked about some of these before but i'll take any chance to talk about stuff i like

i've DEFINITELY talked about this one before but as adults phineas and isabella are divorced besties with a son. they love each other soooo much but the romance part just didn't really work.

yall also already know i hc jeremy as bi but i find it worth mentioning because it was one of my first lgbt headcanons EVER after i figured out i could do that. buford and baljeet were probably first.

eliza and nicolette are endgame. do you see my vision

it doesn't matter to the show whatsoever but i do have ideas for what happened to mr flynn and mrs fletcher. in my timeline mr flynn was abusive and linda left him when she was pregnant with phineas, and mrs fletcher died at some point. idk how. ferb was too young to remember her. i have not worked out how close she and lawrence were but she had green hair

phineas and ferb cure multiple cancers in 10th grade and make the patents open-source

one of my early internet friends turned the drummer in jeremy's band into an oc named hugo.... he was in a situationship with jenny that lasted well past their 30s

speaking of jenny i think she and django disappeared for a bit because their rich artist dad took them to. like. greece or something. for the remainder of the summer and theyre just living their best life on a veranda on the other side of the planet until the school year starts

phineas, ferb, and baljeet COULD graduate VERY early but they purposely stay in the same grade as their friends because they love them. once the acts/sats/ap exams come around though its over for you hoes.

candace and stacy went to horse camp (a week long program during the summer teaching kids to ride horses) every summer until high school. at which point they decided it was For Babies. but they're both still horse girls deep down.

since we know that jeremy has liked candace longer than she's liked him, i think he was a really shy kid. he was too nervous to even look at her some days. when she gave him that pencil that one time, he didn't even say anything. he broke out of his shell later and became a friendly young man but candace still made him nervous. etc etc.

xavier and fred are movie buffs. they're usually logging one film per day. if letterboxd still exists on the future their profiles would be legendary.

jeremy picked the name fred. he was fine with candace already having names picked out, but once they found out they were having twins, she texted him a link to a baby name website and told him to pick his favorite. He picked Fred.

jeremy has written an entire album about candace and its all shit that sounds like Chasing Cars and candace LOVES IT

stacy interning at owca is how she meets her girlfriend vanessa and also how she meets her future wife in uruguay

buford and isabella have ice cream romcom sleepovers and nobody else is invited this is THEIR bonding time

IN MY TIMELINE JEREMY AND COLTRANE WERE AT THE ROBOT RIOT IN THE ORANGE TREEHOUSE ROBOT WHILE CANDACE AND STACY WERE IN THE PINK ONE. #COPING

sometimes the flynn fletcher kids would spend entire days at the antique shop before candace was old enough to watch the boys

this isn't really a headcanon but i want to see some isabella and jeremy bro moments. Because of In love with #TwoCrazyRedheads

Thats the only ones i can think of right now. My hands are shaking

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

aita for telling my best friend to stop acting like her mom?

ive already pretty much figured that im TAH in this situation, but i want some other opinions on it.

so i (23X) am roommates with my best friend (24F). weve been friends for over a decade now recently moved in together. i really enjoy rooming with her, but a lot of different things piling up led up to me telling her to stop acting like her mom. whenever something goes wrong, she usually blames me. sometimes her accusations are right— im not infallible by any means and i acknowledge when ive fucked up, but sometimes she just doesnt believe me when i say i did or didnt do something. a few weeks ago she said i didnt start the dishwasher (even though i remember doing so since i turned our magnet!) and she didnt believe me. turns out our dishwasher is very finicky and wont start if we dont turn the knob alllll the way and she didnt believe me about it until it happened to her. sometimes when i offer help with cleaning, she gets passive aggressive and says i would have helped earlier if i really wanted to and it always makes me feel awful. its always my behavior that need changing, but when i offer solutions to a problem that would involve her changing behavior, it a no-go.

this most recent incident, i asked her if she wanted help doing the dishes. she said shes fine and can handle it herself so i dropped it. the next day when i took her to work, she said she was tired since she stayed up late doing the dishes and would had of appreciated help with them. i got pretty upset about that told her to stop acting like her mom.

heres where i think im TAH. she grew up in an abusive household with a very emotionally abusive mom. it was a huge dick move of me to say that shes anywhere as awful as her mom (which she isnt, she just has to work through a few awful learned behaviors). i apologized pretty much immediately after and shes still pretty upset with me (i dont blame her). but anyways what do yall think?

What are these acronyms?

[the-septic-maniac]

Criminal Case x FNAF AU Chapter 1

(this is a little something that me and @anxietyfluffy are working on together. hope yall like ^^ oh and like major spoilers for pacific bay and the conspiracy)

Pacific Bay man… what memories I have here. The murders… the utopian cult… the utopia in general and stopping that... Rough memories. But I had some good times too. I’m actually meeting up with Amy where we solved our first case at the beach. Man, how she has grown up since she was a junior officer. 

As I exit my plane, the familiar salty air enters my lungs. I look at the cityscape. So much has changed. I daze out for a bit flashing back to all the times I hung out with my partners outside work. “I wonder what he would think of me and Amy now?” A familiar chipper voice greets me, “Deraila! Over here!” Looking to find the voice, I see her. “Amy!” I rush to go hug her, almost toppling her over with the amount of force and weight I put into it. “Easy there! You could have crushed me!” she says chuckling. “Oops, sorry I sometimes forget how big and strong I am.” We head to the beach and relax for a bit, taking our shoes off and feeling the individual sand granules between our toes and taking in the scenery. The familiarity of Pacific Bay starts rushing back to me. “So when are meeting up with the old team?” Amy checks her watch and slightly panics “Crap, we were supposed to meet them at your Airbnb like a half hour ago!” I laugh a little. “Let's get going then.”

As we drive to the airbnb, we started to talk for a bit. “You still romantic partners with Russell after all this time?” “Yeah, I come to visit Pacific Bay once or twice a month to have a date with him. He’s made life a bit easier.” "How's Duncan doing Amy?" Silence… me and my big fat mouth… I should have known not to ask about him. Since his arrest way back when Amy was a junior officer, she hasn't talked about him since. Not even when I came to work at T.I.M.E for the short while I did she didn't talk about him. No one even knew she had a brother. "I… Haven't visited Duncan at all at the federal medical center… not once… been too scared to since how he acted in court the day of his trial." 

Gods… that day was a horrid day for Amy. She had already been through enough. Her best friend was dead and her ex-boyfriend turned out to be not just a murderer but a cannibal too. Then it turned out that her brother had turned into a serial killer after a major accident that caused him to step down from being an officer on the police force. The horrible abuse of their mother did not help. "How about one day, just one day while I'm here we go visit him? It doesn't have to be long but I'm sure he misses you and I'm sure if he saw where you are at today he'd be proud of you despite the circumstances." Amy nodded and returned her focus to the road. 

The rest of the ride was in silence. We arrived at my airbnb and I saw the familiar faces of the team. Yann, Roxie, Russell, Hannah, and Chief Andrea all stood there waiting for us. I hugged them all before I went inside. I missed how much of a family it was like with this team. Sure in Grimsborough it felt like a team but there was always some sort of tension on the team. In Pacific Bay, I felt at ease for the most part. The weirdest thing that I've encountered here were aliens and they weren't a threat like the Neohumans in my second time in Grimsborough. Of course, someone was missing… someone that is long gone. I look down at the shirt I'm wearing. It's the last thing I have of him. "You still have Frank's shirt huh?" Yann spoke up in a fatherly tone.

Frank Knight… man that's a name I haven't heard in a long time. The team was devastated at his death. Sure yeah he was removed from the team due to participation in a major heist and a murder but… remembering his story… the utter grief and despair that he went through with the loss of his daughters… It makes me want to cry.  "Yeah I-I still have it and wear it. Still has the faint smell of Gold Stag Whiskey on it. But to be honest I like the smell. I've grown used to the scent. I don't think it would be the same wearing it without that smell" A long awkward silence followed. We were all thinking about Frank in that moment. Solemn looks were plastered on our faces as we thought about the memories we had of him.

Andrea piped up after clearing her voice "How about we go out to eat and catch up with each other? My treat." We all agreed. After I got settled in, we went out to a local restaurant and sat down. "So Deraila fill us in, how has life been since you left Pacific Bay?" Roxie asked excitedly. "Oh man, where to start? The Bureau, heading back to Grimsborough, T.I.M.E and working with Amy again. So many things to choose from" I chuckled. "I hear quite interesting stuff went down in Grimsborough. What happened?" Andrea spoke with great interest. I sighed with a slight chuckle as I explained the whole thing with the Neohumans. "The team is doing fine. Jones and Rameriz have both retired from the force, though I still catch Rameriz's ass sneaking around in one of his old costumes. Little Sammy Turner would ya believe it or not has taken an interest in his parents' careers. Though like his mother, he does tend to hack into things and has taken up the @rtist name." Hannah looks absolutely flabbergasted. "I-I'm sorry did you say the @rtist?!"

"Yeah? Cathy Turner has been my friend for a good while. I mean I have seen her at absolute lows but she took over her husband's job a while ago." "YOU SAW THE FACE BEHIND THE MASK?!?" Hannah seems over-excited and absolutely flabbergasted to the point that Yann had to help her calm down. "Yeah, I did. It was during my first few years as a detective." I showed her a picture of Cathy when I met her. Hannah just looks like she gained a crush on her. "Oh she's cute. Too bad she's taken though." I chuckled "Hey now Alex would fight tooth and nail for Cathy." "My wife would've gotten mad at me if I even dared." They all laughed. "Carter is graduating college soon. He's such a big guy now. Makes his mama proud too. Amir and Jasper have adopted a few kids. Grace still works for the Bureau as their coroner." I rattled on and on about the Grimsborough team. 

"So how about you guys huh? I already know about Amy, and Hannah mentioned that she got married to her girlfriend which congratulations." Yann speaks up "My little ones are up and out of the house. Lily is going to be taking over my position as soon as she gets her masters. James is starting college soon to become a director in Ivywood." "How are they that big already? I remember them being up to my thigh last time I checked." "I know they get so big so fast." Yann sighed. "Planning on retiring soon from being Chief. Been in the position for a long while. It's time I stepped down and give it to someone else. I don't know who I'm going to give it to but in time I will." Andrea said with a sigh. "Hey, you were one of the best chiefs I have ever had though." Everyone nodded in agreement. We finished catching up with each other and went our separate ways, promising to meet up again tomorrow.

It had gotten dark while we were catching up so my only lights were the street lights. I was jetlagged and tired as I walked back to where I was staying. Engines roared in the background of the dark city as people prepared to street race. I could faintly smell the gasoline from their cars from here. I entered my airbnb and collapsed onto my bed. As I did, a loud crash near my location was heard, and an odd robotic cry of… a fawn?

Part 2

[xumoonhao]

rant abt queer as folk under the cut <3 read it if you wanna hear abt the messiest show ive ever seen. youll regret it.

ok. right. so queer as folk…god im still so mad abt it lmao but like i need to get all my thoughts out bc how can one show turn out so bad….like it is LITERALLY 8 episodes that are all less than an hour. its probably only ~7h30m of content and so much of it just fucking sucks like. literally. ok anyways it does start off pretty strong, yknow?? first episode is standard for first episodes. introduces all the characters, gives some insight into their relationships and how they know each other, sets up some things yall know how it goes. and then like idk midway thru the ep is like the catalyst for Everything that happens is a shooter goes into babylon (babylon is the club that was a huge focus for the original series and was tied into the reboot) and kills and injures people because its a hate crime. it involves 2 of the main characters heavily (brodie gets shot in the arm protecting mingus who is performing a drag act on stage) and kills brodies best friend daddius, who is also '''dating''' (i use this term loosely, idk if their relationship was defined as this) noah, who is brodies ex boyfriend/fiance (i think??? idk man noah proposed to brodie with a small toy duck or something and then brodie abandoned him to go to med school bc 'oh no commitment is hard :(((' like fuck off actually but w/e) but it affects most of the main characters overall bc like…ofc it would. anyways the ep then kinda goes much of the way the first ep of the original series did w/the lesbian couple having their babies (twins who we dont know the genders of who are named flotsam and jettsam, named bc of mingus which is what the original series did w/justin naming the lesbian couples baby) who are fathered by brodie via sperm donation, and then everything sucks bc we find out daddius died in the shooting :/ which is like definitely a lot for one episode but its just how it is sometimes. also sorry for recapping the Entire first episode but its like literally the only episode that has a coherent storyline so. yeah.

anyways, this made me think the series would focus on like the characters and their healing from this traumatic event and trying to fondly remember their friend and just in generally trying to move on from it and like. it really…isnt like that at all?? like it is for a couple of eps, dont get me wrong, but after the main people spread daddius' ashes the show really moves away from like anything meaningful in terms of the characters healing or literally doing anything good for themselves or each other. like its really incredible. so many of the eps have absolutely MEANINGLESS relationship progress (except julian and noah. theyre the only solid couple) bc literally. none of the relationships fucking matter even a little tiny bit.

i will give a small rundown of things. please bear with me. brodie is the 'main' character (main in quotes bc most of the characters are main characters but brodie is definitely the focal guy bc all the characters are more or less connected thru him) is just a complete asshole. like literally the worst character which is shown to us a bit by way of how he treats mingus (mingus is 17 going on 18 btw. they fall in love w/brodie bc, and this a direct quote, 'he ate his ass in the bathroom' at the club so now theyre in love bc mingus is a teenager and everything is love at that age) which is completely blowing them off (instead of being the mature one bc hes an adult) rather than telling mingus how he feels before he and mingus end up having sex. like wtf?? literally hated that but anyways brodie gets WORSE bc at that point hes just shown to be a fuckboy which yeah definitely sucks but w/e its standard. he could be redeemed from that. but then he just goes on to show how much of a bad person he is by verbally abusing all his friends, manipulating them, lying to them, taking literally ZERO ACCOUNTABILITY for anything, and then apologizing to ppl in the worst way bc when they dont fall at his feet to forgive him, he starts a whole new fight and just ends up being even worse. like i hate brodie so much…god….like he literally did one good thing the entire season which was saving mingus from getting shot. thats literally IT hes a piece of shit the entire rest of the time!!! AHHHHH it makes me so MAD why is the main guy i cannot stand him.

god. it also makes No Sense bc there are scenes that show him and mingus to be like…a thing kind of bc mingus likes him. they really likes him but brodie simply does not care so mingus does end up being with other people which is like…i think at first an effort to make brodie jealous but it literally ends up in nothing which like…alright?? it doesnt really serve a purpose other than being an excuse for mingus being diagnosed with HIV at the end of the series :/ anyways back to mingus and brodie, theres a scene between them in the last ep of mingus being framed by angel wings (parallels a scene from the first ep) which make me think they were going to be a couple, yknow??? like yeah its gross and i hate it but, thru whats been shown, it would make sense. from a storytelling perspective, it makes sense.

but fucking SIKE lmao bc brodie is in love w/ruthie </3 ruthie and brodie do have history tho, so like…ok. they dated in high school before ruthies transition but then broke up bc yknow. things were hard. ruthie was confused back then and wasnt out as trans to anyone yknow how it is. but the thing abt everything that is so. SO confusing is that brodie is gay and ruthie is. a lesbian. but they are in love bc of feelings they never dealt with when they were kids??? EVEN THO RUTHIE HAS A PARTNER AND CHILDREN WITH THAT PARTNER??? but it gets even WORSE bc hey. hey guess fucking what. ruthies partner is cheating on ruthie WITH. BRODIES. MOTHER.

literally…i could not make this shit up if i TRIED. it is absolutely WILD and i hate it all i hate this show it is the messiest show and all of the characters SUCK like brodie literally deadnames ruthie to her face in the middle of a fight they have but they still get their dumbass fucking romantic moment, ending out the series by kissing in the rain like oh. my god. i wish i were dead i wish this show didnt EXIST.

idk if theres anything else to say. i dont wanna think abt this show anymore. kill me

[prodigal-explorer]

YESSSS I HAVE SO MANY

alphys from undertale. shes such a unique character and i’m obsessed with not only her growth, but the way she navigates the world, her guilt and her shame mixed with her strong desire to help others around her. the way she’s constantly battling severe social anxiety because she’s determined to use her gifts to make the world a better place, but she has a bit of a dark side because she’s willing to lie and cheat to get where she wants to go. but sometimes, things just go too far, and she loses control over the things she does. it’s so tragic and she’s just so fucking interesting. also she was the first openly gay character i’ve ever interacted with in my life and she’s the one who introduced me to the lgbtq+ community so uh thanks girl! for being the reason why i know i’m gay!

aubrey from omori. idk why the fuck y’all be hating on her cuz she’s the realest character in the whole damn game. she has such strong core values and she never backs down from them, even when they hurt her or put her in danger. aubrey would rather be hurt and true to herself than perfectly safe and a traitor to herself or others. she comes off as so strong and sure of herself but she’s just a little girl who was abandoned multiple times throughout her life, desperate for someone to just BE REAL with her. her life was ruined by what the two main male characters that get all the attention from the fandom did. she lost the one person who truly understood her. and everybody around her had a support system but she had none. she acted out of desperation, she wasn’t a bully like a lot of people like to say. i’m not saying she’s perfect (lowkey i am tho cuz fictional men get free passes all the time so i think she deserves one too) but everything she did was completely justified by the heartbreaking fact that she was ALONE. all alone. she’s my blorbo and i’m holding her in my arms. stop fucking attacking her and then defending those two guy main characters and calling them uwu baby gay boys AUBREY DESERVES SOME OF THAT TREATMENT CUZ SHES THE ACTUAL VICTIM HERE. but y’all won’t give it to her cuz she’s a fucking girl.

mari from omori. WE ARE BACK WITH MORE OMORI WOMEN CUZ THEY CANNOT CATCH A BREAK WITY YALL TOXIC BITCHES. first of all let’s get this out of the way she didn’t fucking abuse sunny. y’all just made that the fuck up because you can’t handle the idea of women being innocent victims who did nothing to earn their tragic ends. it ruins the whole fucking point of the game if she abused sunny. okay now that that’s out of the way MARI IS AN ANGEL. she’s such a beautiful character, the way she’s so fiesty but also so gentle and sweet. she cares so much about other people, and she just is so fun-loving. she goes out of her way to make life SPECIAL and meaningful. everywhere there’s beauty in the world, mari sees it. shes my blorbo too she’s so precious and wonderful and she deserves everything. and she’s not just an amazing big sister or an amazing girlfriend. she’s an amazing PERSON. she’s so beautiful and she spreads so much light in every room she walks in she MEANS SO MUCH TO ME.

nao egokoro from your turn to die. she is deadass the best character in the entire game and it’s CRIMINAL that she doesn’t get the attention she deserves. and don’t be telling me that it’s because she died early on cuz JOU DID TOO AND YALL HAVE NO PROBLEM GIVING HIM ATTENTION. anyway, her growth is AMAZING. her journey is beautiful and engaging and i am obsessed with the way she eventually started to find herself in her adulthood and discovers the strong, capable, amazing woman she had always been. she cares so much about her friends, sara and reko, and she works so hard to repay them for all the times they helped her. she tries to shoulder burdens so that sara doesn’t need to. she’s so protective over the people she loves, not letting people badmouth them. and she’s just SO PRECIOUS. a beautiful painter who’s so emotional that she sees the whole world in the most vibrant colors.

sara chidouin from your turn to die. idk why she gets so much hate (oh wait i do know. she’s a GIRL.) cuz she’s actually the perfect main character and i haven’t encountered a more perfect main character since link from legend of zelda. sara is so uniquely designed to the point where she’s completely iconic. she’s the perfect balance of self-insertable main character and individual with a personality and life of her own outside the whims of the player. her personality is so interesting too! she’s reliable and trustworthy and has an insurmountable charisma, which is typically a trait that’s given to male characters but sara wears it so well. she’s such an amazing main character and she’s definitely one of the biggest reasons why i think the game is so successful. and she’s just COOL AS FUCK.

all this to say: FICTIONAL WOMEN ON TOP. yeah i get it you guys want uwu little baby gay boys blah blah whatever but DO NOT DRAG WOMEN JUST SO MEN CAN BE ON TOP. we get enough of that irl so leave my baby girls alone please and thank you.

favorite character from any media BUT it has to be a woman. in the tags now go (pls talk to me about your favorite fictional women pls pls pls pls)

[ileftherbackhome]

like this is not meant in an insulting tone at all just fyi

because i wasn't prepared for her to be insistent on dodging accountability while she admits to making mistakes tbqh.

a lot of the tone on this record feels like "this is everyone else's fault except mine" and although the prologue does admit that she was fucking stupid last year, it still takes on a sympathetic "my mental health excuses this" tone that doesn't actually do as much to hold her accountable as she would like.

it's one thing to emotionally cheat and lie and manipulate situations to fit your narrative. its quite a fucking nother thing to act like you did nothing wrong at all even as you detail all the ways in which you make selfish decisions. idk, when i make mistakes, usually im aware that ive made a mistake if not during it, immediately after and i do shy away from the fact that it was a mistake.

and i do think her explanation in ms americana can explain a lot of this, especially when she talks about how her black and white thinking led to her eating disorder. she says that she wants to be a good girl so this record kind of shows how she twisted everything she did wrong into a "good" or justified behavior. it's classic disordered thinking that i really wish she would get professional help for because she needs to get over this mentality of "bad things happen to me and im powerless to stop them"

she made like 5x the amount of money joe did. she moved to london of her own accord. she could have left at literally any fucking time, unless he was physically abusing her there is no reason for her to be scared of leaving him if she's so unhappy she's dreaming of fucking her "best friend" for months into years before actually doing it.

she acts like any public criticism of her behavior is a "crucifixion" of her instead of her fandom holding her accountable when she messes up and makes mistakes. She thinks critique of her flaunting a man who uses slurs publically is "viper" behavior instead of her fandom being hurt that she hears people say slurs and fucks them as a reward for it.

it's such whiny, teenager behavior that i am genuinely SHOCKED she hasn't grown out of by now. idk its interesting to me that she released 2 hours of music because i feel like it shows how much of a fake product her other albums are in the sense that she polishes and tidies up the narrative on those records to not leave any room for criticism of her behavior at all. whereas this album is raw and unfiltered and i would be shocked if this wasnt the whole "vault" for this era. maybe there are like a few more songs (a short leash and a short fuse is interesting af idk if its ttpd or rerecording easter egg tho) but i doubt she wrote more than 30 full songs in the 10 months it took her to put this album together.

and i think the fact that she was like release it all is so interesting to me because it shows a desire to actually grow up and hold herself accountable and show all parts of her personality the good the bad and the fucking insidious.

and i genuinely love her for it, this is the most mature album she has ever released and i adore the courage it took for her to stand up and take a good hard look at herself and be like yea actually i am a fucking villain sometimes let me show all the ways im fucked in the head since yall have been begging for it for years anyways and making up your own theories so here is the truth.

and its great. its fantastic i adore this album for the complexity of it all.

but i also hate how much anger i feel listening to her whine about how she had no other option but to emotionally cheat for years cause she's just a wittle baby. i too contain multitudes lol anyways the joe quote made me so sad and this is the result

[gracefullou]

I wonder if yall realize u lot act like harries sometimes... Even if liam deserves to be ignored (cause we all know hes an ab*ser) yall woud STILL want louis to ignore him publicly even *if* we didnt know about mayas statements. Kinda like when harries celebrate that harry ignores liam time and time again. Louis will never be that guy btw, hes actually kind :)

That is so not true. In fact, out of all the fandoms, louies were the nicest to Liam. Nowhere near as bad as hrries that's for sure. Louies would never tell someone to k*ll themselves and try their hardest to tarnish their reputation and career just bc they made a comment about their fav's clothes. And if i speak for myself, for the longest time i was actually very empathatic towards Liam bc i've seen all the shit that's happened to him in 2019. I've seen a person in need of serious help (and certain people ykw turning their back on him). But saying that, there comes a time when you just can't look past a person's mistakes bc yes, he needed (s) help but he has to seek it, he has to at least attempt to do better, be better. Unfortunately, there was and still are no indications of that. The man just kept doing problematic things and when it comes to Louis, well he never supported him and honestly straight out uses him for 1D points (remmember how he deleted the aotv post but never his posts praising the almighty Hrry Styles and don't tell me bc he received hate bc i was shocked to see not only ot5s but louies fawning over that post). Still, i tolerated him for Louis' sake bc as you said Louis inspires kindness and loyalty even if they're sometimes misplaced. But after that latam circus? No way in hell. No more excuses for him. Not only the man is an abuser, but the way he so disgustingly invited himself to Louis' tour and used him to blow off the heat coming his way for Maya's book? so shamelessy walking around taking pics with fans and singing that 1 dead song over Louis for his gf to post after? The way he not for a second stopped to think of his "friend", that maybe he shouldn't involve him in such a mess? bc trust me he knows how the 1 deaders fandom works and ot5s did not disappoint. They did their damnest best to convince themselves and others that Liam is an angel that could never do something like that bc look! he's at Louis' concert Louis still loves and supports him therefore he can do no wrong 🥺(the way directioners somehow project Louis' kindness and morals over the rest of that band needs to be studied btw 😬). So, yes i will celebrate Louis ignoring a selfish friend who never gave him back half of the love and support Louis has always publicly showed him. Even before the abuse allegations but especially after that. Some louies were "disappointed" when Liam showed up at Louis' shows seeing it as a sign of support but my man never disappoints 😌. Not only am i happy that he ignored Liam's existence but proud as well bc he didn't allow his misplaced loyalty to cloud his judgement. My man is no supporter for abusers, not even his ugly ex-colleagues <3

[eyes-on-jesus]

Hi Caroline! ❤️ I am SO sorry because this might be long so take your time to answer please don’t rush!

This is embarrassing and difficult for me to admit but you always make me feel like I can come here to find peace with Jesus and because it’s anon here haha!

My ex boyfriend made me doubt my own faith by constantly telling me that if I was having a bad day or felt a bit sad or tried to talk to him about something he would either tell me I was ‘talking too much’ or acted uninterested or told me that I clearly was not Christian enough or walked with Jesus if I had a bad day yet would then tell me that he’d been sinning the same day he was constantly patronising me. I still felt like he was somehow ‘superior’ at points because of my own human nature and also things he would say to me that would generally make me feel like I would never be good enough (even though for ages my point was to say to him that I believe none of us are and that’s why Jesus died and why we need him) but it was like my own morals and understanding. Anyway, he ended up breaking up with me out of nowhere and blamed me for ‘my’ problems whilst constantly reminding me of things in my past that I gave to Jesus. He did this in public and then told his friends my personal business.

We ended up working things out as friends because we go to the same church and have some of the same friends at church and things actually felt good like I was glad I wasn’t in a relationship with him but like working things out / being civil was at peace. THEN, he tells me again out of nowhere that he doesn’t even want to speak to me or really be around me the day before just the 5 of us from the church were on a trip. He basically said that if I went he wouldn’t and I ended up telling him to just go and I wouldn’t. Jesus has done amazing, wonderful and incredible things in my life - I owe everything to him and right now I feel like I don’t think about this guy *too* much other than seeing him at church etc because he makes a big deal to act ‘holier than thou’ too… I hate that when I see him I honestly feel so angry and sometimes I just don’t want the best for him which is so horrible I know and I cried at my own heart that the very fact I want people to be ok but yet I don’t want the best for him after all of this, it’s like I want him to have some consequences for his actions and it’s horrible that I even think that but also part of me still does care deeply and even after we broke up initially I would have done anything to help him and I did time and time again and he even admitted that he used me and would be toying around with the idea of being close to me or not for his own enjoyment I guess :(

I’m at the point where I appreciate the people (leaders and worship team) at my church SO much beyond anything with how they have helped me. But I also don’t know if I should try to change churches for a while if this is how I feel or if I should even try to stay and deal with it but yeah. I guess any advice you have would be amazing and prayer if you would like to angel 🙏❤️ thank you if you took the time to read this and I hope God blesses your day beyond measure!

Hello dear. Thank you for taking the time to message me all this, I love getting messages and feeling needed so I really appreciate you taking the time.

First I wanna say, your Ex is abusive. What you are describing is literally emotional abuse and it breaks my heart that this happened to you. So many things that you were describing are so messed up on his behalf and it even makes me angry for you reading this.

My opinion is, that you should distance yourself from him and his friends at church and find a group of girls to hang out with that understand you and support you. I would not do group activities with your Ex if it's avoidable in any way. You guys need to grow apart and not be involved in each others lives anymore. It's not healthy for yall to be friends and still have contact. You need to be able to move on and be free from his influence. And have the chance to meet someone new, away from him. I can't stress this enough, stay away from him completely.

About changing churches: Don't. This is your community. These are your people. Do not let an abusive man destroy your life and your love towards all these important connections at church if it's avoidable. If there is real distance between yall and you are in different circles than him, I think you should be ok. I think your most important challenge rn is to find a new group of people to hang with and to entrust yourself to. The only way I would actually switch churches is if He keeps being abusive from afar and ruins your whole experience at church and you don't feel happy there anymore. But that would be so sad. I hope you find solutions.

About mental health: Having a bad day or a rough time does NEVER mean that your relationship with Christ is not strong enough. That's an old fashioned, outdated myth for christians who are not educated about mental health.

About not wishing the best for your ex: I totally understand. I think forgiveness is important but in order to forgive an abuser, there needs to be distance. If He is still active, it's very difficult to not be super angry and resentful, even if that's a bad thing. You need space to forgive. That's normal. Forgiveness doesn't mean staying in each others life and rekindeling relazionship.

I pray that you will find a new friend group at church. That you will create lots and lots of distance between you and your Ex and that you will find people to confide in that support you and that church will be a safe place for you. I pray that you find a group of girls that will become very very close friends. And that if things don't change and Jesus tells you it's time to leave, you will without looking back. I pray for you to be open to love again when it's time and that you will never be with someone abusive again. In Jesus name, Amen ♡

If you want to be friends and talk more, feel free to DM me any time ♡

[qlossytbh]

Hello🤙🏻

So I saw that you were taking requests (at least I hope so🤞🏻) and I’d love it if you did something with JJ having a twin sister and reader being JJ’s girlfriend and just that dynamic. I know it’s not accurate at all, but I had this idea in my head for a while. Thank you😘😘

𝐭𝐰𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐀𝐔! 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬 - 𝐣𝐣𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 mentions of weed, implication of sex, mentions of abuse and shitty fathers

𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 0.6k

𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞 yall this is my first time doing headcanon’s  pls be nice :,) i took this request in a little diff direction, i kinda talked a little more on how JJs twin sister would be/act. hope it still work!

𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

- You didn't find out about her until about 5/6 months into dating JJ.

- You walked out of the shower and saw her sprawled across JJ's bed, which had led you to think the worst.

- JJ seemed hella nervous when you saw her, but when she saw you, she fell in love with you. She was so happy to finally meet you. She let out a loud gasp followed by a squeal and shot up to hug you. You just stood there confused af.  

- "So this is the girl you've been yapping about nonstop?"

- You were shocked to find out they were twins but immediately found them nearly identical. She had the same street-like essence that JJ had and she carried herself around very confidently but in an "idgaf about anything" type of way (?)

- All she seemed to wear were baggy low-waisted pants with baggy crop tops (no bra, like EVER). She usually wore lots of JJ's caps.

- She has a very sarcastic personality and she annoyed the hell out of JJ ALL THE TIME. she always teases him about being born 2 minutes earlier. She has a great sense of humor.

- "So, y/n? What made you date someone like my little brother? God knows not a lot of girls tend to stoop so low" "Were literally twins" "Doesn't make us equally as cool"

- I feel like the version of her I created in my head is either a bisexual or straight-up lesbian. She's had lots of experience with men but they were all either horrible or traumatizing, so she leans towards the other side.

- Speaking of, she'd flirt with you constantly saying things like "JJ better keep an eye out or I'll steal you from him in a heartbeat." or "JJ hit a jackpot with you sweetheart." It was all platonic and it was in good fun only. Shed never to that to his twin brother lmao.

- JJ would groan whenever he'd catch her flirting with you. You laugh as you'd wave bye to her while JJ dragged you away.

- After a while of knowing each other, you two became the best of friends. She was a very likable person and you enjoyed her chill personality.

- She'd purposely walk in while you two were making out to get things shed "forget in JJ's room", just to annoy him. You would either get flustered or find JJs annoyance hilarious. You would think his mood would be ruined but nothing stopped that man

- However, sometimes, she'd walk in without knowing while you two were making out or about to go farther and shed be like "morning officially ruined." as she'd cover her eyes dramatically and walk out of the room gagging. JJ would just toss his shirt at her to get her to leave quicker.

- She smokes a lot of weed, but somehow always scolds JJ when she sees him smoking it.

- She has a lot of hidden trauma, but she doesn't show it. Much like JJ. She hides her feelings even more than JJ, she had never and doesn't plan on opening up to anyone, but somehow your starting to convince her that talking about feelings is ok.

- She had always been the braver of the two when sticking up to their father. She never so much as blink when he had one of his fits and shed protect JJ behind her own body. He didnt scare her and for some reason he never had the balls to beat her up, just shove her or scream at her really loudly.

- She hates talking about her father, and will get extremely mad when someone mentions him.

- Very protective over those she loves. She defends everyone of the pogues from the kooks and wont be afraid to cause a fight.

- She very mischevios and sneaky, if shes ever caught shell put on the good girl act and get away with it. Shes hot and good at lying what else do you expect.

- She and JJ get into trouble together all the time.

- TONS of baby pics and toddler pics of them together that she doesn't care to take out but JJ gets so embarrassed.

- Totally teases JJ with how soft he's gone for you <3

[nightswithkookmin]

You asking the wrong question my dear

The bigger question is why the fuck JM NEEDs JK to answer his calls.

This not the first time Jimin been said Kook gives him chest pains over his texting habits. This is the first time he's acknowledged it affects him personally and directly and makes him see red in his eyes which damn bruh. Jimin is so relatable lmho.

Jimin when Kook leaves him on read

I mean we kinda knew though whenever he threw that Kook's texting habits is annoying shade that his chest was hurting.

It's the really woke jokers who claimed he wasn't talking bout Kook in those moments that I want to slap not you🤣

We talked about how cold avoidant Kook brought out the worst traits in JM in their early days. Kook drives him insane sometimes 💀

I like him but there's something about him I don't like🤧

CHEST PAINS.

I'm happy we can have this conversation now because this is a part of their dynamics people are so uncomfortable with.

Delulu Shippers wanna act like everything is ok with them they would come up with the most bizarre theories to convince themselves Jikook are perfect and nothing goes dark in their love story. They don't fight, they don't hit eachother's knee under the table, they don't hide eachother's pillows at night, or text girls to hurt eachother.

Then on the far end you find the solos and crazy people who all they see when they look at Jikook is the vitriol and ghetto- JK don't like Jimin, he abusing Jimin, Jimin only likes Kook as a little brother.

Between these two extremists I don't know which I find tolerable.

JIKOOK IS GREY. SOMEWHERE IN THE MIDDLE.

As someone who's going and gone through a very tumultuous relationship I kinda have found a profound admiration for those two.

I understand better what JM means when he says he's lonely at dinner with Kook. My partner and I had a similar conversation recently and I told her the same thing and we laughed because I said if Army heard me say this to you even though we are a thing they would invalidate us and swear on their breath we were sisters.

Listen, when Jimin says he finds Kook not returning texts and answering calls annoying I KNOW EXACTLY HOW HE FEELS.

He's too mature cos my codependent ass would have called an ex to chat or started talking to the men in my dms out of spite. The best revenge is knowing they lost me rather than left me.

personally if I hit a friend up and they don't return my calls or texts- I barely even notice unless I NEEDED SOMETHING URGENTLY from them or unless I felt emotionally neglected.

So the question I'd ask is, does JM find it annoying because most times he just needs something urgent and Kooks inaccessibility becomes a hindrance to that or does Kook's action go to his emotional need as it hinders their chances for emotional closeness???

Does Jimin think Kook is reasonable?

I've been saying NO for a very long time.

NO.

All those theories of JM sides with the members over Kook because he feels Kook is unreasonable child like etc

All that theories over Kook feeling frustrated being viewed as childlike irrational impulsive by his own BF- yall listen. In my head I like my own perspective on Jikook.

Sticking by it.

If you have your own woke perspective I'm not into it. Will read it but prefer my own crazy theories. It's going good for me😫

the hill i will die on

JIKOOOOOOK

GOLDY

[dylanobrienisbatman]

The main problem with the whole mal vs the darkling thing in regards to being possessive (or really when it comes to any of their traits) is the fact that throughout, the darkling is clearly framed as the villain and his actions reflect that, whereas Mal as supposed to be the good guy and best romantic partner for Alina, and yet he has all these awful character traits and tendencies. So its less about how awful the Bad Guy is (since he's supposed to be), and more about how awful the person that we're supposed to believe is the best option for Alina is. I don't ship either, just my two cents.

Okay well... two things. First, your comment about "its less about how awful the bad guy is, since he's supposed to be", takes every comment I've made about Darkles out of context, which seems fitting since everything Darklina's spout about Mal is out of context. Him being the Bad Guy is fine, and if you like him AS A VILLAIN, and acknowledge all the bad shit he does, then my posts aren't for you. I think he's a very interesting villain, and a lot of the terrible shit he does that I have to keep making posts about make him a good villain, the problem is when the terrible shit the "Bad Guy" does is romanticized and viewed as the reasons why Alina SHOULD have picked him. So, don't assume everyone gets that "hes supposed to be awful". The point my post was making is that Darklina's love to call Mal possessive, but then turn around and act like Darkles literally enslaving her in somehow sexy and romantic. It's fucking not, and it's transparent as hell that y'all romanticize and sexualize the actually possessive character, and then project false character traits onto Mal. It's so transparent, it's almost funny.

But, more importantly, to your second, very wrong point, I wonder how much of the narrative about Mal having "awful character traits and tendencies" is actually a commentary on Mal as a character, or is it just Darklina's lying about things Mal has done and everyone accepting that misinterpretation as canon. Because, if were making a list...

Fuck boy - False! Mal was not a fuck boy! He was an attractive teenager who hooked up with consenting girls his age when he could, and he was not in a relationship during that time. Alina had never told him how she felt, so he is not beholden to her. (Also, nobody seems to have an issue with the fact that Darkles hooked up with Zoya in the show, that doesn't make HIM a fuckboy... interesting) (also also, nobody seems to discuss Darkles literally sexually assaulting Alina, and lying and manipulating her to get her to be physically intimate with him so he can use her... double interesting).

Slut Shames Alina - FALSE! The ever favourite callout line from Darklina's "He's all over you" isn't him slut shaming her. First, he has no idea what their relationship is like at that point, but more importantly, he is making an observation of her status in the little palace and how she has become his tool. He has dressed her up in his colors, made her put on a show for his benefit, and has created a situation where Alina appears to be his. Mal is noting that after months of searching for her, believing she was being hurt, tortured, or worse, when he arrives to save her, she looks like the Darkling's pet. (and, even if he WAS angry because he perceived them to be romantically involved, boy just spent months fighting for his life, lost multiple friends, and almost died to find her, all while coming to the realisation that he was in love with her, and then he shows up, after not hearing from her for months... I'd be pissed as hell too.) Important Note: He even acknowledges that what he said was wrong and tries to apologise, before Alina tells him that he was right. (Shadow and Bone, pg. 286). He also then apologizes, completely unprompted, for what he said. (Shadow and Bone, pg. 297).

Fat Shames Alina - False! This one is particularly laughable to me, because its one of the Darklina arguments that falls apart the second you actually read the scene. They are running for their lives in the forest, and Mal has to hunt and gather to feed them. He is noting that Alina's appetite has increased since he last saw her, and he makes a joke (ya know, how you do with friends) about how it would be easier to keep her fed if she still had her more meager appetite from before. He makes no comment on her weight, or her size, and he is not actually commenting on her appetite in a negative way, he is just acknowledging that it's a lot more work for him now that she eats more. Right before he says the line, the quote even proves that he isn't shaming her or thinking badly of her: "With a bemused expression, he watched as I gobbled down my portion and then sighed, still hungry". He is noting a change in her, and complaining that its made more work for him. If you think thats the same as fat shaming, well... thats a you problem.

Hates Alina's Powers - FALSE!!!! How to begin... do we talk about it was Mal's idea to hunt the stag in S&B, because he knew she needed it to be more powerful so she could stop the darkling? Do we talk about how he vowed to find the firebird for her, even though he was terrified of what all that power would do to her? Do we talk about how he literally died so she could achieve the power she needed to save the world? Or maybe we could talk about how he believed in her power more than anyone else, like when everyone was making bets about her abilities with the Cut and he knew she'd go further and better than anyone else expected her too, or when he tells her that he was never afraid of her powers, only what seeking all that power would do to her (which is literally the theme of the books, that power corrupts and seeking unmatched power can destroy you)? Mal being afraid of what is going to happen to Alina, being protective of her and worrying over her, is not the same as him hating her powers. He exists to help remind Alina of the themes of the story, and to guide her into maintaining her humanity.

Abusive - ... Do I even need to explain this one? Must I deign an explanation as to why this favourite Darklina lie is so fucking stupid, and also totally hypocrisy? No? Because we all know Darkles is actually the abusive one and they're trying to project their own shit onto Mal to further their abuse apologist agenda? Cool. Moving on.

Possessive of Alina - False! Throughout the entire series, Mal is quite literally the opposite of possessive, but yall just cant read. Not only does he quite literally step out of the way and allow Nikolai to court Alina without argument, which is the most direct example of him not being possessive, he also spends two full books believing, and repeatedly saying over and over and over, that they can't be together because he is not good enough for her. Mal believes, fully, that Alina deserves more than him, better than him, because he's just a tracker and a soldier, just a regular man with nothing to offer her but his love and his protection, and she is a Saint and should be a Queen. Possessiveness is the wish to own and control someone, it is literally the opposite of Mal believing that he's not good enough and doing everything he can to ensure that Alina achieves everything and gets everything he believes she is owed. A possessive character would not tell her to tell him to leave because he has nothing he can offer her, no title or land or country or crown. A possessive character would not promise to be the blade in her hand, because he believed he had nothing but the blood he could spill to offer her.

Angry - True! Yeah, omg, you caught us, Mal is ANGRY! Heaven forbid a teenager who is traumatized beyond belief and has to give up everything in his life, his position in the military (he deserted for her), his friends and the job he loved (Mikhail and Dubrov died for him, and he can't be a tracker in the army... because he deserted... for Alina), and, most importantly, he has to give up Alina (she should be Queen, he believes, and he has to give up the future he imagined with the girl he loves, who he was pretty sure loved him back, because she's a saint and queen and he's just a man), and more, is ANGRY. He has to be the one to find the amplifiers that he knows will end up hurting her, because thats what she needs to save the world. He has to sit by while Nikolai treats him like the dirt on his shoe and tries to woo Alina for his own personal gain (because Nikoalai did not love Alina. Maybe he came to care for her, but he proposed and spent all of S&S trying to get her to marry him when it was obvious they were not in love. He straight up says its so that the next King of Ravka can be married to the Sun Summoner. It's a power grab.) and he can't do anything about it. So yeah, Mal is angry. And yeah, sometimes he's even angry at Alina, just like sometimes she's angry at him. But they always find their way back, always apologize and try to be better for each other, and if you think anger is a toxic trait, and not simply a natural human emotion, might I suggest touching some fucking grass?

Idk why you thought I'd stand for Mal slander on my blog, cuz I will not. So, I'm gonna stop there, because I have shit to do today, but I really do wonder how much of Mal's 'toxic' or 'terrible' traits, that make him such a 'bad' love interest for Alina, really comes from Darklina's who refuse to actually read the text critically at all, and instead take everything he does and says out of context to further their agenda that Alina should have ended up as the Darkling's fucking slave forever, because thats the "girl power feminist" ending somehow. Mal supports her, loves her, sacrifices for her at every turn, and does everything he can do, to the point of literally dying for her, to ensure that she can defeat Darkles and save the world. He protects her, and when they end up happy and safe together on the orphange that they've rebuilt to help the children that were victims of Darkles war and genocide, he spends his days bringing her tea and cakes and flowers, kissing her silly under the stairs in the view of all the teachers, and calling her names like beauty, beloved, cherished, my heart for the rest of their ordinary life together, if love can ever be called that.

[sylensombrr]

Afterdeath Family Headcanons

No one asked for this, but I wanna talk about it and I don't wanna forget lol. Get ready, this is gonna be a long one. In my head canon, the Afterdeath family consists of Geno and Reaper,(obviously), who are the parents, and their kids Raven, Sorell, Silver, Goth, and Shino(as well as other fan kids like Candy, Momo, Demise etc. but they won't be mentioned. Might make a separate post about them if yall want/if I feel like it). They live in a huge gothic mansion, I don't know where it's located but if it's in an AU it would be next to a graveyard.(They give off huge Addams family vibes, so I had to take influence from that) They also share the house with two pets, a cat named Krueger and a raven named Archimedes, as well as three other people, Lotus, Rurik, and Palette, but I'll talk about those three later.

Geno(He/him) •Geno is in a group called "Triple Threat and Regret" consisting of him, Lust and Dance •They try to go out together every Tuesday, Geno's favorite location being Ccino's café •He's a bit of a hoarder but not much that it's a problem •Super fucking emo •Has a bit of a habit of adopting children he finds, ex. Lotus •Krueger is his cat. He found her in the graveyard. She was too old to live out in the wild, so he kept her •Horror movie fanatic, one of his favorites being A Nightmare on Elm Street •Coffee addict/Likes black coffee Reaper(He/they/it) •Best friends with Bill Sans •He's in a nameless friend group consisting of him, Bill and SD!Dream(Idea by @/_.dxnce.sxns.stan• on Instagram) •Huge heavy metal fan •Archimedes is his raven, which he treats like a familiar •Likes giving advice to his kids •Most of his kids vent to him rather than Geno •Surprisingly good cook •Wants to be or was in a band with Geno, Bill and 404 depending on the timeline/AU •He can play the guitar and scream Raven(He/him) •Loves to go to Comic-Con every time it comes around •Introduced Blueprint to rock •He and Blueprint and sometimes his cousin Gradient go to concerts together •He enjoys getting high with Blueprint and just vibing •Blueprint is a year older than him

Silver(He/it/xe) •May or may not be adopted(idk I read it somewhere, but now I can't find it) •Loves to play with Shino •His favorite siblings are Shino and Sorell •Trans male •He is a bit annoyed by Rogue but doesn't mind when ze stays there as long as ze doesn't talk to him •Has a tiktok and likes to make cosplay videos, mainly anime •Would cut you if you told anyone

Sorell(He/they) (If anyone has or knows where I can his canon info, please tell me I can't find it anywhere) •Afab nonbinary •Big anime and manga fan •Raven and them like to trade manga •He likes to hang out with Tatyana sometimes(They garden and take care of her animals together) •Asexual •Grayromatic Goth(He/they/she) •He knows about Palette and Cray's rivalry, but chooses to ignore it •He was originally pretty cautious around Lotus and Rurik but warmed up to them •Prefers to hang out with Lotus over Rurik •Cray is like a brother to him •Thinks Rogue is pretty weird but still likes zir •He tried to keep Rogue and Rurik from meeting out of fear of them fighting •Wants to wear heels so he can taller, but Geno doesn't let him(he's too young) Shino(She/her) •Loves to play with Sorell, Silver, and Rurik •She keeps trying to get Rogue to play with her and is mad that ze never does (I don't have much to say about her lol)

Miscellaneous Geno and Reaper(mainly Geno) doesn't let any of their kids ages 13 and under be in the house by themselves, so they have either Rogue, Bill, Dance, or Lust watch over them. As of recent, Geno and Reaper also like to have family get togethers with Ink ,Error and their kids(Paperjam and Gradient) as well as Fresh. It usually ends up with Error and Geno fighting/debating over something stupid with Fresh, Ink, and Reaper watching them while the kids play Mario Kart or Smash in another room.

Next onto Palette, Rurik and Lotus which is where I kinda diverted from canon mainly with Rurik and Lotus to the point it could be considered an alternate version of them. Palette(He/they) Because of being busy with battling against Nightmare and his gang, Ink and Dream couldn't and weren't prepared to take care of a child. So reluctantly Dream asked Geno and Reaper to take care of Palette until they could, who was a newborn at the time, which they gladly did agreed to. After that, Palette only saw his Dream twice again and never saw his Ink. They downright abandoned him. •Palette idolizes both Ink and Dream, seeing them more as these fictional action heroes rather than actual people •He refuses to accept that they abandoned him •He wants to go help them fight and reform Uncle Nightmare when he grows up •He didn't even know Ink's name until he met Blueprint's Ink •He has low self-esteem due to him believing he'll never live up to the fictional and unrealistic idea of his parents that he has •He can't use his magic properly due to never being taught by Ink or Dream, can only summon his roller but can't use it •Rurik will give him lessons on his magic later on •He loves and wants to be friends with everyone •Except for Cray •He thinks Cray is annoying but enjoys their rivalry •He's secretly jealous of Blueprint for having contact with his Ink Rurik(He/him)& Lotus(He/they) Rurik and Lotus somehow ended in the Underverse, and now they can't get back to the Fellverse. I have an idea why, but I'm not done with that yet. They didn't have any place to live, so Goth and Palette brought them to Geno and Reaper. Since they were most likely never gonna get back to the Fellverse, Geno offered to adopt them and let them live in their house. Lotus accepted while Rurik declined now but still decided to stay there. •Lotus did not want to go back to the Fellverse while Rurik did •They are the same ages as Palette and Goth(this may change) •They have never dated in this AU, but might in the future •Rurik idolizes his parents similar to Palette and doesn't realize that they are abusive •Lotus has never met Rurik's parents, so he doesn't know what he's going through •Lotus and Rurik have the same powers as Goth and Palette(this may also change) •Rurik refuses to use his roller since doesn't want to be seen as weak with his "girly" weapon •He uses knifes and daggers instead •Lotus hates his parents •Rurik really likes Rogue and later begins to idolize zir •Rogue sees zirself in Rurik and later acts like a parental figure towards him •Rurik likes to play with Shino •Rurik originally started to hang out with Cray just to piss Palette off, but then he actually began to enjoy his company

Okay, that's all my headcanons I have for now. Yall can steal these if you want, but a credit would be nice. Might illustrate or talk about these more in another post if I feel like it.

[psychshalala]

Hold on what is this whole Stockholm syndrome thing?

My mind truly cant comprehend how people think sometimes. No wonder my arguments always filled with questions. I just simply dont get it.

“A hostage and abuse victim stuck with their abuser” and u define that hak and yonas relationship?

Let me tell u little about how hak loves yona.

He gave his heart to her. Has unshakable trust in her. Respects her. Her number one supporter. Finds the joy in seeing her grow. Yona is his strength, his inspiration and his love.

“Princess, if you can be happy then to me thats my greatest happiness” - hak.

Did ur bae ever say that to u?... yeah i thought so.

He loved her in times he believed she would never return his feelings back yet he was happy as long as she was happy with whom ever she chooses. (Talk about respect)

He thought about her and her loneliness choosing to stay despite his own longing for his family after missing them for so long. (Talk about care and selflessness)

He is playful and goofy around her and yes he teases her from time to time to get her energy up. Fighting? More like goofing around.  (Talk about cuteness)

His trust in her is unbreakable. When she says she can, he might not always agree (with good reason) but he always has her back. Always lets her know he will be by her side no matter what.

He respects her, has faith in her whether in training, in the battle field or everyday. and he never fails to show her that and let her know. knows her strengths and weaknesses yet never stands in her way when she takes a leap and instead he gives her a hand. 

He is always the most proud of her accomplishments and Finds the strength and joy in seeing her grow and become stronger. Loves seeing her struggle because from struggle comes growth.

Forceful? Abuser?

Yall forgot so fast how this man literally had to feed her with his own hands to keep her alive after the betrayal toke place. That man carried her pain with his own. Not to mention having to leave his family, name and home cause the guy he trusted with his life, loved as a brother and called his best friend forced him to. Yet he still prioritized yona and his tribe before himself, was even willing to leave on his own taking full responsibility of something he never did. 

That man cried for the first time in this whole anime so far when he first confronted soo wan. the moment u realize holy shit, that guy is in fucking pain. U realize that that man had held his feelings and pain inside this whole time to help yona recover. The selflessness this man shows sets fucking standard to its highest level. AND HE STILL CARES ABOUT SOO WAN!

What u talking about Stockholm syndrome? Where u getting that from? From him licking her hand filled with honey? U guys Acting like he raped her.

Talking about forcing himself on yona. From the beginning he was always playful with his flirting. 1st time he tried kissing her he told her she could easily refused. And threw most them yona was completely oblivious 🤦🏻‍♀️ telling me he convinced her.

The guy apologized after kissing her in the cheek cause he thought he wouldn’t see her again. He was always gentle with her while being his playful self. And u always find yonas Guard down around him cause she is so comfortable being herself with him, to the point she only shows hak her weakness.

So easy to talk about a characters flaws when ur only looking for flaws. U even start creating invalid shit like that as an excuse.

What u call Yona kissing hak without his permission? Where are the complaints please? Where are the human rights activists? Where the lawyers at? Thats sexual harassment. This bish stole what might be his first kiss and in what right and thats before his confession so bo excuse. Yona told him she wanted to touch him and he gave her a hug. The lord said ask and u shall receive, where is the force here? She ran away cause of her smell yet that man embraced her and told her she smells so good and ur boy friend be here screaming at u to put some deodorant. know u damn self worth!!! And dont get me started on yu-hon and yong hi if u wanna talk being forceful but NOOoo thats so romantic! Fucking kill me please!

Soo wan killed her father, tried to kill her and since he couldn’t he forcefully toke over the throne and chased her out of her home. Never trusts her until she begs all the damn time while treating her like a child And now just cause he spared her life 2 times which he didnt really have any other choice cause then hell would let loose or maybe just maybe cause of little fucking guilt for what he did to her and she hugs him one time to Comfort a guy in pain and suddenly they are a match made in heaven? 🤡🤡

Basically when u look at the general picture soo wan broke yona and hak helped put her back together with stronger material. And yall want him to get out the way of true romance? Cause he is rebuilding a country on the blood and wounds of the people he so call loves? The born Genius soo wan couldnt find another way. U guys break my fucking heart. To see such injustice.

What a sad world we live in.

[manchesterau]

my thoughts after reading my policeman: SPOILERSS of course!! (ignore spelling or grammar mistakes) (this is very ramble-y and not as in depth as it could have been sorrryyy lol, if you want specifics send me an ask after reading this)

okay...so i read the book in 3 days....which....im very proud of myself bc it takes me so long to finish books but that’s not why you are reading this.

im not going to lie to you...i liked the book. i love angst, and this had plenty of it and i liked it. if you like books such as: harry potter, six of crows, red queen, red white and royal blue you will not like this book. i know many people found it boring, which yeah i can see that, but i didn't find it boring at all. but mostly because i love boring books but that's beside the point. 

the book flowed easily, there isn't a bunch of raunchy sex scenes that ive seen people say it has (i...the things ive read idk what book they even read????) and Tom does has backward views on marriage and what it means to be a wife. but he is not overtly sexist or misogynist or abusive, or subvertly those things either. to be frank he's a scared gay man in the 50s trying to not get caught and thrown in jail. that's literally it. (ill go more into detail on him later). but if you want to read this book i recommend you go in knowing that there will be homophobia (the word queer is used as a slur....3 times or 4 but no more than 5), expect outing, expect not supportive characters, and remember to have some compassion (more on this later).

next i want to go into characters: starting with tom, then Marion, then Patrick, and then the other characters. so if you are planning on reading this book or just dont want to be spoiled them....don't read the next bit.

Tom:

I'm going to get this out of the way.........Tom (who we never get to know outside of the two-point of views we are presented with, and who is being played by Harry) is a police officer in the 50s UK. to be frank when the rumors first went around I was mad like a lot of people were, which is funny because when we got those pictures of harry reading the book before all the speculation we were....happy, that he was reading a book about a gay man. now...I don't care honestly. I could call out the hypocrites (i won't) and honestly I'm hypocritical myself. I use to watch shows like svu (if you were to turn it on right now I wouldn't turn it off) and I enjoyed watching svu. I know and have seen a lot of mutuals, people on my dash enjoy cop shows like b99, or who like actors who have played the character of police before. so it would be hypocritical of me to be mad at him (this is just my single black opinion) and then go and turn on svu (which I don't do anymore). 

I'm not saying that no one can be mad, I'm not saying that the anger people have at him playing this role is bad or not needed or valid. all I'm saying is.....is that I don't care. I got angry over this months ago, and all that anger I felt I don't have anymore, and I can't tell you why. Harry is playing an abusive demented husband who traps his wife in a simulation, and then he will play a gay policeman trying not to face persecution..........and that's that. nothing I can say will reach him, he's playing these roles and there is nothing I can do. will I watch them (pirating of course) yes.

anyways let's get back to tom's character (do not use my opinion to silence other black people I will find you....don't do that shit weirdo): tom is......tom?? like I literally was expecting the worst when I read this because of what other people had to say. but as I'm reading him through the eyes of Marion (his wife) and through the eyes of Patrick (his...true love, fuck the 50s I hate the 50s) one word came to mind constantly: scared. Tom is very scared that he will be found out and his life will be ruined. His family knows about him, which is why I think his father (more on him later) pushed him to be in the national service (where he was a cook, which disappointed him). you don't realize his family knows and then his sister says something and then you go 'wait....THEY KNEW???' and then you will go 'oh so that's why-' 

tom does have old fashion views that you would expect of any man at that time (gay or not it's the 50s and gay men are still capable of saying sexist shit). when asked by Patrick if women should still work after having a kid he said no it's the men's job to provide, Marion said she would like to keep working, he said no when they do have a baby (they literally never did, and idk why he thought he could be intimate with her for that long to produce a baby lol). that's....the most sexist thing he said in the whole book (there maybe some small things im forgetting but nothing that really stood out). that's it. I know it's not small and that was a legitimate issue in the 50s but yeah. Just in case you were apprehensive about Tom's character being a raging woman-hater, no,....he just wasn't a true feminist yet (???? I don't know that's like..the most this book says about an issue women were facing at this time). It's still bad what he said (you'll see how Marion justifies it in the book and both Patrick and her don't agree and try and challenge him on his view).

i dont want to go too in depth but it is very obvious from the beginning he has no and i mean ZEROOOO interest in her at all (you can tell when it hits him that he needs a wife and he starts to act a littleee different but it's not romantic at alll). 

i feel like my review on tom is shit but like!! we don't really get to know him without bias from Patrick and Marion. I think Harry will play a wonderful Tom (even tho he doesn't not fit the description for Tom...at all....like at alllll).

To summarize Tom: very scared gay man from the 50s who is trying to do everything he can to not be found out. his family knows, even he knew at a young age, and yes he does quit being a police officer but it doesn't happen as soon as id like but then again he wasn't one for that long if you pay attention to the years.

Marion:

😑 

i just...if yall could see the notes i made on her.....

To summarize Marion: SHE IS LIVING IN LALA LAND, TOM LITERALLY SHOWS HER NO ROMANTIC INTEREST AT ALLL, AND WHEN SHE METS PATRICK FOR THE FIRST TIME SHE FREAKING NOTICES THAT HE'S ALL BLUSH-Y AND SHIT LIKE...GIRL.....

this is a note i wrote that sums up her and tom's relationship (which is more like friends then anything romantic i mean god their honeymoon was horrible and he proposed to her....nvm 😑)

listen...i can't lie and say i didn't feel sorry for her up until the end when she (spoilers: she outs patrick to his employer which ends up with him getting arrested). after that...ive never hated a character more in my fucking LIFEEEE like oh my god i was pissed

all she does is have fantasies about him being romantic with her (holding hands, hugging, etc) and none of them come true...BECAUSE HES GAYYYYYY i really....the author could have done a better job because there were so many damn red flags.

she's fucking annoying and whiny and yeah it sucked to be a woman in the 50s but you literally outed someone your husband was in love with and thought that you could just go back to being married like he's not devastated and instead of telling what you did you stayed unhappy and made your husband thing that at any point they were coming for him too.......*****

Patrick:

PATRICKKKKK

Patrick and tom deserved a fighting fucking chance i hate the fuck 50s fuck you 50s!!!! I absolutely LOVEDDD his pov and seeing Tom through his pov like it was just so damn refreshing seeing the world through his eyes and how he navigates his queerness in the society they live in. (the dichotomy between a proud gay man and a scared maybe proud but fear overrules that (talking about Tom here) gay man).

There was a lot more to say on how gay men were being persecuted at this time than how women were treated in this particular book. There were some little things here and there about what was expected of Marion as a wife and of a girl/woman at that time but it wasn't the focus.

I loved seeing the way Patrick navigated through his world of art and creativity. And how Tom seemed to fit right in with him.

I hate the things the author made Patrick go through (outed, sent to prison, stripped of his job, and later on in the present day he has had 2 strokes in his 70s). it felt a bit much but it's not too distracting (Patricks pov takes place in the past as he writes in his journal). 

Patrick and Julia (more on her later) are my two favorites in the whole book (Tom is third bc he's a very multi-facted character, Marion is not even on the list) and I wish we got a lot more of Patrick's pov.

Other characters!! (speed round bc this is wayyy too long):

Syvlie (Tom's sister): SYVLIEEE IM MAD AT YOUU I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU WHYY WHYYY

Julia: JULIAAAAA QUEEENNN (you'll see why i love her at the end) 

Tom's parents: his father is abusive point-blank. or at least i think he's abusive (verbally). as im writing this i am now realizing that the way Tom's mom reacts to him (sometimes crying) is bc they knew he was gay omg wow.

tom's dad is very much a man's man guy?? Picture a sexist man from the 50s....now picture him with a gay son.....yeah, I'm not surprised Tom went into national service then to the police force. you can tell he didn't want anyone to find out about Tom so he pushed him to do what he thought best and Tom went with it, scared. 

overall: please do not go into this book expected things to be all flowers and rainbows...this is a book about two gay men in the 50s yall.....

there is something to be said about the tragedy that is in a lot of queer stories, I'm more interested in how white these stories are (that's a rant for another time). but I don't mind my policeman, and i think stories like this should be told. because this actually happened (here is a link to em forster's story where the author takes inspiration from, he really had an affair with a policeman!!! who had a wife!!!).

the ending is bittersweet, and i couldn't help but curse for what could have been. Marion could have not outed Patrick (which she instantly regretted), she could have gotten a divorce (she even contemplated it), they could have been more secretive, Julia could have not said what she said. I think Patrick and Tom were sadly doomed from the start, I just wish they had more time together because I loved seeing their love (the little glimpse we got) bloom into something bigger than them.

thank you for reading!! here are random screenshots of my notes as i read this lol enjoy!!

can’t*

[hops-hunny]

ok now you got me going with the size kink stuff

AND I DEMAND A BLURB WITH POTHEAD NEV, SIZE KINK NEV, DOM!NEV, SPANKING KINK, but like the reader is sweet and act "innocent", and neville gets more turned on than he already is

PRONOUNS: SHE/HER

;_; yall fr treat me huh? IM FINNA TEAR THIS ONE UP. I'll do you one better, reader IS innocent. Not even as an act

Neville knew he was playing with fire when he first asked (Y/n) out. They were different in so many ways. While Neville was experienced in all sense of the world, she was untouched. Didn't drink, didn't party, barely left her dorm, hell she didn't even smoke before she started to date him. At first, he thought her whole innocent thing was an act or that it was at least a lot less than it came off originally. However when he went to touch her for the first time and she took the time to turn each of her stuffed animals around, he knew he was screwed.

It was like the world was tempting him, holding the metaphorical candy in front of his face. He'd be damned if he didn't eat it. Although they hadn't gone all the way yet her reactions from what he had done were more than enough. The way she'd moan and buck her hips onto his tongue as he tongue fucked her, begging him to stop because she was so sensitive but whining when he pulled away. The way he'd finger her in the common room, in the great hall too, whispering about how naughty she was for letting him touch her. It was all so addicting. He found himself being absolutely devoted to eliciting those noises from her whenever he could, loving how even when she was deep into it she'd still go as far as to cover her own eyes claiming it was "too lewd".

"N-nev. Can I ask you something?" she mumbled, walking up to him as he sat with his friends. He glared at them as they went to say something, standing up to grab her hands.

"Of course. Everything okay, petal?" he asked, stroking her cheek as he tilted her head up to look at him. He noticed how her eyes were bloodshot, pupils slightly blown out. "Are..are you high princess?" he asked in a shocked tone. It wasn't unusual for her to be high, just unusual for her to be high without him. She never did it alone, usually opting to wait for him. He ignored his friends' giggles, walking her away to a secluded corridor. "What is it you needed to ask me?"

She looked both ways before grabbing his hand, guiding it between her legs. His eyes widened at how wet she was before another wave of shock rolled through him. She wasn't wearing underwear?

"Petal just what do you think you're doing, walking around the hall with no knickers under your skirt? Only sluts do things like that, are you a slut?" he teased, rubbing his fingers between her folds slightly. He smirked as her legs begin to shake, a whimper falling through her lips as she clung onto his shirt.

"Wanted..no needed you to touch me. I wanna feel good." she said, burying her face in his chest. He drew back his fingers slowly, holding them to her lips. His cock twitched at her confused expression.

"Open." he commanded, sticking his slick covered fingers into her mouth as she opened. "Yes, just like that pretty. I'll make you feel good. But first I've gotta teach you a lesson." he began to drag her off towards his dorm, ignoring her protests.

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When they got to his dorm, Neville sat on the edge of his bed pulling the smaller girl towards him. He pushed her down over his lap, pulling up the back of her skirt. His pants tightened at the sight of her slick covered cut, spasming around nothing. "Fucking hell.." he muttered, rubbing a large hand over her ass. Without warning he brought his hand back down, a loud smack echoing around the room. (Y/n) whimpered, gripping onto his pants leg at the action, bits of her arousal sliding out.

"N-nev! Hurts..." she squeaked out as he repeated the action, massaging her sore cheek. She ground her clit against his pants leg, whimpering at the minimal amount of friction. "B-but feels good."

He let out a soft groan, landing a hard spank on her cheek once more. His eyes darkened at the sight of her red cheeks, marks in the shape of his hand. "Yeah? Bet it does. You're such a slut for me, bunny. Look at you, getting all messy and I've barely even touched you." he chuckled as she whined, moving her hips down onto his thigh. He continued with his ruthless actions, growing more and more impatient from the little noises she'd make, begging and begging him to touch her.

"Alright. Think that's enough darling. Want me to make you feel good?" he mused, laying her back on the bed as he removed her shirt. He felt his cock twitch at the sight of her. Her lips were all puffy from his relentless kissing, hair tousled as her hard nipples poked through her frilly little bra. Normally he'd remove it, but she looked so pretty that he hardly wanted to ruin it. He moved her skirt up once again, going to slide a finger inside of her but was surprised when it went in with ease.

"W-wanted you so bad earlier so I...I tried...I can't say it!" she cried out, covering her face. He felt his heart swell at her adorable actions, every bit of his patience was being tested and he was sure if he didn't keep going, he'd fail.

"Go on bunny, say it. Tell daddy what you did, hm?" he cooed, rubbing at her clit slowly. He watched as the girl tensed, hips bucking to meet his small movements. He stopped, pinching at the small bud when she shook her head no.

"T-touched myself. Thinking of you, wanted you so so bad." she said, looking up with him with big sad eyes, bottom lip jutted out. She was so pretty, so delicate and pure. His sweet little flower.

"Oh petal, bet your cunny is begging to be filled then. Don't worry, I'm gonna take good care of you." he muttered, freeing his cock from the restraints of his briefs. He rubbed his swollen tip against her entrance , pausing briefly as her small hand reached out to wrap around his wrist. His eyes locked with hers, softening at her expression.

"I..I don't think it's gonna fit. It's just...it's so big Nev." she whimpered out, tears springing in the corner of her eyes. He felt himself began to throb at the question, eyes trailing down to look at the sight. The size of her hole was impossibly small compared to his massive member. He knew it'd take forever to even fit half way but it was sure to be worth it. He'd just have to take his time, find some inner patience to do this in the best way possible.

"It'll fit, don't worry dove. You wanna be my good girl don't you?" he asked, watching as the girl nodded, her face relaxing some. He gave her a soft smile, leaning down to press a soft peck on her lips. He pushed in the tip slightly, hissing at how tight she was. An insufferable warmth grabbing him and pulling him in. He took both of her hands in his, intertwining them above her head. He couldn't help but admire how small she looked under him, tiny hands being swallowed by the grip of his larger ones.

He began to push in, letting out a groan at how tight she was, clenching and unclenching around him frantically. "You okay, bunny?" He asked, checking in at the halfway point. He opened his eyes, looking at her expression surprised to find her deep in her own pleasure, drool dripping down the sides of her mouth.

"S-so big Nev! M-ore more please! Need it." she begged, peaking up at him through weighted lashes. He bit his lip, resisting the urge to drive himself deep into her.

"As much as I want to love, I don't wanna hurt you." he reasoned, leaning down to peck her nose gently, halting the movements in his hips, he was surprised when she leaned up, capturing his for a longer period of time. He took back control, sliding his tongue into her mouth as he savored the of cannabis and ice lollies. He let out a groan of his own, tugging her bottom lip as he pulled away. He watched as she looked away, avoiding eye contact.

"But..I..I..I like it when it hurts!" she said louder than she probably intended. His eyes widened as he sat there, stunned at her words. His little princess saying such dirty things to him? He rammed the rest of his cock in, groaning at the feeling of her tight muscle engulfing him completely. The squeeze was so tight that he barely fit. His eyes traveled down to sight of her hot cream trickling out of him. He chuckled some, looking at her embarrassed expression. "Couldn't help it, feels too good!"

He sped up his movements, hitting his thrust deeper. "What does princess? Use your words." he gazed down at her as she babbled, hot tears rolling down her face as he continued to pound into her abused hole. With each thrust he could feel her stretching open more and more but no matter what, his cock was still far too big.

"C-cock so big! Oh Neville, please! It's too much." she wailed, back arching off the bed as he continued his relentless pace. She let out a chorus of moans, bucking her hips forward slightly to meet his thrust.

"You look so pretty like this baby. Give me one more, one more good one and then I'll stop." he moaned out through her. His moans began to grow frantic along with his sloppy thrust. Gripping both of her hands in one of his, he moved a finger down to rub at her clit, desperate to draw one more out of her. As her eyes rolled to the back of her head, he knew she was wrecked. Shortly after, her high came as she began to flail, moaning and sobbing out for him in a desperate choked out voice.

All of it was too much. Not too long after with a few more rough thrust, Neville came deep inside of her whimpering as he buried her head in her shoulder. He groaned as he collapsed beside her, pulling her close to his chest. As he looked down at her, he felt himself twitch at the sight of her glossed over eyes, cum spilling out of her swollen cunt.

"T-thank you. Can we do that again sometime?" she asked, eyes full of the innocence they always held.

Yeah, Neville may have been fucked but she would be harder.