#yall kno what i mean tho lol

[lazyfox411]

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[meltwonu]

| 🍒 CH-CH-CHERRY BOMB! 🍒 |     [CHAPTER 17]

pairing; dom!seungcheol x camgirl!reader

this chapter’s notes; camshow, intercrural sex, lots ‘o teasing, dirty talk/the absolute tiniest bit of degradation, some cum play/cum eating, seungcheol having a kink for thighs/thigh highs 😳😗 welcome to the weekend my bbys!! I hope yall are having a good day/night!! Also again, another inbox roundup tomorrow(also an updates post)!! 💕 Might be a regular thing for the next 4-ish weeks ‘cause I have been so busy this month 😭 and I can’t believe there’s only 3 more chapters of CB left!! 😭😭 some bangers on the way tho LMAO 🤣 As always, thank you so much for the love and support!!💕💕 Have a great rest of your weekend and enjoy ch 17![cheol voice] seventeen right here 😌💕🍒 

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Seungcheol doubles over in laughter, tears blurring his vision as his laughs turn into quiet wheezes.

“God, this is so embarrassing.” Seokmin mutters; cheeks burning crimson when he glances over to Jeongguk who shrugs back. “Maybe I really should quit…”

Jeongguk scoffs jokingly, “Maybe you shouldn’t have lied. No offense, but all the staff here probably have at least seen her before and you just so happened to lie to her actual boyfriend. That’s honestly really lucky if you ask me! You should buy a lotto ticket!” Seokmin whines back, shifting on his heels as he watches Seungcheol start to wipe the tears away.

“Hyung, can you please take this Edible Arrangements I got you so I can go ask Namjoon-hyung to fire me?” This only causes Seungcheol to laugh harder and this time, Jeongguk can’t help the giggle that bubbles past his tightly pursed lips.

“Please!” Seokmin begs, shaking the basket of skewered fruit at the older male. “I heard the diner across down is still hiring, I can still save the rest of my dignity if I leave now!”

Seungcheol shakes his head, eyelashes wet with tears when he takes the gift from Seokmin’s hands to place it on the countertop of the concession stand. “Hate to break it to you but she works there and one of the staff is also one of her regulars so I think your best bet is workin’ here. Embarrassment and all.”

“So, okay… But you’re not mad?”

Jeongguk peels the cellophane off of the basketed fruit, looking to Seungcheol for permission before he takes a skewer. “Go ahead. And no, I’m not mad. If anything I should apologize too, I shouldn’t have let you keep lying when I already knew. But also, to be fair, we weren’t really… official ‘til recently.” Seungcheol shoots the younger male a sheepish smile; cheeks a pretty pink of their own. “And it’s kinda been nice meeting you guys too. It’s great to know you’re not all weirdos.”

Seokmin laughs lightly, breathing a sigh of relief. “Okay, cool, ‘cause this place pays really well and I’d hate to stop working here and you guys are a lot cooler than the coworkers I had before.” He rolls his eyes jokingly, leaning up against the countertop as he picks off a strawberry from the basket.

“Don’t even get me started on this coworker I had at the last place. His name was Mingyu, I think? Suuuuuch a kissass. I had to move to manning the register at all times just so I could avoid him pickin’ his nose in the backroom and then pretending like he was doin’ shit.”

“Hey, Seungcheol-hyung?”

Seokmin’s inquisitive voice has Seungcheol turning; setting the rollerskates in his hand down onto the bench. “Yeah?”

“Do you think it’s weird that we’re, like, watching your girlfriend?” He tilts his head in thought, eyes blinking up to the ceiling. “I don’t want to overstep or something if it’s weird, y’know? I’ve been thinking about what Jeongguk said earlier...”

Seungcheol grins back at him, eyes twinking. He’d also thought about that before too, when he first found out that Jeongguk had also watched your streams.

“I don’t really mind ‘cause at the end of the day, it’s you watching me fucking my girlfriend.”

“Well, I’m glad he took it… well?” You giggle, tugging the white thigh high up your leg.

Seungcheol pulls off his shirt as he sits on the edge of the bed; tossing the wrinkled material onto the floor as he laughs under his breath.

“He did give me an Edible Arrangements while I laughed so hard I cried. I think he’s learned his lesson.”

xcaliburDK: good news, i didnt quit!!

chwenon: i was gonna say

chwenon: u literally started like last week

universe_WZ has donated $75

angelhan has donated $75

therealchan99 has donated $50

therealchan99: u look rly pretty in ur white set!!!

“Aww, thank you! It’s one of my favorites~ And ‘xcaliburDK’, I’m glad you didn’t quit!” You wink at the camera, giggling softly in Seungcheol’s lap as he peppers kisses along your shoulder.

A shiver runs up your spine at his gentle touches and you easily melt under his soft kisses and roaming fingertips. He ghosts them across your breasts, teasing you through the thin lace as you mewl and squirm against his cock that’s pressed firm against your ass. “A-ah, S--Seungcheol…”

tangerine_kwan: she looks so happy now that she can call ur name out lol

alphagyu97: now i cant pretend its me tho

gentleman_josh95: i mean i guess but are u even built like him

alphagyu97: well

Your body slowly starts to fill with warmth; soft stuttered breaths falling from your lips when he drags his fingers down your torso until they play with the hem of your panties. “M-more… tease me m-more…” He grins against your shoulder; hooking a finger around the waistband of your panties and tugging it away from you before letting it snap against your skin.

“‘Cheol!” Whining, your legs snap shut on impulse as you feel a gush of wetness soaking into your panties.

“Ah, ah, ah, part those legs, princess. Don’t make me have to punish you.”

kitty_junjun: no thats what the shibari stream is for right? Right? 😩

artist8hao: is that really happening bc i want to see it

alphagyu97: u guys should do it and think of it as like a rebrand of the channel ykwim

hoshi_tiger_xx: jdfkjhf like a grand re-opening under new management

therealchan99: what is this, a restaurant?

chwenon: u guys should come up with a new channel name too or sth

Seungcheol manages to read off a few of their comments; committing some to memory knowing that your eyes were still sealed shut as you focused on his soft touches.

He drags his fingers down further, humming when he can already feel how wet you were getting. “Hmm~ Already soaked through your pretty panties, baby~” Your head rolls back against his shoulder, nodding gently as you start to grind against the fingers that he uses to press into your clothed, wet folds.

“F-feels good w-when you, ah, t-tease me…”

Unbeknownst to you, Seungcheol smirks, eyes twinkling at the camera. “You really like it, huh? When I just touch you gently like this. Not enough to get you off but just enough to get you soaking wet until you’re begging for my cock.” He pauses; pressing a soft kiss to your skin. “I wanna try something with you, pretty baby~”

You gulp as you raise your head from his shoulder and he retracts his hands from your body as you shift your body and slightly turn to the side to face him.

Seungcheol’s eyes are blown wide with lust and you can already feel his cock throbbing against your lower back as he smiles dreamily at you.

“I think you’ll like it too.”

A stuttered moan falls from your lips as Seungcheol’s cock slides past your tightly clasped, yet shaky, thighs.

“O-oh, ‘Cheol, this--this is…” The words die on your tongue as your head falls forward and Seungcheol is quick to reprimand you, just as he draws his hips back.

“Baby, I want you to watch yourself on the screen. I want you to see your cute face while I tease your pretty body.” He moans; thrusting between your wet thighs as your hazy eyes peer at the laptop’s screen. Your lips are swollen and your pupils are blown wide when you catch yourself and you can see the head of Seungcheol’s cock only just breaching past your clamped thighs when he thrusts forward.

You let out a guttural moan, eyes rolling to the back of your head when he alternates between thrusting between your thighs and letting his cock slide against your soaked, panty-clad mound. 

He hadn’t bothered to undress you at all, but you didn’t mind. The material of your panties only added onto the pleasure with every drag of his cock against you.  

Seungcheol teases you even more; dragging his hands down to your thigh highs and letting his fingertips play right underneath the hems before pulling the material away from your thighs and letting them snap against your skin, much like he’d done with your panties.

“Ah, fuck, m-more! P-please…” He repeats the action a few more times, playing with the sheer fabric of your thigh highs before he draws his hips back. Except this time, when you expect him to thrust back between your legs, he wraps a hand around his cock instead, guiding himself until the head of his cock is rubbing up against the sheer fabric.

“Fuck, you’d look so pretty with cum all over your pretty thighs. I should cum all over your panties and your white ‘lil thigh highs and get them all soaked. Don’t you think they’d be cute? Sticking to you like a second skin? Translucent ‘n soaked through with my cum?” He laughs under his breath, watching through the laptop screen at the way you bite your lip and furrow your brows at the thought.

“I--I want t-that… I want S--Seungcheol t-to make, ngh, a m-mess…”

angelhan: i kno we say this all the time but can u upload some pics of that later

angelhan has donated $75

universe_WZ: seconded cuz thatd look so fuckin hot

universe_WZ has donated $50

alphagyu97 has donated $75

alphagyu97: fuck, like a lil angel covered in cum

Seungcheol teases you and himself at the same time; rubbing his cock against your fabric-clad thighs. He spreads precum onto the material, licking his lips when it already becomes translucent and sticks to your skin.

He positions his cock back between your thighs once he’s had his fill and quickly finds himself doubling his pace when he sees how wet you’re getting his cock without even having taken your panties off. “God, look at you. I don’t even need to fuck you to get you this wet. You just need to rub your ‘lil cunt against my cock and it’s enough for you, huh? I should make you sit on my lap, rub your pretty ‘lil pussy on my cock ‘til you’re cumming over and over again.”

“Ngh, yes! Fuck, Seungcheol! I--I can feel your c-cock throbbing between my l-legs… Please, please c-cum, mmh, all over my s-skin…”

“That’s right, baby. So fuckin’ desperate to be covered in it too. And always so fuckin’ pretty when you are.”

You let out a whimper as you try to focus on watching yourself just like Seungcheol had asked you to. Your lips are parted in soft breaths and you can’t seem to unfurrow your brows as Seungcheol chases his pleasure behind you.

angelhan: what if

angelhan: seungcheol in thigh highs lmao

universe_WZ: sub.cheol

sleepy_wonu: sub.cheol

universe_WZ: jinx

sleepy_wonu: fuck u 

You lick your lips at the thought; although you knew Seungcheol would have a hard time relinquishing his dominating nature.

But your mind wanders as you continue to think about it; various images of Seungcheol tied up underneath you while you fucked yourself on his cock running through your mind. You let out a shaky moan, to which Seungcheol hums.

“What are you thinkin’ about, princess?”

“Um… ah, n-nothing…” He thrusts between your legs hard, making you jolt forward as you yelp.

“Princess...”

“I--ah! J-just thinking a-about… y-you tied up, ngh, to--to the bed and m-me fuh--fucking myself on your c-cock… ‘n me u-using, mmh, my toys o-on you...” Seungcheol smirks, pulling his cock from between your shaky thighs as he slightly pushes you over until you're on your back.

He spreads your legs as you look up at him and he’s quick to wrap a hand around his cock as he jerks himself off above you. “Oh, I bet you’d love that, wouldn’t you? I bet you’d be so cute trying to be the domme for a night.” Seungcheol teases.

You find yourself clenching around emptiness as you think of the possibilities. You definitely wanted to try it if Seungcheol was willing.

“Fuck, but first, gonna cover your pretty body with my cum.” He groans; thrusting up into his palm as he chases his high.

“C-cum all over me, Seungcheol…”

The donations and comments sound off in the back as you maintain eye contact with Seungcheol who’s brows furrow when he starts to feel himself about to cum. He scoots back a little; growling when his cock throbs in his grasp and he cums all over your, already, soaked panties.

You let out a moan when rivulets of cum hit your lower abdomen and you’re quick to reach down and scoop some up to bring to your mouth, smearing the warm substance against your puckered lips before licking it off. Whimpering, you dip your fingers into your mouth; this time pretending they were Seungcheol’s instead of your own.

He guides his cock until the head is aimed at your thighs; streaks of cum settling into the sheer material of your thigh highs. “God, you’re so damn pretty...” Groaning, he milks his cock for every drop of cum before he’s stopping to catch his breath.

“You came so much but I didn’t cum yet, ‘Cheol~” Pouting, you turn your head to the side to face the camera. “Tell him he has to make me cum now~”

kitty_junjun: well u heard the lady!!

hoshi_tiger_xx: make her cum and let her cream her cute lil panties even more

therealchan99: oh fuck yeah, get her off without fucking her cute cunt

Seungcheol leans over your body until the two of you are almost face to face, eyes twinkling with playfulness when you feel his sticky hand playing with your thigh highs again.

“D’you hear that? Let’s give them what they want, baby.”

The sounds of donations and comments once again get lost as Seungcheol finds himself on his knees between your legs.

“Ready?”

When you slide into bed after your camshow’s ended and Seungcheol has properly taken care of you, he’s quick to tug you into his chest. 

The two of you let out soft sighs at the warmth that envelopes you both as you finally start to settle in for the night.

After a few minutes, Seungcheol clears his throat, catching you just before you drift off to sleep.

“This is so random but have you considered, I dunno, rebranding your channel… with me? I was thinking about it and kinda wanted your opinion...”

You blink up curiously at him, urging him to continue. “I mean, yeah, of course! I don’t really know where to start though since it’s always just been me. And to be honest, I wasn’t sure if you wanted to either so I never brought it up.” You snuggle into his warmth, yawning as the sleep threatens to take over.

“But let’s talk about it later, ‘cause ‘m tired now, ‘Cheol. You really didn’t have to make me cum twice…” You mumble, “I can still feel my legs shaking...”

His soft laugh reverberates in your chest and he’s quick to press a kiss against your hair as he tugs you in closer.

“It’s ‘cause I like to spoil you. And okay. I’ll remind you when you’re more conscious.”

“G’night, ‘Cheol...”

“Goodnight, baby.” 

[slaytimesover]

Getting the C**NTS back together

—————

made up text chat between the euphoria gals, set after the finale & minus (SPOILER) fez getting in the shootout

I JUST WANT MY GIRLS TO BE HAPPY BROOOO

content: wholesome, tryna be realistic w how they text

—————

March 1st, 2021

Maddy: hey anyone

add cass back i still have the bitch unadded

Kat: bro don’t u know her username

Maddy: no this is my new phone rmb

literally showed u in class today:/ rude mf

Kat: shit sry babe

Maddy: </3

*Kat has changed the chat name to cassies hot tub vomit💯💯*

Maddy: HAHAHAHAAAAA GTFO

BB: 🤣🤣🤣Funny ash Nahhhh Kat

Jules: uMM bro how come idk anything abt this…

story time ???

*Kat has added Cassie*

Cassie: Um what the fuck guys….

Kat: SORRY CASS THE OPPORTUNITY WAS RIGHT THERE

BB: Can still Smell that shit on me ICL🤣🤣😂

Maddy: 💀💀fucking helpppp

Jules: I STILL NEED THAT STOYTIME ???

Cassie: Can I ask what the hell is going on

Is this new or smth? Also the names not funny

Jules: new as in … like 3 months old then ye

Cassie: WTF

Not a single one of yall has talked on the other chat for ages is it bc u guys were fucking here?

BB: Ya we have

Jus like u banged Nate for Ages n Shi 💀💀

Kat: out of POCKET

Maddy: LMAO BARBARA

Jules: PFF

no hard feelings tho cass :)

we all wanna meet up soonish

Maddy: yup friday at 8, my place

sorry this fkn introduction was brutal but babe we wanna properly get together again

all 7 of u cunts

Kat: 7? there’s 5 in the gc🤨🤨

Jules: wait wait wait can we like BACJTRACK to the cassie hot tub thing??

Cassie: No Jules we really can’t

Also Maddy are you sure?

Maddy: girl puked her guts out at my party after drinking herself half to death <3

sent me into fkn cardiac arrest ill tell u that

love u though babe

and yes ofc. we outta put this past us

Cassie: MADDY!!! Girl!!!!

Jules: LMAO POOR CASS

no shame in it weve all been there ❤️

Cassie: Shut upppp

Tell me if I’m ever gonna hear the end of that story…

Maddy: @Kat forgot to add em but i want rue rue & lex there too

going full out bitches

Kat: cass keep dreaming lolll

BB: Jule boutta see her Ex Yooooo😫😫

Kat: fuck fuck oh yeah

are yall cool now? i saw u two tgt after the play

BB: Play was Fire Though Lexi Ate🔥🔥🔥

Cassie: …

Jules: uh

well

that’s the question 😃

Maddy: jules b what happened?

Kat: yeah ive been meaning to properly check in holy crapp

Jules: we aren’t seeing each other anymore in that way, & maybe its for the best but im still processing it yk?

it was… weirdly calm even after the intervention bullshit went down

ig we had an unspoken agreement that we shouldnt be together

even if theres still love between us

its hard to tell where we stand is all im sayin

Kat: shit dude i hope ur okay

Maddy: yeah…

so much respect for u

itll get better n itll be worth it <3 i promise

wish i coulda realised that on my own, ur fuckin fearless

Cassie: I hear you Maddy

I’m happy for u Jules

BB: Go Jule 🙏

Cassie: I mean, if ur all okay then I’ll come

I really want to make amends I don’t know what had gotten into me

I feel terrible

Maddy: a friend told me that in her experience, it was just the right amount of attention at the wrong time, yh? anyways girl i kno u deserve amother chance even if u fucked up

& jules

same goes for u n rue, how abt we all hang out like old times and see where it goes on from there hm? pretty pls

Jules: i cant promise that itll nott be awkward but im down mads!

Maddy: bettt

*Maddy added Rue and Lexi*

Lexi: uh hello

what is this gc name 😭 don’t remind me omg

Kat: 😹😹

Maddy: okay listen up girls, my house 8pm friday, not optional so clear ur shit. no excuses.

& im talking to u lex with that fez mf

Lexi: noo stop💀

BB: She Blushin through the screen on Godd LOL

Rue: wait hey what’s going on

Maddy: rue rue

we wanna come together like the olden days & properly have a girls night

think we deserve a celebration after the shit weve been thru this year

Lexi: really?

thats sounds so nice I like that !!

Kat: ur play def sealed the deal for us dude<3

we fr just need a big catch up & some actual fun

Jules: literallyy

Maddy: everyone in fr?

Lexi: yess

Cassie: Yes

Jules: yep!

Kat: ofc

BB: Yass

Cassie: Rue?

Lexi: um I think fez just took her phone hold up

Jules: NOT YOU WITH FEZ AGAIN AHHH

Rue: YO WHO THE FUCK IS CASSIE AND WHY SHE THROWING up in the bathbutt

Kat: man said bathbutt😭😭

Rue: TUB*

Tu(/(/)£&&&@&@&&&@@@@@@@

Sorry55555555555555 that was fe££&&

FEZ TOOK My phone sry guys

Maddy: sadly were not inviting fez </3 shame we can’t meet the bf lexi but rue come join us brooo

Rue: i mean…

we can try

lotsa shit went down between us tho are u all good?

Cassie: Yeah, & we can just take it step by step anyways

Jules: yepp, i wanna see u all

no matter what

Rue: well

ill try n be there

so sure guys:)

BB: YOOOO It Worked

Maddy: ahhhhhh! cant fucking wait

god i missed this bs<3

[romancemoving]

 🎭 👺

✨ @emptyvictory. meme. still accepting!

🎭 he spends an uncomfortable amount of time looking at his own art sometimes and i dont mean... flipping through sketchbooks or whatever... i mean he’ll do that just to see where his head is at, but sometimes he’ll take out something he painted and just gaze at it and then convince himself it doesnt look great lol. which is just... strange... virote never does art for the sake of being good. he creates so that his mind doesnt explode lollll. sometimes he just has to get everything out somehow. but then he’ll pull back and be very, very hypercritical about what hes done. and that might be because he has to find a reason to nitpick at himself. even if its ridiculous. kind of like how he says he hates his nose and wants it fixed. its very irrational but aljlgjljgf.... it just be that way. :(

sometimes i just wanna shake him until his lil brain falls outta his right ear

anyway if u see him just staring at a canvas he’s being weird about himself just tell him to knock it off lol

👺 i used to be a pageant queen........... got hella ribbons for my smile even tho i needed braces lol. not that my teeth r crooked its just my jaw is!!! yayaya ya i did the whole nine yards. put on gowns. some of them poofy, walk across the stage with a big ass light on me... answer some questions.... smile............. go sit my ass down and wait. ive won some, ive lost some. ive been 1st, last, runner up!!! 

like i kno the industry is evil and weird and shouldnt exist but like.

havin trophies 4 bein pretty is kind of amusing lol like... yall looked at me and gave me a crown, a ribbon, and a trophy just for havin good genes! thanks!

demolish the industry tho.

[hunbomb]

roommate! jaemin

i hope u guys like this one! i do :) 

warning: not proofread LMAO

jaemin: a huge flirt

like we been knew sis okay bUt its not like it defines him ya kno??? like yes he is a flirt but its not like he does it purposely

however that doesn’t stop every single girl from liking him

except for u cause you’re ~not like other girls~

jk you are 

cause who wouldn’t find na jaemin attractive?? tf???

okay but like the dealio between you and jaemin is that you are best friends 

and you have a fat crush on him (u have since the beginning of highschool LOL)

luckily for you, although jaemin is a flirt, he isnt interested in any girls so he doesnt bring any to your dorm

and even if he did, he would tell u because it would be shitty not to 

anyway

so u met in grade nine and yalls friendship popped TF off right away like you joined nomins duo and made it a trio in the span of 4 months and everyone was like???? this mf got that close to them that fast???? mastery

jeno was like ur brother from another mother fr

you and him told eachother everything and sometimes he would tell you things he wouldnt even tell jaemin. like everyone has those people that although theyre close w, there are some things you’d never tell and that goes for jeno and jaemin

jaemin never told jeno he listens to taylor swift

and jeno never told jaemin that he watched all of my little pony friendship is magic on netflix

but since you and jeno shared some personal things w eachother, you obviously told him about your crush on jaemin

and since you had a crush on jaemin, you never got like super super close with him just cause ur feels got in the way 

mainly just you never got as close to jaemin as you did jeno

sure you were bffs, but it wasn’t on such an intimate level

cause everytime jaemin would look your way you’d be gasping for air

so timeskip to senior year

everything is great

your friendship is still strong af and you guys are all planning for post secondary

jaemin and you get into the same uni right.... and jeno gets into the one the town over so your friendship wont take that much damage

but!!! jaemin wants to room with you!!! and ur like!! fucufejdsk!!!

cause like ofc you want to who wouldnt????? but you have such a massisve crush on him you dont want it to get in the way of not only yours but also jaemins university experience

you say yes tho and next thing you know youre unpacking all your stuff

the dorm is kind of small like there isnt a lot of space,,,,, theres two bedrooms but the beds literally take out the whole room HAHHAHA and then there is a chill space with the kitchen connected and u and jaemin have to share a washroom LOL

“jaemin what the FUCK did you eat??? beans??? i bet it was beans this shit smells so bad i-”

“it really do be ya own friends sometimes” -jaemin 2020 :((((((

anyway so like university life is good you and jaemin invite jeno over every weekend for a sleepover and vice versa its so cute GAH

but like,,,, here’s where the drama comes in

one day you are facetiming jeno and youre telling him about how you really like jaemin and blah blah ya know the usual

and youre not really looking at the screen cause youre doing your homework and focusing on that but jeno sees in the back that jaemin has fully entered the room

and you dont notice cause hes silent and your still talking but jeno is trying to get your attention UDHSJIA

and when he does you see in your part of the screen jaemin just,,,, standing there

cue you ending the call with jeno SO FAST and turning around like oH i thought you had classes right now?

“.... they ended early”

“i see” ://////////

you like get up super fast and just walk around him and go into your roomm shutting the door 

poor jaemin is just like “what”

cause to be honest he never really considered this situation ever happening yah he thought you were prettier than most girls and he liked the way you were able to talk to people so easily but he never would have thought you harboured feelings for him

so he kind of just leaves it be cause he knows that you def dont want to talk about it and is willing to wait for you to be the one who brings it up

so time skip to dinner youre both just eating in silence but you dont like it,,,

“what i said was true” you say and jaemin looks up and he knows where this convo is going but he lets you speak

“i didnt ever plan on telling you because i really like our friendship but i guess i wasn’t careful enough”

your heart is beating hella fast but you try to look unbothered and its going pretty good until jaemin asks you something

“how long have you felt this way?”

OKAY like it shouldnt be a big deal to tell him bc you already exposed yourself but for some reason that question just hit you deep cause you realized that youve liked him for so long and he never felt the same ya know

“i dont know,,, since the start of highschool? when we became friends i always thought you were cute and it just turned into a full blown crush”

jaemin just sort of nods in response “oh okay”

so that night your just laying in your bed full of regrets

you know things are about to be super duper awkward between you and jaemin and you wish it didnt have to be like that

so over the next couple of weeks its more awkward than it has ever been before and the sleepovers with jeno seem so divided 

its either jeno and you or jeno and jaemin its never the three of you anymore :((((((

jaemin isn’t ignoring your feelings though, dont worry! hes just trying to sort his out

because your confession kind of opened his eyes

he doesnt want to force himself to like you but he cant help but admit that when he first heard you talking about your feelings a huge warmth spread through his chest and he may or may not have uncovered some feelings

these feelings were always there but he suppressed in grade nine cause he thought you’d never like him and you just wanted to stay friends

so he pushed them down and never thought about it again

but obviously that didnt happen because now youre on his mind 24/7 and he wishes that he could just talk to you but hes kind of nervous

so after taking advice from jeno he tries to talk to you more, like asking how your day went and starting up conversations

youre  kind of like “what u playing at son” but you leave it cause you know jaemin would never do you dirty like that

it stays this way for a while until one night theres a particularly bad thunderstorm and jaemin is scared of thunder

and so when youre just playing on your phone jaemin opens your door slightly and has this scared look on his face

and you know that jaemin is scared of thunder so you open your arms without any words being shared

a huge boom of thunder makes jaemin squeal and jump into your arms

and he gets comfy under the covers as youre holding him, no words shared between you two

he starts to feel much better and this sense of comfort washes over him like,,, youre his home

and as hes falling asleep he softly mutters

“im sorry it took me so long”

and youre just straight confused like what does that mean is he talking about his feelings or just the fact that yall havent had such an close encounter in a while 

the next morning you wake up and jaemins arms and you guys are facing eachother

and hes already awake so when you oepn your eyes you find him already looking at you

“thank you for last night, youre the best” he whispers and youre like all good fam i understand

but then he leans in closer and is like “i should have told you this so long ago, but i am in love with you”

your eyes widen and youre like wh AT the FUCJ your heart is beating at like 420 bpm and ur shooketh

he just smiles and pulls in you in closer and its just a super soft moment and no words have to be said

that night you guys are cuddling on the couch after dinner when jaemin just asks you be his gf

OF COURSE YOU SAY YES! you have been waiting for this moment for god knows how long

jeno is all like damn fina-fucking-ly i’ve been watching this romance play out for like 5 years! 

its super cute

its even better that you guys are roommates because youre already living together so you get to see eachother everyday

jaemins room as become a guest room for sorts as he now shares a bed with you

jenos happy af hes like YESSS I DONT NEED TO SLEEP WITH JAEMIN IN OUR SLEEPOVERS ANYMORE

jaemin: >:(((((( tf is that supposed to mean

you just laugh and youre like im not complaining hahaha and jaemins heart just stutters so bad 

he really does love you and he cant believe it took him so long to accept his feelings

and one night he tells you about how he pushed them down and youre like “exCUSE ME we could have been dating all this time u pussy”

sad jaemin :((((( 

anyway ya its so good its a win-win situation 

you get to room with the love of your life and its just magical there are so many soft moments between you two and just UGH relationship goals

i need me a jaemin

[vexalia]

dnd character ask meme 1-69 for liz

1. why did they choose their class(es)? their subclass(es)?

Well first of all the party needed a healer. But also her mom’s a cleric and I feel like she just kinda. Connected with her diety and was like well. Okay then mr arkay lets do this

2. before they met their party, what was their main goal?

Eh she didn’t wanna be stuck in falkreath forever so she wanted to travel, but other than that she’s content to just kinda. Do her thing u kno

3. what is their goal right now?

I mean right now currently she wants to figure out what constitutes a treat for a hyppogriff. Also like kill alduin and prevent the appocolypse and take dredge on a picnic. Maybe bone parthanax we’ll see

4. if they could learn one spell that isn’t available to them at present, which spell would it be?

Spell of make polly sleep with no nightmares

5. do they follow a higher power? what are their thoughts on divinity?

Babe. She’s a cleric. She’s 100% certain the gods have A Plan and destiny is Real and what makes them divine is 1) either omniscience or the kind of insight that comes with power and an entire plane of existence to chill on and 2) the ability to fuck with other peoples’ destiny and like. She’s a cleric or arkay as far as she’s concerned he’s got her destiny he knows what he’s doing and whatever he says is what she’s gonna do. Idk about other gods tho she might be ready square up depending on who it is

6. which party member do they relate to the most?

Probably dredge right now

7. which party member do they understand the least?

Sun drop but even he doesn’t understand himself so

what are three songs that suit them?

do they care about their appearance? how much effort do they put into presentation?

No lol. She’s got scales she’s wearing clothes that’s the end of her consideration.

how often do they lie? what situations cause them to be dishonest?

She doesn’t really see the point in lying. Growing up it would have been a pain to try and keep lies straight and they would have unraveled eventually, so she didn’t bother, and now she’s been drifting around with these fools so why lie to somone when they’re not in ur life long enough to see any fruits of ur labors. If she really thought it was the only way to get something, she’d lie for it, but it would have to be a pretty important thing.

what skills are they proficient in? Why?

Rat catching, for eating reasons. She’s probably like pretty good at memorization cuz it would be important to have good recall of what’s gone on in people’s lives if ur like. The town funeral home manager lol. Proficient in being lazy and impulsive.

have they ever been in love?

Not to date

what do they dislike about themself? Why?

She feels like she’s missing something that everyone else has (partly because she’s a lizard and according to volo’s guide to monsters they feel things less deeply than other races. The dm and I have decided thats bs but) so she doesn’t like that she can’t figure out what it is let alone like. Go get it.

what is something they love about themself?

She gives a warning and then she acts on it. It’s in bad form to bark worse than u bite, or to bark a lot and never bite. She’s certain she’s got the right ratio down.

do they trust their party? why or why not?

Almost entirely. She trusts them, but she’s also pretty sure that if it really really came down to the wire and everyone were hanging over a volcano and some rando was like “i’ll let 3 of yall go u just gotta pick who drops and dies” they’d all pick her to drop.

what are their feelings on the people who raised them?

She loves her mama!! She’s sad she came second to her mom’s relationship with her goddess, but such is life. She’s only bitter about it sometimes.

what do they dream about, when their dreams are their own?

She wants to feel at peace with herself and the world at large.

do they see themself as a leader or a follower?

Follower

what haunts them? what doesn’t?

She has made some uh mistakes but mostly she tries to approach everything in the past through the lense of “I didn’t know then what I know now, so I can’t judge my past through my present’s eyes. If I’ve learned, I’ve learned, and if I haven’t then it’ll come up and bite me and then I’ll learn”

which of the five senses do they rely the most on?

Sight

do they follow their head, their heart, or their body?

Her body

what is a promise they’ve broken?

“It’s going to be enough.”

how do they feel about nicknames, titles, or labels that have been given to them? how do they feel about their name?

I think she’s a little perplexed that she only gets one name honestly. Lizardfolk are I guess very literal with naming so I think she’d be like “why am I stuck with One Thing to be forever?? Why can’t I wake up and say ‘today my name is leisure’ and then tomorrow be like ‘today my name is vengeance’ why do I have to be One Thing Only”

which of the four elements speaks to them the most?

Water

what stories do they like to tell? what stories do they like to hear?

She tells mostly anecdotes and stories she’s collected from her life and the lives around her. She likes epic poems with plenty of action and battles and lots of characters.

who do they miss?

Her dad, Ava (i’m calling it now, mark my words)

how do they mourn?

Quietly. She doesn’t feel particularly entitled to grief since she follows the god of death, so she tries to keep it on the down low if she’s feeling sore about someone.

who would they kill? who would they kill for?

She isn’t quick to kill because she knows everyone has a time laid out for them. She wouldn’t want to interfere with that. She would kill if her god asked, and if the party or her mom was in danger and she felt she had agency in the situation she would kill to keep them safe. She would kill for Horse without even like thinking about it.

who would they save? who would they be saved by?

Save: Polly, Sun Drop, Dredge, Horse, anyone she feels is alone

Saved by: Horse, ???, hopefully the party lol,

what do they seek out from others?

v a l  i d a t i o n

they’re given a blank piece of paper–what do they do with it?

Doodles a Really bad stick figure of herself doing something exiting

do they seek control, or do they want less of it?

She’s good where she’s at. If she Had to pick she’d want a little more control but like eh.

what makes them cry?

Happy things mostly

which party member do they go to in a crisis?

arkay

which party member do they worry for?

Polly. She’s got a lot going on

what’s a secret they’ve kept?

Spoilers

what is their favorite thing to hold?

Rocks

what do they smell like?

Dirt. Not like hummus dirt just like. Hard packed warm dirt.

are their hands calloused, soft, or something else entirely?

Scaled. Soft tho

do they enjoy poetry?

Nah. She doens’t really get it

what are they attracted to in other people?

Loyalty

what are three words they would use to describe themself?

Steady, devoted, chill

why do they fight?

To look out for her friends

what do they need to learn?

Any facts. Int modifier of -1 :). Some things are worth fighting destiny for.

how do they hug people?

Very stiffly.

what do they deprive themself of?

;)

when they meet someone, what is the first thing they notice?

Their accent

what do they see in their future?

More of the same.

what makes them smile?

The little things. (rats)

can they sing? can they dance?

Big no to both lol

what is the most beautiful thing in the world, for them?

How things change

from whom do they seek validation?

Arkay, the party, her mama, parthanax maybe

which is more frightening to them: day or night?

Night. She donest have dark vision

what was their education like?

She struggled, ngl. She didn’t like learning things that she didn’t thing would pertain to her. She’s the bitch in ur algebra class going “aren’t we always gonna have calculators. Why would I ever need to solve for a letter. Isnt this what google’s for. What does homework really accomplish”

whose hand do they reach out for?

Dredge’s

what animal do they most relate to?

Iguana

what makes them angry?

Shirking responsibility

what do they think their role in the party is? what is their role in actuality?

She’s pretty sure she’s just here to keep everyone as in-one-piece as she can manage. I think she’s actually there to be kinda weird and bring the rest of group together either around or in contrast to her.

what is a quiet passion of theirs?

Collecting little pretty things. She really wanted a rock from shimmerless cave lol

do they whisper or yell more often?

Whisper. She really tries not to yell; it gets squeeky

what kind of flower would they choose to pick from a meadow?

All of them, all at once, into one giant bouquet

outside of otherworldly forces, what do they believe in?

Duty, diligence, human kindness

what fight has scared them the most?

The drauger swarm while dredge was trying to pull the lever

do they value mercy or justice more?

Mercy. It’s not her place to judge

what is holding them back?

No drive on this bitch

who makes them feel warm?

kids

what makes them laugh?

Usually whatever’s coming out of Sun Drop’s mouth, or whatever polly’s doing. Just seeing World Wide Webster

what was the best moment of their life?

Spoilers

how would they describe their party members?

Spoilers

[alukaforyou]

and ALSO sry to post bs on main im mostly just talking to myself in my personal tag half the time so yolo, no need to respond to this or reassure me or whatever but these days i licherally question how much of my - sry to sound like a broken record - bs is dépression or just my shité mentality, like i rly was not designed to last, huh? physically or mentally? lol. like who gets motion sickness on swings lmao anyways. i think i give up too easily. theres a bunch of reasons y but i dont feel like saying. its a different thing to kind of kno something, and to admit / speak it (confront it). i could psychoanalyze myself all day and tell u exactly why some things are the way they are but its too unpleasant to neatly state stuff like that u kno?? like... *i kno* but im not gonna say i kno. anywho, i digress. so i give up easily and kind of have a defeatist mentality too, its so exhausting lool. actually its weird cuz duality of man, i'll be rly determined / stubborn abt doing some stuff and not care abt fear of failure with certain things but when it comes to My Life / My Future i just think i cant rly do anything? i mean that literally like i got no skillz *laugh crying emoji* not particularly good at anything, and art - the only thing im maybe arguably ok at - i dont wanna do as a career, that is art therapy for me i dont feel like commercializing it. not interested in working in my major, maybe things wouldve been different if i went to culinary or cosmetology school?? that sounds fun. or if i majored in bio cuz i was so good at that, or even if i majored in japanese language or literature or idk. but no regrets tho cuz i learned a lot abt drawing in art school which i can use for myself. and hmm i like staying home and not rly going out of my way to meet new ppl so connections what? i h8 hearing how most opportunities come through the ppl u kno cuz its true and ik like 10 ppl tops so hm very sexi of me :^) i just feel like im p much f*cked and it rly doesnt help that i have no functional dreams, goals, or aspirations nor the confidence and drive to work towards anything so ah ok cool. u kno suga's songs "the last" and "so far away" ? that p much sums up my feels minus the part abt having to deal w fame obviously LOL. its so easy being a student (for me at least) but being a good student isnt really worth a whole lot in the """""real world""""" and the current education system doesnt even rly prepare u for reality or w.e like Deep Sigh also the political climate rly lookin like shité out there like hmmmmm do i even wanna try so hard to be here anymore tho??? also going back to the self confidence thing, ya idk her LOOOOL like it doesnt very much bother me tho? i really, honest to god have no idea what my redeeming qualities even are. being nice? and my mindset re - tolerance and compassion for others, etc, ya im rly proud of that actually but besides that i mean like what can i Do tho like hm im not particularly good at anything also im hideous like uglee but thats ok too like none of this Bothers me, thats just literally how i Am so ok fine, but i feel like it makes it hard for me to exist in the world i happen to be in??? and i realize im speaking with a huge bias here cuz my brain is totally out of whack im p sure if some1 saw me / read this they would lit be like um u literally do not have it hard girl, which is fair ur kinda right actually from an objective pov, probably? its amazing how um. hard? of a time my brain is having given my relatively ok circumstances but thats just how it is ig. and if i may quote shakespeare - o full of scorpions is my mind. and its weird cuz duality of man - i actually have a lot of good times w friends and whatever i have a lot of fun, im not even very Sad or in Agony its all very a mild? sensation? but that might be because my plan b is to simply *** so nothing rly fazes me anymore lool.

its usually a v confusing emotion, im either feeling happy, or if not that, very ???? im literally that duwang quote get a feeling so complicated its just "ajdjsjsja" idk its not overly repulsive and upsetting im like :s LOL u kno wat at this point idek what im even saying anymore but its good that im writing whatever cuz im gonna need to look back on this later and organize my thoughts for presentation cuz remember i have a s.o now???? i wanna let them kno so we r on the same page, and i dont feel like im tricking them, i thought it over more and there are like 4? major cards i wanna lay out on the table early on and they are 1. im not that close w my family emotionally so do not seek their approval or expect to deal with them much. 2. personal ideology / political views like im bi lmao and pro lgbt if that wasnt obvious also i dont rly wanna be around racists / terfs etc and if ur right wing or not on that respect women juice uhhh bye.. 3. my weak ass mentality how i might Maybe *** in the future like no promise but errrr theres one more but its a little more negotiable and also too early to discuss so i wont mention it but i already got the first two outta the way so ya. theres the most troublesome of all, #3. the last thing i wanna do is traumatize someone that loves me (and i love back) with that kinda thing, its too late for my dear friends whom i love, sorry i didnt kno i was gonna be like this LOL yall already got attached but its a little different with my s.o cuz i feel like its not too late to uh.... stop getting as attached LMAO like dam i've known my girls for almost 10 years whereas i've only known my s.o for like a month.

and this is totally not gonna come across right but if my s.o very understandably desides to dump me id be SO RELIEVED LIKE WOOOO ok cool cuz like essentially what i'd be saying is you are getting attached to someone who's future is not as stable as other people, including u. *huge exhale* from the bottom of my heart, my bad lol. and then i probs wont ever get involved w. a s.o again, sorry to reference snk in 2020 but remember how e*win smith is single cuz he doesnt kno when he will ***? big mood. i have never acted out on my interests before but i was like ok for once lets go off the shits and do smth ooc, i uh... didnt expect for it to actually go anywhere tho so now im like ???? i shouldve thought it through more tho, like i felt low key irresponsible af and selfish and dumb for getting involved w. someone even tho i Know how I Am like...... Also i just lov being single and staying home and chilling alone lmao like i seriously...... never get loney....

ok so what was i talking abt? how the passage of time makes me nervous cuz idk how i can manage to keep up w it??? how i feel like i cant do jack shit???? that life is hard???? and maybe a bih just wants to rest? permanently?????? i think the most irritating part of all for me, like what i am most mad about at myself is that i have no dream. yikes. naruto, do u think thats sad? well yoongi said its okay, and what counts is just being happy, so i will console myself and forgive her and idk just try my best for the time being??

[thefudge]

scattered thoughts on sanditon so far 

this is a fun romp from andrew davies and there’s a lot to like and be invested in

but i do have some observations/ gripes

obviously davies is going for a modern/sexed up adaptation of austen and i have mixed thoughts on that, cuz there’s a lot of interesting stuff you can do with that, but you can also botch it up big time (i’m glad he didn’t do this to p&p back in 1995...i wonder what that adaptation would’ve looked like today. probably full monty darcy, lol). so i think some elements verge on the ridiculous, for instance having almost every dude in this show strip naked in front of a crowded beach several times in a row. ditto for theo james. i don’t mind the view (hehe) but i think it’s inserted awkwardly at times. like okay, we get it, it’s a beach resort and we’re trying to make austen edgy in 2019.... just maybe indulge a little less and literally keep it in your pants. 

this being a more modern adaptation i don’t mind hair and make-up anachronisms, but i DO mind the fact that rose williams sports this really weird shade of fuchsia lipstick in almost every single scene. stop iiiit

speaking of which, rose williams is a cutie and i loved her on reign, but i don’t understand what she’s doing with her face in this series. don’t get me wrong, she does a good job of making charlotte very likable, but the only way she can express...anything, really, is by making these confused faces, like a child practicing frowning in the mirror. it’s...really awkward. and she does this all the time, whether she’s happy or sulky or nervous, she just always looks like she’s trying to figure out the fibonacci sequence.  i mean it’s hilarious when u have theo james going all gruff to her about his feelings and rose williams is that gif of the blond lady doing math in her head. her acting is pretty good otherwise, but those faceeeees.

esther denham is my goddamn FAVE, gosh i love a Disappointed Queen and i’m glad she’s getting away from that boring skeevy brother. for once the incestuous siblings didn’t do it for me at all (which is pretty much the point lol). there’s nary a dude more uninteresting than edward whatshisface, my gaaaawd (also, davies trying to ramp up the sexiness with those scenes of edward brushing her hair or doing her stays...lol, sir, this rly isn’t your strength i’m sorry)

but i have to say that i thought esther and clara would be a thing. because my gosh, the chemistry during their scenes! the way they’d glide past each other with utmost contempt, while being disquieted by each other @___@. i mean it’s an austen adaptation, so i guess they’d never go there but!!! i need fic (would’ve made clara more bearable at least. i appreciate her character objectively cuz she’s an interesting pseudo-antagonist and you don’t get many of those, but blerghh. she was insufferable)

i was kinda (actually very) disappointed that the relationship between sidney and his ward, georgiana, wasn’t really developed. like there’s one more episode to go (as far as i know?) and they’ve barely scratched the surface with them. i mean he’s halfway decent to her now.... but ehh. i feel like this was a missed opportunity. after all, this was austen’s unfinished novel, so andrew davies & co could have added more material between these two. this, to me, should have been the real heart of the series. 

i like otis as a character, but georgiana/otis was zzzzzz. i suppose that they’ll end up together? zzzzzzzzzz (i frankly ship her way more with arthur! she finds him infuriating! he’s a sweetheart! the shenanigans!)

that German doctor is the real MVP, i feel like he should be sanditon’s no. 1 bachelor. i mean the shower rod??? providing pleasure to all the ladies in town, what a hero 

the soundtrack is rly rad! and the cinematography

i love how the show captures austen’s growing interest in the industrialized modern world which was emerging in the twilight years of the regency and i feel like maybe the show should’ve invested more time in that modern aesthetic (steampunk!) rather the awkward sexual shenanigans 

so....i can’t delay the inevitable anymore, can i? sigghh okay here i go

sidney/charlotte...annoys me. 

HEAR ME OUT.

 u know that i love LOVE “enemies to lovers” and hate/love stories, i LIVE FOR THIS SHIT. 

and i was ready to gorge on this dynamic because it looked delish 

 but i felt like michael bluth finding the dead pigeon in the paper bag. 

from what i can gather, sidney is supposed to be a mixture of darcy and capt wentworth, “haughty” and proud, with a history of romantic disappointment, a brooding sexy hero with a heart of gold. but to me this dude just comes off as weird. 

there’s legit no reason for him to be THIS mean to this young girl he just met. he is not just an asshole, he is ridiculously over the top about it, to the point where he makes a fool of himself. i am FINE with a man telling a woman off, believe me, but it has to have some kind of motivation, some kind of reasoning behind it. here, it just feels like the plot needs him to be utterly shitty to charlotte so that “sparks will fly”. that first ep convo on the balcony??? wtf???? it was genuinely bizarre. i got weird incel vibes. and every time he lashes out at charlotte (at least in the first 4 episodes) it’s fucking silly, because it’s not like he lashes out because she’s scratching the surface of his innermost painful memories. no!!! many of their arguments revolve around basic things that he could easily clarify!!! which he does eventually, so like whyyyyyyyyyy. charlotte keeps telling him he’s being vague for no good reason and he still does it. it doesn’t make sense he’d be this guarded and outspoken at the same time. like, fine, keep that shit to yourself, don’t tell ppl, but don’t also get pissed at them when they don’t guess your mind. again, i love an antagonist dynamic when it’s done right, but here many times it’s just pointless bullying, it’s not sexy or fun or challenging. the writers keep making charlotte apologize to him about how “wrong” she got him and how he makes her doubt her judgement but it sounds fake to me. like a) this dude went out of his way to be a total assface to you from day one, b) none of that bullying was him trying to coax you into having a more complicated view of the world. when darcy rebukes elizabeth, he is hinting at her limited point of view. he’s not blatantly negging her or calling her stupid as this dude does. AND U KNO WHAT.

i’d be absolutely fine with him calling her stupid IF IT MADE SENSE WITHIN THE STORY 

like if charlotte had truly done smth stupid during the first episode, sure, fine, it’s somewhat warranted 

but for him to decide she’s an idiot for no other reason than her making some honestly super nice remarks about his brothers when he asked for her opinion is THE HEIGHT OF NONSENSE 

it’s even more nonsense when 2 episodes later he decides maybe she’s not that dumb after all FUCK U MR. EDGELORD

and it makes me pity charlotte cuz she’ll probably marry this dude and have to deal with him in his old age when he’ll be even more insufferable. 

and i totally get the appeal. i do! i mean their scenes are manufactured to make you want more of them, i see the chemistry, it’s there (and we’re already at a point in the series where he’s trying to make amends) but at the same time i’m put off by this dude’s intensity, cuz it’s not the hot kind of intensity...it’s more like he’s a giant dumb baby who breaks things. meh. theo james is very pretty tho, and he is doing the most with his character (that voice def helps!). but i wish this antagonistic relationship had been written better, because it could’ve been glorious

this is why i think sidney/georgiana should’ve been so much more present. just like darcy has his georgiana we need the humanizing element, we need to see more variety from this dude than just “guy who clearly needs anger management classes”. 

i’m pretty sure i’m in the minority or possibly one of two ppl not won over by this romance, and i can’t lie and say i don’t root for them. too much of this show is predicated on their clashes for them not to work it out and get together, but boyyyy do i wish they’d done it a bit better

i almost feel like a reylo anti lol, but at least kylo ren doesn’t neg rey every single time they talk 

also, i go back to rose williams’ faces because they just rly enhance how clumsy this dynamic is. theo james is doing byronic asshole 2.0 and charlotte looks at him like he’s developed a smell lmao. i mean the scene where she catches him naked? she turns around and FROWNS in this rly bizarre way, almost like she noticed a growth on his dick lmao it’s that bad 

anyway i totally get the appeal, but i also know what i want from this kind of dynamic and...this ain’t quite it 

honestly i think i prefer charlotte/cute architect guy whose name i don’t remember right now! 

that being said, my fave moments of this show are the most austen-esque, where ppl don’t take themselves so seriously. i mean the adventures of the perennially-ailing parker siblings (arthur & diana)? deeeelightful. the pineapple scene? glorious

also it makes me sad that sanditon was left unfinished because to see austen tackling georgiana’s character in depth would have been so, so interesting 

in conclusion, the show’s a lot of fun but also frustrating in many ways

i hope davies doesn’t set his eyes on re-adapting p&p or other austen classics because ermmm i know i’m trash but i am kind of tired of these sexed-up “look how scandalous we are behind closed doors” adaptations. you can make the regency era feel modern and relatable without “shocking hand job in the estate park” pls and thank u. sure, the regency era was the inheritor of the sexually relaxed 18th-century, but it wasn’t that relaxed yall. ppl still kept their wits and bonnets about them.

still, i’m glad this show exists and that it tries to take risks, i just wish it took different kinds of risks, if that makes sense. like i am SO bummed i didn’t get into sidney/charlotte, u have no idea 

[taeyeonsb]

miraculous ladybug!minsung

because we deserve it

masterlist if u want it lol

this is way too Long (over 6k yike) and it’s Complicated (u should probably watch the show before reading this if u havent) and probably woulda been better as prose and i use the word yeet way too many times but u kno what

this my life and these my choices my very gay choices

aight lads

miraculous!minsung au !!!!!!

aka flirty pun-making Confident Gay chat noir!minho who’s a real sweetheart irl and amused, taking-nothing-from-no-one ladybug!jisung who is The Ultimate Panicked Gay over his crush irl

featuring: chan as the Nino figure aka minho’s buddy and felix as the Alya figure aka jisung’s Relationship Help and BFF

ugh ok so minho is the son of a well-known music producer in jyp

and guess who can sing beautifully? and dance beautifully?? and exist beautifully??? minho!!!!!!!

minho is an idol!!!! hes a soloist and his father produces all his tracks

but minhos also under very strict surveillance all the time bc yall know sometimes fans get a lil yikes

also hes always practicing (hes a tired boy let him rest)

it’s safe 2 say ,,, jisungs a lil starstruck

just a lil tho haha!!!!!! he just finds minho ,,, talented that’s all

and gorgeous and kind and charming and smart and totally bf material

also he loves producing music in his spare time, and he rly admires minho’s dad for his work

jisungs parents run a bakery I lov that aesthetic with sungie bye

jisung is rly good at making bread, his dad taught him to make it by hand and now he the Master

super friendly with all the customers when he works in the store front, buddies w all the regulars

(including hyunjin, seungmin, and jeongin who are jisungs friends/classmates and stop in a lot to just hang out, drink hot chocolate, and do their hw)

jisungs pretty much friends w everyone except u know the rich snobs who didnt have to get into their school on a scholarship and who look down on jisung for working in his parents’ bakery

but u know what? jisungs gotten good at ignoring the haters bc they dont matter

tl;dr jisung is the purest baby who loves everyone with his whole heart and brings in baked goods for his friends just bc he loves them that much ;;;;

and minhos a boy who loves to sing and dance and smile but gets tired sometimes

I’m not gonna change their superhero personas from the og show’s because minho fits as chat noir and also I’m lazy and squirrel is hard 2 put into a superhero name I’m sorry

jisung as ladybug means he needs to think on his feet a lot, hes a good problem solver, and he is almost too willing to sacrifice himself to help others

minho as chat noir means he needs to take care of ladybug, who in turn takes care of seoul

chat noir ,,, chat noir is the only real way minho feels like he can be himself

like ya he pours himself into his dancing and singing and he loves it, but there’s so many cameras, so much makeup and editing and his formulated smile hurts sometimes

but as chat noir, with a mask on and a name he chose for himself, he feels so free

at first, it was just chat noir saving seoul, and he was happy with that; alone and anonymous and doing good for the community

at first he was rly apprehensive towards master fu when he told chat noir he’d be getting a partner

this is his literal only chance to be free and hes getting a partner? yike

but his partner is this guy named ladybug with big shiny eyes and a heart-shaped smile and ok minho can be a little more open minded towards the concept

fast forward a year from their meeting and debut as superheroes

minho is head over heels for ladybug

just ,,, the way ladybug is so selfless and witty and level-headed and calming and laughs so effortlessly?? talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, showstopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, completely not ever been done before

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

jisung tho? head over heels for minho

the way he holds himself even tho hes tired? the way his eyes light up when hes doing smth he loves?? the way he is so endlessly kind, even to ppl who dont deserve it??? talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, showstopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, completely not ever been done before

that’s right lads it’s a love square y'all’ve seen the show

ok now the story’s actually starting sksjdj

one day …

minho wakes up late like usual

he cant help it!!! hes just tired from practice ,,, and he couldnt rly sleep last night ,,, bc he was ,,,, thinking abt ladybug ,,,,, oops

he ends up washing his face, throwing his clothes on, and yeeting himself out the door lmao

he does his makeup in the car on the way there ,,, it be like that sometimes

and who needs breakfast anyway?? Definitely Not Minho Hahahhaahhhha

he comes into first period (english) just in time and hastily takes his seat in the second row

minho sits next to this guy felix in first period who falls asleep half the time but it doesnt matter at all bc hes fluent in english

when he sits down, felix is talking to his best friend jisung, who’s turned around completely in his chair, eating a croissant happily while listening intently to a story felix is telling

“so then I see this dark shadow cross over the street, and guess who it is???? LADYBUG that’s who!!!!!!! that guys so cool!”

jisungs eyes widen, and he smiles. the sight’s endearing for some reason

“you saw him? that’s so cool! what abt chat noir, did u see chat noir?”

jisung breaks off a part of his croissant and offers it to felix, who accepts it and shoves the entire thing in his mouth

then he turns to minho, and minho doesnt know why but it feels like jisung sees everything abt minho in just that gaze

but jisung just smiles, and breaks off another piece of his croissant, then gestures it in minhos direction

“do u want a piece?”

why is felix smiling so widely?

minho nods, and takes it, murmuring “thank you”

JISUNGS HEART IS GOING ASBNNSJDJF BYE

minho doesnt understand why felix throws a pen at the back of jisungs head, nor why jisung turns around and hisses “shut up lix” even though felix didnt say anything, but u kno

It Be Like That Sometimes

the day progresses, as days do, and then it’s over, and minho’s walking with woojin and chan towards the main entrance

they get to the bottom of the stairs when “minho hyung!” sounds behind them, and minho turns to see felix running after them, hair flopping everywhere

“is it true?” minhos abt to ask what felix is talking abt but then felix taps something on his phone and shows minho a tweet. “is ur dad really doing a music competition?”

oh lmao minho forgot that was happening

“yeah!”

“so ,,, whoever wins will … will get to record their song with you”

minho groans internally ;; that’s so embarrassing ;;;;;;; he doesnt want to be a reward

“yep!” he says, instead of groaning

felix beams and bows, “thank you, hyung, see you tomorrow!” before bowing to chan , then running off again

felix yeets out his phone n puts that ish on speaker so he can dm jisung the tweet

“sungiesungiesungie did u see it”

“see what hoe”

“check ur dms hoe”

jisung SCREECHES

“absndjjdjsjdjsjjjjjjjjjjfffffffff?¿? PRODUCE???? SONG?????? MINHO????? UGH BRB IM GOING TO CRAWL INTO THE SEWER”

felix sees jisung pacing around the courtyard and hangs up

“hey let’s go home!!!!!!! we can drink hot chocolate and choose a song for u to submit!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

ughf get u a bff like felix

as soon as they get home they go upstairs and jisung goes up into his loft bed and fetches that laptop to start sifting thru his music folders

felix goes downstairs 2 la bakery to fetch les hot chocolates

they squish together on jisungs beanbag chair and search for suitable songs

jisung sorts his music into folders labeled with one of 5 emotions :) :(

“cant do love songs ,,, love song with minho? I’d burst into tears ,,, or flames ,,,, or BOTH :O”

“definitely cant do love songs about minho imagine the disaster that would make of me”

“cant do sad songs dont want minho sad want minho happy”

“ahhhhhhhhHHHHhhhHgh”

“well what abt a song u think minho could relate to? like about ,,, the stresses or expectations on students and young ppl ,,, or maybe abt feeling trapped? I know his schedule is always pretty packed, and taxing”

:o “OMG FELIX UR A GENIUS”

“I do what I can”

so jisung gets to work!!!! he’s had a tune stuck in his head for a couple days now, and when he Gets Down To Business it basically writes itself

he and felix are completely relaxed

,,,,,,

until

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

haha y e et

a k u m a

theres a disturbance that they can hear from far away, and felix’s phone goes off with an alert for ppl to stay inside + stay safe

naturally, felix does the completely opposite

he lovs ladybug and chat noir!!!!!!! and he is Not gonna pass up a chance 2 see them irl!!!!!!

“cmon sungie come with me!!!! we can see ladybug! and chat noir!”

gotta think fast jisung

“im on a roll with this song :((((((((( i just wanna write now”

well who can say no to jisungs puppy eyes

not felix thats who

“ok!!! i’ll take pics 4 u”

so felix runs out; jisung stopped trying to convince him to stay home and stay safe a long time ago bc it never worked (he always snuck out to watch)

T I K K I ,  S P O T S  O N ! ! ! ! ! !

it’s transformation time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then it’s save seoul time!!!!!!

jisung yeets himself over rooftops to where there are bright flashes of light streaking around haphazardly and tries to see what’s going on

then, of course, there’s an arm around his waist

“good evening ladybug!” minho says brightly, spinning his staff absentmindedly and leaning his chin onto ladybugs shoulder

“hello chat noir ,,, u ready 2 save our city again?”

our city oof

ugh ladybugs so adorable minhos gonna combust

keep it cool, chat noir! u got this buddy!! get ur mans!!!

“sure am! u sure ur ready tho?”

minho watches ladybug swoosh his hair back, then crack his knuckles and jump off the building

minho follows suit, like always

gotta protecc the bf, u kno

ughfhfh minho cant take his eyes off ladybug throughout the entire battle

he gets slammed into the side of a building by a tendril of light because of it but whats new lmao

oh no wait thats gonna Hurt tomorrow at dance practice yike ://

well it is what it is

and it’s worth it bc minho can see and predict everything that could possibly hurt ladybug and Fight It off

whenever ladybug falls or stumbles or trips minho feels the urge to pick him up and never let him go ;;;;

dont we all lmao

and as ladybug leaps up into the air to give his final strike, minho watches, like he always does, and waits for ladybug to make it back down to the ground (like he always does)

minho jumps down to join ladybug, who just finished cleaning everything up, and who’s humming a tune minho’s never heard before

it’s rly pretty

and then he sings a line, “and even if i’m slow, i’m worth the effort it takes to grow” and Yike how has minho never heard the lohl sing before?? his voice is so beautiful??? help???????

“ur staring boi”

of course i was staring ladybug every time i see u you get more and more unbelievable

“and what r u planning 2 do about that”

“nothing, considering i have like 0.2 seconds until i change back! see u later” boy see u later blackpink is the revolution

ladybug runs off, but not before winking, then smirking, then actually smiling at minho, as if hes trying to make minho cry

minho basically has to go straight to dance practice, but the whole time he cant stop replaying that one line ladybug had sung

when he gets a break, he sits against the mirror and looks up the line on Le Google ,,,,, but Le Google doesnt have les answers ,,,, apparently it isnt from anything??? and it’s not like he can just ask

:(

whelp it be like that sometimes ig

so he goes home ,,,, and goes to bed late again ,,,,, definitely Not thinking of ladybug

back to jisung lol

he has to race back home so he can beat felix there and pretend he was in his room the whole time

on the way back he slips into an alley to transform back from ladybug to sungie, just so ppl dont see him yeeting himself through the bakery’s upstairs window and make Connections

he has 22 snapchat notifs, all from felix, so after he rinses his face with cold water to cool down and changes into his pjs, he watches all the videos

it’s weird ,,, to see himself from a different pov ,,,, and chat noir

u know what they say: if u cant dissociate in real life store bought is fine

felix bursts in a couple minutes later, looking like he ran all the way home

“i did!” he says when jisung asks before ASDSKAFJHing and talking about ladybug and chat noir for 298730 hours, until jisung looks at the clock

“it’s pretty late, ‘lix; are u staying over?”

“on a school night? nah. but i will stay over this weekend! good luck on ur song sungie!!!!!!!! dont stay up too late bby !” felix blows a kiss over his shoulder as he saunters out of jisung’s room and down to the now-closed bakery store front

jisung stays up late anyway

he needs to work on his song ok! !!!!!!!!!! inspiration isnt always this easy 2 come by, he needs to take advantage of it!!!! !!!! !

“what time did u even sleep last night? ?” felix asks the next morning @ school

“i finished the song, ‘lix!!!! well,,, like a first rough draft ,,, i finished the lyrics and the basic melody and figured out what i wanna use as the background instruments and –”

“sung. what time. did u go to sleep”

“ uhh h hh”

“sungie”

“ , , , , , , ,,,,,,,,, uhhhhhhhhh idk  ,,,, myb like ,,,,  four”

“H A N  J I S U N G” - felix, scolding jisung while pulling out the chair of the desk next to him thats been empty all year so jisung can sit down and laying jisung’s head on his lap and petting his hair

minho comes in and sits on felix’s other side, and doesnt seem to bat an eye at the very cute and soft and adorable sight

felix doesnt even notice bc hes so busy weaving small braids into jisungs hair

even jisung doesnt notice and thats how u kno hes sleeby

when the bell rings to start first period felix picks jisung up off his lap

jisung whines and doesnt open his eyes, but felix flicks him in the forehead before handing him his water bottle and a waffle from his lunch box and sends him on his way back to the first row for class

“mmmmm thamks”

“u better get some gosh darn sleep tonight or else”

and minhos just a bystander here and hes trying to focus on the grammar drill on the board but jisung still looks so tired and minho has the Urge to Protect

some ppl just need to be taken care of!!!

like ladybug, his brain supplies helpfully, but minho tells his dumb brain to shut up bc thinking of ladybug does Not help him focus

days pass

it’s pretty quiet in seoul, so jisung hasnt needed to save anyone lately

normally he’d be kind of bored and restless, but he’s going Maximum Overdrive mode on his song for minho’s competition

“but sung!!! ur song is already so good!!!! it’ll win for sure, you’ve put so much time and effort into it!!!!!!!!”

“thank u tikki but it needs to be perfect!!!! i need it to be good enough for minho to sing it ,,, if i even win :(”

“dont work too hard!!! remember to take care of yourself too!!!!”

i love tikki bye like what a sweet and supportive little flower A+ kwami??

“what if my song is good but my voice sounds bad? what if minho hates my voice?”

HE WONT BABY UR VOICE IS SO SO PRETTY ;;;;;;;;;;

but despite all jisungs worries, the submission date approaches steadily

minho tho

he’s restless too, from the silence in the city

he misses ladybug helping people, misses flying through the streets, being free

so to cure his loneliness, minho just throws himself into practice more and more

his dad warned him to not sing too much so as to not strain his voice before the song competition, so he dances the night away every night!

believe it or not ,,, hes nervous for the competition

like yea hes not entering it or anything ofc but ,,, hes just kinda nervous. no real reason but it be like that sometimes

but time waits for no one

the day of the competition arrives!!!!!!!!

jisung was physically forced into his bed the night before by felix and held captive there all night, so hes well rested but still anxious lmao

minho is not well rested but he has a really good under-eye concealer and some espresso and thats basically the same thing so

felix ends up having to be the one who writes the email to the submission email because jisung is literally vibrating in his seat

tikki peeks out of his hoodie pocket, just so she can give him an encouraging wink

“sent!!!!! now do u wanna go get some ice cream? i’ll drive!!!”

what a sweetheart felix i lub u bye 

it’s an agonizing week

minho can’t listen to any of the songs so it’ll be a surprise for him whoever gets picked

and he Still. Misses. Ladybug. :((((((((((((((((

but then his dad comes into his room and announces that he picked a contest winner

“omg who is it dad”

“han jisung!!”

“:o”

yes jisung i knew u could do it :,)

so since minho actually knows him, he gets to be the one who tells jisung he won!!!!!!!!

he’s kinda nervous about it even tho he has no reason to be yike

but!!! he forges on like a true superhero!!!!

and in first period the next day before the bell rings he leans forward and taps jisung

jisung turns around with wide eyes, and he smiles when he sees it’s minho (jisung has a really familiar-looking smile, minho notices; it’s really pretty)

“hey hyung! whats up”

“oh uh uhm so u know the contest??? the song one?”

“… ye ah ?”

JISUNGS TREMBLING BYE

“well ,,,, u won!!! congratulations!!!!”

“ ? ? ?  ? ?? ? ? ? ?? ? hm?”

jisung is 110% sure that he misheard, bc him?? win???

????????

whomst?

“u won! the contest! ur song was selected! im really excited to listen to it! oh, and sing it! i’ll be honored!”

jisungs not rly sure whats going on to be honest

“i what?”

POOR MINHO AHJKSDFS

he just kinda looks toward felix, who was watching the exchange with a delighted smile, for help

felix gets the message, thankfully, and says “sorry he’s illiterate” to minho before standing up to reach fully over his desk and cupping jisungs face and smooshing his cheeks

“jisungie?”

“hm?”

“remember that song u wrote last week?”

“yeah”

“and remember the competition u entered it in?”

“yeah”

“ur song won!”

“are u sure?”

“yep!! im sure!!!”

“hmm …”

so felix lets jisung go, and jisung turns back to the front and opens his english notebook to start the drill

“give him, like, five minutes,” felix says to minho, who nods. “sorry, it’s just ,,, he has a hard time recognizing something he’s done is actually good”

JISUNG ;;;;;;; - me and minho and felix, simultaneously

true to felix’s word, five minutes later jisung’s head snaps up

he looks back to felix for reassurance, who just gives him an encouraging smile and a nod

jisung smiles back, tentatively at first but it  f l o u r i s h e s  into a breathtaking, full-face smile

wow omg he looks so happy

minho hasnt ever heard one of jisungs songs (he never even knew jisung wrote/composed songs) but he is so beyond glad jisung won just bc of that smile

then jisung glances at minho, who smiles too, and jisung flushes but still glows before he turns right back around, back straight and listening intently to the teacher talking about the difference between gerunds and participles

minho feels warm the whole rest of the day :,)

later that day :)))))

minho invites jisung over to the studio after school ends!! they have a song to work on, after all

jisung has to go home to grab his music stuff so minho offers to walk him home (what a GENTLEMAN) but jisung denies

“i dont want u to have to go out of ur way! i’ll just meet u there! text me the address?”

jisung gets a text later on from an unknown number that says forgot i didnt have ur number lmao!! got it from felix :) heres the address

jisungs heart goes OOF

he grabs his laptop and notebook and puts em in his tote bag

then he grabs some cookies and puts em in a tupperware container, then yeets that into his bag too cause brain food!!!!

he also snatches a hoodie bc it might be cold! and it’s his favorite hoodie, so it can kinda be a security blanket of sorts

jisung shoots felix a text going to minhos!!! wish me Luck, to which felix replies ;-) ;-) ;-) ;;;;-)

he slips in his earbuds for the walk over, and he smiles at nothing at all

hes just so happy!! it feels like nothing can go wrong ever!!! he’s getting to spend time with minho, talking about music!!!! two of his top five favorite things together!!!!! what could be better?

jisung doesnt realize the address minho sent him to was the actual jype building until he gets there and checks the address

D: D: D: D: HE WASNT PREPARED FOR THE JYP BUILDING

but!!! he takes a deep breath and forges on

he deserves to be here!!!!!!!!! he earned his place here!!!!!!!!

he goes to the second floor, to the recording room all the way at the end of the hallway, and knocks on the door

omg what if he sees a member of twice here??? he’d Combust

the door swings open, and there minho is!!!!! in all his glory!!!!! he’s put on a hoodie and it looks so boyfriend that jisung wants to cry

minho immediately invites him in, and omg what a studio :o it has a bunch of monitors and sound mixers and there’s a recording booth and it’s all so professional and shiny and jisung cant believe he gets to use all this :,,)

there are two rolly chairs and a couch, and there’s a candle burning on a shelf next to a christmas cactus in a pretty yellow pot

the window’s open, and the lights are on but not too bright

“is it too cold in here? i like having the window open, but it’s no trouble at all if you wanna close it, just let me know ok”

“no i totally love the energy in here! a+ creative atmosphere”

minho sits down then, so jisung takes the other rolly chair, and brings his laptop and the tupperware out of his bag, then his notebook and water bottle

“i brought cookies!! theyre lemon shortbread!”

“oh, awesome! thank you so much!”

minho’s shy grateful smile omg hes so cute

jisung logs onto his laptop and pulls up the audio file of his song, but when he hovers the cursor over play he feels so nervous

this was ok over email, but in person? being able to see minho as he hears jisung’s song? that just feels so so intimate ;;;

“hey, don’t worry, ok? your song beat out a lot of others to win. i know it probably seems awkward, and personal, but i’m not going to judge this, or you!”

how did minho know omg

jisung smiles and nods, “just so you know, i’m not like a trained singer or anything, so it’s not going to sound anywhere near as good as you will, and it’ll sound better once it’s produced in here, more polished and stuff, cause the stuff i have at home isn’t this professional.” he lets out a laugh that only lasts a breath before saying “ok” and starting the song

safe 2 say

minho is Shook

the beat like ,,,, fills up the room, with this reverberating, almost underwater-like quality

minho is Enchanted

and it’s almost at the eight-count mark, and it feels like jisung’s gonna start singing soon, and minho is Anticipation, and then

,,,,,,,yikeyikeyikeyik

jisung hears smth outside ,,, he pauses the song and looks at minho

“did u hear that”

“hear what”

he hears it again, and his instincts are telling him IT’S AN AKUMA IT’S AN AKUMA so he tenses up

and when the window shatters (and takes some of the wall around it with it) jisung was lowkey prepared for it so on reflex he basically launches himself at minho, trying his best to cover minho w his body

what a hero omg

lo and behold: it’s an akuma

the blast from the villain was (either intentionally or not) aimed at them

jisungs gotta transform but hes also gotta get minho to safety ;;

but minho is way ahead of him, grabbing jisungs hand and leading him across the building and down the stairs

“here, gotta get u to safety ,,, i think i know who the akuma might be aiming for, so you should be ok here ,,, i have to, um, i have to go now, but text me after just so i know ur ok!!” theyre outside now, a good distance from the jyp building

jisung just nods, and minho just throws a smile, then “im sure ladybug and chat noir will be here in no time! they’ll have it under control!!”

then minho says he has to go

jisung, internally: “No I Must Protect You”

jisung, externally: “omg ok but stay safe!!”

he realized he has to transform somehow, and he certainly doesnt have the guts to just leave minho here alone so

T I K K I ,  S P O T S  O N ! ! ! ! !

lets get this bread, han jisung!!!!!!!

chat noir is already there when jisung comes up

“yo”

“yo”

whats better than this? just guys bein dudes

“do u know what caused the akuma?”

chat noir nods

jisung waits

“r u gonna tell me?”

he just smirks, the bastard, then “ya so this guy at jyp, think his name is lee min-something, had a thing, like a contest?”

“lee minho, but go off i guess”

mihno, internally: “omg ladybug knows me”

minho, externally: “ya so the akuma’s probably aimed at whoever decided the results of the contest were. ppl can get really beat up about losing”

“yikes”

“yikes indeed,” chat noir says, then offers his arm to jisung. “shall we?”

ughf gentleman of the century

jisung takes it, rolling his eyes and definitely not smiling fondly at chat noirs antics

and together they jump into the fray!!!!

it’s going just like a normal battle when minho’s fixation on ladybug gets the best of him

the akumatized girl sees his distraction and trips him up before freezing him in place

minho honestly just is ready to die. hes Accepted it.

hes pretty sure ladybug isn’t looking at him and isnt going to, and he already used his cataclysm and he cant exactly shout for help so what can ye do

but he doesnt give ladybug enough credit, because there he is behind the girl, and the girl’s reaching down to grab minho’s miraculous (which is in his necklace) when ladybug yeets his yoyo so it ties the girl’s arms to her torso

jisung, internally: nOT. ON. MY. WATCH. NOT ON MY WATCH

jisung snatches her flash drive and snaps it in half, watching it clatter to the sidewalk and watching the black-and-purple butterfly fly away

TIME TO DE-EVILIZE!!!!!!!!! (de-evilize? de-evilise? idk)

jisung captures that akuma in his yoyo and then opens it back up, letting the now pure white butterfly fly off into the sunset

no more evil-doing for u, little akuma :)

and then jisung casts that spell 2 make everything return to the way it was

chat noir unfreezes, and he basically topples over, so ladybug with his Swift Reflexes of course has to catch him

they end up ,,, a lil close ,,, ,,, ,,,,,,,,

;)

then chat noir’s necklace beep beeps so he straightens up, rubbin the back of his neck and coughin

they do their lil nerdy handshake of course, then chat noir waves and yeets himself out of there

and then jisung remembers

minho

he’s gotta get where minho left him so minho wont be suspicious!!!! so he finds another dark alley to de-transform and catches tikki in his hands when she falls, tired out of her lil mind :,,)

he promises to feed her cookies asap, but now he’s gotta find minho!!!

so he wanders out, trying to look as natural as possible

“jisung? jisung!!”

omg it’s minho

“i’ve been looking for u!!” minho says, like thats not an Earth Shattering Thing for jisung to hear “are u ok? u didnt get hurt, did you?”

“nope im all good!! what about u? where did u go?”

“i just had to make sure my dad was ok ,,, he was the target of the akuma ,,,”

“omg i hope hes alright!”

“hes been thru worse tbh ,,, but no matter now! it’s all in the past!! now i can finally hear your song!!!” minho looks so sincere and earnest and enthusiastic ugh this boy is not good for jisungs heart

“ ,,,, u ,,,,,,,, u still want to?” jisungs eyes are wide and his mouth is a tiny bit open which makes his cheeks even squishier and more adorable

“well only if ur still up for it! i know it’s been kinda chaotic but i think it’d be a nice end to the night, dont u?”

and rly ;;; who is jisung to say no to that

so they head back

minho keeps sneaking super subtle glances towards jisung

smth abt him seems …… different …. like not in a bad way at all, he just seems more confident now? his shoulders arent hunched over anymore and it looks like the shadows have left his face

confidence is a good look on him, minho decides

the studio seems very quiet after everything, but all of jisungs stuff is still there, and the atmosphere lightens up very quickly with minho cracking lame jokes and jisung giggling that adorable adorable adorable giggle of his

minho opens the window back up (it’s gotten a little colder, so jisung finally slips on his hoodie) and they sit down and both eat a couple cookies (jisung sneaks two in his pocket for tikki) and jisung drinks his water before sitting up in his seat, running a hand through his very soft-looking hair

jisung looks nervous again ;;;

so minho does what any good friend would do !!!!

grabs his hand

“hey, sung, don’t be nervous! i’ve already heard the beginning, and i’m honestly really impressed already ok?”

“really?” jisungs eyes are so wide and shiny and minho wants to protect Forever and ever

“of course! youre like super talented!!”

blushblushblushblush

jisung hits play

it’s even prettier than minho remembered

and when jisung starts singing, he feels a whole lotta air leave his chest

HIS VOICE IS SO SO GORGEOUS IT SOUNDS SO SWEET AND LOVELY BUT POWERFUL AND EMOTIONAL AND EVERYTHING HOW IS JISUNG NOT AN IDOL YET

and the lyrics are so resonant, minho cant help but find himself relating a lot to what’s being said and a little part of minho’s mind is wondering if jisung wrote this song to him

minho’s lost, he’s so lost in the push and pull of the song, until

“and even if i’m slow, i’m worth the effort it takes to grow”

wh

wH

WHAT

minhos trying his best to keep it professional but it’s kind of hard because ??????????? LADYBUG SANG THAT LINE

ladybug sang that line

minho did research, and it wasn’t in any already-existing song

so it’s an original line

this is an original song, by jisung

???????

minho knows what it means

D: D: D: D: D:

he didnt think he was going to face the biggest event of his life tonight!!

even after the final beats fade out, minho cant stop staring at the monitor

“uhm ,,, ah, hyung, what did ,,,, what did you think?”

poor jisung sounds so nervous ;;;;;;;;

minho turns to face him, and yeah, his hair color’s the same as ladybug’s and they’re around the same height, and his smile is blindingly bright too and it’s shaped like a heart, and his eyes are the same

“i’ve heard that line before” minho says slowly and contemplatively and completely without context

“hm?”

jisungs hands are trembling so he stuffs them in his hoodie pocket, moving until tikki is pressed against his palm

the contact comforts him poor baby ;;;

“that line. ‘and even if i’m slow, i’m worth the effort it takes to grow.’”

minho’s eyes are looking so intensely into jisungs aaaaAAAAAAAAA

“wha-? but i’ve never written it? or published this anywhere? the only time i ever sang this in front of someone other than felix was –”

jisung looks like a deer caught in headlights

theyre staring at each other, barely breathing, each one afraid to say it in case theyre wrong

minho takes the first step, leaning forward in his chair until their faces are less than a foot apart

jisungs looking down at him now, and theres so much want in his eyes

“is it you?” jisung whispers into the air between them “are you …. are you my chat noir?”

his voice is so small now

“yeah, sung, i’m your chat noir, always, always yours”

minho reaches up to cup jisungs face and jisung lets him, jisung leans into the touch and closes his eyes for a moment, like he’s been wanting this for ages

he has lmao

“can you kiss me, then? my minho”

god jisungs smile could outshine anything

“of course, sung”

ladybug’s here, he’s right in front of minho, and in addition to the brave, wonderful, witty superhero with eyes like the stars and a heart-shaped smile minho fell head over heels for he’s also this talented, sweet, shy boy with eyes like the stars and a heart-shaped smile

minho kisses him

they fit so well together

jisung is so warm, and soft, and they taste like lemon shortbread cookies together

minho moves his other hand to jisung’s waist, then his back, and jisung slides his arms around minho’s neck, and this is everything they’ve ever wanted

minho’s wondered for so long how it’d feel to hold him

and he has his answer!!

it feels: incredible

minho cant stop smiling into their kiss so they break apart ;;;

then jisung starts smiling ;;;;;;;

theyre just smiling and soft and happy and in love

later, jisung asks what minho thought of the song

“it was so so good like im not even exaggerating it sounded so real? but like the actual music sounded so ,,, unreal. and like the lyrics were something i could relate to so much, and your voice is unbelievable, sung”

jisung buries his blushy face into minhos neck, whining

“im serious, you’re so talented”

felix cries for twenty minutes when jisung tells him everything that happened

(well … almost everything. not the superhero bit)

jisung ends up crying too,,, it’s been a long night for him

felix stays the night, but they dont end up having gotten a lot of sleep

it’s a lot of jisung soft ranting about minho and felix being the supportive bff we all know and love and appreciate

“ah, sungie” felix says at like 5am, when the suns starting to rise “im so happy for you”

theyre curled together on jisungs twin size bunk bed and ya it’s a lil cramped but who cares

jisung hides his big dumb beautiful grin in felixs shoulder

“thanks, ‘lix”

minho kisses jisung on the cheek when he walks in that morning and jisung trips over his love for minho

for real he barely function in class

minho just smiles at him adoringly

his bf is so cute bye

they work together on the final version of the song most days after school

the studio version minho was supposed to record ends up being a duet once minho drags his father in to listen to how well his and jisungs voices fit together

“we do fit well together, huh” jisung says, when he’s all done polishing it up, curling up into minho

minho kisses his temple (im so soft for that bye) and just softly says “yep! we do”

[ursoself-satisfying]

Life update!!

Ur prolly wondering why my blog has been so bare lately huh? Well its cus I've been super busy n in a p bad place :://

To give u the gist- I've just graduated but now I'm moving so I've been spending all my time packing n worrying lol

What this means? Is that I'm gonna keep trying my best to put out og content (mostly answering asks v slowly) n for SURE my blog will be kept up w reblogs!!

Fics r gonna have to wait for a bit ::// I just dont have time n I'm not in a good mental state to handle it I'm rly sorry ::(( I rly thought I'd be able to do some soon, post some, n I have written a lil! But not nearly enough so I'm expecting by August (ik a whole fucking month I'm so sorry) I'll be updating fics again

Until then heres the lowdown- I'll keep reblogging!! My queue is never empty!! Hopefully I'll be able to post some art instead to keep u entertained lol but I'll also be answering asks!! Theyll be coming v slowly but that's the best way to get somethin outta me rn oof

So everything is on hold rn!! Short haitus!! I cant wait to be back!! I'd much rather be here than dealing w real life lol but alas it must be done

So I'm just trying to keep yall updated so it's not a disappointment that I'm so dry rn ::// ur all rly lovely n I'd like to thank u all for sticking around n supporting me n I'll continue w this blog (I love this blog sm u dont even kno lol) n I'll be back as soon as I can!!! I appreciate n love yall sm n u have no idea how thankful I am to have this kind of support n enthusiasm for stuff I've made!!! Ur incredible!!!

Until then I'll still be here just slowing down rip uwu ilyallsm tho ty 💖💕💘💓💗💞💝💟

[snobtrait]

corinne + forrest

[tskumoyuuma]

i gott the japanese competition thing tomorrow n i have to wake up at 6:15 in the morn which means i gotta go to slep now in order to get some rest in but i am Wake 

[speedin]

i am homeeee.

so story time, and i honestly forget if i told yall abt when this first happened but... this is abt cooper the tom cat that i had to drive home twice tonight...

this is him. little sucker... i didn’t get him food btw, but i was a little worried beeecaaaauuuse... when i left earlier he was outside and i was like cooper pls and he lives like... well im at 616 and his house is 403 so dooooown the street u kno? and i’ve walked him home before and he’s such a weirdo bc he liked doing that.

anyhow.. this time i was like... in a hurry lol so i opened my car door.. and i was like ok get in. and he DID lmfao. so i drove him down the street and opened my door and i was like ok bye this is ur stop.. and he got out! but no one looked to be home.

so sure enough i get back home about twenty mins ago.. and who is there? ol coop... i drove him back home and this time we walked up to the front door together and people were there. his owner was like omfg idk what his deal is and i wanted to be like well lady... he has his kibbles n bits if u kno what i mean so he’s.. actin like a true tom? i mean as long as he can get shelter and food and stuff and not hit by a car idc if he’s an outside cat?? but...

idk she seems careless and her bf apparently hates cooper which is annoying bc it means he lets him out and doesnt let him back in so he comes yowling to me bc i pet him like a fool.

dont feed him tho, wont be that big of a fool.

anyhow.

i never seen a cat be so cool about just getting in a car like a dog or smthn. here he is in my lap watching as i drive!

[saportuh]

ok panic concert highlights

(plus some personal adventures)

this was the portland show on the 12th k

so it was a fuckin hour and a half drive bc where i fuckin live now is far away from everything i hate it anyway that sucked & i ran my phone down to 80 percent during said drive which proved problematic

we get there (me & my lil sis) & our dad drops us off & we run up & im bitching about how weird the fucking venue is (it’s normal, it’s just not what i’m used to - in vegas the venues were typically in the casino/resorts so you lined up inside the halls & sat against the walls & tourist-watched, in this venue u stood outside in a line???? ughhh)

so we approach the line & something happens, i’m gonna make a separate post about it because holy shit

befriended two excitable gay kids, maybe 8th or 9th grade?? & i was like woah i was u once. now im old & jaded. eugh. then they bailed on me so.

we got into the arena & were on the wrong fucking side so we had to JOG all the way AROUND THE WHOLE FUCKINGN PLACE UGH

THEN WE GOT IN & SAT IN THE WRONG SEATS so the guy next to me (dad w a thick accent, maybe ukranian?? it wasn’t russian but it was close) politely informed me & i was like fuck well until they get here we’ll stay, but i had anxiety so during an arizona song i pretended to go to the bathroom & came back to look for our actual seat, someone took it so i pussied out & went back, had hella anxiety about it, then before hayley the ppl showed up so we had to move & i had to kick some preps out of their seat & they called my lil sister a bitch ;-;

OK SO ONTO THE PERFORMERS

arizona was cute, gotta check them out... singer kept getting emotional & wiping his eyes, it was sweet, and he was hella feeling himself dancing & stuff lmaoo. idk em but im proud of them.

HAYLEYYYYYYYYYYY her dancing & drumming & outfit??? also all the lesbians/wlw getting crunk in the crowd was so damn good haha

ALSO shout out to hayley’s band, they were so cute??? the guitarist & her kept having moments & he seemed like a cool dude, & the girl on synths was so pretty omg??? & smiley i loved her. & the drummer, they were goin so hard i couldnt get a good look, but they had kewl hair

“if you don’t know anything about me, there’s one thing you should know: I LOVE GIRLS” there was so much gay energy at that show i was teary the whole damn time

k confession, i love everything about hayley but i find her voice a little grating on the ears, something about it, but it was super angelic live & didn’t bug me once, & wanna be missed fucked me up cuz it’s my fucking f a v

SHE DID THE DRUMMY IT WAS HOT 

her oufit was so damn iconic rlly tho, the pants & shoes totes fit her but wouldn't look good on anyone else, but that shirt, the hot dad look w the open v & all the jewelry, holy fuck that’s how im tryna be

during girls like girls, everyone had their lights out & there was a bunch of pride flags out, and i got this gorgeous shot of a gay pride flag illuminated by lights (i posted it)

most of the songs they played between the breaks were gay themed too which was powerful dude i was so damn emotional

then during the countdown to panic, they played the next episode by dre (the “smoke weed every day” song) & then africa by toto jsfndjfndjskfnjdk

THEN PANIC CAME OUT 

WHOLE ASS STRING & BRASS SECTION BDEN RLLY WENT THERE WOAH

KENNY & NICOLE WERE SO CUTE THE WHOLE TIME THEY KEPT GOOFING AROUND ESPECIALLY KENNY IT WAS ADORABLE

THEN BREB POPPED OUT THE DAMN FLOOR

ok several things about breb

one, i never was heavy into panic, but considering how obsessive i was into bandom a few years back, i still know a lot about early panic, livejournal shit, ryden bullshit, etc, so it was really weird being there with normies who were just like “he’s hot & sings good” when i was like “yall lucky fucks never heard of myrtle beach ” dsjfnjsdnfds

two, four years into panic & i never was attracted to brendon, but dude, EVERYONE fell in love with him at this show, myself included, & i was starin at this bitch ass motherfucker in a trance before i was like “wait ur a bastard STOP U ENDEARING DICKWAD” he was so fucking endearing it was ANNOYING cuz i’ve seen some of the shit he’s pulled damnit. srsly tho, so absolutely charming, wow.

three, and what stuck with me most; brendon loves what he does. a little bit of exhibitionism, i think; he likes ppl looking at & admiring him, he’s that type of person, a showman, but also, i think he just loves making music, people singing along to the music, etc. ive been to eight concerts now, and i don’t think i’ve seen someone who clearly loved being on stage so much. a lot of ppl act like it’s a chore to tour, but brendon clearly loves it, and it made me happy, especially as an aspiring musician. 

four, the straighties drooling over him and the gays drooling over him was truly straight/gay solidarity

ok what else happened... brendon would throw in random ass high notes towards the ends of songs... my sister looked at me super alarmed when he first did it during dtmwagt lmfao... ppl would cheer & it was impressive, but kinda piercing & i was like “show off” lol

HE DID THE ‘I MAKE THESE HIGH HEELS WORK’ thing, i thought he retired tht?? so i was pleased lmfao

i dont rmr anything that stands out about ready to go or la devotee but the lights & backgrounds during them were very pretty & i got some good pics of brebbois face (i finally got semi decent quality pics im rlly happy abt tht, concerts r so hard to photograph)

hallelujah was cool cuz there were, like, those catholic(?) church windows projected on the top part of the stage, it was pretty af, they rlly outdid themselves with the visuals

and mona lisa had like pipes & industrial stuff?? idk it looked dope, and it contrasted rlly cool it was super pretty

nine in the afternoon,,,, the only pretty odd song... i dont even like pretty odd but it was like,,, damn. & he had the piano, total live in denver vibes ;-; but he wasnt dripping sweat this time lmao

golden days, brebweenie knows hes hot, kept winking & doing mic flips & shit & i was like u fucken weenie ive seen that pic of u w a bowl cut in a bra, die

k he’s a fuckin bastard but hhe’s pretty & talented fuckin big ego bitch ... can yall tell i hav a lovehate relationship w him bc i do

I GOT THIS ONE PART ON VIDEO DURING GOLDEN DAYS WHERE KENNY & NICOLE R FUCKING AROUND & MAKING FACES & GOOFING IT’S SO CUTE

during casual affair in the chorus, the mic would echo each word (just lay (lay) in the atmosphere (sphere) & the ‘lay’ was rlly good on my ears idk sometimes certain vocal notes sound GOOD & that was one i keep replaying it

SO VEGAS LIGHTS as yall kno i was born & raised in vegas & a vegasfucker69 it’s my fucking home i moved last november (not my choice) & miss it violently & i was CRYING during vegas lights hard & it was so beautiful im gonna watch the video i got over & over & over that song means so much to me IM SO FUCKING HOMESICK

speaking of which, im pretty bitter i didnt see panic in vegas, this was my first panic show & that kinda bothers me, like i should’ve seen them in vegas a few yrs ago but it never worked out.... still, im grateful i saw them at all & im glad i saw the song live. i had my fob snapback on too, it says ‘las vegas’ on it cuz i got it there haha, wore that on purpose

he did the fucking running man thing towards the end & everyone cheered & i was like dONT ENABLE HIM

sat down during dancing’s not a crime cuz im a bitch who doesn’t like half the new record & also my knees hurt cuz im old apparently, anyway this chick glared at me then sang every word wat a fuckin prep lmao

o yah i forgot, in golden days he got in the crowd & let a girl sing the last chorus it was amazing i bet that made her life

AND DURING DOAB HE WALKED THRU THE CROWD that was SO FUCKING ENDEARING i was like “wow what a guy” then i was like “HE’S A BITCH U KNOW HIM” & i was like “hmm??? what a guy” but omg he made so many people happy it was really beautiful & sweet & i was like... half in love & then i came to my senses jksjfhjsdhfkjsdn

RLLY THO HE WALKED THRU THE CROWD & HIGH FIVED PPL & SHIT & GAVE HUGS & TOOK ART/LETTERS IT WAS SO DAMN GOOD HE WAS SO SWEET & LEGIT EVERYONE WAS FALLING FOR HIM & I WAS LIKE SUFFERING

legit guys, like it’s weird i used to watch his parascopes in 2015 or w/e & he’d say some Bad shit on there sometimes, like ik he does some messy shit BUT HE ACTED SO FUCKING LOVELY BLEH

also he’s very short, like he’s 2 inches taller than me but he looked so little in the crowd i was like... aw

the piano thing ;-; it was rlly pretty but my paranoia & anxiety was off the charts i was like that things gonna fucking fall & crush the crowd it’s gonna fucking fALL but it didnt ofc but i was stressed bleghh

but ok on a positive note, that was soo fucken lovely, bden stopped to try to make eye contact with as many ppl in as many places of possible, like he made the effort to get to everyone & make them have a special moment & it was ... magical ok thts fucken cliche as shit but it rlly was

ok i did smth lowkey embarrassing, i doubt he saw, but when he faced towards us i was just overwhelmed w like.. gratitude?? ive had a bad 2 years in every way, so being somewhere filled with love & fun & kindness & joy & all around good vibes, i was so grateful? i just wanted to thank him for creating that kinda atmosphere. so i like,,, blew kisses but not in a weird way, like later i was like oh that was kinda weird whyd i do that, but at that moment i didnt use my head & it was jus my instinctual way of saying thank u idk it’s lame but it happened so there ya go idfk

fun fact, my vid of it is out of focus cuz i was so enamored watching him & watching the crowd react it was pretty fucking magical it rlly was

once he got down from that piano he went “wow i feel so fucking inspired now” & i was like “bitch me too tf” 

legit it was absolutely indescribable, even watching my vid now.... wow. and u can hear me lightly crying in the back of my video too lmao, and i was shaking p hard, it was so fucking magical. like im getting emotional rn cuz it was exactly what i needed to remind myself that there is good stuff in the world thats worth staying for. 

i never was super big on panic or breb like i said but if i ever meet him im gonna thank him bc that. wow. transformative.

also that transition from the piano cover he did to dying in la was smooth af. it was all around gorgeous.

OK GIRLS GIRLS BOYS, I WAS SO CONCERNED W FILMING I COULDNT PUT MY LIGHT ON (i had a red heart) BUT OMG

he got a bi flag first, then a rainbow one, then another rainbow one... one was those hayley ones lol, and one ended up on the stage out of his eyesight & he never saw it & i felt so bad fjdnfds

G-D ALL THE GAYS SINGING WAS SO EMOTIONAL & THE RAINBOW BEHIND THEM ON STAGE (AND PAN FLAG COLORS AT TIMES?!??!?!)) IT WAS FUCKING MAGICAL & BRENDON LET A FLAG DRIFT IN THE WIND FOR A SEC BEFORE HE PUT IT ON IT WAS GORGEOUS

AND ALL THE RAINBOW LIGHTS IN THE CROWD FUCK DUDE

breb might be a turd but he’s the only one of these emo dudes who parades around draped in flags & so aggressively empowers gay fans through it, and for that, i respect him. ik the song has more perverse origins but now it’s a bi anthem that rlly connects w lgbt fans & it’s rlly beautiful, AND i got another gorgeous shot of a pride flag surrounded by lights & im just. wow.

after, breb said “that is gorgeous btw” about the rainbow lights, and “thank u for participating in love” & giggled, i got this shot of the lights in the dark lookin incredible ;-;

also said “this a record number of flags tonight, very cool” so portland is rlly gay apparently, kewl

nicole doin the nicotine bass line slayed me dead wowie u can hear me go “WOO” on the vid lmfao (im a bassist so i lov her double)

ive seen miss jackson live twice now cuz at my monumentour show, new politics brought lolo out to cover it so that’s dope lmfao

anyway bden did the fuckin valley girl voice for “the scenery is so loud” which was delightful

he had us do the ‘ayyyy’ bit woo

NICOLES BASS,,, SPARKLY

drum thingy ;-; speaking of monumentour, andy & patrick famously did a drum off & i MISSED IT cuz the stage at my venue wasnt large enough to fit both sets ;-; so they didnt do it ;-; but bden doin his own drum solo kinda made up for it a little bit

fuckin show off tho he played like 3 instruments & i was like u bitch stop

there was some kinda audio sample that went “i got a fever & the only prescription is more caffeine(?)” & bden mouthed the words along, and some girl behind me went “SAME” 

UPDATE: googled it, i knew i recognized chris walken’s voice, he says cowbell not caffeine & it’s a skit from snl that i’ve SEEN im a disgrace anyway that was fun also woo cowbell

the big screen kept cutting from bden drumming to a shot of the crowd & someone holding a pride flag & i was like yah drumming is gay now

lmao i only filmed like a minute of a song unless i rlly liked it so i could spend the rest of the song gettin funky right?? & i like king of the clouds but not a ton, but i filmed the whole thing cuz the visuals were so pretty lmfaooo i jus was staring at them like wowwww prettyyyyy

during the ‘i dont feel anything at all’ he looked rlly sad & i couldnt tell if it was genuine or if he was goin for like a pouty look djfdsjfndjks then right after he winked so ig pouty thx breb

at some point he introduced nicole&kenny plus the strings & brass ppl as “his friends” it was sweet & he was like “these lovely ladies” about the strings & “these handsome men” about the brass & i was like WOO GAY RIGHTS

FIRE DURIN CRAZY EQUALS GENIUS. BOZ FLASHBACKS. FIRE ON MY FACE HUNDREDS OF FEET AWAY. FEAR. DONT LIKE FIRE. SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION. KENNY WAS TOO CLOSE. FEAR.

a whole arena singing bohemian rhapsody 25+ years after freddie mercury’s death was Incredible, i dont believe in afterlives but if there is one i hope he was watching & enjoying & knowing his legacy was staying alive bc wow that was powerful

THE END WAS CRUNK AF HOLY SHIT BDEN GOT DOWN

i cant believe i remember the day emperors came out like,,,, jeez. so lit live tho

I HAVENT MENTIONED HIS SPARKLY SUIT YET. KING OF SPARKLY SUITS

BRENDON DOIN HIS HIGH NOTE BIT & THE STAGE LIGHTING UP FULLY ON FIRE FUCK DUDE

bitchden took his shirt off when he came out for the encore..... bitch

SINS,,, FUCK DUDE,,,, MY CHILDHOOD WAS CRYING HHYSTERICALLYYY, 

in the background of my vid u can hear me do the ‘ily’ ‘ily’ from the mv emo ass

my lil sis got fucken turnt to sins lmfaooo??? danced her ass off???

us: W H O R E bden: ily

VIOLINISTS GETTIN WILD TOO

they played footage of the music vid & breb & his fuckin iconic outfit & i was a lil emo kid again omg i cant believe i saw it live

he did funny voice durin calls for a toast nerd ... least he’s not entirely bitter abt songs ryan wrote anymore tho lmao... or maybe he is considering theres only two on the 30 song setlist ;-;

i gotta listen to afycso again damn it’s so iconic

oh yah at some bit he said “ive been doing this for 14 years, im 31 now” & it reminded me like.. most of these emo bands, they started so young. & got successful at such a young age. it’s so crazy. idk. wow. 

he got growly during the chorus, that’s pstump’s thing beeb dont steal it lmao

CONFETTI fitting ending, & i got him walking off which is cool, other bands it goes dark & they just kinda disappear & it’s unsatisfying ;-;

so yah i finally saw breadman live, i got 400 pics and 30 videos so that all got spam posted over the last few days lmao

[rangellife]

BATTLE- Munchi3(cristina lora) & Vixx3n(Christina D Rangel) V.S. Jayy(Justin Hill) & Lee(Leon Wright)... Vote who won?

Cristina Lora POEM OFF!!! wit Christina D Rangel , Leon Wright , an Justin Hill ...me an tina bout to put it on deze nikkaz!!! lmao dey must not kno...buh dey bout to find out. about an hour ago  Cristina Lora Yu thot yu had it,buh yu thot wrong...lets begin dis shxtprepare yaself kuz dis shxt bout to b long. lol.yu not ready.....kuz WE in dareme an tina bout to kill deze boysGOT DAT KLEAR???!!about an hour ago   Leon Wright SHE IS SO INNOCENT WITH HER GLOWING SMILE SHE'S THE ONLY ONE FOR ME EVEN THO SHE HAS LEFT ME FOR A WHILE. WHEN SHE WALKS PASS ME TEARS START TO COME DOWNBUT IM TOO AFFRAID TO SHOW MY LOVE FOR NOWEVEN THO SHE HAS LEFT ME SHE IS STILL IN MY... HEART I FALL ON MY KNEES BEGGING GOD PLEASE TO TELL HER TO COME BACK TO ME!!! JUS GETTIN WARMED UP about an hour ago   Christina D Rangel I got ya warmed up. Got my heart weak. writing love songs. is anyone listening?I do me for no other reason thanMe is all I can be.Better, faster, stronger. We kill niggas with words and knowledge....Ha I love the competition tho. Gotta get some practice in. That's all I'm doing practicing about an hour ago ·   Leon Wright SHE TALKIN LOVE. IM SPEAKIN LUST, HER HEART IS A BROKEN BONE SHE CANT FEEL THE TRUST. BUT THE NEXT TIME I SEE HER I REMEMBER DAMN..KISS HER LIPS AND HOLD HER HAND, REMEMBER THE TIME THAT I WAS HER MAN BUT NOW I SEE IT WASINT MENT TO BE SO I END THIS WITH LOVE AINT SHIT... about an hour ago ·   Justin Hill not tryna be disrepctfull but comapared to ya last man me and lee on a different level.im sure you heard it allbut all i ask is for a simple text message or a call.so i can tell you what you mean to me.or tell me how you new to me....please bare with me,cuz this is all new to me. cuz usually i usually treat my women like a swisher sweetkeep the good and throw away the bad like a loose leaf !See More 57 minutes ago ·   Cristina Lora lol get em christina kuz we pratice like footballlol dis nikka prolly gotta bookreadin from dat shxt.ain no beef, we jus rhymin das all....we readin off from our headno notes necessarylol its funny how yall think yall got dis in da bagnahh were hard to get like HALLE BERRY 56 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright BUT AS U SEE JAYY IS A FRIEND TO METREAT EVERY FEMALE LIKE A ROSE BUT EASY TO BECOME AN ENEMYAND I SPEAK WHATS REAL AND U TRY TO SAY WHAT IT WOULD BE BUT JUST KNO LOVE LOST BUT CRISTINA UR HEART COULD BE ALL I NEED... 55 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel i write this lines. not to sweet talk, tell lies, ta make my way between thighs. I do this writing thing becuz without it. I'd lose my mind. I refuse to stay confined hiding behind all these memorized lines. 55 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright AYEEE ALL I KNO IS LOVE COMES AND GOES BUT WITH ME LOVES SHOWS, LOVE GLOWS, IM TRYNA LET U KNO THAT A SINGLE KISS COULD MAKE U SHINE, NEVER DEFINE, OR EVEN REWIND CUZ MY PAST CAN BECOME UR PRESENT..AND MY LIES COULD BE FOREVER.. 52 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel I feel you on every note. lyk yu will feel my juices flowing down ya throatfreestyling aint no jokei know this becuz i never play.I do this religiously...like every sunday-sunday 52 minutes ago ·   Justin Hill but i do this writing so i can stay focused.where i came from everybody's hopes are hopeless.but fucc it theese hoes notice.that everywhere i go, im the man like im the oldest. Christina D Rangel i give my words, my loves, my rhymes all the timei have to please the groupies following mebut i give my all to the one who deserves itis that you?nah yu aint worth it. but yur working 51 minutes ago       Justin Hill and naa you dont feel me though.im talkin on the intercom but lee!she dont hear me yo.greenlight ,greenlight momma said just go.treat the pen like a boat,my lines are the river and my ideass just flow. 49 minutes ago ·   Cristina Lora wrd?? thas how yu feel??well lemme break it down to yu forreal.yall nikkas ain on our level...so y dnt YU come correct..lol while yu ova dare shakin ya head...ima need for yu to realize dis bet.dis shxt is wuh we do..so ima ask again...iz yall rele ready for da shxt we bout to put yall thru??? 49 minutes ago ·   Justin Hill gotdamn ima probelm! lmaoo . 48 minutes ago ·   Justin Hill mrs lora lol where ya flow at? spit somethen. cmon' leggooo! 47 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel yur words flow once a month like a girl with no bumpmine flow like niagara falls never fails to get the girls wet.HELLO can you hear me now?ive been here all alongall night long....loving any i want i cant start yu cant satisfy meSee More 46 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright HEARD ABOUT UR PAST AND WHAT IT USE TO BE LOVE IS STRONG BUT DAMM THATS WHAT U MEAN TO ME I SAY MY FEELING IN MY PRAYERS CUZ I NOW THERES ONLY ONE PERSON THAT CAN HERE ME THERE BUT AS I SIT BACK AND SAY MY THOUGHTS JUST KNO GIRL UR ALWAYS IN MY HEART 45 minutes ago ·   Cristina Lora nikka dnt kum at me like datkuz muh words rite heaasumthin yu kan barely understandso lemme make it klear.muh words is mad deep...sumthin yu knt handleso while yu thinkin of wuh to say nextim already puttin shxt down..easy like lightin a candle.See More 43 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel in my heart from the start.. like a race. you kinda fell behind something like an underdogim still chasing my dreams, but no man can keep upthats the way it seemsJay it couldve been you. but baby whered yu go? 43 minutes ago ·   Justin Hill nope,still dont hear ya.and even on halloween ,i still dont fear ya. and if i cant satisfy you, sorrry you get what you get.and your flow dryer than chapped lipps.listen . . i cant start you til you learn to play your position ! 41 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel theres nothing in this worldive found i want more than a man by my sidelifting me to new highsmaking me sing soprano licking in between these thighs...can i get a man to make me scream, cream?no? sighladies where you at? im switching teams bahahhaha 40 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright CRISTINA CHRISTINA YY PLAY GAMES YY SAY NEVER WHEN NEVER AINT TRUE Y CRY AT NIGHT WHEN IM AWAY YY WAKE TONIGHT WHEN THE SUN SHINES ANOTHER DAY Y SAY I LOVE U WHEN HE WONT SAY IT BACK Y HATELIFE WHEN TO LIVE U SHOULDINT REGRET Y, Y ,Y IS ALL THIS WORLD IS BUT SAYIN A SIMPLE YES WILL CHANGE THE REST 39 minutes ago ·   Cristina Lora mmm..yall speakin on lovei guess i ain got datmuh hearts been ripped up an i nevaa got it bck.i knt speak on feelinz...kuz i guess i have nunbuh on a skale form 1-10bitch im da #1nikkas treat me wrong buh alwz wana come bcki jus laugh in dey face kuz i dnt get down like dat. 38 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel baby tell me whats my position?cuz i can do it all. sitting, standing. either way ima feed ya 38 minutes ago ·   Justin Hill i can go forever , whatevers on my mind.boo! yall succ , this is a waste of time. and even at midnight i still manage to shine. i dont own any skateboards , but yet im still on my grind.im tha man call me mister misterboth of yall named chirstina call em sister sister .See More 38 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel no honey nina and tina call us pretty primasi never stop nor sleep. i can rest when i drop.now go 'head keep putting me in my place justinas long as yu know my place is always on top 35 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright LIFE IS AN ISSUE BUT I LEARNED HOW TO DEALMONEY WAS A PROBLEM TELL I LEARNED HOW TO SELLAT A YOUNG AGE I DID YOUNG THINGS BUT AS A MAN I KNO THAT IN THIS LIFE I NEED U AND I DONT MEAN UR BODY I MEAN UR MIND CUZ WITHOUT UR THOUGHTS IM A BOAT... SINKIN IN DEEP OCEAN IM A BIRD WITH NO WINGS AND WITH OUT U IM A SHOUTING STAR WITH NO WISH, NO KISS JUST LOVE LOST 33 minutes ago ·   Justin Hill bae im in a daze, i got lost in ya love maze.i lost my bookmark but i remember we where on the same page.mrs Rangel ! can you be my angel?your thighs are soooo thicc esp from this angle. i cant even rember lastnight but i bodies looked like... triangles. turn around let me kiss your necc while i see that ass dangle ! =Ptossing and turning , ya hair all in tangles. i love your thighs and breast no bojangles ! (= 32 minutes ago ·   Cristina Lora ooooo lol tlk dirty to em...das wussup.we nevaa stop, lol i guess das jus us.kuz we get it in.."hard in da muhfckin paint"...lol yud think i get muh shxt from drake.buh nahh..like nicki,"i write muh own shxt..i gotta go i gotta get me"dis shxts makin me laugh hard as hellkuz writin is wuh i do VERY WELL 31 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel my love is irresistible cant ever find better. but if yu wanna lookgo on take ya time. i'll kick back n spit my rhymes bout all my good times. with the guys n dimes. opps did i say that?...ha guess yu know now i gets mine by any means.as long as you talented and fine.while yur reciting lines to try and get sum play time smhSee More 30 minutes ago ·   Justin Hill na im just being real , i can wait for the play time.but like study hall , we need some quiet time ! 28 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright LOOK INTO MY EYES TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL IM TRYNA GIVE YOU THINGS TO MAKE YOU FEEL REAL WHEN YOU STEPPED IN THE ROOM ALL EYES WAS ON YOU AND I WAS FEELING YOU CRISTINA FROM YOUR HEAD DOWN TO YOUR SHOES BUT IN MY DO'S AND DONT'S MY LIST IS TRUE IS THIS LIFE OF LOVE MAKING IM TRYNA DO YOU LOLHAHAH 26 minutes ago ·   Cristina Lora daaaaaammmmmmmmmmnnnnnnnnnn.....i was told we was bout to get murdered...murder who??lol kuz looks of it..i think we murderin yu!1 nikka tlkin bout love.....yall 2 nikkas tlkin bout sexhmm...lol i wonder wuh topic we bout to speak on next...??See More 25 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel Ok Justin baby I see you.Telling me all the things yu gonna do to me.Lust over love is definitely a mustI dnt have time to cupcake but yu can lay me downgimme face. trust me when i say i taste great...but yu dnt have ta take my word for it.just say tha word. can yu have me singing hooks?can yu hear me now? bowbowSee More 25 minutes ago ·   Justin Hill and while lee tryna do you,shit i wanna do you too. like young money said we like and we like her too.so mrs rangel thats including you.we some fly niggas and every fly nigga needs a booo . 24 minutes ago ·   Cristina Lora lmao...ooooooo iz we hookin up in dis bitch?? 22 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright STAB ,KILL,BLEED SHIT TOPICS IS ALL THE SAME TO ME CUZ NO MATTER WHAT WE PIC ME AND JAYY GONNA TELL YOU WHAT ITS GONNA BE EVEN IF WE TIE WE KNO THE TRUTH CUZ UR WORDS REMIND US OF THE OLD WHEN WE ON TO THE NEW 22 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel a boo? i was thinkin twoyou, you, and you. yeah im tryna do me.like a tutorialuntill yu can do it properlyyu can get on top of me...but that wont make my body leak.ima get on top of yu and ride till i get like twoSee More 21 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright AYE CHRISTINA NASTY LOL 20 minutes ago ·   Justin Hill i would give you face , i gotta see if you worth it.rough loveinglet me hurt it.ill murk it.mrs rangel im longer than a church service....me and mrs lora in tha bacseat while lee swerveinme and lee waiters of love , now its time to do some serveing hahaha 17 minutes ago ·   Cristina Lora damn tina...yu is nasty lmao 17 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright LOL THESE NIGGAS IS NASTY CRISTINA LOL 16 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel Lee you talk so much but yet yu say nothingi can speak no words yet preach to the school.i have intelligence beyond my years and still have so much to learn.for years im feeding eattin niggas...growing better im sitting here in college doing everything possible to gain this knowledge dnt worry i'll bring it back to ya im a giver. like santa :) 15 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright U SPEAKIN ON ME LIKE U AINT AFRAID OF DANGER U COULDINT EVEN MAKE IT AS PART OF THE LAW SO THEY MADE U A RANGER U TALKIN ON SEX WHEN U AND HEAD TO EACH OTHER IS LIKE STRANGERS..ILLL LET U KNO IM SPEAKIN TO U CUZ U IN THE CONVO NOT BECAUSE U MATTER 12 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel Baby you've told me what yud like to doLee said nothinghe can sit backside. watchin like a spectatordnt worry tho ima performer.i put on quite a show....yea yu can cater to me. serve me like a customer.work it, murk it? nigga IS YOU WORTH IT?See More 12 minutes ago ·   Justin Hill me and lee cuttin throats.while you in class raiseing ya hand and takeing notes.in the bacc by the nerds makeing paper boatsme and lee sippin mosacto lets make a toast !put alittle shrimp and baccon and butter on my toast....i dont meana boast.yea i see you a player but baby im the coach !See More 12 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright HAHA U SPEAKIN ON ME LIKE UR WORTHY CHRISTINA NIGGA I DONT WONT U.. NIGGA STICK WITH U CUZ U IS THE RIDE...JAYY CAN BE IN FRONT CUZZ IM THE KABOOST... 10 minutes ago ·   Cristina Lora ooooo damn like santa...lmaokan i be ya elf??not sayin yu need n e help.tina ovaa heaa bringin all da freaks bcknevaa knew yu got down like dat. lol...im not even in skoolan im learnin new shxt eydayhmm..lol buh not sure if i wana look da otha way.lmao nahh we fam..das nastywe gotta show deze nikkas we klassy. buh well say all da shxt we need to kuz das jus how we do...See More 9 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel Danger? Ray J's baby momma. nah im not scared of her anythingi have no time to spend afraid in life. im too busy changing lifes.i kno nothing of tha law. we dnt get along. something like me and you. the two just dnt go together.im talkin on... sex. and im talkin bout face. cuz when it comes to that i cum in first place. i addressed for out of kindness now let me get back to my spotdnt worry i'll be looking down at yu, booSee More 7 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright TALKIN BOUT SEX SHIT IM ALL FOR IT BUT WHAT SHE TALKIN BOUT DOING DONT EVEN SEEM WORTH IT I WONT A DOWN ASS CHICK LIKE LORA AYE WE CAN ROLL PLAY (FAMILY MATTERS) ILL BE STEPHEN AND U BE LORA 7 minutes ago ·   Cristina Lora ATTENTION GUYS!!!! I HAVE TO RETREAT BCK TO MUH ROOM KUZ MOMZ IZ HOME AN SHE HAS HER DUMBASS FARMVILLE SHXT TO TEND TO....SOOOOOOO.....DIS WAS NICE...WE SHUD DO IT AGAIN... 6 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright DO IT REAL SOON CHRISTINA NICE TO MEET U 5 minutes ago ·   Christina D Rangel HAHAHAHAHHAH im in college in the back by the nerds. real talkgotta STAY on top.I'm the pilot baby youre IN coach 4 minutes ago ·   Leon Wright IM OUT MYSELF THIS WAS FUN CRISTINA TXT ME 2 minutes ago   Christina D Rangel Nice to meet yu too luv. nice to talk to yu again Justin. 2 minutes ago   Justin Hill ight who won?  Cristina Lora ok well....it was brought to my attention dat we shud put this all in to our notes an let ppl vote an das how well determine da winners....agreed???Updated Oct 22, 2020, 6:18 PMSep 27, 2010, 9:37 PM

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If your significant other doesn’t approve of you getting naked and teasing on Omegle, and you still do is this considered cheating?

idk why anyone would want to go on Omegle in 2021 in the first place tbh.. im not trying to b mean im sorry that sounded harsh :// i used to go on Omegle w my friends when i was in like grade 9 or 10 i think but neverrr nekkkked or anything like that i forget wtf i did but i got mad bored of it lmao. don’t do it in my opinion, if u wanna show off ur body n b sexualsssss n stuffs i would either create an OF n get that coinZ (promote thru Twitter bc they allow nudity!!) or mayb start a streaming platform type shit on twitch or sum where u can atleast get paid!!! do NOT do anything for free baby u worth a lot more than that, i was so stupid when i was younger n on substances 😤 remember the internet is 4eva n ppl jus hav to screenshot or sav pic n it’s theirs!!!🙄 i wish i had 26 yo me tellin younger me this advice wow the money i woulda made foiiiikkkkkkk i was so dumb lol yall r so welcome.

as for the issue of the significant other.. i haven’t had 1 of those innna while but i remember diff ex’s n my experiences w similar type things.. i had a v controlling ex who wouldn’t ‘let’ me do shit n i was so young such a baby n so warped in the head n v underweight at that time it was unhealthy as fuck to b in that relationship periodttt. another relationship i can relate kindaaaa bc i went to sum interviews at stripe clubs n that was a whole thing bc obviously no boyfriend really wants their gf dancing naked on another mans u kno u kno? but he was supportive in a sense that he knew it’s what i wanted to do at the time for specific reasons and for those reasons.. he approved but was still a lil upset by it as any man would be. i didn’t end up trying out the whole ‘stripper’ thing until after we broke up tho but i do think it played a big part in the breakdown of our relationship among many other things that i won’t even get into bc… it’s a whole fucking thing. basically.. if u wanna tell him/her/they (queen of inclusivity!!!) then tell him. if u feel like it will really hurt ur relationship then either don’t do it bc u kno it’ll upset that person n u care about them MORE than u care about getting naked etc in front of other ppl, ORRR u could go the route of.. making a secret OF/TWITCH/TWITTER ACCOUNT whatever it is and just simply don’t tell ur partner about any of it. it is honestly 100% up to u n it depends on ur morals, principles and ethics as idk u personally to say what i think u should do nor do i kno who it is u are dating so it’s hard to say how i think they would react to something like that. go w ur gut instinct. ive always cared about the other person MORE than ive cared about myself.. that’s just who i am n once i luv sum1 i luv so hard that i personally just couldn’t hurt them. however.. being that way hasn’t got me anywhere, anything or anyone so while i have a fucking great ass heart it does suck in the long term to be so overly cautious and caring when it comes to thinking about other people vs thinking about the wants/needs of urself ://