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in my quest to quell my pain ive only hurt myself worse. damned if i do damned if i dont.
#i need better coping mechanisms but it’s so easy to just turn to substances when you’ve never learned how to cope w your emotions#and physical pain. however a lot of it has been brought on by the substance abuse aka i did it to myself#so i probably deserve it#but i started with them in the first place to get rid of pain that was so overwhelming and constant#it feels like every time i do something to preserve myself im punished for it#and im so sick of it. i cant believe its gotten this bad#i drink to help the pain -> i get hungover and the pain is way worse -> i drink to stop that pain#and the worst part is it always works#realistically ive depended on substances for like a decade#i started drinking at 13 and fell into a rut of alcoholism at like 15/16#my mom was going thru a phase of alcoholism and roped me into it so bad if be woken up by her bringing me a drink at 9 am#and we’d drink till she passed out and i had to walk her to bed and cook for everyone and do all the chores#it went on for months one summer#then it was weed and i smoked every day from like 18-22#only thing thwt stopped me from drinking until i started again after both my parents died#i havent recovered since.#im still so traumatized and depressed that i looked for any method of relief#the dph phase was the worst. i think alc is even better than that lmfao it was horrible#once i got access to alc i stopped all that. wouldnt have if i hadnt had alc tho#it’s honestly been one addiction after the other for a decade#and my parents fueled so much of it#‘oh id rarher you drink under my eye than do it behind my back’#BRUH YOU WOULDNT LET ME GO ANYWHERE OR DO ANYTHING. HOW WOULD THWT HAVE HAPPENED#crazy how i was obsessed w drugs and shit by the time i was 10 and i remember thinking wow im gojna grow up to be an addict.#why am i so irreparably fucked up#idk whatever. like im not gonna drink abt it lmao.
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Ive been trying out Clip studio paint, its pretty fun!! 😭heres a yuki i made :)
#clip studio paint is so hard to get used to but yknow im getting the hang of it sort of#also WOW the amount of decoration stuff is so fun like the flowers?? omg#anyways#a3#a3!#a3 fanart#a3 art#yuki rurikawa#act addict actors#a3 act addict actors#a3 game#a3 yuki#summer troupe#yuki rurikawa fanart#i think that is everything#unculturedswine69
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Luxiem & Vibes
WARNING: Please remember that I am writing about Luxiem based on their characters online and not of the people behind their vtuber avatars, thank you!
EXTRA NOTES: just something short and sweet so that i don't forget how to write lmao
GENERAL
a different writing layout! the dividers aren't present due to the shortness of length!
i cant be bothered to colour the names too differently (sorry boss)
just general vibes lmao, try figuring out what part of their personality (lore wise + minor details from their livestreams) i'm referencing ^^
MORE UNDER THE CUT
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IKE EVELAND
a quiet campus library near exams season
you can feel how stressed out the students are in the library, yet there seems to be this air of serenity still
quiet clacking of keys, the quick flutters of papers and the smell of monster energy drinks mixed with an unhealthy amount of espresso
LUCA KANESHIRO
a dark alleyway in an otherwise dazzling street at night
neon signs, cigarette smoke and whistling all masking away the darkness within the city's brilliant lights
the lion's eyes watching as its prey walks by
MYSTA RIAS
a forest meadow surrounded by fire
the otherwise serene scenery is surrounded by chaos as the flames crept closer
the smell of burnt wood, the green hues withering away and the sun feeling as if it was shining even brighter. one may say that this is just fine
SHU YAMINO
a cemetary in the middle of the night.
they say if you enter the cemetary at a certain hour, many souls could be found wandering around the graves
eerie stillness, leaves rustling and the suspicious chuckling that could be heard across the graveyard
VOX AKUMA
sailing in the middle of the ocean during a still night.
no one knows what could be lurking under the waters or could tell how violent the waves could be, yet there seems to be comfort in the unknown
waves crashing against the otherwise still boat, the chilling salty air and the serene scenery of ocean for miles on end
#yuwrote#ok this is rushed RUSHED because i didnt let this rot in my drafts lmao#if youre reading this still - answer key!!! or at least why these vibes#for ike; i remember him talking about an energy drink addiction and it reminded me of my own that i developed after uni exams#hence the espresso bit lmao#for luca; it's his bright personality but his lore as a mafia boss#for mysta: how chaotic he is vs the idea that he is a genius detective#i mean you can be a genius and still be chaotic BUT DEAR LORD THE GAP MOE.....#as for shu: the souls bit. im referencing his flames (i think theyre souls ?? if i remember correctly??)#wow yuwu fake yaminion /j#and for vox; the idea that the waves could be violent. i can picture vox as a boat and the kindred as the waves that keep him afloat#the waves could suddenly turn violent#yadayayadayada it sounds super pretentious of me LMAO but i hope the message got across#luxiem x reader#nijisanji en luxiem#luxiem imagine#luxiem drabble#nijisanji en#ike eveland x reader#ike eveland#luca kaneshiro x reader#luca kaneshiro#mysta rias x reader#mysta rias#shu yamino x reader#shu yamino#vox akuma x reader#vox akuma
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need you to know i genuinely enjoy your blog - part of what makes it great is that its clear that you go outside and party and fuck!! so many people in this website just don’t fuck 🤧
omg !!! ❤️❤️❤️ don’t replicate my sin u will go to hell
#asked#anonymous#ALSKALSKALSKLKSLAKSLAJSLAJSL#i don’t party i end them#i’m the police but instead of confiscating the drugs i’m doing them all & everyone hates me for it#i’m like a pig findin a truffle#i wish i could stay inside forever and just die but im an adult#has to leave the house today even#gave more directions#still exhausted#still so much shit to do#i should be euthanized#ok real talk i hope none of yall look up to me bc u shouldn’t 😭😭 don’t look at my substance use & think ‘wow aspiration !’ it’s a problem &#it’s bc of Trauma that i am An Addict#like aspire to overcome rape & assault & druggings & robbery & sex work & abusive relationships & abandonent issues & being poor &#like QLSKALKSLAKSLAJSLAKSLAKSL#LIKE LOOK AT THAT !!! laugh at my misery bc it is very funny but dont aspire to it !!!!#except for the pigeons i think everyone should feed the pigeons & should try feeding pigeons & also look at pigeons & watch the pigeons & th#think abt pigeons & love pigeons#not the point but like fr do NOT have insane amounts of sex it’s not cool or swag it’s honestly very sad ALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKSLAK#like getting flashbacks are INSANE bc i’ve blacked out so many memories#no actually u should have insane amounts of sex i mean risky sex & sex for attention like i’ve hooked up w people i wouldn’t … solely bc#they would give me attention that i crave like it’s not even ‘attention’ it’s just ‘feeling close to a person’ like i would’ve been HAPPY to#just get a HUG or a CUDDLE but to do that i had to have sex (OR SO I THOUGHT BC I HAVE NO BOUNDARIES)
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Huh. So that's the end of the Umbrella Academy I guess.
#it's been out for almost a week i think and i've heard NOBODY talking about it since it was such a dud#lol highly popular series (that lbh has been on decline since s1) that is granted the rare netflix Final Season to wrap things up#and it seems like the showrunners entirely phoned it in. wow. i just... i honestly dont have words for how mediocre it was#the umbrella academy#dani talks about tv#('mediocre' is me being extremely generous. honestly is was terrible)#like what the hell was the lila-5-diego love triangle that never really resolves for?#also klaus' 'addiction is so quirky funny' shtick has gotten so old & this season was the worst. literally prostituting himself for drugs#and its played for laughs. this isnt humanizing addicts its minimizing the pain the disease can cause#viktor & diego (LOVED Dad Diego) were the only characters to have meaningful character development and its such a waste for everyone else#like especially after last season allison deserved to have her arc focus on her & claire more but no gotta be the codependency plot AGAIN#sigh. im not mad im just disappointed.
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same nervous anon from earlier anddd i graduated!! idk why i was scared i was totally fine lmaosl im the queen of overreacting. anyways im officially a graduate and i got SUMMA CUM LAUDE HELL YEAH
hello, baby!!!!! first of all, i just want to say...
cONGRATU-FUCKING-LATIONS, MY LOVE!!!!!
graduating is no easy feat, seriously. i am so fucking proud of you, i was so excited to finally have enough time to answer this because i am so happy that my face hurts from SMILING SO BIG!!!! :DDD
you did the damn thing!!! like i know that at points it was really hard, but you powered through it and i am so excited for you to start this new chapter of your life and see what life has in store for you. <3
i am glad your culmination went smoothly because hooooly fuck, chaperoning the culmination from my school was HELL ON EARTH, hoooooly shit. parents are so entitled and so mean to me like yeah, okay maam, i'm sorry that you are sitting in the fourth row and you wanted to sit in the front row, SO DID EVERY OTHER FUCKING FAMILY HERE TOLD, like i don't care how much you donate to the school???? i didn't make the damn seating chart, yell at the WALL!
it was...oh my god. i still get flashbacks, bro.
but AGAIN I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!
and congratulations to all my friends in school or not, whatever you are doing, and however well or not well you think you are doing, know you are very loved and i am very, very proud of you.
sorry, i haven't been around...again, if you were dying during finals week, so am i because i am GIVING THOSE FINALS when teachers decide to rage quit and take their vacations early like??? thanks so much, legend! it's not like i...you know...have never ran your class before and i have to comfort nervous students WHO AREN'T MINE?
but yes, mwah mwah mWAH! i love you guys, i posted a very lame ask meme finally after 73093740934 years and i'm sorry, but because i am so busy i may go dark randomly and come back. the posting is slow goings and i am worried about how stressful working summer camp will be ( though, i am stoked for the structure ) but if you're on the struggle bus, its the hello kitty bus and i'm driving.
which unfortunately is not great news...
because i can't drive.
anyways! cheers! mazel! <3333
-uncle nina, grinning ear to ear
#EVERYONE SAY CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!#WOW I AM SO HAPPY FOR U MY LOVE#YOU DID SO WELL I AM SO PROUD OF YOU#YAYAYAYAYAYAY#sorry it took so long to respond like i said i have been up to my eyeballs giving finals and covering classes and doing papers#i will say that two days ago i had MY FAVORITE WORK DAY EVER because i spent all day with the kinders it was so so nice#they are so cute we did so much fun stuff MY ANGELS#but yes very very very proud of you and im proud of all of you regardless of what ur doing its enough and its perfect#i am working on posting but i really am so tired and stressed so its hard ive been trying to put out that ask meme since yday#i was writing it on my breaks it was hell smh so#its slow but i am working#i also am shamelessly taking breaks bc i got addicted to watching that guy that does the impression of the filipino nurse#BECAUSE HE SOUNDS JUST LIKE MY DAMN LOLA#OH MY GOD AND MY MOM SOMETIMES SO FUNNY#THE HAYSUSMARYOSEP IS SOOOOO REAL IM IN TEARS#never having a filipino stan is my curse i would be so funny#sorry random sidebar BUT LET ME COOK A LITTLE but also i really need to rest bc i am very tired#if you sent me a message please know i saw it i dont have octopus arms i cant hold everyones hand but i am trying okay#also i hope yall like my lore post i think its cute asf
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good morninf everyone…. i’m back again….. It’s so good to be back..
#nora speaks#i love clawing my way back to this app and bursting through the door and going HONEY IM HOME to all of you#i feel like i do this once a month#it’s a habit#i was gone for less than a week but in that time i have made many crucial life changing decisions#and i also got my money stolen from me#lesson of the week: do not online shop with ur debit card#stay healthy everybody#will be writing again soon…#wow i really was not even gone for that long#i think i’m tumblr addicted#it feels like it’s been ages
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im in est, but if you ever wonder why im more active at night, its bc theres less ppl at night. means that theres nobody there to see me. nobody to judge me.
#✧・゚ ——— ❛ game fanatic; hot tea addict. ❪ file :// 001. | ooc. ❫#like i look at ppls blogs and go! wow! im intimidated by them! and they followed me first? im gonna combust!#and in the most not fishing for compliments way: whats my vibe? what do you think about me when you look at my blog?#do i seem like unapproachable? weird? friendly?#im curious and should have been asleep hours ago
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rant about media literacy and genuine commitment to justice/equity for "leftists" below bc i'm. annoyed.
ok so. annoyance prompted by a twt post. nothing against the op, i don't know this person, this is really abt the content of the post itself. reproduced here:
Ngl if your show's opening villain monologue is just "disabled people deserve to be able to exist without constant suffering" and it's framed as ontologically evil, yeah go fuck yourself
on the surface, seemingly good point! seemingly good post! i certainly don't disagree with the idea on the surface. i am curious as to what this is referencing. apparently, it's referencing the show d*pesick. and here's the thing. this seems to remove DS from its context. granted, i've not watched the entirety of the show, but i have watched the episode and this scene. and sure, its villain is talking about how people deserve to have pain relief and disabled folks/folks that experience chronic pain should not have to constantly suffer. but the villain that op is talking about is literally a head of a private pharma company. i guarantee you that this man was not trying to innocently market a drug for disabled folks!!! and the show doesn't seem to be saying that pain management is bad-there are ppl in this show, first episode, experiencing severe pain from workplace injury that are shown in a sympathetic light. these people don't deserve to suffer. you don't want these people to experience pain-but you also don't want big pharma to be selling people pain medication that can be addictive!
i'm certainly not an expert in the subject or perfect in my interests, but i do care about health equity. i care about harm reduction-which means not throwing people who use substances to the side. it does not mean cutting off all access to substances and leaving people to suffer, whether they are using for pain management or not.
so what's my point?? my point is not that d*pesick is a good show. i couldn't care less. my point is that when we get takes like this, you're ignoring context in favor of the surface-level progressivism that is easy to promote on social media. you're ignoring history, you're often ignoring SEVERAL aspects of class, race, gender, ability, etc that play into larger societal problems.
and that is exactly how corporations and propaganda get you. because they can take the surface language of progressivism, they can take the language that you want to hear to feel safe and then screw you. they can talk about self-care and shame you for being mentally ill in the same breath. they can emphasize diversity and inclusion while alienating the people of color in the room. and if you are actually committed to serving communities, if you are actively committed to equity and justice, you have to be smart. you have to think critically.
#ari speaks#not tagging the show because i don't. know if people talk about it on tumblr but i don't. really want it to show up in the tags.#this isn't a super well thought out thing or anything i'm just like. we Have to think critically about these things.#cw addiction#(post is in the context of substance use)#sorry it's just. grinding my gears because i am getting. more entrenched in health equity work#and serving folks who have used substances/continue to use substances.#there's so many issues with how we treat the issue of substance use disorder/addiction and im NOT an expert.#but i am frustrated when we go 'wow you're really kicking disabled people here' when this is.#about the EXPLOITATION of people's pain for financial gain.#anyway. rant over! you are. welcome to interact i guess but like. this is string of thoughts and i'm not an expert pls don't clown.
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u ever seriously wonder if ur gonna make it thru the year
#im#not even sad abt it.#just thinking.#i saw my aunt today and she bought me alc like every time i see a family member. lolololol i am mentally and physically ill i absolutely#failed at resisting temptation#mainly bc im a WRECK due to my period#i did not break the cycle of addiction that runs HEAVILY on both sides of my family 💀💀💀#maybe one day but that isnt today.#i actually havent drank in like a month whixh is awesome for me given. The Tendicies.#anyone else also feel like theyve taken a stimulant on alc????#like i have so much energy and joy but without the horrific heart racing symptoms#it’s bc it works on gaba receptors that seems to be what im lacking#bc neurontin (gabapentin) was the psych med that worked WONDERS for me and i’ve been on 10+ other meds that haven’t done SHIT#my doc wld not prescibe me last time i went despite being prescribed before and ir working wonderfully#she just upped my paxil which didnt do jack fucking shit#then i lost insurance so i havent been able to follow up w her But im working on that#it just sucks so much that the only time i feel relatively happy is on drugs#then i think well. at least im no longer in my benedryl phase like when i was younger💀#and im like wow it rly cld be worse. i guess.#tendencies*#oh jesus i am NOT proofreading this. sorry
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hmm.. yeah im scared christmas/new years will be the death of me . /srs
#cuz like#i get misgenderd and deadnamed constantly#and ... well#tw self harm#vent#tw vent#well due to that i stab myself as much as i can and possibly attempt suicide#oh and i have to go to the airport on the 23rd ^_^ so i get deadnamed and misgendered MORE#knowing me ill just be like “^_^ i dont have to worry i can just hurt myself to feel better!!”#like im 100% sure ill say just that lol#wow i think im addicted ...
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feel free to dislike a character but maybe don't write a whole essay with the thesis being "this character has substance use disorder and that makes them a bad person and I am entirely justified in hating the Evil Addict who is So Bad"
#like?? are you fucking serious? keep that shit to yourself if you think that#with the justification that they've seen what it does to families too like.#as someone who comes from a family of addicts i dont see how you come out of that not wishing for better support?#for both you and the person who struggles with addiction#like yes it can lead to violence bc it literally rewires the brain. having unjudgemental access to aid... helps#idk im about to leave for work but i just saw that and im.. wow. wtf.
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i feel like i need to tell my sister's mom about what he did
it doesn't sit well with me that there could be a possibility he's hurting her or has hurt her the same way. she's eleven just like i was when it stopped
i feel like i'm responsible because i'm the one that left. i feel like i left her. i left her with him and i didn't look back why didn't i say anything she was so little why didn't i tell?
i don't really believe in god but i pray our father hasn't already done the same to her
i don't know if i could take it
#i know. i know if i tell.#that its going to be a massive shitstorm.#im honestly 95% sure that our extended family will probably not believe me or will accuse me of lying. like i WISH i was lying.#i cut contact with pretty much all of them but my sister & her mom and even then her mom isnt around much anymore#my little sister is staying w our older sisters mom because her bio mom is going thru drug addiction on and off#which is another reason i feel like i should tell her. he would accept drugs as payment sometimes. if both of them are strung out like that#i hate to think of what could happen to my little sister#i dont know if i could take it. if i told her & she didnt believe me.#shes never been good at putting us kids first though. thats the other reason im worried.#i still remember sitting on the floor of the goodwill dressing room while she tried on clothes. i was trying to stay awake/conscious#i had a very high fever & was very sick but she kept saying 'i promise ill be done soon' so i just sat down and leaned against the wall#blinking in and out of awareness#my mom was not happy when i came home w that super high fever and she found out that not only did they not bring me home#they stopped at a store to look around/try things on despite the fact i was literally seconds from passing out#i was in bed the rest of the day#wow. typing that out for the first time is. it made me realize how fucked up that actually was#i was sick and they didnt care
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matchmaker.
in which max is tired of lando being a single mess, so he plays matchmaker.
lando norris x famous!reader.
fc: sabrina carpenter.
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y/n: lil photodump 💭
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madisonbeer: my goddess!! miss you pookie xx
liked by y/n.
user: QUEEN OMGGBSKSKSL
user: she’s addicted to slaying
user: pls come to brazil!!
user: can’t wait to see you in paris!!
user: she’s so pretty wtf
user: Y/N AND MADISON COLLAB WHEN??
user: emails i can’t send is a masterpiece y/n!!
user: JUST ONE CHANGE IM BEGGING AHKSOSLSL
user: the man who’s going to date her is literally the luckiest man on earth
see more.
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imessages between max and lando.
max:
mate
i have good news
lando:
what?
i’m scared actually
max:
fuck off
it’s for your own sake
lando:
okay NOW i’m terrified
max:
SHUT IT
you’re going on a blind date tonight
lando:
um
no?
max:
wasn’t a question you idiot
be ready at 9
a car will come pick you up
lando:
DHAT
WHAT
MAX ANWSER
WITH WHO???
I REFUSE
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imessages between max and lando.
lando:
max fewtrell.
did you REALLY sent me on a blind date with Y/N FUCKING L/N??
WITHOUT WARNING ME??
i was SO embarrassing
max:
okay for my defense, i didn’t know
i asked kika to find me someone who could match your vibe and apparently it had to be y/n…
BUT apparently it went well so we good
lando:
mate
i fucking spilled my wine on her expensive looking dress
i tripped over my own feet when i got up to pay the bill
i stuttered when she asked for my NAME
i almost slipped when i tried to open the car door for her
i answered « that’s cool » when she told me that the inspiration for her new album was her past and traumatic relationship
max:
holy shit dude
she’s never calling you again that’s for SURE
well at least we tried
lando:
wait till i catch you and kika
i’ll run you over with my car
BOTH OF YOU TRAITORS
max:
i’m innocent
it’s all kika’s fault
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imessages between max, kika and lando.
kika:
YOU COWARD
SHE THINKS YOU DIDN’T LIKE HER
TEXT HER NOW
max:
why are we yelling
kika:
go on twitter and see for yourself
lando:
WHAT DO YOU MEAN I DIDN’T LIKE HER??
she should be the one to dislike me i literally made a fool out of myself BECAUSE I WASN’T PREPARED TO MEET MY CELEBRITY CRUSH???
kika:
you should be always prepared lando norris
lando:
omg give me a break
what should i do?
max:
her fans hate you lmao
text her maybe?
kika:
I HAVE A BETTER IDEA
invite her for the miami gp!
yes i’m a genius
lando:
do you want me to crash on the wall francisca?
i will 100% fumble the race if i know she’s watching
max:
oh my god
why are you such a pussy?
lando:
fuck YOU
this is all your fault
kika:
if you don’t invite her, i WILL
lando:
FINE
but if i die i’ll haunt your ass forever
kika:
who knows maybe you’ll finally win a race ;)
mister lando NOwins
lando:
wow i didn’t know mister pierre gasly was a race winner already
max:
okay enough you two
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y/n: may not know a lot about formula one, but i know for a fact that you deserved that win. i can’t wait to be with you during your journey, pretty boy <3
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landonorris: i couldn’t ask for a better partner, pretty girl <3
user: YESSS FINALLY
user: omg they’re together??
user: WTFFFABSKSLMSLS
user: no bc why are they so cute??
user: aww she was so happy for him when he won
user: lmao the cameraman kept zooming in on her when lando won ajsksllz
user: PARENTS
user: CONGRATS LANDO
user: he better treat her right
user: they’re cute ngl
see more.
#f1 fandom#f1 au#f1 fanfic#f1 fic#f1 imagine#formula one#formula 1#lando norris#lando norris x female reader#lando norris x reader#lando norris x you#lando norris x oc#lando norris x y/n#lando x reader#lando norris fluff#ln4 fluff#ln4 imagine#ln4 fic#ln4#f1 instagram au#f1 masterlist#f1 x you#f1 x reader#f1#formula one x y/n#formula one x oc#formula one x you#formula one x reader#lando norris fanfic#lando norris f1
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Me staring at the bubble screensaver for fifteen minutes while eating after my sixth setback that day even though it's only noon
My boss: you ok honey?
Me not taking my eyes off the bubbles: please let me dissociate in peace
#the only way to get a house here is to know people#and i got offered a great apartment that i could afford#but it'd make me lose my financial security so one setback would put me on the streets#so i had to decline#and i leaked through my tampon onto my jeans in the first ten minutes of work#i was still stressed from seeing an addicted man in the supermarket get arrested at 8 am#someone yelled at me on the phone#and my narcissistic boss was being narcissistic and an asshole#so i was like ok we're done here lets... 😐😐😐😐😐#personal#i need a HUG and a cry after today#im gonna go to my atelier for pottery in an hour so thats like the same#also i think i have a crush on my friend so im working through that too#i want a nap#i also almowt cried 6 times today#it's a messy day 😂😂#i have a vodka ginger beer 'cause im nauseous but i also need a drink and you know... it sure works#im actually ok now that im home and showered i just need to vent queen of emotional regulating#i also sent my boss an angry text and he was like 'ok im sorry' *whip sound*#my two coworkers were cheering and they were like wow its so good how well you handle his narcissistic behavior#like thank you ive had 28 years of practice im immune now 😘😘
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lucifer from hazbin hotel + overstimulation. im sorry the bow chika wow wow is not going out of my HEAD. PLEASE HELP
𝐎𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐮𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 - 𝐋𝐮𝐜𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐫 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫
𝐨𝐤 𝐨𝐤 𝐨𝐤 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄, 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐟 𝐢𝐭’𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞? 𝐋𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐜𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐞𝐝 𝐝𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮? 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐬𝐤!
𝐭𝐰 : 𝐧𝐬𝐟𝐰, 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐮𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐝𝐫𝐲 𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐨𝐟 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲
Lucifers hands were all over you, gently kissing and nipping your skin from your neck down to your inner thigh. He nips at your ankles as he takes one leg to throw over his shoulder. It’s been a week since he’s seen you due to meetings all over hell.
So at times like this he loves to take his time and worship your body.
“So beautiful, you taste so sweet, my angel,” his voice smooth and like a song. His eyes are heavy, looking up at you through his lashes as he lowers himself and slowly dips his tongue into your pussy.
“Who knew I could miss my sweet girl so badly after one week?” His finger slides into you easily. Your slick and his spit taste like honey on his tongue.
You whine, humping softly into his touch. “Missed you so much.”
He enters another finger and begins to pump you at a good and deep pace. His eyes are fixated on your face, flushed and dewy. He adores you like this.
His tongue moves up to your clit, gently flicking and teasing as he pumps his fingers into you.
“Luci, please, I want more.”
“So needy for me, sweet baby. I’ll give you what you want.” Lucifer curls his fingers inside you and begins a faster pace. His mouth latching onto your clit, sucking softly. As you grind against his mouth, he doesn’t let up and moans.
And it feels fucking divine.
“Fuck-“ you gasp. Your fingers slide through his hair and press him deeper into you. “Feels so good, so good.” You babble.
“I feel you sucking in my fingers,” Lucifer moans against your clit, “I want you to come on my face okay baby? Can you do that?”
“Mhm-“ you whine, and he latches back on, sucking harder this time. This sets you off the edge. Your orgasm shutters through your whole body, your legs squeeze him into you more as your legs quiver. You cunt sucks him in so sweetly he gives a hum of appreciation.
But he doesn’t stop.
Lucifer is so addicted to your taste, his mouth now moving down to your opening, lapping up all your sweet juices as he still pumps his fingers into you.
“Oh, luci-“ you groan.
He pulls his fingers out of you to move them up to your clit. The soft pads of his fingers draw circles as his tongue works to clean up your mess.
Your cunt is so sensitive that- you want to pull away. You jerk your hips with every circle he does.
You gasp with every motion, and his eyes burn into yours. “Does that feel good baby? Giving you what you need?” He grins and places a kiss to your thigh. Sitting up now, he continues to rub your clit as you wiggle.
“Sensitive-“ you manage.
“Does it feel good?” The look on his face shows concern, but something.. else.
And it does feel good. But your body is jerking with his movements, your face is contorted with pleasure and slight pain. But it’s a good pain.
Lucifer has never seen the sight before. The sight of your contorted face flush with desire. Your hips jerk away but come right back. Your hands desperately grip the blankets on the bed as your toes curl.
“I think I’m going to cum again,”
Lucifer slides his free hand over his clothed cock, hard before, but now throbbing and burning. As he watches you, he begins to rub his cock through his pants.
His fingers work thoroughly to your clit, and you feel empty with nothing inside you, but it feels so-
Your orgasm hits you like a tidal wave. Your toes curl as your back arches off the bed. His eyes never leave yours as he watches in amazement.
“What a good sweet angel,” he coos, swallowing thickly.
You pant, your legs going limp.
“One more, yeah baby? Gimme one more?”
“I don’t think I ca-“
His clothed cock meets your pussy and he grinds down hard.
“Holy-“ you moan. Lucifer waits a moment, enthralled by your entirety. And to his surprise, you grind into him.
“I know you can baby, show me you can do it.” His voice soft and encouraging. His lips skimming up your neck and places a kiss under your ear. His tongue flicks out to lick at your earlobe, his hips humping down into you. His cock long and fucking hard, aching for you. But he wants to see you do this.
Tears fill the corners of your eyes. “Feels … so…”
Fucking good.
You want to say, but you can’t. Your mouth hangs open, your legs are jello and your hands now grip at his jacket. You’re holding on for dear life.
He picks up his pace, his jeans grinding into you. The fabric rubbing at your sensitive bundle of nerves and you fucking love it.
“M’gunna-“
“Yeah yeah baby, I got you, cum on me,” he bites at your chin. Sweat beads at his forehead. He wants to see you fall apart, he knows you’re sensitive, but he wants to see…
You yelp, furrowing you eyebrows, you close your eyes as your next orgasm hits you. Lucifer watches every second. To the way you swallow, to the way your forehead glistens. Your body shudders against him and he wants more.
“Such a good girl, so good for me,” he wipes your hair away from your face.
Lifting his body up, his hands slide all over your abdomen. One hand presses over your lower belly while the other works to free his cock.
“Baby,” he swallows, he eyes hungry and pleading, “give me one more yeah?”
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