#my mom was not happy when i came home w that super high fever and she found out that not only did they not bring me home | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

truckstoptigers · 2 years ago

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i feel like i need to tell my sister's mom about what he did

it doesn't sit well with me that there could be a possibility he's hurting her or has hurt her the same way. she's eleven just like i was when it stopped

i feel like i'm responsible because i'm the one that left. i feel like i left her. i left her with him and i didn't look back why didn't i say anything she was so little why didn't i tell?

i don't really believe in god but i pray our father hasn't already done the same to her

i don't know if i could take it

#i know. i know if i tell.#that its going to be a massive shitstorm.#im honestly 95% sure that our extended family will probably not believe me or will accuse me of lying. like i WISH i was lying.#i cut contact with pretty much all of them but my sister & her mom and even then her mom isnt around much anymore #my little sister is staying w our older sisters mom because her bio mom is going thru drug addiction on and off #which is another reason i feel like i should tell her. he would accept drugs as payment sometimes. if both of them are strung out like that #i hate to think of what could happen to my little sister #i dont know if i could take it. if i told her & she didnt believe me.#shes never been good at putting us kids first though. thats the other reason im worried.#i still remember sitting on the floor of the goodwill dressing room while she tried on clothes. i was trying to stay awake/conscious #i had a very high fever & was very sick but she kept saying 'i promise ill be done soon' so i just sat down and leaned against the wall #blinking in and out of awareness #my mom was not happy when i came home w that super high fever and she found out that not only did they not bring me home #they stopped at a store to look around/try things on despite the fact i was literally seconds from passing out #i was in bed the rest of the day #wow. typing that out for the first time is. it made me realize how fucked up that actually was #i was sick and they didnt care

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