#wouldnt normally tag something like this but who cares

[wackywatchdotcom]

heres my weird fringe theory about tadc anyway:

the amazing digital circus, as a game, doesnt exist and never did, because its a cartoon

idk if this makes any sense but im gonna try to word it. basically the idea is that the show is operating on whats gonna be a double-fakeout. we all know the characters are trapped in a game. and thats true enough for the characters. but they werent ever technically actually outside of it. because they are cartoon characters. and their backstory IS being humans. theyre not npcs (who are characterss in the cartoon that were also created within the fake game itself) and theyre still alive- but its not a game theyre trapped in, its a show

theyre all trapped in a show about being trapped in a video game, basically. they still technically 'were' humans in the sense that they have backstories built into them that they remember

my main 'evidence' for this (if you can call it that) is 2 things: gummigoo, and the shows official description

gummigoo as a character, in my theory, is going to mirror pomni. pomni does not know she is not real. but not npc not-real, which would be two layers of not real. shes just one layer of not-real. and her having gotten to know gummigoo serves as foreshadowing to her finding that out about herself

and then, theres the description of the offical tadc episode playlist:

"The Amazing Digital Circus is a psychological dark comedy about cute cartoon characters who hate their lives and want to leave 🎪😀"

basically, the theory just takes this INCREDIBLY literally. that the characters really are... just cartoon characters. and i guess 'trapped in a cartoon' isnt 100% fitting bc w this theory its less that theyre stuck in a cartoon and more that theyve always been a part of it. its just their life

that said the lore in-universe still exists- the game operates in this or that way, the only difference is that its not really a game doing that- just a cartoon based on games

and if this were the case, i dont think any of them know, not even caine. except jax

caine responds to an audience because he assumes theres a person on the other side of the computer. and maybe there is, if the cartoon included one. but jax, somehow, gained the knowledge that this was all a cartoon, and has decided to embrace it. he knows theres viewers, and doesnt care about hiding that

pomni just happens to be the 'newest character.' but in this theory im not actually sure if the show truly existed before she joined. maybe for like 51.5 seconds. or for trailers. but thats it. shes just the newest in their backstories and nothing more

[maplefield]

kinda funny in a sorta sad way how people will be calling a character trash before they're even out and then upon release when they realize the character is actually good they start comparing them to earlier units and calling THEM trash

[angelmachines]

gawd . gonna pop some tags here and expand on them but teru really is like... peak slow-burn horror as a character. hes, like, seven tragedies waltzing around in a colourful trench-coat. i like to think that the people around him put together the pieces eventually because, well, hes not exactly subtle, and even when we meet him there is this blaring feeling that something is wrong. aside from the obvious violence he commits, of course, but it just keeps fucking Building

even after his fight with mob, teru as a character is so focused on his capabilities and independence that even when he realizes hes a normal person he still cant believe hes a normal KID. he has to believe hes more mature or capable in Some Way because otherwise theres no way to rationalize what has been done to him-- which is why i find his pre-mob self so fascinating because he is just. Pure hurt. pure attention seeking in a way that overcompensates for what his parents never gave him. those issues never really get Dealt with, either. they just get compartmentalized differently.

it's so nonchalant, too. teru shares his living situation with two people-- mob, who he, at this point, believes is an unequivocally Good Person who wouldnt share more than he has without being prompted, and dimple who... is a ghost. he could exorcise him easily, but more than that, dimple can only communicate with psychics or those who can see him, which means esper kids (aka mob and ritsu, because those are the only esper kids teru's ever met) and esper adults. and to teru, if theyre an esper adult, that means theyre claw, which means they already know.

its hard to remember in the context of the whole show, but teru didnt even know reigen existed at this point-- regardless of assumed psychic status or not. teru had no reason to believe that any adult, especially not an esper adult, would care. it can be easy to read this as teru being cornered because he needed to bring mob somewhere safe, too, but considering how calculating of a character teru IS, its hard to believe he wouldnt at least be convincing himself of his control over the situation

teru views himself as a commoner who lives in uncommon circumstances and thinks its super normal and just happens to never to tell any adults about it-- except that hes stupidly smart and, for all his absurdity, has a pretty decent concept of, like, strategy, and how not to get fucked over by adults. this kid ( again, stupidly smart, figured out his ENTIRE CITY was being brainwashed before anyone else ) focuses so hard on Not thinking about how fucked his situation is that he convinces other people not to think about it, either.

and the thing is that we keep SEEING how adaptable and strategic he is. need a pyrokinetic? air whips? name the technique and teru is LEARNING it. it doesnt take a genius to note that your life is severely different to other peoples. no WONDER he grows up thinking the world revolves around him, he needs something to make it all make sense, and when he finally views himself as a commoner he cant help but urge everyone to look away from the curtains

[wsknbfanaccnt]

For the hcs ask! How about kiyoshi, Imayoshi, and kuroko and their toxic traits!

imma include this in "works" because they are hcs technically

and IM SORRY ABT THIS but i have stated in my rules n stuff that i usually only do stuff for the gom + kagami, rarely will I write anything abt other characters

BUT imayoshi is i think pretty interesting for this one so ill try for him but not for kiyoshi sorry😅😅

Toxic Traits Hcs

Characters: Kuroko, Imayoshi

Kuroko

id think he would have some sort of attachment issues when it comes to people in his life

especially after what happened at teiko

i think he could be the type to stay away from people as much as he could

adds onto the fact that he likes observing people, but twisting it in a way that he does so from a distance

but in the instance that he is getting close with someone, he tries everything to keep them close

everything that he can at least that wouldnt harm others around him, but he doesnt mind it if the thing that he's doing accidentally harms himself ykwim?

i also think that he would have kind of a "black and white" view on things

'what you do is either good or bad, theres no in between"

which can kinda hinder his perspective on things

again, adding the part that he is very observant of people that might have a bit of an effect

sometimes he think he KNOWS the person and starts assuming things about them

and he can be horribly blunt, so he might slip up some casual "opinions based off of what ive seen" but is actually causing more harm than he thinks lmfao

Imayoshi

yeesh i can go on and on about toxic traits with this guy

but lets break it down

starts beatboxing im sorry i had to

anyways

hes very manipulative, we know this

he uses his "mind reading" skill to his own advantage, not caring if it harms anyone around him

but he also uses that to kind of mold people how he wants them to be

also, in turn, he knows exactly what to do and say if he wants to tick people off, or he wants someone to do something for him without actually telling them ykwim?

hes very sarcastic and loves to taunt people *cough cough hanamiya*

and hes also insane in like getting along with people

he can be a good person if he wants to be percieved as such

he uses this as an advantage though, more of like collecting people he can use in the future

the thing is he's really fucking good at it, which is why also personally i cant not like him

unlike hanamiya, who actively enjoys seeing others struggling, this man just doesnt give a fuck

he doesnt care if youre happy or your sad or if youre feeling any kind of emotion he just ignores you

THAT IS UNLESS he can use that emotion of yours somehow

if not then when he sees someone crying he'll just not pay attention as if nothing is happening

he doesnt even feel annoyed or anything he just walks off liek this was a completely normal thing

like hanamiya, i think he would also struggle to make connections

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not that he wants to make connections in the first place, but it is a struggle nonetheless

@chosenimagines @souls-heart @padmsanakin @alor-thes

[xxe123spiderfreakxx]

not to have Opinions as a Judgmental Lesbian but while i love the concept of possessive jayvik, the way a lot of ppl write jayce as possessive and how he thinks of viktor in those moments is so ick tho

like.

i get some ppl are attracted to muscular masculine men being dom tops (and if u are, run from this post, im about to be really mean bc im Extremely Not) or whatever but i think it's so Uninteresting. and conventional, at best. not to mention in those moments if he's calling viktor a whore or something degrading (especially if viktor has historically been a whore or even a sex worker in that fic, or if he's thinking about him with slurs used for zaunites) it just hits so much worse imo.

irdc if ur writing that viktor is into it.

like im sorry, viktor calling jayce a slut is different. it just is.

no i dont think ppl who like this are bad ppl. not exactly. i dont want to hear ur opinions or read ur fics but i dont think ur inherently the devil, i just think ur taste is boring and can potentially be a slippery slope into Weird territory if ur not careful. especially if ur being willy nilly about class issues in service of jorkin it, not examining unconscious ableist biases and/or are clinging a little too tightly to conventional gender stereotypes....

but honestly, im mostly just being an unserious hater of dom!jayce and top!jayce that isn't bottoming-from-the-top HAHAHAHAHHA- i love that there's been a surgence of bottom!jayce content lately. like that's the real tea. celebrating viktor being disabled and a top (and a dom in some cases) is really slay and imo waaaay more in character for him.

and also this is my unserious sneering of how i dont understand how u wouldnt prefer top/power bottom/dom!viktor, like that shit goes so hard actually, do u know this??? 😭

(no i dont actually want to have top/bottom ship discourse here, u can make whatever content u want- im making a gripe on my own blog/putting my thoughts together on why i feel that way and tagging jayvik to see if other jayvik heads relate. that's all. feel free to bitch about this on ur own if u want)

the concept of a more powerful man, in more ways than one, wanting to submit and wholeheartedly devote himself to someone he a) doesnt have to/could easily erase from his project, and b) someone who is regarded as second class or worse in his society, and yet he practically worships the ground he walks on is so gas actually <3

and viktor getting to find a sweet, pretty hunk that he gets to boss around, who understands him and his interests like no one else has, and who he also loves and who loves him back just as insanely is so extremely cute it makes my heart hurttttt <333 i love these freaksssss

that being said, i love switch!jayvik too.

i will never hate switching, it's honestly preferred for me to see characters switch tbh and how that shakes up the (sexual) dynamic- jayvik included <333 that shit has so much potential, and while ive bitched about top and/or dom!jayce i think they can be done well. im just uber picky about it 😭 like again, service top!jayce that is desperate to please viktor (and really really gets off on pleasuring him, whether he actually cums or not) or bottoming-from-the-top are always class 👍🏻 soft dom!jayce is really cute, especially when romantic and sincere devotional stuff flusters the hell out of viktor when he's normally confident in sexual situations. hell, soft dom!viktor is also very cute, i love a soft dom. i just also think viktor bullying jayce is fucking aces 😭😭😭

and i also love viktor really getting off on pleasuring jayce, it's not exclusive one way or the other. i want them to be insane and toxic about each other, that's the point.

and if u want to make a point that jayce has to learn to appreciate viktor more with a divorce era he starts by fucking up (like canon) then fine, im a bitch that's a believer in forgiveness and redemption when someone owns their mistakes and tries to be better. i like a toxic romance, a dark romance even depending on the contents. i personally only started liking jayce when he desperately brought back viktor (bc he couldnt live without him and despite the fact viktor didnt want to be revived, and i understood why that and other things made viktor break up with him), got depressed when they broke up and then went through his Flop Era in the crevice and had to do major self reflection. and then also glowed up before sacrificing himself to be with his man he tried to half-heartedly resist but couldnt 😭😭

so im all for jayce being a Huge Fuck Up, that is also not the issue <3

hell....i think possessive jayce can be done well too.

i just think u run into Weird territory if u focus too much on only him being possessive of viktor, and then having jayce saying shit like "youve never been fucked by anyone like this but me and never will again" and "i dont like seeing u with anyone else bc they dont appreciate u like i do" or "i cant believe u let other men treat u like that", or how "exotic" viktor/his accent is, or jayce doing/saying degrading/weird shit to him without asking beforehand if viktor would be into it, or how he thinks of viktor as "his" without it being mutual or even agreed upon (idc if it's only from jayce's POV, dialogue exists and can be utilized to show freak4freak dynamics <3).

ive never seen this written the other way around, deadass.

im sorry, it really really hits different imo given their physicalities and socioeconomic statuses. i cant divorce those things from them, and it makes viktor feel more like a fetished object that jayce feels entitled to rather than a person to jayce- especially especially if ur writing viktor as trans and jayce as cis. like im sorry, it makes it even worse. (if ur trans and into that shit, okay good for u, this isnt for u then) it gives me, a tranny, the ick. ive seen too many cis men (and women tho not as often) fetishize, degrade, not appreciate, and isolate their trans partners too often to not feel weird about that kind of behavior, especially if ur not showing it being mutual. it. hits. different.

maybe im also projecting sapphic inclinations on them but idc, jayvik can be sapphic coded as a treat. fuck it. there's plenty of a yaoi out there that me taking one for the girlies is hardly noticeable 😭✨️

anyway my bitching is done for the moment, yay jayvik and meljayvik and melvik giving me Insane brainworms for almost six months now- i would not have expected to be here back in 2021 but here we are 😭 <3 happy bottom jayce week or month or whatever. it should be bottom jayce year imo but that's just me 😭😝✨️

[celestie0]

idk why ppl hate on y/n i love that girl down she’s an og fs

lmao yeah i mean i’m talking more specifically the use of “y/n” in x reader fics and not so much the concept of x reader fics in general (we could still be on the same page about this but i just wanted to clarify and also vent lol)

like ik for a fact, esp in anime communities such as jjk, that x reader fics are widely accepted and normalized, including the use of second person narration in fanfics. which is not the norm in other fandoms w more OC or character x character fics

but i’ve seen some people within the x reader fic community that dislike the use of “y/n” in fics, so far to where they request authors tag works with “use of y/n” so they can actively avoid them

which, of course, if that’s their preference then so be it i guess? but i just personally have never really been off put by the use of “y/n”?? like idk how to explain it, i don’t actually input my name in there but my brain subconsciously treats it as if the character referred to me by name?? like my brain codes it as “a more personalized reference towards you” and so i’m like oh okay sweet, and then it feels more visceral to me

but yeah there are apparently people who really despise it so much that it takes them out of the story or ruins the vibe for them

there are alternatives people suggest like using a nickname for the character (this is ok but i can’t imagine there being a super angsty or serious conflict between characters and then they address them w a nickname…although some would probably argue “y/n” wouldnt fit that well in such a case either although i personally like it because, again, i genuinely see it as someone “calling my name”)…and then there’s also the option of just narrating it like “he says your name” but i feel like that would take me out of the story even more? haha

i don’t know, it just came to mind because i feel like i use “y/n” quite a bit in my stories and now it’s become something i feel self conscious about? i don’t think i overuse it, but it’s just one of those things where i wouldnt have even batted an eye or cared about it over a year ago when i first started writing fics, but now it’s something i’m actively concerned about while writing my fics and it just kinda makes it less enjoyable (not substantially but of course, a mental hang-up is still a burden)

idk i find the use of “y/n” to be more ironically cheeky in a sense than “cringe”…like yea it kinda takes me back to wattpad days but also those days were some of my happiest moments in life so forgive me for wanting a little taste of them back 🤣🤣

but also as long as the substance around the use of “y/n” is sensible and respectable and up my alley, regardless of whether it’s something i’m reading or writing, then i really don’t care about its use. it could only add a positive element in fact, and not a negative

anyways anon sorry i used your ask to vent ab this but yes i absolutely agree, i love that hoe y/n she’s THE og

[melk-maid]

jumping at everyones feet hi hello hey!!!!! im back (its been a day and a half) i need to start listening to my brain when it tries to tell me to relax and take a break while also telling me im actually the laziest and worst person in the world if i do take a break but lmao im feeling better i touched grass i spent the day with hubby before he went back to work today im in a better brain space!!!

gonna like not necessarily vent but just word vomit a bunch of thoughts and feelings i was going through in terms of writing bcos it always makes me feel better and a little less alone talking to other writers/artists bcos ik its a constant battle and whatever but yeah ignore the read more if ur not interested!!!!

gonna try and respond to messages and be a normal person in society 💃

ik its something that i will always accidentally fall back into if i let myself and its inevitable esp with the way socmed is atm and with the horrific rise of ai and fandom being so weirdly competitve if u look in the broad areas outside of a carefully curated bubble it is SO incredible disheartening LMAO but i fell back into the idea of like, # of likes = good or bad and my constant issue of my writing being good = my self worth is good if that makes sense lmao like tying my self worth to the fics i write and how well they do online

like yeah it still is an issue and disheartening not getting feedback and just seeing tons of likes from ageless blank blogs that are slop and probably bots and probably kids and its like a hydra you block 1 and 5 more appear and its never ending and its so so tiring when you see all that and dont get any reblogs or even nice comments/tags or any kind of worthy feedback

but while i do normally get anxious writing fluff anyway, i was already tipping into the pool of # of likes = self worth and i was literally dreading writing fics and having to convince myself and talk myself out of believing that my fics are dog shit, no ones gonna like them because i wasnt getting the feedback otherwise which is where ive been before and it was hell lmao

im coming back now with more the attitude that i do actually believe that if EYE like it who cares and to trust myself, that my brain is always going to be so so very evil to me at all times because im severely mentally ill and if i listened to everything my brain told me i would have 💀 myself by now so ukno lmao im trying to be better at cherishing and appreciating the comments and tags i DO get and especially friends feedback and their comments rather than being upset over not having an abundance ive never had and never will get bcos of the fandom economy and shit and reminding myself that those who are interested in the fic will like it, even if its not for the masses, one person is most likely going to read it and its going to be their favourite fic ever and thats worth more than thousands of likes on tumblr dot com

idk this really is a word vomit lmao i write for myself and yes, i can always improve, but harshly criticising myself and being sad over my writing about things i dont know how to/cannot fix isn't going to make my writing any better or make me like my own works!!! if i wanted to amass thousands of notes on a fic i wouldnt have to put so much energy and attention into what i write, i'd just have to slap together a couple of paragraphs of the most vague and generic smut imaginable, call it an imagine and list the top 10 most popular anime characters right now and watch the soulless likes roll in just to feel like im worth something and thats not why i write!!!! i write because im creative and i love the characters and i love stories and i love sharing these stories and i love coming up with new and creative ways to tell them and to express a story and explore them, not to search through twt for porn videos and link 50 of them in a 10 most popular characters post so a bunch of brain rotted minors can like the post!!!!!

i just am reminding myself that numbers doesnt mean something is good, numbers doesnt mean EYE am good or worth anything or that my fics are enjoyable, as long as EYE enjoy what i am writing, that's more than enough of a reason to do what i do and if other people also enjoy it then that's a bonus!!!!

sorry if u read this far and my insane ramblings i need to go take my meds i missed yesterday and try and finish this megumi fluff fic lmao <3

[catboygirljoker]

*crashes through the ceiling* Hi, hello! 💜 I saw you have a KH OC and I love listening about people's OCs, so I have questions:

How did Lamia fall in love with Xigbar? How do their relationship look like? Do they live together and have any domestic life? What does Xigbar think of Lamia?

!!!!!!!!! ourghghghh thank you!! :o) !!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am in the process of writing a novel-length fanfiction that answers all of these questions tee hee. i am clinging on to bitter hope that i will actually be able to write and finish it because i just. really love lamia and xigbar and i really love their relationship in my brain. like im way too verbose to pitch "xiglam" in a way that feels satisfying to me so i have to just write a 100k+ fic and gesture at that and say THAT. THEM. THEY

(though my lamiaposting tag has some art by me and my lovely partner that illustrates at least some of why i love them. smile.)

also oops i hyperfocused and made a xiglam moodboard (featuring art from my partner, depicting them multiple years into their mutual loving relationship). i just. smiling at them and kicking my feet.

long long answer under the cut tee hee

broadly they fall in love because they are both fucked up in ways that happen to mesh together really well. lamia is depressed, self-destructive, prickly, and isolated, and though he has friends who love him dearly (and who he loves dearly!) they try to get him to take care of himself by being like "you have people who care about you" "youre a person and that means you deserve to be happy" etc. and that just. doesnt compute for lamia. he has a million reasons why none of that works for him.

then along comes some fuckin weird old guy in a black coat, a pragmatic and cynical asshole who just laughs at lamia and goes "if you dont get some sleep or eat something soon youre going to straight up die. then what'll you do. idiot" and it works. it shortcuts all of the usual walls they have up against any well-meaning advice and enables them to actually take care of themself in basic ways.

on the flip side, lamia is the first person in a very long time who has sincerely surprised xigbar. xigbar believes that the universe is inherently cruel, indifferent, miserable, painful. and that friendship, hope, altruism, goodness, kindness, all of that, is a result of people either not understanding the true nature of the universe or willfully ignoring it. he clocks lamia immediately as someone who understands firsthand how miserable and painful the universe can be and that their self-destructiveness is a result of that trauma. and he thinks he understands them completely because of that.

however. despite the Horrors, despite being the Bearer of a Curse, despite his Tragic Backstory, despite despite despite—lamia still believes that there is goodness in the world worth fighting for. he may be in many ways pragmatic and cynical like xigbar is, but he also believes fundamentally in friendship. hope. altruism. all of it. that (and a few other Lore things) are deeply intriguing to xigbar.

it also really helps that lamia's into dilfs and xigbar's into blond twinks. and that lamia's pissy argumentative streak (a paper-thin veil for his genuine affection for the old man) is fun and endearing to xigbar. they complement each other in Themes ways but they also just have a dynamic i really like thinking about. :3

they wouldnt have an opportunity to even consider living together or having a domestic life until both of their personal arcs are resolved (they both have to Deal with their Pasts and having been abused/abandoned/neglected by their guardians). "post-canon" i imagine xigbar isnt really capable of settling down and having a "normal life." he lives with lamia but hes frequently gone without warning, wandered off somewhere, like a stray cat you can get to eat on your porch but can never get to come inside.

but theyre happy. they Heal. xigbar eventually moves into a replica once his current body starts failing on him. lamia gains a bunch of weight (positive) and goes on T. they get a cat or something. but they never get married (lamia doesnt see the point) and never have kids (these two should NOT be parents it would be a catastrophe)

[liquidstar]

(this is NOT meant as a "gotcha!" thing, just genuine curiosity. This is about the goldberg post you reblogged btw.) Wanting your own house forever is valid, but it makes me curious about your opinion of marrying someone who ALSO doesn't want anyone in their house and would like to live separately. I don't see why giving up your space has to be a requirement for everybody who gets married. (Obviously its fine to still not want that either lol. Not wanting marriage for any reason is valid!)

oh i wouldnt have seen this as a gotcha, i think its a pretty innocuous question about living arrangements w partners lol

but no yeah i actually totally agree with you, theres no reason marriage has to look like how society tells us to. you know, a man and a woman in the suburbs with a white picket fence and 2.5 kids and a dog. i think that you can absolutely have any sort of arrangement you want with your partner

for a long time while i was growing up my parents were long distance, and that was fine and normal to me. i understand now that this wasnt really a choice (with the financial crisis in greece, my dad had to move to america to find work, and we all eventually moved once enough money was saved up etc) but like, it didnt make them any less married in my eyes. and i think that you can absolutely be in different houses even by choice and still be married if thats the kind of relationship youre both happy and secure with. who cares, right?

similarly my grandparents have different bedrooms but never had marital issues. my grandma just likes having her own space during the day, and she says theyd usually just pick one of the rooms to sleep in overnight. thats a mindset i can totally get behind and honestly that would also totally be the ideal setup for me, if i were to ever hypothetically get married.

i joked in the post's tags that one of my most "23 year old opinions" is not wanting to get married and start a family, and a lot of that is just because i dislike the idea of those obligations. but i also think a lot of that is because im young enough that i dont really see it as something i want- i still wanna be single and have fun because thats the kind of asshole i am (JOKE!). like, commitment to something that long term is just not in my field of vision yet. i do genuinely not want kids though but thats a different story. a spouse is something id want only if we really clicked i guess. but isnt that the case for everyone?

but for the time being i dont want anyone in my house LOL and maybe once i do we can have different rooms and do sleepovers like my grandma's genius idea

[sigskk]

Okay so basically from what i understand at least is chuuya’s fight for his humanity. At the start of stormbringer, we are at the point where chuuya’s working towards becoming an executive before dazai and hes basically been doing some work like protecting jewelry stores or whatever. We get introduced to The Flags which is essentially chuuya’s friend group and they plan this whole one year anniversary Port Mafia party for him which he leaves at first because he thinks theyre messing with him but then comes back bc he figures it wouldnt hurt to spend time with them. The Flags do something rlly sweet for chuuya like snooping around files for information on his background like childhood photos and family (they really werent supposed to but they did anyways) since they know how Chuuya doesn’t know much about his own past. So in the midst of their party, this android named Adam is from the Order of the Clock Tower and he bursts in like it’s normal and tells Chuuya he has to go with him because Adam has been ordered to protect Chuuya from Verlaine who is the king of assassins or whatever. Chuuya is obviously not agreeing to this and he tells Adam to go away because Chuuya doesn’t have an older brother he’s aware of and he’s european so it doesnt make sense. Adam is persistent on this but Chuuya leaves saying hes gonna go home and take nap but gets a message from a mailman (a code word for a role in the mafia where if the person who is writing the message is too busy and the info is too sensitive to send over a text or call, a person comes to deliver the message to them.) saying that its from the boss and that its important, the flags have already been summoned there, so chuuya gets in the car. Adam follows him and tells him to get out bc thats verlaine in the car, Chuuya tries to get out but they end up fighting with Adam trying to help. But verlaine’s killed chuuya’s friends (SO EARLY IN THE BOOK) and chuuya kinda just snaps and verlaine eggs him on and its really taxing on chuuya. Dazai is the one who comes to get him after the fight and from then on, chuuya continues to find out more about his past (with shirase tagging along) while dealing with the question on whether or not hes human. Verlaine is continuing to hunt everyone chuuya’s cared about until chuuya gives in to go with his brother to become assassins together but chuuya’s trying to stop that clearly. Chuuya and dazai are the ones to take him down with Adam’s help and Chuuya gets a motorcycle for the horrors hes gone through :3 (dazai is so abnormal in stormbringer. SO ABNORMAL.) 

(ALSO THIS IS JUST FROM MEMORY. ERM. DONT TAKE THESE AS FACTS)

what. wasn't he like. polish or irish or something.

[fictionfixations]

twst halloween

so ive been reading the events for twst all day. (like the dialogue for the stories)

SO. okay so i need to talk about halloween for a second--

so of course, spoilers for the event

deep breaths (i had started writing while reading. then i got very frustrated and it went on from there. haha. it gets long.)

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unique magic Tag. something like that

Where they can mark something, and it'll have a specific tag unique to that person (it'll stay in their memory until the tag is removed or fades away, in which the memory will fade normally instead of never). They could also tag items to that person (as in it'll have that person's unique signature that ties them together).

….honestly ive been like reading the twst halloween stuff. ( SPOILERS ) and for pomefiore they're in like the mirror hall and these mfs kept taking pictures INSIDE when its NOT ALLOWED (…bruh now people know what it looks like inside! what if theres like a flaw thats been caught on camera that'd help future criminal doers do something there!?)

anyway. so i was thinking of confiscating like phones. but so it doesnt get lost, or given to the wrong person.

this random pomefiore student being able to tag people with skin contact (example: passing the phone along, light touch on, say, the hand and the phone, and thus tagging and attaching them together through a line only they can see)

and it'd also help if say that same person did something malicious like 'hey, that's not your phone!' or 'i know that person!'

sorry im just kind of really ticked off at them. and all the other magicam monsters i swear--

im angry ranting now

oKAY for one that guy who was climbing the apple tree. you realize that if you do that people are just gonna want to do that to for the views so they'll climb it evne if they have no experience in it and will probably injure themselves or worse!?

ALSO THE FLOWERS. SCREAMS in heartslabyul OH MY GOD (i think id actually get so frustrated too though like bruh. idfk. WHAT IF THEYRE POISONOUS? i mean they probably wouldnt be out in the open but like. HELLO? YOU DONT KNOW THESE PLANTS. [they're for like potions] WTF ARE YOU DOING. THEY COULD BE HOME TO A VICIOUS SPECIES FOR ALL YOU KNOW YOU IDIOT)

pictures are horrendous. savanaclaw… 1. Why the fuck did someone make up some bs rumor that putting like treasure on your head (its fake tho) would like grant you a wish? WHY? WHAT DO YOU GAIN FROM THAT!?? HELLO???? also oh my god as a person who hates everything about being in pictures (i have to be tricked to get my picture taken ugh) THAT WAS HORRIBLE TO READ. im reading on the wiki by the way because i want the context. also oh my god (im sorry im saying that a lot.) as a person who was absolutely repulsed by touch for awhile (and still kind of squeamish about it but dont have the courage to shove ppl off half the time) i think id die inside. like. okay so they're like touching his ears and his tail (i only remember the ear but i was so pissed off i dont know if i imagined the tail bit or not) and kinda his everything right? WHY? thats. like. such an invasion of privacy. like. HELLO??? WHAT ARE YOU DOING. pleASE stop???? also oh my god WHYH ARE YOU MAKING A MESS OF IT WHAT tHE HECK (they should have like those ropes that signify 'you're not allowed past this part' to make it clear HEY youre not allowed to touch that. but also some people will ignore it and they could get overrun FAST. ughhh)

octavinelle

i wish i could say that people have the courtesy to be careful not to do anything to harm others but i cant really no words. just. oh my god. be CAREFUL WITH WHAT YOU'RE DOING . there are important sUBSTANCES HERE THAT ARE VERY FRAGILE. (they should've been made to pay for it ughhh. teach them.)

scarabia. honestly ive read a fic that went over this before. and honestly its very funny. so like yuu's just going to sam's shop where they are the teachers are nearby (stunned) and jamils just like 'I'LL BURN IT ALL TO THE GROUND' and its HILARIOUS. also bugs. shudder. i dont even know how youd get people to stop wasting the food tho. man. bruh.

(also where are there self preservation skills oh my god)

ignihyde. oh my god THEYVE DONE THE WORST CRIME OF THEM ALL. THE DESTRUCTION OF BOOKS. okay im being overdramatic but WHAT THE FUCK if anyone did that to my books id honestly be so done.

well anything else could be salvaged sort of (with the exception of the destruction of the plants, the destruction of one of the things in the lab, and this) but. this. destruction of property???????? FOR ALL YOU KNOW THAT COULD'VE BEEN SOME SUPER RARE VERY LIMITED BOOK WITH ONLY. LIKE. 10 COPIES MADE. OR LIKE. ITS ENTIRELY HANDWRITTEN BY SOME FAMOUS PERSON WHO DIED A LONG TIME AGO AND THIS IS ALL WE HAVE LEFT AND YOU DESTROY IT!

AGHHH. im so aggravated. (as a person who ADORES books. im so irritated. i mean dont get me wrong they arent that important to me. but the library is my favorite part in a school! i love reading! its practically sacred!) "Jail. Jail for one thousand years! Some of us LIKE being alone, y'know? Please, for the love of everything, just let us live our gremlin lives!" YES. (honestly. out of all the dorms. if not savanaclaw, then id probably be in ignihyde. like yes hide me away forever so i can play games and not have to interact with people)

"Y'know, for Malleus Draconia! The guy so zetta powerful that everybody trembles at his name! Getting a picture of yourself touching him is a legendary feat."

SCREAMS INTO PILLOW

WHY THE FUCK ARE PEOPLE BRNEAKING AND ENTERING WHY OD YOU IGNORE A SIGN

im so rrry im yttypingoifnhgfh there comes a point where im so frustrated i cant typer ight. heavy sigh

WHY WOULD YOU IGNORE A SIGN. THAT CLEARLY GIVES YOU A WARNING?! YOURE LITERALLY BREAKING AND ENTERING. THERE IS A REASON THAT SIGN IS THERE. WHY WOULD YOU JUST SHRUG IT OFF BASED ON APPEARANCES???! HAVE YOU NEVER HEARD OF DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER? I SWEAR. AGHH thats. such. a major. violation. i cant… AGHH

i wonder if a sort of barrier spell to prevent people from moving past (aka into the dorm) would be possible. but that might be a huge drain and whose to say they couldnt idfk take pictures through the windows? ew stalkery behavior, and not any better.

AND NOTHING CAN BE DONE BECAUSE YOU KNOW WAHT THE HEADLINES ARE GONNA SAY?

'NRC student attacks tourist!'. IT WONT EVEN MENTION ANY WRONGDOINGD THE TOURIST HAD DONE AND ITLL SPREAD FROM THERE AND AGHHHHHHH

THE STATUES? WHAT THE FUCK!? that. i. AGH (people are so dumb. why. would you. post a picture OF YOU COMMITTING A CRIME!?)

!!!! POP OFF (edit: this is like heartslabyul going against the magicam monsters. id probably adore octavinelle's if i hadn't already been spoiled about it lol)

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kind of off topic. but yknow what? i kind of feel like im really living up to my riddle pfp lmFAO

(i wrote it all down on discord. i probably could've just started it on a tumblr post instead but it didnt even occur to me)

[todayisafridaynight]

NOOOO RIGHT 'CAUSE LIKE... the way the Arakawa Family specialize in faking deaths already, I'm sure Jo was so on top of everything. And who better to walk Masato through it right... flight's the perfect time to get started if it's gonna take like fourteen hours...

BUT YES. YEAH. Like The Day Of he's just paralyzed with worry and caught between wanting to do something and not wanting to go against Aoki... maybe at most he chances calling Arakawa telling him to be careful, because that's not too conspicuous given his role in the dissolution, but Arakawa just gives him the old I'll Be Fine Worry About Yourself... and, you know, why shouldn't he; they've always had their enemies and he's Arakawa the Assassin, he can handle himself... he can let himself have that fleeting hope, but deep down... and THEN he finds out and has to act like he didn't mean anything to him and has to go back to his duties like nothing happened... OUGH

Can I just say. Literally such an insane fucking series of scenes in Coin Locker Baby. Because you get Jo's despondence when he's saying he might have killed Arakawa--he's being a bitch to provoke Ichiban into a fight, but it's also an admission his inaction played a part, isn't it... and then you get him expressing that he's familiar with Ichiban's need to protect Arakawa... and then you get the sheer desperation and insistence in his voice when he says he could never kill him... and then you get--I'm not totally sure how clear it is in English--but you get him actively saying his feelings go deeper than Ichiban's without really explaining how... and then you get the tinge of fondness when he's thinking back on the old days when Arakawa lived up to his name... Like. Why Did They Do That. Any Of That.

ALSO. GOD. I've gotten so much shit the past couple days because I said I want to lock Jo, Kume, and Tendo in a room for five minutes For My Entertainment. Reading those tags felt like coming home honestly 😭 Like, even Ichi was ready to kill someone over Arakawa, and Jo was out here threatening to disembowel people [in the dub]. And I Think They Should Be Allowed To. As A Treat. So FOR REAL the biggest "I'm so glad we get to talk" 😭😭😭

On that note genuinely so funny that I took an extra ten minutes re-rendering the video because I forgot to put the "flashback" part in Arakawa's subtitles at first but then nobody read it 😭

But it's also something I've been mulling over because I'm delusional. Getting actors as high-profile as Nakai and Takei back for just A Flashback is kinda crazy to me because Arakawa and Jo's screen-time took up a full four percent of the entire game [over ten percent of the cutscenes] originally. But then if it's multiple flashbacks equivalent to that... what exactly is going on here that the past is so intertwined...

And Because My Brain Is Evil there is the fact that technically speaking, Yokoyama only said that line was from a flashback, and specified Arakawa wouldn't be appearing in the main story. Now of course a normal person would interpret that as him reassuring the audience he won't appear in any present-day scenes, but part of me was like. Oh So A Side Story Is On The Table [<- it's not it's fucking not it will not be in a million years]

JUST. WHAT ARE YOU GUYS COOKING WHY IS THE KITCHEN DOOR CLOSED WHY ARE THE WINDOWS BLACKED OUT

ANYWAYS that's enough from me for today I am [as always] glad you enjoyed One Missed Call and Kyouen, ABSOLUTE bangers

YAYA THATS WHAT IM SAYIN YOU GET IT. UNSURPRISINGLY BUT YOU GET IT ಥ▽ಥ

no but thats what i MEAN like i already was jokin with myself like 'jo and arakawa probably had A Thing right lmao' BUT THEN THE WAY JO TALKED BOUT ARAKAWA AND OBVI THE GENERAL FACT HE COULDNT KILL HIM REALLY JUST MADE ME (。・∀・??) AND REAALLLY LOOK AT EM CLOSER THE SECOND TIME AROUND like genuinely for what. it will fuck me up until i'm dead and gone SOOO unnecessary and yet they did it..

wack that people wouldnt want to see kume and tendo stuck in a room with jo like. from what i know everyone is a part of the We Hate Kume gang so. cmon. kume will be shredded into candy floss within five minutes. it'll be fun (๑❛ᴗ❛๑)

OK BUT NAKAI AND TSUTSUMI'S STATUS WAS A BIG REASON WHY I DIDNT THINK ARAKAWA NOR JO WOULD BE BACK FOR LAD8 THAT'S SO VALID TO CONSIDER THAT its that idea that just has me especially wondering what the plan is. im not expecting them to have MAJOR parts (or in arakawa's case too many flashback segments) but they MUST have a SUBSTANTIAL amount to warrant bringing them back right..

[chocolatespyro]

chikn nuggit spoilers in Lint's speech bubble if you care about that

I absolutely love and adore that trope of a character literally going off about something that only they care enough about to someone else who has no fucking clue what the hell is going on but is in for the ride anyways (usually in annoyance or complete and absolute hatred)

It's so goddamn funny but yeah sometimes I talk a lot about stuff and it's all just horrible word vomit for the next person to try and piece together lmaoooo. fun fact this is a legitimate thought/thing I wanted to write out or tell someone because. I follow chikn nuggit lore now I guess???

I'll put a text version down here at some point today so people can actually read my nightmare-inducing rambling of thoughts anyways

Also the other object guy is also my character lol he's an emu egg

Not gonna put this in main tags except for my art tag bcus this is just so dumb so yeah HJGHHFU

Lint: yeah so like, instead of making bezel open a body-horror esque mouth like with i-scream they should've just made it so that when cofi asks bezel how he eats the fucker just spins the hands on his clock and the music gets slower and distorted as the audience watches the food crumble and rot away from age. And then you look at Cofi and she is literally like "what" as it cuts to her being visibly older like WOULDNT HAVE THAT BEEN SO MUCH MORE SCARY??? BUT ALSO SUPER FUNNY AT THE SAME TIME???? like you have this terrifying god creature and you DON'T do something like that with him??? HUH??? Like. There 2 are on completely different power levels and yet they eat the same? That's so lame. Plus this opens up the opportunity for more questions to be asked and a question as to exactly HOW powerful is this guy. Plus the fact that he doesn't eat normally which is just????????? it would make him seem more interesting and alien and disconnected from the other characters more than he already is plus the implications that he CAN STEAL TIME from anyone in the immediate vicinity. it's less literal body horror but more psychological and existential dread (am I using those words right???) but the horror that he can literally just do this at any time and that he can and has before it's legitimately insane plus the fact that he barely has to even move a finger to do this too. Plus the fact that he's discreetly manipulating chikkn nugget behind the scenes to try and make chikn realize he's a god n stuff I just think it'd fit his motif much better. Because time is so much less of a physical thing and I think bezel represents that. also why are there no bezel "ruler of everything" edits

Emu Egg: dude i have literally no idea what you're talking about

[crazyasstruckfreakselfshipper]

selfship vent/rant time! no its not about the nonsharing stuff its about in fandom ships. tw vent i guess but its not that bad just tw for im being mean

warning im being really rude and irrational but i doubt the person who made this will see this im just upset but its not their fault. its een a long day. but hey, what is the internet for if not to get mad about stuff?

rant time. this probably is top 10 least favorite posts ever. and it just came across my dash. wowie . this makes me mad.

okay first i got pissed because "my wife"? "my beautiful princess"? um.... no?? straight up no? like i know not everyone knows that hes my f/o but like ew... random thing to say like who cares. anyways then i looked down and "this post was made by garak" shut up? no? ew? first of all they are not together even if bishop wasnt in the picture but bishop is in the picture so they definitely arent together. second even if garak and bashir were garak wouldnt say that he doesnt talk like that 😭😭

it just made me upset and i wanted to say something. people say all this tsuff about him like oh hes my wife but theyre just joking and they just think hes attractive and want to ship him with garak. i know its a normal thing to do and its not bad im just angry and irrational and im allowed to be

i know i really should block the garak x bashir tag but i blocked the garashir tag and i thought that would be enough 😭

[anilec-dragon-art-and-stuff]

Ok so here is just a quick overview of the "stories" and what characters are involved in These. Especially the Main group one might get more characters as time goes on (you know... when i make more dnd characters that i dont get to play so i add them to my adventure group). While both "stories" play in the same World, they rarely overlap. However at some point the characters might meet each other, we'll see. Since These are esentially DnD characters, the World is based on DnD (5e btw). You will Most likely see that in the mention of races and classes. Hoewever magic and other similar abilites i sometimes wrote a bit different or i gave a character abilities that they normally wouldnt have in the game. But thats because i feel like it would make sense or i want them to have it. After all its only BASED on dnd.

The names of These "stories" might still be workshopped. Idk.

I will just give a veeery short description of the characters. A proper one including some backstory stuff will be in separate posts

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The Main group ("A Band of misfits")

Rúnya Calanoré (A light Domain cleric aasimar with "Angel of light" vibes. The only responsible person in the group, trying to keep These chaotic idiots in check. I guess something like the "Camp mom")

Cylieria Esper (High elf rogue. More a con-woman than a thief. Way to overly confident in her ability to talk herself Out of Situations. The youngest one of the group in relativity. Not years because... elves)

Elari Ariessus (High elf monk. On a journey to self acceptance. Go-lucky sunshine character who tries to See the best in every situation)

Mal Trickarii (A human bard. He mainly uses Illusion magic. He chose so because of his passion to play pranks and Tricks on everybody. Hence the last Name. He gave himself that)

Kallista (nope no last name here. Tiefling rogue. Your very basic edgy loner rogue. Would prefer to work alone but somehow got roped into this and is 100% done with everybodys high energy bullshit)

Philana Ventura (High Elf fighter with a bit of a contrast in behavious. Normally she is very shy, timid and obiedient. But when a fight Starts she gets a huge boost of confidence)

These are the main 6 for now. Since they will go on high fantasy adventures you can expect the "normal" content warning for stuff like this to apply to some of their stories (i will ofc tag what is necessary) like description of violence and injury, some fluff, some smut maybe, Angst. All that good stuff. Tho i will try to keep it moderate.

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The second group (Doesnt have a name yet)

I made a few more DnD characters but I am Not sure yet if I want them in the Main group. I know these three travel together tho. So for now they will be written here as a separat entry. The members are:

Larissa Weygot (Human tavernmaid turned bard who is looking for her missing mother but her goldfish attention span makes this a bit difficult)

Progress (Tiefling Artificer, often shy in social situations but can lock in and talk 5h about her hyperfixation, generally happy but has a deep mistrust of clerics and healing magic)

Periwinkle "Peri" (Drow Sorceress, very empathic and emotional, got Sold to the fey and her long time there corrupted her into will magic that surges with her emotions, so now she has to constantly surpress those)

Tags will be similar to "A Band of Misfits"

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"To change your fortune"

This is the other "story" that mainly focuses on one of my characters (an NPC from a campaign) and that would be

Abires Blackwood

Tho because of him being a changeling He does have other Personas that might have a POV written occasionally. But Most of These will be either from his true self or his Blackwood persona

He is a changeling warlock in the pursuit of Power, who doesnt care if others get hurt along the way and manipulates the people around him to get what He wants. In puplic He is incredibly charming. Tho something sinister rests under the surface. Press the wrong Buttons and you will See, that He has some psychopathic tendencies. I feel the need to point Out that He IS NOT a good person or a hero. He isnt even morally grey. He is a WALKING RED FLAG and I believe that some bad guys are allowed to be just bad without being misunderstood and just do bad things.

So please BE CAUTIOUS when reading any of his stories. I will of course tag especially the extreme things but i might miss some of the more subtle things (i try Not to) such as emotional Manipulation, gaslighting or similar. If even These things are an issue for you, then please stay clear of his stories.

Some stories might however even contain some more serious triggers such as murder, description of the act and result of torture, mental and physical abuse and the like.

Some of his stories will have the "Dead Dove. Do Not eat" tag.

Please be mindful of that because if its in the Tags its in there. If you dont like These things please dont read. Thats why i will tag These things, obviously. And again. Dont be mad that i would even write stuff like this.

I dont condone any of These bad thing i write him doing!

However as a person with a black heart, no Moral compass and psychopathic tendencies it makes sense in the context to write him doing this.

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Alright. Thats it for now. Hope that wasnt too much 😅 when I get the time I will post the indiviual characters with pictures and more information. Until then: See ya

[teethandclawsxx]

vent. big one . probably warning for medical stuff but ultimately i dont have the brain for tagging so read at your own risk LOL

in a violent and killing mood btw. my sheets dont stay on my bed for long and usually it wakes me up . but this time it didnt and my phone got slid up under my shoulder and mustve turned the alarm off like as soon as it started bc it didnt wake me up either. and tomorrow i was supposed to have a test done but i have to drink like 2l of barium for it (it just says two bottles but skerples did a similar test and it was 2l) and it has to be done within two hours but every time ive even had to drink like. 2l in 8 hours for tests i end up projectile vomiting bc my stomach gets so overfilled it just comes back out the top end bc the stuff takes hours to pass into my intestines. thats literally what the doc told me its caused by. so idk how they expect me to be able to drink 2l in 2hour. and ive got other labs to do on thursday and idk if the barium will effect that but ive already rescheduled it once day of and now im gonna have to do so again bc theres No Way im gonna be able to do it bc im not going to be able to sleep again before then and i cant eat after midnight but i also am not going to be able to eat BEFORE midnight bc its already 9 and my stomach is upset from being stressed about sleeping too long n bc when i got mad abt it dad started yelling at me and then he was like well yall tear me a new asshole when i get mad and i was just like well no. we tell you to stop yelling At Us when youre mad but we dont even yell at you. youre just yelling at me and telling me not to be angry. pointless and not the same. plus i normally cant eat for a few hours after waking up ANYWAY so mby the time i would be doing the test itll be like. ~20 hours since id eaten and that just isnt going to work. so i gotta reschedule it again but like in the next couple months im gonna lose my insurance bc im unemployed. but im unemployed bc im too sick to work so i NEED to have insurance but who cares if i live or die ig 🥴 and they said the main test they want to do will probably be 6mo after the barium test (its to check for crohns) so its not like im gonna be able to do it anyyyywayyy i just hope the labs on thursday come back quick enough. she said it could take up to a month so im scheduled to see her again like. 7/14 i think sonim just hoping that i still have insurance then and she can diagnose me with SOMETHING even though i doubt it and also that i still have insurance and can get my next 3mo of t but tbh even if i do have insurance i probably cant afford it... i already knew i probably wouldnt be able to stay on it longer than 9mo but id hate to have to stop after just 6 literally only bc it still costs like $65 WITH insurance (idk why bc like. my first set was only $5. the only difference is the newer set has preservatives but idk why it has to)..... basically. fuck