#would you be happier?

[jellyfishegg]

okay this ended up more intense than I planned so. if you feel like an eve feelings deep dive (depression version)... tw suicidal ideation mention

idk I just. ugh I hate having feelings and I hate trying to describe feelings

okay so first up just a few facts. we're getting kicked out of our rental. it's annoying, I don't want to have to move, it's shithouse timing because it's the Christmas/new years break, I feel like we're running out of time to find somewhere to live and it's annoying. did I mention it's annoying?

I'm sick of full time work. I really like my job but that's.. it almost makes it worse because I want to do it more but it's too much!! I'm tired! always! I have no motivation for things outside of work and it sucks. I miss having hobbies. I'm unfit. I don't see my friends...

like, idk the number of unread messages I have at the moment. it's really bad. my dear friend whom I love so dearly but who's living in Canada atm so we don't talk as much, sent me the cutest message on my birthday and like. that was a month and a half ago. bitch reply. people arranging events in group chats and I just. don't read them. don't go see my friends. I don't remember the last time I saw most of my friends. I pretty much only keep up with sophie and sage and even then like. I haven't really spoken to them the last few weeks either

and all that plays into the feeling of like. Life flying by~~ leaving me behind~~

reading "How do we relationship?" and it's really good but like. pokes at complicated feelings I have around... my relationship to romance.. at feelings I have around my relationship I have with myself....

I really hate myself you know? like. god so much of my way of relating to the world is based on that. like I see aspects of myself reflected in these characters and I'm just screaming "don't act like that!" like. calm down it's not like the way they're acting, the way I act, is some evil thing. it's so common, so mundane, so normal that it's there in a fucking manga. but because it's me all of a sudden it is that bad.

I have more feelings about this but I'm strugglng to write them down. partly because I don't have it clear what I want to say, also partly because I'm embarrassed by it. which again. it's because it's me, so I hate it. I hate it, so it must be awful and embarrassing and not something I can share.

but man I don't know what life would be like if I didn't hate myself you know? it's like those posts where us mental I'll ness types are like "wait there are people who don't have suicidal thoughts??" like. yeah. The suicidal thoughts are just so There that like. it's unimaginable what it would be like without them.

idk I don't really have a point here I was just feeling overwhelmed so I wanted to put my feelings down in a post so I could yeah. put them down. so there you go. some feelings

[beebfreeb]

[technically-human]

Part two of the reverse verse is here! The reverse boys meet the original boys. They're not really getting along as well as I had hoped...

Again, this was a commission for @i-am-as-normal-as-you-are and they asked for angst/funny vibes... I think it's mostly just angst though. Oh, well...

Part one

[cutter-kirby]

getting into both of these games at the same time is pretty funny

[insertdisc5]

Um so I've been sitting on this ask for months cause I didn't want to bother you with how many messages you must get. And because it's difficult for me to be open about my experiences, but I'm working on that part thanks to you! ✧⁠◝⁠(⁠⁰⁠▿⁠⁰⁠)⁠◜⁠✧

For the first time in my 32 years of life I'm starting to open up to my friends and family. When I'm tearing myself down or having a panic attack about how I think I'm failing the people around me, now I say "This is something Siffrin would do, and you'd give them grace, so give yourself grace..." I can't overstate how much your writing has changed my life for the better.

AND I KNOW THIS IS CRINGE but I've been seeking out a last name for myself for many many years, cause I hate having my estranged father's name. And I never found a name that felt right, until now. So I hope it's ok with you that I'm working on changing it to "Frin" as a reminder to keep giving myself grace. 👉🏻👈🏻

Anyways haha I'm going to curl up in a hole now~! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ But not before I give you a huge thank you. So, THANK YOU!!!

i have no words. im incredibly humbled on all accounts by your message... for thinking about siffrin and how you'd give them grace, so you are giving yourself grace in return... for adopting a last name from isat... for trying your best to be more open!!! weargh!!!!!! you are incredibly brave and i want to thank you for your message from the bottom of my heart. im rooting for you!!!!!!

[youvebeengalindafied]

if your fiancé is going to leave you at the alter for another women, is it better or worse that the ‘other women’ is also someone you would cheat on your fiancé with in a heartbeat

[shortnotsweet]

I aim low / I aim true, and the ground's where I go / I work late, where I'm free from the phone / and the job gets done, but you worry some, I know

“TOO SWEET”, Unreal Unearth: Unending (2024) [ HOZIER ]

In “Too Sweet” Hozier draws a contrast between two individuals with different lifestyles and preferences, one who enjoys living life at his own pace, indulging in simple pleasures like whiskey, coffee, and late nights while not worrying too much about conforming to societal norms of waking up early and living a disciplined life, and a second individual, presumably the partner, is portrayed as someone who values discipline, health, and structure. They encourage the narrator to live a healthier lifestyle, waking up early and taking care of themselves.

Born from the 3rd Circle of Hell, Gluttony, same as his track, “Eat Your Young”, Hozier examines excessive mess and overindulgence, similiar to Dante’s depiction of gluttony where it not only refers to overconsumption of food and drink but also the overindulgence in any worldly pleasure to the detriment of spiritual growth.

GENIUS ANNOTATION

[wasyago]

we're at it again🕺

[arthursfuckinghat]

Thinking about how it feels like the world of RDR2 ended when Arthur died, how things would never be the same again, how bittersweet it is meeting the people you once were in a gang with, how much it hurts to play as a shadow of someone you lost. That's when most people stop playing.

But the world didn't end, the world carried on. The people you knew moved on, new people you meet spoke fondly of your brother. The world kept turning and showing you that Arthur may be gone, but his memory is all around you.

His name is etched on a memorial hall donation plaque, the beasts he hunted were hung proud on a veteran's wall, the widow he taught to hunt is now thriving, the strangers he helped on the side of the road talk about the man that saved them, and so much more, but most of all - his hat sits proudly on your head and his journal lays heavy in your satchel.

This part of the game has taught me a lot, but it has taught me to move on most of all.

[ministarfruit]

day 28: made you smile ♡

(femslashfeb prompt list)

[captainmaxatx]

Late Mermay idea!

Orca mer Ghost in an aquarium but he is almost always hiding and quite depressed so the aquarium decide to give him a little more enrichment.

With humans lack of mer knowledge they come to the conclusion that because orcas eat seals then surely an orca mer would eat a seal mer. They decide that during closing hours (to avoid guests seeing the blood bath that will surely follow) they will drop a live seal mer into ghosts tank so he has the natural experience of hunting instead of just being fed slabs of meet.

But mer’s don’t eat other mers, regardless of secondary species.

So when seal mer soap is dropped into his tank, ghost just thinks he’s being given a very energetic handsome roommate.

And the humans are confused as to why ghost hasn’t eaten the seal mer yet

[the-nothing-maker]

mélisande gives me gender envy

Honestly, same

[blanketfortz]

like looking in a mirror

[queruloustea]

my ocs mos and newt whispering to one another :]]] they have rotted my brain

[notbecauseofvictories]

the real villain of this movie is new york city, because in an alternate universe Patrick Bateman is a radio DJ for some alt station in des moines or detroit, has strong opinions about every album ever released and turns into an insult comic the moment you question those opinions. he's very happy, wouldn't even know what a face peel is.

[pinkd3mon]

Last post was too deep, I needed to make a shitpost