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I’ve been practicing sumthin (lies)I always have the hardest time with so next update might be very much so scuffed. THIS UPDATE THO FOR SOME REASON FLOWED VERY EASILY.
These updates would come out so much faster if I stopped doing dumb shit like sitting in my closet or eating and working
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#Purple Delusions🎆#coko doodles#rottmnt#tmnt#tmnt iteration#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#drawing#doodle#sketch#teenage mutant ninja turtles#comic#ALSO#IDK IF ANY OF YALL EVER WENT THROUGH THIS SITUATION#BUT THE ONE WHERE UR FRIENDS WITH A GUY FRIEND AND ONE DAY THEY WHIP OUT THE#‘’’’CAN WE TALK’’#WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD#IF U HAVENT#damn u lucky
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#heartbreak#tw depressing stuff#depressing quotes#depressing shit#sadcore#and heartbreak image#depressing life#im crying#sad thoughts#sad quotes#i dont belong anywhere#emotionally exhausted#worst feeling in the world#i feel empty#feelings#sadnecessary#sadnees#sadgirl#life suuuuucks#life sukcs#this is a cry for help#tw depressing thoughts#depressing poem#kinda depressing#sorry for being depressing#this is depressing#tw depressive#depressiv#i want to cry#i wanna be perfect
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#literally cant stand jjk currently#when you hate something you used to love so much ......#worst feeling in the world#jjk#bakma bana
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I am being swallowed by the most crushing wave of nostalgia i have ever felt i want to claw my face off about it. so im going to finally watch trigun 98
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Probably, the worst feeling in life would be to feel unloved.
#worst feeling in the world#worst feeling ever#love#heartbreak#spilled thoughts#spilled ink#spilled everything#relationship#or something#abhya being abhyaa
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People think being alone makes you lonely, but I don’t think that’s true. Being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.
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im dehydrated and my lips are chapped
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Found a week old DM on Instagram asking if I do commissions (I have an art ig) today because insta had hidden the message request from me... when I'm really tight on money...
Thanks insta
#rant#worst feeling in the world#i sent a reply back apologizing and explaining#I hope they message me back because I really need the money
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had to ask for help
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Hey, I’m so sorry to see that you had to put your kitty down. That’s such a tough decision to make. Thinking of you 💕
hey el! thanks so much! it was a really hard decision to make and it hurts like hell. if there had been a better prognosis or any treatment we could’ve done for him that would’ve made a difference then we 100% would’ve gone that route. he also declined so quickly he was fine on wednesday, nothing out of the ordinary, and by friday he was having trouble breathing and was only comfortable in an oxygen chamber. he was the missing piece of our family and was such a beloved little guy but at the end of the day we had to do what was best for him 🖤
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My top worst feeling rn.
Sharing fanart that you've waited all week to post. I waited all week for fanart Friday to share my mort fanart I've been drawing all week. I was so excited,i've been binging this show like all week. I was so proud of my drawings. One of my firsts with two completely different hair colors and I felt so proud and happy and excited. And I posted them at 2 am. I realized it was Friday and posted them. And I just recently got comments on it that I'm an obnoxious perv :(
#worst feeling in the world#i hate art#so so much#it sucks#srsly never wanna do it again#the pieces had less nudity than the ACTUAL SHOW#yet I'm the perv?#reddit sucks#bobs burgers
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#worst feeling in the world#worst feeling ever#this is the worst#i dont want to be alone#i dont want it#please come back#im tryin my best#im trying#sadgirl#sad quotes#heartbreak#tw depressing stuff#depressing shit#sadcore#sad quotation#sad qutoes#falling apart#falling again#i think i need help#i think i need therapy#its getting worse#its getting bad again#and heartbreak image#depressing quotes#sad thoughts#im crying#depressing life
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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)
if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
#cw: suicidal ideation#cw: suicide#cw: self harm#cw: mental health#cw: depression#i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it#i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague#it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves#so. please dont#for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic#with the state of the world as it is#having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful#but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full#and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead#i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us#there is no fix-all#and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile#i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it#thank you for reading#and please stay alive#stillindigo art#stillindigo comics
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I really really wish I craved watching intelligent TV like idk sopranos or the wire or anything but something deep in my soul is craving supernatural
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When you realize you have to make other characters besides the ones you hyperfixate on:
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"mithrun is the only real monsterfucker in dungeon meshi" is objectively the funniest bit you can get out of his everything, but in all seriousness i think his attraction to his love interest is deliberately overstated—and that makes sense, because romantic jealousy is a classic and digestible motive, which is explicitly what kabru was aiming for in condensing mithrun's backstory, and also because until chapter 94, mithrun wasn't willing to admit to the true nature of his desires.
but because romantic envy is both classic and digestible, it probably isn’t a unique enough or complicated enough desire to tempt a demon’s appetite. mithrun’s wish, as far as we can figure from kabru’s reduced retelling, was to have a life in which he had never become one of the canaries, and that carries like 3857 implications and desires within it. that’s delicious. his love interest acts as sort of a red herring to his motivation for making it, though. (side note: i'm saying "love interest" here because, keeping in mind that i barely speak japanese on a good day anymore, "想い人" is something i'd usually take as just kind of an old-fashioned and romantic way to refer to a lover, but in context i wonder if both the connotation of yearning and the vagueness are intentional, and i think this phrasing gets those aspects of it more effectively. anyway.)
mithrun considered his love interest to be untrustworthy. there was a minute where i thought that comment might be about a similar-looking elf (yugin, one of his squad members), but comparing the two…
the "sketchy" arrow is definitely referring to the elf we know as his love interest—the bangs go toward her right, she only has the one forehead ornament, and, most notably, her ears aren't notched.
every time she’s given a full-body depiction in his dungeon, she’s drawn as a chimera, with the body of a snake from the waist down. (side note: the “what if a dungeon has chimeras before reaching level 4?”/“then the dungeon lord is unstable” exchange just being mithrun grilling his past self alive is so funny. he’s so. but anyway) there are a couple things about this.
first, the snake part of the chimera appears to be modeled after some species of coral snake mimic
which, in the biology-for-fun manga, i… doubt is a coincidence, especially with the added context of the “untrustworthy” comment. the dungeon’s conjured illusion of mithrun’s love interest was a harmless copycat of a venomous original. for whatever reason, he felt this person was a threat and made up a "safe" version of her to be in a relationship with, and while it’s definitely possible to be attracted to or even love someone you find to be toxic and/or intimidating, when you take that into consideration alongside the configuration of her body, you get some interesting implications.
which brings us to our second point: if we assume that mithrun was not in fact fucking a snake, then sexual attraction, at least, was so far removed from his idea of a relationship with this person that he did not even bother to keep her dungeon copy human enough to maintain the illusion of the option of a sexual relationship. this is somewhat echoed in the depictions of their interactions, which also imply a frankly unexpected romantic distance. she kisses his cheek and he doesn't seem to react; she's at the edge of a narrow bed with only one set of pillows, on top of his blankets while he's underneath them.
the kiss is particularly interesting because it seems to contrast the text. kabru's narration tells us this was everything mithrun could have asked for, but mithrun is there looking unreadable to pensive, likely because this is right before the panel that makes it clear things in the dungeon are beginning to go wrong.
walking through this backwards for a minute, we have the physical barrier of his bedding and the spatial separation inherent in a bed made for one person, the emotional barrier of his mounting anxiety getting in the way of his ability to enjoy the affection he sought, and... the snake, which historically carries the connotation of temptation, yes, but also mistrust, barring physical intimacy. okay. ok. if a dungeon reflects the mentality of its lord, all of this might suggest that mithrun was not able to have any real desire for a relationship with this person. his unwillingness to be vulnerable or let another person in was insurmountable. but in that case, why was she such a focal point that she remained to the end, after his dungeon had stopped creating iterations of his friends to come and visit him? why would he get so upset over her meeting with his brother that he became lord of a dungeon about it?
well. mithrun's brother was also interested in her, probably genuinely. and mithrun had to win.
you have an older brother who your parents completely ignore, probably in part because he is chronically ill/disabled and almost definitely in part because he received a ton of recessive traits that resulted in rumors that he was an illegitimate child. you are aware, most likely because those same parents fucking told you, that you actually are an illegitimate child. but they keep you around because you had the good fortune of looking just like your mother. what can that possibly teach you but that you, like your brother, are disposable?
it's utterly unsurprising that mithrun, under these circumstances, developed a pathological need to be better than everyone around him. people don't keep you otherwise. i'd argue this is also why he says he looked down on everyone he knew while milsiril claims his dungeon reeked of feelings of inferiority—he sought out people's worst traits and prioritized them in his mind to protect his already extremely fragile sense of self-worth, and all the while he tried to be as likable and high-performing as he possibly could be. his parents disposed of him anyway, but even then he tried to keep up the performance. he was kind to everyone. he never once lost to a dungeon.
when he saw his "love interest" meeting up with his brother, what he saw was himself being replaced by a person his parents had always treated as worthless, and if that was what they thought of the child they'd kept, what value could anyone possibly see in the bastard they'd given away to die? mithrun and kabru tell the story like he wanted to win this unnamed elf's heart, but it was never about being with her. it was about cementing his worth, proving that he didn't deserve to be thrown away.
and so it's particularly cruel that his demon discarded him, too. but maybe it's also particularly gentle that, in the end, there was someone who refused to even consider giving up on him.
kui laid it out in three panels better than i could hope to.
yeah. it's love. you wanted to be loved, even when the only way you were able to understand it was through the desire to be wanted, and you wanted that so badly that the idea of being consumed felt like the promise of finally mattering to someone.
#dungeon meshi spoilers#mithrun#dungeon meshi#this has been rotating for a while but i wanted to check my evidence before getting into it thanks user angelspenance for posting that meme#half of this is just the text and the other half i'm sure has been said before but it's making my brain [radio static] so here this is#someone did for sure mention this but i do find it very cute that in his fucked up conjured world meant to portray his ideal reality#his teammates came to visit him. like part of the fantasy was then explicitly that they cared about him and were his friends. even though#he says he tried to see the worst in them.#hm it does feel important to note that i do also believe 100% in mithrun suicidality--his desire to be eaten does seem to focus a lot on#wanting it to be Over. wanting not to be left incomplete and empty anymore.#but that loops back around a bit to the hole in your heart that appears when you feel unloved. it's many things and the same thing at once#snakes#long post#severe problems#meshy
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