#world stop gaia is yapping

[oniricdiary]

I’ve seen on tiktok that it’s trending again to show yourself through the years with picrews…since I’m back in my picrew obsession i HAD to hop on

Should i make this a thread? Or it’s too time consuming? Anyway

First year of high school, was so lame and forgettable, not a care in the world

Second year of high school, in my ‘I hate my life’ phase. Drastically cut my butt length blonde virgin hair. Still regret it to this day.

Lockdown was over, something happened: existential crisis? Who knows. One day I woke up and I decided that I was over being lame.

Fourth year of high school and moved to the us. I was a senior there tho. Anyway all that edgy look was too much so I decided that I just had to be cool.

Came back from the us, moved to london for the summer and then came back to Italy. Fifth year of highschool and my ed was RAGING. At least looks were fire. At some point I had to drop out cause my body was not able to go anymore. Still an icon.

Going back to school and repeating fifth year. Doing much better physically but not mentally BUT I was in my first serious relationship and I absorbed pretty much his whole style. Ad I looked so legend as a ginger.

Now. Somehow alive. Pretty much living in hell. But we thrive. Found out that tumblr is pretty cool and getting many tattoos. Dare i say that I’m in my coolest era.

OK BYEEEE

If you want to do this here’s the link

Do it reblogging this!

Tagging some people just to see if it’s doable :3 absolutely no pressure

@annawayne @moonspirit @dudewhy3 @aruanimess @darcycrow @skyedahelf @sweetlokum @snksznn @itsnathateasy @lucaaazd and whoever who wants to do it :3

[oniricdiary]

I’ve seen people under this post and in general here being ugly bodyshamers. Y’all hypocrites preach about bodypositivity until it comes to people who are not a “conventional” weight on the skinny side. Just so you know, most of those who are not at a healthy weight are struggling just as much as overweight people may be. I’ve been bodyshamed a lot for my very underweight body in the past as much as my overweight body, and i can tell you that it hurts the same. Body positivity preachers that only lean on one side can die for me.

you actually don't have to justify why your characters are fat. they can just be fat because they're hot

[umbralstars]

On this episode of "Things in Rebirth than make me insane" Mt. Nibel is genuinely gorgeous. Like full stop one of the best examples of how alien Gaia is and how the Lifestream shapes the environment. I took some photos to yap about :)

So first of all we can see how thick the mako within the mountain is. Nearly every cave has a haze of green and embers of the Lifestream hanging in the air. Materia grows freely in the pools of mako within the caves (we can see crystals jutted from the rock walls and between the roots of trees), and the Lifestream here is so potent that trees and plants can grow underground with barely any sunlight. Sinkholes and cavern entrances are also carved by the mako, yet the trees continue to live and thrive despite growing in awkward positions.

We can even spot how Mt. Nibel was formed in the first place!

Here, and in the background of the first image, we can see exactly why the Nibel Mountains have the strange shapes they do. Mako crystals here have started to turn into the dull grey stone of the mountain with age, and erosion would change the shape of the rock over time. Mt Nibel was forged by the lifestream itself; grown from the very pools within its cave systems or the landscape was changed by an upswell of the Lifestream (similar to how Cosmo Canyon was described being created in the World Intel). There are plants in Nibel that are either partial crystallized or seem to be bioluminecent because of how rich the Lifestream is here.

I really do wonder what Nibel would look like if it wasn't suffering from the environmental degradation of its reactor and all the mako research. Or what other areas of the region we don't see may look like.

There's another cool detail you can hear in the sound design when the music quiets before the mako spring cutscene.

The mako in this cave is so thick that you can hear what almost sounds like a "song" or what is probably meant to be voices we can't decipher. I really don't think it's wind ambience because the other caves don't seem to have sound design like this. Mt Nibel is probably is so associated with death and the afterlife because within these caves you can hear the voices of the Lifestream even without being a Cetra. No wonder people of this region associate the mountain as being a way into the underworld. In many ways, it truly is.

[oniricdiary]

JUST GOT 3 HUGE AOT POSTERS IN THE MAIL CAN’T WAIT TO HANG THEM UPPPP IN MY UNI ROOM BRB

[oniricdiary]

From now on when I vocally speak English I’m gonna speak in transatlantic accent. That’s it. That’s my intention for 2025.

[oniricdiary]

I think I might be very rotten but I’m trying :(

[oniricdiary]

You guys something terrible has been happening to me, I’m slowly going deaf…my doctor told me that it may be sinusitis but I have to go to an ent to have a better check up. Right now i hear everything very faintly, and if somebody is talking to me they have to talk very loudly, almost yell, and I have to look at their lips. When I’m listening to music I have to put it in max volume and still hearing it very faintly. I feel so humiliated when I constantly have to ask people to repeat themselves and overall feel isolated all the time. Oh my god this is terrible god be testing me all the time WHO’S BEEN PRAYING FOR MY DOWNFALL, AS SOON AS I CATCH YOU….

[oniricdiary]

4 am had a mental breakdown while reading cute fanfictions because today I ate food and my life is spiraling so I cut bangs myself WHAT AM I BECOMING also decided that I’m getting kitty fangs piercing and another tattoo oh did i mention that I really hate myself and I’d rather die than spend another sleepless night if tomorrow y’all ain’t hearing from me yk what happened😁

[oniricdiary]

They’re threatening me to admit me again😭😭 please i cannot do this nutridrink shit again😭😭😭 Ribs gon be fire tho

[oniricdiary]

I was supposed to go to a Halloween party but I passed out while waiting for the bus IM SO MAD I WAS SO HOT AND MY MAKE UP WAS FIRE AARRGHH why do I always have to be god’s victim please dude leave me alone

[oniricdiary]

Angelina wishes you all a merry Christmas and a happy new year 🎄🎊☺️

She loved the Christmas lunch, lucky puppy got to steal some tortellini and roasted meat🙄

[oniricdiary]

Omg i just came back from my ENT visit and the reason I went deaf is that my adenoids became HUGE (stage 3) and corked my nose and ears like honestly what the fuck…I’ll have to take medicines and do some non invasive procedures but I really really hope I don’t have to get surgery😭😭😭 istg ima start believing in god…

[oniricdiary]

Why did nobody tell me that getting bangs would mean waking up with the galliard brothers’ hairstyle every morning

[oniricdiary]

Last cigarette in the pack is always a knife in the heart…💔

[oniricdiary]

6:50 just pulled an all nighter doing absolutely nothing but brainrotting because i couldn’t sleep due to acid reflux (I ate heavy. Does that phrase make sense in English?)I NOW DECIDED THAT I’M GETTING OUT OF BED, SITTING AT THE TABLE, PULLING OUT MY IPAD, GETTING AN ESTATHÉ FROM THE FRIDGE, LIGHT A CIGARETTE AND WRITEEEEE MY BOY CORNELIUS CANT WAIT TO ROAST ANNIE🔥🔥🔥🔥

[oniricdiary]

I feel so weird…my dad’s been trying to get close to me and gain my trust but I can’t seem to let go of the hatred for him little me promised to hold forever. Is this what healing your relationship with parents feels like?