#working towards a better me

[queerdesire]

November 10

Drove some where for the first time all by myself !!! Sounds so dumb but I'm beyond excited for myself, like I did that :). I was so fucking anxious all day before works like I even took a nap before work just to not be feeling a type of way and then it went so well. Except I forgot how shitty radio music is lol

[hinamie]

domain expansion

[hollowwish]

You guys do realize a lot of watcher fans complaining about the six dollars don't just need to "cancel their disney+ or hulu subscriptions." They're the people who ALREADY can't afford streaming services. It's not that they should be supporting independent creators over big corporations, it's that they literally cannot afford to do either.

[httpiastri]

i'm actually so pissed that i don't even know where to start..... i've been trying to ignore this for hours but i just can't ☹️

dear everyone on f1blr, i kindly ask you to take franco's name out of your mouth if you don't know him. do not talk about his story if you don't know it. do not call him a pay driver, do not compare him to drivers whose dads are the owners of an f1 team. do not talk shit about him if it's all going to be made-up rumors.

you may hate james vowles as much as you wish to, i don't give a fuck. williams are doing some real random and stupid shit. but is any of this franco's fault? no!! if you'd actually seen him and taken more than 5 minutes trying to learn about him, you'd see how sweet of a person he is and how much he deserves this opportunity, so don't go around spreading lies about it.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy Valentine's Day! (and this blog's first post anniversary!)

[mamawasatesttube]

perry with some words of wisdom in superman: lex 2000 ("just because this country is about to go to hell in a handbasket doesn't mean this newspaper does, too!") (and we are all the newspaper, really.)

[malevolentmissmouse43]

JJ pulling Kiara in by the waist during their kiss and sliding his hands up her back is something I think about a totally normal amount

[averlym]

litany of the martyrs (click for better resolution!)

[buwheal]

How is your hand doing? Is it still bleeding, at all?

[creepyscritches]

I get told often at my job that I'm very calming and reassuring and I feel like a white collar therapy horse

[queerdesire]

It is extremely hard to let go, but once you do it feels freeing. I've held on to some very intimate lovely things since March. I boxed it all away and gave it to a friend for safe keeping, not being able to fully get rid of these memories. Today I was finally okay with asking for this box back, I was finally ready to let that part of myself go, to let her go, to let you go, Justina.

Now and Later doesn't look how I had imagined and that is okay. The love I hold for you will always be there because I will always love what we had when we had it, but I have finally learned how to also love myself as much as I did you. I am truly happy for you both for what you've been able to overcome. I'm truly happy to know that we are all where we are supposed to be.

I'm so proud of myself for all I've been able to overcome this year. I'm so proud of myself for not letting the hard times stop me, but motivate me. I am so proud of myself for continuing to work on bettering myself. This last month has been the first time I finally feel as though I am taking control and living and it has felt so fucking good.

[dreamingofthewild]

Today's random headcanon is Gale becoming undeniably turned on by Tav's perfume, cologne, or beard oil.

Just imagine the distraction Tav could cause him. The rich, intoxicating scent drives him to distraction when his lover leans in for a kiss. His thoughts scatter as the scent overwhelms his senses, and he has to summon all his willpower not to ravage them on the spot.

Gale taking the time to breathe Tav in as he slowly kisses their face and strokes their hair. His eyes roll into the back of his head as that sweet, delicious scent sends all his blood rushing south.

If Tav has a beard, he buries his face into the soft hairs. Letting them tickle his cheeks as he rubs his face against theirs until his legs feel like jelly.

His favourite scent is all it takes to turn him into mush.

[scarlet-witchery]

why do people think Yevgeny wasn't Mickey's son? in 3x06 there was clearly no condom used (not that Terry probably would have let Svetlana stop to get one), but there's no reason to think she wasn't using condoms with her regular clients. it's not Svetlana's fault that she was a tool used to rape Mickey—the sole blame for everything that happens in that entire situation belongs to Terry Milkovich and him alone—so why does it feel like it's just another way for people to shit on Svetlana for something that wasn't in her control? it's not as though she'd asked to get pregnant in the first place...

[robindaydream]

A Few Days After, Part 1

(some small SLARPG spoilers contained within)

(Part 2)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I saw @qourmet's young madam lan art, and knew what I had to do.

[dykedvonte]

Can you talk about trans!Curly a little bit more? I'm curios if you have any headcanons and the like

-💀

It's just such a thing in my mind because it adds a truthful sadness and differing aspect to mouthwashing.

If Curly was trans it adds the horror of the horribly selfish thought he could have easily been in Anya's situation. It could've been him but it wasn't and he so conflicted on the pit it put in his stomach that brings and the shameful relief it wasn't. In this scenario he is friends with Jimmy for a long time still. Jimmy likely knew him pretransition. Maybe he gave Curly weird looks then, maybe they never stopped after, maybe they seemed meaner. They are guys now, bros, both of them are. He doesn't really have to worry what those looks mean anymore, Jimmy just has that face with him sometimes. It's recontextualizing a lot of things for him that he was in denial about or too ashamed to admit. How naive he was being and how he let that get another person hurt.

Specifically with Anya, it's he knows the dread and fear she's feeling. He can understand it because he had to live with it for a good portion of his life, he knows it cause he still does, just in a slightly different way. It makes him think of all the times he's been alone with Jimmy, all the times he's been way more drunk off his ass and not remember the night, Jimmy was always with him the next day. Makes him think of the comments he would laugh off both because that's what guys do but because that part of being a girl says to laugh so Jimmy doesn't do something. It's the selfish realization that he was never safe and he's uncertain now too. Mad at himself for forgeting that feeling, espcially since for a long time he would've been considered the only woman on a crew (with all that implies) for a long time.

He should've taken those blinders off, step back into that position for just a moment and it's so much more painful that Anya likely came to him because he should've gotten it. Those thoughts don't leave his mind after the crash when he's in an even more vulnerable position than she was...