#wordsofrusy

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to every darkness the skyline had

there's always a star shines brighter than everything else could be ⭐️

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to my forever home,

i hope it feels warm when cold

and cool when it's hot

FRPS, it's you

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dear myself,

welcome home☺️

congrats you found yourself successfully

i love you tons!

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dear someone who lives far away, i can tell that congrats you’re my best broken hearted

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how could you feel enough of someone?

idk

it’s just..

you’re enough

your existence in my life

is just

more than enough

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i don’t know

it just feels safe when you’re around

feels like i haven’t met you for a long long time

feels like i’m so lost without you

you don’t know how much i love you..

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i still remember those eyes sparked

feels like time stops for a little while

the clock is ticking

i still remember the heartbeat

just like one of One Directions’ song

first love never goes wrong

they said.

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membersamai

ingin membersamai hingga menyemai

terus tumbuh dan hidup bersama

boleh ya?

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the answer is just

“don’t know”

you know when you really don’t know what the answer is means it is something beyond what you’ve expected

always be grateful! then galaxy will give you more and more

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#26

i might not be ready to not see notifications from you on the phone

i might not be ready to unlock my phone then see our picture together as my wallpaper

i might not be ready to text you with one or two words

i might not be ready to not reply your messages as soon as possible

i might not be ready to see then move the picture of us to the trash

i might not be ready to not feel my heart beating while you're typing

i might not be ready to change your contact name without love emoji

i might not be ready to not talk with you 100 times a day

i might not be ready to fall in love with another soul

i might not be ready to feel empty

but you already gone.

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#25

deciding to leave the past is one of the hardest things

leaving all the beloved people youve ever known back then

i am

to many heartbreaks

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melupakan hujan

hujan mungkin datang disaat waktu-waktu tertentu

tapi tak jarang ia datang tanpa permisi dan pulang tanpa pamit

mungkin akan susah jadinya jika ia sudah berkali-kali datang

susah untuk mengabaikan keberadaannya

namun bagaimana jika ia hanya datang untuk berkenalan lalu pergi?

pergi yang tak akan digantikan kehadirannya oleh hujan yang lain

diantara titik-titik hujan itu hanya ada satu titik berbentuk bulat sempurna seperti bulan baru dilangit

aku memang senang jika hujan datang menghampiriku apalagi disaat ku menyeduh kopi diujung jendela kedai kopi

mungkin bukan aku, tapi ini tentang hujan dan kopi

ah kalian berdua memang candu

melupakan hujan ku harus melagu

untuk mengusir sendu

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pulang

berkali-kali pulang

tapi tak pernah se sendu ini

pukul 8.30 pagi

hari terakhir kaki ini menapak peron stasiun

kaki melangkah memasuki gerbong berharap ada kursi kosong untuk diriku merebahkan diri sejanak agar kuat menatapnya

tidak

tidak ada yang kosong

apa boleh buat ku hanya berdiri memandang keluar jendela kereta

berusaha mengingat setiap detail tiap garis dan lekuk pemandangan ini

berharap jika diri ini jauh tapi dapat mengingat perjalanan ini

perjalanan yang tak mengenal rasa lelah maupun letih

walau kereta desaknya minta ampun

matahari bersinar terik

ataupun hujan iri ingin berjumpa juga

rasanya aku tak peduli bagaimana semesta ini mengujiku

aku hanya peduli bagaimana aku membuat cerita bersamanya ataupun cerita bagaimana aku mencapainya

kamu, jangan bosan menungguku pulang kembali ya..

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#24

it's been a long time since the last time I listened to my favorite song on the radio

apparently the radio often plays my favorite songs

then I always listen to the radio

I set the frequency and let it always there

I never change into another frequency

until there comes someday I find out the radio has not clear sound

it's like you turn to different frequency

to others

but I did not

why should I? I never want to loose something I like, I love

never in my life

I tried many times

many different frequencies

to find it

I am between give up and have last struggle

I turn the first frequency back

put it where it was

in my desperation time having no hopes at all just you know like if there was a bird then let it flies

I heard something common to my ears

maybe I was drunk

but the sound becomes clearer to me

damn, I just need to relax and let it be

maybe I was too scared to loose, too high to fall

I realize what is mine will be mine even I might almost loose it but it would come back to where it was at first

are we in the same frequency yet?

in the same feet of height?

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#29

at least

i have tried

at least...

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biarkan

biarkan saya mencintai langit dengan apa yang ada padanya

awan, biru, putih burung-burung, bulan, bintang, matahari

lalu biarkan juga saya sangat menunggu datangnya hujan meski harus melewati gelapnya langit, matahari yang memilih untuk bersembunyi seakan tau bahwa saya memang sangat menantikan hujan

hujan dengan ritme rintik-rintik hingga deras seolah mengadu pada saya betapa beratnya menahan kesedihan dan kerinduan

 jika saja mencintai seseorang itu seperti langit, abadi

maka biarkan saya untuk tetap menunggu dibawah langit

entah dibawah payung ataupun dibawah pohon

menunggu dari terang cerah gelap hingga terang cerah kembali

saya memang tidak tahu kapan langit akan cerah dan kapan langit akan gelap

maka dari itu saya lebih memilih untuk menunggu.