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I just had the MOST diabolical thought for an Itafushi AU that immediately made me cry thinking about it.
Despite everything I need to do today AND all the other unfinished fics I have, I wanna drop it all to write this.
If this post gets even 1 note I'm doing it
#ellion I'm counting on you to enable me here#i won't write it for myself#but if even a single person expresses interest I can do it#i know how to trick my brain into doing things#i don't so much hold myself accountable as I pretend others are holding me accountable for imaginary things#healthy? no. effective? yes.#it's why Summer of Blue both is and is not being working on sporadically#anyways think about it: Orpheus and Eurydice Itafushi AU#Yuuji has to retrieve Megumi's soul#cry with me about it#itafushi#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro
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Hello remember when i wrote that avalil smut roughly a year ago?
It takes Lilith by surprise but she watches vehemently as Ava desperately sucks her spit covered hand in hopes to catch a taste. It feels intimate, like Ava is seeing her, choosing her all over again.
Ava’s tongue tickles her hand and she resists the urge to curl her fingers deep inside. She watches, content as Ava finishes and presses kisses to each finger. Her lips quirk before she pulls Ava in for a kiss sitting up. It’s tender with Ava’s lips mouthing slowly against hers. Her lips are soft and Lilith has to reel in the urge to bite down hard.
Ava’s teeth scrape against hers as if reading her mind and Lilith growls, lips peeling back to bite. Her teeth prick against Ava’s bottom lip in warning before she swipes her tongue over it. Ava presses into her mouth desperately and Lilith answers just as passionately. Puffs of air linger between her teeth and Lilith cannot resist any longer. Lilith knows Ava can feel her hunger, urging her to break skin. Lilith can feel it in the way Ava presses into her hard, desperate to feel her. She slides her hands up Ava’s neck, rubbing in warning before grabbing a handful of her hair. Lilith yanks her head back exposing her neck and she bares her teeth. Ava moans stilling as Lilith holds her suspended, throat swallowing in anticipation.
Lilith admires her neck, the veins thumping wildly. She’s so pretty, Lilith pauses starstruck. Ava with her pale chest begging to be bruised. Ava with her heaving breaths, vulnerable and open and trembling. Lilith presses her lips against her collar bones feeling Ava’s shudder.
#tko_writes#okay so i haven't done any more work on it#i just needed something to submit for tko_writing#because originally i did have something written (do you think i'm kind)#but i actually want to have a coherent scene so i need to hammer out the end of the scene before i post it so here's this instead#also didn't feel like forcing myself to write the rest of the scene#can u believe i've only written 2k so far and it gets a little more filthy than this#I did NOT want to post the filthier scene for the fear that my peers will side eye me#which they won't but in my head they do#if i do post it later just know someones gagging on a strap#who said that#i do need to come revisit this but so much to do#Also ignore any wacky shit it's still a rough draft <3#avalil hunger theme woooooo
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Come on, you know you want to, give us the character bingo for Viktor.
don't mind if i doooo
#ask me#okay there's a lot going on here but first things first#viktor has transcended the favorite character tier where I want to protect him or whatever#like yeah he did that shit! I support him but I also don't! the more trouble he gets himself into the happier I'll be!#do you feel me#like one of the things I love most about Viktor is that I feel so much sympathy for the circumstances he's in that are out of his control#but he has so much agency in his own story that everything he's gained and accomplished are because he makes choices#and GETS HIMSELF places#and now the same thing is happening with his BAD choices and I find that just as delightful if not moreso#he is the agent of his own salvation and his own destruction and I will be in the front row seat with popcorn for both or either#so writing him is mostly me studying him under the microscope poking him until he does something untoward it's very fun#I only hesitantly say that Viktor is like me but the Balkan ties and the grumpy-but-kind and obsessive personality#and the strong opinions about a chosen STEM field#are inescapable okay#mommy issues is not circled because I have mommy issues but bc I have convinced myself that Viktor WILL have them#if Nikola Tesla is anything to go by#the jayce-mel-viktor trifecta is ruled by mommy issues and i will stand by that claim#also viktor is more interesting with no therapy - with as little therapy as possible would be my preference#WITH THE EXCEPTION of the lonely genius shit that Singed planted in his head#that is absolutely the lie that Viktor believes that he MUST discard in order to progress as a character and I am excited for it#I genuinely think that Viktor will be happier and more eccentric as [REDACTED] but it won't last#he will hit a VERY LITERAL -if thy right hand offend thee cut it off- situation and then he'll have peace but he won't call it happiness#I can't say that I'd hate anyone who hurt him because that is half of why I'm excited for s2#but I will probably lose it at any scene where he loses to [REDACTED] for rivalry reasons#I genuinely do want to see Mel completely own his ass as [REDACTED] though like can you imagine the banter#and both of them secretly having fun with it
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Recent game related things .. hrmm...
#I do like the inconsistency of the first map. that is actually something older but that I re-found and added to my Game Reference stuff#so that when characters reference where they're from I can be accurate. I like that the whole map is kind of shifted up that way. Where the#actual south part doesnt even count as the south since its Too Far and Scary lol. and if you say you're from 'the north' thats basically#like.. one single continent. Though some people do make distinctions like 'north midlands' or etc. still. I like the ways that common#language isn't always precisely accurate like that. and thinking about why a culture would classify things a certain way or etc. etc.#The inventory page is so funny to me because it's literally just the BASe like.. sample layout just to make sure it works properly with 0#actual design into it. just colored rectangles thrown together in MS paint. but what if I like... left it like that.. what if all the other#art in the game and UI is like stylized and fully matching BUT the inventory/journal/etc. screens I just left as plain colored blocks#with random misalignments and black spots and etc gjhbhjj... It looks unfinished in a Funny Contrast way to me.#the wordcounts are just like... my past few days of writing.. I am still not getting 2200 words a day done or whatever I needed. I'm lucky#if it's even half of that .... tee hee.. :3c I do also keep having appointments and other things going on but..grrr...#The full map of the area is probably not necessary but I thought it would be more realisitc if people were able to reference things. Like i#you have people all living in a city area probably at some point someone might mention a neighboring city or some landmark nearby#or etc. so I thought having at least the basic names of what's around for reference would be sensible. A side character mentioning#'oh yeah I don't live here full time I just travel from Marisene sometimes' or whatever makes it seem more like a Real#Fleshed Out Place than people just making vague references like 'the river' or 'i come from a city nearby' or 'i went to a place somewhere#around here' or 'the other city' or etc. lol.. Especially since global cities/global areas are weird as they operate almost like an#independent country within their walls. so it's like a micro country inside of another country usually. just plopped down in some agreed#upon plot of land that won't be too disruptive to the main country around it. That could get very complex depending on the cultural and#political backdrop of where they're placed (though obviously they try to choose the 'easiest' areas possible for it). Asen is a very mild#country without much history of conflict or anything so it's fine. But still interesting that Sifeh and the entire branched out global area#border three other districts of Asen. Which means like 3 times the local representitives you'l have to negotiate with for some major change#or anything. I think one of the 'random characters you can find around the world and have short discussions with just to make the area#feel more populated and real even though theyre not actual important npcs' is going to be a guy who actually serves on the council that#handles running the global areas and he's like.. some perpetually exhausted middle aged elf running around with a clipboard or whatever#ANYWAY...... hrgh... still trying to write when I can....#I WISH so badly that I had the scope for a simple character creation menu and all character interactions would allot for the background#of your player character. And also to have a simple day night cycle where places in the world you explore/people you talk to during the day#have new options or dialogue at night.. BUT alas... I already am so behind on everything as is lol.. aughhh... T o T#As the worlds number one Needless Detail And Complexity Enjoyer i must dilligently prevent myself from adding additional complexity
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was supposed to write the advent calendar fics, ended up writing an extra scene for let me down slowly. woops. anyway! I hope you like it, it's Olli's POV, titled let go of my tears and you can read it on AO3 🖤
#blind channel rpf#blind channel fanfiction#just fyi it doesn't really add much to the original story#so it's not necessarily the addition to this AU i was originally thinking of writing at some point but here it is anyway 💖#i just needed to write this because ummmmm. because i was feeling a particular way 😳💦#so yeah this was definitely inspired by something sort of unrelated to the fic. won't tell you what though 😌#...she says as if she wouldn't immediately spill the deets if anyone asked lol#(should be an easy guess for @gloryforthegreedy at least if you think back to our latest dm convo 🙈)#in fact i wanted to write a different kind of fic inspired by *that* but my brain said nope so i wrote this instead!#just like my previous olli/allu piece this one too is kinda sad kinda hot#if you're in the mood to read about olli and aleksi jerking off: grab yourself a cuppa and a blanket and make yourself at home 💕#if not: i wish you a pleasant evening ✨#i myself am at a point where i just want to read these two cuties do aaaaaall the stuff 🙊#(can you see me begging for filthy asks to enable me 😩)#(i blame giulia's latest olli/allu. which y'all should read immediately btw)
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i'm like a real good writer
#personal log#i needed to skip ahead and write some power couple ending scenes#need to know where i'm headed to get to where i need to go yknow#listen i am WRANGLING canon to make power couple ending both plausible and tasteful#this bad boy can fit like SO many trust issues#sigh. avery is going to have to burn every single bridge isn't he#gonna tear himself down. you can't save me from wallowing in the mud if i throw myself in the pit first#AVERY PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER MAN!!!!#been playing with he finds a way to be one of solas' Many Agents#then the reveal is just like. 'here's your report boss' '(that one meme of dwight theoffice being startled.png'#but like with way higher stakes it won't be THAT boring#like im p sure the Needed Thing is avery would have to BLATANTLY betray what's left of the inq#and part of the operation is in itself sacrificing that piece on the board as it were#sigh. maybe solas highly suspected but didn't let him think about it too hard because goddamn he NEEDED someone that deep in the IC for this#and we all know his denial game can be off the fucking charts#and then it's like#'WHO ELSE WOULD IT FUCKING BE???'#whatever man#this shit isn't even going to be properly drafted for like... years. if i even get that far#sigh. much to consider#if you're still reading this come get your card punched. turn in 10 to get me to shut the fuck up
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#not to be romantic on main but my boyfriend is the sweetest person in the entire world#I've always been self conscious about sharing my writing in person because my family used to shut me down a lot#not in a mean way like I know they care about me and I can be obnoxious because I babble a LOT and it's a bit Much yknow#but I've trained myself to shut down the rambles before they stop even with my own best friends who I Know would listen#They all knew I wrote but I think I'd known them for like four years before I told them the *plot*#but my boyfriend is so so so patient and lets me ramble as much as I want and reads whatever I send him#and hes even coming to the conference with me this weekend#because he knows I get overwhelmed in big crowds and he wants to be there for me even though he doesn't write#hes just overwhelmingly supportive and it makes me so happy and I'm so blessed to have him#I'm here like you know its a really long drive and its going to be a busy day and i'm going to be networking#it won't really be fun for you are you sure you want to come you don't have to come if you dont want to come#but he's insisting he wants to go and ahh <3#etta rambles#etta rambles in the tags#delete later
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I don't know... I'd like to be able to give more, miss when I used to be able to donate to stuff
...feel like the fact that I haven't been able to afford to fix a cracked pipe for 6 months and that if I do get a plumber in here to fix that faucet I'm probably gonna need to give up the cheese money I finally got ahold of says that maybe... maybe it's not overly unreasonable of me to say I can't donate to anything but... it sucks
...able to buy a house in 2019, a $90k house mind, but a house none the less so... I don't know... I don't know...
Always been a kinda funny mutt where I've mostly been poor enough because of my mom that didn't eat half the time, but had solidly middle class grandparents in the background who could smooth things over... but weren't willing to enough that their grand kid actually got fed
So I don't know... both always felt kinda broke as shit, but also way to rich for that to be true... same thing here... feel broke from not being able to get a pipe fixed for over half a year, but rich in that I fucking have a house at all
But anyway... wish I could donate to shit, not that it would help even a little in the end, but still... wish I could, even a little
#think my mom will donate to stuff; in addition to paying a personal assistant for her writing that makes zilch and it's like...#don't know how to deal with you with all this#we are... living off your disability checks... and you go blowing them on shit like that#I don't know... I'm not pleased#not pleased about a lot of big things in the world I can't fucking effect#not like I'm a senator or some shit; not like even other random pricks on here are gonna listen to me let alone world leaders#but also not please cause if I could just get myself to do shit I could probably have a pretty great life in like 5 years#make the soap and sell it; clean the house; do some gardening; start cooking#like 4 hours of my day and I could build myself a paradise and I just... refuse#no matter how much I beg myself to I just fucking won't#I'm fucking trash
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Becoming obsessed with a new show is so insane like I'm not even finished with S1 of LR but here I am sitting with a 17,200+ word outline of a fic that isn't even half conceptualized along with five other +2,500 word outlines that also aren't half conceptualized and about 25+ fic ideas jotted down in my notes. I'm feeling completely normal about Lab Rats 🫶
#and ngl I feel nervous to even potentially share these some day if I even continue writing#I say that because I wrote a few pics for my other fandom but then I just lost motivation to write when I became less obsessed with the sho#but I'm not even knee deep into LR and now I have all these fic ideas so I'm hoping my motivation won't fail me now#not to mention almost all of these pics involve a somewhat obscure character *cough cough* look at url *cough cough* that from what-#I've seen the fandom feels iffy about that character so it's honestly just me writing fanfics for myself if I think about it tbh#but I love angst and he has such good angst potential and yeah he's not well written and is honestly a comedic relief character in a way#but I have notes on him and think he's an interesting concept and he could have been so much more (and better written in S3 & 4)#oh yeah I have a lot ideas for art stuff too it's just that I need to practice more before I feel comfortable enough to put stuff on here#anyways if anyone read my tags here's a gold star for reading my crazed thoughts ⭐️#personal
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woohoo spiraling out of control right now (what else is new really I've been fucked up and spiraling for weeks now) and trying to figure out reasons not to delete my tumblr and discord and myself along the way
but you know. talking about myself on my blog automatically means I'm attention seeking and fishing for pity right? should just shut up and stick to the news eh, it's all I'm good for :D
anyway if you need me I'll be in the corner reliving the past, coming to terms with reality, and trying to convince myself I'm not the problem despite every indication to the contrary ✌��︎
#sterechats :)#09:58 pm - this is a bad idea but scheduling it anyway#what's the worst that can happen really? everyone leaves again? nobody talks to me again?#probably gonna delete this in the morning so. meh. not like it matters not like I matter :D#10:29 pm - wow it feels like my head is on fire#like my brain is actually burning and I can't do a damn thing about it#I should be happy right now! the devils are winning! my favorite guys are scoring!#but no! I'm barely keeping it together around my family and praying I don't wake up tomorrow <3#11:00 pm - I need to get out of here#I need to get out of here out of here out of here I can't stay here any more this is killing me#everyone hates me and I need to chew my arms open maybe then everything will make sense#why am I even writing these tags what does it matter#I was so much more in control of myself when I was sh-ing#maybe I should get back to that maybe it'll help I don't know anymore#I just want my friends back but they hate me hahahaha#11:24 pm - wonder how many people are gonna block me after this one#how many people will finally be fed up and leave for good#everyone leaves and I should be used to this by now#here's a truck stop instead of saint peter's (yeah yeah yeah yeah)#11:41 pm - it's friday afternoon/there goes antigone to be buried alive#in the next world I want to be something useful/like a staple gun/or in love#I would fall off a cliff for you/a thousand times and call it a good day#maybe I'm just incapable of being human! maybe that's it!#maybe I'm not even human at all... but something worse instead...#1:22 am - moving the posting of this back from 3 to 6 am#not that that matters and not that I matter but I don't think I'll sleep#and I don't want this to post when I'm awake#I know I'm just going to get unfollowed and blocked and left behind as always#because happiness and good things and friendships just aren't things I get to have really#I just wish people would stop lying and telling me they're different and they'll stay when they're not different and won't stay
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Since I saw that you're doing the violence ask game can you answer 22, 25 and 7??
I sure can.~
This one got long af though, so another readmore.
(still choosing violence)
22. your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores
This is another one I've answered already, but tbf... it was yesterday. So I can pull my second favorite part of canon instead so you don't have to re-read an older answer.
There's two moments that tie: one in year 5 and one in year 6. Year 5's moment is a nice warm-and-fuzzy "the trio are such good friends" scene, in the midst of Umbridge torturing Harry with her quill:
It was nearly midnight when Harry left Umbridge’s office that night, his hand now bleeding so severely that it was staining the scarf he had wrapped around it. He expected the common room to be empty when he returned, but Ron and Hermione had sat up waiting for him. He was pleased to see them, especially as Hermione was disposed to be sympathetic rather than critical. “Here,” she said anxiously, pushing a small bowl of yellow liquid toward him, “soak your hand in that, it’s a solution of strained and pickled murtlap tentacles, it should help.” Harry placed his bleeding, aching hand into the bowl and experienced a wonderful feeling of relief. Crookshanks curled around his legs, purring loudly, and then leapt into his lap and settled down. “Thanks,” he said gratefully, scratching behind Crookshanks’s ears with his left hand. “I still reckon you should complain about this,” said Ron in a low voice. “No,” said Harry flatly. “McGonagall would go nuts if she knew—” “Yeah, she probably would,” said Harry. “And how long d’you reckon it’d take Umbridge to pass another Decree saying anyone who complains about the High Inquisitor gets sacked immediately?” Ron opened his mouth to retort but nothing came out and after a moment he closed it again in a defeated sort of way. “She’s an awful woman,” said Hermione in a small voice. “Awful. You know, I was just saying to Ron when you came in . . . we’ve got to do something about her.” “I suggested poison,” said Ron grimly.
Just seeing the trio bounce off each other is soothing (especially after reading days or weeks worth of fanfics where they all suddenly hate each other or were never really that good of friends or whatever). Harry's gratitude and stubbornness, Hermione's caretaking and forethought and plotting, Ron's voice of reason and necessary dash of humor... all perfect. Also, just... Harry is so used to going things alone, toughing things out by himself. It's heartwarming and sad that he still doesn't expect Ron and Hermione to do something as simple as waiting up for him to get back from hellish detention. Also also: Crookshanks curling up with him. ^^
Year 6's moment is just between Harry and Hermione:
Hermione stopped dead; Harry had heard it too. Somebody had moved close behind them among the dark bookshelves. They waited and a moment later the vulture-like countenance of Madam Pince appeared round the corner, her sunken cheeks, her skin like parchment and her long hooked nose illuminated unflatteringly by the lamp she was carrying. ‘The library is now closed,’ she said. ‘Mind you return anything you have borrowed to the correct – what have you been doing to that book, you depraved boy?’ ‘It isn’t the library’s, it’s mine!’ said Harry hastily, snatching his copy of Advanced Potion-Making off the table as she lunged at it with a clawlike hand. ‘Despoiled!’ she hissed. ‘Desecrated! Befouled!’ ‘It’s just a book that’s been written in!’ said Harry, tugging it out of her grip. She looked as though she might have a seizure; Hermione, who had hastily packed her things, grabbed Harry by the arm and frogmarched him away. ‘She’ll ban you from the library if you’re not careful. Why did you have to bring that stupid book?’ ‘It’s not my fault she’s barking mad, Hermione. Or d’you think she overheard you being rude about Filch? I’ve always thought there might be something going on between them …’ ‘Oh, ha, ha …’ Enjoying the fact that they could speak normally again, they made their way along the deserted, lamplit corridors back to the common room, arguing about whether or not Filch and Madam Pince were secretly in love with each other.
Very, very cute scene showing Harry and Hermione getting along casually, something we're not often treated to even in canon. A frankly disturbing amount of fans (particularly fans of A Specific Ship I Will Not Mention Here) have bought into the propaganda that Harry and Hermione aren't really that good of friends just because during GOF, when he'd just experienced his first ever schism with a close friend, Harry privately confessed to missing Ron and enjoying the things he did with his male best friend more. The trio is not "Harry and Ron, then Ron and Hermione". It's "Harry, Ron, and Hermione"; all three of them are necessary pieces of the whole. Harry and Hermione's friendship is different than Harry's with Ron, but it's no less valuable, and not any weaker, or else Hermione wouldn't have stayed in that damned tent.
25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing
Every bit of discourse about Sirius not getting a trial. We know. The injustice is the point. The cruelty is the point. The POINT is to show that wizarding Britain is glitz and glamor and not all that fair to its marginalized peoples and underclass, you nimrods. Frankly, the fanfics that purport to 'fix' it by giving Sirius his "restored Lordship" or a bunch of seats on the Wizengamot or immediate "wizarding guardianship" over Harry or some unnamed hot babes for him to fuck on or off-screen are very... shallow and unsatisfying. Either that or they give him a bunch of money, though this would at least be on brand for the Ministry. But like... yeah. I'm tired of this complaint always going in the same direction and not being a gateway to Greater Commentary On The Series and the World. Because it's not like Sirius and/or Harry become the type of people who rebel against this ideology. If anything, they embrace the pureblood nonsense in a lot of these fics and are just mad that Sirius was the target that one time. Gaaaah.
And, and. Every bit of discourse about Dumbledore leaving Harry at the Dursleys and/or the sacrificial lamb throwaway line by Snape, especially because 99.9% of people discussing it either haven't read the books, haven't read them since the first time and desperately need a re-read, have only seen the movies, are parroting opinions from some other wrong person on the internet, are all read-up but blatantly ignoring what Dumbledore and Harry say (and don't say) over what they THINK they mean, or some other lovely form of ignorance that leads to the same long-debunked takes being re-introduced as GASP-DID-YOU-EVER-CONSIDER soundbites over and over and over and OVER again. I'm so sick of it.
I get it, JKR's a TERF, you don't want to re-engage with her work, and you don't have to. You don't have to give her any more money. Hell, you shouldn't, ever again. But please, fucking make sure your knowledge is correct and not fandom telephone when it comes to Harry's childhood and Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore. I'm not-even-lowkey sick of some of y'all at this point.
7. what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because of how the fandom acts about them?
I... don't have an immediate answer for this, so I'm going to have to think about it. To you it's only going to take me one line, but for me it'll actually be like... an evening or something.
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Okay.
This is difficult because (to use the exact terminology) I can't think of a character I've come to hate because of how the fandom acts about them. I definitely have characters whose most popular fanon versions are so irritating or repulsive that it has caused me to look more critically on the real versions of them, though. I guess maybe I'll list those here.
Fleur came to mind first. She seems (and can be) very shallow and haughty in canon at first, but shows compassion and hidden depths in all three of her appearances. She has some veela hair in her wand from her grandmother, and a deep devotion for her younger sister. However... many fanfics (especially harem fanfics or flowerpot fanfics) paint her as either this femme fatale who uses her "veela allure" at will and Cannot Fathom the idea of a man who can resist her (and is thus more vulnerable to falling in love with such a man) or as a super-powerful witch whose family is basically running Magical France (since of course, she is the only French character we know, so why wouldn't she be the most influential person there? /s). Basically, the "foreign" version of what people do to fanon Daphne Greengrass. Ironically, the best fanfic portrayals of Fleur I've seen are the ones that keep her shipped with Bill (with a few flowerpot exceptions, see A Beautiful Lie by MaybeMayba as the prime example), or ship her with Hermione or Ginny... which is sad because I love me some ship variety. (And I still think Bill/Tonks would've been rad as hell.) So I don't dislike canon Fleur, but fanon's "over-attention" to that possible veela heritage and the weird implication that Harry was just "forced" not to notice this perfect woman in his life, rather than just noticing her beauty and not being interested, rubs me the wrong way and disinclines me from including her in many of my own works.
The Bones family is next. Yes, both Amelia and Susan. Susan isn't as bad (I think she has... two lines in Order of the Phoenix? maybe?), but as with most "mostly undefined" HP girls, the personality the fandom has given her (the super sweet politically-savvy Hufflepuff girlfriend of "just do independent!Harry with Lordships and pro-Ministry propaganda and plenty of Wizengamot meetings between Hogwarts classes") is one I've seen so many times it has come to negatively affect my view of the real girl, even though I think the way she calls Amelia "auntie" in canon is adorable. As for Amelia, fanon likes to make her either the Only Sane Man in the Ministry or the leader of the sane faction, who magically is able to fix or ignore all the corruption in said Ministry and can railroad through whatever decisions Harry needs done once he needs to Do Political or Pureblood Stuff Outside of Hogwarts--provided, of course, he's been nice enough to Susan recently.
The closest actual answer to this question I have is Tom Riddle. I didn't like him in canon by any means--I'd probably say I was neutral toward him, just seeing him as "the young Voldemort before he did his magical girl transformation". But fanon kind of acts like he and Voldemort are... two different people? There's these pervasive ideas that either Tom could've been "saved" if Certain People Just Did More (to stop him sneaking around and bullying and murdering???), or that Tom wasn't really so bad when he was gathering up supporters, murdering his family members and the few people who trusted him, and generally going around Becoming the Dark Lord--it was just when he made the switch that he became bad. And like... no. I can't buy that. Even in fanfic, I can't get fully behind the idea of a sane Tom Riddle who was Doing Good until he got sidetracked Oh Nooo. He wasn't. I believe Voldemort was saner before he tried to kill a baby and it backfired, but I don't think there was ever a point where he could have been saved. At every fork he made the wrong decision--to soothe his ego, to feel powerful, to feel special, to feel better than others and make them feel that way too. Tom Riddle's a prick. If anything, we should've seen him squirm a little more before he died.
The last one stings, because it's a character I adore: Hermione. Hermione is a very polarizing figure in canon and always has been, I get it. But what particularly hurts me about her fanon portrayals is that they are VERY SELDOM accurate, or even balanced. Either the author sees her as Their Wife and so she is perfect and never does any wrong and basically becomes the main character of the fic (even if she is not actually the main character), or they overinflate her flaws and use it as a reason to hate on her and bash her to oblivion. There's rarely an in-between. I'm not sure which one is worse. If you held my feet to the fire, I might say the former because a character without any flaws or one who takes over the entire narrative and doesn't let other characters breathe is not fucking interesting to me in the slightest.
This especially hurts because I am a huge Harmony fan and like 60% of bad Harmony fanfics are always the same fucking tropes/plotlines. Hermione is unironically referred to as The Brightest Witch of THE Age (incorrect, not what Remus said. he said "the brightest witch of your age I've ever met", basically meaning she's unusually smart for a fourteen year-old girl). She's treated like the next female Dumbledore who has all the answers (even about stuff she wouldn't know) and often guides Harry's every move.
And speaking of Dumbledore--the same girl who is supportive of him in canon and (after Harry) is MOST likely to recognize Dumbledore as a human who can make mistakes is ALWAYS turned into a Dumbledore Skeptic Who Has Been Suspicious of His Motives All Along, and who will do whatever it takes to get her boyfriend away from his manipulations... by taking manipulative!Dumbledore's place. That's right. This version of fanon Hermione ALWAYS becomes the same thing the author is supposedly railing against, because Harry becomes her mouthpiece, spends all his time with her to the exclusion of anyone else, and can't have a single meeting or meaningful scene with any other character unless she is also present.
Haphne fics do this too, but I swear they got it from bad Harmony fics and it makes me so mad. For once, I would love to read a Harmony fic where Dumbledore is portrayed accurately and both Harry AND Hermione are equal, independent partners who don't have panic attacks if separated for more than five minutes. Especially because as a child Hermione never struck me as the kind of person who even would get married or have a serious relationship distracting her from her Great Work!
But yeah. That last one hurts the most because I love Hermione as an individual, as the very important third of the trio, as a potential partner for Harry (though this isn't the right blog for that!), and just as an iconic character.
I... think that's all? Yep. Thanks~!
#kosondroom#thanks for the ask!#fireandgoldposts#the golden trio#ironically I try not to use that tag much but I need it here#Harry and Hermione#I'm sure you can guess which ship I was talking about. I'm sure the whole world could#genuinely begging fanon Sirius(es?) to actually start dismantling the corrupt pureblood politics instead of bending over for them#as I've said many times by now I reeeeally just want to read new and better ideas in fanfic#and my job is hella stressful I can't be out here writing all of them myself#I sound like such a ''my canon right or wrong'' person in most of these asks lol. in actuality I love ignoring Certain Large Swathes#I just find certain ascended fanon tropes/headcanons in the HP fandom in particular to be either boring or aggravating#and thus I would like them to go away once and for all or for us all to Grow Beyond Them#how many times do y'all think I've read incorrect Obscurial!Harry takes? take a wild guess. you won't be in the ballpark#actually if you are a sane fan side note do not go on Quora answers. it will piss you off every day#me as usual saying ''stop making up shit to be mad at Dumbledore about 2023 there's already enough in canon''#make HP girls more unique and complex 2k23#I'm tired of reading the same OC girl but with a canon name and a different house tie#''she said boomerly'' lmao#this is making me want to either sit down and write another time travel fic or finally sit down and write a harmony#choose violence ask game
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#my brother in fucking christ this fic idea that came to me thanks to luke's milan adventures is like.....THE most cliche and self-indulgent#fic i've even considered actually writing since i was 17#i've had IDEAS that have been more cliche and/or self-indulgent drop into my head several times#but i've never actually considered writing any of them#most of the time because my brain told me that anna no that's TOO cliche and self-indulgent#but now i'm kinda just like...so what if it's cliche and self-indulgent? like...genuinely so what?#it's not like i'm gonna try and get it published or win an award for originality#or even cater to anyone except myself now that i think about it#tbh i'm not sure if i even care all that much whether or not anyone ends up reading it?#like...if i end up finishing it and posting it and it gets 13 hits and 2 kudos and 0 comments and 0 bookmarks then i actually don't---#---think i'd care all that much?#which is an odd feeling because usually when i write a fic there's a part of me that's concerned about audience perception#and if there will be an audience at all for that matter#but this time i'm kinda just sitting here thinking that....idk that i genuinely wanna write this for myself#and not keep anyone else's likes or dislikes or overall preferences in mind#maybe i won't even post it IF i finish it. maybe i'll just keep it for myself and/or share a PDF with pals who ask for it? i don't know#i'm not sure what the point of any of this was hkgdhkgd#i've just been struggling A LOT with writing lately. but then suddenly got some inspiration right before i left for work earlier#and an idea struck and then formed and i wanna write it without any exterior factors influencing the process#like. i just wanna vibe with my overused tropes and cliche characterisations and predictable plot yk?#cos why the heck not. right? there's literally no reason whatsoever why i can't write a cringe af fic that caters to my---#---super specific personal taste#so that's what i'm gonna do🧡
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Me when I try to avoid my true nature and desires to do something practical
#god it would make so much logical sense#it would probably help me get jobs. I'd learn how to use Photoshop to be a better club leader#I'd get to make cool things and do some art#but i think. unfortunately. it's in my nature to want to do the music class isn't it? the funny little music class with no practicality#with the shitty little seats and readings i have to do and essays i have to write#god. idk maybe I'll change my mind tomorrow. i mean i damn well don't wanna write that email explaining I won't actually be switching into#2d design. but. it's probably the choice i want isn't it.#i dont want the upheaval. or the stress of another class that i feel like will matter for my future. and i dont want to say bye to my silly#little friendship. my silly little classmates.#hhhhhhhhhgggghh i tried so hard to convince myself otherwise. SO hard#hhhhhhhh#and maybe part of the reason i don't want to switch is just cause it's the hard thing. but also. i feel settled. I'm here and its good.#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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it's actually really adorable reading my notes while i was going through heavensward for the first time
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#THAT WAS NEARLY EXACTLY TWO YEARS AGO ?? march ily fr#i am. so enthusiastic here. evidently so very passionate abt ffxiv n i was enjoying myself sm it makes me smile so much#this is so funny the lil gbf notes i have here too#oh my god i was playing ffxiv n gbf actively back then that is a nightmare#oh yeah damn i empathized sm w my wol#i'm. still really grateful actually bcs ffxiv genuinely helped w making it easier for me to cry#this actually hits hard but in a way that. sort of comforts me#in the end i'm proud of myself for improving n stuff n. perhaps yeah healing from some stuff that happened a few months prior#but like. ffxiv rlly did help. i was an anxious n social wreck then n had no support system other than my family n stuff like video games n#i think writing got even harder for me for a while#but ffxiv rlly just#it helped a lot. n i'll forever be grateful for that#yeah that reminds me. drk's rlly special to me bcs it rlly reminded me of some things that helped me be kinder to myself#n now just. looking back ik i've gone a long way. n just reading this from the past makes me really proud of myself#'i don't fucking know how to phrase this' while talking abt hope n resolve is still so me#i'm rlly gna sleep it's nearly 3 n help tumblr's rlly one of my diaries or wtvr atp but#i mean. i won't write it all ofc but i'm just. no matter what i'll always have myself. n my family. esp apollo.#i'm rlly proud of myself n my. resolve is renewed damn i'm motivated but i'll sleep
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You are the stupid one here, both for missing the point of the post & overusing the big font
Big font is only for punchy main points. This medium font here is better if you want to write a lot & write it big, but really,
you should just write normal size in bold. Please, I am begging you. It WILL stand out, I promise. Even all caps if you have to. Overusing big text makes it lose impact. Emphasizing everything is emphasizing nothing. Plus, I don't know about desktop, but on mobile it's extremely hard to read a contiguous block of big text if it's more than, like, a sentence long.
Anyway, onto your wild misreading of this post,
(see? that's how you use big text. sorry, I'll stop now)
People aren't saying this in front of a judge. You will notice this is a reddit post, not a court transcript. Yes, if you said any of this shit to a judge, you will not get a fair trial & will probably immediately get the maximum sentence, in addition to being held in contempt of court. Yes, sucking the judge's dick is the only way out of this. But that doesn't mean it's not stupid.
You can disagree with something while still being forced to engage with it.
I say ACAB, but I wouldn't say that to a cop because they'd shoot me. That does not diminish my point that all cops are bastards; it just proves that they're bastards who can kill me. If anything, it strengthens my point that they would be willing to ruin or end my life over a petty insult & have thus coerced me into compliance.
OP never said they wouldn't call a judge by that cringe fantasy title. They just said it's stupid that they have to. So if it's bad to say this in front of a judge, & it's bad to say it not in front of a judge, are we supposed to just never say it? By your logic, nobody could ever complain about anything.
You are literally actually doing the "Yet you participate in society. Curious!" image right now. You are a cartoon character.
(also you make the assumption that everyone who goes to court is a criminal? which?? like, the whole point of court is that most people sent there aren't criminals & it's the court's job to determine whether or not the defendant is guilty. not to mention all the witnesses & stuff that aren't on trial but still have to interact with the judge & use that foolish title. really your whole post is just a circus of errors from top to bottom)
this is my all time favourite post I've ever seen on reddit everyone read it please
#idiot post#acab1312#acab#all cops are bastards#all judges are bastards too actually#i shouldn't've spent this much time writing my response#but the gross incompetence poor typesetting chronic lack of reading comprehension & amazing mix of both profound resignation to...#...the cruelty inherent in our ''justice'' system where 1 man can ruin your life for not addressing him like a god & a startling liberal...#...naïvety in assuming this obviously spiteful system somehow still only judges people who are deserving really set me off#it speaks to a deeply uncritical & stagnant worldview#there's also something very christian about the conception of court --not as a place of determining guilt or innocence--#but as a place where the already-guilty go to be judged to see if they are worthy of mercy or punishment#where the sinners go to prostrate before the judge & if they are polite enough they may be granted Absolution & forgiveness for their crimes#it also speaks to our growing police state that the assumption is that the police already determined guilt flawlessly#they are already assigned the duty of judge & jury#leaving the judge to serve only as the police's executioner#also another thing:#''im too pretty for jail'' does NOT mean ''im pretty & thus people wont throw me in jail''#it means ''i won't do well in prison & thus must ensure i do anything i can to save myself from it''#so... like...#literally the exact opposite thing cat in the hat here thinks it means#(at least exact opposite in this context anyway)#real clown post all around
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I often comfort myself with having built memories when things in my life come to a seeming or confirmed end... and yet come to think of it, ironic as it is for me to say, when I think of things outside of my own self-growth, I really don't think of what has come to an end anymore. My last "actual" friend group lasted about two years and I never could have imagined life without them—and yet here I am that same amount of time later plus one year more, doing just as fine as I did before I met them. Every once in a while, they will visit me in a brief flash... but generally speaking, they don't ever come up. Things which used to immediately bring them to mind have now returned back to their rightful place blending into everyday monotony. I can recall maybe one inside joke we used to have off the top of my head and that remembrance no longer comes in big belly laughs, but polite chuckles underneath my breath. And it's not that it's any less funnier. It's just that I've had so many more experiences that make me laugh so much harder.
And that those specific memories are scarce and their retrievals even fewer and their emotions having changed could not ever discount what we used to have. It just goes to show how "this, too, shall pass" need still apply to the good—and the fact the good shall pass does not make inherent bad. It makes life. And maybe... maybe we will be as fine as we were before that good came and went.
#and yet even still i just think about this photo i saw on here once#someone holding a cigarette in between their fingers and then the caption#look around you. appreciate what you have. nothing will be the same in a year.#and i wouldn't say i WASN'T doing this before. but i WILL be a lot more conscious of doing it from now on#all days will be the past and we will mourn them and i am mourning#but then i think about the memories. them themselves and then how they fit into this post#and i remember how much of an affinity i have in recreating that happiness everywhere i go#and i realize... maybe everything will be fine. and even if it won't be... maybe i will be.#just talking to myself#writing#text#my post
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