#wolfstar heartbreak

[raindragon-20]

Today I kept thinking about how tragic Wolfstar ship would be if it was canon. (and cried)

Sirius Black never knew peace.

He went from one war straight into another.

At sixteen, he ran away from home because his own family was a battleground. At twenty-one, he lost James and Lily, was framed for murder, and thrown into Azkaban. At thirty-three, he broke out, but he wasn’t free, when he finally gets out—when he finally has Harry, finally has something to live for again, he’s trapped in Grimmauld Place, the very house that broke him in the first place. His childhood prison, once again his cage. And then, just as he thought he could fight for something real again, for Harry, for Remus, for a future—

He died.

Sirius Black spent his entire life fighting. He never got to stop running. He never got to live without looking over his shoulder. He never got to heal.

And that’s the real tragedy. Because Sirius Black was meant to be free. He was meant to be wild and reckless and alive.

But all he ever knew was war.

And Remus. Oh, Remus. He spent more time grieving Sirius than actually having him. Think about that.

They were friends for seven years, together (in whatever way you believe) for even less—but Sirius was gone for twelve.

Twelve years thinking Sirius had betrayed them. Twelve years believing one of his bestfriend (the love of his life probably, come on now) had killed their best friends. Twelve years drowning in grief, guilt, anger, loneliness.

And then—just for a moment, he gets him back.

But it’s fleeting. Just a handful of years.

And then he loses him all over again.

And this time? This time, Sirius really is gone.

There’s no revenge quest, no anger to hold onto, no mystery to unravel. Just loss. Final, irreversible, gut-wrenching loss.

And not long after, Remus follows him.

[blindbisexualgoose]

That moment when you’ve stayed up until 3 am and just read the most earth shattering, heartbreaking, sob worthy chapter of a fanfic and have to wake up in a few hours and do things and carry on like your entire fucking worldview hasn’t been reshaped by a stranger’s writing about two fictional gay people

[lulublack90]

Prompt 8 - First Heartbreak

@wolfstarmicrofic January 7, word count 559

“Oh, Remus,” Lily said as she turned the corner and saw him trying to hold back his tears. She wrapped her arms around him the best she could and hugged him in a way only she and his mum could. He sniffed hard as the tears tried to escape. He screwed his eyes shut as he began to break down.

His chest shuddered as he fought back the sobs, but they broke through and then Lily was stuffing a tissue into his hand as fat, hot tears streaked his face. 

“I-I-I-I’m s-s-s-s-sorry,” He choked out between sobs.

“What’s wrong, Remus?” She asked, stroking her hand up and down his back soothingly. 

“I’m such an idiot,” He said, shaking his head.

“Remus?” 

“I fell for Sirius, and now he’s got a new girlfriend and I just couldn’t stay up there,” He gasped in breath after breath as he tried to calm himself.

“Shhhh, it’s alight, shhhh,” Lily cooed, continuing to stroke his back. 

Sirius had spent the last 2 hours singing her praises and describing in great detail exactly what Emmeline Vance had let him do with her. When he’d started talking about how soft the inside of her thighs were, Remus had excused himself and gone to his favourite hiding place, a window sill, obscured by the statue of a troll in clunky armour, on the fourth floor. 

He hated how much Sirius having a girlfriend was hurting him. He had no right really. Sirius and the others didn’t know how he felt, only Lily knew and only because he’d needed to tell someone he liked boys. 

Lily let him cry himself out before she started cleaning him up. 

“Thanks, Lily,” He sniffled as she wiped his face dry. 

“I’m always here for you Remus. Even if it's to wipe your snotty face.” Remus laughed, blinking away the last few tears.

“It’s pathetic, isn’t it? Sirius having a girlfriend shouldn’t upset me so much. It’s never going to happen between us. I need to realise that and move on.” Maybe he should take Connor Innes up on his offer to go on a date on the next Hogsmeade weekend. That would be sure to shock the rest of the Marauders.

“We all have feelings for those we shouldn’t. Buck up, you’ve just experienced your first taste of heartbreak. Welcome to the club,” Remus narrowed his puffy eyes at her. 

“Who’s broken your heart?” He asked with no idea who it could be.

“Are you ready to go back up?” Lily said, totally skirting around Remus’s question. “I can come sit with you and tell Sirius to shut up or cast a bat bogey hex on him; I’ve been practising.” Remus chuckled sadly. 

“That sounds good, but could we just have a few more minutes here,” He asked hesitantly. 

“Anything you want, sweetie,” Lily told him, wrapping her arm around his shoulders and letting Remus lean against her. 

It would probably always hurt having these feelings for Sirius, but he hoped they’d become easier to handle in the future because he didn’t think these feelings would ever go away, and he refused to lose Sirius as a friend. He sighed and stood up, bringing Lily with him.

“I’m ready,” He told her, and together they walked back up to Gryffindor Tower, Remus feeling a bit better than when he left. 

[shipspainfulships]

Remus "he was my bestfriend and that was the worst part" Lupin

[regulusmoonbeam]

tbh remus never rlly was able to properly love sirius if u think abt it

the pipline was

friends > best friends > ooo crush > The Prank. > i cant see you the same > somewhere between friends and lovers > i cant trust your family name in this war > you killed our best friends > hes a murderer, rotting in azkaban > hes escaped, i hope they get him > wait, he was innocent? > i lost ten years, but i can try to love you now. > we are soliders (pt 2, electric boogaloo) > you died. and i didnt get to love you as i should have.

[cassiopoet]

The Fear

“I am afraid I will love you forever

and we will never be in the same room again.”

- The Fear, Clementine von Radics

illustrated by me

4/6/24

[spellbound-darling]

[bound-in-chaos]

heroes by bowie is so wolfstar coded

[cressthebest]

Art Heist, Baby! thoughts pt. 6

chapter 16:

1. awwww jegulus lay in bed and read and hold hands. they’re in love your honor

2. james is making plans for them after the heist nooooooo it’s gonna end in tears

3. like i said way back in my third ahb thoughts post, james has a praise kink. someone please agree with me. tell me i’m not crazy.

4. pleaseeeeeeeee wolfstar needs to stop being starcrossed lovers. they need to be together and happy

5. this chapter was so domestic i’m gonna cry

6. halfway done with the fic!!!

chapter 17:

1. ….im scared. what’s regulus gonna do?

2. HES VISITING SIRIUS AGAIN?????

3. BLACK BROTHERS REUNITE PLEASE

4. i fucking hate orion. broke reggie’s fingers just to save his brothers fucking life. man, fuck him.

5. SHIT WAIT FUCK SHIT REGULUS HAS BLACKMAIL ON SIRIUS ABOUT REMUS. HE’LL PROBABLY KILL REMUS IS SIRIUS DOESNT AGREE HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT WAIT WOLFSTAR NOOOOO

6. NO FUCK WAIT REMUS LUPINS LIFE IS ON THE LINE FOR SURE NO WAIT NO WAIT NO WAIT NOOOOOO IM SO STRESSED JESUS CHRIST

7. holy shit wait. the plan was always to kill remus lupin if sirius didn’t comply. which is why regulus was so upset that james was close with remus. holy shit. i have too many thoughts about this and i can’t formulate them on this post properly. just know that i am ACTUALLY crying right now, very scared and very upset, actually sobbing.

8. BUT WAIT AS UPSETTING AS THIS IS!!! WOLFSTAR IS REUNITED ONCE MORE!!! AND!!! JAMES AND SIRIUS GET TO BE FRIENDS!! THE MARAUDERS ARE BACK TOGETHER BABEY

chapter 18:

1. the house is full of childhood memories for reg and siri and hold up. hold up. this is heartbreaking

2. i’m so worried for remus holy shit. this is gonna create tears and trust issues in the house

3. barty wouldn’t even hesitate to shoot sirius for reggie. he’s so dedicated. i love him

4. damn, it’s heartbreaking to see reg’s pov about how remus gets both the people reggie wants. sirius and james. that shit hurts y’all

5. this entire chapter is heartbreaking, i’m just gonna leave it at that so i don’t sob while writing this

6. everyone meeting sirius <3333333

7. regulus fixed a cup of tea for james and jt went cold, because for once james didn’t join him. this is my breaking point.

[sunseekerlove]

okay i started writing the heartbreak high au but i can’t decide on any titles. i have like two ideas so far but i’m not sure and i need input or like give me some of your own ideas pls!!

current ideas;

• ink trails

• spray painted connections

[straightforpotter]

Snakes and Lions

Has anyone read snakes and lions? Does the violence and atuff get more explicit when the war happens cause at the moment everything is off page and I’m not loving it, I need the heartbreak and pain!! I’m 52 chapters in and the wolfstar slow burn is killing me! They were so close and then the prank and omg also Jegulus breaking up like what?! Why?! I’m going a little stir crazy, and we aren’t even up the war yet like omg! But someone please tell me if it gets more explicit cause I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle reading the war chapters if it’s all off page

[lulublack90]

Prompt 15 - Snow

@wolfstarmicrofic December 15, word count 590

Finally, the day Sirius had been waiting all year for had arrived. The first snowfall. The entire view from the window was a blanket of white, with fat flakes falling thickly. He raced to the fireplace and threw a handful of floo powder into the fire and bellowed into the emerald flames. 

“JAMES, IT’S SNOWING!!!! BRING HARRY!!!!” And he pulled his head back before rushing over to the coat cupboard and pulling out the beautiful miniature sleigh he’d bought especially for this moment. 

Remus came out of their bedroom, yawning loudly. 

“What’s going on?” He asked before he noticed the sleigh in Sirius’s arms. He looked at the window as understanding came to his eyes. “First snow, is James bringing Harry?”

“I just called him on the floo,” Remus yawned again, and went back into their bedroom. 

“Please, will you make me a coffee,” Remus called through. Sirius set the sleigh down beside the bay window, so Harry would see it the second James brought him and hurried into the kitchen to get breakfast started. 

James and Harry arrived just as Sirius and Remus were finishing up breakfast. Sirius jumped up and raced through to the living room. 

“Wow!” Harry's excited little voice cried out. “Thank you, Uncle Moony!” 

Sirius skidded to a halt with his mouth agape. How could his precious godson think that Moony could have got such a good present for him?

He snapped out of it when Remus kissed his cheek and Harry started dragging the red sleigh towards the front door. 

“Hang on, Harry, and I’ll help you,” Sirius called and rushed over to pick both of them up and run out into the fresh snow. 

He put them both down and dug around the footwell of the sleigh, pulling out a leather harness. He laid it out in the snow and, after helping Harry into the sleigh, transformed into Padfoot. He needed James’s help to get into the harness, but soon, he was dragging Harry around the garden, the snow crunching under his paws and the sleigh skis and the bells on his harness tinkling as he trotted around. 

They rode around until Remus called them in for lunch. The garden was covered in crisscrossing lines and paw prints. Padfoot shook out his coat before transforming back into Sirius and going inside the warm cottage. 

“You know Harry knows it was from you, right? He just loves pulling your tail,” James said as he stuffed the struggling toddler into the highchair Sirius kept there for him. 

“Yeah, I know,” Sirius said more confidently than he felt. Remus came up behind him and wrapped his arms around him. 

“You looked so sweet out there. I got some photos for the album,” Remus murmured into his ear as he kissed soft kisses onto his cheek. 

“You did?!” Sirius said excitedly, spinning in Remus’s arms as he beamed up at his boyfriend. 

“Of course I did. Lily would kill me if I didn’t.” 

They spent the rest of the afternoon taking it in turns dragging Harry around the garden, building snowmen, and making snow angels. By the time it began to get dark, they were all exhausted, apart from Harry, who, after a power nap, was running circles around them again. They all felt relieved when Lily appeared in the living room, and Harry jumped into her arms, telling her about his day at a thousand miles an hour. Sirius loved having Harry over but was glad it was just him and Remus once he was gone. 

[good-oldfashioned-lover]

Sirius 'Miss Americana' Black & Remus 'The Heartbreak Prince' Lupin

[enbysiriusblack]

have some benvolio/mercutio being wolfstar variants: (and some james as romeo)

[thelifeofacactus]

Re-reading crimson rivers just to feel something

[maladaptivewriting]

it’s so funny to me that the golden king is, at its core, an exes to lovers fic because i have never liked a single exes to lovers fic ever in my life. it’s my least favorite trope.