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callmerhynner · 1 year ago

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A hopeless romance,

(I just kinda wish you were gay, by: Billie Eilish)

synopsis: A story of a getaway driver falling head over heels for the aromantic arsonist. Unrequited and bitter.

tags: song oneshot, angst, poorly written, confession fail, unrequited love, runaway criminals, oc x oc, delusional love, reality slap, best friends to enemies, mentions of smoking, disney-esque realization, delulu, angst x2

author’s note: might make a part 2 idk. my pen tip broke and i cant draw on my tab😭😭

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🎶 “Baby, I don’t feels so good” six words you never understood 🎶

“Spark, i don’t feel so good…” Swift confesses, the two were laying on the car’s hood and resting their eyes under the stars. Spark, his best friend and unrequited lover, gives him a glance before going back to resting them.

“We have a job in 10 hours, don’t get sick.” The ravenette bluntly puts. Swift sighs and nods along, this has been how he’s treated him their entire friendship but it’s been hurting him so much these past few years. It’s been bothering him more and more each day.

Memories flood his heterochromic eyes, remembering all the many times the stoic arsonist has left him to deal with all those hurtful experiences all on his own.

🎶 "I'll never let you go", five words you'll never say (aww) 🎶

The man dawning a low ponytail has never showed appreciation for the driver, who would openly take a bullet if it meant to protect him. He showed no interest, and no desire to try and connect each other like they did during their childhood years. There was one thing he would do to satiate each others ‘connection’.

Sex, no strings attached, they would roam each others bodies. Maybe it was to empty out their pent up aggression, their fields don’t show much time or value in meeting other people they could have a sexual relationship with, after all. But, Swift being the hopeless romantic that he was, daydreamed about the alternate universe of them having such a bond to reciprocate his upheld feelings.

🎶 I laugh along like nothing's wrong, four days has never felt so long 🎶

He knew it wasn’t true, it was never going to happen. Spark has never shown interest in romantic connections or relationships, in general. All he could do was respect it, not wanting to invalidate his own feelings, and laugh along to each and every thing he’d been through.

Swift beat himself up over his stupid hearty emotions. He knew that Spark was never going to reciprocate anything, but he still had the ability to continuously fall deeper and deeper inlove with him. Stupidity, at its finest.

He’s been with him so much that every thing he does has become almost routine. It’s been quiet a thrilling ride because of their dangerous occupation but soon, when the open hours close, it’s nothing but comfortable silence. Nothing new and nothing strange..

🎶 If three's a crowd and two was us, one slipped away (hahahahaha)🎶

Spark only had one ambition, to rebuild an agenda of a system he wants to uphold. He’ll burn down continents to have himself be a ghosting haunt for people of power. To be able to control someone powerful’s actions and life, he wants that.

Swift was never part of that ambition. He was his only considered friend, but that’s only because he was the only one willing enough, stupid enough, and impulsive enough, to run away with him. To be his partner in crime.

To be a victim of his crimes. Even from childhood.

🎶 I just wanna make you feel okay🎶

Swift looked up, eyes distant and staring at the shiny stars you could only see in an urban landscape, he reminisces of something. A promise that Swift can’t help but be loyal to.

If they were to be caught, Swift, the victim and the getaway driver, he will take all the blame. Spark will run a free man, without consequence. He will do anything for that man he calls his best friend, anything.

A terrible decision that he can’t remember making. But chooses to follow. Chooses to be a punching bag for his so-called love.

He was a pawn to him, and he allowed it.

A stupid decision, but one he doesn’t regret.

🎶 But all you do is look the other way🎶

Anything he’d do to gain his interest would fail or end in pointless shambles. He was basically a pet to the arsonist. He’d be either treated or punished if he was to do something that caught his attention.

He’d either be given a sexual favor or some sort affectionate gesture, or manipulated to become his puppet until he says he’s learned his lesson. Those punishments..it would never be pretty. Never was it brought up, the most fucked up things he could get to get away with, he’s made the driver do it to try and get his approval.

It never mattered to Spark what he gave Swift as a reward nor punishment. All he was wanted was a comrade to leverage him to his goal and if a fuck-buddy was what Spark thought was what the driver wanted, he was willing. It wasn’t like it was important or anything.

🎶 I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay🎶

Swift can’t keep up. It was thrilling, trying to chase after him, until he realized that he was chasing nothing. It wasn’t a matter of time or effort, Spark was a brick wall.

All he’d do is kill himself if he tries chasing after him. All those heartbreaks, those broken promises, and all those cracked memories. It was impossible, but he chose to try and reach him from the top. To try and climb up to him, not realizing he was inside the wall, barricaded.

Foolish, utterly stupid.

🎶 I just kinda wish you were gay🎶

Swift feels the car hood bump down and back up, Spark had walked off to god knows where. The hopeless pawn forced himself to try and not stare over at him waking off into the deeper parts of the forest, probably to go grab a fruit to bite on.

“I really need to quit…” he sits up, biting a cigarette and lighting it. If it wasn’t the romantic torment killing him, it was his lungs absolutely turning black from his smoking habits. “Fuck. That.” He replies to himself, huffing out smoke, eyes closed and eyebrows furrowed.

🎶 Is there a reason we're not through?🎶

The nicotine must be slowly drudging him because tunnel visions started and Swift was starting to see things in the smoke like a Disney Movie prediction. He saw two things, from the right was two children with similar builds from the two men’s kid bodies. They were running around, being playful and being boys.

The children were roughhousing, wrestling inside what looked like a living room, until the child that resembled Swift pushed Spark’s child body into the floor, hard. Spark was whimpering with his body shaking, he was in pain; and not even a second after, Swift ran up to carry him out of the living room, worried and running for his life outside of the smoke’s clouds.

And then there’s the left, another smoke cloud resembling Swift, this time in his young-teenager body. The teen was in a loud party, whilst just leaning himself on a wall with a cigarette next to an open window. The cloud-Swift was bored until Spark’s cloud popped out of the window to lure him out. Swift followed, body language looking more excited.

He hopped off the car and his eyes widen and take the cigarette out of his mouth and fan out the cloud images. “STOP IT!” He yelled, irritated at the emotional torture he’s stuck having to handle. “I can’t.” He huffs, sitting on the lightly wet grass, defeated. “Not this. Not now. Not again.”

🎶Is there a 12-step just for you?🎶

“That man is shit. And you know it.” He huffs. “Get him out, he’ll just…” he slams the back of his head on the nearest part of the car he could reach, “he’ll use you, Swift. You know that.”

“But what if he can change?” Here comes the internal battle.

“He won’t. He never has, and seems like he never will.”

“What if I just do what he wants. He’s always liked that.”

“Each and every time, you do that. Even that isn’t enough to please the fucker.”

“Time can change a man. That’s inevitable.”

“I never even got a thank you after throwing my life away to be his damn getaway driver.”

“HES THANKED ME ENOUGH! He’s..cared, he’s given me rewards”

“And punishments?! HES TREATING ME LIKE A PET!”

“He only gave us what I asked for! I wanted thrill, and a life of action, he gave that to me!”

“And uses me for everything?! Is he a princess??”

“He has priorities!”

“IM NOT ANY OF HIS!” Swift punches a dent into his car’s front as he huffed and panted after yelling his closing statement. He was so deep into his argument that he didn’t even notice that he was pulling on his hair, so much so that he had some of his grey locks in his hands already.

🎶Our conversation's all in blue

11 "heys" (Hey, hey, hey, hey)🎶

“Hey, crazy. Don’t wreck the car. Dipshit.” Swift looked up at the voice, it was his crush walking up to him with a glare to kill a man. He walked up to his form, eying him up and down before grabbing the drivers wrist and pushing it off the car.

“Hey…Spark.” The driver rubbed his hand and wrist, the punch and the arsonist’s rough push sure made the pain start to feel. “How much of that did you..umm..hear.?” Embarrassment rushing in, watching Spark’s cold eyes check on the car’s conditions.

“Shut it.” Be replied back, with his usual blunt and sharp voice. “I have good ears, Swift. If you have something to finally confess, say it now or I’ll kill you before you can.”

Swift cleared his throat before standing up, his hands fiddling inside this hoodie pockets. He looked back down, minds starting to fight again. The need to finally say his heart out to him and the want to keep it all

down, the fear of ruining what they have eating him up inside.

“I’m waiting.” Spark says, sitting on the car hood, giving him his undivided attention. The blushing man scratched his neck in thought, looking down and praying for some sort of sign to confess the obvious or act dumb and suck it all up. “Swift.”

🎶Ten fingers tearin' out my hair🎶

His left hand, subconsciously, went up to start grabbing at his hair. His right went off to follow, the voice or reason and the words of his heart were fighting for their life by this point. Spark watched all of this with his usual resting bitch face, waiting patiently for the man to get his mind in order.

“Swift.” He tried to get attention, but the man continued pulling on his hair. His gray hair starting to get pulled and that’s when the arsonist slapped the man in the face, as softly as he could without injuring him. “Stop.”

🎶Nine times, you never made it there🎶

“Just spit it out, or I’m leaving.” Now he was handed an ultimatum. “10 seconds. Make up your mind because I’m not acknowledging this ever again.”

“That’s not fair!” Swift tried to argue, looking at the calm man with wide eyes. “Atleast give me a day!” He just sat there with his eyes glaring in response.

“9 seconds.” The years of practicing to confess had now suddenly become deceased. He couldn’t even remember his name, it was so nerve wracking.

“8 seconds.” Swift just stood there, defeated. His mind was racing, trying to find some sort of way to finally decide. This stress was making him get a headache, by this point it was basically impossible to think things through without going rampant.

🎶I ate alone at seven, you were six minutes away🎶

“I..can’t.” Swift muttered, looking down in shadowing defeat, one could argue it was only a display to try and gain some sympathy. Too bad Spark is a sociopathic mastermind. As a man whose known him all his life, this was a common fact; he wasn’t trying to gain sympathy, he is now an emotional mess beyond the brink of help.

“7 seconds.” No mercy.

“You know that..” the driver continues to look down, wanting to cry but body so tortured it was almost impossible. Under the circumstance, he was as close to ‘loyal until death’ as he could get.

“6 seconds.”

🎶How am I supposed to make you feel okay🎶

Tears threaten to break through the driver’s heterochromic eyes, he was never good with pressure. He was the one who knew what to do with a plan, the strategist to his crush’s suicide missions. Wanting to just fade away, Swift takes a step back to breathe as much as he could as the pressure was choking him dead.

The eyes of this man was swirling in terror.

He had tried to accept that he was never gonna be given a chance with the man he finds so hard to let go of, all to go in vain. Love was a topic he hated to mention; it was never a problem he wanted. Unfortunately, there wasn’t a way out that could save his sick mind to swim away from his unrequited desire.

“5 seconds.” the man in the turtleneck states, glaring dagger into his skull.

🎶When all you do is walk the other way?🎶

“I LOVE YOU, OKAY?!” he finally yells out, the pressure on his throat now being shoved down his throat like a pack of razors. This hurt him a lot more that it’s should’ve, more than it normally should. More than the two could possibly wonder.

The two remained quiet, the pain spreading around the driver’s chest at the final display of loyalty. Meanwhile, the other was having a hard time trying to figure out how this could give him the upper hand in his twisted mind. Their dynamic was something reminiscent to one of a predator and its prey, one was vulnerable and the other was hungry for it.

And so, with that, the predator feigned surprise and soon forced out a hearty laugh. Feeling humiliated, the driver fists up their hands until his small nails could make rivers of red drip down his palm. He could remember his laugh as it just reminded him of what a devil incarnate his heart just had to belong to. Exactly three seconds of laughing, the arsonist-for-hire finally ceases, laughter dying out for him to finally reply to his forced confession.

“I don’t need that.”

🎶I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay🎶

The world around him just shattered, he knew it was coming but that small spirited heart of his was still hoping for an unanswered miracle. There was small flick of light in his head, trying to delude him into thinking that what they’d been doing for all these years—running away together, trusting only each-other—was more than being wanted criminals. He wished to ever god and deity that he didn’t agree to an unchangeable life of crime for nothing, that, at the least, the moments of life or death he’s shared with wasn’t with a stranger. That his childhood friend was still there.

But no, the man in front of him wasn’t his childhood friend. The man facing him was a stranger, he knew nothing about this man. He looked like his dearest best friend, but he wasn’t. He was his shell.

He’s been seeing everything through to gain that friend’s love back, for all these years of running away from cops and bounty hunters. But he can’t.

🎶I just kinda wish you were gay🎶

He can’t gain the love of his best friend, he wasn’t there.

“Oh…” he says, eyes darkening and face showing a neutral expression. A still sound of crickets chirping surrounded them, one eyeing the other down with mused judgement; the other, hearing his crush heart wilt away.

“What? Did you expect me to swoon over you?” the man responsible for breaking the other’s heart says, tilting his head with crossed arms. “You’ve done nothing but burden me.”

“That’s not true.” the man clenched his hand into a fist, breathing out through his nose.

“You talk all that after you punched a dent into your own car. Those big emotions always get the better of everything.” As Swift looked at the car, eyes straining slightly at how strong he was gritting his teeth. Unbeknownst to him, a sadistic glint sparked in the others eyes as he watch his anger rise through.

“That’s isn’t true.” another gruff mutter.

“I can’t name one time you’ve done something that’s ever helped me. You can’t prove it, you dont even show it—“ Swift could hear the evil smile on his voice. That was it—all these feeling were pouring hard, feeling his chest squeeze and making him swallow every shard of his broken heart until his throat was cut open. It was too much.

“Are yoU THAT STUPID?! My parents are getting mixed into your horseshit because of you dragging me into this.!” he finally manages to yell out his feelings, gritting his teeth and clenching his fist until his knuckles turned white. The other was stunned, this was the very first time he’s ever had the guts to yell at him. He’s put him in various torturous situations and Swift has held in every scream he tried to squeeze out of him, to be honest, it drove the sadomasochist up the wall of how much he could take without screaming or crying.

“You agreed to this, i didn’t drag you in. Don’t blame it on me because i don’t want to hold your hand like toddler.” The stunned man finally unfroze, glaring holes into the driver’s eyes with his resting bitch face.

“Are you serious?! You told me you got caught doing some stupid shit and needed to run—running away without knowing anything fucking else! You expected me to let you go alone?!” He replied with a tone of which was telling of how obvious the reason was. Over the bridges of dead bodies and burnt buildings of their crimes, this reason was always what stuck to him all throughout. Him not knowing this simple answer angered Swift even more, more than he expected.

“Maybe I did! Who gives a fuck?!” was all the other could give, looking away—trying to hide how threatened he was starting to feel—those blue and green eyes staring inti his soul.

“I give a fuck! I gave a fuck all these fucking goddamn years, but you?! You’re doing those because you’re a goddamn masochist!” The man slammed a hand onto his own chest, before pointing, accusatorially, at the arsonist. “And when things go south, you come crawling back for me to pick all of your goddamn shit up!”

🎶To spare my pride🎶

Denying everything felt right, seeing the stranger’s face contort and frown at his words were like food medals awarding him for all the shit he’s had to go through because of his masochistic suicide missions.

“Why?! Are you that FUCKING desperate?!!” Feeling a small desperation to be right, the man yells out and slaps the pointing finger.

“IT WAS BECAUSE YOU WERE MY FRIEND! THATS WHAT FRIENDS FUCKING DO!!” was the response he got, a small silence bit at each other’s backs, The driver was breathing do heavily that his shoulder were going up and down rapidly. He’s held that in the moment he took a step out of that window, the first time he helped him run away from the people hunting him-both of them, down. The air was still, the tension was high and the ship their friendship resided on had long since drowned in the sea of life.

They were never friends, the realization hit the man with heterochromic eyes, the light in them fading at the sight of the pathetic husk of a man facing him.

“Everything…” a whisper escapes his lips, heart pacing and chest heaving. Had he been this delusional this entire time?

How could he let it get this bad?

🎶To give your lack of interest, an explanation🎶

“Everything I’ve done, all of it…it was for nothing.” Swift says with the look of enfacement decorating his features. Those bright eyes that lit up when he was praised by the man, that bright contagious smile he wore all the time to show his friendly nature, all gone. Down the drain as fast as they were always put on.

“Swift…look-“ The stranger tries to rebut, no. That thing didn’t deserve to speak any more than he already has.

“Hans Quinton Maeri, or whatever you call yourself, i quit.” He pushes him away, taking steps back, fists clenches as his jaw was pushing at each other.

“You can’t quit. You can’t—after everything you’ve done, they’d kill you on sight. You don’t expect them to welcome you with open arms arfter all the blood on your hands, right?” The exasperated emotion was evident by the sense of his tone, a hand tries to place onto his shoulder—his tell when he was going to persuade him into something—but he jerks his body away.

“I mean that I quit. I quit everything. You, this, life—everything.” Swift’s hands waved around him and pointing at everywhere, he wanted to leave everything away to burn, so the thing in front of him has to deal with all it’s consequences. “Nothing has treated me right after the damage you put my life through,

🎶Don't say I'm not your type🎶

“What’s that supposed to mean?” The stranger asks, furrowed brows and a visible burn of judgement in his corneas.

“You know what it means.” he huffs, turning his head to face straight forward and walking off to get into the car.

“You’re not seriously thinking that killing yourself is gonna solve all the shit you’ve been hunted down for, right?!” It grabs at his jacket sleeve, making him stop at his step. Swift pulls his arm back, making a disgusted face at his touch. “You can’t be serious!”

“If i have to die so you can finally be put into a goddamn cell. So you can go crazy with the same thoughts you keep spewing out to me.” An uncharacteristic monotone voice says aloud to him, the soul he had just a moment ago had died the moment he was both rejected and slapped away from his delusion.

“If those bounty hunters cant kill you, they’ll hit the next best thing.” The stranger says, each word coaxing a smirk out of it’s own hideous face.

“You? perfect, exactly what i was aiming for.” Swift responds, taking a step to side when the stranger started laughing maniacally. What was he laughing about? Did it not hear him?

🎶Just say that I'm not your preferred sexual orientation🎶

“What the fuck are you on?!” He yells out, the urge to punch the thing was so tempting, almost stupidly tempting. But he won’t, he never will, be as petty as it was.

“This is so pathetic! Do you seriously not know?!” The thing continues to laugh, arms crossed at it’s stomach. With how much it was laughing, whatever he had to say was something he found very funny.

“Know what?! That you ate some poisonous shit while i was out here moping? You made that fucking obvious.” He retorted, it was really starting to get to his nerves.

“Let me ask you this, clearly. Who do you think are the next best things from killing the most wanted getaway driver?” It asks, tone mocking him. He wasn’t in on something very important, and the thing wasn’t going to be budging anytime soon.

“Just spit it out, if it isn’t you then i’m beat.” He gives in, just wanting to head inside the car and leave the pyromaniac to die alone in an electric chair.

🎶I'm so selfish🎶

“Your parents.”

🎶But you make me feel helpless, yeah🎶

🎶And I can't stand another day🎶

🎶Stand another day🎶

🎶I just wanna make you feel okay🎶

🎶But all you do is look the other way, hmm🎶

🎶I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay🎶

🎶I just kinda wish you were gay~ 3x🎶

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vampibrainrot · 3 years ago

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Do you know what would be cool? Seeing Roy and Jade having more a platonic relationship while raising Lian.

Romance didn't work for them for a lot of reasons and both ended up getting hurt. But a platonic relationship could work? It's more than a friendship, but also ain't romantic. Not in a "let's give up everything, live together and f*ck the world", more as they had before n52 when Jade would come once in a while to see Lian, but in this case, Jade and Roy would have this very strong connection and they care and love each other, but not in that way. So when Jade comes to see them, they would hang out and tease each other about their (not so much) romantic lives or just talk about their time together without any resentment and laugh at things like Roy being the cheesy hopeless romantic type

#It's a lot like what they had during the JLA (2006) run #but with more insights and showing more pf them being good parents to Lian #without they being in a romantic relationship since this didn't worked for them #don't ask why i just love this idea #maybe because they would have a more health relationship #and because fits my aromantic Roy agenda #dc comics #roy harper #jade nguyen #dc #comics

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chattegeorgiana · 4 years ago

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It's 2021 & tbh I'm happy to see you still serving the truth. So many ppl hate Sakura it's rlly sad. I see hate for her from NH & SNS mostly about her "forcing" her feelings on others like she herself didnt realize that & was stuck trying the alleviate that be growing stronger as her main plot point. Her loss of development is 99% SP NH agenda. & honestly I still wish Sasuke got w/ NO ONE, not even Naruto. He wasnt good to anyone, even if he respected them. [1]

& in general I hate the idea that Sasuke HAD to end up w/ someone romantically to try find happiness & that person should have been Naruto/Sakura/etc. bc he COULD had a happy, content, redemption arc w/o a romantic partner. Not everything great in this world is driven by romantic companionship & Sasuke is honestly not cut out for it. I wish he had platonic healing & mending arcs, not this focus on finding the "right one" to bed with.

I will go down in my grave wishing Sasuke could be aromantic/asexual representation in a positive redemption arc of him making amends & fixing bonds w/o needing the "oh so powerful & miraculous" powers of romantic fixation.

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Well my parents taught me that a lie has short legs and it won’t last for long. And all you do is deceive yourself with lying so I took that lesson to the very heart through my upbringing and tried to stay as real as I can be.

I’m the type of person who prefers a hard truth over a sweet lie any day. I have ruined relationships with people because of this way of being. Because I met people in my life that preferred to be sweet talked than told the cold truth.

I am not like that, so yeah.

Now, as for the Sakura hate... well, idk but I’ve also noticed a change in fandom support. Yes, she is still hated but the support for her grew over the years. I’m telling you, it’s one of the things I noticed from the very beginning as I came back to the fandom.

But as I said in a thread on Twitter of mine, while I loved seeing that support, there are two factors that sadden me.

1. The love is directed at Sakura Uchiha, not Sakura Haruno and

2. The fandom as a whole has become a lot similar to the other side of the fandom that used to bully us Sakura fans back in the day.

Of course, I am talking general aspects, I am sure that there are some particularities here and there. But sadly that's the truth. Which made me think about the following things. Are people really liking Sakura Haruno or Sakura Uchiha?

Because it makes me wonder... where was this love back when Sakura was getting her heroine status ripped? Where was it? Are you loving Sakura now just because she's married into the Uchiha clan? Because if so, that's just sad. And shallow. Like ppl used to call her.

And I know it might ruffle some jimmies, but it's the truth. It's an honest and pure observation, after being gone from the fandom for so long. Don't get me wrong, I love that she's loved and supported now, but I can't help but feel that she is because of the wrong reasons.

As for Sasuke, the problem is that the show rewards him with something that Naruto worked for.

We’re never really shown how he is sorry about all the misery he put everyone through.

People say that ohhh, he was a victim. But wait. So was Naruto. He didn’t turn into that?

Not saying that what he did didn’t have an impact on him, but at the end of the day it boils down to CHOICE. Which Sasuke’s plot even is about. He CHOSE to go to Orochimaru. He CHOSE to kill Itachi. He CHOSE to destroy Konoha. HE CHOSE TO WANT TO KILL THE GOKAGE at the end!

And problem is that the plot doesn’t hold him accountable for that. And I will never shut up about how in other media authors don’t excuse the antagonist for his actions.

See FMA’s Scar. It’s the EXACT same thing. He had his clan murdered. Same thing. Genocide.

But do you see FMA’s plot excusing him for his actions like Naruto does? No, it doesn’t.

And I think that’s the core problem.

Like I always said: I have a love-hate relationship with Sasuke. I love the fact that he challenges the status quo, but I hate how he goes about it and how the story gives him a free pass.

Because it all feels hollow. Not to mention is a dangerous morale to leave behind. Especially to the newer generation of young adults who are shaping their character.

It’s sends a message that if you suffered, you get a free pass to do whatever shit you want cuz at the end of the day you get a free pass without having to work hard to get your atonement.

That’s why I love the fight in Jujutsu Kaisen between Panda and Mechamaru. Mechamaru tries to victimize himself and find excuses for his actions, but Panda tells it like it is.

Just because you have suffered, it doesn’t give you the right to be an ass, basically.

As for Sakura and her development, yeah. Everyone acts like an ostrich and hide their heads in the ground pretending that it wasn’t because of SP’s favoritism and mischaracterization that Sakura wasn’t hated.

Well it was that exact same thing that made people hate her. Like I know at some point back in the day, SP had to excuse themselves that noo, they don’t hate Sakura.

Yeah right... Cuz that’s why they made an omake where she was jealous of Hinata and how Hinata was stealing the heroine status from her.

They were slowly inoculating this idea into the fandom’s perception.

And I remember how I used to tell people about it back in the day. SSers as well.

Guys Sakura is gonna be sidelined because of this. She isn’t gonna be the heroine anymore. But did someone listen? Noo, they didn’t.

Because all they saw was the fact that I was a NaruSaku fan and to hell with me. Out of the fear of NaruSaku might potentially win, they preferred to just shut up.

And then guess what? TL came and they called Hinata the heroine of Naruto’s story.

And I was like lol, I goddamn told you so. But for you it was more important for NaruSaku to lose than Sakura keeping her status, right?

As for who Sasuke should’ve ended-up with? Well that is hard to tell. Ofc, personally due to my preference for symbolism and seeing the power balance, it would’ve been nice to see him paired-up with Karin.

Cuz I feel Karin had what it took to shake him up, cuz she didn’t take his BS. But that’s just me and I would’ve totally been okay with an arc like you proposed.

However, yeah, I don’t see him with Sakura at all , I’m sorry. As much as I would’ve liked to.

Hell, I should’ve been happy as a former SS. Yet I wasn’t.

But I guess this boils down to each person’s principles. And I know where mine lie. :)

#how do i even tag this?#it's so complicated #anti-sasuke uchiha #though it's not quite anti #it just is...#cuz this is a more complex thing

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lexintothenex · 4 years ago

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OH OH dude id love to hear your thoughts about the romance angle!! its really fun reading your stuff cause how articulate it is and also i just really like hearing about finn :]

AHH THANK YOU SYBIL CABINETCRINGE!!!

this got longer than i thought it would because well. Heh. I Simply Have A Head Full Of Many Thoughts! but! tl;dr is i think finn should be aromantic king and him and huntress are better off as friends

i wanna preface this by saying that i think finntress is super cute! my personal interpretation of this pairing would be that they have a much more “open” no-label relationship, they don’t really care too much for putting words on how they feel for eachother... but!!!! i am also here to spread my aromantic finn agenda SO HERE IS MY OPINION (NOT objective facts i am simply just spitballing here)

i think finn is better off not being in a relationship! lots of people want to see huntress in together again and want confirmation that they’re still together, but i think for finn he’d just live his best life not being in any particular commited romantic relationship. i think that finn (and by extension, also jake with how he seems to... for lack of a better word tend to “ship” (lol) finn with the girls he hangs around) overvalues romantic relationships. it seems like such a huge portion of the show revolves around finn’s love life, but i think after being through quite a few of those romances he’d be pretty content with having no partner!! it just seems like it would fit him so well - he’s kind of a free spirit (ESPECIALLY seems like that from the short moment we see him appear in obsidian - seems like the type of guy who just enjoys life and takes everything as it comes) and he doesn’t need a romantic partner to feel fulfilled in life!!

as i’ve already mentioned we’ve had a Lot of glimpses into finn’s love life throughout the show and i think in a way it would be perfect for him to just. not end up with anyone. because it seems like it’s not a very commonly explored theme in media that you can absolutely be content in life without dating anyone, especially when you’ve already had romantic relationships in the past. i think it would be a super good message to say “hey, it’s alright if you’ve tried out this whole romance thing and it just wasn’t for you! that’s cool and okay!”

TO GET INTO some more specific exact moments... we’ve got the episode flute spell, which i think is SUPER neat and i like it a lot - but as you’ve probably guessed from the tags on my previous reblog, i’m not a huge fan of the romance angle! mainly because it seems like they’re really driving into that point at the start that finn isn’t into huntress and this is a purely platonic thing that he just wants to help her with. like, the way they wrote that is REALLY convincing and i would have 100% believed finn was telling the truth if i didn’t know about her character beforehand lol. it just seemed like a bit of an odd choice writing-wise to go from that and then suddenly finn acting overly clingy and awkward around her?

not only does it seem out of place but it also just seems weirdly out of character? chronologically speaking, this episode takes place in season 7, which is a little over a year after his breakup with phoebe. a year after the whole breezy incident. he’s Changed and his perspective on relationships has Changed!! he’s become a better person when it comes to that sort of thing and has mostly grown out of the way he acted with phoebe by that point (he apologizes to phoebe about his behaviour in season 8, soon after). i just didn’t think it was neccessary to push finn into a relationship again i think he would have been fine just chilling and being besties with huntress wizard!!

ANYWAY SO BASICALLY WHAT I’M TRYING TO SAY IS

#i ate a really good sandwich while writing this. that has absolutely nothing to do with it but i just really wanted to share that #asks #cabinetcringe

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forthebetterevil · 6 years ago

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the fattest personal ramble i’ll ever post on this hellsite coz i need to get it out of my system

about heart flutters and confusion from an asexual who has yet to figure out (or is very close to figuring out through this ramble?) her romantic orientation

okay so let me get this out of the way: i’m asexual. specifically autochorrisexual. shipping brings me joy and those nasty (but not TOO nasty...) E-rated fics are what i’m down for, but i balk at the thought of my own self being involved in any sex-related activity. i have never wanted to engage in sexual acts with anyone in my life, and i swear i have TRIED to think about it, daydream about it, to “test” if my mind can really fathom the act of sex upon my own body.... i can’t. my mind literally snuffs out the mental image of sex when i am the subject, as if it isn’t possible, and especially since i don’t desire it. (i’m pretty okay with imagining 2 OTHER people getting down on each other tho.) i’m asexual so i don’t actually know what sexual attraction is, but i did try to search a bit on what that feeling is, and i’m not gonna lie, i can’t relate a single bit fam, which further helps me solidify my asexual identity.

that solidification didn’t come easy. i had to go through countless rounds of considerations, to try to pick apart the str8 agenda that society and mass media have been feeding me for as long as i lived. but once i realised this label worked far better for me than any other label in the lgbtq spectrum, i was like, yes! i found it! i found me. and i have never found anything contradictory to the label that i found for my sexuality. so that’s gr8 m8 8/8 coz that gave me the feeling of security of knowing myself, and i could read up on similar experiences through other asexual people online and not feel like i’m just immature for my age or whatever crap people think of asexuals (i didn’t read what aphobes on tumblr have to say because why would i want to make myself upset when i’m just living my life...).

whoops i rambled but YEAH SO I’M ASEXUAL. (thanks tumblr for introducing this concept to me, for once, because without tumblr i would just be confused and irritated i’m not feeling things that i “should”)

as some of you might know, if you’ve done some digging about your sexuality, a common theme that pops up in explanations is the distinction between romantic attraction and sexual attraction. i already got the latter nailed down, hooray for me.

what’s romantic attraction then? this question would push me down the rabbit hole and end in me still pummelling but now into a bottomless water body where the surface i hit is the question, “what’s LOVE, then?”

i lazily decided i wouldn’t need to deal with romantic attraction if i never experienced it, so i just didn’t define my romantic orientation. lol. i mean, i only had a crush once in my life and that was when i was 9-years-old but that little “infatuation” lasted for about 10 years because that’s how fixated i get on things (and as it turns out, people) i favour LMAO so...?? during the period of my asexuality discovery and general maturation, i figured i only liked him for that long because of the IDEA of what i THOUGHT he was like --- i didn’t speak to him for extended periods of time during those 10 years, so clearly who my heart wants isn’t him, but just what i thought he would be like (something like the “perfect man”, but mixed in with his “flaws” i knew i could tolerate, because he’s human too and i try to be reasonable).

and it was also then that i learnt Love was a Choice. SO. i let go. i still look up to him and stuff, but i’m not going to let that millennium-long crush take up unnecessary space at the back of my mind anymore.

i was putting my bets on grayromantic or demiromantic, but this time i wasn’t, and couldn’t be, as sure of my identification as i was when i knew i was asexual. i don’t know. i can’t say it’s because i yearn for affection because frankly speaking i can go without it, i can be quite detached and can remain that way for a long time. maybe it’s because i didn’t want to dismiss the possibility of experiencing a (generally) positive feeling poets wax lyrical about. i mean nothing wrong if you’re aromantic, but i felt like i had the CAPACITY to love romantically. whatever that meant.

k i’ve rambled enough. long story short, someone new caught my eye (not literally lmao looks ain’t shit to me), and i don’t know what to make of it. so here’s my confusion.

(pardon me for coming off like a 13-year-old with a crush, but i legitimately thought about all this shit over the past few weeks)

his personality is lively and charming (to me!). his humour isn’t totally in sync with mine, but i can still chuckle along. he’s not a toxic hetero dude (yeah low bar but i just had to put it out there), he supports the LGBTQ+ community (i don’t know his sexual orientation but it doesn’t matter to me). he has Intellectual Opinions that aren’t obnoxious or are spewed to seem like a smartass or edgelord. he puts effort into his endeavours, he has a good attitude in general. oh and here’s the best part: i can’t properly gauge if i caught HIS eye, but if i did, he’s not showing it in creepy ways that other boys have. (small example: we all stay in something like a hostel. i offer to buy a snack from the convenience store for this dude who happened to be studying in a common area on my level at 2am (lol what’s a sleep schedule m’pals), because i’m going to go there at that very moment. mind you this dude and i have only recently been acquainted. dude says no thanks. i’m like okay. i go to the convenience store. i picked my items from the shelf, turn around, and BAM, HE’S RIGHT THERE. “um didn’t you say you didn’t want anything?” “oh no i just thought of following you here. it’s late.” you think it’s sweet or some shit but no because the convenience store is located within the university grounds and our country has one of the lowest crime rates ever so the reason he was giving was pretty illogical, no one does this shit. now i’m socially obligated to feel thankful for your chivalry or some shit??? i hate that. these dudes don’t ever fucking consider the context of chivalry before acting on it, did you legitimately think i would be comfortable and safer with you, a mere acquaintance, “accompanying” me to the store. ugh. ok whoops i digressed.)

here i admit, my heart flutters when i see him. so now i ask myself... is this infatuation, or do i legitimately want to be in a romantic relationship with him? wait, what’s a romantic relationship? WAIT, WHAT IS LOVE? (tw1ce kpop fans gtfo of my post lmao)

i proceed to analyse my behaviour towards him to try to determine if it’s legitimate romantic attraction. heart flutter, check. stumble over words, check. spew dumb shit in front of him, check. try to subtly catch his attention in a group setting, check. actually play along with his teasing, check. actually initiating conversations with him with HIM as the subject, check. (please note that after one too many creepy dudes’ advances after i try to be friendly and open and bubbly and polite because that’s just how i am, i consciously made an effort NOT to ask questions about THEM in any conversation i had to engage in with them because i frankly dgaf about their lives and i don’t want to make them think i did. i only used to ask out of courtesy because they asked me something first. but now i’m like fuck that. in my current situation, i actually still do not really care about what he does if it doesn’t concern me LMAO, but i ask just to give the impression that i do.) wishing i could see him for one more time, check.

BUT WAIT! i could wave that away with the explanation that i’m infatuated with him. i don’t know what romantic attraction REALLY is, but i’m going to take a leap of faith and guess it entails stuff like, do i want him to be my confidante and vice versa, do i want to hang out with him at the end of a long day - is that more tiring for me, or is that going to be rejuvenating, etc etc i’m basically basing my expectations of a romantic relationship on behaviours of a happily and healthily married couple, which i suppose COULD be misguided, but i don’t know any better...

so, do i?

but FUCK, BECAUSE I DON’T EVEN KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT QUESTION. i don’t know my own preference. “um yeah that’s why you date, to get to know the other person better and shit” ssSSHHH!! i don’t jump into Big Things like relationships unless i’m REALLY sure it’s not going to end in a disaster (plus depleted social capital that i could’ve avoided depleting... ugh We Live In A Society)

right now the issue i’m griping about isn’t whether i’m gonna end up happily ever after with him. i’m venting my confusion here because i don’t know how seriously i should take these feelings towards another person. it’s occupying a LOT of space in my mind and it’s honestly getting in the way (mental effort, time, focus) and i have other things to do. i just want peace of mind.

confusing emotions are useless.

#:-(#me #love #ramble

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praying-aromantis · 2 years ago

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September 19th

i didn't notice the heterosexism and homophobia and amatonormativity because i was obsessed with my gay ship.

i didnt notice how they ended the show with all the characters in forced opposite sex relationships, how relationships were valued over friendships, over self-actualisation.

i didnt notice until someone pointed that out to me. i thought i was primed to notice that. being mad over relationships that mean nothing because its just the thing that happens. that no story can be without a love story.

i felt like i let down the aromantic agenda™. stories are so important to me.

that's kind of a stupid thought, right? not wholly, because stories deserve to be about aromantic people and joy in contexts without love or with different kinds of love.

but in the way that im primed to have an omniscient perception of the ways relationships are portrayed in media. i can and should enjoy romances, if i like to. it doesnt hurt to be critical. its important even. but i dont have to be so tense.

#ace #aro #aroace #aromantic #asexual #diary

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crimsonrevolt · 6 years ago

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Congratulations Leah you’ve been accepted to Crimson Revolt as Aidan Avery

↳ please refer to our character checklist

We’re always so pleased to see our members taking up another muse as it means that you’re happy being a part of our little roleplay family! Just from reading your app we can already tell what a great addition to the dash Aidan is going to be and we’re so excited to see what you do with them. Each and every section of your app paints such a clear, fleshed out image of Aidan and we truly cannot wait to see how you choose to develop them and see the impact that they’ll have on everyone.

application beneath the cut ( tw: insert )

OUT OF CHARACTER

INTRODUCTION

Leah, 25, she/her, EST

ACTIVITY

Probably a six? I don’t know, I’ll let my current activity in the group speak for itself.

HOW DID YOU FIND US?

Taylor :)

WHAT HARRY POTTER CHARACTER DO YOU IDENTIFY WITH MOST?

I’m going to say Luna and leave it at that rather than include my rant from my first audition

ANYTHING ELSE?

Nope

IN CHARACTER

DESIRED CHARACTER

Aidan Aurelius Avery

Every child in the very family has had a first name starting with A for years. Some families have Christmas traditions or family heirlooms. The Avery family as A names. Maybe their middle name starting with an A might be a bit of overkill, but they don’t much mind. They actually quite like it. Aurelius may be a bit outdated, but Aidan has to admit—their name does have a certain ring to it.

FACE CLAIM

I’m definitely on board with keeping Avan

REASON FOR CHOSEN CHARACTER

Here’s the truth, I looked at applying for this group several months ago but wound up not going for it. At the time, Aidan was the first one to catch my eye. There’s something wonderful in those dark characters who just don’t give a shit about the things they do. When I came back around to audition this time and I saw Xen I had to grab him instead. But honestly, Aidan’s voice in my head has never gone away and they’re a damn persistent muse.

There’s something really enthralling about playing dark, twisted characters. There are those characters who are just dark and twisted but ultimately think they’re in the right or have the right viewpoints to justify what they’re doing or don’t realize that what they’re doing is wrong. But that’s not Aidan at all. They’re Slytherin in all the very worst ways. And honestly? They’re proud of it. Aidan is out for no one but Aidan and fuck everyone else. If it doesn’t help them and their goals—namely to be one of (ideally the) most power and influential people in the wizarding world. Even Voldemort and the Death Eaters are just a part of that plan. The Death Eaters are where the people they’d consider friends, sure, but it’s the most powerful and pure families out there. If anyone is going to be able to help them to greatness, it’s this group of people. Do they believe in Voldemort’s message? Sure. Do they believe in Voldemort? Honestly, Aiden isn’t sure he has what it takes to do what needs done to ensure total blood purity. And if Voldemort stumbles and Aidan is the one to step up and take is place? Then so be it

Aidan is dark and twisted and self-serving. They thrive from chaos and get off on the pain of others. They like watching people squirm knowing they’re the one with the power. They’ll wind up at the top one way or another. And some times that means playing along, being sweet and king—acting like the perfect friend and sweetheart and they can (somehow) manage to pull that off perfectly. They’re a master at doing anything to get exactly what they want and nothing less. They make it easy to fall for their charms and they can pull off the character well. But don’t ever be fooled—it is a character, a mask, nothing more. Aidan doesn’t have a genuinely good bone in their body. And they don’t do anything that doesn’t benefit themselves.

PREFERRED SHIPS // CHARACTER SEXUALITY // GENDER & PRONOUNS

Aidan is certainly pansexual. They care more about having a good time and fulfilling their own needs far more than what parts their partner has.

While Aidan certainly has a healthy sex drive, romance is far less so. They’re far too self-centered for that. Aidan isn’t aromantic exactly, but certainly along the gray-romantic scale. It’s just not one of their goals and not something that fits with their life right now. It might still happen, it may be possible Aidan has the capacity for love, but it’s just not in their plans right now. Sure, one day they’ll marry a fellow Pureblood, if only for the power and to keep the Avery family line going, but Aidan seriously doubts they’ll love the person they wed.

That being said, Aidan has a deep fascination with Bellatrix. She’s pure twisted evil and he loves it. They’ve always been a bit jealous of Rodolphus for being the one to marry her—they had hopes for a brief time that perhaps Andromeda would turn out to be more like her sister but that’s a flat joke and even Narcissa is spoken for now. It’s not a crush they have for Bellatrix really, not necessarily romantic in nature (not that they’d deny a chance with her if something ‘tragic’ were to befall Rodolphus), just a deep fascination with her as a person, a love of the idea of her and all she stands for.

When it comes to gender, Aidan is far prefers neutral prefers neutral pronouns. They can accept male pronouns upon occasion, but agendered pronouns just fit better. They feel right. And frankly they’ll only tolerate masculine pronouns from certain people and for so long.

CREATE ONE (OR MORE!) OF THE FOLLOWING FOR YOUR CHARACTER:

-AN AESTHETIC

Aidan’s Pinterest can be found here

-A MOCKBLOG

Mockblog for Aidan with a handful of posts can be found here

-A PLAYLIST

Playlist for Aidan can be found here

-A FEW HEADCANONS

Aidan’s birthday is October 27th, making him a Scorpio

Aiden doesn’t work currently—the Avery family has more than enough money to keep up with their lavish lifestyle. They’ll work eventually when something worth their time shows up. However, if you ask Aidan what their current employment is, they’ll simply respond that they’re and Unspeakable and there’s nothing more they can say about it. In function, they’re currently dedicating a large portion of their time to recruiting for the Death Eaters and making forward progress in blood purity.

Aidan really only has one goal in life: To be the most powerful person in the wizarding world. Now most people would take this to mean they want to have the most magical power and prowess. No, the magic capabilities don’t matter, Aidan wants the most power, the most control of anyone in the wizarding world. They have their eye on being the Minister some day. Which would be a start. But that isn’t nearly enough.

Coming from a long line of Slytherins, it’s little surprise that Aidan is able to speak Parseltongue, but they thrilled their parents with just how easily it came to them from a young age. Aidan’s very first word was Parseltongue, not English, and they’re just as fluent in the serpentine language as they are English. It’s not uncommon of them to grow bored or annoyed in a conversation with a human and start responding in Parseltongue.

Aidan has an enchanted flying motorcycle. They insist It’s better than Sirius’s which they call a cheap knock off.

Aidan’s wand is a 13-inch ebony wood want with a dragon heartstring core and a slight serpentine curve to it. They connected to the want almost immediately upon entering Ollivander’s wand shop.

Looking at their build—slim and lean—many people easily underestimate Aidan physically. During first year when they walked onto the Quidditch pitch and announced they were going out for beater, their fellow Slytherins quite literally laughed in their face. By the end of try outs, three students had numerous broken ribs and one had a broken nose. Needless to say, Aidan got their desired position and their teammates learned not to laugh at them.

As a master manipulator, excellent at reading people and getting them to bend to their desires even without magical aid, Aidan puts their skill to use helping the Death Eaters recruit new witches and wizards to join their ranks.

Of the Unforgiveable Curses, Avada Kedavra is actually by far their least favorite. It’s too kind and takes all the fun out of playing with one’s pray. Crucio ultimately beats out Imperio for a favorite spell as they find it far more entertaining to manipulate victims without the use of magic. Crucio does tend to have the unfortunate side effect of making the hexed rather useless after its use though.

The Avery family has a long history of being overwhelmingly Slytherin and rather embrace their serpentine past. Aidan has never been without at least one pet snake. They always found it quite unfair they couldn’t bring their familiars with them to Hogwarts—at least not if they played by the rules. But Aidan’s never been one to do that. Nearly every year they would sneak snakes on campus and then send them off with orders to go terrorize anyone they could find with even the slightest hint of ophidiophobia. Sure, it landed them in detention nearly every year but it was more than worth it. You won’t find anyone more comfortable round snakes than Aidan.

In addition to a strong Slytherin past, the Avery’s have also been tied to Voldemort for years. Aidan’s father has a friendship with Voldemort that dates back to their own days at Hogwarts and was one of the earliest Death Eaters. It’s a double-edged sword for Aidan. On one hand, being raised steeped in their ideals, Aidan is incredibly committed to the Death Eater agenda and has been a member for quite some time themselves. Aidan received their Dark Mark before their sixteenth birthday. They tout the family legacy of being some of the earliest members like a badge of honor. On the other hand, they’ve heard their father’s stories about little bullied Tom Riddle. For Aidan, Voldemort holds little of the dangerous mystique he does for most of the Death Eaters. While Aidan’s father would follow him blindly into anything, Aidan’s loyalty is far less faithful. They aren’t really positive that someone who isn’t Pureblood should—or even is capable—of leading this fight. Sure, he’s strong now, but Aidan’s waiting for him to faulter at some point. And if it’s Aidan that steps into the power vacuum it creates, they wouldn’t complain. But one way or another, they’re certainly not dying for their father’s schoolmate.

Aidan is quite literally a sociopath and their actions and reactions boarder on psychopathy. Aidan knows the things they do would often be considered ‘bad’ or that a ‘good person’ wouldn’t do them—but they’re not a good person and they don’t care. If someone is standing between Aidan and what they want, they will find a way to take you down. They don’t care the cost of their actions as long as they’re not the one paying. They are selfish and self-centered and care about little else than bettering their own position.

-CONNECTIONS

(All connections would be pending player approval of course, but would be a good jumping off point with Aidan)

Severus—It’s important to get one thing straight—Aidan does not consider Severus Snape a friend. That does not, however, keep them from acting like it. A sad, picked on Slytherin, Severus has potential to become a wonderous Death Eater—if, that is, Aidan can get them to fully turn their back on the likes of Lily Evans. Aidan has seen the potential for darkness since they were young and has always tried to drag it out of him. They pretend to be a friend. But only because he’s so easily manipulated to do their bidding and not due to any real connection between them.

Natalie—Aidan never much liked the idea of having a Hufflepuff in the Death Eater ranks. They are, by far, the weakest of the houses in their eyes. They were frustrated to say the least to see Natalie join the, especially when she keeps her alliance so quiet. However, there are benefits. She seems to want to become a better Death Eater and learn more about how to become more enthralled with them. It’s a unique opportunity to take someone like her and darken her. Aidan is serving as a mentor of sorts, drawing her further in and corrupting her in a way that will leave their undeniable fingerprint on her.

Sirius & Andromeda—They could have been good. They could have had power. They could have been part of a legacy. And they both walked away—for what exactly? Aidan has never understood. They can’t help but scoff and roll their eyes at the cousins. They could have had everything and they threw it away. The two traitorous Blacks are pathetic and yet another sign that the Black family isn’t as strong as everyone thinks. Sirius and Andromeda are failures who turned their backs on everything and it’s just sad. They’re worth nothing and Aidan likes to remind them of it.

Cassius & Augustus—Friend is a complicated term when it comes to someone like Aidan but were anyone to hold it when it comes to Aidan, it would be Cassius and Augustus. They’re both dark just the way Aidan is. Cassius is a Pureblood Slytherin just like themselves and has the physical violence to compliment Aidan’s dark mind. Augustus is a perfect sheep in wolves’ clothing that Aidan appreciates and can relate to. They both only bring out the worst (which Aidan considers the best) in Aidan and they do the same to the others.

IN CHARACTER QUESTIONNAIRE

The following section should be looked at like a survey for your character. Answer them in character and feel free to use gifs. Or, if you’d rather, answer them in third person or OOC without gifs. Answers do not have to be extremely lengthy.

♔ If you were able to invent one spell, potion, or charm, what would it do, what would you use it for or how would you use it? Feel free to name it:

��A more efficient and effective form of Legilimency. Sure, I suppose technically it already exists but it’s painful and obvious for the hexed and too complicated for the castor. A spell itself or perhaps just a potion to make Legilimency easier to cast and the hexed more pliable to the castor.” A devious smirk crosses their lips as they recline in the their chair, their pet snake twining through their fingers. “A stronger mind reading spell would mean more fun in playing with our victims. And if you can read someone’s mind, manipulating them becomes a snap and then Imperius is no longer needed. One less necessary Unforgivable Curse. Not that there’s anything wrong with them, but using a non-Unforgiveable means you’re less likely to get caught and even if you are, it’ll cary a lighter sentence, so really it’s a win all the way around.”

♔ You have to venture deep into the Forbidden Forest one night. Pick one other character and one object (muggle or magical), besides your wand, that you’d want with you:

“Well I don’t believe in playing by the rules, so I’m not just taking one person with me. It would be far more fun with both Cassius and Augustus. A trip through the forest with the two of them would be much more entertaining than choosing just one, so that’s who I’m taking,” they say with a shrug. “Besides, the more hands to gather up unicorn blood and centaur hooves for potions, the better. Taking just one would be cheating the whole world of something wonderful. And not that we would need to bring anything along with us but the only obvious answer is Salazar’s locket. No one really knows what powers it has or where it is, but if it comes from the original Slytherin, they have to be strong. And let’s be honest, needing to speak Parseltongue to use it won’t be an issue for me.”

♔ What kinds of decisions are the most difficult for you to make?

“Honestly?” they look bored as they twist a long strand of dark hair around their fingers, “any that don’t involve me. I just don’t really see the point. It’s unimportant at best, so I don’t see the sense in having any input much less making any sort of decision.”

♔ What is one thing you would never want said about you?

“That I’m weak or ignorant,” they say, eyes burning furiously even at the idea. “I’m neither, regardless of what other people may see. Neither should ever be said about me. But certainly not that I’m weak. I’m not weak and I never will be.”

REACTION TO LAST EVENT DROP

(I’m pulling from both the full July update and from the St. Mungo’s party with a few places I see Aidan fitting with them both)

Being from a well-off Pureblood Death Eater family and someone who values status, Aidan would definitely be in attendance at both the St. Mungo’s fundraiser and the engagement party. When it comes to the St. Mungo’s party at least, Aidan is certainly not above being the masked Death Eater who made off with the funds to cast doubt on Aversio. It’s definitely the kind of manipulative plot Aiden would come up with. And if it meant gaining more power in the organization, they would certainly go for it.

Another place I can definitely see Aidan getting their hands dirty would be trying to convince Gilderoy to join the Death Eaters. I think trying to bring in new members is a place where Aidan’s manipulative abilities would be put to good use by the Death Eaters there. Aidan would also definitely like to see someone with as big a name as Gilderoy Lockheart on their own side—not the Death Eaters’ side per say, but Aidan’s side. Who knows where that kind of influence could come in useful down the road.

Aidan would also definitely see the argument between the Black’s and Lestrange’s as a point of opportunity. It would be a chance to win over people on both sides of the argument and as a place for the Avery family (and thus themselves) to possibly step further into power if the divide goes any further. For now, they’d be planting casual seeds that they and their family are the right choice to lead. Meanwhile convincing those that support the Lestrange’s that they believe the Lestrange’s are right and those that support the Black’s that the Black’s are right, always laying the full field. (If they had to choose between the two families, frankly it would probably be the Blacks, even if Andromeda and Sirius are rater large let downs, the family as a whole is better.)

WRITING SAMPLE

(Forgive the godmodding please and thanks, only used for audition purposes)

“I’m just saying, I think you need to be focusing on yourself, your potential. You have so much of it. You don’t really want to look back and see you’ve wasted it all away, do you?” Aidan’s tone was the soft and warm of a sweet supportive friend. It made them want to vomit. Almost as much as the boy they were talking too.

Even now Severus Snape couldn’t seem to fully pull their eyes away from the red head who was being disturbingly cute with her boyfriend.

“You can do better. That’s all I’m saying.”

“Don’t-”

Before another word could come out, Aidan help up a hand, the candlelight of the Great Hall shining off their family ring. “I wasn’t insulting Lily. I know, I know, she’s perfect you’ve said it a hundred times. I’m just saying I don’t think she really sees you. She doesn’t see what you could be. And if she’s spending time with people like that,” Aidan sent a pointed look to the Gryffindor table, “then she’s not good enough for you. Find someone who appreciates you. Not someone who spends all their time with people who quite literally shove you around Sev. If she really respected you the way you think, she’d be spending her time with you.”

Here, Aidan leaned across the table and took the younger boy’s hands, giving them a gentle squeeze of reassurance. It was the kind of action Lily would have taken, something Severus would appreciate, so Aidan would too. “I just want someone who sees you. Really sees you. All your potential. All you can be. Someone who will actually love you. And I’m sorry to have to say it, but I just don’t know that Lily’s that for you. You deserve more, that’s all I’m saying Sev.”

A voice over their shoulder cleared their throat. “Come on Avery. You know how much of a twat McGonagall becomes when we’re late.”

The smirk on Aidan’s face became a bit more genuine when they heard Cassius’s voice. “Well you heard him. I’ve got to go. I’ll see you around Sev.” Aidan stood and walked away with Cassius and Augustus. The moment they were out of the younger boy’s sight, they shuddered. “Good lord, you couldn’t have come in any sooner? I think I’ve got to go bathe my entire being in bleach.”

“You don’t have to talk to him you know,” the simple statement from Augustus earned a shrug.

“I do if I want him to keep doing my potions homework. Only a third year and still manages that shit better than I do.” Aidan let out a long sigh. “Minor benefits I suppose. It’ll pay off eventually. At least if it can stop being so fully pussy-whipped by that Gryffindor bitch.”

“I was reading earlier about a potion that calls for ground centaur hoof. It’s supposed to hold a lot of power.”

Aidan cast Augustus a look. “What’ve I said about the Ravenclaw babbling Auggie? Keep it relevant.”

“The potion I found can render the poisoned fully immobile for up to twelve hours.”

“Ah, see, skip to the relevant parts.” Aidan smiled genuinely now. “Lucky for us, we’re going to right where there’s a large herd of them. Not that they’re likely to just give us a hoof but, we know how to get what we want, don’t we? Unlucky for them I suppose.”

#lsrp #hp rp #accepted app #marauders era rp #harry potter rp #avan jogia fc

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SASUSAKU IS FRAUDULENT

Sasusaku is a fraud

or how sasuke has been manipulated into SS.

I’m gonna analyze it through two POV: Kishimoto’s and canonverse’s.

-KISHIMOTO:

let’s say he was genuine about it.

1) He admitted in one of his interviews that he even wanted to write a love triangle (that’s just… wow) but ACCORDING to his own words, it wasn’t possible because a) this is a Shonen, and b) he had to prioritize. So, if you say romance was equally important here, you’re deluding yourself. He was focused on everything appealing to boys, i.e. just friendships, popularity contexts and fights. So, it’s only normal, that no romance would have deep development.

In this case, some positive and ROMANTIC-looking moments -no matter how few they are- are enough for romance in this genre. Yet SS doesn’t enjoy from such privilege: part I, team 7 is like family to him (canon), so Sakura is like a sister. He thus protects her as one. Part II -call it ‘he’s in darkness’, or ‘fake Sasuke’- but there’s nothing left of this relationship. The worse is SS went from sibling relationship, to nothing, to romance with a guy that never showed interest in such trivial things as being “attracted to girl or romance”, despite him knowing it actually existed.

2) Kishimoto had only cared about Naruto, his MC, tailoring the rest of the series around him. It’s so bad that every fodder character, every guy from the “main cast” and every evil has surrendered their soul to him. So, once he’s given Naruto his fucking acknowledgement, nothing else mattered for the author.

Sasuke who should have been seen getting over UCM, mending, finding his ways, healing or anything catering to his mental abuse and this abominating genocide has never happened. Why? Because Kishimoto never cared. It wasn’t in his plan.

How can a real Sasuke fan be satisfied with that?

The fact that romance wasn’t even relevant to Kishimoto, and that he didn’t cared about his own creation, he just took the nearest short-cut possible, since ‘Sasuke’s chapter’ was closed to him the moment Naruto beat him.

Since then, he manipulated everything to suit their –SP & Cie’s agenda -Boruto-

Basic reading comprehension.

CANON – VERSE

First, proofs that sasuke is broken and damage i.e. in a state he can be manipulated and driven to do something he doesn’t much care about in the first place.

He’s a ghost of himself

You see there? Sasuke ceased to exist at that very moment. How any decision he made after this can is something genuine? He just surrendered his soul to the world. He keeps living for other people, putting their wishes first, since he doesn’t have any drive himself.

This fragile sasuke can easily end with sakura not because it’s something he has always wanted but, he’s not himself anymore.

Here, he shows us that he’s always been inferior to Naruto and Itachi. Here, you witness a broken man who doesn’t have any more self-love or self-esteem. He’s lost. How is he that Sasuke who made choices because he felt it necessary or what he wanted?

Also, very important, is his dynamic with Itachi. Sorry Itachi fans but he accepted to side against his own family. He betrayed his family, so how Sasuke who is pro-Uchiha forgave a pro-Konoha! Itachi was the last link to the family he ever loved.

Obviously, Sasuke became someone who can be manipulated and everyone who can substitute to his family/Itachi can manipulate him just as well. So, no silly things as “Sasuke can’t be manipulated or driven to do something that doesn’t go with his normal way of being”. He hasn’t even a mind for himself anymore, lol. He deemed necessary to become another Naruto/Itachi.

Because team 7 became that substitute, team 7 can have a huge impact on his mental, and that include Sakura with all that pushing her obsession on him until he breaks. That’s his reality now.

When Sakura confesses, he thinks back again to his family.

For Sasuke, nothing was as much important as his family. He even admitted that he had craved for love, and how he sought for a substitute in Naruto.

That’s back when his old family was more important than anything. After Naruto wins, he breaks down his final wall. What kept team 7 from replacing the Uchiha family, has been vanquished by that final fight. Now Team 7 is not only his sole “decent” connection but his only family.

Like he drank Itachi’s words, he’s bound to drink Team 7 words too.

By the way, why Sasuke felt like helping to save the world but then pull that bullshit? Another bullshit to end this too-long Shonen for Kishimoto.

That he had always loved his family, that team 7 took this place now, that he feels that what he fought for or thought is inferior to Itachi’s and now Naruto’s moral and that Naruto beat him until he had surrendered shows that he shifted his emotions from his old family to team 7.

Now he thinks he’s the worse person to ever walk on this earth when he actually acted like any other ninja. That lets it read that Itachi and now team 7 are always right and he’s wrong to think otherwise. Because he puts himself under those people he thinks are saints moral-wise, he surrendered to their wishes.

He’s like a wound left open now. Every bacterium that ever existed can contaminate him. Yahoo!!

What happened after the big fight and team 7 reunited?

-Kakashi just keeps reading his porn in a shady place.

-Naruto gave up on him.

-Sakura kept confessing until he said yes.

-He has no one but team 7. This team 7 is what is left for someone who put connections above else, and once craved for love.

-All that is important in Naruto is to be pretty, cool and have super power-ups and whatnot. Also get married. You know, ticking everything on the usual bucket-everyday-lists without actually giving it second-thoughts. What? Friendships? Forget about it! Let’s just scratch it a bit and forget about it later on.

So, Sasuke pleases them now, and there’s no one out there to put him first or at least help with his mental health or scars. I mean, now that he isn’t against the Shinobi system why cares about him? Just know something: the moment you get married, whatever pain or mental scars you have will vanish without actually caters to it. (Sarcasm again)

Miscellanies:

-The OOC of both to make SS:

Sakura went:

From this:

and this

note her promise

(Makes this face):

to this:

like this:

and that:

a) Sakura reverts back to her 12 self around Sasuke. Crying and repeating confessions. b) Her natural confidence that could have helped Sasuke is none existent. Now she acts like a doormat. Please go watch canon written by Kishi –she’s got little to no backbone when Sasuke is concerned. As long as Sasuke answered positively to her confession she’s okay with everything. c) Sakura who is a cheerful young lady tone down her personality to match Sasuke’s moody one.

Meanwhile, she never writes letters to Sasuke or even tells him to visit to see his daughter, but she wears gladly his Uchiha crest. See how SSS in gaiden is another guilt-trip session for Sasuke. He wanted a family and now it became a source of stress. Everyone, from Sasuke to Sakura, going through salad, everyone was apologizing. Sweet love!

I like Sakura (she’s evolved emotionally and physically), and I love Sasuke but together? I wanna choke a teddy-bear.

-Sorry but Sasuke has NEVER showed romantic interests or whatsoever in anyone. Instead of ending like Jiraya or Orochimaru, aka with no burdens like raising child but travelling freely, he’s got now a child? What happened? How? Sakura raped him or something? Did he ask her? Had they actually had sex? That’s insane.

-In real fucking life, when a boy doesn’t show interest for any girl, he’s gay or aromantic. Don’t even start with culture. Naruto showed interest. Jiraya did. Rock lee did. Heck, shojo and shounen ai come from japan.

-yeah SS is canon lol. So? If I could fucking take it seriously though, it’s empty, boring and with no real sparks or frictions. Nothing at stakes or anything one could write books about except their aesthetic. Just headcanons like Sakura opening Sasuke’s heart to life -when it’s Naruto-, Sasuke looking like a love interest from a shojo or SNS rip-offs…

They don’t match the canon, neither their respective in character persona.

So, only stupid people can get butt-hurt over the fact that not everyone wants to ship it or find it logical. You like it, ship it elsewhere instead of looking for trouble with antis or other shippers.

To summarize my point is:

-SS indeed happens because Sakura drives him -along team 7- to response to her feelings, not because he was “in love”. (It’s not the same old independent Sasuke). There’s nothing remotely special or admirable about it.

-Sasuke’s last relationships aren’t what could have helped him. Look at him; he’s still vagabonding. Even Naruto ‘let him down’. You think that it’s not Naruto’s job? Then their bond is cheap. You think otherwise? Then let’s admit together that Kishi mostly ruined it all.

I don’t care if you ship SS but how Kishimoto handled it and some extreme fans of his had me angry as hell.

I can’t believe I’m still receiving “kill yourself delulu fugly”, “kill yourself” and the likes because I ship a crack-ship, like wut?? Please come down your high horse, lol. You ain’t nothing special, neither is your ship.

#anti sasusaku #anti ss #go read twilight #anti sasuke x sakura #pro sasuke #pro uchiha sasuke

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