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cxrsedmuse · 7 months ago
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simone ashley / cis female / south asian (indian) / she/her ——— is that diana thevar on bourbon street ? the 29 / 39 year old vampire who stays in the french quarter?  they are notoriously known for being adaptable and logical but also insincere and ruthless. which is probably why they are considered the amaranth around town.  i wonder if they had their tarot cards reading, yet? either way, the cards on the table will reveal their fate soon enough
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P E R S O N A L I T Y
aquarius | estj
+ adaptable + logical + careful
- insincere - ruthless - condescending
B A C K S T O R Y
tw: death (second and third paragraph)
Diana Thevar grew up amidst the high-class wealthy people of Cape Cod, Massachusetts. Where everyone's life is free to gossip about, and if you step one toe out of line you're the talk of the town. Diana thrived there. She had many friends, and enjoyed gossiping, shopping, and dancing more than anything else.
Unfortunately, like New Orleans, Cape Cod had a little bit of a vampire problem. When Diana was on death's door, her parents refused to let her story be the next big thing. One of her father's connections (a vampire) turned her to keep her from dying, to keep her from giving the town something to gossip about.
Forced to continue on as if nothing had happened, the pressure eventually got to Diana. The blood she consumed was always regulated by her parents, and it was never enough. One night, she snapped, killing them both. Uncertain how to face the consequences, she fled in the night.
In the past ten years, she's been on the move, avoiding hunters and continuing her careful killings. For the most part, she keeps pets, feeding and compelling and eventually releasing (or turning). However, she's prone to outbursts and snapping really comes as a second nature.
For the time being, she's settled in a nice (stolen) house in the French Quarter, drawn to the city because of its supernatural aura, hiding under the cover of all the other bad things happening around town. Surely one more vampire could sneak about unnoticed, right?
P L A Y L I S T
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cubbyhole-for-flea-bee · 11 days ago
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Once the theatre monkey discovers angsty broadway musicals its all over y'all
or: I got a new personal project I'm workin' on! I'm at the first pass on the animatic rn! I forgot that 'generate matte' is a thing you can do in SB Pro for a whole hour!! I'm suffering!!!
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scourge-sympathiser · 1 year ago
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SCOURGE SUNDAY 015/???
a mask of my own face. id wear tht
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seyvia · 7 months ago
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Sim Request By @supporticianism🐈
Purrcival Tabi. he/him, Aspiration: leader of the pack. traits: self-assured, creative, generous. my style. CC heavy.
[supporticianism asked: Good day! I would like to politely ask of you if its possible to create male cat-themed vtuber since the way you create your sims is very lovely and well made. Heavy cc is fine if it'll make him more cuter~~ ] ~Thank you very much for the complement sweetheart♡~
Meet Purrcival Tabi, the mischievous alley-cat who thrived on outsmarting the wealthy, authorities, and even fellow scammers. However, his life of "luxury" came crashing down when he scammed a powerful CEO bird, putting a target on his back. Despite a thrilling chase, a wrong turn led him straight into the clutches of his adversaries. But with his cat-like reflexes, Purrcie managed to charm his way out of jail and into a job at one of the largest Vtuber companies. Rising in popularity, he not only paid off his bail but also became one of the company's most profitable stars! -inspired by the fairytale "Puss in Boots". ᓚ₍ ^. .^₎
fun fact: the Japanese word 'Tabi' is the traditional thronged sock worn with footwear like 'Zori' the sandal on his special event outfit. in this case it's also a play on words with the 'Tabby cat'. Like the name 'puss in boots' he is 'Purr in Socks' if you will LOL! ...there are many layers to this, like onions! aHAhaha~( ̄y▽  ̄)╭
~thank you for the request! and I hope you like him! ฅ^ ◕⩊◕^₎≼
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c1trvswurld · 4 months ago
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I love jimmy. I really do.
He's an amazing horrible disgusting character and I love him. He has a deeply flawed psyche and a weird inferiority complex that feeds into another hero complex. So utterly consumed by guilt caused by him and no one else. So bad to the point he convinces himself, TRULY, convinces himself that this is curly's fault. That everything up to this point is both his and curly's fault. Almost like he wants to become him so badly, be everything he represented, become apart of him (the cannibalism). But yet is repulsed and envious.
He takes advantage of Anya because he thinks he "deserves" this. That he is owed. Even in death she is exploited by him, her comforting words used to justify the horrors he put himself and others through.
And funnily enough when he blames/shits on curly...he's somewhat correct. I can only assume curly has known jimmy was a POS for a while, the way he isnt infuriated at jimmy when Anya confided in him-the captain- and all he says is something along the lines of "I know him, he'll take responsibility"
Curly could have stopped pitying him, throwing him a bone, and this might have never happened, but to some extent, he was compliant. Liked, well, I loved jimmy too much, too much to cut the bullshit bc just like jimmy, he didn't want to take responsibility.
So they send others to do it and suffer for them.
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couch-house · 7 months ago
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Fleebay Beepo playlist! [youtube link] [zip link]
it's been foreverrr since i finished a character playlist--i missed doing this! tracklist and director's commentary under the cut teehee :)
if you disagree with any of my choices, just remember: 1) this is my playlist for me to listen to made of songs I like for me 2) you just don't see my vision 3) you don't know him like i do 4) make your own so i can disagree with yours too.
WDKYWMYAK -- Rabbit junk
This is a Killing Game After All -- Gadgetor
chance bought this cd from the comic store. i think the album is Doom-inspired? pretty cool! check it out! anyway this first section is pretty obviously all violence killing and maiming etc
3. All Futures -- The Armed
4. Bears -- Mass of the Fermenting Dregs
5. You Know What You Are -- Ministry
6. 1969 -- Boards of Canada
we're coming down out of the chaotic songs into some confusion for the amnesia arc, starting with ministry and boards of canada. 7 references an unwilling change of the self, and just fits the vibe right now. 8... should be obvious lol.
7. Long Road Home -- Oneohtrix Point Never
8. I Don't Remember -- Peter Gabriel
9. Come Back June -- Pussy
sorry i heard a psychedelic rock song that starts with a big cat meow and blacked out. EBONY MOMENT!!! this and the next couple songs are again more about contributing to the Feeling of the groovy train than a direct relation to the lyrics. though 10 can be justified by the fact he's british.
10. Hey, Mister Sun -- Bobby Sherman
11. Baby All the Time -- Julien Love (NOTE: NOT IN YT PLAYLIST)
12. Handlebars -- Flobots
i didn't think i would end up keeping this song when i threw it on here but it just... works really well structurally. sigh... okay well it kind of works thematically. we're moving into some merger au territory at this point, which is my way as a fan to give fleet more of a self-actualization arc. establish his own identity, make friends, accept his existence a bit more. 13 is again more focused on the caring environment of groovy train (and the idea that this won't last forever) but we'll come back around to merger in a second.
13. Cursis Melodías -- Natalia Lafourcade
14. Flagiolletes -- Billy Mahonie
15. Wake Up To Be You -- The Aesthetics
i'm so obsessed with this as a song from fleet to sonic. esp focused on the idea of fleet being the trauma dump that everyone wants dead and sonic being the one who gets to keep their friends. another lucky cd find--this time thrifted. this band still has their old website up--you can contact them if you'd like to get ahold of your own copy!
16. Every Home a Prison ft. Jello Biafra -- DJ Coldcut (Inevitable Alien Nation mix)
i'm in love with this song. we're back in merger au btw. fleet is now a goddamn hooligan in the street (teenager socializing outside with his friends).
17. Default -- Django Django
we're getting to the end of his life! canon, not au. once again on the idea of fleet (dying, cringe) being a comparative failure. the next two songs are our big explosive end! 18 is another band i found from a thrifted cd. lucky!
18. Werewolf -- Progger
19. light speed drift ft Kasane Teto + Adachi Rei -- frog96
the end! thanks for listening! ^_^ as a treat, YOU get to see the special bonus track: The Adventures of Little White Baby -- No Soap, Radio.
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This started off as a neat little fun idea and nothing more, but my autism decided to finally take matters into its own hands.
A RoTTMNT playlist heavily inspired by the fanfic, "Mutant Ninja Midlife Crisis" by a_platypus; among different works like Trial & Error and Odd Man Out. Songs have been placed in specific order to MNMC, but can be enjoyed on shuffle as a general Rise playlist. TCEST DNI.
@mutantninjamidlifecrisis
I looked at other playlists to see common themes and songs that are enjoyed by the average Rise fan, while also looking all over creation for songs that I thought would best fit MNMC specifically. I ended up finding a couple of awesome GVF songs along the way, that I'm genuinely surprised no one has used for anything remotely related to Rise?
Not a lot of future-Leo-goes-back-to-the-past type of playlists, but I really suck at finding things, so it's not like there isn't a lot out there. But anyway, I was a bit afraid that this playlist would be ooc for the fanfic because of my song choices? So, it kind of took me a while to make the actual playlist on Spotify, let alone make this post. But I know I'm simply overthinking it. It's the perfectionism talking.
Most of the songs have lyrics that align with major key points of the Rise movie and the fanfic, but other songs I also put there solely for the ✨vibes✨ and instrumentals really. I am still adding songs here n' there every so often, but I do plan on eventually cutting myself off from the playlist.
I was going for a "soundtrack" or "songs that sound like they belong in movies" type of feel for the whole thing, which I think I did okay on, but it kind of slowly turned more into a playlist where you can make cool animations or AMVs to; especially since this is not a listen-while-you-read type of playlist, because there's too much going on with the music in general.
Overall, just something I made out of appreciation that I think turned out okay.
#rottmnt#rottmnt playlist#tmnt#tmnt playlist#mutant ninja midlife crisis#only the autism will make someone create an appreciation playlist of a fanfic that is a love letter to Rise#im a tiny bit surprised that MNMC doesn't have a chronology playlist? or many playlists for that matter#but maybe I'm surprised bc making this only made sense to me???#''i think this turned out okay'' watch this secretly be ass or something#its also the autism trying to make me delete the whole thing. this being an actual Tumblr post is a miracle#me when making this playlist: ''ahh. WHY am I making this?😭'' *seconds later* ''god DAMN I'm cooking 🔥''#I have no energy to write but I can make playlists ☝️😃. this playlist is concluded whereas the fanfic is yet to be as of this post.#I'm not saying that as a dig - art takes time n' shit happens. but the ending's vibes within the playlist may or may not end up being#accurate to what happens in the fanfic. if so my bad @___@#i may or may not make changes to it then.who knows. all of this was made with love and hyperfixation and THAT'S what matters#side-note: I have to say that the whole entire Eyelid Movies album from Phantogram reminds me of Leon. but I only used two songs#& a lot of Greta van Fleet songs reminds me of Rise in general but I already used like.what. twelve songs from them??#Spotify#save rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#seriously thinking of making a youtube music version of this playlist#bc you can only losten to these song non-shuffled on Spotify Premium or a computer#also Tears For Fears was inevitably going to be a strong backbone for the whole thing#i individually don't make the rules. the fandom does.#memphis murmurs
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miscelliteeous · 11 months ago
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SO it turns out I have even more thoughts on him than I realized, like I wrote 14k words about him and I still have so much more to say so here’s some headcanons that didn’t really fit anywhere. NOT WORKSAFE, but this covers a wide range of topics, with the nsfw stuff being only like 1/4th of them.
Adam Frankenstein Headcanons
- General:
He’s a stew guy, like that’d be his go-to meal if he could have it. He likes that no matter what it always tastes a little different than the last time and how easily it can be modified with different ingredients plus it warms him and makes him feel cared for.
Gets cold easily and gets colder than most people can handle, though he still prefers to be wrapped up in something warm.
His voice is deep and can vary between gravelly and raspy, though it gets a tiny bit higher when he’s upset or extremely passionate about something.
Tends to mutter under his breath and talk to himself a little when he’s working on figuring out something complicated.
He can be a bit impulsive and it often bites him in the ass, but he’s working on it.
Has absolutely NO care for looking how men are expected to look at that time in society.
His hair gets very poofy and wavy when it’s taken out of a wet braid.
He has thin skin, and though he heals relatively quickly, he also scars very easily and bleeds easily too.
Will read anything and everything he can get his hands on. He wants to learn about the world as much as possible.
His favorite fiction genre is romance, and he likes big, toxic all-consuming romances and thinks they’re the height of romance. He’s a Heathcliff stan (hey, he’s gotta have SOME bad qualities, am I right?).
Not the best at singing, can’t really stay on tune, but he enjoys singing when happy and alone. Gets very embarrassed if caught.
Animals either adore him or despise him, there is no in-between.
Has a habit of slouching over when standing, to seem just a little shorter.
Feels emotions very intensely. He’s never just sad, he’s devastated, he’s never just angry, he’s furious, he’s never just happy, he’s overjoyed. It’s something he’s working on.
- Romantic:
He has a habit of staring at the one he loves for a long time, blinking very minimally.
Adam doesn’t like to be far away from you, and will follow you around like a lost puppy.
Very much would prefer to have some part of him touching you at all times, usually handholding.
Takes him a while to get used to you touching him as opposed to him touching you, but once he does, he melts.
Braid his hair! It’s practical, its cute, it says fuck you to fashion trends of the time, and it’d make him smile. Braid! His! Hair!
Loves the idea of helping out with mundane tasks, like he’ll cook and sew and be so very gentle when brushing your hair.
Uses so many little terms of endearments, the more reverence they show to you the better. He wants you to know he puts you on a pedestal and practically worships you.
One thing that will piss him off quickly (unless you’ve maybe asked him to please hold back ahead of time) is someone insulting you. He’d be ready to go off on them in a scary way within seconds.
Ideal sleeping position: curled up around you like a pill-bug. He’s big enough that he can probably wrap his body entirely around you and would want to do that every night if he could. Horrible for both of your backs.
If you braid his hair (which you should!) he would want to braid yours in return if possible.
Tends to stand behind you when in public. Partially out of shyness, partially to serve as a warning to others to not fuck with you.
When he’s standing behind you in public? The slouch is GONE, he is eight feet of glaring intensity, like a pissed off lighthouse behind a tiny cottage.
Really doesn’t like anyone else touching you and would get a bit more clingy even if it was a purely platonic touch.
Honestly he’s very possessive. He’s found one person in the world who loves HIM, flaws and all, and he doesn’t want to risk losing you.
Tells you he loves you at least 4-5 times a day, including any time you leave a room he’s in.
- Sexual:
You know that image of the hamster eating a banana? You’re the hamster.
Massive, ridiculously large dick that’s still in proportion so it doesn’t look too crazy huge, but it’s still probably about 9-10 inches hard, 7-8 flaccid.
Absolutely aware of how big he is, and takes every step he can think of to make things easier, though it might still be tricky at first.
Adam prefers positions where he can see your face.
Very vocal, tries to hold back sometimes but fails, very loud.
Says anything that comes to his mind, most of which is just really over-the-top praise for you and how you make him feel.
He’s close to 400lbs of muscle, but very mindful of his body so that he doesn’t hurt you. Even if he lays on you he’d still be supporting himself mostly.
Not really fond of mirrors being involved. He’d love to see different angles of you, but himself? Not so much.
Thinks he’s going to die and ascend to heaven when he first gets a blowjob. Though he loves it, he prefers to give rather than receive, he wouldn’t want to hurt your jaw.
Not much aftercare the first time because he doesn’t know as much about it, but once he learns he’s a king.
Cleans you up, gives you a massage, water, holds you, praises you (even more!), makes sure you’re okay and that you enjoyed it too. He would melt if you do the same for him too.
- Familial/Paternal:
Ideally, he would have two children, he would love to be father to a boy and girl, but he would be happy with any amount or none at all and taking care of pets instead. He just wants to raise and care for something the way Victor never raised and cared for him.
So indecisive with names, like there’s so many good names he would want to use, he’d probably leave it mostly up to you.
The one name he’d really want to use? The second he hears the name Abigail means something like “my father is joyful” he jumps for it because that’s exactly how he feels about being a father.
So scared to hold the baby for a good while. He’s just so big and they’re so small and if he accidentally hurt them he’d never forgive himself.
Hovers around the baby though and still holds its little hand. As close as he can get without holding them.
Once he gets over that, he’s a very attentive father.
Very high chance any of his kids would have his black hair and some of his facial features. He’d hope they would have your eyes though.
Lets his kids climb all over him, pull his hair, swing on his arms, anything just as long as they don’t get hurt.
Very encouraging of them to explore and learn new things but also a bit of helicopter dad.
Torn between wanting to keep his kid/s safe from the world and wanting them to be able to do anything they set their mind to.
While not quite 8ft, I think any kids he would have would still grow to be a bit taller than average.
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supergraphicgirl81 · 11 days ago
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With A Little Help From My Friends ⋆⁺₊❅.
Lando Norris ₊ ⊹ [◉¯] . ݁˖
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Formula 1 college hockey team social media AU! Playlist Edition
The tight-knit college hockey team, the Silver Blades, run by team captain Max Verstappen, isn't just about scoring goals—it's a chosen family. On and off the ice, the team has each other's backs, whether that's through college assignments, throwing awesome parties, or winning the championship together. Follow these overworked, tired, college students as they post through their day-to-day life.
With A Little Help From My Friends Masterlist ⊹ [◉¯] Lando Norris Masterlist ⊹ [◉¯]
Authors Note: if you also ever wanted an explanation on why I chose a song for a character......... I would LOVE to give it. And if you notice any doubled songs from other playlists, it's on purpose 😉
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lando ur the 1
SIDE A -
think later - Tate Mcrae
2. Whole Again - Atomic Kitten
3. Flashing Lights - Kanye West, Dwele
4. Poker Face - Lady Gaga
5. Weekend - Mac Miller, Miguel
6. Maria - Justin Bieber
7. Runnin - 21 Savage, Metro Boomin
8. Lovefool - The Cardigans
9. 2 hands - Tate Mcrae
10. The Spins - Mac Miller, Empire Of The Sun
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SIDE B -
11. Godlight - Noah Kahan
12. Sweet Creature - Harry Styles
13. American Teenager - Ethel Cain
14. It's Called: Freefall - Rainbow Kitten Surprise
15. Block me out - Gracie Abrams
16. Nothing Really Matters - Kelsea Ballerini
17. No One Noticed - The Marias
18. Moon - Kanye West
19. Slow Burn - Kacey Musgraves
RUN TIME - 1h 5m
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wavesoutbeingtossed · 3 months ago
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Taylor has a song about how a dry spell (among other things) lit the fuse about her fantasizing about a man she would come to despise and about her realizing her long-term relationship was dead and some pearl-clutchers think she’s offended that her boyfriend accidentally implied that they cannot relate to that feeling anymore lmao
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miss-conner3 · 2 months ago
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Hi! (ouo)/
I took a little time to make playlists for my two favorite sheep haha...
And also...!
One for Ando from The Hard Way
I hope you like it /(>u<)\
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isthatafuckinggayangel · 3 months ago
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Consider: Asher and Baabe in roller blades
That’s it, that’s the idea
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mosspapi · 1 year ago
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There's like a 90% chance this will not make sense to anyone else but let me indulge in a little autistic crackposting abt Fall Out Boy for a second
I genuinely love the use of violins/classical instruments in Folie and the way it contrasts with their use in SMFS. Like in Folie, their inclusion gives it a sense of discordance, almost desperation. "I am ripping everything apart and trying everything in my power to get through to you, to get my head above water, to scream for help. This is so far out of left field but I don't feel like I have any other options left." But in SMFS, they almost feel like they're doing the exact opposite. "I am staring down at the pieces of the mess I've made and gingerly sewing it back together. I'm trying to soothe the chaos and rawness and show you that even when things seem so far gone, they can always be reeled in and thrown a life raft." It's just. Idk. Something about the musical similarities being used to create polar opposite emotional states gets me. "I was not ok, and expressing that in the only way I knew how, but I can take that and put myself back together again in the same way I tore myself apart."
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nexus-nebulae · 4 months ago
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every day i wish that Rats SMP was a cartoon bc it would make the greatest show ever i think
#I've been watching Arietty and the Rescuers a lot lately;;;;;;;;;;;#i just think it would make the cutest fucking cartoon with the funniest plotlines#it would be so perfect#with the ensemble cast you can swap out characters as much as you need/want to#the different animals breaking into the house later in the series would make a fucking BANGER season 2#(like can you fucking imagine. season 2 pilot. theres a BADGER IN THE HOUSE NOW?)#they've even got a halloween special AND christmas special episode it's PERFECT#the whole first season could cover the rats getting used to the house and getting settled in#maybe the season 1 finale is the mum and others coming home#I would absolutely fucking want Owen to be played by David Tennant bc his tenth doctor voice gives me rat owen vibes#rats smp cartoon would be so so so good#cannot fucking WAIT for Rats In Paris#i have a whole scene in my head of like. that episode where Jimmy gets locked in a room all night and is miserable abt it 😭#where he's trapped in the room with the son and the boy is just chasing him around the room for hours#set to the song A Haunted House! from the totoro soundtrack#trying to catch jimmy in a little bug net#there's also this whole wild chase scene in my head with one of the cats chasing Owen Martyn and Scott and the janitor gets involved as well#set to Cat Chase from the Suzume soundtrack#i actually have a whole spotify playlist titled Rats SMP But As A Wholesome Kids Cartoon it has so many ghibli movie songs#(willing to share if anyone is curious i love sharing playlists)#i fucking LOVE imagining Hey Let's Go from the totoro opening credits as a Mitchiri-Neko style marching rats credits sequence#with each verse more characters join the march until all the animal guests and humans are there too#Do the Impossible from Chicory would make such a fucking cute anime style opening showing little clips of all the chaos of the house#i love this idea so goddamn much i fucking wish i could animate ;-;#i would infodump about this idea for hours if i had infinite tag space but alas. maximum of 30
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scionshtola · 8 months ago
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@coldshrugs did some v lovely gposing for my birthday 💗
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biillys · 14 days ago
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hi au where billy and max are child stars
neil auditioning billy for a (soon-to-be) beloved family sitcom as a baby, very mary-kate and ashley vibes, maybe billy getting the role for being the only baby not to cry during the auditions, and then putting him to work from basically day dot.
his mom doing her best to run interference and make sure he gets treated right, only letting him be on set for a few hours a week and making sure either herself or neil is always with him, but the older he grows and the more screen time he gets, the more the show runners and neil try and weasel their way for more time with him.
him turning five and the show airing it's fourth season, his parents marriage being over. his mom handing neil the divorce papers and walking out, then dipping her hand into his earnings (that neil has tied up in his own name) to try and buy them a future, trying to get full custody.
the divorce being messy and drawn out and public, neil having made her out to be the villain, the fans and magazines tearing her to shreds and writing headlines trying to shame her, saying she's a heartless bitch for trying to end her own child's career just as it's starting to take off.
billy getting caught in the middle, the separation and custody battle drawing out for years, him struggling to handle the fall out of his home life coming apart at the same time as the sitcom he grew up on comes to an end.
his life being a fucking mess by the time he turns eight.
having a little bit of free time then, technically being jobless. starting to explore other hobbies and interests now that he has some time and getting more into music and sports, begging for a guitar and a surfboard for his birthday, asking neil if he can join little league.
neil promising him one better, and instead, getting him auditions for disney, telling him the only thing better than playing the guitar, is playing the guitar for disney.
turning ten and being a series regular on an already airing disney show, but the execs and directors being so impressed by him that there's talks of him getting his own show.
part of him being excited, proud, but a bigger part of him being terrified.
being so scared to tell his mom cos he knows she'll cry. she used to run her fingers through his hair to lull him to sleep, hug him close and whisper about how she never wanted this life for him, how she's so sorry.
it becoming official and him getting his own show on disney.
him getting the news exactly one week after his mom walks out for good, his dad having finally won full custody, no visitation allowed.
him feeling sick to his stomach. he never thought she'd actually leave.
he never even got to tell her his news.
it not taking long for the shine of having his own show to wear off, the few things he was excited about starting to become a hassle.
starting to resent it.
hating it.
hating the lights and the cameras and the scripts and the running lines. the early mornings and the make up and the flights and the night shoots and the interviews and the press. hating the way he's always surrounded by adults, never having had an actual friend his own age in his entire life. that all the other kids he knows are pitted to him like rivals, there being always talk about ratings and viewers and timeslots. him not knowing what a friend without it being tied up in publicity and pr.
hating the fact that he has a sister on the show, but his dad and her mom end up getting close, and suddenly he's getting a step-sister in real life.
hating the way max only has to film for x amount of hours a day because she's a kid, but he has to film for longer, and thats on top of everything else he's gotta do, very miley cyrus sharing her schedule during her hannah montana years vibes.
him becoming a household name in his younger years from the sitcom, but disney cementing his fame, him being known by what feels like the entire world by the time he's in his teens.
growing up and getting into shit, experimenting with drugs and alcohol and sex, trying to find any and every escape he can. him and max always being on the outs in private, but being the picture perfect family in public.
neil being a controlling fucker, a true momager, has kris jenner on speed dial.
rebelling in every way he can, not giving a fuck what stories or pictures of him get leaked anymore, the press and public turning against him as he gets older.
his show ending and him expecting to finally feel free, except just becos the shows over, doesn't mean anything else is. suddenly the pressure starts feeling heavier, everyone asking him what he's got lined up next, if he's gonna straighten himself out, if he's gonna finally take his career seriously.
neil riding him, telling him to forget about whatever he wants to do, and do what he tells him to do instead. him having various commitments and auditions lined up for billy already, and billy being ready to end it all.
emancipating himself at age seventeen, cutting off contact with everyone.
going off the rails and living his worst life. catching the headlines and updates of maxine mayfield: now managed by neil hargrove, and shoving down the urge to call her and tell her to run, knows she won't listen to a thing he says any way. he was nothing but an asshole and a spoilt brat no good fuck up in her eyes anyway, neil making sure they never got close.
doing his best to go down the music route, feeling physically ill at the thought of acting again, but thinking maybe music could be the answer. he always liked it better. felt more comfortable with a guitar in his hands or a piano under his fingers than cameras and lights in his face.
the music industry being just as harsh and ruthless as the entertainment industry, him not getting taken seriously by anyone he needs to be taken seriously by, everyones expectations of him being so fucking high that he knows he'll never be able to meet them.
deciding he doesn't give a fuck about anything anymore, his life's never been his own to control or have any say over anyway. signing a five year contract with a well-known label, not writing a single song of his own or playing a single instrument aside from when they want him to trot out an acoustic set, and instead singing words richer people than him wrote and performing show after show after show, flying from country to country to country, barely fucking existing. the songs becoming chart toppers, like they were written to be, and selling out stadiums.
hitting rock bottom.
getting a wake up call from max of all people, her ringing to check he's still alive. him pulling the phone away to check this is an actual call and not a hallucination. putting the phone back up to his ear, asking why she's calling.
her saying happy birthday and billy realising he's turning twenty today.
them sitting in silence for a while before max finally cracks.
her telling him his dad's an asshole. billy laughing. no shit.
them hanging up, but max calling again, a month later, then again, a few weeks after that.
billy being hungover as fuck and having no idea what country he's in, but max is in a new movie, out in cinemas now, and it's a serious drama, it's fucking emmy nominated, so he calls the front desk of whatever hotel he's staying at and asks for directions to the closest cinema and before he knows it, he's going incognito, hoodie on, and watching her on the big screen, and she's so much better at acting than he ever was.
neil must be so goddamn pleased with himself.
too bad max sounds completely miserable everytime they talk on the phone.
he calls her instead of her calling him for the first time, opening the conversation with saw your movie, how much fucking overtime did you get for all those night-shoots?
before or after your dad took his cut?
billy laughs. he can't remember the last time he laughed.
ANYWAY. i was listening to robot by miley cyrus on repeat and!!!! child stars au!!!! them both being worked to the bone!!! hating each other becos they barely know each other cos they barely know themselves!!!! getting through their childhoods battered and bruised, billy coming out the other side first, max finally catching up to him a few years later. them both, one by one, cutting their parents out!!!! max taking the big screen by storm when she grows up, neil frothing at the mouth that he can't touch her money when she cuts him out!!!! billy never signing another contract again after his record deal ends, disappearing off the face off the earth!!!! slight the lucky one by tswift vibes!!!! idk!!!!!
#the idea of steve and like the other st teens being disney stars and billy and steve having a thing#after stevenancy of course. and then steve bailing and going back to nancy the second she shows him attention#and billy being like. hurt and heartbroken and soooo fucking fifteen years old about it#things leaking and neil losing his shit over the gay rumours#things coming out over the years of neil being a piece of shit and billys team being fucking awful#max having it good for a while at the start before neil comes into the picture then realising how fucked things can be when he takes over#cutting him out and considering giving up acting#but realising she actually loves it. just not on neils terms and not on disneys terms.#taking a slight break and getting new management before getting back out there.#billy seeing every one of her movies and calling her to nitpick every single one#also the idea of steve and nancy getting married then divorced a year later and billy catching the headlines#like damn. whatevers happening over theres probably 10x as fucked than whats getting reported. thank fuck i dodged that bullet.#100% have what happens with billy when he fucks off from the public eye mapped out but whatever we're not focusing on that#gonna go listen to my hannah montana/miley playlist now thanku#also thinking about this au made me realise there really is no Disney guy like miley hilary raven demi selena were#like theres zefron cos hsm i guess#but like. guy disney channel star????#whatever it's not important its fiction it doesnt matter#anyway the idea of billy coming back to social media to post once in a blue moon#and him being like. 'well my therapist says i need to accept and make peace w my childhood so imma try and see what u all see#and watch this shit' and then start like. liveposting while watching the shows that made him famous#posting a story to insta with 'you all made this punk a fuckin household name?????' over a clip of him doing some acting at like. age 6.#and then another clip with 'at some point u gotta realise the problem is you holy fuck'#'i was a kid i had an excuse. you all just made anything famous back then jfc'#m#nqff#text
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