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slippinmickeys · 5 months ago

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Took a higher than normal dose of Adderall today because I've been a total space cadet on my normal dose lately & not only did I crack a major story beat on professional work, I fully (and I mean fucking FULLY) plotted out a fic casefile that's been languishing in my drafts for 2 years.

#stoked #the unseelie court #will not be dosing that high again #the headache #the crash #ugh #but still

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buddiedaydreamer911 · 8 months ago

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THE 7x7 EPISODE IS A PARALLEL TO 2x6 WHERE MADDIE TOLD THE WOMEN ON THE CALL TO PRETEND TO TALK TO SOMEONE ELSE IF SHE WAS IN TROUBLE BECAUSE SHE HAS HAVING FLASHBACKS FROM WHEN SHE WAS SCARED OF DOUG HELP

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mars-ipan · 29 days ago

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man. apologies to anyone who tried to talk to me yesterday and was met only by someone out of their gourd. i got VERY high yesterday i’m almost surprised i’m not still feeling it

#marzi speaks #not regretting it. the whole point was to celebrate me registering for classes #and i took a larger dose than i’d normally go for bc i knew i wanted it to hit #but damn.#i was. not thinking much yesterday #which is funny bc i was still good at pjsk. how i fced intense voice in like 3 tries i am not sure #the high did have a casualty tho. cut my finger on a bread knife </3 #thankfully even that knife is pretty sharp so the cut was clean. bleeding was stopped quick and it wasn’t too deep #and i did a great job with the band aid that baby is secure #i’m more irritated that it’s gonna take a while to heal (steroids)#than i am worried abt the cut itself #i do remember thinking ‘i cannot let my dad see that i just cut my finger or else i will not be allowed near knives when i’m high again’#even tho he’d probably just go ‘ah well lesson learned. glad u didn’t panic’

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kingtankgirl · 3 months ago

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i'm still riding that fucking high from that doctors appointment. its been years since my hrt provider has been somebody who cares its amazing. my initial provider when i was a minor was this like. ancient trans woman and she took great care of me and i rly do miss t4t healthcare and i thought i would never get the same treatment from cis people (and honestly i have been put thru the wringer by them trying to get hrt after i stopped seeing her) but today seeing the birthing room there and stuff i was like. what a dream it would be to come here forever. to someday give birth here. to rediscover half a decade later that truly impassioned healthcare is still an option for me has been mindblowing. and i start weekly therapy on monday!!! i'm getting taken care of finally!!! what the FUCK!!!

#hydroxyzine isnt stopping my panic attacks anymore and its dramatically reducing my quality of life #and i really think my panic attacks are mostly hormonal. so to know i will soon be on a daily t dose and never have to experience a drop #in my hormone cycle again... god. and then prozac on top of it which has been really good for my dad's panic disorder so i have high hopes #the relief of fixing. so many things. all at once. its so much more happiness than im used to feeling?#i actually have hope for my future after feeling quite suicidal for months. just fucking wow lmao

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aro-culture-is · 2 years ago

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quick note - this blog is gonna be sparse again for at least this week. trying new medications and tbh initial side effects are not super pleasant + actual effects build up. as a result: currently as if unmedicated for mental health, with anxiety+ side effect, extra fatigue, dizziness, and fatigue. it's uh, sure something.

totally recognize that most of y'all know we're absent at times due to health things, just wanted to give a heads up that this one is at least anticipated.

#fun fact sometimes condensing meds just means poorer treatment of some conditions #this is a re-expansion + new thing #so that instead of poorly treating my mental health and using an unusually high dose SNRI for another (physical) condition #i will hopefully both be in less pain AND not depressed af AND also have an appetite again #i doubt i will be lucky and not have a fucked stomach due to meds but one can hope that an appetite will allow me to eat foods that upset #my stomach a lot less #my health is forever a massive balancing act #every time a medical thing is like 'so what meds do u take' i'm like here i wrote it down for u #and they're like 'oh. ooookay. let me just...' *five minutes of typing and clicking later*#'so! what did you come in for again? uhuh. you said you experience pain daily? with your chronic pain thing? hm. have you tried yoga?'#/gen #like. straight up every time i say 'i am in pain all the time due to fibromyalgia' they are like 'ooh studies say regular exercise helps'#and like. theoretically yes! but also. i would be lying if i said the fibromyalgia studies i've skimmed don't set off general 'bad science'#alarm bells in my brain #like... cool you performed a fibromyalgia study with... all male lab rats? mhmm? so are you aware fibromyalgia appears to occur #overwhelmingly in women? like. data seems to suggest between 70-85%?#(not that the data can't still indicate things but it certainly makes male rats a poor choice of model for tests on it)#also just... idk i've looked at some metaanalysis and been like 'okay cool theory and for all i know about human bio or bio in general that #sounds more or less correct BUT. you never discussed that one study on this subject that did NOT support your conclusion.#and that's 1) interesting when it was the most diverse group of subjects and the exceptions often teach just as much as the 'rule'#2) just shitty science. tell me how your theory is still credible when some evidence doesn't fit the model.#like... 'given that all other studies were primarily conducted on white american women in their 30s to 40s it is possible that this model #only explains (the early effects of fibro since that's a typical onset period) / (a possible genetic link primarily found in white women) /#(a possible sign of bias in diagnosis that demonstrates the possibility that there are different causes) / combinations of all of those #like... idk a paper that just throws out things that don't support it is a pretty big red flag #it doesn't mean the conclusion is entirely incorrect but it is often important to understand the context in which it applies #like... it's very easy to jump to an incorrect conclusion if you used something in the wrong context #ie: thumbs up is a good job / positive thing in a lot of western civilizations. teenage kee once went to china and discovered it to be #neutral to offensive in many areas outside of major tourist locations that were used to it #anyways i gotta sleep

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bpdamn · 6 months ago

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so it’s not enough for me to struggle mentally i’m also feeling the worst i’ve ever felt physically :)))

#this is my villain origin story #been to the ER twice the past two weeks that’s how bad it is :)#i‘m going to fucking kill myself it’s not even getting better #first i had a 40C/104F fever for D A Y S #then i got an antibiotic and at least the fever went down #BUT :)))#i got a cough and it was that bad that i started coughing up blood #at some point i just started throwing up cause again.. the cough was so intense #and if you think that’s all #no no no :)#right now i have a horrible allergic reaction to the antibiotic i mentioned that i haven’t even been taking since a week #i’ve got a HIGH dose of cortisone which i’m done with too now and it pretty much did nothing #like i guess it saved me from dying (yippie yay thanks now i just have to suffer more) but the rash isn’t just still there its worse #i can’t handle this shit #literally going insane #i need a fucking break #if one (1) more thing is thrown at me i‘ll just start sobbing #personal

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pc-98s · 8 months ago

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honestly at this point i think i’m just trying to relearn how to enjoy things

#years of way too high a dose of antidepressants has fucked up my brain so bad #if you tell your psych you’re still depressed and they just increase the dose so high they don’t make the pills in that size run AWAY #you will NOT get less depressed by taking that much you will just get permanently sick #so yeah i’m just going and throwing myself into everything i’ve ever enjoyed desperately trying to feel something again

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werewolf-kat · 6 months ago

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Going to keep an eye on things while on a newly prescribed medicine for my heart, but occasionally I've been feeling like crying from joy/relief. I didn't know it was possible to live with little to zero chest pain and other issues on a daily basis.

I started feeling its improvements on day 2, and then all day yesterday has been like a literal weight off my chest. Slept a bit for the night, woke up around 4am and I'm just... Breathing so comfortably. I feel relaxed. That feeling of pressure in my chest is hardly there anymore.

This cardiologist said I'd notice changes after just a day or two if it helps. And it's happening!!

Guess it's very much confirming I've had pericarditis for who-knows-how-long. Could've been overlooked since having my cardiac ablation in 2019. Been so freaking rough living with this stuff. All my symptoms were assumed to be part of my WPW Syndrome ('cause the ablation didn't get all of the accessory pathways.) This sort of inflammation can be caused by heart procedures though. -sigh- Why didn't anyone watch out for that or suspect it earlier?

I'll be having a new echo done in a month or two (forgot which appointment date it is among other tests coming up). Crossing my fingers I don't have the pericardia effusion there anymore too if the pericarditis is getting tackled by this new med! 🤞

#for some reason no one could confirm the pericarditis part with all these test and checkups I've done since-#-the WPW diagnosis and emergency procedure in my 2019 hospital stay #everyone assumed my symptoms were from WPW syndrome and that this random bit of fluid around my heart sac was just idiopathic #but this cardiologist I went to on Tuesday questioned me on a few things and got VERY suspicious about my condition #so she took a huuuuge guess of confidence in letting me try a safe dose of some med for pericarditis and other heart diseases #I let myself test that theory too... 'Cause something about my symptoms haven't felt all the fault of my WPW #it's been frustrating for so long man #if this relief and recovery keeps up I might actually get to feel safe exercising again and keeping my heart healthy without pain #I NEED to do physical activity and cardio especially with all the heart diseases that run in the family #but also I genuinely like exercise and wanna do strength training... I've felt so empty and dead inside without my fitness lifestyle I had-#-before my heart problems got so bad at the end of high school #that's how long it's been dude #that in itself is a long story uuughhh #wk speaks #feelings #personal #medicine #physical health #cardiology

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chiimeramanticore · 14 days ago

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howdy everyone I'm drunk at a Christmas party, send asks?

#juno.txt #abt anything rly #but if u need topics u know i love my animatronics and fnv #my friend threw a party and made the best beef stew ive ever had . among other food that was very good #shes a professional pastry chef she went to culinary school and everything its super cool #also i think my antidepressants are finally starting to work bc im so wildly positive the last two days lol. im v happy abt it (naturally)#what was i talking abt.#ive been on a weed break for.... 5 days? tomorrow i get to get high again tho im so excited for my regular dose to hit me like a truck #is it weird ive started to use my tags as a diary. who cares i feel Better finally i want this documented #im happy!! for the first time! i love living! i love my friends! i like myself! i love my partner!!!!!! im excited to keep living waow..#i gotta quit my yapping in the tags sorry gjfjgk send asks pls

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theonlythingimfuckingisstupid · 1 month ago

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Woke up in the middle of the night for the first time in a long time bc my blood sugar is high and I thought it was because. Yknow thanksgiving and all the food that comes with it but in reality it was my pump shutting off bc it was worried about a blockage. And there WASNT ONE

#I’ve been doing so good!!! good blood sugars and good carb counting so I can dose properly #but then pump decided it’s time to fuck it up and suspend my insulin #so now I’m tired but have to stay awake until my sugar is under at least 400 and my dexcom starts reading the numbers again #bc right now it just says HIGH #which isn’t helpful #em rambles

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pochapal · 10 months ago

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my dad's starting to come down with another sickness/infection................................

#:)#unproven but exceedingly likely that my prior covid infection was a major factor in the onset of my life threatening hypertension episode #that and maybe the Horrors putting me into an intensely distressed state that pushed me over the edge #so my dad (who brought in the covid infection that maybe almost killed me) coming down with very similar symptoms again is. worrisome!#extremely high doses of blood pressure medication save me.....save me extremely high doses of blood pressure medication.........#on account of the meds and also the fact i gotta have 3x daily blood pressure readings means that what happened shouldn't happen again #but still. i literally almost died less than three weeks ago. the thought of facing one of the risk factors this soon scares me a little!

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antiadvil · 2 months ago

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my inability to confidently write drunk characters is beginning to ruin my fanfic career but i'm like really not supposed to drink, can i just get high (on weed) like is that close enough??? writing characters who are cooler than you is so hard that's a joke i know drinking doesn't make you cool

#lou is loud #i'm only half joking #i am definitely not willing to get drunk for fic research though. i already feel hungover #i already take thc for migraine prevention but like a really low dose and it's mostly cbd #it kinda fucks w my sleep so i think if i took enough to get high i'd never sleep again lol #so the medically best course of action is i think to keep writing my drunk characters as silly little guys? me when my adderall wears off #etc

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cleverpaws · 11 months ago

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one of these days i will drop an essay abt how there's actually no objectively correct characterization of any gen1 characters because they are, when in their most un-filtered state, supposed to be the streamers that play them, and to assume we know basically anything about who those people are is to miss the point of the social experiments entirely. and none of you are ready

#like i think we get at least a bit of what glranboo is like. an inkling of how glcharlie must act. maybe a smidge of glsneeg #but also do we really? they're in a high-stress situation #we don't get to know anything about how they are outside of that #don't even get me started on all the characters that die before we get to see them outside of the filter #it just amazes me when i see people getting mad about how “gl!x wouldn't fucking do that” because. really? how do you know?#honestly theres something to be said here about how argumentative dsmp-adjacent fandoms are about correct characterization in general #(at least from what ive seen. its probably other fandoms too im just not in many other fandoms)#but im too tired to delve into that and well. thats not what this post is about anyways #anyways yadda yadda don't misinterpret me this is not me saying you aren't allowed to have your own interpretation of tse characters #it is in fact the exact opposite. go nuts #this is just my weekly dose of Thinking About The Gen 1 Content Creation Allegory again #i think this is my longest tag rant yet jesus #genloss tse #rlly hoping posting this goes over well ell oh ell

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falloutcoys · 5 months ago

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How has UR weekend been?

good! very lazy. i donated blood today so sleepy 👍

#my posts #my asks #spaceoperajay #the nurse who was taking my info pretty quickly figured out i was there for transgender reasons lmao #bc my old photo in the system looks nothing like me now and my hemocrit was super high and shes like ah your doctor said u gotta come in hu #and im like well she said i might if it doesnt go down enough w the dose change but i figured might as well start going again

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lesbianslovebts · 3 months ago

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When you ask for a sign and get several signs in response, actually, but they're not pointing in the direction you wanted. 🙃

#first it was forgetting and rescheduling and being late to therapy (i am never late ever)#and then it was watching daily dose of sunshine and going hmmm...#and food not sounding good #and sleeping more again #and not participating in my hobbies like i want because they can't keep my attention #and body aches and migraines #and jokingly telling my mom hey maybe i need to go back to that program i was in before if this keeps up haha #and then seeing the neon sign for the place i was at on the drive home last night...a literal sign...#i took those stupid depression and anxiety questionnaires my primary doctor always makes me take #and uh...the numbers are too damn high #llbtspost

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#sometimes i find the degree to which i cannot concentrate very alarming #like bro i canno read. i have so much to do but i wanna sleep forever #i just have to get up and go somewhere else. normally id go transfer algae or run but im stuck inside and .y fingers r all cold #usually its just in the morning that I get thr high distress so its prob the meds #but yesterday was kinda fucked. ugh.i just need to run around but i cant #i have such a sinister combo of: brain stops me from being able to b productive and if im not productive i am compelled to do horrible #things. mood issues and 0cd is horrible. horrible feedback loop #i just wish i could breathe. itll b fine. eventually itll b summer again and itll b fine #its like someone's squeezing my throat. like im sick but i kno its just that im anxious #i was doing so well the past few days in terms of reading and productivity despite the distress #and im trying to b kind and roll with the punches but its so hard #like i kno i need to relax and not resist bc resistance makes it worse but it's just hard and im worried this is how itll always b #i wish i could go back on lamicta1. i felt way better on low dose of that then i do on low dose of abi1ify. its so hard to stay on this #just bc of how my head works. and like things were complicated with the lamicta1. maybe i wouldnt habe had a reaction if i didnt get a #tatto0 while upping the dose but now im marked as allergic so i prob wont b allowed to try any of thr anti convulsive type antidepressants #ugh. i hate this. its so frustrating #unrelated

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