#will not be dosing that high again

[slippinmickeys]

Took a higher than normal dose of Adderall today because I've been a total space cadet on my normal dose lately & not only did I crack a major story beat on professional work, I fully (and I mean fucking FULLY) plotted out a fic casefile that's been languishing in my drafts for 2 years.

[buddiedaydreamer911]

THE 7x7 EPISODE IS A PARALLEL TO 2x6 WHERE MADDIE TOLD THE WOMEN ON THE CALL TO PRETEND TO TALK TO SOMEONE ELSE IF SHE WAS IN TROUBLE BECAUSE SHE HAS HAVING FLASHBACKS FROM WHEN SHE WAS SCARED OF DOUG HELP

[tj-crochets]

Still no craft updates on account of I feel Bad* but I did get like half a beanie crocheted this weekend? I also have a bat that's haunting me. In that there's a bat design I desperately want to turn into a plushie not in that I am being literally haunted by a bat. As far as I know I am not haunted by a bat but to be fair I'm not confident I'd know? *my heart rate got high enough that made me cough but my asthma was flaring up enough that cough launched me into an asthma attack, which raised my heart rate even more, so basically I used my emergency inhaler and then was on the floor for a while. Feels bad! Do not recommend. I'm okay though just tired

[mars-ipan]

man. apologies to anyone who tried to talk to me yesterday and was met only by someone out of their gourd. i got VERY high yesterday i’m almost surprised i’m not still feeling it

[kingtankgirl]

i'm still riding that fucking high from that doctors appointment. its been years since my hrt provider has been somebody who cares its amazing. my initial provider when i was a minor was this like. ancient trans woman and she took great care of me and i rly do miss t4t healthcare and i thought i would never get the same treatment from cis people (and honestly i have been put thru the wringer by them trying to get hrt after i stopped seeing her) but today seeing the birthing room there and stuff i was like. what a dream it would be to come here forever. to someday give birth here. to rediscover half a decade later that truly impassioned healthcare is still an option for me has been mindblowing. and i start weekly therapy on monday!!! i'm getting taken care of finally!!! what the FUCK!!!

[aro-culture-is]

quick note - this blog is gonna be sparse again for at least this week. trying new medications and tbh initial side effects are not super pleasant + actual effects build up. as a result: currently as if unmedicated for mental health, with anxiety+ side effect, extra fatigue, dizziness, and fatigue. it's uh, sure something.

totally recognize that most of y'all know we're absent at times due to health things, just wanted to give a heads up that this one is at least anticipated.

[bpdamn]

so it’s not enough for me to struggle mentally i’m also feeling the worst i’ve ever felt physically :)))

[phocid]

Its funny when ppl call weed the "sit on ur ass" drug bc as a medical user its the "get rid of pain and stiffness so i can get off my ass" drug

[pc-98s]

honestly at this point i think i’m just trying to relearn how to enjoy things

[deeisace]

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[werewolf-kat]

Going to keep an eye on things while on a newly prescribed medicine for my heart, but occasionally I've been feeling like crying from joy/relief. I didn't know it was possible to live with little to zero chest pain and other issues on a daily basis.

I started feeling its improvements on day 2, and then all day yesterday has been like a literal weight off my chest. Slept a bit for the night, woke up around 4am and I'm just... Breathing so comfortably. I feel relaxed. That feeling of pressure in my chest is hardly there anymore.

This cardiologist said I'd notice changes after just a day or two if it helps. And it's happening!!

Guess it's very much confirming I've had pericarditis for who-knows-how-long. Could've been overlooked since having my cardiac ablation in 2019. Been so freaking rough living with this stuff. All my symptoms were assumed to be part of my WPW Syndrome ('cause the ablation didn't get all of the accessory pathways.) This sort of inflammation can be caused by heart procedures though. -sigh- Why didn't anyone watch out for that or suspect it earlier?

I'll be having a new echo done in a month or two (forgot which appointment date it is among other tests coming up). Crossing my fingers I don't have the pericardia effusion there anymore too if the pericarditis is getting tackled by this new med! 🤞

[chiimeramanticore]

howdy everyone I'm drunk at a Christmas party, send asks?

[theonlythingimfuckingisstupid]

Woke up in the middle of the night for the first time in a long time bc my blood sugar is high and I thought it was because. Yknow thanksgiving and all the food that comes with it but in reality it was my pump shutting off bc it was worried about a blockage. And there WASNT ONE

[pochapal]

my dad's starting to come down with another sickness/infection................................

[antiadvil]

my inability to confidently write drunk characters is beginning to ruin my fanfic career but i'm like really not supposed to drink, can i just get high (on weed) like is that close enough??? writing characters who are cooler than you is so hard that's a joke i know drinking doesn't make you cool

[cleverpaws]

one of these days i will drop an essay abt how there's actually no objectively correct characterization of any gen1 characters because they are, when in their most un-filtered state, supposed to be the streamers that play them, and to assume we know basically anything about who those people are is to miss the point of the social experiments entirely. and none of you are ready