#why is it so complicated sigh

[hoofpeet]

With ur little roster of sonas representing ur brain havoc is that Alters or just a visual way to process things. I know people have been bugging you about possible DID but ur really not beating the allegations /lh

Mostly a visualizer.. They're like. Different levels of disassociation with consistent 'feels' & traits that ive come to treat like separate people to make navigating life a little easier; so if that's what an alter is than I guess. Mayhaps! But it's not really the type of thing I would feel comfortable diagnosing myself with regardless !

[aroanthy]

i love how fraught and complicated discourse around various utena characters ‘dying’ is when anthy is literally stabbed to death eternally by a million swords imbued with human hatred. and then utena gets stabbed to death by them also. like. ‘death’ is incredibly interesting in rgu because most of the time it’s this ambiguous figurative thing that has interesting implications re: ohtori as a closed-off world one can escape. we are all trapped in our coffins. mamiya is the only named character with a grave. nemuro memorial hall functions as one all the same. ruka is implied to have died in the hospital— was he dead all along? who was the boy we saw for these two episodes? is this dead boy the same boy, or is this just another coincidence from the shadow girls, cutting like a knife? it’s heavily implied that akio and anthy murder kanae by poisoning her, adding to the previous implication that they were poisoning mr ohtori too, but there are no perceptible consequences of this. kanae’s absence is not felt. she’s fed an apple slice. what happens to the bodies? we know what happened to the 100 boys, but what about everyone else? and so on and so forth. ‘death’ is a tricky thing in utena, i think it’s constantly functioning on figurative and literal levels in very different ways for very different purposes. dios died. dios was dying. dios didn’t die. he grew up. etc etc

[fisheito]

I've never seen such intense cuteness aggression before. Understandable though, because Yakumo is beyond cute. Just think your love for him is very funny, don't ever change <3

*yells over the noise of the hydraulic press*

WHAT DO YOU MEAN,,,--- =CUTENESS= AGGRESSION? . THIS IS JUST STRAIGHT UP AGGRESSION

*tosses another yakumo into the machine*

AND WHAT ARE YOU DOING ON THE FLOOR WITHOUT SAFETY GEAR. GET THOSE EYES IN SOME GOGGLES YA HOOLIGAN

[feelo-fick]

lies down. so im making chilaios webweave and i am sort of dying because i can only include so much but also......... theres so much i want to say about them..... so many songs and poems that fit..... kill me. i havent even included the mimicry parts. I HAVENT EVEN INCLUDED THE NEVER ENDING CYCLES PARTS. im doomed

[nonokoko-draws]

Do you guys see my vision

[n7viper]

queue’s still running but I may not be as active as I thought

[fyreflyy13]

errrr so i cant tell if i ate or flopped but i think its pretty good!!!

[babycupart]

i can just imagine a horror/comedy montage of dracula training renfield like how in the pink panther inspector clouseau has that manservant that he orders to attack him unawares, but it’s dracula doing the sneaking and sudden attacks from nowhere so that renfield is always ready for anything. home alone style traps, knives flying everywhere, limbs getting torn and disembowelments, outlandish solutions to unsolvable problems, fucking halberds being launched from places they shouldn’t even fit in, classic looney toons anvils being dropped, the most insane obstacle courses known to man etc etc

[compassmili]

I kinda really hate how I've been treated throughout my life

[lokislittlesigyn]

I had a con this weekend and gosh it’s making me think I really am an ambivert. I felt so energized and excited going in to see and talk to people all day, to help them, talk to them etc. - but I also felt tired and a little overwhelmed.

I was excited to get home and (try to) rest - to try to anyway - but also feel so, so sad not being around anyone. No one to talk to.

I wish I had a partner to come back home to. Sink into the arms of, cuddle, and be soft with.

[femboy-central]

is today the day I listen to broadway Gatsby cast recording……. I only Realised it was out yesterday and I’m kind of dreading it

[mad-hunts]

19.     entry made talking about a simple    /   normal day.

'dear diary' prompts...

[TRANSCRIPTION: so, i'd like to start this off by saying that i sometimes crave a sense of normalcy more than ever in my life... though i know that people might not expect something like that out of me. you know, because i seem so devoted to my work, i guess. but i have to say that after getting a taste of it today, it's probably when i'm at my happiest. me and jack had spent the day together, which is something we actually rarely get to do. he had told me about this crepe place that had opened up a little while ago and he seemed really eager to go there. so i invited jack to do that this morning and i swear, i hadn't seen him smile that big in a while. which did something funny to my heart.

and by that, i mean you know that feeling you get when you can't contain the love you have for someone? yeah that was pretty much what ended up happening to me; a fuzziness had hit me in the chest. but after we went there, and jack ate an impressive amount of crepes (he was really fond of the nutella and strawberry ones), my son suggested that we see this new movie that came out recently. and it was hard to pass up so of course i said yes. we snuck in some candy and drinks because, honestly, who wants to pay for the overpriced candy they have? not us so we did that and just like i expected... the theater was pretty packed since it was for the new hunger games movie. it was good though!

anyhow, after that, jack wanted to spend some time just hanging out by the water when he did something that surprised me. jack hugged me. and it was really nice, because i can't remember the last time my son gave me one like that. he went on to tell me that he missed 'this part of me.' this got me to thinking that, yeah, i have been treating him not so well for a while. so maybe i ought to change that. jack deserves to have a father who doesn't switch up on him every day, from being mean to being nice.

maybe i'll call my therapist back and tell her i want to start seeing her again. she might've said some things that i didn't like the last time, one of those being that i exhibit behaviors that are typical of sociopaths — but i guess i can make an exception for jack, because he's my little bug.

signed, barton. ]

[pasta5284]

watching the world rly descend into fascism over the years is just so upsetting i dont even know how to process it

[kuijoon]

originally wanted to draw his entire body but I saw the details and was like yeah no

[wayward-sherlock]

(tears in my eyes) mom’s getting older i’m wanting it back

[fourteenfifteen]

ok this is less of a problem w sangf.ielle than it is me just being me but it took me a hot minute to get into the whole thing of the shape trains being like sentient beings with intention and everything and it’s still kinda not my fave. my like gut check for train-based horror is more of a “technology created by us that we now cannot fully control” kind of thing