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[paulyenvol6]

Called to the Devil (Chapter 2)

Contains: fingering (f receiving), masturbating, mentions of smut

Wordcount: ~2.04k

Masterlist of this story

Elayne hopped in her bed that night feeling a bubbly feeling in her stomach.

The night had been funny and entertaining but her enjoyment could be exclusively be led back to the rogue prince. All night they had watched each other over their cups of wine and had exchanged teasings and jokes. It had been playful, amusing and for the first time since Elayne had arrived in the capital she had enjoyed herself.

And she liked Daemon. A lot. He was the first person she had met that she liked spending her time with. He excited her and the way he had glared at her through small eyes. The girl exhaled loudly and turned to lay on her back. There was definitely more to this growing bond, she thought and closed her eyes.

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Elayne Baratheon was the kind of person to act without caring about the consequences of her actions. It had always been like this.

When she was seven years old she had put sheep's shit in a knight's shoes, plainly because she didn't like him. It hadn't been her worst prank but still her father had been furious. When she was nine years old her parents had hosted both the Lannisters and Tarths to celebrate a union between their houses. Elayne had been terribly bored by the children her age and had chosen to do her own thing.

So she had taken the crayons she had been supposed to use for her art and writing lessons and had painted over her family's and the Lannister's and Tarth's banners. Everything that had happened afterwards had been a mess and a chaos that even Elayne herself had found herself feeling frightened. That had been the first time her mother had delivered a smack across the girl's face as well. The Tarths had been able to look over the incident because Elayne had been a little girl after all but proud Lord Gregor of House Lannister had felt mocked and insulted by her action and the Lannisters had left Storm's End two days early.

And so it is no wonder why Elayne did what she did next. Her nature hadn't changed since she had arrived in King's Landing. She did what she wanted and right now she wanted Daemon Targaryen. And that for multiple reasons. First and foremost, she merely felt attracted to the handsome prince but at the same time she liked to mess around and break the rules.

And that was why Elayne Baratheon found herself in Daemon's chambers three days after her arrival. It had been almost too easy to sneak into the prince's chambers with guards who were so simple to distract with a stray cat strolling through the keep's corridors. It took three guards to eventually catch the animal but when they returned to their post by Daemon's door Elayne had already entered the rooms.

Once she was inside she admired the comfortable interior and examined the books on the shelfs beside his bed. So he was a reader, she thought. It was late afternoon and Elayne knew that he would return to his chambers soon. The girl walked around in in front of the big four poster bed and then decided to sit down on it to wait for Daemon. She was someone who got bored really quickly and soon rested her chin on her hand feeling annoyed but then the prince finally entered the room and lifted his eyebrows when he saw Elayne sitting on his bed.

"What are you doing here?", he asked but closed the door behind him.

The girl grinned and innocently swang her legs. "I just wanted to see your chambers. How you're living."

Daemon suspiciously squeezed his eyes and walked over to her. "Well, I hope you have found what you're looking for because you'll have to leave soon. I have to take a bath before supper."

"Don't mind me.", Elayne said confidently which made the prince glare at her.

But then he just rolled his eyes and smirked which let her assume that he thought she was once again just teasing but he couldn't have been more wrong. Daemon turned around to put some of the possessions he had been carrying around on the table and when he was done and turned his attention to the girl on his bed again she sat there, her dress pulled down so her upper body was exposed.

Daemon watched her with squeezed eyes and a little smirk appeared on his face.

"You're a rude little girl. Sneaking into my chambers and exposing yourself in front of me. A married man."

Elayne was content with his reaction and seducively raised her chin. "Married men have done worse things in the past."

"That much is true.", the prince whispered but then straightened up. "You should leave, girl. Not like this though.", he smirked.

But she didn't even lift a finger and just observed the attractive man.

"I don't think I should, my prince. I want you.", she breathed and Daemon scoffed.

"I think you should get some fresh air, little one."

He had obviously not understood how serious this was to her so she stood up and approached him. With a determined look in her eyes the young girl licked over her lip.

"I think you should touch me, my prince. And I think I should get on my knees for you."

Daemon's mouth was drawn to a grin yet again but he didn't touch her. Instead he put a strand of her dark hair behind her ear.

"I don't think your lord father would be happy if his daughter returns to her home without a husband and without her maidenhead."

But his opposite just smirked crookedly. "Oh I have lost my maidenhead a long time ago."

Daemon raised his eyebrows and looked amused. "You have?"

"Yes. With the stable boy when I was 14. I told him that I wanted him to do it. He only hesitated for a short time."

Daemon chuckled lightly. "You really are a bratty little thing. Giving your maidenhead to some stable boy merely to enrage your father."

While he slowly spoke these words his hand had wandered to her waist which he gently caressed and which made Elayne inhale sharply. Then his hand slipped under her gown and it took him only a few moments to find what he was looking for. The girl stared up to him with wide eyes while he slowly, just very softly ran his finger over her pearl. Pleasure washed over her face as well as the need to get more. But as beautiful as it was, as quickly did it end.

Daemon had just rubbed her pearl for merely seconds before pulling back and his hand left her body. Elayne clearly felt unsatisfied and hummed "Don't."

But the prince tilted his head. "I'm sorry, little one. But I can't."

She was angry at these words and grabbed his upper arm. "Why not? Please, I want it."

Daemon once again laughed and stared down at the hand around his arm.

"You said it yourself. I have a lady wife. And a dear brother who would probably have me executed if he found out that I have bedded Lord Marcyn's ward. That's not what you're here for after all."

Elayne pouted at him and came closer to him.

"I thought you were the last person to care about rules or customs, my prince.", she said, her voice barely more than a breath. "I thought you were made of fire. I thought you'd take what you want."

Daemon raised his eyebrows and rested his finger under her chin.

"And what makes you think I want you?"

Elayne's face hardened. And then she suddenly pushed him away, pulled her dress up again and her dark eyes glistened at him before hasting out of his room. Daemon only heard her exhaling angrily one last time and then watched the door she had slammed behind her with a smug smile on his face.

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Elayne sat against her headboard. It was warm in her room, way too hot for the blanket that loosely covered her legs. She stared into the darkness of her chambers as though she could see anything and toyed with her fingers that laid in her lap.

She was a proud girl and her pride had just been hurt by Daemon. He had rejected her after she had put on this show and now Elayne was craving taking action. She wanted him to give in and seduce the prince. He had left her not only feeling refused but also desperate to feel him again. He had given her a little taste with his hand between her legs that had her fluttering her eyes even when she only thought about it.

The girl shifted on the bed and rubbed her arse against the mattress, anything to get some friction. Thoughtfully she chewed on her buttom lip and then let her hand slid between her thighs. Elayne wanted him but if he rejected her she had to get pleasure in a different way.

Her hand felt good on her pearl as well though she prefered the thrill of it being his finger grazing over the little nub. She had done this before, laying in her bed during the hour of the owl carefully glancing at the door and pleasuring herself. No one had taught her but when she had been 12 years old Elayne had discovered this spot between her legs that felt so good when she pressed against it.

And so she had experienced how the pleasure enhanced the longer she rubbed and circled it until this overwhelming feeling had exploded inside of her thighs and tummy and made her see stars. At first she had been a little scared because no one had ever told her what this was and it had felt so good and new and… dangerous, but over time Elayne had started to consider this her little secret with herself and her body. Until now, it seemed. Daemon wasn't a stranger to this nub regarding how quickly he had found it. And this fact made Elayne feel flustered and aroused.

She imagined his face while her finger swiftly danced over her pearl. She imagined the way he had looked at her with his grey eyes that had a shimmer in them at times. And how they got so small when he smirked. Elayne imagined what they would like when Daemon experienced pleasure. If they would get dark or maybe even lighter. She couldn't surpress a little moan when she recalled him standing so close to her earlier that day. She had been able to capture his smell, it was a scent of leather and wood. His lips had been only inches away and she had had to bring up all her will-power not to kiss him.

'Fuck', she thought as she threw her head back. She really wanted him, not only in her imagination. And yet that was all she had right now so she imagined him kissing her while his hand was beneath her skirts. He would rub her pearl again and then press a finger into her throbbing hole. Elayne felt her cunt clench around nothing and sweat formed on her forehead. She had only started pleasuring herself minutes ago and yet she could already feel herself being close to releasing.

All it took for her was the memory of his slightly parted lips while he had watched her face for her reactions to his hands between her legs and then Elayne let out a muffled shriek that she surpressed with a hand on her mouth and then she fell back against the headboard. She panted unsteadily and felt how heavy her eyelids suddenly got.

And then she inhaled deeply feeling new waves of fresh air entering her lungs and removed her finger from her cunt. Elayne wiped the liquid off on a napkin which she indifferently threw on the floor. Then, feeling both satisfied and still desperate in her desire for the rogue prince she adjusted her pillows and crawled to lay down on her back. Her eyes studied the ceiling while she waited for sleep to overcome her.

[paintednailsandsoftdetails]

911, a confession

Let me start by saying that I don't really know what I'm doing here, so bear with me. If I actually go through with posting this, and you find yourself tagged and wondering who I am and why, or even if you happen upon it in the tags, I hope you take a minute to read this.

You don't know me, but you've been my community for a while now. I've checked your blogs daily for years, I've read your posts and loved your art and sent you countless anonymous asks to pick your brains- never hate though, because I'm not a Freak.

What I am, however, is a lonely lesbian with depression and (newly diagnosed) OCD, who has always needed some hyperfixation media/fandom to find life bearable. For some ~fun context, I was Raised by the glee fandom, I will die on the hill that watching queer as folk when I was 14 and discovering its fans 10+ years after airing made me who I am, I've got the most bizarrely timed stint in the 1D fandom under my belt, and I find nothing in the world more interesting and also affirming than Queer Reading (verb) media- to the extent that I earned an English degree and wrote a thesis specifically about it.

I haven't posted on here in 1.5 years, since I fell out of my previous fandom (apologies to anyone from said fandom who still happens to follow me and is seeing this, feel free to move along.) But I've been on this app every day since, because of 911.

(starting the read more here to spare you- again especially if you are tagged, I know you're probably feeling miserable rn but I do hope the entirety of this love letter reaches you)

I started "watching" mid season 5- by which I mean I was in a deep depressive state after disconnecting with previous media hyperfixation and, when I happened upon 911 trending while in need of distraction, I quickly fell down a rabbit hole. Tale as old as time, tumblr dot com convinces you that you need to tune into *insert media here* bc its fun and there are gay people! I caught myself up through all the big blogs and by the time May Day was airing I felt like I had a decent grasp on all the lore, all the fandom drama, all the places the writers were "definitely, so brilliantly" going to be taking the show that we had to look forward to, all without ever having actually seen an episode of the show (before you boo me, yes I've watched it by now, even season 1)

But I think it is important, and also a little messed up, that I fell in love with 911 through YOU, through the fans. Obviously watching the show initially through the lens of fan reactions first and not whats actually happening on screen can have some... interesting results. We've heard it all before, with the people who started watching specifically for Buddie around season 4/5 because they saw The Will and by the time they caught themselves up and watched the end of season 6 they wanted their refunds.

Here is where I want to make a clarification- the reason I got so interested, why I started coming back every day to check in on tags and certain favorite blogs I didn't even follow bc I was denying the want to become fully Involved, was because I fell in love with Evan Buckley. I won't lie, it was Buddie that caught my attention first- of course, thats what everyone here was talking about- and as much as I quickly started discover the value of the show outside of them (Henren my absolute Beloveds!!!!! Captain Dad Bobby Nash you are so special to ME. Chimney man of all time i can keep going) none of it was enough initially to bite the bullet and catch up on 5 seasons worth of a show I also knew would have elements I WASNT interested in (Copaganda and Taylor Kelly I am looking at you.)

But then I started really getting into fan's readings of Buck *insert footage of me learning the Buck Begins of it all for the first time* as a character separate from Eddie (as much as people were capable of anyway, and I will say some of yall continue to be absolutely atrocious at it) and I knew I was done for. Buck, this character so full of goodness, and his need to be Found but to also Find his own family and purpose and sense of self, for whom the show's thesis statement concerns the act of working to Make the kind of Love you want to have in this world, even if you were raised without a blueprint for it- I'm sorry but what else were me and my gay ass queer reading inclined hyperfixated brain to do other than take Evan Buckley into the folds and never let him go?

I love Buck. I was convinced by the time the s5 finale was airing before I had actually watched the show that Buck had to be bi. Even if they never did a thing with it you couldn't convince me otherwise and I was also confident that Oliver was portraying him with a similar mindset. I never wavered in that interpretation, even when the utter disappointment of the s6 finale and the failure to do anything truly meaningful character development wise through the lightning strike-Natalia speed run hit, and certainly not as I got fully caught up actually watching the show outside of tumblr live reactions during episode airings. I'll admit I was pretty ready to Check Out after the end of season 6, to the point where I hardly checked in on fandom at all going into 7 until the rumblings of possible canon Bi Buck reached me and I doubled back like "hold on, for real this time?" But when I say Check Out, I mean I was ready to walk away from the hyperfixation with a joint lack of satisfaction with canon & firm conviction that Buck was queer.

Things with Eddie are a lil different- and I want to try and keep this bit brief bc this is ultimately a post about Buck and Bucktommy and I have no interest in unsettling those of you who may have a queer reading connection to Eddie as real as the one I feel for Buck, but unfortunately this conversation cannot exist separately from the Eddie/Buddie of it all- I personally don't think Eddie is queer. I don't really think I ever did, even when I was in the thick of it with falling for Buddie. I know me saying this would cause certain audience to pelt me with accusations of fetishizing Buck or treating Eddie as nothing more than a vehicle for Queer Buck via Buddie- false! I actually think Eddie is an incredibly fascinating character, a deeply compelling representation of grief and fatherhood and masculinity, and also a hilariously weird lil bitch guy. I just don't feel like- especially having removed fanon glasses while actually starting to watch the show, and taking the time to acknowledge that the things about Buddie that appealed to me on a romantic level (this is NOT about their friendship which i stand by being beautiful and important) all boiled down elements I was reading within and onto BUCK specifically, not Eddie. Perhaps an impossible concept for some, the idea that Bi Buck could feel so real and apparent to me primarily divorced from the idea that Eddie had to be queer as well, but I won't bore you with my explanations for it, though I suspect the people tagged and still reading by this point know exactly what I am talking about.

All of this potentially obnoxious prologue to say, I've spent the last however many months falling in love with canon Bi Buck *insert footage of me speed running back into my daily fandom involvement/blog check ins the moment I knew Buck kissed a man*, with Bucktommy, and with Bucktommy fans.

For a long while there I had resigned myself to an odd, though perhaps not as unique as I thought, reality of loving and fully believing in Queer Buck, not necessarily feeling the same about Eddie or Buddie, but also in full agreement with many that already 6 seasons in with literally nothing else having remotely worked, Buddie would be the only satisfying conclusion for Buck's love story. This is again not exactly how I felt about Eddie- but a big part of that for me is that I don't think Eddie's primarily story in 911 is a love story. He's the vessel for telling other important, beautiful stories about fatherhood and forgiveness and that is OKAY bc not every characters story is a love story!!! Evan Buckley's is though (Despite some very weird and confusing things mr stark has just said about his character that actively contradict what hes previously said and what audiences have been looking at and for this entire time, but I digress)

But then! By whatever happy accident we want to call it 911 had Tommy Kinard fall back into its lap as the solution to what felt like the impossible: They found the ONE way they could introduce a non Eddie Diaz love interest for Buck that COULD be satisfying for Bucks story. Someone with connections to the 118 and the shows history and potential for further development within main storylines as his job directly pertains to their plots. Someone with such compelling connections for interweaving these two characters that it got us- including the showrunner- talking about the Red String of Fate. That it got some of the beloved tumblr pals I had been watching for years, who NEVER would have believed they'd ever root for a Buck endgame that wasnt Buddie doing exactly that, and with joy, love, and conviction. Again I'll ask, what else were me and my Buck loving brain to do but take Bucktommy into the folds and never let go? (apparently I hadn't considered that there was apparently horrifying alternative- more on that next!)

As you all damn well know, falling in love with Bucktommy has not come without its trails. I have never seen things in fandom as vile as the things I've seen go down here. And as I mentioned before, I've been IN IT with yall for a while, even if you didnt know it. I was here, lurking, and I know this fandom has had its highlight reels of racism and misogyny and harassment (despite certain factions current batshit consensus that things were "never bad" before *gasp* a couple of people, some over the ancient age *double gasp* of 30 heard about bucktommy through tumblr the same damn way the 90% of you who havent been watching since season 1 heard about buddie and decided to invest)

What happened tonight made me cry, for about 40 minutes straight. And yeah, its been a devastating week for us all for a lot of reasons. On top of the ~national dread (I'm a lesbian in the US btw) today was my 7th out of 9 straight days of open to close shifts in a demanding retail/management position, and I have a head cold so maybe this was just a Breaking Point after a whole lotta shit.

But also, maybe, it was really fucking shitty to watch this play out. I've already seen countless people say it better than I could. Yeah, its a tv show. It's a fictional ship. But its also escapism, a spot of joy many of us were extra dependent on this week. It was something GOOD, queer representation and a love story on national tv days after a horrifying reality set in for queer people, and we are allowed to acknowledge how much losing that sucks just on a general level for a second...

Second over, now lets talk not on the general level. Lets talk about how I've watched real human beings get harassed, sent death threats, be told they are faking cancer and failing to properly grieve dead loved ones, I've watched deeply homphobic language be adopted and incorporated into everyday use despite constant correction and pleas from queer men to knock it the hell off, I've watched homophia as a whole run rampant and unchecked by big blogs, with some biphobia to boot, I've seen some images of horrific anti gay violence and historical trauma invoked as a way to make fun of others, I've seen lesbianism slandered and proffered as an excuse for such vile behavior in a disgusting erasure of the beautiful solidarity that has historically existed between gay men and lesbians in the face of homophobia, and yes, I've seen graphic descriptions of child rape via targeted fanfiction attacks.

Again, others have already said it better than I can: This isn't about Bucktommy. It's about the way that everyone who was Pulling for them as a couple, who DARED to *checks scribble on hand* enjoy a canon queer mlm couple featuring a character (or two) they've grown to care deeply for, has been subjected to all the above mentioned and more, and for...what. For. What.

In the name of a fanon couple that has not been legitimized by the writers in 7 years? of a fanon character interpretation of a canonically straight man (not just assumed straight, verbally assigned straight now on multiple occasions) that people cannot fathom perceiving this show, let alone liking these characters, without? For the version of this story that, if the writers REALLY wanted to happen could have happened so many fucking times by now- especially when the show was coming to what might have been its end in s6- and still hasn't? A version that has been dismissed multiple times by the writers cast crew and every other unfortunate individual who has been harassed repeatedly about it?

And I'm not here to say Buddie is inherently bad!!!! It brought me into this same as the rest of you. I don't even believe it would necessarily be a bad or wrong conclusion for either character or the show were it to eventually, finally happen!! But for the love of god, hear me when i say from the outsider pov of someone who has experience the show in the way I did first through fandom then stepping back to watch for real and now watching it with my mother who is a near Exact representation of the general audience of this show (experienced Procedural watcher, no idea about Buddie or fandom interpretation, had no sense of gay eddie to speak of, and is not shocked but pleasantly surprised by and endeared by Bi Buck) you are SEVERELY deluded if you think what happened tonight by breaking up Bucktommy "makes sense" to any audience outside of buddies who've been writing manifestos for years about how every single thing in this show is "carefully, intentionally, clearly" leading to Buddie canon. I swear to you the people at home do not fucking see it. The people at home saw Buck in a nice, developing relationship that finally seemed to be going somewhere real for him after discovering an important part of his identity late in life, and then they saw that relationship abruptly ended and Buck heartbroken, going to sit with his best, still straight, bud Eddie Diaz. The ONLY people this makes sense for are the people who I am afraid it seems may have legimately bullied this into happening.

And if that is the case? We are sooo far fucking past the point of no return here. There is no true satisfaction in a Buddie canon endgame here for anyone who's lived through the past half a year in this fandom unless you were a perpetrator of any of the horrific shit mentioned above. I mean that with my whole fucking chest. If, and i do think it is a Big Fucking Fat if, Buddie does happen, and you find yourself no qualms happy and satisfied with it as your well earned endgame, I hope you know how rotted you are. And while I'm at it, I hope some way some how you come to see that this was not the carefully crafted beautifully developed loved story of all time you were gods bravest soldier in waiting for. Its just what left after years of meandering storytelling and cyclical character "development" with a bow slapped on top at the last moment because the gift giver was afraid you might kill them if they presented less.

Anyway. I said a million words ago that this was a love letter, and I do mean that. As much as its also been an mental health exercise for me to write this all out. So,

@kinardbuckleys @bucksboobs @kirkaut @tevankinkley @userautumn @sunglassesmish @tommyscurls @ohithankyou @buckxtommy @princessfbi @bigfootsmom @firewasabeast

(And so many other people I'm surely forgetting, and the few artists and writters on other platforms I dared to venture to- maybe never opening twitter again after this xoxo)

Thank you. You don't know me, I never quite got over the anxiety of trying to re-enter a fandom space after a time away, or maybe some of the imposter syndrome or embarrassment I felt accidentally falling in love with this show and Buck by just watching you all talk about him before anything else. But for the last few months, some of you years, you've been my community, my escape. I've loved watching your brains and your hearts work to discuss and create, even amidst the absolute shittiest fandom behavior Ive ever seen. And I am as grateful for getting to experience it from a far as I am devastated at the thought of losing it, of not individually typing in all your blog names (I was too anxious to even FOLLOW you guys truly rip) to see what new content or spec or art or love you had to share about Buck / Bucktommy every day.

In another life- one where idk perhaps people were kinder or showrunners weren't bullied and actors weren't dropped last minute after months of torment and a satisfying canon queer love story for a character who genuinely needs it could just Be in peace- I would have loved to one day put on my big girl pants (aka saved Buck url) joined the fandom for real. To have directly talked to any of you in a way that wasnt... this.

I would have loved to love Bucktommy with you.

[moonpie016]

Why is Soul always the most difficult one to design? I don't know. But, he's FINALLY here.

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Looking less human every time I draw it.

THE COLORS. ... Soul's shadow side gave me issues with color, I wanted it to be a darker red, but it didn't work well with the different line art. Soo a deep grey, yay.

And I never really made that side of Soul reminiscent of the actual videos. But it looks nice.

Now you might maybe (or maybe not) wondering what it means by "first to exist". I had a thought, since this is literally a person's inner workings, maybe HMS could exist one by one at certain stages of life. Though, they'd all be close in existence. Sooo Soul would be the first, he is the host after all. And a vessel needs a soul.

And Heart would be second. Why? I don't know if emotions come first, or maybe both Heart and Mind can come at the same time. But guess Mind's the youngest here. Surprising. Anyways.

Soul can basically rip off his tail, yeah. Seen that already. They can also cry a river of static.

If I were to describe Reasons in one way, It'd be an older sibling trying to keep their cool under so much chaos everyday, that they'd eventually become so used to everything happening, that one little issue is the last straw. Loves his siblings, but can get on his nerves.

Everything else from the other posts still happen. Darrell still exists. Companion chicken.

It also has a bit of an identity crisis, how does that work when it's a part of yourself?

Well. It's like a feeling of being lost. Whole can get lost on himself, and in turn, would obviously affect Soul in the process.

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I think I'm done with this... explanation? Idk? But I think that's all.

I hope Heart and Mind are easier to finish.

And I wish this random wall of words cheers you all up.

Yeah it's a character headcanon thing, but even if it is that. I hope this gives you something nice to look at. /gen

Something fun.

Enjoy.

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[breakfastatmiles]

Your art is wonderful!!!

A constant inspiration to my own creativity and art work. Could you explain some of your art style to me? I’m interested in looking at a bunch of different ones to try and finally find one for me.

Goodnight!!🌙

Thank you so much! That means the world to me! I’d be happy to share some of my process with you 😄

Keep in mind I’m completely self-taught, so this is just the process of how I make my drawings and not any sort of professional advice 😅 apologies for the long post ahead 😪

Starting with the basics, my biggest influences are Jin Kim and Ami Thompson. Both are amazing character designers and I really admire their stylization and expressions. Whenever I feel stuck on something, I always go back to their drawings for inspiration.

I typically start in Procreate with a canvas size of 3300px x 4200px or 11” x 14” with a DPI of 300.

I put my reference in the corner of the canvas (in this case it’s a screenshot from the movie She’s the Man) and I start my rough sketch (emphasis on rough). Sketching is probably the longest part in my drawing process because I’m focusing on expression, composition, proportions, etc. This usually has about two to three passes before I move on.

Then I lower the opacity of the sketch and clean it up with some lineart on a new layer. Lineart doesn’t play a huge part in my style, but I still like to play around with line weight. Since I knew this was going to be a fully rendered piece, I didn’t spend much time on lines that I knew were going to be removed later in the process.

Underneath all of that, I use the skin tone and color the base of the character. I make sure that I color ever so slightly past the lineart, for reasons that will be important later. This part can be tedious, especially because I use a textured brush, so there are a lot of gaps that I fill in later.

Then using new layers with clipping masks, I start the flat colors. Nothing too crazy here.

I’ve made color palettes for characters and backgrounds that I typically draw, so this way it speeds up the process and maintains style consistency. If I need a color that I don’t normally use, I’ll just play around with the colors until I find something that fits well with everything else.

Next, on a multiply layer, I add some basic shading (with the skin tone color) and blush (with an orange-pink color). I also move onto the background. Some are more complex than others. If I’m going for a more cinematic look, I’ll fill the background in with some basic shapes and blur it slightly. Thankfully the background was pretty simple in this reference.

I start checking proportions now that everything has basic colors. Then I duplicate my lineart layer and change it to a pinkish-red and put it on multiply mode and turn down the opacity. This is why the base color layer needs to line up with the lineart, otherwise there’d just be gaps underneath. Instead of erasing my black lineart layer, I put a mask on it and just keep the eyes and eyebrows.

Then I start working on the shading and hair, which is an entire process in itself. Maybe I’ll make a tutorial on that one day 😅

I also use some vivid light and soft light layers and put in some subtle colors for extra pizzazz.



Then I add a hard light layer to the eyes for that glossy look and on a normal layer add some white details just to make some things pop more (like the nose, lips, eyes, sometimes hair, etc.)

I did make an eye tutorial a while back, but my process is still the same!

Lastly, I spend a lot of time playing with different blending modes (multiply, add, soft light, vivid light layers) and really focus on the lighting. I used to focus on adding a lot more details and make the coloring more realistic, but I found that the more simplistic coloring was easier for me to do and fit my style better. Sometimes I still tend to go too far with the details and realize that it looks better when I tone it down a bit.

That’s pretty much it! Let me know if you have any questions! Hope this helps. Have fun making art!

[princess-of-songs]

Tashi’s Jealousy and Possessiveness

*originally posted on Reddit*

I like how Tashi’s jealousy and possessiveness manifests itself in different ways.

Patrick: We see her jealousy and possessiveness in the way we are used to seeing it. At 19, we see her get visibly upset over Art suggesting Patrick may not be loyal and that he may not love her. I think this possessiveness started when they first got together when she asked him not to tell anyone or she’d stop seeing him. It meant something to her because I think Patrick was her first serious relationship. In the original screenplay, Tashi mentions to Patrick in the Atlanta scene, that her dad hated his guts because as far as he was concerned, Patrick was the boy who ruined Tashi’s life. In the film, we see Tashi mention her parents didn’t want her to go to boarding school for a multitude of reasons, one being distracted by boys like Patrick and Art. Tashi’s cross necklace also pointed me in this direction. I would remiss if I didn’t point out the chaotic hypocrisy. Challengers has strong motifs of repeated behaviors coming in cycles of 3 and specifically with Tashi’s relationship with Patrick- cheating together has always been inevitable. Patrick cheated on his girlfriend with Tashi and Art at the Junior US Open, Tashi and Patrick cheated in Atlanta, and Tashi and Patrick cheated in New Rochelle. Each time, Tashi attempts to ignore Patrick’s luring charm and fails spectacularly. Our girl is nothing but consistent and I can’t say I would’ve fared much better. The specific jealousy part of it is fascinating to me. Tashi gets irritated with Art over the simple idea of imagining Patrick being with other girls on tour or being filled with quiet, simmering anger when she sees Patrick with Helen at the hotel bar, and even making a snarky comment when Patrick mentions he’s still staying at Helen’s house. But we never see her jealous when Patrick is with Art. Tashi only smiles and cheers when they’re together, she’s devastated when Art tells her they fell out of touch, and she’s pissed off when Patrick tries to put Art down in the alleyway. Patrick and Art are just as much of each other’s as they are her’s. What pops out at me also in the midst of this, is seeing Patrick both excite and frighten Tashi. Here is someone who can see through her facade she puts on, calls her out on it, still thinks she’s hot, and loves her anyway. I can easily see why that would scare her. It’s not a secret that Tashi loves to be in control in any and all aspects of her life. Patrick disrupts that and gets under her skin like no one else does. It’s not a feeling she’s used to. She’s probably used to getting praise from others like Art (though I think his is so raw and genuine) or ignoring the not so glamorous parts of who Tashi is as a person. Patrick doesn’t allow for that and it drives her (and Art) crazy.

Art: We see her jealousy and possessiveness in a unique way. Tashi is simmering with jealousy over Art being able to heal from his surgery with no issue. The thing really withholding Art in the present, is his emotional and mental exhaustion from a myriad of things. Art still gets to play the sport that Tashi lives and dies for and it drives her crazy that Art’s heart doesn’t seem fully in it. She tries to do everything in her power to help him get his confidence back despite saying she can’t do that for him. Art is her avatar in tennis. His body is her’s and through him, she can still play the sport and accomplish her dreams. The idea of hanging up her racquet is unfathomable. Tennis is so intertwined in her soul. The question rises who is Tashi to the world without tennis? Tashi clearly wants to delay that answer as long as she can. This possessiveness and jealousy unravels when the night before the final match. I honestly think Tashi’s conversation with Patrick opened her heart. As much it hurts to leave tennis, I think she’s finally fully allowing herself to see it from Art’s perspective. He’s tired. I think in the best way an emotionally repressed person can, I do think she does try to reassure and comfort him by saying he doesn’t need her permission. It’s okay and he can retire. What throws Tashi for a loop is when Art questions her being okay with it, he was expecting and hoping for similar argument he had with Patrick, something to fuel him. I think he wanted Tashi to neg him in a similar way. Tashi and Patrick are extremely similar but there are key differences. As much as Tashi can be quite brutal with her words when talking to Patrick about his tennis career, we don’t see her be as harsh with Art. In fact, Tashi highlights his skills and praises him. Tashi doesn’t really neg Art and we can see why. She goes too far with her statement. At first, she looks visibly ill before and after she says it. Topped off by her rubbing Art’s head, asking if that helps him. This makes Tashi spiral into desperation with her feelings all over the place. I think she’s too stubborn to take her words back so she comes up with a last ditch effort plan to get Patrick to throw the match so Art can win. So she doesn’t have to lose Art or tennis. The chaos of this act is logically speaking, Tashi could’ve texted or called Patrick. Getting in the car in the middle of the night with the your ex that you’ve been passively aggressively flirting with and gotten jealous over is setting yourself up for failure. But Tashi’s feelings and intentions are all jumbled up because she’s desperately trying to cling on to tennis and she isn’t ready to leave it or them because she cannot have it without Art or Patrick.

It isn’t that Tashi isn’t herself around Art, she is. How I’ve read it, is that the two of them are deeply repressed in several areas of their lives so there is a wall of passivity between them in addition to the current lack of passion in their marriage and the pedestals they put each other on. They’re both fully aware of each other’s flaws and the issues in their marriage but they dance around it until the bedroom scene. With Patrick specifically, I was thinking about him saying to Tashi “You like precisely one thing about me. It’s the fact that I’m such a piece of shit that I can see you for exactly who you are.” In the original script, Patrick mentions he didn’t treat her like a mystical being who was going to change his life. I believe that he is Tashi’s twin flame/mirror. To me, Tashi is a more raw, unfiltered version of herself when it comes to Patrick. He pushes back and challenges her, which is something I don’t think Tashi is quite used to in her life when she first meets him. I think what’s also notable to me is whenever Tashi and Patrick talk, they’re saying the most raw unhinged things but they aren’t beating around the bush with each other. It’s fun foreplay for them. But unlike with Art (for the both of them), they struggle to surrender to the deeper feeling of love, longing, and surrender. Being vulnerable and soft with each other doesn’t come easy to them. Ultimately looking at it from Tashi’s perspective, she can be herself around both of these men but displays different aspects of her true self.

[incomplete-ruler]

Paralive 5th Anniversary Art

Now that I've woken up I've finally gotten around to look at the vid for the 5th anniversary (even though I was awake when it premiered (I thought it was gonna be a full livestream okay?)). So I also decided to post my thoughts about it on here which is mostly: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

(P.S. The screenshots I have may look quite shit since they were taken on my phone (on the highest quality but still))

1. GokuLuck

I just needed to take a screenshot with all of them because they all look so good. My personal favourites are Kenta and Shion of course (I also just realised that Kenta is wearing really baggy pants (or so it seems)).

Also Yuto/Hancho 👀

2. 1Nm8

I LOVE LITERALLY EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS AHHHHHHHHHHH. Rokuta's outfit is so cute (as always) and as expected Kei is giving futuristic Jesus (I still need to research the bible).

3. VISTY

MY ENBY CHILD AND MY SON/DAUGHTER EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THEY LOOK SO CUTE. Everyone here looks so good though (their colour scheme is everything).

4. AMPRULE (it's actually just Dongha)

MY DAUGHTERRRRRR AHHHHHHHHHHHH SHE LOOKS SO GOOD (AND CUTE). She almost looks like some sort of army general or smth (which does suit her).

I also included a cropped version of her full outfit here:

5. 悪漢奴等

I knew even before I saw this full image that Reo and Hokusai were gonna kill me. I thought that the official art where Hokusai had his arms exposed was bad enough...NOPE (can't wait to show my friends this image when I officially get them into paralive 'cause goddamn). Also MY SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON. HE LOOKS SO CUTE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

6. cozmez

Needed to include my bitch Kanata first because he's so pretty (plus this photo is higher quality)

This is also peak trans masc fashion (now that I think about it I don't think I've seen them wear such baggy clothes before).

7. The Cat's Whiskers

And here's my main bitch Ryuu who always deserves to be in 4k (even though the quality is ass). I also wanted to get a close up of my son/future son-in-law Shiki but it didn't look as good as the full image (imo).

Now THIS is absolute perfection. My son/son-in-law looks amazing (so does the lighting). Even the rainbow in the bottom left corner is perfection...

Also Yohei you slu-

8. B△E

I just needed to put Anne first because goddamn they're beautiful.

I'm not even a bae stan but why do their outfits always look so good?? (At least most of the time imo)

I didn't include Buraikan because I didn't have much to say about them, but whoever made all these really outdid the anniversary art for this year. I'm definitely gonna save/look at some of the individual photos if I can find them later.

[mimimar]

finally completed my comic based on the song ivy by taylor swift!✿ please zoom in to read the text and see the details~

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you can get the digital zine pdf here! it includes extras like character profiles, costume design, more art of willow and ivy, zine-exclusive sketches and an illustrated guide to the symbolism of all the flowers in this comic.

you can also get prints of individual pages here!

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[keii]

late morning

[bandtrees]

they would get divorced in one universe just to find eachother in another one

alternatively titled: sometimes you're the level-headed token flesh-head impulse-control-and-polycule-member of a stubborn, eccentric, and hearty telephone-headed drug addict, and there's cruelty in the world you deem fit to suicidally fight, and that either goes about as well as you'd expect it to, or you learn about love and the value of your life and junk along the way

[doomedclockworkdotmp3]

heeyyy gaaanggg

the pose and the background of the album version (left) are based on oingo boingos only a lad album art. not cause i think he has anything to do with it but just cause ive been wantin to draw that pose for like. weeks and i didnt know who to put there. so why not my latest bug man.

[sketchncanto]

Another Encanto art dump yeaaaahhhh!! It’s been I while 🥲

Back at it again with the ✨ family fluff ✨

I would say that I missed drawing them but— I didn’t— because I never stopped 😂

I just take forever to finish and post things nowadays

[crabsnpersimmons]

CRAB IS YOUR MOON OKAY WITH HUGS?

PLEASE THIS GUYS NEED SOME AFFECTION

LET ME JUST-

GHHHHHH-/pos

[bajablastable]

yipee

[horsemeatluvr23]

the juppet !! i just realised he is jerma posing i swear that was unintentional...... i spent so long digging thru muppet concept art and looking at old puppet designs just to end up doing a rly simple drawing but. i love joehills!! i have only been watching them for like 4 years but their videos r so special to me :3

[canecone]

Hello creatures of the night 😍😍 I have come back to fix the planetlord design

I need to stop pushing myself so far to the point the quality is the worst when I get long periods of inspiration 😔

[lameow-l]

GAMING IS MY SON AND IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO HIM IM GONNA KILL EVERYONE IN THIS ROOM AND THEN MYSELF!!

LOOK AT HIM HES SO CUTE

i still have hope in getting the other boys too

its ok they can be a band or smth.. at least then gaming wouldn’t have to be so disappointed in people not hiring him bc he’s just having fun with his boys…