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Dude what the hell
I forgot to take my tablets for ONE DAY
Meaning i missed ONE birth control pill
Last Thursday.
And im still having. Problems. Its Thursday again.
Normally I'll only get bleeding if I forget for like. Two or three days. But. Just ONE??? And for a whole week after???
#its not even like. a period#thank god#i take the pill continuously so i dont get them#but. its still. concerning. especially with some other. weird things.#guess whos getting an. internal ultrasound. next week :')#im terrified#but. im more terrified of things that could be wrong. so.#i want to throw up just thinking about it but if these problems are something serious....#and. with all the cancer in my family.......#'oh but youre young-' my mum was diagnosed with leukaemia when she was 28/29. im nearly 26. her older sister died of it at 5.#why do so many things have to be wrong why cant i just be. okay.#why does everything have to be messed up#ignore me#vent#period mention#idk#ask to tag
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What was up with cass fighting for his life to stop dean from rescusing sam (not to mention his almost enthusiastic jumping to move past sam's death) He did NOT have that energy when the roles were reversed
like summin smell fishy and it aint just cass's pussy
#i think *i think* this post is#anti castiel#or#cass crit#so im tagging accordingly in case#but yeag#sam winchester#mine#dean was so real when he dropped that banger 'and why does that something that went wrong always seem to be you' <- to paraphrase#Michael took over dean and he just dipped forever#shoving all responsibility onto sam: he was left to take care of the au hunters#look after jack#try to help nick who was wearing the face of his goddamn abuser#all the while he's being drained himself physically and emotionally over searching for dean#Like shit hit the fan and cass immediately drops off the face of the earth and when he shows up#sam has to save his ass#How many times did sam clean cass's mess and how many times did cass shove his fuck ups entirely on sam#the recent lucifer break-out being the most atrocious one. He broke sam's hell wall and apologized to DEAN he knew Lilith was the last seal#and helped bridge the rift between samdean he attributes ALL he learned from humanity to dean#and doesn't mention ANYTHING sam has possibly did for him#like what a cool friend man he's good to have around for the vibes and atmosphere but in dire times? He'd go mia on your ass#He'd go mia on your ass or make everything worse#making the post samptique✨️ and word dumping in the tags#samdean
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Do you have any plan to make some kind of bonus chapter or oneshot about marcille's perspective in little creature? It's not like I'm asking you for it ofc!! it's just that i think it'll be interesting to read, and especially since you had those tags about marcille after her fight/outburst with falin and how you couldn't add it to the fic because the fic is from falin's perspective
Probably not about anything that happens during a little creature, but maybe something before or after? Sometimes I do like to do "the other character thinking back to events while doing stuff in a sequel" oneshot type thing, but we'll see how it shakes out!
#asks#a little creature#i will say#Marcille was firmly in denial and just Not Thinking About Her Feelings#the dinner scene was the first crack in her self delusion but it was still there#then the last chapter was it finally shattering as she saw Falin kissing someone else and experienced Elf Shrimp Emotions#just insane intensity furor and jealousy#she was about to fucking blow up#and then the confrontation happens and shes literally in shambles#cant think everything hurts#just barely scraping enough braincells to thank kiki inbetween enormous hiccups and sobs that shake her entire body#sees laios. slaps him. collapses into his arms sobbing and apologizing again#he cant actually understand what shes saying through the blubbering but hes doing his best to comfort her#to be perfectly honest im not 100% she even has the space to process 'i have feelings for falin' in full clarity#the 'why did seeing her kissing someone else make me feel like i wanted to die or kill someone' doesnt like... click#not until she gets over the mess of 'how could she say that to me didnt i do enough'#'didnt i love her enough does she care so little for me that she cant even bother to think about how i feel'#'does she care so little for me that she doesnt know that i would die for her i HAVE died for her and killed for her'#'how could she not know that she was nothing less than my whole reason for living for so long'#... i guess thats what shes blubbering at laios but it just comes out as like#'howcouldnbwhebwsbebwbendoesbdhemotbbwkowbblblbllvlbl'#snotting into laios's shirt#its ok. she'll be ok. like laios has to carry her back to her room because she latched on and didn't let go until she literally like#cried herself to exhaustion and passed out.#but she'll be okay. after maybe another day of moping she finally has her White Woman Moment of looking at herself in the mirror#and admitting that she's in love with falin and has been for a while
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The Emperor's ability to concentrate is impressive. He was just mind blasted, tentacle whipped, and roasted with dragon fire, my Tav next to him is on the ground dying, but he's still focused on those stones.
#if you're wondering#well why do you not have him protected? why are you letting a dragon roast him and all that?#it's because I made bad decisions ok? 😩😅#and I didn't realize Empy's thing would count as attacking and cancel out sanctuary#everything is fine though#mostly#i also messed up by forgetting to short rest before the brain#thus not resetting all the 1x per short rest things#this is why I could never do honor mode lol#also why does “mind blasted tentacle whipped and roasted with dragon fire” sound so dirty#bg3#bg3 spoilers#bg3 emperor#baldurs gate 3#baldurs gate 3 spoilers#baldurs gate 3 emperor
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Sorry I intended to keep about 400 miles from this discourse but what do you fucking mean that people heard the guy who made fake screenshots against an artist justify it using "Oh its to show that callout culture is bad and that you people were too quick to believe them." and just went yeah that sounds right you have a good point callouts are bad but youre just showing that we support what youre doing actually Really just proves to me that at best the average person who never shuts the fuck up about "cancel culture" is either a remarkable idiot or a massive hypocrite provided you say the right cue words at them
#1) people who do this can and do lie about their reasons especially with how easy it is to get people on your side doing so#2) even if it shows whatever fucking shit theyre making up ITS STILL A DEEPLY FUCKED UP THING TO PIN ON A PERSON???? LIKE#The artist in question does not benefit from you using them as your little example toy. If they in your own argument are a victim of the#traumatic nature of callout posts WHY THE HELL ARE YOU JUSTIFYING FURTHER TRAUMA??? WHAT DO THEY GET FROM THIS#Sorry i have close friends who were the victims of basically almost everything said artist had happen only with even less justification#and it haunts them every fucking day to see the way people are still treating them. the 'good' treatment included#Why for even a second are you people acting like you actually give a fuck when you are justifying the fallout of this whole mess with 'oh i#guess this really proves a point. its actually showing thing bad' yeah im sure that feels great from being on the receiving fucking end as#the strung up example. Im sure theres really a lot of comfort in 'oh we shot you to show how bad shooting people is'#i have zero fucking respect for any of you. hypocrites the lot of ya just looking for the wording that proves your own personal side#rw drama#i fucking guess im just literally fucking baffled at how fucking. little it takes
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how do i start coming up w more interesting character designs like urs. they are sooooo cool and i try to make a character like that but it always comes out stinky
if it stinks thats great
#serious-ish answer that i am not great at setting out tips or advice. but just get weird and out of the “comfort zone” with some things#also learning anatomy but thats a given. you can do even more funny shit once you learn the basics of anatomy#but for everything else just get weird! think of something thatd be strange or funny and run with it. what qualifies as funny is up to you#u kno whats also funny and cute and awesome? variety#mess with proportions bodies faces markings and make something that is unique and strange#maybe ypu think well this stinks or is too strange or people will think youre weird. but why? and why should it matter?#id love to see your character designs anonymous individual. have faith in yourself#if it sounds like im bullshitting its because i havnt had brekfast yet but character and creature design is something im very passionate ab#especially seeing how others interpret the “rules” of it or how some “ignore” these “rules”. have i mentioned pokemon quartz yet#i love unique characters that stand out among ... i dont know. “clean” designs. i like how ones artstyle impacts a take on a design too#im rambling insanies i realize also. im inspired by old cartoons and looking at people and animals. i also learned how to draw hands#by drawing wings first. what does thay mean? Well get strange sir
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torn between telling the truth and asking to push tomorrow's date to sunday and risking him being grossed out, or soldiering through tomorrow and forcing myself to attend and risk having the worst date ever from all the pain.
#rin rambles#i jst threw up my lunch we aint doing well fellas#does this mean i have to eat another paracetamol is that why the pain isn't subsiding#gods i am. A mess#fuck i still have to take my laundry and everything hhhh#just want to crumple and curl in bed and cry#i cant do this im getting a half day off
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and then i proceeded to flip shit. note that she was sending me these while i was actively in the ER
and then after i flipped shit and exploded at her over text, she sent this gem amidst other texts
ah yes, this makes so much fucking sense. because my friend is experiencing mania and maybe psychosis she is weak, and thus is draining me, so i should drop her immediately. and of course miles being sad on his birthday is comparably to alyssa having a psychotic break. and the fact that i'm resisting anna's advice also warrants her threatening to cut me off again
#p#who says this shit????? who the fuck says this shit to someone in crisis who you purportedly love and care about???#like what the fuck is wrong with my sister???? how on earth does she live like this thinking this way?????????#and then even if she DID disagree with everything i did the way she treated me afterwards is fucking horrible#using miles to guilt trip me??? and then after i tell her how horrible i've been feeling and why it's messed up she's saying these things#she still keeps tossing around phrases like 'i'll say this one last thing and then you never have to hear from me again'#like okay. so we're waving around the possibility of us never speaking again?? when i never fucking asked for that?#i told her explicitly 'when you bring up that possibility when i never asked for that it feels like YOU want to cut ME off'#it's so manipulative!!! like she's so mad i'm upset with her that she immediately escalates the situation to 'let's never speak again'#like okay! cool! punish me for telling you that you're stressing me the fuck out during a fucking crisis situation!!!!!#you fucking BITCH!!!!!!!
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˚ NEW UPLOAD FROM NOAHJPG. y'all gotta be feeling thirsty, it's thursday
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As a stranger on the internet (so feel free to ignore or tell me I'm out of line) you might just be going through a grieving process. It sucks, a lot, and I don't really have any advice other than it will slowly get better, but it might help simply knowing.
Grief is different for everyone, and looks different for everyone too. But either way I hope you feel better soon <3
It's very possible, I just don't want that to be the answer because then I don't know what to do
#it feels more like im using grief as an excuse to not do anything and i find it really upsetting#i just dont kno what to do. i have a lightning talk to give tomorrow and i cant get anywhere bc when i try to get anything done i just start#crying and everything feels like a mess that i have no motivation to clean up#just everything. why did i decide to do this with my life? why couldnt i have chosen a functional career path?#i dont kno what im doing. i dont kno how im going yo get things together for my committee meeting Friday#or how ill get thru it without crying. i dont even kno what i want. i wanna talk to my dad i guess but ive never told anyone in my family#when im having a hard time and i dont kno how to do that without making him worry#ugh. tomorrow's gonna suck. so does today. i just want the semester to be over. but then i cant escape my project. so idk what i want#i want sleep for 1000 years or at least until all my problems are gone#unrelated
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I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.
#once again i jest but now i have to actually talk about it#like. okay we have no proof of any actual timeline for the dirge flashbacks other than. it was at least 30 years ago#so who knows how long they were at the manor. could have been weeks before The Incident. or months. or maybe a full year! who knows#but to me a timeline of like. they fucked and like a week later vincent found The Evidence and lucercia had her little breakdown#AND THEN EXTREMELY QUICKLY SHE AGREED TO THE EXPERIMENT AND IT COULD GO ONE OF TWO WAYS#1. she knew she was pregnant and thats why she agreed to the experiment cuz there was already a usable subject#and therefore she must have fucked hojo like a week after she fucked vincent AND THATS STUPID FAST FOR THESE EVENTS#or 2. she didnt know. agreed to the experiment. fucked hojo. and therefore thought seph was hojo's and NOT vincent's#AND BY THE WAY. i dont even actually believe hojo fucked either!!! cuz theyre both scientists so why wouldnt they think IVF was the best way#okay. well.... hojo is canonically a fucked up little freak. so. he might have taken the opportunity to... get in there.#also when did ivf even start being a thing? cuz that may play a factor into this if nomura even considered that#well either way lets just unfortunately assume hojo got in there#ITS STILL AN ODDLY FAST TIMELINE#also. fuck man doesnt lucrecia have a later line in dirge where she actually says shes in love with hojo? or something along those lines#IMPLYING ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE SHE HAD THE FALLING OUT WITH VINCENT. YOU WOULDNT FUCK THE GUY AFTER ALL THAT SHIT#AND WHILE CLAIMING TO LOVE/CURRENTLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HOJO!!!! LIKE CMON MAN!!!! SHE SUCKS BUT SHES NOT THAT KIND OF A MESS#i dont think vincent would fuck her until they sorted out their issues anyway and that CLEARLY didnt happen.#its VITAL that that did not happen!!!!#its just. if vincent and lucrecia fucked. everything would have had to happen EXTREMELY fast within like a 2 week timespan#and im just talking about up to when vincent learns shes partaking in the experiment. it was probably another week or two until vincent died#SO. logically it must have been like#fall in love->learn about the gimoire incident->refuse to speak to vincent->get obsessed with hojo->fall in love(?)#and then thats where i think its ambiguous on did the experiment become an idea before or after seph started to exist?#like chicken or the egg ya know. experiment idea or sephiroth zygote?#that feels fucked up to say. im so fucking sorry to seph to talk about this. yeah sorry i have to debate who fucked your mom bro#god imagine telling him that. like not even as a reveal thing cuz he knows who his father is. just like as a sick joke. your mom joke.#NO OH M Y GOD I HAVE A QUESTION NOW#in accordance to him having a photo of lucrecia in ever crisis. after he reads that jenova is an ancient (incorrect btw)#does he think that picture is still her? what about when he takes jenova's body from the lab????#oh my god 30 tag limit. FUCK. i need like a rant blog for all this vincent talk now. my brain is going a mile a minute
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shoutout to cassel and lila for SUCKING!!!!! I HATE THEM!!!!!!!!!
#tzu rambles#god i could go on about why theyre terrible for each other in all the ways that make htem end up together#they feed into each others worst habits.#lila liking power over others and cassel being used to ppl taking advantage of him#ive seen ppl who dumb it down to “he likes to be dominated” or whatever#i mean you do you but its pretty clear that its a result of the way his brothers have always treated him#wait yeah he listerally compares them to each other#“i was used to fast anc cruel brothers. and i worshipped her” AUGH#she reminds him of everything hes ever known#and she likes him because he listens to her when nobody else does#and she kind of takes advantage of that and he knows she does#he lets her anyways#its so bad its so good#and like anton is just like philip and barron if not worse#but hes lila's COUSIN. so its different#bc he's more guest than family#and so she doesn't develop the habits cassel does. cassel was born into this#HES the guest#but to lila anton is some guy coming and messing with her friend#so she wants to stand her ground#and that reflects in how they are#i think its interesting that even in rejecting his brothers he still just follows lila around#still on the first book though so we'll see what he does#they make me crazy!!!!!! augh#also his relationship w his mom probably affects this too#like. u have ur mother toying with your emotions to get you to do what she wants. idk ofc ur gonna be a little strange about ppl making+#you do things#also how lila sees herself as older than she is and i think cassel thinks of her thkat way too sometimes#they just suck i hate them
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i do hate so much that like they took this thing eddie has been trying to prove wrong this whole time that he can take care of his son and he won’t drag him down with him and that it’s important for them to be together and that helena and ramon can’t fix their mistakes by taking chris away and then they just did that like… like it breaks my heart to think that eddie might think he is a bad dad and that he shouldn’t raise chris
#i don’t know it just especially them not even having a limit of how long like#why does eddie never get to be happy why does he always get everything taken away from him#rey watches 911#911 spoilers#911 liveblog#i just idk he messed up but it’s just once again like he’s not allowed to mess up#idk i just i’m so complicated feelings about this
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One thing I really don’t like about the pjo show is they are very tell not show about EVERYTHING. One thing I loved from the books is them teasing who the monster or god they were meeting was and getting the chance to pull from prior Greek mythology knowledge and figure it out myself. It was like a game and, yeah, most of the time it was someone new and I couldn’t guess but it was still fun having a tease up until a reveal and THEN they would share the story for those who didn’t know. The show just keeps straight up telling the audience who everyone is and instead of unknowingly walking into a trap and building suspense they go in expecting something to happen and then have a less exciting trap happen later (Medusa and the Lotus Hotel being the main ones). It’s like they both want to cut the teasing because the book readers already know and want to explain things simply to show watchers who probably aren’t well versed in Greek mythology but it takes all the whimsy away. One part I loved in the Lotus scenes in the book was Percy figuring out that they were in a time warp because he meets the kid from the 1970s and realizes what’s going on but in the show he notices cuz it’s…dark outside? Like yeah okay it works but going “it’s dark outside even tho it feels like it’s been 20 minutes and that means we are in a time warp and oh yeah the flowers are in the air even tho I’ve given no reason prior to have figured that out” is not NEARLY as compelling as “I lost track of time cuz I was having fun but huh this guy I’m playing with talks weird and dresses weird and oh boy he’s from the 1970s and now that I’m pulled out enough to look around I see that everyone here is wearing period clothes and this is trouble”. I know the extras were wearing period clothes but it never cuts to them long enough to make it seem like it’s anything but a costume that would be typical in a Vegas casino. You can argue that the Hermes scene wasn’t pointless but aside from Grover’s scenes to an extent it just wasn’t compelling and not just in an inaccurate adaptation way
#I honestly have more to say about this but the post is already too long#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson#I don’t want to be a hater but also I see far too many people say that everything about the show is perfect and it rubs me wrong#like yeah the movie was awful and people should stop trashing the show to raise up the movie#but the show also isn’t as good as the books#and I didn’t expect it to be but so many of these changes just don’t make sense#and others just sour the whole thing altogether#as a note I do plan to keep watching it and I do enjoy it for the most part#I will shout praises for Aryan and the percabeth scenes#but a lot of the plot stuff just isn’t great#and another thing that I want to say but don’t want to make another complain post for:#I’m tired of Percy being too well versed in mythology and Annabeth too smart and knowledgeable and never messing up#it contributes to the tell not show because they always seem to know what’s going to happen before it happens#they’re not as caught by surprise and they’re too competent#these may be powerful demigods but they’re also 12 year old children#Percy is new to all of this and Annabeth hasn’t been to the real world in five years#she shouldn’t be able to recognize monsters immediately because she’s used to the monsters she fights to be obvious#once they figure it out yeah she should know their story and how to fight them#but why does she know immediately?#and why does Percy when as protagonist he should be a stand in for the ignorant audience?#they should be explaining things to him not the other way around#idk again I’m a hater but I also don’t think I’m wrong here#it’s a children’s show but that doesn’t mean they have to speak plainly about everything#even does takes the time to let’s the kids figure shit out
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#like i definitely have to hide my meds#because if my mother knows#she will actively try and fuck around with things and stop me taking them#like#she's hidden my waterbottle books snacks all sorts of things from my room she just comes in and takes it#because she has to be right#she's so controlling and always has to have things go her way#so she does this kinda stuff to mess with me and fuck around#literally today#like its the 3rd time shes taken my waterbottle and hidden it#whatever her intentions are it doesn't matter rn its her actions that do#and her actions are really shitty and affecting me really badly!#so unsurprisingly im very done with putting up with a ton of bullshit#like she justifies the waterbottle thing with well its plastic#but like ffs like i do not drink water if i cannot see it#why tf are you making it harder#and like#to that she says i should jsut suck it up?#why fucking make life harder then expect me to cope when lifes already hard#make it easier and stop being a puritan#same kinda thing applies to like to do lists etc#she says i cant put things down i should remember them#before used to shame me for having things noted down#before i started hiding everything away neatly
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(credits to ssruis)
This song is the only thing keeping me going I do not play about mr showtime 😞 nothing ruined me (made my life better) the way this song did
(Sendn. Me songs to do this with in my ask box… sniffle…)
#circuses? heh.. yeah.. im familiar… jesters? oh#even better…. rellakinoko? now hold on this is already gonna be good… tsukasa tenma? im sold. the fish has been captured. im followinf the#sirens into the deepest parts of the sea and wont be coming back. Unfortunately i had gotten t1k (t571) on ensekai for phoenix and am still#bitter about it. Emu and nene came home but the ugly blonde didnt. This is why we’re having problems tsukasa#i have a mr showtime themed custom profile that needs to be finished aand i gotta work on my one for#tsukasa4#ill be more prepared for that one im certain of it#knocking on wood#PRAYING.#t500 would have been nice you know… unfortunately i ran out of resources.#i think the amount of time and love ive poured into making everything abt this event makes up for this though. Also this is gonna sound#obnoxious but i feel like one of the five people who actually. You know. Get the event. Like its importance which ill elaborate on in a#future post. Everybody wants to talk about this event but nobody wants to read the story#and the side stories Guysss ur missing out its so good when youre not forcing urself to think tsukasa has an ed and dont even know a single#thing abt acting yet believe one google search can prove that method acting is Absolutely Totally Going To Ruin His Life#i dont think fasting was alright it was pretty stupid but what he did doesnt make him have an ed or this or that#I do think you should be very. Very careful with method acting by the way. That can mess you up. But i dont think thats where theyll be#taking tsukasa in the future. Yes itd be nice to show the risks and get a You know be careful but its not as dark and This is gonna ruin hi#😞😨My poor baby!! As people think#omg i got sidetracked LET ME TALK ABT THE BINGO???1?1? Easily distracted ass#Uhm. Where do i begin. Nvm i dont wanna write too much more but this song truly does mean the world to me#And rella’s art is so goood my eyes are always glued to it. For some reason i keep having trouble fcing the expert chart for it on ensekai#ut was just fine on jpsekai. Frowny face. I could listen to the song all day though#Those instrumentals are popping offff i tell you#hidden circus#wonderlands x showtime#wxs#wansho#commissioned song#prsk
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