#the hoops i had to jump through

[sheregenerated13]

I changed the Stardew Valley letters from 'Your Mom' and 'Your Dad' to be from 'Your Aunt' and 'Your Bestie' to be a bit friendlier to folks who have estranged parents, etc. I also changed some of the letter contents to make sense (from a friend, not parent, etc.)

I'll pin the file to the #gaymes channel in my LGBTQ safe space server if anyone needs it! Also in my thasmin!! server :)

[fascinationstreetmp3]

Let me think... why are you really here?

[thelvadams]

DOCTOR WHO • 1.01 'Rose'

It's like when you're a kid. The first time they tell you that the world's turning and you just can't quite believe it, because everything looks like it's standing still.

[midnightclover]

Summon Night: Swordcraft Story (ATLUS, 2003)

[thatswhatsushesaid]

imagine being so bereft of joy that you cannot stop yourself from leaving this comment on a benign "look at this fun fandom mug my spouse bought me, enjoy this funny personal anecdote to go with it" post

sorry for existing i guess???

[clumsycapitolunicorn]

"I've got you on my birthday, at last. That's all the presents I could ever need."

SUKI & EVE | EASTENDERS

[tabithatwo]

(x)

(this is a pls stop blaming juliette lewis for nat’s arc and death post <3)

[venacoeurva]

I do feel bad for people who really only use Twitter, I used it exclusively for a while when it was still decent-ish pre-elongated crust, and it's been dogshit but it keeps getting worse... but some people

have all their mutuals and friends there

some people can't use other social media they otherwise would due to it being banned where they are (which might include the aforementioned mutuals and friends living there too)

a ton of people have a larger following or reach there than any other sites they use that won't follow them elsewhere and that's their only source of income so they can't just delete and leave

and it's one of the few major social medias left where there's an active and openly allowed nsfw scene.

The fact that the alternatives are smaller sites scattered all over the place that might die in a few years, get worse, stagnate, or just never get much traffic just has me kinda

[diaryofamadsunwukongfan]

There is a lot to unpack here, so let's just throw away the whole suitcase.

[the-witch-of-woods-beyond]

hate how team green stans jump through hoops to justify alicent’s wrongdoings but then end up backing themselves into a corner.

they want her to be this poor little victim forever stuck at fifteen and ignore the fact that she put her daughter through the exact same thing when she was even younger. but then they also try and say that she was ruling the kingdom for decades while viserys was ill and was the best monarch, and ignore the fact that she was just attacking the heir constantly and used her standing to enforce the laws that were already there. she expected everyone else to suffer and accept their place because she believed herself better than those around her for laying down and accepting her suffering and she attacked those who wanted to benefit themselves and others in a system set against them - rhaenyra fighting for her rightful place as heir despite being a woman. she also silenced others with pain - dyana, the serving girl who was assaulted by aegon (and this was not just a one-of occasion cause the maids were literally shown to be scared of aegon and he is canonically a vile person.)

[bluebird-ascended]

Rainbow dragon

my first art post of 2024! the time is just past midnight

[astralynx]

Santa: Dry ice is just frozen carbon dioxide, right?

Junpei: Yeah, it is.

Santa: I wonder how warm it has to get for it to turn back into gas again...

Junpei: Hell if I know. How's that gonna help us, anyway?

Santa: Oh, well, I figured we might be able to use it to get out of here.

They were about to move on when June spoke up.

June: Carbon dioxide's sublimation point is -109 degrees. Any warmer than that, and it'll turn into gas. Any lower, and it becomes a solid.

Junpei looked at her, dumbfounded.

Junpei: How do you know that?

June: Tee-hee. Despite my looks, I'm the Qleen...bleh. Ahem...the Queen of random knowledge.

Junpei: Looks bad to mess up when you're showing off.

June: Argle mouf *Mumble* *Mumble*

Junpei: Oh, you're so cold your mouth's going numb?

June: Yef. Wats wite.

Junpei: ...You're just doing that on purpose, aren't you?

June giggled, and did her best to hide her guilt. At least she was still feeling good enough to joke around, Junpei told himself.

Santa: C'mon guys... Don't you think that's kinda weird? I wonder why it doesn't turn into a liquid first...

Santa was now shivering at an astounding rate, but his curiosity seemed unaffected.

[uldahstreetrat]

Mayncient - 11. Hope

"May it serve as an undying promise to any soul who has known despair, that hope is everlasting."

[sciderman]

amazing spider-man #95

[mokutone]

your art makes me wanna start testosterone

i can't read tone well, so this is either an incredibly touching ask, or an extremely funny one, and in the absence of confirmation: both!

i'm in a chatty mood, so i'll share some thoughts about testosterone and my art.

i liked being on testosterone a lot. i had an IM injection every two weeks (on tuesdays!) and because that's a sizeable dose every 14 days that slowly disperses, it can cause some mood fluctuations (every other friday i would have a crisis about not feeling like the world had a place for me in it) but even those were far more manageable than the ones that would come with my previous and current monthly hormone cycle (every month i spend a solid week thinking the world will never have a place for me in it)

It gave me a patchy little bit of scruff on my chin and a whispy mustache under my nose that still struggles on, despite adversity!

It redistributed my fat a little bit, but that's long since gone back to pre-T shape.

it lowered my voice! that hasn't changed :^)! even if i never go back on t, that won't change. it was the thing i most wanted, and its the one i'm most grateful for. Pre-T, I didn't speak much. I'm getting better and better at talking and getting more and more comfortable communicating with people because of it.

having been off t now for 3 years, i don't pass anymore—not as a cis man, or a cis woman, certainly not as anything approximating straight. if people look at me and see anything, i'd hazard a guess that they see me as A Queer (the noun—for all it's complicated connotations).

i'm not surprised that my art might make somebody want to start testosterone! a lot of my art was made out of the aching grief that came with being kicked off of testosterone, and how neatly that loss of autonomy over my own body knits in with yamato's loss of autonomy over his own.

how my body started doing things i disliked, how i didn't have the support necessary to access the healthcare i needed—how my inability to give myself what i needed made me feel as though i were trapped inside of myself and abandoned (by both myself and the world at large)

when i write comics about yamato as a trans man, i don't take away his testosterone, because that hits a little too close to home for me. for Ninja War Town Reasons, he has plenty of access to all the HRT he could ever need and nobody questions his need for it—instead, i project my own horrors onto the way Danzō defined his identity for him as a child, the way that Kabuto and Obito dehumanize him as an adult in their war efforts, and reduce him to the thing his body holds (the Mokuton). I give him a kneejerk compulsion to dehumanize himself (out of a feeling that he has a duty to his community to do so) and I give him a slow-growing resistance to that impulse (which comes out of a feeling that the people he loves would frown upon seeing him reduce himself like that)

it's dysphoria! it's not gender dysphoria, but it's a loss of self, and a need to reclaim it. it's a war between the hollow shell of a thing he thinks he has to be, and the vibrant and messy person beneath it that he is. it's a desperate need to say "this is who i am—only i can say it"

I enjoyed HRT a lot. it was a really useful tool in helping me feel like my body was my own, that i didn't have to fight it, that we were the same entity. It's not the only tool, but it was a really good one, and one day I hope to use it again.

(as for the being off of it—it's unpleasant, but i'm enduring! being somebody who now doesn't really pass as anything has put me in a weird and interesting position, where I'm constantly having to declare myself to people, because nobody knows what to make of me on any front. they don't know if i'm a man, a woman, nonbinary, nor even what age i am (Augh!!!!) it forces me to be brave and vulnerable more than I'm comfortable with—if I tell somebody I'm a man, there's no way that they will believe I'm cis, but I'm not about to recloset myself—and I don't think I could at this point anyway.)

(there's something fascinating about the position i find myself in, and while i'd leap back on t the moment that an opportunity presented itself to do so, i do feel like i'm experiencing something interesting and important in this weird zone i find myself in)

[dark-elf-writes]

Can’t stop thinking about the other night when I was having dinner with my boyfriends family and mentioned that I very much suspect that I am autistic and his brother looked at me and asked “Do you understand hypothetical questions? Like if I asked if it would be better to live on the moon more underwater are you actually thinking of an answer?” ANS WHAT DOES THAT MEAN HOW AM I NOT SUPPOSED TO THINK OF AN ANSWER