#why do I do this to myself 🤦🏻‍♀️

[random0lover]

Slight tmi but do y’all ever get the greatest ideas in the most unconventional times? Like I was peeing and had the most heart wrecking angst mixed fluff idea pop into my mind for Simon and I almost started to tear up on the toilet 💀

But no for real this idea is so good and I wanted it to be a short little thing about Simon and the way his trauma has affected the way he is able to enjoy certain things (like music 😉) but how reader has helped him learn to be okay with enjoying those things again but for some reason I like to torture myself and focus on the angst for way to long and now the Drabble is now going to be a one-shot 😭

[dreamerwriternstargazer]

*my sister walking into the kitchen and seeing me baking, my laptop off* : you want me to turn this on for you?

Me: no it’s okay

Her, frowning: I don’t know what’s scarier, you baking in the morning or you baking silently

Me, sheepishly: ah, well I had a nightmare…

Her, nodding: yep you baking silently

[artisiumstudios]

I have an AU called A Better World For Stan that I am writing, and like, I decided to symbolize that the characters are kind of the "inversion" of how they are in canon by inverting the color that represents them in their clothes like, Caryn dress Cyan, Filbrick dress Blue, Older Brother Shermie dress Vermilion, Teen Ford dress Blue. What do you think?

To anon, my apologies that it took this long to respond (Also I was going to respond to the first one but I accidently deleted the first part on my phone, THANKFULLY I also had it pulled up on my computer so I could just take a picture (dont ask why its not a SS) But anyways

Edit: nope I’m just dumb and didn’t realize I posted the other, not deleted but anyways🤦🏻‍♀️

I LOVE THE IDEA!

Also I think this is one of the few AU's where ive heard shermie being described as indifferent/aloof brother! A lot of people (including myself) usually write him as either being the baby or even having him be someone who was drafted into the war, or just simply trying to escape his abusive household and start his own family. But I like the idea that perhaps his fathers influence had a bigger impact on him that caused him to feel indifferent to his siblings.

now with that said-

A MODERN AU? Does this mean he is currently living somewhere in present time (or around the time dipper and mabel are from? If so, does this mean he'll have to get accustomed to modern technology? (meaning he has access to the internet and oh look he has daddy issues not a surprise-)

Is Ford still really into anomalies? Will he assume Stan is some kind of anomaly or will he believe that he's from an AU? How will their parents react to Ford bringing in Stan?

I can just imagine Stan's freaking out because if these versions of his parents are any similar to his, Filbrick will not be amused and he doesn't think he can handle being kicked out again.

"Ford are you su-"

The bell of the pawn shop rings as they step inside. Sitting in front of the register is Filbrick, newspaper covering his face.

"Ya back?" He asl, his voice still stoic as always, setting Stan's nervousness through the roof.

"Yup! And look who I brought!" Ford announces excitedly as he grasps Stan's hand preventing him from leaving anywhere.

The newspaper is dropped onto the table as Filbrick stares at Stan, his eyebrows slightly raised in surprise, "Well, that's something new." he stands up, the stair squeaking against the old wood making Stanley flinch. His hands shakes as his father makes his way over, his signature sunglasses helping hide any emotion.

"Uh- I" Stanley stammers looking for an opening or anything to-

"What's your name champ?" Filbrick asks. The nickname causing Stanley's brain to short-circuit. It endearing, so unlike his father. Its tone isn't filled with venom but rather patience, its not demeaning, meant to bring out insecurities or hurt. It's a nickname he's heard other dad's call their son; one he's always hoped to hear.

"It-it's Stanley, sir." e cringes at the stuttering.

"Stanley? HA!" now Stan's really surprised. Laughter, his father is laughing and not in disbelief but a full hearted laugh filled with joy, "How peculiar, me and my wife-"

"My wife and I-" Ford interrupts and now Stan truly is shocked because no one interrupts Pa without getting backhanded but here is Ford standing proudly and almost smugly as Pa just huffs playfully.

"My wife and I, were actually considering that name for a long time. Twins run in our family so we thought that if this one had one we would have named them Stanley and Stanford."

Ford leans over, his hand covering his mouth as he whispers, "They are not the most creative when it comes to names."

"Hey!" Pa roared, "I heard that twerp!"

"Tell me I'm wrong."

And he's not wrong but this is because why is this Pa so loving and caring and- oh. He's crying. Before he knows it he's enveloped in a bone crushing hug being asked if he's okay, the tremors worsen because this is all he's ever hoped for and he doesn't remember the last time his father ever hugged him. He's crying and everything is so wrong and he feels guilty but it also feels right.

Anyways-

I thought about how Ford would find Stanley and what better way than to be on the beach exploring when he finds him and offers to bring him home to clean him up. And Stan who's still dazed agrees without thinking only to realize that his parents must be hope and all of this to happen because holy shit what is going on?!

Also I love color symbolism! Especially because blue can signify calmness, serenity, trust, and stability-- something Stan's OG Filbrick isn't-- but can also represent sadness or depression (maybe this FIlrbick is more opened about his emotions and is much more encouraging of the kids to speak about their feelings and maybe even encourages them to actually seek professional help if they need to. Also I'm a sucker for Audhd Stan so perhaps he can even get a proper diagnosis?)

Cyan is often shown to represent serenity and mental clarity, maybe this means Caryn is more present in her children's life and perhaps is an actual psychic (or if you have the headcanon that she might be one, perhaps in this AU her powers are more present! And perhaps that's why FIlbrick, Ford, or Caryn aren't shocked with Stan appearing.)

But overall I love this idea and I hope you post more about it! And please tag me so I can see it!

(side note because I must know, does OGFord ever find out what happened to Stan? Does he tell their parents? Will they even believe him or do they just decide to believe that he's dead? Do they hold a funeral? What if OGFord still summon bill but instead of being to find out why weirdness travels to GF, it's to find his brother! What if he still falls through the portal? Does he doom his world and is left to travel the multi-verse, or does he still have a home to come back to? Does he eventually find Stan and tries to convince him to return? Does Stan even want to return? So many questions but anyways-)

[lulublack90]

Prompt 2 - Piercing

Seriously, why do I do this to myself 🤦🏻‍♀️ Tiny little mini Inci Winci series incoming.

@jegulus-microfic December 2, Word count 192

First part

James Potter’s voice had been piercing in the otherwise silent corridor. For four years, Regulus had been using the secret tunnel beneath the statue to sneak into Hogsmeade and not once had anyone even had the slightest suspicion, and now his brother’s best friend had spotted him. This would get back to Sirius before Regulus made it back to his dorm room. 

James came striding over and hooked an arm around Regulus’s shoulders.

“Been on a little stroll, have you Regulus?” James asked conversationally as if he hadn’t just caught him sneaking back into school. 

“And what’s it to you if I have?” Regulus sneered, trying to escape James's heavy arm and failing. James grinned at him happily, and wrapped his arm tighter around him, pulling Regulus tight against his side. 

“Just never thought you had it in you. It’s nice to know you have a rebellious side,” James let him go and disappeared into the wall. Regulus stared at the empty space beside him and thought over the strange interaction as he made his way back to the dungeons, sucking on a sugar quill. James Potter was a seriously strange boy. 

[hunterofartemis7]

Pt.10

Damain: well?

Asshole doctor: I have nothing to apologize for! She’s just a teenager with and her pregnancy hormones make her exaggerate!

Jason; pregnancy hormones!?

Raven:…..

Kori: shit

Tim: you’re pregnant!?

Raven:..*nods, tearing up again* I wanted to tell you myself…..😣

Jason: *draws his knife* okay so not only will you pay for making her cry the first time and insulting her, but also for ruining her chance to tell us she’s pregnant on her own terms!

Asshole doctor: you can’t do anything to me! We’re in a hospital! The security will have you arrested!

Tim: good point. *drags him outside by his hair*

Damian: *smirks*

Dick: we got this asshole covered little d. Go back with Rae and see your baby.

Raven: thanks dick..

Dick: don’t mention it, and congratulations!! *hugs her tightly* we are so celebrating after now I gotta go! *runs after Tim*

Jason: *ruffles her hair* congratulations kiddo. *follows dick and Tim outside*

Very Nice doctor: Miss? Are you ready?

Raven: *nods*

Very Nice doctor: alright. *brings her back in the room with Damian and Kori* Did he check any vitals before being an ass?

Raven: no…

Very nice doctor: I’m sorry Hun. I don’t know why he wasn’t fired yet. *checks her blood pressure, blood sugar, heart rate breathing etc.*

Damian: *staring her down like a hawk*

Very nice doctor: don’t worry sir, I’m got gonna hurt her

Damian: hm

Very nice doctor: well your BP is a bit high, but that’s to be expected considering what just happened. Blood sugar is also a bit lower than we’d like, but Your heart and lungs sound good.

Raven:..is that gonna hurt the baby?

Very nice doctor: right now it shouldn’t. You’re stressed so it’s understandable to have a higher BP than normal. Your blood sugar is more what I’m worried about. Have you eaten anything today?

Raven: yeah..but I can’t keep anything down

Very nice doctor: how often are you throwing up?

Raven: pretty often..I don’t exact times

VND: that’s okay hun. And it says in your records your anemic right?

Raven: *nods*

VND: are you on any iron supplements?

Raven: no ma’am..

VND: okay. If its alright I’d like to put you on some for the rest of the pregnancy, as well as prenatal vitamins and some meds to help with the nausea

Kori: are all these meds good for her?

VND: yes. One is just vitamins, the other is similar, mostly just to get some iron in her system. The nausea meds are the only “medication” she’ll actually be on. And don’t worry, I won’t prescribe her anything that wasn’t safe for her and baby.

Kori: okay.

VND: now with all that out of the way, you ready to see your baby?

Raven: yes!!

VND: *smiles* okay, lay down hun.

Raven: *lays down on the bed*

VND: *puts a blanket over her and pulls her hospital gown up* fair warning, this is gonna be cold. *gets that weird jell stuff that they use for ultrasound and puts it on her belly*

Raven: *flinched from the cold*

VND: sorry

Raven: it’s okay..

Damian: *holds her hand beside her*

Raven: *small squeeze*

VND: you ready?

Raven: yes

VND: *puts the wand (I think that’s what it’s called) on her abdomen*

Raven: *watching the screen waiting to see the baby*

VND: *points at the small bean* and there’s your baby

Raven:..🥹

Damian: *smiles with happy tears in his eyes* it’s small🥹

VND: yes it is. Your 6 weeks right now, and baby has a strong heart beat

Kori: 🥹 it’s so precious..

Raven: *happy crying* our baby..*looks at Damian* I can’t wait to meet it..🥹

Damian: *kisses her and her belly* I can’t wait either. I’m already in love with it

VND: you two are adorable

*meanwhile outside*

Cop: so one more time….why are you beating up a doctor?🤦🏻‍♀️

Jason: cause he is very very rude and unprofessional to his patients and made our sister in law to be cry.

Tim: and we have about 200+ different complaints about him that the hospital keeps throwing in the trash

Cop:….i don’t get paid enough

[trynafindbarbiee]

I'mma cryyy! It's not even 3 days and I'm here with my success story 🥺💗

Someone please help !! 😩<3

So i started your routine that you followed to tap into the void , my goal was to wake up in the void because I was hella scared of those symptoms we get before tapping in 🤦🏻‍♀️ and lemme tell you on the 2nd day of doing that routine I woke up in the void while I was sleeping at afternoon I didn't realize it because it was such an peaceful experience to be honest , I completely forgot to affirm for my desires because I was just chilling there UwU but my brother woke me up by pulling my legs ( he's so naughty af ) 🥴

Then I changed my affirmations I always wakes up in the void To I'm always aware when I'm in the void , and continued the routine AND on the 3rd day! On the freaking 3rd dayyy at night I went to sleep as usual and again woke up there AaAaAaAaA ??? 😭 but this time I was absolutely aware that I'm in the fuxking VOIDDD! Gurll I hella luv you , I'm not even kidding 💗 THANK YOU 💗(genuinely) 🛐

I manifested :

° Revised myself from head to toe

° Lucky girl syndrome

° Money , money , moneyy 💲

° Df and df ofc

° Having the ability to go back in time whenever I say "Back" 5 times

° Having my desired clothes

° My parents being sweet, caring and loving

° Mu dad to be a big business man

° Hazel eyes

° Beauty with brain

° Whole Aesthetic life

° Unlimited foooood

And some personal things too ☺

Here I'm mentioning those 2 affirmations and subliminal I used so you don't get bombarded with questions :

Affirmations I affirmed throughout the day ( I only choosed 2 )

1. I always wakes up in the void

2. I'm always aware when I'm in the void

The subliminals I used

1. https://youtu.be/J9bJQKr1mZU ( it's @lotusmi 's The mirage void sub, she's my favv sub maker 🪄💗 her subs are awsome )

2. https://youtu.be/oKU8YIicYQg ( elipson waves by slade, this sub is so relaxing It helped me calming down my mind while doing the lullaby method at night )

Can I be your anon 🍬 ? Please

#ilobeyoubarbie

Success story !

This is what I love to read , I'm so happy and proud of uh I couldn't be happier! Gooo bestiee enjoy your life to the fullest ♡

Tysm for sharing the stuff you used ( why this ask is so cute ? 😩 )

iLY TOO <3

Anonss, want me to manifest for you?

[margareth-lv]

🥸😎 Conspiracy theories, hidden messages and flath earth. Part 2 😎🥸

In an earlier post, I allowed myself what I thought was a fair conclusion, that without conspiracy theories, or at least without the One and Only Most Important Theory (that Sam and Caitríona are a couple), there would be no us and no fandom. I stand by that thesis. We are built on conspiracy theories. Now - with Sam's IG story of the Elf on the Shelf holding the little elf in her arms in mind - I want to talk about the problem of hidden messages sent by Sam and Caitríona.

Are hidden messages our invention? Is it a product of our sick, degenerate minds? Or is there something to it? Are hidden messages a fact, and not the delusion of a group of, excusez-moi, paranoid, stupid women?

❓

Some of the comments under my note about Mama Elf and her Baby Elf have asked not to associate any hidden message with it.

But why not look for that hidden content? After three years in fandom, I look for hidden content everywhere. Everywhere. Sadly, I have to admit that there is less and less of it as time goes on.

*** *** ***

Just one example. A Blast from the Past. You'd have to be a really delusional, stupid woman not to see the subliminal messages Caitríona sent us last year. Yes, us, literally us, the delusional female fandom on Tumblr, because what other fan would associate that unique, rare beauty graphic standing in the background during Caitriona's IG live with Sam in May 2022?

The same unframed graphic appeared in the background of another interview that Sam also participated in (I don't think that interview was ever released).

💁🏻‍♀️

I don't recall Caitríona putting this unframed graphic in the background of any of her other online interviews, although I could be wrong. (Incidentally, for someone who loves and collects art, Caitriona's tastes are quite ordinary, as this unframed, banal graphic is the most important and prominent item in her new broom cupboard.)

Yes, of course, the graphic shows St Mary's Church in Bruton. That church ⬇️⬇️⬇️

*** *** *** The church that the Tumblr fandom associates with the mysterious activities of blogger hurleyburly in April 2021.

*** *** *** Yes, really, let's not look for hidden meaning in what Sam and Caitríona are doing. There is no reason to.

🤦🏻‍♀️

And the words 'REDACTED FOR PRIVACY' have not been calligraphed in Sam Heughan's distinctive capital letters.

There is nothing to see here. Please disperse.

[December 18, 2023]

[nymphaura777]

HelIo!💗 How are you? I hope you are well.🌷💌

I just discovered you but I thought it would be better to ask you this.

A few months ago, I was trying to enter the void again in the evening when I was really hopeful and determined.

then I fell asleep but as if I was woken up by someone I suddenly woke up in the middle of the night but I was very tired and my body ached, when I realized that I fell asleep I got angry and stressed then I said "no, I will not give up. It will either happen or it will happen" and despite the pain I took the star position again and started making affirmations.

As I said, I was very tired and sleepy so my head was scattered, as if I was sleeping but my mind was awake. Just as it should be.

so after doing a few affirmations, I forgot that I even tried to enter the void, my brain started thinking about other things but I really was so sleepy,In fact, I remember that my last sentence that day, although it was very nonsense and irrelevant was "I am nature."

and then boom! suddenly I felt my soul start to I flying,I WAS SO EXCITED AT THAT MOMENT,I was literally freaking out.

When I realized what was happening, I lost all my sleep at that moment, and I started to say these in a hurry: "I'm in the Void, I'm in the Void"

🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

And what happened? I was so excited that it didn't happen.Then I was like: "I can't believe it, you've come so far, you've come so close, okay, no problem, you can do it tomorrow."

And bruh that tomorrow never came 😵‍💫

Anyway, then I realized that what I was experiencing by mistake was called 'sleep paralysis.'

This is definitely the method that works for me.

That's why from that day on I always tried to wake myself up in the middle of the night but it didn't work. Now you'll say, "Then set an alarm."

But I sleep with my mother 🫠🫠 because of necessity, special reasons.

That's why I started to feel very overwhelmed and stressed, but then yesterday I said to myself, "Don't be ridiculous, you had come a long way that day, you can do it again."

Well, I fell asleep again tonight but I actually managed to wake up suddenly like that day (without trying anything special) but the problem this time was that I wasn't tired at all. So it didn't happen.

Sorry for being so long, I wrote this to someone else but she didn't give me a proper answer.

Can you help me? I mean, is there a way I can wake up without an alarm or do you have any other suggestions?

loveyou💌

First of all...you're so close, like crazy close. That wasn’t just sleep paralysis, that was basically the doorway. You did everything right except let the excitement take over (which is totally normal btw, you're human!).

Yeah, it’s possible...try this trick: before you sleep, set the intention clearly like: "I wake up naturally in the middle of the night at the perfect time to enter the void."

Repeat it gently a few times and believe it. You don’t need to force or affirm all night...just decide and trust it'll happen.

Don’t get stressed if it doesn’t happen instantly. You’ve done it once, you’ll do it again.

[restforthe-burdenedsoul]

We talked. We are now separated.

I am writing this from a pretty defensive stance, but I am frustrated all around. I want to just end all contact and I don’t see why he doesn’t. Like he wants this fairy tale happy ending like he didn’t just shatter me to pieces

I’m emotionally shut off. And when the emotions come, I don’t want them. Right now I feel like that’s the only way to get through this moment.

His idea is that we stay living together, or at least keep the apartment until the lease ends. We signed another 16 months back in November 😭 and those 16 months didn’t start until THIS MONTH. But it gives us time to figure out what to do

M being M, he has no plans or desire to plan. MY plan is what I did with my ex, create my own stockpile of money. Because I’ll be damned if this lease ends and I have no plan to move out and move on.

He is 100% burying his head in the sand. He said “I don’t know how people stay in these situations” but then says “I don’t want to disappear from each others lives.” He still wants me around for his own comfort I guess, and who cares about how hard that is for me. He got upset when I told him what I do moving forward isn’t his responsibility. He said he was afraid to talk about separation because what would I do with my business and living situation? Again, coming from a defensive standpoint but I think it’s true, I’ll figure my own shit out and I will do it without him. After my first marriage , I promised myself I’d never let another man destroy me and I am holding to that.

So the plan for now is to take things month by month, while I also plan independently for myself. But as soon as I can move out on my own, I am going to.

For now, I am moving the bunnies into the master bedroom from The guest room since he likes that bed better and we are swapping bathrooms (mine was the “guest” bathroom bc I do better at cleaning for guests 🤦🏻‍♀️ but it’s not like we will have anymore guests).

I’m away at an overnight sit Tuesday-Sunday and I told him I’ll make a decision on if he stays here or not. I feel better having separate spaces.

He’s agreeable with helping with rent and bills. I think it’s better to break the lease and go our own ways if he can help me with rent at the new place for a bit, but he thinks this is better and I’ll settle with that. He suggested going to his moms which is good bc that was going to be my suggestion. But at least while I’m at pet sits, he can be here in his own space.

He’s already talked to his mom and she offered for him to live there while she’s out of state.

His idea is we can stay living together (with no real end in sight because he cannot handle any kind of planning) in a platonic relationship. He said “but what if that works out and we like it?”

And I have to remind myself that I cannot save him. He does not have friends to lean on. When he loses me, he loses his only friend (there’s so many layers to that situation). He’s also losing his insurance (for outside reasons) and won’t be able to continue therapy and seems to have a very “oh well” view on that. So he just has his mom to talk to. But honestly, that isn’t my problem anymore. And maybe that’s really cold, but I am looking out for myself. I can’t stay to make sure he is okay. I can’t stay like I stayed in my last marriage.

I do feel extremely triggered and like this is the same situation as my ex. It isn’t, but in the end, it basically is. I was not enough for someone again and I know I AM enough. Therefor, I am going to do what’s best for ME, not him, and not us because “us” no longer exists.

[musette22]

Oh you should definitely watch Push. There's a lot of good Chris material. He gets injured quite a bit, he has a cute relationship with Dakota Fanning's character, he has cool powers. He does have a romance which I admit I didn't love - but there is a scene towards the end that is similar to a certain scene in Winter Soldier, so that was nice. Would recommend.

Okay!!! Thank you! I feel like I can actually make myself watch this one, it feels a little more accessible than Snowpiercer? So hopefully if I start with Push, I'll be ready to watch Snowpiercer after 🙈 I do really want to watch both!

I just checked and found Push on this streaming service so I'm aiming to watch it tomorrow night. Saying it to you so I'll hopefully feel a little bit of pressure to actually do it lol (why is this so hard for me 🤦🏻‍♀️)

Anyway, I am so so so so enamoured with Chris's look in this movie, and I have basically seen the movie already through gifs lol, so I am excited to finally get to know Nick properly 💞 And aahh yes, the mandatory straight romance... I probably won't love that either, but I have to admit I have a soft spot for that kiss where he cradles her face in his hands 🫠 Anyway!! If I watch it, I'm sure I'll be yelling about it on here, so watch this space I guess. Thanks for convincing me, and I'll definitely keep an eye out for that Winter Soldier-esque scene 👀

[gloriousburden]

Hey!! I just wanna say your takes on Loki are super refreshing to read, and they cleared up my mind a little! Maybe this sounds a little stupid but I got so confused after rewatching everything (+ watching the series and I feel like that was the breaking point xd) and since I didn't read anything nor any opinions I was. Just lost in these jambled thoughts because I couldn't figure out Loki's character well since he just feels so... so different after Avengers/TDW and I really couldn't tell wtf was going on with him for a while until I sat down and deconstructed everything since it was so bad?? Maybe it's just me and I'm slow but I seriously never had that experience with a character I fixated before and I can't tell if it was because how badly Loki was handled by his writers or it's just me being scatterbrained or both 😭

Anyway thanks again this isn't anything new just wanted to let you know,, your/others takes in your posts are the ones that resonate the most with me and I feel less alone lol when I read some of them on other platforms it's either too much shipping or just... things that don't really make sense to me xd

So yeah, there's no take here, but thanks if you read!! You don't have to answer 🫰

Hello! I am so glad to hear that I could help. I know that feeling all too well, and it’s exactly why I started posting on here. Watching each weekly episode of the series as it was coming out was torture. It was like a punch to the gut every single time that they belittled Loki, mischaracterized him, hinted to the romance with Sylvie, had him consistently forgive the characters who treated him like shit, and took it all in a direction that… had absolutely nothing to do with Loki.

I fell in love with Loki’s character around 5 months before the series came out, and everyday I mourn what the fandom used to be despite the short amount of time I experienced it the way it was. Of course there was mischaracterization, but never was it as widespread as this.

In all honesty, the series turned me off from liking Loki for a hot minute. It disgusted, angered, and saddened me so much. I lost the ability to enjoy watching or interacting with anything related to Loki because I was reminded of it all each time. I remember watching the finale feeling complete fucking shock and a sense of dread. On top of all that bullshit… there’s going to be a season 2?! 🤦🏻‍♀️

I took comfort in the shared reaction and negativity Loki TikTok (at the time) had to it lol. What annoyed the shit out of me also was people beginning to ship Lokius/Sylki. You saw what both of those characters did to him, why ship them? the shipping bullshit is the worst. What happened to people liking Loki for JUST BEING LOKI?

I had that same confusion. How could this be Loki at all, but especially Loki after the events of THE AVENGERS?! This couldn’t even be Ragnarok Loki, so how could it be Loki DIRECTLY after/during his most villainous? I just kept thinking to myself.. Loki is intelligent. He is strong. He is more than what they represented him as. And he never deserved any of that. He is playful, of course. But he is not a buffoon who lets others walk all over him. He doesn’t deserve to be the laughingstock in a series that was supposed to uplift him. No other character was “humbled” in their own series like this.

Like you said, you’ve never had this experience with characters you’ve been fixated on before. I felt the same way. I had many favorite characters who were killed off, yet their deaths weren’t as brutal to me as the character assassination Loki was put through. I think I posted something along the lines of that. That all of this has made mourning Loki’s actual death in Infinity War so… weird.

The next months or so, I tried getting back into loving Loki. Which as you can probably tell… it worked. But I was still so disgusted by the series. I would pace around my room thinking of Loki rants in my head, and I’d write them down in my notes app just thinking… ‘well that doesn’t fucking add up.’

What helped was knowing there were others that shared the same feelings that I did.

I began lurking on this side of Tumblr, reading everyone’s posts (and even masterlists) of reasons why the series was so fucking garbage, and how it did absolutely no justice to Loki’s character.

It helped me realize and identify the reasons why the series upset me so much. It also helped me learn more about Loki’s character in general, to which I fell more in love with him. It helped me feel less alone, and I wanted to voice my own opinions as well. I felt so lost, and I really wanted to connect with others who felt the same.

Eventually, I began posting my own rants as well as following a bunch of other OG Loki fans who primarily focused on Loki’s character before the series (as well as before Ragnarok.)

These were people who understood Loki, and loved him as much as I did. I found community, and everyday I am so grateful for everyone here. I was (and still am) heavily fixated on Loki, and the mischaracterization would irk me so fucking badly. The lack of love for Loki for who he is, outside of ships and fanon, hurt me. He means a lot to me even if he is just a fictional character. I see myself in him.

So… long story short, it really means a lot that I could play a part in helping you out with your own confusion and feelings of loneliness through all of this bullshit. It’s the same thing I went through a few years ago. Wanting to help as well as wanting to connect with others who felt lost and hurt like I did, was why I started posting on here. It’s a bit of a full circle moment for me lol.

Other platforms are DREADFUL. I think I’ve said this on here somewhere before, but Pinterest has a lot of OG Loki content, and I find it easier to avoid the series related stuff. I recommend checking it out if you haven’t. Also… I HIGHLY recommend using the google search Before:Year feature helps so much!! It’s pretty fun to see a lot of the first reactions to Loki’s character, as well as the outdated memes 😭😭😭 OG Loki fangirls paved the way!!

It really is a peculiar ass situation. My favorite character has been killed off, an alternate version of him was revived, and it’s all complete misery. What REALLY annoyed me though was people just accepting it.. Like what? Really? This is Loki to you?

Thank you for this, and I’m glad you feel less alone. I hope that you continue to find community within this side of Tumblr. It’s all I ever wanted for anyone who stumbled across my blog. So sorry for the long ass response LOL

[cowpokeomens]

You know who would be super cute learning southern or Appalachian terms? Jolly. Explaining what a holler is and Appalachian lore. I think he’d be so cute pointing out little things like your pronunciation of things when your accent comes through??? I just got made fun of for how I pronounce tin foil 🤦🏻‍♀️

YEAH BABYYYYYY I swear I didn’t send myself this y’all just get me; sorry this has taken me so long to answer my life is hectic anyways!

I don’t know much abt Appalachian terms but I am a southern girly, and I also suffer from “raised by southern Baptist grandparent” syndrome so! I know some things abt the lingo! And I think the first time you say some shit like “down yonder” and your accent dips a bit more than usual, jolly does a double take bc??? He?? Is not familiar with that phrase?? He notices your accents peeks out, rather than weaving itself into every word or sentence. So he takes to collecting the pockets of twang or drawl that make an appearance, holds them very close to his little heart 😔 he adores the vocabulary that sneaks into conversation, how you called the toilet a “commode” the other day, the way your eyebrows knit together in concern as you say “bless their heart” about some unfortunate soul. For me, food is synonymous with the south, and I think Jolly would be very open to trying the things you talk about so fondly. Like, it takes him a minute to realize you’re saying “biscuits and gravy” and not “biscuitsngravy” as a singular term, but he takes to the dish very quickly (especially mine I use bacon grease for the roux jolly!!! Come thru!!!) additionally, I think he’d be very receptive to fried okra, understands why you’re so hypercritical of everyone else’s Mac n cheese when he tries yours (it uses Gruyere, jolly, and you have to do fried onions instead of breadcrumbs or it’ll get dry) but yeah he likes poking fun at how you pronounce the “L” sound in “talk,” this one is very niche to my region of the word but I think he’d really try to teach you how to say “oil” the right way (when really he just wants to hear you say it over and over 😔) anyways I literally love him

[l-u-c-i-i-e]

no.

No really, the psychiatric emergency unit is not going well at all, I can't protect myself, as a result I dissociate every 2 minutes and the whole team there wonders what the hell I'm doing, why I disappear, why I'm so distant, why I don't communicate. I'm going to have to go back to my old visualization techniques from 20 years ago, because I really don't have time to make a talisman, which protects both my psychic empathy and my spiritual empathy. This internship is fucking great 🤦🏻‍♀️ Apart from that, Night is getting so dark and Mars retrograde so much, that I'm self-medicating with intravenous St. John's Wort 😑 So yes, Things don't come in, but the noise they make, you have no idea.

[stormyoceans]

you're definitely onto something because it all feels so rushed and "fake"... like someone with dylan's personality wouldn't magically be fine with everything all of a sudden, he could be such a complex and great character and i was expecting him to! but alas... this feels like a show for children where conflict just doesn't make sense and gets resolved by the power of friendship or something lol also some ppl on twitter are making good criticism and very good points (mostly band fans) but they are getting attacked which 🤦🏻‍♀️ anyway you're not alone in that, it's gmmtv after all

NOW WHY WOULD PEOPLE ATTACK SOMEONE JUST FOR SHARING THEIR OPINION ON A PIECE OF MEDIA ✋😭

like i understand. reading criticism about something you love is never easy, which why i tend to keep my more negative opinions to myself or at least not put them in the main tags, because i don't want to make people feel bad for liking something, however i think we really need to stop equating criticism with hate, especially if it's constructive criticism that's being talked about without any malicious intent behind it

thamepo, for example, has a lot of strengths – it's a visually gorgeous show, william and est have great chemistry, the romantic moments make you feel butterflies in your stomach and are built on thame and po getting to know each other – but i do personally believe it's falling short when it comes to storytelling and character building

i mean, the show is called thamepo, so i knew from the beginning that the romance between them was gonna be the focus of the show rather than mars as a group, however i did expect their relationship to slowly develop along with the two of them trying to get the group back together, and for the members to still play a major role in the series and in thame's growth as a character, but 4/5 of the group has already reconciled and we're only at episode 4

and you know, i don't think this would be as much of an issue if i felt like we got to know each member properly and the reconciliation between them and thame felt earned, but i don't and it doesn't: pepper suddenly appeared like nothing ever happened, and dylan's story got told by jun rather than by dylan himself (and as i mentioned in my tags i could also talk about how it feels like the writers refused to let any of them make any real mistake and be a little bit of an asshole but it would get too long so i won't)

as i said, it's ONLY episode 4, so there's still time to get to know the characters, but at the same time it does feel like there have been a lot of missed opportunities, and if i were a big fan of lykn i would definitely be at least a little bit disappointed rn, so i think people expressing that or even giving some criticism is perfectly understandable

ANYWAY. we'll see how things go from here, and in the meantime im glad to know im not alone in this, so thank you for your message, anon!!!!!

[iamkokonut]

Gintama thoughts

Currently on EP141 (Yoshiwara arc)

Rewatching Gintama 13 years after, during these years, I really disconnected myself with anime :/ so I don’t really know what happen after around EP200. Enjoying my time with it without any spoilers is really precious. (Unlike one piece idk why I can get so many spoilers before I caught up 🤦🏻‍♀️, and jujutsu kaisen too but I already give up on that series.)

I was going to rewatch the whole thing after I knew it ended but my lazy ass drag it until now to rewatch it. I was quite shocked to learn that Gintama has 80% female audience because people around me are mostly guys who watch it. But now I understand why haha. Most of the female characters inside are really strong - kagura, Otae, tsukuyo… It hinted with lots of yaoi, well I like ginhiji too :p also it’s mostly comedy, heavy storytelling and less fighting? In my opinion, that’s why it attracts lots of female audiences.

I still like it after many years after. Kagura is still my favorite <3 I still adore Okikagu. I still cry a lot during some episodes. I still enjoy it a lot. I still laugh a lot. Still one of my favorite series. Especially after watching one piece and knowing more anime / games, it makes it even more funnier. I love the serious arcs, I remember there’s one arc that make me cry for the whole tissue box and I still haven’t reach it yet…maybe I’ll leave another post after. Seeing Kamui and Tsukuyo again make me more excited!!

I do like female characters in most of the series. Not to mention my favorite kpop group is girl group too lol kagura is just so adorable and cool (of course)

[redblackstripes]

For the first time ever, I told myself I’d wait till all the episodes are out before starting on the drama. And it’s Kim Soo Hyun, so it’s extra hard hahaha.

Then I thought, hey, there are 12 eps. I can watch them slowly and by then everything will be out…

But guess what. I’ve binged all 12 eps in 2 days and now I’m here, sad and having to wait for the next one.

Why do I do this to myself 🤦🏻‍♀️