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*my sister walking into the kitchen and seeing me baking, my laptop off* : you want me to turn this on for you?
Me: no it’s okay
Her, frowning: I don’t know what’s scarier, you baking in the morning or you baking silently
Me, sheepishly: ah, well I had a nightmare…
Her, nodding: yep you baking silently
#star speaks#I was trying to not overstimulate myself#having silence can be risky sometimes because it gives room for a spiral#but if it’s silence while I’m doing something I can sort of move and work through it#now I’m trying to fend off the spiral of self blame at even allowing the first thing to get to me smh ��🏻♀️#silly brain why don’t you give me a break?#plus I didn’t even let it get to me too much I was baking and focusing on the baking and the world outside#sensory therapy or summat like that
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Lasting Embers part27: Winding down
The fifth day of final family bonding is in full effect. Midday sun shines down on Tenzen’s back yard where him and both his parents currently are. Friday’s were usually days when they decided to use the grill so why change up the tradition now? Might as well go a bit grander than usual, which is exactly what they did.
Mercury:*flipping burgers* Thanks for the invitation you two. It’s nice to have a moment of peace.
Emerald:Not to mention good food. Constantly going around the world is fun and all but you do not always end up near good restaurants.
Nora:*wearing an apron* No problem you two. The food would be better if Ren was helping but as you can see.....
Tenzen:*fully powered and standing still*
Ren:*watching him*
Nora:He’s busy at the moment.
Emerald:I don’t mind the light show. It’s actually kinda pretty.
Orange and pink aura flow upward into the air as usual when his semblance is in use. The added effect of lightning of the same color crackles calmly around his body thanks to his close and once again his usual appearance has had a color swap. Nora honestly thinks the pink hair with an orange strip looks better on him. Not to mention his orange eyes.
Mercury:You know it might be a good idea to change your semblance name before you go to beacon and everyone sees it.
Tenzen:What’s wrong with Overflow? It’s literally what my aura is doing.
Mercury:Yeah but is it cool? There’s other things you could call it to make it slightly cooler. Like Over Soul....
Nora:Limit Break!
Emerald:Soul Surge.....
Ren:Oooo that’s a good one.
Tenzen:Hey! I thought you were gonna be on my side?
Ren:It was just a thought. You ready to attempt your new move?
Tenzen:*shakes out his arms and legs* All right, let’s see if I’ve improved.
He takes a deep breath and puts his hands together. Slowly his aura stops flowing up and starts concentrating itself behind him. Everybody watches intently as it starts to take the shape of a silhouetted version of himself. It increases in a size a bit bigger than him and starts moving independently before fading away. Sweat drips down the poor boys face.
Ren:You got it to move and last longer this time.
Tenzen:*huff* Yeah but it isn’t near perfect yet. Man....*huff* I usually don’t have too much trouble with aura manipulation.
Ren:Nobody has ever done anything like you are right now. I’m learning new things just by watching you.
Mercury:Uhh what did I just see? It was almost like seeing monkey boy’s semblance but more intense.
Nora:Tenzen as exceptional aura control and can use it ways most people can’t thanks to his semblance. He’s moved it around freely in small ways like wrapping it around people for protection or to grab them. Now he’s actually trying to mold it into things.
Mercury:So you choose yourself?
Tenzen:It’s both the easiest and most complex thing I can think of right now. After that maybe I could get crazy with it.
Mercury:.....
Mercury:You gave yourself a Stand.....
Tenzen:Why would you say something like that..?
Emerald:As far as semblances go I think Tenzen might have the weirdest I’ve ever seen. I mean your aura seems boundless yet you still run out like everyone else.
Tenzen:I like to think of it sort of like a stamina bar. Let’s say my regular bar reaches up to 100% and my aura ranges in between that number and zero. My semblance breaks that cap and makes my aura amount 500%. Yeah it gives me way more to work with but instead of my semblance just eating away at my aura, it eats away at the bar itself. So when it’s all said and done, I can end up with a bar that can only hold 25%
Emerald:Sounds tricky; you’ll end up only being able to take minimum damage if that happens. Is that what happened in the woods?
Tenzen:Basically, I’m surprised what aura I had held up against me falling from the cliff. What makes things scarier is I knew even with Jaune around to use his semblance it wouldn’t help much. We’ve tested it before and it would restore the aura but not the bar; that only comes back with time.
Mercury:Yet despite all of that you rushed in to save everyone. Risky move but respectable.
Nora:Please don’t make that habit.....
Tenzen:Mmmm no promises. *smiles*
Nora:*grumbles* Why are you like me?
Ren:Alright, you seem like you still have more than enough power to attempt your other move.
Tenzen:*Grinning* Oh we’re way pass me “attempting” it. I was actually going to try it in training but then all the cult shenanigans happened.
Emerald:(Shenanigans, he makes it sound like it’s not the craziest thing in the world. Well....it kinda isn’t but still)
Once a again he takes a calming breath before bending his right arm and stares at his hand. Aura and lightning dust travel down to his palm until his hand is engulfed in it.
Tenzen:Done.....
Ren:How!? When did you- *smiles* it took me forever how to influence my aura with dust. You really are a genius at this stuff.
Tenzen:Well it helps I have the best teacher ever. *powers down*
Nora:Wow, I see how it is. Not like we spent countless nights together sparring and perfecting that together.
Tenzen:That’s because you’re the best mom ever. *hugs her* I love you!!!!!
Nora:I love you too my little ninja.
“You still go by little ninja?”
Everyone turns to see Yujin walking into the backyard. She has a white sack over her shoulder.
Yujin:Sup sherbet head.
Tenzen:First of all, that nickname can die. Second, why are you here?
Yujin:Want me to leave?
Tenzen:I didn’t say that at all. Just surprised is all.
Yujin:Home is a little.....lonely. I tell dad to spend time with Yang and sitting on my porch gets old. So I thought “why not go see Tenzen?”
Tenzen:*smirks* So you’re here for me?
Yujin:*red* Don’t make this weird.
Ren:Well obviously you are welcomed here anytime.
Mercury:Too bad you didn’t bring any food to this little cookout.
Yujin:*pulls chips out the bag* I know how Friday’s work around here.
Mercury:New favorite person right here. Besides Emerald of course.
Emerald:Nice save dork.
Yujin:I hate to ask but is there any chance I can inspect all of your weapons?
Tenzen:*squints* I know your game.....
Yujin:*nervous* Pfft what game?
Tenzen:Did you come here to socialize or get weapon ideas?
Yujin:.......Can’t it be both?
Tenzen:Will it?
Yujin:*grabs his arms* Let me tinker around with my weapon please? If I have one more emotional conversation I might fall apart. Do you want me to fall apart in your backyard? I’ve learned to cry really easily the pass five days. I’m holding back tears right now man!
Tenzen:......
Yujin:*tearing up*....
Tenzen:Oh you weren’t joking! Uhh fine, just-
Yujin:Thanks!
Just like that she emptied what was left in the bag to reveal a sketch pad and some intricate tools for salvaging whatever she can from her sword. By the time he looked back up at her she had her hair in a ponytail and glasses on.
Yujin:I already know where you guys keep all your weapons so....*darts off*
Emerald:How does she know that?
Tenzen:Don’t ask me. Maybe her real semblance is sniffing out weapons. At least she’s happy.
Nora:How has she been about all this? Her face looks kinda paler than usual. Also a bit thinner?
Tenzen:She actually looked worse a few days ago.Looks like things are getting a bit better but I’m worried it might not stick. After all, leaving day is soon. That’s gonna hard on her.
Nora:Don’t forget yourself....
Brief silence comes after that statement. All adults looking at him sadly as he just looks at the ground for a moment. The mood changes though when he raises his head with a smile.
Tenzen:I’ll be just fine! Sure I’ll miss all you guys but honestly school might keep me busy and you all will be back before I know it. I am looking at some of the most capable fighters in Remnant after all.
Mercury:*wraps arm around him and Emerald* Thanks kid, the cult won’t know what hit em!
Emerald:Hell yeah! *all three laughing*
Nora:*frowning at Ren*.....
Ren:I know. He’s not gonna talk about it though. I’ve tried everything.
Nora......!!! We’re not completely out of options yet. I gonna go check on Yujin.
Ren:Please don’t be pushy.
Nora:Mmmmm no promises. *smiles*
Inside Yujin was having a field day. Her house was nothing quite like there’s seeing how the entire building actually uses to house other people like an apartment studio. Now different floors have different functions. Their living room and kitchen were connected on the first floor since it was more than big enough. The spiral staircase upstairs led upstairs to a hallway with rooms for four people which she always found weird. Two of course were their rooms and at best a third round would occupy Merc and Em. Maybe the fourth room was for her or Jaune if they visited? She could not imagine sleeping under the same roof as Tenzen; especially with what happened recently. There was a final door upstairs that obviously was the restroom.
Nora:Hey Yujin can we have a minute to chat!?
Yujin:I’m on the dance floor!
Nora:*going upstairs* You know we do more than dance up here right?
Yujin:I know, but anytime Tenzen sends a video of him doing a routine it’s in here.
She was setting on the floor with her sketch pad. Different designs of everyone’s weapons over the years were set in front of her.
Nora:Woah, you found all of them.
Yujin:From Beacon days, the fall, Salem quest modifications, post Salem, etc. they are all so similar but different. I’m hoping one of these will spark an idea. Transforming weapons was never my finest skill set. Made too many moving parts or not enough to help. *Sketching*
Nora:Turning a sword into gauntlets sounds rough. Why not just make gauntlets with hidden blades.
Yujin:My sword skills depend on me being to do things like twirl it and hold it backhanded sometimes. Merging the two limits that. I need to find away to fluidly transition in between them. The way Ren’s blade retract in is giving me a few ideas but not much.
Nora:(I don’t think I’ve seen so many sketches for one weapon since Jaune tried to change his.)
Yujin:Maybe I should forget the gauntlets all together? Sigh, not like they’ve been useful.... *slumps shoulders*
Nora:....Are you-
Yujin:It’ll pass, don’t worry about me. *keeps sketching*
Nora:Yujin I have a favor to ask you.
Yujin:Sure thing Mrs.Valkyrie.
Nora:You know you can just call me Nora?
Yujin:I know, but I like saying your last name since it’s cool.
Nora:*smiles* I would say call me Auntie but that might be weird since you’re crushing on my son.
The pencil breaks as she accidentally put too much pressure on it. Why is she always getting caught off guard like this? It’s like the entire world is trying to make her deal with at least one emotional problem a day. Blood rushes to her face and her ears turn red as memories from two days ago surface.
Yujin:I....*mumbles* Tenzen is just a friend....
Nora:I wonder how many times I said that about Ren? Admitting it helps a lot you know? *smirking* I’m not saying go confront him about it; I realize how much of a flirt my wild child is. Personally I blame all his fans.
Yujin:I cannot tell you how many people I see wearing a shirt with his mask on it. “Nobody dances like TZ!” It’s like everyone goes a bit crazy for him and they don’t even know him.
Nora:His personality and energy are very infectious. A people pleaser like him knows how to keep spirits up. That’s actually why I wanted to talk to you.
Yujin:???
Nora:It might not be noticeable but Tenzen also has his hangs up like you.
Yujin:Really? He seems fine and calm about most things that happen. It honestly makes me a bit jealous seeing him handle stress so well.
Nora:He gets that from his father. Still he has them for sure. My son is just the type to put his problems on the back burner and prioritize everyone else. Problem is he never takes a moment to himself and faces them until it’s a bit late.
Yujin:Huh, I had no idea. Actually, the other day I did mention how much I admired how strong he was compared to me in situations and he was about to say something until he got cut off. Can’t say if it was about his problems but he did seem....sad.
Nora:Listen, I doubt he’ll tell anyone how he feels about everything going right now but I do know they’ll come out eventually when it’s too late. Can you just make sure to check in on him sometimes when we leave? I want him to have a person to talk to when he needs it.
Yujin:Oh of course! Can’t say I can really picture him needing my help much but I’ll be there.
Nora:*smiles* That’s a relief. I wouldn’t know what to do with myself if he suffered in silence after we left. My heart wouldn’t take it.
Yujin:......Nora, you’re a good mom.
Nora:Yang is better, or at least in my opinion.
Yujin:Agree to disagree.
Nora:Not even going to entertain this conversation huh?
Yujin:Not in the slightest.
..........
Nora:.........It’s not really my place to pry but I hope you know she loves you and right now the things you’re doing are really hurting her-
Yujin:She’s hurt me my whole life!
The entire room echoes with that yell. Nora just stares calmly as the girls anger quickly vanishes as it came.
Yujin:Sorry I.....I didn’t mean to yell at you. That was wrong.
Nora:It happens. *grabs her hand*
Yujin:Why does it feel like people are taking sides? *trembling* The way everyone keeps praising her and just wants me forgive makes it feel like I’m wrong for acting this way. Everyone seems to be on her side while I’m just alone.
Nora:Trust me when I say nobody thinks you’re wrong for being upset. It’s just we know Yang and that she is doing everything she can and more for you. We want you to see that. Leaving you a second time is killing her but sometimes hard choices have to be made. Even if that choice feels wrong. You know about Pyrrha right?
Yujin:Of course, without her I might not even be here.
Nora: For a long time her sacrifice didn’t feel like the right call. Going off to a fight she couldn’t win felt like nothing but a waste; especially to Jaune. Looking back on it though we couldn’t have been more wrong. Pyrrha gave people precious time to keep evacuating and Ruby might not have found out about her powers without her help. That dragon certainly would’ve done more harm.
Yujin:.....
Nora:I’m not saying you have to forgive your mother right now. But I do hope that one day you can look back at all this and take some sort of pride from the fact that she’s doing it to protect everyone; including you most of all. By the way *smiles* I think the gauntlet part of your weapon is one of the coolest parts.
Yujin:Nora, can I ask you for something? It’s...*red* a bit strange. You’re not my mom but.....I mean I would like it if you-
Nora calmly pulls her into a hug. Allowing the girl to just rest into her embrace. Her heart rate starts to speed up and her breath a little heavy. She’s crying into Nora’s shirt heavily with no signs of stopping.
Yujin:How’d you know?
Nora:It’s all I ever wanted as a kid too.
Yujin:The worst part about this feeling is it won’t last. You’re leaving too.
Nora:*tightens hug*(You poor child. )
[Tai’s house]
Ruby:Downloading and uploading countless videos across different scrolls and onto a computer is one thing. Putting those files in chronological order, making sure they aren’t corrupted and then onto a scroll with enough space is an entirely different ball game. People who use computers for a living have my respect.
Jaune:You can take a break if you want. We still have two days left.
Ruby:*holds up scroll* I’m done. Do we have coffee?
Jaune:What!?
Ruby:Coffee, I’ve been up for a full day doing this. I would like-
Jaune:You finished with two days to spare? Ruby that’s-
Ruby:I know, “Ruby you’re so amazing!” I appreciate praise but right now I feel like I’m dreaming.
Jaune:Cream and five sugars?
Ruby:Black......
Jaune:*eyes widened*..........who are you?
Ruby:I need a drink that’s gonna slap me in the face. Plus I’m a grown woman.
Jaune:*hands her a mug* So all that’s left is the journal then.
Ruby:Don’t forget to wrap it all up. *sips*....... hey can you put-
Jaune:*hands her another mug* Cream and sugars in it?
Ruby:*red* You suck....
Jaune:You swallow.....
Ruby:But you still kiss me afterwards.*finger gun* damn where’s Yang when I need her? That was a good comeback.
Jaune:*points to the couch*
Yang:*passed out*Zzzzzzz
Ruby:Guess she needed a break too. I hope she can stay awake on look out when we leave. This stress might get to her.
Jaune:Both of you don’t talk much about what happened over the decade. Almost like you’re avoiding it.
Ruby:Not really, wasn’t much to say. Travel, hide, spy, kill, hunt, research.... It felt like a giant manhunt honestly. They were constantly looking for us while we looked for them. Only difference is they also had to spend time progressing their plans. We had some cool fights and close calls. More than I would like.
Jaune:You ready to go back?
Ruby:Ready as I’ll ever be. It’s wrong to say but I think of piece of me was relieved to learn the mission wasn’t over yet. Starting to move forward made me a bit anxious. Am I wrong for that?
Jaune:*shrugs* Consider this a chance to do the mission the right way. You’re the one who said that this time around it’s not about vengeance.
Ruby:That’s right; protecting others are serving justice. Just like it should be.
Yang:*waking up* I’ll drink to that. Someone poor me some cof-*handed a mug*
Jaune:It’s black coffee.
Yang:Is there any other way to drink it? *downs it admittedly*
Ruby:*shudders* That will always freak me out. Good news, the scroll is done. How’s the journal coming along.
Yang:Honestly I do not know anymore. I write but I keep wondering if any of it is actually any good. I’m worried she won’t even read it.
Jaune:She’ll read it. Maybe not in the beginning but she’ll definitely read it eventually.
Yang:I hope so. The other problem is how can anyone express everything they want to say to their kid with just one journal? There’s no time to make another one and everything I write in this one keeps reminding of more things I want to tell her. Before I know it I’m at end of a page and I still haven’t told her everything I think she should hear. *looks at it* Pouring out your emotions onto paper has been more frustrating than fighting Salem.
Jaune:Sigh, what’s with the women in this family struggling with emotions but excelling in combat. All three of you have that same exact problem which is surprising. Tai seems to be fine at sharing feelings and he’s the only DNA link you all share.
Yang:*grumbles*........
Ruby:I think you’ve been thinking of this journal wrong. It’s not meant to replace you or even say farewell. Think of it more as “see you later.” Because you will see her later Yang Xiao Long. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. So stop treating it like it’s the last thing you’ll ever do for her.
Jaune:She’s right. It’s not like you to prepare for the worst. You always plan for the best!
Yang:......
Jaune and Ruby: *smiling*........
Yang:Sigh, who am I to resist a double leader pep talk? *grabs it* better get back to work then.
[Menagerie,Oasis]
Adam:*packing* Jacquelyn can you hand me my flashlight?
Jacquelyn:Here you go. Finally packing for the trip?
Adam:Don’t wanna forget anything last minute. It counts as work but it has to be done.
Jacquelyn:Fair enough. I mean Jael has been packing for beacon for awhile too.
Adam:I’ve noticed, she’s packing like her spot is already guaranteed there.
Jacquelyn:You don’t think she is gonna pass the exam?
Adam:I do, I’m just glad she does too. I’d be concerned if she packed light.
Jacquelyn:It’s weird to think everyone is leaving so soon. Sienna’s missions for the shadows, your mission, Jael’s entrance and initiation exam. Things are going to get lonely around here.....
Adam:I’ve actually been thinking about that. *stands up* what do you say about going on another venture across the world when Jael gets in? You haven’t done that in years.
Jacquelyn:That’s an option. It wouldn’t feel right though. I’ve gotten used to having someone to talk to on those trips. *holds his hand* he was never much for conversation but he kept me company.
Adam:He also tried attacking you a few times.
Jacquelyn:Yeah but I could beat him with one hand tied behind my back; still can. *smirks*
Adam:Oh so you’re that confident.
Jacquelyn:You’re strong my love but face it, I’ve always been too much for you to handle. *rubs his face*
Adam:Sounds like a challenge I just might except. *grabs her waste*
Jacquelyn:Careful, I don’t accept challenges with rewards. I just might have you try to put another baby in me if you lose.
Adam:I’d do that win or lose regardless.
Jacquelyn:Who are you and what have you done with Adam?
Adam:I’m Jacquelyn Frost’s husband *leans closer* so in other words I’m the luckiest man alive.
Both of them start kissing and getting a bit handsy when-
Jael:*red* Ahem!!
Adam:......
Jacquelyn:*grinning* Hi sweetie!!!!
Jael:......Dinner is ready. *slowly walks away*
Sienna:*walks by with her ears covered* You two are gross.
Adam:*face palms* We forgot about the door and their hearing.
Sienna:Speak for yourself. They’re old enough to know to leave the house when this happens. *happily hugging him* I at least wanted to have one fun day out of the week. Don’t tell me I’m the only one who’s thought about it?
Adam:........
Adam:*red* Tomorrow.....
Jacquelyn:You here that you little wild flowers!?
Sienna and Jael:Unfortunately!!!!!
Adam:Let’s go eat dinner.
Jacquelyn:Kay!
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