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ruler-of-turtle-kind · 2 years

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Okay, that's enough Magnus Archives for today.

#tma reactions #episode 144 #decrypted tma #it's leaving me feeling bone-achingly alone #but I know I'm not alone #but I feel like I am #and the argument between logic and emotion just goes round and round in my head #and I feel like I’m drowning in a whirlpool of anxiety #just round and round and round #and the overactive part of my imagination wants to use this as basis to convince me this stuff is real #but it's not real #it's fiction #why can't i have a normal brain #one that doesn't try to lie to me #maybe I need to put MAG down for a few weeks again #no. no I'll be fine. I just need to keep doing this. Keep reasoning it out #when you have a brain that lies to you you need to practice arguing with it #that way it gets easier to dismiss the lies #it's good I'm in a safe environment to do so with something that is clearly fiction.#frick I'm delusional aren't I?#why God did you deal me this hand? what purpose does it serve?

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anglerflsh · 4 months

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we jest we laugh but doesn't the thought that we aren't even free of nobility as a ruling class make your blood boil. Yes yes by the modes of the present the current ruling classes are the capitalists the hegemonies the monopolies but we can't even say we exchanged one for the other. They're literally still here. It's so inconcievable to me. What the hell

#[.txt]#and some people are in favour of them... how does that not. I feel like I'd have to break and reconstruct my brain to be in favour of it #i understand the mechanism behind why people would be in favour ot the hirerachy of capitalism #namely the illusion of being able to climb you way up #but MONARCHIES? NOBILITY? you as a NORMAL PERSON why would you be in FAVOUR of it...#you can't even delude yourself into thinking it's to your benefit or that you can achieve the goal. Why would you be in favour of it.#the DIVINE RIGHTS OF KINGS?????????#THE FUCKIGN. ENLIGHTENED DESPOT LOGIC?????#maybe i'm experiencing the autisms but there isn't a single way I could possibly wrap my brain around it

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inkskinned · 2 years

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maybe i'm a bitch but if i hear you go out of your way to judge someone's weight, i immediately lose trust in you & will probably forever find you a little unbearable . yes also the little floating bar over my head will start reading [hostile]. this is natural and u caused it.

#IF you do the therapy to stop being an asshole and make a POINT of being like #''i used to be a jerk about this but now i'm not''#..... we can reevaluate ....#btw i hope this doesn't need explanation and everyone can be normal on this post #and not be like #what if i am a DOCTOR and i was aSKED #like we all know what i'm referring to here #you're like in target and lizzo is playing in the background and they're like #DID YOU NOTICE THAT LIZZO IS FAT?#or ur on instagram and like some dude's comment is like #NICE ART BUT WHY ARENT YOU THIN #like .... okay we get it. we get it . go to sleep . go to therapy. bye.#ALSO BTW i am in recovery for an ED and im saying this AS someone with Brain Problems #pls do not clown on this and be like ''actually i'm allowed to be rude and judgemental''#no u aren't. none of us are. having an ED is not a pass for being a fucking dick #it can make you ACT like a dick. that isn't something you should be proud of or seek to continue #hence.... therapy!!!!!!!!#i know it's kind of controversial to say it but frankly i don't believe in infantilizing mental illness #by being like ''oh they can't help themselves''#bc that kind of thinking is .... unbelievably toxic lmafo #you might not be able to control your split-second thoughts/judgements #i have ocd i understand #but like. . . .. you know #we both know #this post is not about ''u blurted something u regret''#this post is about. THAT GUY

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starkidthings · 1 year

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they are gay your Honor

#klance #vld keith #vld lance #voltron legendary defender #god this ship lives rent free in my brain #why am i here #why can't i just like a normal ship #why does it have to klance #:(

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necrotic-nephilim · 2 months

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What's so fun about BruJay as a ship is Jason's sheer obsessive devotion to Bruce. Jason is possessive over Bruce, to the point he doesn't care about the deaths of others so long as he has Bruce's attention. A part of the UTRH arc this isn't talked about enough is that Bludhaven fucking explodes mid-way and Jason won't let Bruce see if Dick is alive.

batman (1940) #650

A lot of discussion about UTRH paints Jason as this anger-driven cold, calculating machine up against Bruce when it's so clear that his love for Bruce is what drives him at his root, even if he won't acknowledge it. He says it himself, he would've done anything if it was Bruce who'd died instead of him and his anger is rooted in that possessive devotion not being reciprocated.

batman (194) #650

BruJay as a ship always to be, to some level, unrequited. Even if Bruce loves Jason back in that way, he'll never be that obsessed with Jason. Jason will always view Bruce's love for Dick or Tim to be a distraction, proof that Bruce isn't dedicated enough to him. Jason has the need to always have Bruce's attention, even when it could come at the cost of Bruce's other loved ones. Something something cannibalism as a metaphor for love in how Jason wants to consume Bruce's whole existence. He can't let Bruce leave him again, can't let Bruce love or grieve anyone else. Forcing Bruce to choose between Jason and the Joker isn't just about confronting Jason's killer, it's about confronting the other person who exists as this duality with Bruce and consumes so much of Bruce's life. That's the role Jason wants to fill, calling himself Red Hood and forcing Bruce to look at what he's become. But still loving Bruce and wanting more than anything for Bruce to reciprocate that love in the way that Jason understands. I just think it's good soup and rife with Dynamics that are underexplored with them.

#necrotic festerings #brujay #jaybruce #jaybru #jason todd x bruce wayne #batcest #i've had this thought in my head for a while #i was just weirdly shy about posting it? like convinced myself it's not as verbose as some of my other thoughts #also GOD why is the art of this arc SO BAD.#i can't take it SERIOUSLY #i hate looking at it.#the faces. why are the faces like that.#brujay needs more love bc jesus #gotham war had some good brujay content but i am still too bitter to discuss that shitshow. so. ignoring it for now.#bruce changing jason's brain chemistry as an act of love is the most FUCKED UP brujay thing ever tho #it's so Them.#sorry that is just peak brujay. they are incapable of meeting in any middle and always trying to change each other.#maybe this meta should've been about that.#but then i'd have to use new-52 and rebirth panels so eh. nvmd.#this page makes it seem like i hate post-flashpoint comics. i don't i swear #they just interest me less for batcest.#like oh yay everyone's getting along and working together.#it only came at the expense of throwing away decades of character work. small sacrifice.#i need to stop posting meta at fucking 5 am.#no one is going to see this bc i can't be a normal person.#wrote this while watching invincible #which is pretty good so far but man the ending of ep1 clocked me. i was absolutely bamboozled.#i had something else i was going to say in the tags but i lost it.#anyway most of this is a ship post and projecting shit as per usual and yk. not serious comic media.#i'm just silly and gay.

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redbean-nom · 5 months

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ECHO HAS EARS???

#star wars #tbb #the bad batch #tbb s3 #tbb spoilers #tbb echo #redbean talks #i. did not realize the head thing was removable #wait it seems important though. is he going to like. get electrocuted by the brain implant stuff #also that hand is very helpful for disguise purposes but #it also doesn't seem so helpful motion wise #when he was walking through the hallway it was kind of just resting on the side of the blaster?#so he probably can't use it as a normal hand #hm i guess that's why he never bothered getting a new hand earlier #less convenient to have to take it off all the time to do stuff #and not super helpful for hand related tasks

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fivewholeminutes · 11 months

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Obligatory eyes like fire moth fanart: ✔️

My, those photos look terrible on desktop. Anyways! I don't like it in terms of "fanart for this specific lyrics part", i don't think it shows what i wanted it to represent, but i have grown to like it as a funky fluffy moth pal that's chilling over my desk now, so yeah.

Btw, it has legs. One of them keeps falling off.

#it was supposed to be a normal papercut art using normal paper on a normal flat surface #but then my treacherous brain went 'what if it could move its wings'#(i can't sew)#(the wings are not moving anyway)#i've also used real soot for Dramatic Reasons™#and burned some felt and the lace and my finger #burned felt looks like crisps. 0/10 do not recommend #'why is it covered in glitter' you may ask #that's bc my bestie said 'moths are shiny. use glitter' and i couldn't have argued with that <3 #sleep token #sleep token fanart #sleep token art #alex vs the mortifying ordeal of having her art perceived #lots of mistakes were made here but i've had fun making it and it's all that matters

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burningfaith · 26 days

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next month me and my grandma are going to visit my godfather who lives in Spain, but instead of being excited (it's gonna be my second time abroad in my life) I'm anxious af, because even though I'm an adult I live with my parents and I need to tell my father about it. normal parents would - y'know - be happy that their children have opportunity to visit another country, but instead he's gonna be insufferable about it, because it's my mom's side of family and he despises my uncle. but what is he gonna do? kick me out of the house even though he promised that as long as I'm studying or working I don't need to worry about such thing, humiliate me as usual, tell me that I'm childish and spoiled or make my mom's life a living hell again? I'm aware of the fact that the longer I'm putting it off the worse his reaction is gonna be, but I'm just not mentally able to tell him that, because I don't know how he will react. I don't need any money from him, I don't have to use my phone during this trip (I dunno how the roaming and stuff work), I just want to be sure he's gonna behave like a proper human being towards my mom and my siblings when I won't be at home and not act like a total asshole while talking with me about it.

#i know that at my age i should be more mature and handle such situations better but as long as he's the way he is it's impossible #why can't both my parents be normal #and the fact that i wasn't able to get any summer job this year isn't making it any better because i know it's gonna be one of his argument #(czaicie to że nawet do żabki mnie nie chcieli. dosłownie emotional i brain damage)#'you didn't work so from where do you get the money for that'#don't worry definitely not from you because you can't even pay for my monthly train ticket to college #and at the same time have the audacity to call me dumb for commuting there instead of living in that city #while knowing that neither me nor mom can afford renting anything without your help #(okay i'm a bit exaggerating in my mom's case but she earns much less than him and he still makes problems with literally anything #even buying food even though he's in a very good financial situation and there are times when my mom has to make everything work all alone #because he's getting mad at her out of nowhere and only pays the bills that fortunately aren't that bad in our case)#(and unfortunately the bills include my telephone subscribtion because all of our numbers are in some kind of special offer where you pay #much less for one number when they're registered for one person so it's another problem in this situation because when i offered paying for #mine he refused and probably it'll be his another argument for becoming mad that i dare to spend time with the part of family that cares #about me unlike majority of his relatives)#i hope that at least when academic year starts i'll be able to get any part-time job on the weekends so i can save up more money #although i'm not sure if i'm gonna move out in the nearest future. i mean he's fucking insufferable and toxic but i just can't leave my mom #and especially siblings there even though i can't even fucking protect them from literally anything. at this point i'm just powerless.#there are times when he tries to change for the better but then he starts creating problems on purpose and everything is coming full circle #and the sole thought that my little siblings would tell me that i just ran away from this problem is fucking killing me.#niedziela wieczór i humor niegituwa. zawsze kurwa kurwa coś.#chuj idę słuchać myslovitz #pau.txt

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quatregats · 2 months

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🌹!

From a fic in which I throw Hornblower, who has learned to play piano by rote, in with one of Stephen and Jack's music sessions, and everything goes swimmingly, as you can tell by this very congenial start:

Hornblower, who had already decided that he disliked Aubrey immensely, baulked at the invitation, but he could not find it in himself to refuse it, an action which he felt would be very much like surrender.

Thank you very much! <33

#he is fighting for his life but also he can't just admit that he hates music because then what would become of his naval career #<- normal thought processes of normal guys. why do i have a direct line to his brain i hate it here #i also am quite pleased with the next sentence after this one but i made up a guy who i'm not sure about so i'm putting this one instead #perce rambles #percy yells at cecil scott #scribblings & such #thank you all so much for enabling me <3333 this concludes our evening's entertainment :')

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msnihilist · 2 months

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"Animal" by Neon Trees, covered by Chase Holfelder

This is my part for a hero/villain obsession MEP, you can view the full thing HERE.

#ben 10 #ben tennyson #khyber #khyben #my editing #sharing now because i think the s1 episode where kyhber kicks ben up and down the street like a hacky sack Did Something to me #i think it fundamentally rewired my brain as a kid #i just can't stop looking at ben's groan of pain when khyber shoves him into the wall oooohuuhhh i am UNWELL #why did the ov animators have to make him so so pretty when he's in pain #yeah anyway i am normal about him

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zoey-angel · 2 months

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My toxic trait as a stay is that immediately upon learning minsung moved in together I assumed it was by choice (not a randomized partner arrangement) and then concluded everyone picked their own roommate.

#Minsung do randomly end up together so often too but this is such a huge deal to live with one person alone and anyway #Why would skz randomize room assignments when last time they split into dorms by work schedules #They reasoned that 3racha should live together but now they're in three separate dorms #It's a bit unreasonable to randomize it unless they take an actual issue rooming with the person closest in schedule #Even if minsung specifically wanted to room together why aren't Chan and Changbin sharing a dorm for convenience?#You can say it's randomized but again... why would they randomize it if normally binchan would prefer to share rides and work out together #And you could say they just wanted a change but Changbin and Hyunjin were already living together so they didn't change roommates #What's the point of randomizing for a change if they get their old roommate?#I can't help but suspect that Changbin and Hyunjin chose to move in together #And then that means the others chose each other too because #Why randomize when they can have Felix and Jeongin share a dorm where they game together #Or Jeongin and Seungmin share a dorm as vocalists who go to vocal classes together #And if chanlix were a thing theoretically they would have been in the same dorm Iike minsung but they are not #If skz did choose to randomize the roommate arrangements they inconvenienced themselves greatly going against previous logic #If they didn't randomize it that marks to me the death of all but four fandom ships. I don't think they're all dating or even queer #But if they were then the room split would have looked very different #Me personally I love that jeongchan are rooming together because that's my favorite dynamic #And I shall consider this a game changer in the way I view Hyunjin and Changbin's dynamic as well #My brain is going a mile an hour

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dollsome-does-tumblr · 1 year

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my greatest fandom flaw: i can never express my dislike of rory/jess to the full extent that i yearn to because i know it’s just way too taboo to ever unleash upon the world. i must remain silent on the matter to stay in the polite circles of society.

so i just have to keep it bottled up inside of me

F E S T E R I N G

#i guess i could go into an empty forest and scream about it or something #AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!#it's weird to have once liked something that i have come to so deeply dislike in my weird old age #i guess we're all of us always growing!#(or ... devolving. whatever!)#it's also very uncomfortable to dislike one of those all-time popular otps of all time! why can't my brain just be normal!#dollsome's deep thoughts #anti literati #i like rory/dean better than rory/jess. RORY/DEAN! isn't that tragic??#and i have to live with that fact every day!

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roitaminnah · 2 years

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sorry for not being normal about butterfly soup... it will happen again <3

#butterfly soup 2 #ppkm #um I have so much work to do and instead of do it my brain was like . hahah what if we drew ppkm for like. idk. 30 minutes #so here is my 30 minute ppkm doodle i did . on aggie #u may be asking roi why is this catgirl akarsha. listen. she just comes out like that sometimes. i'll be drawing and #she'll just be a cat girl i can't explain it. um. ... cat girl akarsha #i like them a Normal amount #sketchbook #roi draws

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tethrras · 2 months

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i will be so real i'm so thankful to have a job but the amount i want to grill myself on a bbq has increased like 20% lol

#i genuinely feel like a trapped animal and i'm so anxious thinking about it #esp bc it's like a High Importance job with some Confidential elements #i just don't wanna fuck anything up and get anyone in trouble like i really really don't #and it's really exhausting. and i've only worked here like 2 weeks lol!!!!!!!!!#aaaaa!!!!#i'm trying to be good about it and normal about it because i will literally only have to work #2 shifts a week for most of the summer and then 1 shift a week for the school year like #worrying about it is making me such a huge baby. but also. i'm so fucking scared lol #i wish my brain would let me have a mental breakdown but i care so little abt myself #that i can't even do that anymore #my body is fully like no one will care or sympathize with you if you show any emotion at all whatsoever #so why bother #and it's like well true!#that's a good point!#anyway hope i die actually i can't do this lol #maia.txt

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psychewritesbs · 1 year

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Liebstod is a German word for a kind of love that is so unreal and so Divine, that it can only be achieved in death.

But Death is not to be taken literally as the ultimate archetype of endings, but one of transitions and new beginnings--an archetype of ego death from which a new third is born.

#now if only the above mentioned idiot would have not taken that his death would be literal #you stupid stupid idiot #I love him your honor #dammit seishiro why can't you just be normal #ego death dude #it was ego death all along #ok this is my lame ass and shallow interpretation lol #inspired by noa's talent for reading tarot cards #ok but also the skull on his lap #its the same skull from the drawing where subaru and him are wearing pope outfits #anime tarot #x/1999 #sakurazuka seishiro #I will go down with my spelling of his name #since Spanish is my first language #any time I see that u vowel sitting next to the o #my brain vocalizes it instead of treating it like a silent vowel #so seishirO it is #psychology of romantic love

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thediamondarcher · 1 year

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I seriously don't understand how famous people can take criticism because i see one person saying something bad about a celebrity i like and i get like actually anxious and i feel really bad

#it's awful #it breaks me practically #can someone explain why do i feel this way #I DO I HAVE TO TAKE THINGS SO PERSONAL #i admire those people who just see something they don't like and ignore it but i can't do that #my brain will repeat that on loop and there's a point where i feel physically ill #is this something to do with my mental health because this doesn't feel normal

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