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~White Blank Page~

TITLE: White Blank Page

CHAPTER NUMBER/ONE SHOT:

AUTHOR: bookwarm85

WHICH JAI/CHARACTER: Jai&GF

GENRE: Hurt/Comfort/Romance

FIC SUMMARY: Jai reflects on an argument he had with his girlfriend and makes it up to her.

RATING: MA

WORDS: 2134

NOTES/WARNINGS: I wanted a to write something tender and fluffy, I hope you guys like this. This was also inspired by the song “White Blank Page” (hence the title) from Mumford & Sons.

Please let me know if you want to be tagged in my future stuff and I will you to the list, plus a huge thank you to my wonderful beta @anditcametopass for helping me with this.

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He hadn't meant for it to happen, he had never meant to do what he did to her. She had pushed his buttons and he had just snapped, even he was shocked at his reaction. He sat beside the bed and watched as she slept soundly, unaware of the guilt burning a hole in his chest. Her cheeks were flushed from crying, tear streaks stained her face, making him face the awful truth, that she had cried herself to sleep.

Jai recalled the argument that had ended this way. He had returned from a rough day at work, where the director had made him do several takes of the fight scene for his new film. When he finally returned home, he wanted nothing more than to crawl in bed and sleep, but his girlfriend had other plans.

She had greeted him at the door with that beautiful smile of hers, the one that could chase away any dark thought he ever had, the one the warmed him on the coldest day. Even though was exhausted, he found himself returning the smile, that was the power of her smile.

She was absolutely gorgeous, with creamy jade eyes, long brown hair, and the curves of her body that he had memorized underneath his curious hands. He had mapped every dimple and every scar of her body, showering them with kisses because they were a part of the incredible woman he had been so lucky find.

“Hello, handsome,” she beamed at him scratching the beard he had grown for his new film. “Hello, darling,” he murmured back before capturing her lips in a sweet kiss.

He didn’t hesitate to take her in his arms and take comfort in the way her soft body molded with his. Where he was hard muscle, she was soft and pliable, her body fit perfectly against him like she was the matching piece to his.

“How was your day?” She chuckled as she ruffled his hair. “Awful, Richard, the director, wasn’t satisfied with the first fifty takes of the fight, so he made us do another fifty and I’m absolutely knackered,” he complained with a tired smile.

“Aw, I’m sorry babe. I’ve made dinner,” she told him before turning to enter the kitchen. “It smells incredible,” he said, following after her.

When he entered the dining room he saw that she had prepared his favorite, a big juicy steak paired with a fresh garden salad. His mouth immediately began to water as he sat down at the table.

“So, I told my sister we would meet them later for those drinks,” she told him as she took a bite of her own salad.

“I’m sorry?” He perked his head up a frown on his face. “Yeah, don’t you remember? We told Julia and Steven that we’d meet them later at that new bar in town?” She asked, surprise evident her voice. “Babe, I completely forgot.” He ran a tired hand over his face before scratching his beard, heaving a deep sigh before continuing.

“Can’t we postpone?” He asks, hopeful that she would agree. “Jai, we’ve already canceled twice already,” she reminded him quietly. “I know darling, I’m just knackered from today,” he said before smiling that charming smile of his, the one he only used when he wanted to get his way.

She quietly sat her fork down before taking a hefty swig of her wine and dabbing at her mouth with her napkin before settling her gaze on him. “Jai, I understand that you had a hard day at work, I really do, but you also made me promise and you made them one as well. We’ve rescheduled with them twice before. I’m not going to do that again, you know how difficult it is for them to find a babysitter.” She explained.

Jai looked down at his plate before responding,

“Babe, I understand that as well, but I’m so tired I could nod off just sitting here,” he said with desperation in his voice.

He had done more preparation for this role than any roles he had had before, he was also dedicated to giving an honest portrayal, but, he was afraid he had stretched himself too thin this time, he was tense all the time and even had trouble sleeping at night.

“Are you even listening to me?” She questions in an annoyed voice. “I’m not going” Jai simply stated, placing his napkin on the table and taking his plate to the sink.

He had hoped that she wouldn’t follow him into the kitchen, but he knew she would. Not only was she gorgeous, but she was also stubborn. That was another thing he had fallen in love with, she wouldn’t back down.

She had placed her plate with his and crossed her arms and straightened her arms and raised up her chin in defiance.

“Excuse me?” She asked.

“It’s done, I said I’m not going and that’s it,” he said as he began placing the dirty dishes into the dishwasher.

“They want to see you too Jai!” She told him, placing a hand on his shoulder.

“I know, but, I just want to go to bed.” He told her firmly.

She looked at him with her penetrating gaze, then cupped his cheek forcing him to look at her. “What’s wrong?” She asked, her brows furrowed in concern.

“Nothing,” he lied steadily. “Tell me,” she pressed further.

Jai narrowed his eyes in annoyance before shrugged her hand away in annoyance. He didn’t want to admit that he thought that he wasn’t enough for this roll, that maybe he had gotten in over his head.

“Just go and have a fun time without me,” he muttered.

She had squeezed her way between him and sink and grabbed his face with her hands with a stern expression.

“I’m not leaving this spot until you tell me what is bothering you.” She demands. Jai would have looked away if it weren’t for the fact that she had his face in her hands. “I’m just tired,” he murmured once again.

“Liar,” she whispered.

Jai’s eyes snapped to hers in an instant, the anger rapidly growing.

“Excuse me?” He scoffed at her. “You heard me…” She replied.

Jai knocked her hands away from his face and shoved her gently away. “You call me a liar?” He asks her, his eyebrow quirking.

“Yeah,” she widened her stance and squared her shoulders.

“I’m a liar just because I want peace and quiet with my beautiful girlfriend?” He asked, his voice growing an octave louder. “You’re a liar, because you won’t tell me what’s really bothering you. I know you’ve worked really hard for this roll, but you’ve always told me everything, why can’t you tell me what’s going on now?” She asks her hands in the air. “You’re just upset because I don’t want to have drinks with your sister!” He accused. “Oh please, I’m not that petty,” she argued, her voice growing loud also.

“Yes you are!” His voice rose higher. “I am not!” She argued again.

Whether it was exhaustion or the fact that they were going around in circles, he couldn’t quite decide, but something snapped inside of Jai, his patience had finally worn out. “Why can’t you get it through your thick skull that...I DON’T WANT TO GO!” He screamed in her face.

And as quickly as the outburst came, the quicker it left, leaving him breathing heavily and her staring at him like was a total stranger, her green eyes shiny with unshed tears. she was trembling. He took a step forward and she stepped back.

She quickly ran to their bedroom and slammed the door, and that’s when he heard it, the sound that shattered his heart, the sound of her sobbing loudly. He stood there in shock at what had transpired, guilt filling every part of his being.

Now he was at the side of the bed, observing her sleeping figure. The fact that she had changed into one of his shirts gave him a sliver of hope that she would forgive him.

He crawled into bed next to her and pulled her body back into his. She mumbled something before turning towards Jai. He was never an emotional man, he didn’t cry easily, but as he took in her tear streaked face, it broke him as tears of his own began to fall. And so he kissed her neck lovingly, seeking comfort in her embrace.

She shifted lightly against him and turned to face him, hearing his soft crying, and opened her eyes, taking in his frown. “Jai, baby,” she murmured taking his face once again in her hands.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered sadly. “I know,” she whispered back. His gray eyes found hers before he lowered his mouth to hers in a soft kiss that quickly turned passionate. He pulled back only for a moment.

“Please forgive me, say you forgive me,” he pleaded, running his fingers through her hair. “Always,” she said.

Jai began to smile as he peeled his shirt from her body, his hands mapping out her skin, his favorite thing to do. She giggled as he peppered kisses to her neck before nibbling at her collarbone, then moved to kiss and lick his way to her breasts. He swirled his tongue over each hardened peak, causing her to squirm and moan.

“Jai,” she ran her fingers through his hair and lightly scratched at his scalp.

He looked up at her for a moment, and she smiled at him, tears once again in her eyes, but this time, they were tears of happiness. He couldn’t resist the urge to press another sweet kiss to her mouth before continuing his exploration of her body.

He licked a trail from chest to her navel before blowing gently. She stretched out like a cat, his fingers rubbing up her sides as he pressed his fingertips into her ribs before cupping her breasts and massaging them.

He placed open mouth kisses to her hip bones, taking time to nibble the small scar he had there from her appendectomy she had when she was eight. Then he pressed another wet kiss to the mound above her slick folds. He groaned in satisfaction at the fact that she was so ready for him. But he was focusing on her tonight, he wanted to make up for what he had done.

He very lightly ran his finger up her folds, tickling her and smirking when he saw her stomach quiver. She had her bottom lip between her teeth. And then he then gave her a full lick, increasing the pressure as he reached her engorged clitoris. He then brought the bundle of nerves between his lips and gently sucked, her hands once again finding his head and she stroked his hair, soft moans of pleasure escaping her.

“Oh God,” she whimpered desperately. “No, just Jai,” he smirked against her center.

She snorted with laughter before giving him a light hit to the head before he resumed his divine torture. He could tell she was getting closer by the way her thigh muscles quiver, she was holding back. “Don’t you dare hold back, I want to hear you, darling.” He growled before increasing the pressure of his mouth. “Oh...my…” She whimpered loudly. A flush had begun to spread over her creamy flesh, letting Jai know that he was doing his job.

“Please!” She pleaded desperately. “Please what?” He asked. “Don’t stop!” She sobbed with want. That’s when he inserted two fingers inside her and pressed upward against the special spot that resided deep inside, the one that made her come undone.

“JAI!” She cried as her back arched off the bed, her whole body stiffening as she was lost in pleasure. His mouth resumed the small light licks as her cries died down. He licked her clean before kissing his way back up her body.

She smiled dreamily at him before snorting with laughter. “What?” He asked nipping at her neck.

“If that’s how you apologize, then we need to argue more often,” she smirked before claiming his lips in a soft kiss. Jai’s face fell “I really am sorry,” he traced her lip with an index finger, which she captured between her lips giving it a long suck before releasing it, causing Jai to swallow heavily. “Give me a few minutes, and I”ll show you just how I well I can forgive.” She snuggled up to him and he chuckled, placing a kiss to her forehead.

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nicetomeetvu · 9 years ago

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"You desired my attention, but denied my affection”

Music is a pretty cool thing. You think that you’re going through all of this unique pain and difficulty... and then you hear these lyrics that just perfectly describes how you feel. These feelings in your mind are translated into words with the strumming of a guitar in the background. Music unites us humans with the experiences that we go through. I felt that a couple of days ago. But I wish I hadn’t.

I’ve heard “White Blank Page” by Mumford & Sons for years. It was never a song I put on repeat, but it came along with the Sigh No More album. I listened to it occasionally, but it got lost in the sea of hundreds of songs in my music library. By chance, it played as my iPhone shuffled my music. It was the song I heard after he told me “I really hope she doesn’t think we’re a thing”.

“I really hope she doesn’t think we’re a thing”. It still burns. “She” is the other girl who he has occasionally liked for 3 months. She was also the girl who has ignored him for 3 months. He would like her, and then he wouldn’t. It left me on a hook. She had no interest in him and I thought that maybe if I stayed there waiting for him, he would realize that I would be the one for him.

He took advantage of my presence. He desired my attention. I would wake up getting all of the snapchats, messages, and texts from him. I foolishly grew accustomed to it. I would fall asleep talking to him. He was the last thought on my mind before I drifted into sleep. We easily talked all day. He would call me out if I saw a message from him and failed to respond after 10 minutes. He wanted me to spend copious amounts of hours with him, even if we were just sitting in silence. He always wanted to be seen by my friends. Our encounters would be filled with endless teasing. Other people began to wonder if we were a couple, which made me happy to realize that it wasn’t all in my head. I thought, “no guy spends this much time with a girl and not feel a single thing.”

But he denied my affection. After he indirectly told me that we weren’t a thing, I began to ignore him. It hurt. I cried for 3 days straight. Why would I give so much of myself to someone who doesn’t recognize our “thing”? (I don’t even know if I’m entitled to call it that). After 1 day, just 1 day, he began to get upset that I wasn’t giving him the attention that he has claimed for the past couple of months. Then, I took the leap. I told him how I felt. He brushed it off and gave me the “I’m glad we’re just friends” speech. How can a person just want so much of someone and just feel nothing?

#whiteblankpage #mumford and sons #personal rant #sorry for the rant #musictherapy

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