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negotiations.
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#dragons get so tunnel visioned when it comes to their hoard. often to their own detriment#y'all wanted to see price in action...you better savour it while you can#also i've not been intentionally neglecting laswell since i love her as much as the average joe#but i guess it just happened...#for the record she's still a human in this au but she keeps up with the best of them#ALSO also i had a ton of fun drawing this section#i hope it shows <3#monster 141 au#captain john price#manuel roba#simon ghost riley#giragi art
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Doodling my own girls again to regenerate my energy
Reintroducing this duo of misfortunate ladies, Ethel the dangerous things researcher and Katie the worrier
#my art#artists on tumblr#oc#original character#my artwork#drawing#digital art#doodle#lots of af attacks to do still but hnghhhhh going so long without drawing my own blorbos drains my vitality#so here they are <3#also theyre from the same universe as ilta/cecily#katherine & cecily know each other but dont especially get along. katies got her mission to protect her beloved at all costs#(even her own wellbeing)#and cecily is very dedicated to only caring for herself and doesnt really get it. also a vampire neglecting their needs um.#kinda puts everyone around at risk. not a very good strategy.#that being said cecily has saved her from particularly bad spots on occassion#in the end she cant help but get sentimental about people shes known for a while#ah yeah almost forgot#oc lore
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Um if you write Jason having to get drugs for Catherine I want you dead btw. Not only does it tell me you assume the average drug dealer would give the hard shit to a very small child and then not supervise them at all (classist stereotype that all drug dealers are inherently evil + lazy writing with no grasp on reality) and you genuinely think that Catherine was CONSTANTLY high, as if that's even possible without overdosing far sooner than she did. That's without even getting into the bad mom Catherine propaganda.
#dc#jason todd#Catherine Todd#I don't like talking about personal shit on the Internet#but I'm someone who grew up in a family of addicts and dealers and the attitude so many of these fics have#is so fucked up#like yeah my uncle would give a 15 year old weed but he won't even let them be in the house while he's doing coke#every dealer I've ever met had been THRILLED about my enthusiasm towards school and they always encouraged me#Multiple of them have given me actual job opportunities because they know a lot of people and they help their own#you guys actually just hate poor people and demonize addiction!#it's actually starting to piss me off#you don't have to write Cathy as a perfect example of morality#but if you turn her into a neglectful monster I assume you're either classist or projecting#it actually is possible to write Jason parentifying himself in order to take care of Cathy#without blaming a terminally ill woman who was already dying and likely in immense pain#you guys could be critiquing capitalism and our healthcare system and how it fails the most vulnerable people in our society#but instead you're playing up how gross and evil addicts and dealers and petty crooks are to make Jason's lige sadder???#his life already sucks you don't have to be classist to make it worse I promise
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an unnecessary reminder i will go to bat any day of the week for james sunderland.
#ooc. o kaptain.#[listen. i know he can be interpreted a lot of ways. i know he’s a useless weird apathetic shitty cis white man. i know he’s weird and sad.#and do I hate characters like james usually? oh absolutely. but the man has potential to not be terrible and it’s all there in his source#material. plus the weird implication i always feel when we know his dad owns the apartment building in silent hill 4 and ‘his son and#daughter in law disappeared in sh’ which aligns with the in water ending. and confirms the body in the car. but my other vibe is… where was#anyone helping james while Mary was sick…? he was super young and so was she. was he just literally taking on this terminal illness on his#own without any real support? that’s the implication considering this trauma wouldn’t have scarred him to this degree if he HAD a support#system during Mary’s illness. the man was literaly left to deal with the love of his life PROBABLY newly married slowly dying. and totally#unprepared he tried to do the best he could with a horrible situation. Mary was the victim here unquestionably — he fucking killed her— but#what the fuck kind of neglect has to go into a situation to a level so prolonged that he cracks and does it? how many people DIDNT help him#OR Mary during her illness? how many people just didn’t care? deciding ‘James is bad and he did it because he’s selfish and terrible’ isn’t#realistic. and also no. he didn’t do it because he couldn’t have sex with her anymore we get it blah blah pyramid head. if you take it THAT#straightforward idk what to tell you. nothing is. and this game is only more complex the older i get.]
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Ok I don't think it's unreasonable to refuse to visit my parents if they're not going to hang out with me,, right?? RIGHT?? Like I shouldn't be expected to drive 2 hours there and back to sit around their house and beg like a damn puppy for crumbs of their attention like I did when I was a kid, especially when I have a whole ass apartment and cat and schoolwork to take care of at home.
"am I going to see you this weekend?"
"I wasn't planning on it. I can fit it in if I'm not just going to be sitting around your house all day though"
"I'm not going to entertain you!! 😝"
Ok well, I'm a guest now since you turned my old bedroom into your hoarding closet I mean sewing den mb,,. idk sounds like bad host manners to me. 🤷
#Like I love my mom I really do#I hate her sometimes too but MOSTLY mostly I just pity her#I forgave her a long time ago and she's done a lot of work and healing to make sure our relationship has been relatively stable#Not enough tho obviously lol#Anyway I'm willing to hangout with her fr!! I would come over and do stuff with her no problem!! I would even enjoy it#But I'm not!! I'm not going to go home so I can relive my childhood emotional neglect trauma for 6 hours !!#Just so she can feel less lonely while she sits and plays games on her iPad!!#Especially when I don't even have my own space to retreat to when I get frustrated being ignored for the 15th time in a row!!#There's a reason I spent Christmas and my birthday alone
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mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW
#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again.#sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does#like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful#while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child#like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all.#imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child#only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you#his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you#agree deep down#and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept#but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide#and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke#and you discarded it and got a new one#and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow#and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it#until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly#and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different#and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child#and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da#and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand#but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs!#so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee#his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing#and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately.#but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when.#like. imagine that. jesus dude.#like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love#or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do#with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here.#but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like
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I know we are not supposed to be rooting for Derrick (or anyone in Penelope's family really)
but he has such pretty eyes
Especially when he's frowning ;w;
#villains are destined to die#i can't help it he has a character design that hits all of my likes T_T#in all seriousness though i do like all of the Eckharts for different reasons#Reynold after the attic scene where he has a moment of realization and does start to truly look out for Penny#and his hatred of her was understandable - he was 14 years old his little sister was missing a lookalike was brought in to be his new siste#and the lookalike prays that the og sister is never found/is already dead#that is a very good reason to become resentful!#meanwhile the duke is just neglectful. and knows he's neglectful and tries to (originally) make up for it#by letting Penny buy what she wants and run wild#but once he's forced to also come to terms with how he's been treating his daughter#you start to see that he's well aware of how he's messed up and he does actually really care about Penny as a daughter#and striving to do better#(i get the feeling that unlike Derrick he genuinely did not know the details of the incident with Emily)#meanwhile Derrick is..... Derrick. i love him but i also want to stab him#but the really biggest tragedy of it all is the isekai element#where the heroine finds out that while Penny's family was awful to her they are not as awful as her own#and are capable of treating her the way an adopted daughter should have been treated#but Penelope will never receive those affections and the heroine will never get this kind of closure from her own family
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doodle dump
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp agent#lobotomy corp oc#pretty sure i have more i missed. just doodling since i cant get myself to make more than bare minimum effort rn#ocs as well so i dont need to think abt how to properly portray another. considering i literally made them up#personality wise anyways. took some creative liberties when it comes to actual gear and random generated agents anyways#maybe ill actually ramble abt them on the sideblog. Eden and Eliza mirrors to one another and picking specific aspects of humanity to cling#to. Eden deciding the subconscious and concepts of humanity brought to life is more ideal that humans themself. the more one loves of human#ity the less one begins to love of humans. Eliza becoming subservient and wanting to activly love humans and her kin even when they hold no#love for her in turn. Both needing to be rewarded or feel rewarded for their dedication. Idealizing each side. the idea of everyone is capa#ble of good and thus should be forgiven and unquestionable love and loyalty. Eden viewing people as senselessly killing oneanother in furth#er elaborate ways and rejects the idea of people all together and finds solance in the Concept than the Living#Angelina and Ryn with how one views time and survival. One hyperfocused on surviving of the current day and neglecting their own very self-#and desires while the other only looks towards the future and idealizes to the point where they dont even see the today. delusion to claw#through reality. Safety team w Brook Eliza Evgeni and Katya is a little harder to explain but the main concept with them as a Group being a#a jab at the happy workplace family that gets along. nuh uh#i guess another idea that is weaved into them is 'survival' and how one sees they can be fit to live or find a meaning to live. and the con#tradictions that arise from anothers perspective and how people 'ought to live'. a clash of either accepting or denying anothers way of#how one should survive. and the projection of a way to live. of 'i view this to be right and thus i will have you do this thing' saving an#aspect or person that they can see themself in to then essentally save themself.#will i be able to handle such ideas with finesse? likely not i dont have faith in myself to properly encapsulate such topics to a perfect#enough degree but it is interesting to explore
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which subtle way of saying "i love you" are you?
HERE, HAVE A SANDWICH
you like to take care of people. probably because you don't take very good care of yourself, and you know how hard life can be when you don't have someone occasionally looking over your shoulder, offering you food when you forget to eat, telling you to rest when you've overlooked how tired you really are. you want to be that person for other people. you *are* that person for other people, and you're good at it too -- but remember to think of yourself as well when you're making someone else a sandwich. please, keep being you. the world would look a lot better if there were more people like you in it.
tagged by: @crownednight (my beloved 💖) tagging: @glorytragedy ; @lifebloomd; @devi1lute ; @khrused ; you!
#;; SITTING HERE WITH MY HEAD IN MY HANDS WEEEEPIN#;; BECAUSE THIS IS SO DANY !! TRYING TO MAKE SURE EVERYONE IS TAKEN CARE OF 😭 WHILE NEGLECTING#;; HER OWN NEEDS !!!#;; ALSO !! MIRANDA !!! LOOK AT THE BESTIES 🥹#;; ALSO i want to tag literally everyone 😭 BUT TUMBLR IS KEEPING ME FROM DOING THISSSS#♕░░ the dragon reared her head ; breathing in the storm and loving every minute of it ( ABOUT )#♕░░ wildin on the dash ( DASH GAMES )
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How old is Saige when she receives her bunnies? How did she react to her new pets? I just love all the posts you tag with Saige and her cute bunnies 🥰
Saige is about five years old when she gets her bunnies. I've mentioned before that they are a gift from Lexa's parents because Lexa mentions to them how obsessed Saige is with Peter Rabbit lately.
They come to visit them with a covered basket and give it to Saige as an early birthday present. At first, Saige thinks the basket is her present, and she's so excited even for it because it means she can use it to pick flowers and pretty rocks. Grandpa laughs and tells her to look inside the basket and when Saige open the flap she squeals as two little noses move agaisnt her hand, both with a little bow around their necks.
There is screaming. The high-pitched scream of an excited little girl that makes everyone wince a little, followed by gigglies and "thank you thank you thank you" as Saige grabs the bunnies out of the basket. She is so so so excited for them and the moment she holds one of the bunnies gently in her arms she is crying softly and looking at Lexa with a pout and a "mommy i love them so much already." We are talking same reaction to when she held her twin siblings for the first time.
Now, the truth is Lexa and Clarke did not know the bunnies were coming. Lexa mentioned it to her parents because Saige's obsession reminded her of her pet bunny when she was a kid, she wasn't fully expecting her parents to come and drop two new pets on their laps. They have the space for them and they have promised to provide the good for the bunnies but it is still a surprise. However it is good for Saige to learn to take care of them since she shows little interest in helping care for the other animals they have and making the bunnies her sole responsibility (within reason for a 5 year old of course 😅) is a good thing in their eyes. It also brings Lexa back to her childhood and it does warm her heart seeing Saige hold the bunnies as her siblings surround her and she teaches them how to pet them correctly, even more so when her mom rubs her arm and tells her how Saige has the same spark in her eye Lexa did.
Now Lexa and Clarke did wish this wasn't a Madi and her chicks pt 2 because now they are back to checking under beds and in the closet to make sure Saige didn't sneak the bunnies in her bedroom at bedtime ����
#i always have to count the kids ages and where it falls in the timeline 🤣#letter opened#farm clexa#heda-in-the-clouds#i also have thoughts^tm about Lexa's parents#how they were never extremely affectionate but clearly love their daughter and their grandkids#they are farmers by trade too and never had a lot of money#so when they can spoil the grandkids with these type of gifts they do try#they werent always the best parents - lexa was yelled at a lot and sometimes a little neglected#money was always tight too even more so than Lexa and Clarke's and they only had 1 kid#they had hopes for Lexa to grow up and stay on their farm and help out and basically stay there with them up until she was 30#they even told her Clarke could move in but Lexa just needed to move out and be on her own with clarke#they were also very young when they had lexa barely 18 while abby and jake where in their early 30s when they had clarke#so yeah sometimes them popping up with the bunnies was a bit of a shock but very much what lexas used to
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𝐕𝐈. If it were to come sometime the situation where Jinhsi gets so close to someone that she would like to spend some time with them in the intimacy of somewhere private, she would sooner invite them to a residence she has in Hongzhen than doing so in Jinzhou at the City Hall. This is because no matter the hour, the City Hall doesn't cease being a government building even if at the same time it's also the residence of the Magistrates, and while Jinhsi is sure that those who work there would be discreet, she prefers to not risk it. Hongzhen, on the other side, gives the sensation of being a more modest and tranquil place for that. Surely there may be rumors, but what few of them may exist won't make it past Hongzhen and if that were the case and Xinyi caught a glimpse of them, she might hush them immediately.
#◟༺𖧷༻◞ cantrelle of the plenilune ┊addendum.┊#this is not to say that C.hangli or S.anhua#wouldn't cover up for her#she has no doubt they would#but she also can't expect them to be at the City Hall 24/7#nor she wants them to#despite their positions#they don't have to be adhered to them as J.inhsi does#as a small note#this isn't limited to romance#it can be deep platonic relationships#or even somewhere in between#this comes mainly from my thought#of J.inhsi having her own residence in H.ongzhen#the one she has for /herself/ alone#and it's a nice touch to come back to her hometown#every once in a while too#I'd actually lean towards this being the case#in times when she needs extended moments for meditation#or work on the Temporal Mandate#as some Temporal Distortion leftovers are being fixed#this without neglecting her job at the City Hall#thanks to the technology she can do that virtually too
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my planned happy ending for devil's wine was having them fuck off to the woods of faerun where no one'd bother them. but i'm rlly in love with the idea of thisobald wanting to and eventually finding and meeting isobel
#i feel like it's rlly easy to think they'd hate each other (thissy's the neglected bastard son while isobel's the golden child)#but i rlly feel in my heart that they'd love each other despite any held resentment#i think thissy would have a hard time of letting go; not cus he hates issy; but cus he resents ketheric#and issy provides that comfort cus she has her own resentment towards ketheric#devil's wine#bussy gang
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i wish financial abuse and forced dependence weren't like. only seen as bad when a spouse does it??? lol.
#“just be more independent” trust me bro im trying#i raised by a mother who is still forcing me to be dependent on her#like.. dependence is a learned trait? and im trying to teach myself but its kidna hard when she combats it at every turn while yelling at me#abt how useless and codependent i am#it seems like whenever i talk about my situation people brush me off and say i have it good just becuz. she stopped hitting me young.#as if years of neglect to my well being and forced dependence and financial control havent fucked me up a bit lol??#like. no. i dont think my situation is normal or ok or healthy or good or pleasant. actually i hate it.#i dont know how tobdo fucking anything and when i try to ask for help learning people get mad at me for not fucking knowing and being scared#to try. as if i havent been kicked down by my mom every time ive tried to do things on my own.#idk ill shut up abt this now its just rlly upsetting that ppl like. dismiss what im going thru????
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@badheart — continued from here ;;
When she finally turns, regarding him with what appeared to be a flabbergasted expression, his eyes would only widen just the subtlest bit; after all, Ryuto didn’t believe he said anything to potentially set Fang off. Why, as far as he was concerned, he had been perfectly civil with her, which made her reaction all the more unfathomable to him.
“...Not particularly? After spotting you, my curiosity was simply piqued,” Ryuto then answers truthfully, because in all truthfulness, he simply felt like talking to her once he notices her checking out Yoshitoki Oima’s latest work. Of course, most would probably assume he would be snobby enough to believe manga wasn’t true literature, but contrary to popular belief, even he would resort to flipping through a Shonen Jump magazine every once in a while. “That was the intention, yes,” Ryuto soon goes on to nonchalantly nod.
“I wanted to hear your thoughts regarding that manga; after all, it’s not often I would encounter women who seemingly like that particular genre,” he adds while failing to mention he did actually remember what happened between them. Ryuto just chooses not to hold a grudge over what happened because he figured the heat only served to exacerbate her mood back then... and though he did imply Fang lacked the intelligence he sought in his ideal girl, he still manages to entertain the notion he might have potentially judged her far too soon.
Why, if nothing else, it wasn’t like he knew her all that well yet, so on the off chance she turns out to be way smarter than he had initially given her credit for, he was willing enough to apologize despite how shallow her attraction towards him was.
#badheart#█ ▓『 ✦ ⸂ •• QUEUED — ⧼ because livi is a busy adult irl. ⧽ 』#█ ▓『 ✦ ⸂ •• THREAD — ⧼ o2: badheart / ryuto and fang. ⧽ 』#┕━ ❛ ❀. muse »» ʀʏᴜᴛᴏ ᴛꜱᴜᴋɪꜱʜɪᴍᴀ〡𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗶𝘀𝗻'𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗰𝗮𝗽𝗮𝗯���𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝗻 𝗶.#┕━ ❛ ❀. post tce2 »» ʀʏᴜᴛᴏ〡𝗶 𝗴𝘂𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗲 𝗶 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝘀𝘂𝗿𝗽𝗮𝘀𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝗱𝗱𝘆 𝗲𝘅𝗰𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗮 𝗱𝗼𝗰𝘁𝗼𝗿.#┕━ ❛ ❀. in character »» ʀʏᴜᴛᴏ〡𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀.#[ ryuto is pretty much that (1) high IQ autistic kid who has a tough time ACTUALLY getting along with others ]#[ let alone understanding perspectives besides his own ]#[ so you can bet he's just '???' at her reaction towards him ]#[ like he does not understand why she's mad at him because he's more rational than he is emotional ]#[ atm though this boy-o is DEF being very real with her ]#[ while also neglecting to bring up how their first meeting ended on a very sour note ]#[ rana: YEAH do it! curse him to death ]#[ ryuto: ...exactly how old are you two? ]
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#focus who? i dont kno her#its so bad. i csnt focus at all. and ive got way too much to do. take me back to last week where i spent hours reading papers#annoying. also possibly lack of sleep cstching up with me#do u ever get very little sleep and not miss it at all? yea bitch all the time. then i get depressed and its sleepy time#and by sleepy time i mean i get like 8hrs of sleep lol#maybe ill just do nothing and completely fuck over my sunday lol#maybe i should go run up thr mountain rn before im stuck in a car for 2 hrs#bc im getting spikes of being insane. unfortunately i have no emotional object permanence so when i feel crazy its like#ive always felt like this ans its terrible forever. and then immediately afterward im like lol wot? nah im fine. ive always been fine#shout out to mood swings ✌️ like bro im trying to get materials together so i can teach a class. can u shut the fuck up? and focus?#well see how i do today with a ton of socializing. itll b fine. im normal i can b normal#or i can b endearing quirky. or whatever i usually i am. i dont think i have conversations like a normal person but i cant tell bc im not#there for conversations im not in. whatever everyone else has conversations in a way thats boring. i just wanna grill ppl til i understand#how they work. and then feel like im gonna die if im in a group conversation 🙃 let me study thr ppl around me#bc im very normal. god. i promise irl im not that weird. ppl think im nice and cool and successful#ok maybe not cool. but i think i can get away with being interesting. i got at least a lil charisma. im only a bit horribly awkward ;-]#but i try to own it. wtf was i saying. jesus. i cant with my brain rn. i shoulf have gone for a run this morning#being social just makes me anxious so im babbling i guess. but itll b fun. and itll b pretty im sure#maybe ill try to draw my ocs while im not paying attention. ive neglected them for so long 😭#unrelated
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Gurl these are the type of parents that shouldn't have a child in the first place unless everything has settled down and you're all done with your own problems like! Look at what you did to your child! SHE'S TRAUMATIZED!
#aria rants#ariaplays: aitsf#RENJU WHY WERE YOU EVEN PRIORITIZING A COMPANY OVER YOUR OWN KID#YOURE AT FAULT TOO LIKE I SWEAR#NEGLECTFUL AND ABUSIVE BRO THESE TWO ARE AWFUL#I FEEL SO BAD FOR MIZUKI#am glad for date being there#the way he sounded so soft and gentle while comforting her#she deserves all the best in this world
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