#which sucks

[doodles-in-sand]

[Tomorrow and certainly from this point forward

This hell will continue to the bitter end]

- Bitter Choco Decoration -

stills under the cut

[dailyhmsw]

loop 132

[orionthecritter]

Anyway here’s some doods

[ruubesz-draws]

Update...

Sorry for being inactive for a while. Life has been hectic to the point where I just haven't had the energy and time to draw things. But I have a few WIPs that I want to finish and hopefully show you guys soon.

Yes, the last two are gijinkas (and I have more)

[tetsuskei]

happy monday from my tv companion 💝

[itslilacokay]

oh fuck

[unopenablebox]

i may have posted about this before but on my way home from work i often walk down a quiet mixed residential/commercial street in a very residential area. & there's one block that's all small local businesses. like, a florist, a barber shop, the glasses place where the owner found out i lost my vision insurance since the last time i was there & took $100 off the price of my glasses, that kind of thing

and one kind of recessed dark storefront that i didn't register at all the first few years i lived here, but recently suddenly seemed to be some kind of nightclub? and one which, based on the people who normally stand outside in line and/or vaping, caters principally to transgender goths in their 30s

ive now been walking past this place for months but was finally prompted to look them up online by my delight at their sign out front advertising a children's goth dance party featuring a full chocolate milk bar

anyway, it turns out it's a nightclub for transgender goths.

[fbfh]

no but like-

you made me feel alright about being short?? bestie that's a crime

but thank you <3

OH MY GOD BABES!!!!!! STOP I'M GONNA CRY-

no fr but more roddy x short!reader bc I said so. if there's one thing rodrick loves to do, it's to loom over you affectionately. he loves how cute you look when you look up at him or stretch up to get closer to him. he loves when you're both sitting down and you wrap your arms around his waist and rest your head on his chest with zero effort. you really do fit together like puzzle pieces. you're the cutest goddamn height difference couple on earth. one of my favorite tropes has to be loser boyfriend gets boyfriend material scent on him from you, and now the girls that used to ignore him or make fun of him are trying to get with him and switch up almost comedically fast. following that, the amount of pick me girls who try to cozy up to your roddy and be like "omg I'm so short and small" expecting him to agree, but he just looks at them for a second, places his hand flat on the top of their head, and lines it up with him. "not really." their look of horror only increases when he goes "yeah it sucks, I really like short girls." rodrick calls you one day informing you he can't go on the date you had planned together because he got grounded. you ask why this time. rodrick mentally flashes back to greg asking why rodrick is dating you, and saying "they're basically my height." it doesn't matter if it's hyperbole or not, all the matters is that rodrick kicked his ass and concequently got grounded. "you know my mom, same old bullshit. it doesn't matter though, I'll just sneak out tonight. leave your window unlocked." god if you could kiss him through the phone you would.

[tau1tvec]

Keep forgetting they filmed parts of Practical Magic twenty or so minutes from where I live, so I get rlly confused sometimes when I pop into a local shop and find dvd’s of only Practical Magic on sale, and remember “oh yeah…”. 😂

[bunnieswithknives]

Noticed all your Oz posts and I’m curious, have you seen Return to Oz? That movies what got me into the books and I love it to bits

Not yet unfortunately, but It is on my ever lengthening list of Oz related stuff to get around to!! Hopefully I will be able to watch it by this weekend, I really do wanna see it so bad

[sigilmint]

what a uniquely terrible day at work. just. fucking awful.

[musubiki]

I forgot if you talked abt this, but does the whole "being on the same level as mochi" thing ever come up in honest conversation between them? Seems like an entire...thing that really influences lime's choices when it comes to the main conflict. I would think either some time after mochi's over her initial jealousy, or heck wayyy after they stop the witch king

oooo youre right i dont think ive talked much about it or at all.,... but YEAH a very key part of limes character is his need to be on the same level as her...partly a pride thing, partly a "i dont feel like i have the right to stand beside her unless i can compete with her" thing

(sorry for the long post rambles, apparently i have a lot more thoughts on this than i thought it did)

but actually this comes up WAY sooner, its WAY too big of an elephant in the room post-timeskip to go un-talked about. pre-timeskip lime could kind of quietly work away at trying to be better, but post-timeskip the m-34th thing is too obvious of a flag for mochi to think everything is okay with him

i think the issues really starts to be hashed out when mochi, at some point (relatively quickly after they reunite), brings up the notion of him quitting the m-34th. to an extent she understood why he joined, he gave her a bunch of reasons why he joined the regiment in the first place (jumping around a bunch of excuses like "They have good benefits" / "I was bored" / etc before finally telling her the truth that "I wanted to find you"), but what she didnt understand is why he stays in

she gave it a bit of time, they went through the whole "well you left me" vs "you joined the organization that exists to kill us" -> "call it even, water under the bridge" thing, and she thought that after a few weeks (months?) he would quit and just be part of her guild again, but he doesnt.

and when she asks him about it, he dodges the question, gives shit answers, dismisses it, a bunch of different things with the underlying message being "I'm not leaving you, but I'm not gonna quit working for them."

and she doesnt want to give him the "choose me or them" ultimatum either (even though pom seems all for it), because 1.) it feels like a shitty thing to do to him, if hes fighting this hard to stay in she doesnt want him to be unhappy, and 2.) shes afraid he might actually choose them

she starts to think a lot of things, that maybe he harbors some bitterness towards her, maybe he doesnt want to put all his eggs in one basket, maybe hes secretly feeding them information on her behind her back, ALL kinds of things.

eventually (and upsettingly) she gets the truth from clarinette. it takes fucking clarinette babbling her mouth away for mochi to get something that she hasnt gotten from lime himself. clarinette (in her delulu) wants to brag a little in the vein of "Haha he confided in me and not in you haha," and mentioned that when she asked him why he stays, he told her "The m-34th makes me stronger" or something along those lines.

and mochis first thought is "I can make him stronger too, he doesnt need to go to them."

and when she CONFRONTS him and tells him this, he gives her a flat "No, you can't." and it FEELS very cold when he says it. she can see the bitterness (bitterness???) behind his eyes when he says it. and its not a bitterness TOWARDS HER, its more of a "I spent 2 years before you left trying everything I could to make myself worthy of you this, and it did nothing. I would take 1 step forward and you would take 5. I'm not going back to that."

so this confrontation became one of those make it or break it conversations for lime, because his only two options were 1) tell mochi the actually pretty embarrassing and pathetic truth, or 2) risk losing her because shes already doubting him enough as it is

i think he probably tries route 2 first though. and whatever it is he tells her, he can see something in her eyes (mistrust? failing faith? fear?) which tells him "Oh no, oh shit, oh god, backtrack you idiot, BACKTRACK!!!" because if he lets this narrative go on for even a few minutes more, hes not going to be able to come back from it.

so he eventually actually does tell her the truth!! and he hates doing it. he really does feel pathetic. its so petty and stupid, he thinks. he shouldnt be trying to compete with the cat witch, hes supposed to be supportive. but he fucking hates being ONLY supportive. he wants to add something, contribute something meaningful, not just be a little accessory/sidekick to mochi.

and (as already mentioned) he cant do that without the m-34th. pre-timeskip he felt useless. and relative to mochi, he was. she wont say it, but she didnt need him. she would reassure him and tell him "You're amazing Lime!" but deep down she knew that after Amanita was dealt with and she was the full-fledged cat witch, she could do all of it on her own (and proves it when she leaves and takes none of them with her). she liked having him there (obviously), but anything he could do she could do better.

he felt like he just took up space, and when she left without telling him or taking him with her, it essentially proved his point. it was not even just a "I dont need you" thing anymore, it was now a "I don't need you, and I also know you don't have the means or ability to change that" and that fucking HURT.

the m-34th though....those guys really honed the shit out of his strengths. on an insane level. they gave him so many skills and tools as a black canvas to do SO MANY THINGS and SO WELL, and maybe this does bring up some resentment to the guild and magic?? that he had so much untapped potential that mochi could just not bring out in an effective way, it essentially bottlenecked him (not her fault, its hard to build the talents of an anti-magic person by using magic).

but these guys...as "bad" as they are (so the witches say), they gave him (and still give him) the power to change that which he hated about himself the most. so that "I don't need you, and I also know you don't have the means or ability to change that" thing can finally FINALLY be met with "Yeah you do, and yeah I fucking can."

so all these feelings manifest as "I won't leave the m-34th because they make me strong enough to stand by your side and not at your feet." AND THEY DO!!!!!! and he probably doesnt say those words directly but everything he DOES say communicates it enough for mochi to see it

(and he probably tells her all of this. she just listens)

so mochi, eventually, understands this. it took the whole pre-timeskip period and some of the post-timeskip period to get there, but she understands him a little more now (and a side of him she didnt know was there). i dont think theres anything she can do to change this aspect of him, but she at least understands his reasons and respects his freedom to pursue that which gives him peace, even if it conflicts with her uh.....occupation (nature?) as a witch. she also can tell him, without any lies or nice little reassurances that "You really are amazing, Lime." in a way she could never be, and he got there on his own, without her. i think shes happy just to know the truth, and know that hes not like betraying her or something. also she probably finds it kinda sweet that he works so hard to stand by her, but tries not to let it go to her head (or her heart) because at least half of it is a lime pride thing and not a mochi love thing

he also throws in a very lime-esq ending on it like "There I said it happy now??? Never make me talk about this again." while completely red-faced. he really does hate this side of himself but he cant help it.

[mehilaiselokuva]

Hi, I was curious, have you learned or plan to learn any sign languages? Fluent ASL user here!

Hi! Interesting question!

I know some simple signs in the Finnish sign language and some ASL as well but have never tried learning either "seriously". I've also learned the basics of the Korean sign language because I know Korean and the signs are (in my opinion) very intuitive compared to Finnish signs.

I haven't really been in a position where I'd be around many hard-of-hearing or deaf people but I feel like I should learn the Finnish sign language anyway. Who knows, maybe someday I'll need it!

[angesaurus]

I JUST WANT TO SLEEP NORMALLY.

I cannot remember the last time I did not wake up between 1-4am.

No matter what time I fall asleep I still wake up. Dan said I go to sleep too early (between 9-10) but last night I didn’t fall asleep until almost 11 and here I am wide awake. It’s so frustrating I feel like I can feel myself getting more and more tired and exhausted and burnt out because I can’t seem to sleep. Even if I use something to help me I still wake up. Even with my mouth guard!!!!!! It’s so frustrating. And it means I’m just going to be more and more tired because I have work today.

[lancerthatisntfree]

haven’t been posting because my back too busy getting blown out by gavin

[dreamtydraw]

Entering depressed dreamty wave era of the month, I’ll excuse myself for being moody, I randomly feel like crying on the floor.