#which sounds contradictory but like

[shankhachil]

TURNING ON THE TV TO REALISE THAT a) PATRICK GOT HIS SECOND HATTRICK?????? AND b) AFGHANISTAN BEAT AUSTRALIA????????????

[perenlop]

transphobia aside, its also a huge pet peeve of mine when people are like “oh tee hee i havent actually engaged with the canon material at all aside from maybe a few clips on youtube, but ive decided the canon is stupid shit anyways and fanon is all that matters!” like not only does that just feel disrespectful and rude for no good reason, especially in the context of indie creators, but it personally annoys me as someone who always overthinks this shit and has several tabs open when im just making headcanons or whatever, let alone writing a fic. like you just dont care? what’s the point, then?

[manfred-volkarin]

the elf specific dialogue is actually driving me a little insane. they let you have vallaslin - which has always been unique to the Dalish, a mark that sets them apart from city elves because it's MADE FROM THEIR OWN BLOOD and hella painful to get - they let you understand elvish - they force you to call the elven gods your gods at practically every turn - BUT THEN HAVE MULTIPLE INSTANCES OF YOUR CHARACTER SAYING THEY DIDN'T GROW UP DALISH

*flips a table*

[voidkat-system]

I don't think I've ever seen any posts about the difficulty and guilt of having a partner when you have DID (or really any mental illness honestly) I love my partner so so dearly and I have gotten to a point where I trust they love me back. Even though logically I have trust that they mean it when they say they love me it doesn't stop the fear creeping up, the fear that eventually they'll have had enough and decide its time to end it with me. Quite honestly it's my greatest fear because I love them so deeply and know that I'll never be able to form a connection like ours ever again. I love them, and I wish I could always act like I do. One of my alters doesn't like them very much, and some of our alters are very sensitive and have a tendency to overreact, and these things force the body into being very emotional, scared, and at times uncaring. And the fact that they have to put up with all of this feels so unfair to them, they don't deserve how poorly I treat them at times. I want to show my adoration for them and be kind to them always, I want to love them so that they keep loving me

[xx-emowarz-xx]

one thing about alt stuff is that the barrier to entry to being "goth" is truely so fucking low and yet people constantly limbo under the bar instead of stepping over it and wonder why they get called posers. like we're not asking you to move mountains here we're just asking you to find even one band under the umbrella that you like and to engage with the community a little bit. The fashion has truely so much overlap between goth punk and emo so very few people will care which one you call yourself based on your look and you just have to find a band you like. Dashboard Confessional screams a bit too much for your taste and Dead Kennedys is too loud? Guess what you're in luck the goths listen to something a little softer and weirder they call it dark wave or ethereal wave depending on the phases of the moon. Try out Clan of Xymox or Switchblade Symphony. Like truly the alt music scene is so fucking diverse there's gotta be something in here that you like. If not and you truly are a pop girlie then don't call yourself punk it's very easy.

[tapestryundone]

still feel so vindicated by tpatd. i dont rly have proof of it but i always wanted tlq to be a bit of a strange beast but i was worried it conflicted w canon (the wraith in particular, and the lack of a visible mouth in his appearances) so i scrapped some ideas i had to make him more beastly so tpatd was such an incredible and welcome surprise

[truecorvid]

reddit is such a great reminder that cis people do not understand gender or anything about modern gender theory at all. like no hate. i get it. but oh my god

[trainingdummyrabbit]

sorry for the semi serious ask, but what are your thoughts on the latest drama w project moon?

hiiii goodmorning! i kinda hesitate t call it Drama, but it sure is something that is Happening. imnot really one to have any sorta big conclusions to pull of anything like this but honestly it mostly just boils down that well. it sucks and i hate that its happening!

i cant comment on much because i only know what people Say, and what floats by me on my day to day, but it really does feel Incredibly stupid and like something that couldve been avoided Really Easily if th companyrunners Thought About It Just A Little. again, i dont have much prior knowledge or context re: running a company and all that business terminology and/or necessities, but like. every bit more i hear about it just kinda. :/ dude. come on. its bordering on comical at this point.

im wishing all the artists the best and more; i dont know What Specifically happened to them (because everyone says something different with different implications) but god. man.

i really wish pm was better; it sucks that things are happening like this; i wish they werent; and its honestly super frustrating. but like, mostly, i just kinda passively watch from a distance bc i have nothing of importance to add to anything, and its not worth causing a ruckus over something i dont understand. you understand. thats all.

[marialouisa11]

ALSO Zhongli calls Xiao and Ganyu "young adepti", but if they both knew Guizhong, who died 3700 years ago, doesn't that make them both like 4k compared to Zhongli's 6k-7k??

[inkykeiji]

hi clari <3 i was wondering what you imagined your various versions of touya to sound like!! do you imagine the english dub voice? or the original japanese version? do you imagine that different au versions of him have different sort of tones when speaking?

sending u love!

- 💤

hi hi! <3 i imagine them to all sound like hiro’s voice acting for him! aka his original japanese voice!!! that’s why i usually describe his voice as being low and smooth c: jason, his english voice actor, has been directed to sound like he ate a bowl of rusty nails + smoked a whole pack of cigarettes for breakfast and i really dislike it. it sounds too caricature, and i personally feel like it takes away from the seriousness of the character (i feel this way with tomura’s english voice actor as well, until he has his Awakening at the end of season five and his voice is suddenly Sexy) and makes him sound silly. i liked jason’s original voice for dabi in season 3 (where he sounded like a 2006 emo band frontman on warped tour), but for whatever reason they made the creative decision to change it. no hate toward any of the english voice actors; i know they’re paid peanuts, taken less seriously as artists, and are given a ridiculously short amount of time to do their work, so! it’s just a personal preference c:

eeee i love u lots!!! <333 i hope you’re doing well bb ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡)

[hangingslothcentral]

whenever i start a new project, i find myself going on a little journey across the internet looking for advice on starting new projects. i know how to do it, but i'm always curious about other people's ideas. most of the stuff i read is aimed at new creators who don't know how to get things off the ground at all.

one thing that strikes me about it is that there isn't really any consensus about how to start something, and i think that's really great! there's a million ways to approach a problem, and (short of solutions which harm or exploit others) none of them are wrong if they're the one that's working best for you.

still, a significant number of the articles i read position themselves as having The Answer for how to make a thing. i think a lot of people sorta feel they have to frame their advice like this in order to give the impression that they know what they're talking about.

sometimes as i'm reading i get gripped with a sense of panic about it, a feeling of 'oh no i'm doing things WRONG', or concern that two ideas about new approaches which I've found would be interesting to try cannot be applied at the same time to the same project.

but! advice between one article and the next isn't necessarily going to carry over or map on perfectly. many pieces of advice about starting projects is going to be contradictory based on your sources. it makes me wonder how many people get caught in a loop of trying to take ALL the advice, even when it would be impossible to do so.

sometimes ripping out your whole process and starting from the ground up is the best thing you can do, creatively, but in many circumstances, taking the pieces of advice which will most meaningfully help you redirect your existing skills whilst leaving behind the things that don't serve you? that's also a valid and worthwhile thing to do!

drawing on the knowledge and experience of others is an important practice whatever stage you're at in your life as a creator of things. learning new methods and techniques can help you develop your own practice and sharing knowledge is incredibly important. just remember that there are many ways to solve the same problem, and part of what makes your creations unique are your approaches as an individual. it is impossible to take all of the advice! do continue to seek it out, and also know that you're not disrespecting it by deciding it's not something which will help.

above all, keep creating stuff!

--- Eira xxx

[deerydear]

The hall-monitor in my mind says that I sound like I'm coming up on antidepressant-induced mania..... but...

I've been in this shitty habit of drinking way too much coffee and staying up all night, but now that I'm on the nice drug I feel GOOD, instead of like a desiccated, lifeless Lich.

The antidepressant effect actually made me feel genuinely, palpably tired for the first time in years. I mean, I could get tired before... but it felt like I was 'rationing' my consciousness-points, to stretch them out as thinly as possible. I would feel tired when I told myself 'I could feel tired', I had incredible amounts of self-control.

Meanwhile now I feel like a bouquet of sensations. I'm grouping together my points to spend on more enjoyable experience, rather than 'keeping it going, on as little material as possible'.

Here's a sort of diagram... the top one is like: 'spending your points as soon as you get them, rather than saving them to combine for a better effect'.

I had chosen to ration myself, initially. I chose to cause this sense of depression. I think I did want to 'feel what it would feel like' to be a robot or a Lich... some undead thing that is not a blushing, bleeding human being.

NO...

I feel like I once again have a sensation of 'choice' and Free-Will, rather than being stuck on a one-track mind...

planning! I like thinking, and deciding, and understanding

instead of the restless and perpetual motion of the undead.

[waltz-in-code]

People really be (rightfully) complaining about how girls are manipulated and forcefully trafficked into prostitution and used as sex objects by creepy perverted men but 2 seconds later say "no offence to sex workers or people that do it with consent" as if the word "consent" magically makes it okay lol even if you consent it's still wrong and it's STILL about women used as sex objects by creepy perverted men.... like that doesn't change you know?

[paperhats-and-evil-schemes]

Oh my gosh, you're okay!!!!! In the physical sense, I mean... I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, Mark. </3 I'm sending you all my well wishes! And while I'm sure I and many others would be thrilled to see the Villainous content you're working on, please NEVER feel guilty about putting your mental health first!!! I can't speak for others, but I know I'll always be around to yell at you about any content you may post, regardless of how long it takes, but also will never judge or be upset with you if you end up not feeling able to post new stuff! And always remember that people are here for you if you ever need to vent or cry or anything of that sort, seriously, never forget that you're very, very loved!!!

-The nosy anon (if you remember me :'3)

Thank you both. ♥ (And of course I remember you! ♥♥♥)

While I appreciate the offer, I'm not much one for online venting, I mostly just wanted to explain why I was gone and where my mental state currently stands in regards to Villainous because of what happened. I do have people I can talk to about it in person, a therapist included, so please try not to worry about me in that regard! I’m in a good support system.

Happy to know you’d still be interested in whatever Villainous trash I unearth from my messy brain, heh. I likely won’t have any fic stuff done for a while, as writing tends to take a bit more mental energy than I have to spare most days, but I’ve been picking away at some scenes, at least? Might have some drawings to show at some point later, still kind of fiddling away at things with great uncertainty, idk yet

[aquietgirlsmess]

Félix (to Maël) : Are you okay ?

Pablo : Yeah, i'm great! Ah no, him ? (Turns to Maël) Yeah, are you okay ?

Pablo pls 😭

[binders-and-beanies]

Going off prev post. Idk how to word this but identifying proudly with gay culture while not identifying as gay (bc I’m bi) gives me a very special type of love for gay men. I love them not because I’m like them, in fact I do feel like a separate “category” from them but we have similar experiences.

Appreciating them from an outside perspective almost feels like a deeper love to me than if I felt like we were the same. We’re in it together and we also learn from each other. I feel different from them not in a distanced sort of way but in a solidarity sort of way. That + we are sucking and fucking each other