#which is that. i made her when i was ~ uhhh 16 ish?

[mgmm-shifts]

DR FUN FACT: 11/21

Honestly I hate calling it this but idk what else to say. Fact about my DR? Idk. Anyway.

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I have seen so many signs lately from the universe and I'm tweaking. I have seen 3:33 I kid you not everyday for months or like at least 4/7 days of the week for MONTHS. And usually 5:55 or 4:44 with it. I had a playlist on shuffle the other night and it was my DR playlist that has like 139 songs... and in my head it kinda just started singing Birds of a Feather by Billie Eilish (I'll explain who's song that is in a sec) which is in there and I was like oh lol imagine it starts playing next that would be a crazy sign. Guess what mf song was next. I can't think of others but just a bunch of random shit that I'm like ....uhhh alright. BUT alas, back to the topic.

~Songs I associate with people in my DR~

Me & Levi:

My god there are so many, but here's three that I find the most meaningful. First is Hailey's Comet by Billie Eilish. They lyrics just perfectly capture our dynamic from Levi's perspective, of how he was the first to fall in love and it went against everything he believes in. Like literally every lyric in that song is perfect, I can't even choose one. I swear to god the damn song was made for us in another life.

The next one is Pluto Projector by Rex Orange County. This one more represents how I was the first person in his life (besides his mom) who truly understands him and sees him for him, not his strength or usefulness as a soldier or underground thug. Not only that, but I do everything I can to show him his self worth and that he deserves a beautiful life. That sometimes he doesn't even understand himself but somehow I always do.

Last one is Sweet by Cigarettes After Sex. This is more later when we are in that "we both know we have feelings for each other and show it in private but never actually admit it" phase lol. But just how we view each other and how the fact that I love him makes him feel, to truly know what it's like to be loved after so much misery and pain. It's also when he finally admits to himself that he is in love with me.

Me & Hange:

Birds Of a Feather by Billie. Okay, this one was more of a vibe at first to be honest. The melody of the song just kind of reminded me of us, our carefree and pure friendship. Like they're my sister, and the song just kinda gave me that vibe idk how to describe it. Since she's estranged from her family, and I don't really get along too well with my own sister, we just have such a deep family connection, like I truly do see her as my own. We stick together 🤞🏼

Me & Erwin:

Mockingbird by Eminem. I promise it makes sense lol. (He's not my dad) but basically stepped into that role in a way, and the song kinda represents how he tried his best to protect me growing up and still does. It also is a good representation of my situation with my mom (before anyone says I'm scripting trauma, no I am not. This is literally my situation here in my CR.) and how he worked hard to get in a stable position to take care of me but that came at a cost as his duties wound up taking him away for a while. Also the lyrics "But hey, What Daddy always tell you? Straighten up, little soldier. Stiffen up that upper lip. What you cryin' about? You got me" and how he'll do anything to see me smile.

There are more but also Slipping Through My Fingers the Mama mia version. Self explanatory i feel.

Me & Miche:

Slipping Through My Fingers but the ABBA version. Idk why specifically that one lol. But also kinda self explanatory, but just how he has watched me grown up and he's proud of who I have become and to be a part of my world. And that I'm growing up too quickly and as the protective Uncle, he just wants me to stay young and blissful forever.

Me & Eren & Levi:

Apocalypse by Cigarettes After Sex. Tea but me and Eren used to date since we were young kids to like second year of cadets ish. We are aged up so like until 15/16 ish. He was my first love, even though it was a young person's version of love, it still meant a lot. He is also one of the most important people in my life, and although I don't have romantic feelings for him and haven't in a while, he still lowkey does but he understands and it's completely normal between us. We are still just as inseparable, however as I start to get closer to Levi and develop romantic feelings for him, I kinda feel guilty. The song apparently is about falling for someone but having a hard time letting go of a past relationship and coming to terms with that. So although I am devoted to Levi, I still have my deep (non romantic) connection with Eren and I am worried about how it will affect him if he finds out about us. And how Levi is understanding of the situation and trusts me.

Miche & Erwin:

To Build A Home by The Cinematic Orchestra. I mentioned it briefly before but they grew up together. Basically the story I got was that they went to school together when they were super young like kindergarten, and Erwin was being bullied and Miche defended him, then they became friends. Instantly they were like brothers, and because Miche's family sucks and he had his problems at home, he find a home with Erwin and his family. Their story is very interesting, and I'll do a separate post at some point to explain it and give it justice. But basically, the song just makes me think of the progression of their bond and brotherhood.

This is long already so there will need to be other parts, but as always, THANK YOU FOR READING <3 (if you did. if not I don't blame you because i'm just yapping). You're reward for making it to the end is an absolutely adorable baby levi.

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[justaboymadeofhoneyandglass]

Masterlist of all my characters (only most ofc) because why tf not?

Harley Jane

Age: 15/16 or 25/30 in my AU version

Pronouns: She/her, also uses he/him but in a butch lesbian, little guy way

Pics:

Evan/Evie

Age: same as Harley

Pronouns: Mainly he/she, genderfluid, sometimes uses they/them too

Pics:

Regulus Pierre

Age: Same as Harley, in some AU's he's up to five years younger than her tho but we ignore that cus i make it problematic

Pronouns: He/him, he's a demiboy but hasn't rlly found another pronoun that also fits him

Pics:

Mary Jane Smith

Age: same as Harley

Pronouns: She/her, Demigirl, same thing as reggie

Pics:

Vienna Allana

Age: Same as everyone else, sometimes a year older but not much

Pronouns: She/her, simple lol

Pics:

Nya Caliope

Age: Same as everyone else, sometimes shes aged down by a year but nothing substantial

Pronouns: She/they, nonbinary woman

Pics:

Phillippa

Age: Same as everyone else, sometimes a year older but again, nothing much

Pronouns: She/her but doesnt rlly gaf if you use anything else she won’t correct you

Pics:

Alexander

Age: Same as everyone

Pronouns: He/him, she/her when he‘s dressed fem but doesn’t rlly gaf about his gender much

Pics:

Violet

Age: Same as everyone, sometimes aged up or down a year

Pronouns: She/they

Pics:

James (nya‘s big brother)

Age: three ish years older than Nya, when she’s 16 he‘s 19/20 when she’s aged down to 14 he’s 17/18

Pronouns: He/him, just a Guy

Pics:

Allegra (Vienna‘s big sister)

Age: complicated. She’s technically always older than James, in the main universe she’s 22 when (almost) everyone else is 16, but as soon as everyone me is legal she’s like 26 or smth

Pronouns: She/her but kinda in a guy way yk

Pics:

Ryan

Age: 24

Pronouns: He/him

Pics:

Jonathan

Age: 23

Pronouns: He/him

Pics:

Marley/Marlene

Age: 15/16 in basically every universe, in the future one she‘s not as much there so she’s just about everyone else‘s age

Pronouns: She/they

Pics: (have to make a picrew, also can't add any more to this post)

Lily (Harley‘s little sister)

Age: 2 and a half to three years younger than her, usually 13 to 14 and in my later AU about 22

Pronouns: She/her

Pics:

Cody (Harley‘s older brother)

Age: Around James‘s age, three years older than Harley

Pronouns: He/him and she/her only when he‘s in drag or dressed fem

Pics:

Stacy

Age: same age as Harley

Pronouns: She/her but still searching for another set that fits her too

Pics:

Ripley

Age: again, complicated. In my main he‘s 16, but a few months older than us, in some other universes he‘s about 18 when everyone else is 16 it’s complicated

Pronouns: He/him

Pics:

Jake (Regulus‘s older brother)

Age: 20, four years older than Reg

Pronouns: He/him

Pics: (can't add any more, he looks similar to Reggie but with a lot of cute stubble and shorter hair)

August

Age: 16, she doesnt appear in any other universes except for the one she was made in which is not the main

Pronouns: She/her/they

Pics:

Victoria Areia

Age: C O M P L I C A T E D !!! Sometimes she‘s Allegra‘s age, sometimes she‘s Harley’s aged up age (19 when everyone else is 15 or 16) sometimes she’s 18, it’s weird

Pronouns: She/her

Pics:

Dorian J Caliari (fyi if you call him anything except for J he’ll rip your head off)

Age: FUCKIGN COMPLICATED about 7 years older than most of us but uhhh idkkk sometimes he’s just two years older than us it’s weirddd

pronouns: he/him but he‘d prefer to not be perceived at all actually

Pics:

Azur aka Austin Zachariah Cerule

Age: god this is complicated. When J is older, so is he, but at the same time he isn’t older than any of us? usually when J is like 26, the rest is either 18, or like 23/24. Azur is generally one to two years younger than J and in some universes he’s also younger than us by two or three years idkkk

pronouns: He/they/she/doesn’t rlly gaf what you call it

pics:

there’s more, there’s an entire other universe but idk if y’all want that cus it’s very different 🤷🏻

I also haven’t added the pets so i might make a different post for them

[petra-creat0r]

What is your headcanon for monster reproduction?

Oooooh boy. How do I explain this other than just, magic?

Like... it's somewhere in between @askfriskandcompany 's explanation, @catboymoments 's head canon with some other ideas sprinkled in? Uhhh... More under the cut because this gets a bit in detail and I'm not sure if everyone wants to read about that?

Alright... So in Ish, I try to think of it as close to human reproduction as possible. Transfer of cells during a very intimate and close ritual between two people who (hopefully at least) love each other. Just with magic involved. This is because if I don't start with that base, I get very confused. Even looking closer than that simple base, I get confused. Alright? Alright.

So, transfer of cells. Most of y'all's middle school and high school health classes should've taught you that babies happen when a sperm cell (from dad) fertilizes an egg cell (from mom), which then grows into a baby. However with monsters, we're able to have two dads or two moms or two whatever because Petra loves making fan kids and loves the fandom's general acceptance of homosexual monster couples being able to have biological off spring and you can rip this from my cold dead hands. With monsters, it doesn't really matter what the cells are called, or which parent they come from, just that they work much the same as sperm and eggs except these are made of magic. Lotta things about monsters are magic, so don't question it, okay?

Because not all monsters have the same genitalia as humans, and in fact almost all of them have very varied and different genitalia to humans (if they have any at all), the organ involved in this transfer of cells is the soul. During the intimate ritual (be that sex or a special and ancient spell), both partners' souls release the cells, which collide to make a sorta magical fertilized seed. Once that seed is formed, unless both partners determined who should be the one to carry before hand, the seed is going to gravitate to the parent who's body and soul are most adept and capable of carrying. Let's take Sans and Toriel as an example. Sariel was an accident, she was not planned. Her seed gravitated to Toriel not only because Toriel is a boss monster, with more humanoid anatomy and organs like a permanent womb, but also because in general, Toriel is in much better health than Sans. She has a stronger soul and a healthier body.

But what about the zygote's development? I mentioned that homosexual monster couples can have biological kids, how does that work when two gay male monsters don't have wombs. Or even when any monster couple doesn't have one with a womb (like with skeletons). Well that's were we get even more confusing and hand wavy with the maaaaaaaaaaaagic explanation! While it may very from monster to monster, for the first bit of the pregnancy, the carrier carries the monster baby seed in their soul as it starts to undergo mitosis and form a zygote of both physical and magical cells, often seen as a bunch of floating dust.

After the carrier's body has had time enough to form a womb thanks to magic mumbo jumbo and/or the zygote becomes an embryo at around the two week mark, the now embryo continues it's growth in the carrier's womb, still connected to it's parent's soul as it's own begins to form. The baby's soul doesn't finish fully forming until the baby is ready to be born after 9 months or gestation, however it does form into what is known as a proto-soul after 16 or so weeks when the little blob of magic forms into the recognizable heart shape of an Undertale soul. A similar process can be seen in individuals from worlds which do not have physical manifestations of souls who spend long enough in Ish to experience the Universal Assimilation Effect, except for them, they're souls form fully after the blob stage. Only having to go through a bit more adjustment as a trait is determined. For a more exact comparison, Exriel/Flowey's soul under went a process similar do how souls are formed with babies, proto-soul stage and all. This process with the soul formation occurs with all babies in Ish, not just monsters, and the baby and parent's souls remain linked until the baby is born.

Okay, but what about monster and human couples. Monsters can reproduce with humans too, how the hell does that work? Well, much the same it works with monster loving monster relationships, just with a little bit more fudging. The transfer still happens through the soul, and the seed still goes to the more capable body and soul. Which often tends to be the human parent, unless the human parent doesn't have a womb. Let's say we have a monster human couple, where the dad is a monster, and the mom is a human. Seed's gonna go for mom most the time. Even if her soul may not be as magically adept to carry the seed during the short zygote phase (unless she's a wizard or some kind), Mommy's body has a permanent womb. If the dad is the human though, seed's gonna go for the other, monster parent, whether that parent be a mom or a dad or whatever, because human daddy can't magic his body to form a womb. Does that make sense?

I really hope it does, because that's the best I can explain it. If you have any further questions then feel free to ask.

[tinyplanetss]

oh no im thinkin about valira again

[transmogrified-in-the-void]

Powered Shorts: BI DND

the band plays some good old fashioned dnd

“The looming ruins of the Cathedral of Glaudem shadow over all of you. Part of the roof has caved in, vines cover most of the old brick that make up the cathedral, and the only standing structure, the front, is about 350 feet tall. As you get closer, a storm is brewing, wind whipping around you. Trees groan under the wind before torrents of rain start to pound on you. There’s no doubt, this is the cathedral that the elder was talking about.” Airael describes from behind their DM screen. “Before you enter, what do you do?”

“Myathethil takes out her quarterstaff and readies her darts.” Virtue says simply. It makes sense, Myathethil is a to-the-point character. If she thinks a fight is coming, she readies her weapons. If someone is trying to poison her, she punches them. Simple and easy.

Bug looks through their notes and character sheet. “Wena holds onto eir amulet from Tulai, whispering a prayer in Halfling. Ey have been in many battles, but a small part of them worries ey won’t make it out alive this time. Ey will need all the luck ey can get.” 

Airael nods. “What is the prayer?”

“Uhh,” Bug thinks for a moment. “Tulai, wherever you are, please give me the strength to come home.”

Airael nods, writing something down from behind the screen. “Cato, Gemini, what are Hotaru and Tragedy doing?”

Gemini smiles. “Tradegy is tying the charm her mother gave her to the end of her mace. If this is where her journey ends, then she wants to do it knowing her mom is nearby. She wants her mom to know that her baby found people who care for her.”

Airael smiles, and looks at Cato. “And Horatu?”

“Horato is staring at the Cathedral, feeling a familiar sense of oppression in his soul. He is mentally preparing to have to betray everyone if it means finding his fiancee and family before he dies.” Cato says carefully. “He made a promise to himself in the Feywild, and he’s not going to break it today.”

“With that out of the way.” Airael gives a feral grin. “You all walk into the cathedral. Normal formation I’m assuming?”

Everyone nods. 

“Good, good. Uh, Wena, what’s your passive perception again?”

“Um, 16.” Bug answers.

“Cool, cool, cool. Wena passes through the threshold. You see that the inside is just rubble. Anything that could have been destroyed was. As you look forwards to where the cave has collapsed, you see a fucking dragon.”

There’s cheers around the table as the band rejoices at fighting a dragon, before going quiet at having to fight a dragon.

“Can I see the color of the dragon?” Bug asks.

“Make a perception check.”

Bug rolls, looking at the dice then back at his sheet. “That’s an 18 plus . . . that’s 24.”

“There’s a flash of lighting, and you can see this is definitely a young blue dragon.”

Bug nods. “I’m going to whisper back to the group.” Xe turns to the players. “Hey, uh, be quiet, and has anyone picked up Draconic in the last 5 or so minutes?”

A chorus of ‘no’s, and Bug nods again. “So we can see the dragon, but it hasn’t noticed us. Should we make a plan?”

Everyone starts to discuss amongst themselves, Gemini throwing out the idea of all attacking one wing at once to disable its flying. 

“I have animal handling, would I be able to know which part of the dragon needs to be hit the hardest from like, birds and shit?” Bug asks.

“Sure, make the check.”

Bug rolls again. “Haha, oh fuck, uhhh that’s an 8?”

“You need to hit the wing.”

“FUCK!”

Everyone laughs at that, taking a moment to get back together.

“Okay okay okay, so who has no throwing weapons?” Cato asks, and Bug and Gemini raise their hands. “Sweet so I can give you my daggers-”

“I can cast spiritual weapons to make a longbow instead. Give your daggers to Mya.” Gemini interrupts. “I can cast it as a bonus action too. It’s like, glowy and shit so it probably would be better if I cast it after the initial attack as a bonus sneak attack.”

The group nods in agreement. “So do we need to get closer?”

“Those who are using throwing weapons will need to.” 

Bug and Virtue roll, getting an 11 and unnatural 20 in the process. 

“So Wena barely gets close enough, almost tripping on some rubble. Mya, you’re having a great time. You’re basically dancing your way to this dragon.”

“I give the signal and attack.” Bug says. “I’m going to throw both of my hand axes at the same time.”

“Cool, roll to attack with advantage on both. Actually, everyone but Gemini roll with advantage. Gem, we’ll get to you.” Airael says, with the group nodding. Everyone rolls. “Uh, let’s go in order of Bug, Virtue, then Cato.”

“22 and 12.”

“19 and 18.”

“18.”

Airael looks at something behind the DM screen. “Sweet. So, Gem, make a perception check real quick?”

“Uh, 15.”

“Cool, you notice when everyone throws their weapons, and are able to time it just in time to make your spiritual weapon. Roll with advantage.”

“That’s a 24.”

Airael checks behind their DM screen again. 

“All but Bug’s second attack hit. Go ahead and roll damage.” They do, and Airael scratches something on a paper behind the screen. “You all attack the dragon’s wing. Bug, your first handaxe snaps one of its outer bones. Gemini, your sacred arrow shoots right through its joint, rendering it completely useless. The dragon roars, lightning striking as the storm gets worse. Roll initiative.”

After writing some more things behind the screen, Airael looks at Cato. “Hotaru goes first. What’s your move?”

Cato thinks, looking over their sheet. “I’m going to use an action to Disengage. How bad do the pillars and supports look?”

“They’re pretty worn, but seem to be bolted together well. The wood looks to be starting to rot though.” Airael answers.

Cato nods. “Okay so idea one out. I’m gonna use my action to hide.”

“Roll stealth for me?”

“23?”

“You fucking melt into shadows and disappear. Not even Tragedy can see you.” Airael says, and Cato laughs. “Now, speaking of said tiefling, it’s your turn!”

Gemini laughs sinisterly, looking over her spell sheet. “How far away is the dragon at this point?”

“About 70 feet ish.”

Gemini nods. “I’m gonna cast Guiding Bolt as my spiritual longbow dissipates into nothingness.”

“Sounds good, roll to attack.”

“Does a 22 hit?”

“Yes it does, damage?”

Gemini rolls 4 six-sided dice. “That is . . . 25 radiant damage!”

Airael writes something down again. “As Hotaru disappears into the chaos of the storm, Tragedy’s shining bow disappears into a mist that swirls into a line of light that strikes the dragon. It roars in pain as the light is absorbed into its wet scales. Bug, your turn.”

“I’m taking out my longswords and attacking this bitch with them.” Ey roll the d20. “NAT 20 MOTHERFUCKERS!”

The group chants ‘20’ over and over again as Bug takes a celebratory walk around the table. They roll for their second attack. “Ahem, does a natural and an unnatural 20 hit?”

Airael rolls their eyes with a smile. “What do you think? Both of them hit. How does it happen.”

Bug grins. “Wena storms, haha storms, towards the land-bound dragon, unsheathing eir swords. Lighting flashes in the sky as eir amulet starts to glow, and ey shove the longswords into the belly of the beast. For . . . 23 damage.”

“23 damage.” Airael repeats, scratching more things behind the screen. “It is now Virtue’s turn.”

“Can I actually take my turn to run on top of the dragon?” Virtue asks.

“That’s gonna be a dex check.”

“That’s a 19 for the monk lady to run up a dragon.”

“The monk lady runs up the dragon.”

“Hell yeah.”

“It’s the dragon’s turn now.”

“Un-hell yeah.”

Airael smirks. “First the dragon is going to swipe at Wena, who is the closest to it.” They roll. “What’s your armor class again?”

Bug checks their sheet. “16.”

“So both attacks hit for . . .” more rolling, “20 slashing damage.”

Bug groans as they write their current hp down.

“Now it’s going to make a breath attack against you.” Airael points towards their girlfriend, who gasps. “Don’t you gasp, Tragedy did a lot of damage. Make a dex saving throw.”

Gemini rolls. “11?”

Airael doesn’t respond, and instead starts to roll die after die after die. “45 lightning damage.”

Gemini groans. “You’re mean.” She grumbles as she writes her new hp.

Airael shrugs, smiles, and turns to Cato. “Your turn, bucko.”

Cato grins. “I’m making a sneak attack with my bow.” They roll. “26 hit?”

“It sure does. Roll damage.”

Cato rolls their d6 six separate times. “That’s a 27 piercing damage for the blue dragon in the back. And I’m gonna hide again.”

Airael nods and looks up. “Gem, your turn.”

Gemini looks at her spell sheet. “I’m running up to this bitch and casting inflict wounds as a 5th level spell.”

Airael’s eyes light with interest. “And do tell how this looks.”

“Tragedy has a giant blast mark that’s burned off part of her armor. She’s tired, she’s pissed. She runs 30 feet towards the dragon, writes the words “pain” in glowing infernal letters, and screams as the letters become dark and twisted and strike the dragon in the face.”

Airael nods. “Roll to attack please.”

“I’m adding 10 as per my channel divinity.” She says once she rolls. “So that’s a 21 to hit the dragon with my overpowered spell.”

Airael sighs. “Roll your damage.”

Gemini rolls 7d10. “40 necrotic damage.”

“The dragon’s glowing blue eyes stare at you with anger and hatred as you scream. The letters strike the creature’s face, causing the flesh to rot and die away, the word ‘die’ clear on its forehead. With that, it’s Wena’s turn.”

“Nice. I’m just gonna hit again with my swords, that’s a 13 and a 12.” Bug reports.

“You wrench your swords out, and try to hit again but miss the angle. They clink off the scaly underbelly.” Airael says in response. “And now the monk lady who is on the dragon’s head has a go.”

“I’m gonna beat it on the head with my quarterstaff.” Virtue says. 

Airael sighs again. “Roll to hit.”

Silence. “That’s a nat one I’m afraid.” Virtue says, and Airael smiles.

“You smack the dragon on the head, and your quarterstaff shatters. The staff given to you by Moss, your partner and beloved, the staff that you’ve had for all of your crazy journeys. Gone. Poof.” They say, a grim smile on their face. 

“Oh God.” Virtue mutters, putting their face into their hands. “Oh fuck, my staff.”

The players are quiet in fear as the dragon starts its turn.

“First off, it’s going to shake its head to get rid of you. Make a dex check.” Airael starts.

“That’s a 27.”

“You stay on the dragon, grasping its scales and spine as it twists and turns. Next, it’s gonna try and slash Wena again.” Airael rolls some dice. “You manage to dodge the first one, but the second one comes from behind and gets you for 8 damage.”

Bug silently cheers at that, editing his current hp.

“And finally, it’s gonna try and bite Tragedy. What’s your ac?”

“14.”

“So it gets you pretty hard. You’re lucky you have armor, otherwise you would 100% be in half right now.”

Gemini curses silently.

“But now it’s Hotaru’s turn.” Airael looks at Cato. “Are you going to do what I think you’re going to do?”

“Oh totally.” Cato says. “Does a 27 hit?”

Airael nods.

“28 damage, my good sir.”

Airael smiles. “Hotaru comes out from behind Tragedy, seeming to have melted out of the shadows. He has his bow notched and drawn, and he stares the dragon down. The dragon roars at the human, trying to intimidate him, and Hotaru lets the arrow fly. The dragon’s roar is cut short as it stumbles around a little before collapsing down, dead. What is everyone’s current hp?”

“Full hp.” Cato says, with Virtue saying the same.

“Mine is 76.” Bug reports.

“2.” Gemini says, and Airael’s grin grows wider.

“Tragedy falls over, almost dead and bleeding out. You look up to see a glowing figure with a familiar smile. It’s your mother.”

Gemini smiles. “Mom?”

“Your mother floats next to you, crouching by your head. ‘Oh Sorath, my sweet baby look how much you’ve grown,’ she says, smiling at you like you didn’t kill hundreds in her name. ‘I know you hurt with my leaving, but let yourself grow with these people. They’re good folk, I know you can sense it too.’ She starts to fade away, her time here is short.” Airael describes the scene, tears coming to their eyes.

“No, mom, please! I need you!” Gemini says. “Don’t leave me again!”

Airael smiles. “She gives you one last sad look. ‘I’ve never left you, baby. And I never will’ And like that,” they snap, “she’s gone with the sun coming out of the clouds.”

“So did anyone else see that, or was that just a spirit thing?” Virtue asks.

“Hmm, make a perception check, everyone.” Airael decides. 

Cato gets a 21, Bug a 18, and Virtue a 17.

“Hotaru is the only one who sees the apparition, and is the only one who hears it. And with that, our time is up!”

Everyone groans, standing up and organizing their papers and dice. Cato smiles to themselves. They’re so excited to see what’s next. They feel safe here, and so so happy. It’s nice for a change. 

[yehet-me-up]

Content Tag Game

Tagged by EXO sister-wife Kat @yeoldontknow​ <3 1. what fandoms have you written for (but do not currently)?

2. what fandoms are you currently writing for?

3. how long have you been writing? on this blog?

uhhh I definitely wrote half of several harry potter and lotr fanfics in HS but that was ‘the dark times’ many moons ago. so as an adult this is my only fandom! just stumbled into kpop and stumbled onto fanfics in the most backwards way possible (was sent a meme of a 1D ‘imagine’ and was like hey I wonder if they have these for kpop and then I found them and they were not a meme, but were fucking incredible AND NOW 4 YEARS LATER (started August-ish 2017???) here we are hahaha)

4. on which platforms do you post your stories?

oh dear god i just remembered I have an AO3 account..... WHOOPS, shit 😅 might need to, y’know, update that at some point. jfc adhd object permanence is something else.

5. what is your favorite genre to write?

Personally it’s sci fi/fantasy, but here in the fanfic space I’d say..... uhh slice of life, romance, angst but make it a happy ending?? fanfic is a way for me to share all the sort romantic hopeful feelings I have about love and life and friendship and purpose 💕

6. are you a pantser or a planner?

Used to be a pantser when I started this (and when fics used to be like ?? 3k-5k) now that fics in general are longer for one-shots and series my good lord I need an outline. Especially for exo mall which is *insert meme of crazy guy with the bulletin board* a lot for my brain haha

7. one shot or multi-chapter?

8. what is the perfect chapter length in your opinion?

I’d say mine are usually 5k or so?? some series were shorter per chapter, depending on subject matter. I tend to write like... interconnected long as frick oneshots, so i don’t count those as chapters ☠️

9. what is your longest published story? is it complete?

uhhhhh good question haha. my book was 95k and I think exo mall is like *dammit math* 140k or something that has significantly gotten out of hand. I have two more fics so it will probably be like 180ish when it’s done?? not including the drabbles to come haha 

10. which story did you enjoy working on the most?

I loved No Quarter and torturing Kat with her husband, also staying up all night to finish Chanyeol’s exo mall knowing kat had NO idea it was coming was a BLAST. Kyungsoo’s exo mall was one of the most ‘in the flow’ writing experiences i’ve ever had. I wrote this Baek oneshot at like 3am when i couldn’t sleep once and tbh it felt like I wrote it in a dream. ja;slkfjasd I love so many of these this is like a trip down memory lane, so I’m going to be a wh*re and say two more haha.  This is the most honest and close to ‘real life’ thing I think I’ve written on here (and also one of the only sex scenes I didn’t lose my goddamned mind trying to write a;sldkfja;sdf). And lastly Ablaze, which was the longest thing I’d written (I think) and let me know that hey? maybe I could write a book someday <3

11. favorite request you’ve have written and why (if any?)

This request for Exo Mall Baek was such a joy to write! And for some reason this Taeyong drabble makes me wish I had the time/energy to write it into a full story, it gripped me so much when I wrote it, like a movie had fully downloaded into my brain out of nowhere.

12. are there reoccurring themes in your stories?

For sure! I’d say found family is a big one. Trusting that you’ll find your place even if things don’t make sense or you feel unsure. Believing that love is worth the risk and fear of trusting someone ;laksjdfal;sd. That love can be big gestures and super intense, but that after that fades away it’s the small daily moments that matter most - the people who stay and listen when you’re sad, holding hands and forehead kisses, taking care of people when they’re sick or scared or just need company, showing up to try again or to communicate even when things are hard. 

Someone commented on a fic of mine ages ago that I helped them see that real love (of that small, daily, consistent kind) is possible and MAYHAPS I cried because underneath it all, that’s what I’d want people to take away - that love of all kinds is scary, but it’s always worth it in the end <3

13. current number of wips?

Surprisingly just ... 3? wow how time has changed hahaha. I have Jun + Baek for exo mall (plus some drabbles but that will be something people write in about, so I wouldn’t consider them wips) and then I maaaaay continute on here with the Jun + Min regency baes series. We shall see :)

14. three things you have noticed about your own writing?

1. I can’t NOT write Baekhyun as the biggest cheesy dork in the entire world 2. That I’ll always have endless fantasy world to live in. I have to try actively to not start new WIPs because it’s so damn easy to be inspired. If I’m ever bored I know that I can jump into some story and let myself be carried away for a while 3. that who and how i am in real life is not usually the same person that i am when it comes to the vibe of my writing, and that that’s totally okay <3

15. a quote you like from a published story.

“I wish it had been with someone like you, though,” you say, squeezing his hand.

“Someone like me?” he says, raising his eyebrows, waiting for an explanation.

You look down at the floor, trying to figure out how to put how he makes you feel into words. “Yeah, someone strong, and steady. And safe.”

He lets out a laugh. “Safe? That sounds awfully similar to boring.”

“No, no. You don’t understand,” you say emphatically, coming to stand fully in front of him, grabbing his other hand as well. “You never ask me to be anything but who I am. You’re patient, kind, caring. For the longest time I thought that falling in love would be stifling. That it would… I don’t know, take my independence. Take my spirit. Make me into someone I don’t recognize.”

You step closer, holding his face in your hands. “But I can’t think of anything I want more than to be with you. You make me the best version of who I am. I don’t know how it is for you, being with me. But when I’m with you, it just feels like… home,” you finish gently.

- from Kyungsoo’s exo mall because THIS is how I feel about falling in love now, and this story was me working out what I believed about the process (like a goddamned emo bish haha)

16. a quote from an unpublished story.

For a moment you allow yourself this weakness. It won't destroy you to admire the strong lines of his body, the intensity and focus in the set of his brows, the deep, warm color brown of his eyes as they - oh lord, he's looking directly at you. As he notices you watching him his lips press into a small smile, inclining his head towards you.

'Oh no,' you say, mortified. In a breath you've blinked and drawn your arm through Maggie's, weaving your way through the crowd and dragging her with you.

'What's wrong?' she hisses in your ear, slightly off-kilter from the drink and revelry. 'You're going to tear my arm off.’.

'Sorry, he -' With a hand you push through the front doors, gulping in the cool night air and breathing deeply to steady the erratic pace of your heartbeat. 'Maggie, what's happening to me? He looked at me and I felt so... naked. I can't explain it.'

She realizes you aren't in actual distress and laughs. 'Good. About time you fell in love. I'm delighted.'

- From perhaps a future chapter of Jun and Min regency baes series....

17. space for you to say something to your readers.

Thank you so much. Truly, from the bottom of my heart. This fandom brought writing back into my life after such a long time away and I had no idea I would love it so much. The friends it’s brought me and the kind words that made me cry or cheered me up on a shitty day or made me laugh out loud and the watching other writers grow on their journeys. Getting to hear how something I made could help you feel less alone or less sad on a shitty day is all I’ve ever wanted from sharing all this. Thank you for being here and thank you for sharing parts of yourself with me <3

Tagging anyone who sees this who would like to do it, even if you don’t consider yourself a “real writer” yet (yes you are, stop doubting yourself!!!!) 😘

[gentlemancrow]

Tagged by both @pocketsizedquasar and @distortingbones!!

1- Why did you choose your url?

I absolutely ADORE crows/ravens/corvids in general and my usernames/urls have had something to do with crows/corvids since UHHH like college-ish?? My primary one used to be "TheCrowsFeather" but then I eventually decided I liked the image of a dapper lil Crow in like... a lil top hat with a monocle and spats on his feet and GentlemanCrow sounded really cute?? Also with the added benefit of people being able to shorten it to just call me "Crow" online and I liked that too!

2- Any side blogs?

Nooooot really? I have one set aside for my original works of fiction but since I don't have too terribly much written I don't actually use it?? AKSJhfajsf

3- How long have you been on tumblr?

OH crap uhhh I think I made this blog originally in summer 2011?? I used it pretty extensively/primarily until about 2016ish when most of my friends gravitated toward Tw*tter instead. So there's a gap there! I picked it back up this past summer to ravenously consume TMA content and post my fan fics since this seemed to be the place where the most fan content for that series lived, so here I am again! :>

4- Do you have a queue tag?

QUEUE WHAT'S A QUEUE I DON'T KNOW HER.

5- Why did you start your blog in the first place?

Honestly my friends bullied me into it I had literally no idea what it was or what to post BUT I GOT THE HANG OF IT AKJHFSKS.

6- Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

OH THAT UHHHH. Shit I've had that for literal YEARS now it was a cute little simplified face picrew type thing and my best friend and I made matching birbs! They don't use tumblr anymore, but it's still cute so I just haven't bothered to change it lmao!

7- Why did you choose your header?

I will forever laugh at the joke/pun of two crows together being an attempted murder, so I just found a picture with the text already on it and slapped it up there ffffft

8-What’s your post with the most notes?

I have 2 that INEXPLICABLY BLEW UP back in the day This one about Big Hero 6 And this one about getting a refund on adulthood

Both of which were typed up on a whim when I was having emotions and I still have no clue why they blew up the way they did :T

9- How many mutuals do you have?

Wait this is a thing you can know?? Like is there a way to find out other than counting the lil green icon dealies?? CAUSE YEAH NO CLUE

10- How many followers do you have?

UM 681 but that list is inaccurate due to my VERY long absence from tumblr I'm ABSOLUTELY certain at least half of those blogs have been abandoned/don't exist anymore ahah >> It's probably closer to like... 50-100 or so given the count I have accrued posting TMA stuff and ones that are still active?

11- How many people do you follow?

691! But again a LOT of those are probably dead!

12- Have you ever made a shitpost?

Maybe? What counts as a shitpost these days anyway :T

13- How often do you use Tumblr each day?

I have a very reliable scroll through my dash at about 5:50 am after my alarm clock goes off and I'm trying to be awake enough to actually leave bed! Then usually I'll scroll through a little on my prep period at work, then I'll just casually have it open in the BG in the evening while I write/watch TV etc

14- Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

No?? I am neither important nor influential enough to have quarreled with anyone on the tumblr dot coms

15- How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

NEXT. Tho honestly I don't see them like ever except to mention how shitty they are? I must follow the right people fffft

16- Do you like tag games?

OH YES! I almost NEVER get tagged in them though so this was absolutely a treat ; w ;

17- Do you like ask games?

OH HELL YES PLEASE ALWAYS SEND ME ASKS FOR ASK GAMES I LOVE THEM SO MUCH 🥺

18-Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

UHHHH... I honestly have no clue? Maybe not Tumblr famous but maybe a few of them are fandom famous?? AGAIN I AM BUT A SMOL AND HUMBLE BIRB WITH A TINY FOLLOWING AKSJHFDKAS

19- Do you have a crush on a mutual?

DEFINITELY NOT NO AKJSFHKASJHFKASJ

Oh balls um this is the hard part tagging someone IF YOU WERE ALREADY TAGGED SO SORRY but maybe @bowtiesandfireflies @clarionglass @lucky-numberme and also just if you see this on your dash and you wanna do it consider yourself also tagged by me! ; w ;

THANKS FOR TAGGING ME GUYS <3

[an-avid-reader]

Legend (#1) - Marie Lu

my rating: 4/5 stars

In a world where the Patriots/Colonies and the Republic are at odds and there’s a plague in the poorer parts of the US, Day is an unstoppable street criminal with good intentions. When his family’s house gets marked by Republic soldiers, Day’s only thought is to steal a cure before his family member dies. June is a top student at Drake University—a prodigy. When her brother, Metias, gets caught in a cross-fire during a mission, June is fast-tracked to becoming a soldier. Her first mission: track down Day. As Day and June come from such opposite backgrounds, is it possible that their paths would’ve crossed otherwise? 

Link to Goodreads // Spoiler-free review below

It felt so weird to switch this book from “to-read” to “reading” and now to “read” on Goodreads—this was the first book I placed on my virtual tbr and now, 6 years later I’ve read Legend! Honestly, I didn’t know much about this story going in, besides the fact that it’s a dystopian trilogy...and that, after reading a bunch of those stories, I was skeptical going into this book however I was still really excited to pick it up and I’m glad that I did! 

Legend alternates between Day and June’s perspectives and we get to see how drastically their lives are; when their worlds collide it was super fascinating, even though they put A LOT of trust from nowhere into each other. I sort of wish we got a few chapters from other characters, such as Commander Jameson, Thomas, and Tess, but of course without ruining the story. The other reason I didn’t give a full 5/5 was because I was able to guess bits of the twist pretty early on, albeit I wasn’t sure how it was going to pan out until we came to that part of the story. (We also gotta leave some room for improvement for the subsequent books!)

So the main premise of the story is that there is a war between the Colonies/Republic and the Patriots. To be completely honest, I still can’t really explain why this war occurred, nor what either’s agenda is (except for maybe power, but in terms of politics I’m ???). One reason why I wish we got more POVs is to explore this issue a bit more, and what their motivation is—if two Patriots were in the same room, would there be a way for them to connect with each other (assuming that this is a large society), for example. There were some details that were slowly brought out, such as the coin found by Day’s father (which is incorporated into a very clever manner). To be completely honest, the one thing I took away from the political scene is how cult-like the US in this book (but also irl—I’ve never seen another country where pretty much everyone has their country’s flag on their front lawn or uhhh worship? their flag).

The other minor but also major detail is the virus (or the plague, but it has to be treated with a vaccine, therefore it’s a virus). We know that there’s a plague, and of course, the poorer parts of the rEpBuLiC, such as Day’s neighbourhood, are affected heavily, but that’s pretty much the extent that we know. I wonder if Legend was written/published today (or next year, let’s say), would the plague be different—would people be wearing masks, for instance?  What are the symptoms of the plague (I think there was some coughing and fever)—how do you know for sure it’s the plague and not a common cold or the chicken pox, for example o.O I definitely felt like I was over analyzing details at times because I was able to pick up on Lu’s foreshadowing pretty early on. 

Brief comment on Lu’s foreshadowing—she is clever in the sense that sometimes the details are right in your face, but you don’t realize it until a significant event happens. Sometimes it’s a really important part of the story, other times it’s just a subtle detail, like the coin. You can tell that Lu most likely planned Legend meticulously, and I’m sure that the next two books are crafted with this precise manner. I’m sure this is the type of book that when you reread it, you can pick out all the details that were planted along the way (or maybe I’m over analyzing again).

Something else that I appreciated in this book is that, although this is dystopian, it doesn’t feel like those typical dystopian tropes are there, if that makes sense. Yes, there’s a romance (and maybe a tad of insta love), but it’s not the driving factor of the plot. And there’s no love triangle (*throws confetti*). Besides the war and thus, the division of the population, the most obvious dystopian feature is the Trial—this is when you turn 10, you must take a test (physical, mental, and an interview). Based on your score, you either get placed into highschool, university, or you’re sent to labour camps if you fail. Honestly, as messed up as the Trial is, it’s almost like a reality today. I feel like people who are just entering middle school are already set on studying medicine or law, when at that age, you should be idk enjoying life and maybe start putting effort into what you enjoy, not choosing a career. Anyways, those are my 2 cents. 

Although Legend is written from our two main characters, I love how different their dynamic was, which made the story much more interesting. From Day’s point of view, I liked that we got to see the pain he feels for his family. I also appreciated Day’s relationship with Tess, who I feel like they’re more like brother and sister (and I’m glad there isn’t a love triangle...at this point of the trilogy anyways). While Day is a criminal, he’s such a softie when it comes to the people he cares about, whereas when he’s on a ‘mission’ he’s very sly. From June’s point of view, we are introduced to Thomas (which I thought he was like a butler but oop that’s not right), Metias (her brother), and Ollie (their doggo (yes?)). At first, it seems that June is like this kick ass girl, who is super young (ish, she’s 16) and she’s a trouble-maker, but I feel like her peers respect her. One thing I noticed is that June is such a compassionate person—I’m not sure how to explain it, but she’s more “human” than Commander Jameson, for example. Her element of humanity and being able to analyze a situation/emotions within a few minutes, it was super impressive—I feel like she makes working for the Republic very easy. We only get a few glimpses of her and Metias together, but what we see is so wholesome—you can tell that Metias is scared/deeply cares for his younger sister. And there’s Thomas...from the gecko he gave me weird vibes but man he is such an icky man. Also, seeing as June is a prodigy, it’s almost like her uh ‘bosses’ (?) treat her as a prized possession, which 100% made me feel like (more on that in the spoiler section below). For once, I didn’t really mind the insta love between June and Day, though whilst I was reading the book, I was a bit frustrated because I could see exactly where the story was going (I see you, Lu, I see you).

Finally, I appreciate that Lu’s characters are people of colour, specifically Asian/asian-mixed. I obviously can’t speak on her behalf, but I’m glad that she didn’t conform to the “norm” or “default” as she is Asian-american herself. Furthermore, I think it gives younger people the encouragement that yes, you can be an author, you don’t need to be a heterosexual, cis, white male. (I’m sorry for the crappy explanation, I guess what kinda sucks is that she had to explicitly mention it in the book). ANYWAYS moving on, I appreciated this book, though I didn’t really know what to expect from it. To be completely honest, I was also scared to read it because it had been on my TBR since 2014 (oops), but I think that in the end, it’s good thing I waited to start this trilogy; I think that otherwise, this would’ve been same-old-same-old vibes to other dystopian books/trilogies I’ve read in the past. I’m excited to see where the trilogy takes us and I’m excited to see how Lu will further develop our main characters, as well as see how her writing style changes over time!

If you’ve read this book, I’d love to know what your thoughts are, did you like this book or not? (and if you’ve read the other two books, did you find that overall, the series gets better/what book is your favourite from this series?).

Thank you for reading my review, I hope you are having a legendary day (sorry, I had to), wherever you are in the world!

~ Cassandra / an-avid-reader

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I’ve decided to include a spoiler section of my reviews; continue reading for some spoiler-y content (you have been warned)

SPOILER SECTION BELOW

While I could see it coming that June was going to betray Day, she felt so bad when she called the cops on his family. Again, this goes back to the humanity thing. The fact that she actually listened to Day (and I guess respected him?) as opposed to merely judging him for “failing” his Trial and being poor is commendable. To be honest, I’d like to think that they had mutual respect for each other, Day has his reputation, and June unexpectedly kicked Kaede’s butt in the ring. I feel like there’s so much to uncover, there’s something so fishy with their government, and I think we’re just at the tip of the iceberg. It makes me think of what other contraband exists, besides the pendent/coin. Also, side note, isn’t one presidential term = 4 years, and the Elector has been the leader/uh President for 11 terms? I don’t remember it being mentioned, but I feel like the next Elector would be his son, sort of like a dictatorship…

Speaking of the fight scene, I’m honestly surprised that June didn’t put the pieces together. When she met Day for the first time (for the cure deal), she noted his dialect/the fact that he used the cousin. We’re not told how many other people use the same slang, nor do we encounter another character (such as the older man who helped Tess and Day early on in the story), using that slang. Thus, when Day said cousin in front of June, I’m surprised that she didn’t question whether that was Day or not. Then again, I feel like she needed more hints to corroborate her hypothesis—I’m just surprised that it didn’t even cross her mind, I guess. 

June = prized possession? Aka Thomas kissing her *vomits* I assumed that Thomas was an older guy, again, like he was her butler/guardian because her parents are dead. (LIGHTBULB MOMENT - we know that the Republic just kills people, so is it possible that Day’s father is still alive? We know for sure his mom is dead because she got shot in the head by none other than T h o m a s, but maybe there’s a chance that Day’s father was still alive). I feel like June was just even more ruplused when she found out that Thomas was actually the killer of her brother; I wonder if that’s what made him so “cold”, as June referred to later on in the story. Was he brainwashed or something? Commander Jameson gives me these weird vibes, like she has a bigger role in this story, but we don’t know yet. And then during the ceremony after June caught Day, there was Chian, Metias’ mentor (most likely also a snake) who was kinda hitting on her, and then there was the Elector’s son! I’m just speechless, can these people not force themselves onto June?? If she didn’t meet Day, would she fall for one of them, or would she just live her best life (part of me hopes for the latter, all those guys are creeps).

I also find it convenient that June knew exactly what to do with the computer/with Metias’ message? Albeit, she is clever (when her judgement isn’t clouded lmao). I knew that the letters were going to be a scramble, but I would’ve never thought it would lead to a website. Also, how was Metias sure that June would read through his stuff? If he were still alive, would he have told June about what he found (ever)? And how did he get wrapped up in all of this? So many questions!! Anyways, I guess that the two of them had a similar way of going about things/thinking similar enough so that they could find clues like that without raising too much suspicion (even though June did end up getting caught towards the end). 

One of the ways that Lu was able to sneak in some foreshadowing is when we’re in Day’s POV and we learn about his older brother, John. I remember that there was something along the lines of “oh we look so similar, it would be easy to mistake one for the other” and that sort of raised suspicion for me, which was confirmed when John sacrificed himself to let June and Day (and the others) escape. I didn’t catch that Day’s pendant was a coin, however, that was really clever. I wouldn’t say that being able to spot these things early on made me dislike the book, but it did take away the element of surprise. 

Onto book #2!

[rugessnome]

I'm going to pretend @overlyelegantstranger tagged me... 1. Nickname: Mouse is my longstanding online nickname, and for a bit less, DT (for Darth Tenebrous, actually, given my URL) ...actually I spelled Adrien the way I did because I've an OC who shortens her (different) name to "Ien", but I haven't found it convenient to introduce, nor convinced myself it refers to me. 2. Zodiac sign: I'm supposedly a Taurus; actually the sun was in Aries at my birth, and while those often suit me in tumblr astrology, I resent the assigned nature of it all so uh... also no. 3. Height: Five four, maybe five foot five if I'm lucky and standing particularly straight 4. Hogwarts house: Mostly Ravenclaw, with some Slytherin sympathies and a newfound appreciation for Hufflepuff. I will actively resent Gryffindor colors unless you tell me they're actually Shuos (even though I would probably be a Nirai, if anything, in the hexarchate. But I love certain of my foxes.) and/or somehow Sith. 5. Last thing I googled: "Nebuchadnezzar poisoning", because @piermanwalter reminded me of an anecdote in The Disappearing Spoon about how the eating grass thing might have been prompted by inadvertent poisoning. I didn't remember which element; turns out it's lead AND antimony. 6. Favourite musicians: Idk; Over the Rhine are up there, and lately The Mountain Goats. I've also seen Belle & Sebastian and Camera Obscura in concert, so I suppose they're up there. Vienna Teng, Regina Spektor... This is an incomplete list. 7. Song stuck in my head: the phrasing of this question keeps putting some song I don't even really know that has "over my head, over my head" in it? But really it's OTR's "And Can It Ever Be?", with which I am a little obsessed anew, because: "This night is so dark/this night is silence, and very little fear/tell me that this welcome peace/isn't dancing with the ghost of future tears" 8. Following now: four hundred ish? I'm going to check and come back and edit. The vast majority of whom are inactive and/or not personal blogs. 9. Followers: I think this is around 500, although I am/may be long overdue for a purge of spam/porn blogs 10. Do I get asks: Mostly only when I ask for them. But occasionally. 11. Amount of sleep: I gravitate towards about 8 hours. I am practically nonfunctional normally on much less than 6, and lately, thanks to um... anxiety, even getting by on 6 is difficult. 12. Lucky number: ...in some ways π, in some ways e 13. What I’m wearing: Star Trek ~lounge pants I made from Enterprise/"Star Trek" print fabric, and an oversized t-shirt I got when I participated in a litter cleanup 14. Dream job: uhhh something involving as many as possible of: sci-comm, math or programming tasks, a result helpful to people, and maybe a bit of domestic travel now and again?? Idk, I seem to change my mind on this frequently and don't really have a good or set idea. 15. Dream trip: I think the idea I'm most into at the moment is one day, hoping the present situation doesn't actually end service for good, is riding the uh "Empire Builder" Amtrak route through the northern US. Aside from that, I recently went to West Virginia and western Pennsylvania and would enjoy going back and also I am (except for quarantine concerns) almost always up for a road trip to Michigan. 16. Favourite food: this is not something I am good at deciding. There are too many good ones. Something, such as I had for dinner, involving potatoes, corn tortillas, and some peppers and tomatoes (or tomatillos in something else) and cheese as seasoning is my idea of great comfort food. I appreciate a good meatloaf but I also really don't mind eating vegetarian meals on a regular basis, given they're something I like. 17. Instruments: um. I can kinda play a few pieces, with idiosyncratic timing, on keyboard/piano and that's about it. I don't fluently read music though I might be able to work through something in treble clef. I recently acquired a cheap ukulele but I am struggling with tuning it, or understanding how it's used in songs or... 18. Languages: rusty, at best I was almost capable of halting conversation, German and Spanish. I have the Duolingo Latin tree but I don't think it's um... that extensive. I have learned a little Russian and beyond that just... too many interests, without much time being devoted to any of them. 19. Favourite song: I'm into "And Can It Ever Be?" anew, as I said above; also more recently "Your Honor" and "Ghost of Corporate Future" off Soviet Kitsch (aand, a bit awkwardly, "Hotel Song"). "You Or Your Memory" "Dance Music" "This Year" and "Up the Wolves" (which is to say that basically the larger part of my album rotation lately is Soviet Kitsch, The Sunset Tree, and Till We Have Faces)... 20. Random fact: I have been watching retro computer repair videos lately (Adrian's Digital Basement esp) and they've made me kinda want to learn to solder. Though I'm not sure whether I'll look into this before we're past current events or not. (Probably I'd start with some of the kits from Evil Mad Scientist Labs) 21. Aesthetic Standing in a broad-shouldered greatcoat surveying a wintry landscape, perhaps feeling powerful, but with a note of melancholy and humility to it. Welcoming a dear friend in, pet in arms, with an array of beautiful if homely chopped vegetables and prepared ingredients inside waiting to be cooked up. A hobbit math professor relaying an algebra theorem or a physics application. Walking near a wetland in a flannel, among the trees and wildlife.

[sawyersick]

all the questions for that ask game!!! (or as many as you want lol)

holy fuck bee............................. ok get red E its a Lot

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

Idk what I would say but I probably wouldn’t be that freaked out... the last person I texted is a good friend/coworker and I trust him

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

I uhhh can’t remember who the last person I kissed was because it was years ago but let’s assume it was my ex..... he was a toxic pos who tore me down because he had low self esteem so yeah I don’t really like him

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

I would be upset if it was anything more than weed or the ocassional drink or if it was a full blown addiction and I would be mad if they didn’t tell me on principle...

 Also I would not be very comfortable if they did it around me because I’m a weenie despite hanging out in hardcore punk groups...... also I can’t stomach the smell of cigarettes im sorry

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

nope! 

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

sober, I don’t drink

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

like..... as a significant other? I guess. I’m pretty bad at telling my feelings to people and I’m kinda clingy when I like someone. idk if I’ve ever *explicitly* messed it up tho

7. What does your last received text say?

“sick” and then the sparkly heart emoji five times 

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

lots and lots and lots.... unfortunately. we were together for a year and a half

9. Where was your last kiss at?

fuck bitch I don’t remember.............. school? my house? his house? the pool??? man the last five months of that relationship were affection-less

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

I don’t have one!

11. What do you drink in the morning?

water and sometimes tea

12. Where did you sleep last night?

the car and then my bed when I got home

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

I mean everything takes effort... I don’t find it hard to do things for people in my relationships but I get frustrated when it isn’t reciprocated and I burn out

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

nah

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

yes....................... many..........................

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

I TRIED to be a good emo and like the rain but tbh I get really reasonally depressive so I prefer the sun 100%

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

nope!

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

jeans!

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

hopefully!! I met this real cute punk boy last night

20. Does anyone like you?

HA I doubt it......... I usually come off as the little sister type to most people

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

nope! 

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

probably

I suspected that he had internalized homophobia but also he was weirdly transphobic to me so I dropped it and pretended to be a cis girl around him which is weird because I think he liked boys??????????????????

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

YES this girl from high school who talked about tentacle porn to school admins for no reason and did lots of other weird shit 

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

yes! I have a whale on my hip and I want to get tiny scissors on my arm soon

25. In the past week have you cried?

yes I watched queer eye and a disney movie lol

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?

I follow like 12 samoyeds on instagram but the last dog I saw irl was this ADORABLE black lab who was a service dog and he rested his head on his human’s lap when she sat down in the library and I wanted to cry

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

I have a towel hanging right out side the shower so I grab it, then step out of the shower

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

hm idk I think so? I definitely kissed a guy who played tennis but he forced it on me so I don’t count it

29. Do you think you’re old?

yes because I hate tiktok

30. Do you like text messaging?

I don’t mind it!! The service at my house sucks tho so I prefer cloud based texting like instagram or facebook messenger

31. What type of day are you having?

A good but slow one! I had a really good night last night so I’m just resting now

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

I’d honestly rather get snake bites if I were to get a piercing but in general I’m afraid of facial piercings

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

warm! then I can head down to the lake :)

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

yes! he’s one of my best friends and I talk to him every day and he lives in scotland and I’d like to meet him one day

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

relationship! Flings personally make me feel icky and I’m over that

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

I’d like to think I’m complicated but I’m a simple man..................... you show me whale, I like

37. What song are you listening to?

any song by Liily, all day every day

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

yes! I perpetually feel bad about everything!!!!!!39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

there was! but not anymore because she ghosted me for no reason40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

This person is so cute and kind and creative and nice and sweet and fashionable!!!! and fun to mosh with!!!!!41. When did you last receive a text message?

half an hour ago ish???42. What is wrong with you right now?

I am constantly depressed and there’s nothing I can do about it exceot keep myself insanely busy but that means there’s no breather for me and also I probably have adhd but can’t afford a therapist43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

FeMaLe dude just say chick

pretty well! I like her favourite band and we talk like once a week at the very least44. Does anyone disgust you?

yes my ex was very nasty and tore people down to his level and also this one person from high school who fucked over my friends 45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

depends on who.... eye emoji............. but probably yes I have low standards46. Are you in a good mood right now?

yes!47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

my parents? but other than that it was thanking Nick from the band Unpopular Opinion for the lovely tabling opportunity last night48. What color shirt are you wearing?

white T shirt with a cat pink sweater with a cat49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

yes one of my parents says nasty things when in a bad mood50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

yes my former best friend who ghosted me and this girl who keeps flaking on plans with me and also a boy who got mixed up in weird drama with me and his ex that I never wanted to be a part of51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

I’ve never really falen hard for anyone, just periods of obsession. I guess I’m waiting for that one sPeCiAl sOmEoNe

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

yes, but I’ll settle for waiting53. Do you like rain?

a little of it!54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

I’d rather they not be a alcholoic because I had a raging drunk coworker who scared the shit out of me once but I guess I’d be okay with the ocasional drink/drunk night as long as they’re safe55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

So many times... I keep my mouth shut because it would never work for one reason or another...... also I’m so SICK of having to make the move all the time I just want to be fawned over I’ve never had anyone do ANYTHING romantic for me 56. Do you like to cuddle?

.......................yes57. Are you shy?

not normally! I LOVE being social but in relationships yeah because I’m insecure58. Do you get along with girls?

yes? girls who don’t get along with girls are lame...... lift each other up don’t tear yaselves down59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

nope! But I’ll admit I thought about it haha60. What do you carry with you at all times?

chapstick, money, and pepper spray

ya boy don’t mess around61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

depends on the haunted levels, as long as the “ghost” would only watch/appear and not scream or whatever or try to make contact I guess that would be fine? but if It tries to disturb me I’m yeeting mysef the fuck outta here because ya boy needs uninterrupted beauty rest62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

yep! I dragged one out for a year and a half when I really should have ended things much sooner than that63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

nope! Been single for around two years now64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

YES HOLY SHIT65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

I fired some pieces in my pottery class! my mugs and bowls came out so well

and I met the cutest punk boy last night!!!!!! he’s so cute and very my type and I got to dance with him in the mosh pit!!!!!!!!!! tell me that’s not the cutest punk thing ever

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

19, 18(17???), and 21

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?    

I’ve only gotten them done once! It was very enjoyable but I’m a cheapskate so I’d probably rather do them myself68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?    

leopard print I guess69. Do you have any stickers on your car?    

one! A turtle from the Maui Ocean Center. I’d like to add a few more sea-related ones and maybe a totoro I bought at a con a few years back70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?    

literally who the fuck even are these people71. Blackberry, Android, or iPhone?   

android 4 lyfe72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    

never? my DnD group would get round table or little caesars73. Do you like diet soda?    

I guess? I like it the same as diet soda74. What color are the walls in your room?    

one purple wall and the other three are pastel mint75. Are you 16 or older?    

yeah baybee76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?  

nope  77. Do you have a job?   

yep! I’m a windsurfing instructor   78. What are your initials?    

ZSKMTS

but usually I go by SS79. Did you ever have braces?    

nope! I’ve got near-perfect teeth :D80. Are you from the south?    

nope!

81. What does your last status on facebook say?    

I talked about meeting my favourite band again!82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?

no because he forced himself on me when we were young and I think he remembers and is ashamed and also doesn’t live near me anymore    83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    

idk, I’m close but not in different ways with both of them84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?    

I was really good at the tumbling unit in 6th grade85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?   

Once Upon a Time in Hollywood? I don’t go to the movies much 86. Do you smoke?    

no the smell of cigarettes makes me want to vomit87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?    

I love heels but I LIVE in flip flops bc california88. Is your phone touch screen?    

yes???? damn when was this ask game made89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?  

straight.......... I’m too lazy to curl it  90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?  

nope! I’m a weenie  91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?    

the ocean!!!!!!!! But I guess a pool bc I’m afraid of the flesh eating bacteria in freshwater lakes92. Have you ever made out in a car?    

no but I HAVE made out on some random person’s lawn lmao93. …Had sex in a car?  

no I’m a virgin  94. Are you single or in a relationship?   

single pringle who loves to mingle 95. What were you doing last night at midnight?    

selling my art and listening to cool bands and dancing with cute punk people!!!96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks? 

the day after the fourth of July   97. Do you like the camera on your phone?    

yes! I just got a new phone and the camera is way better than my old one

the low lighting setting is  c r i s p 98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?  

I made out with this one friend of mine like twice and then I never did it again bc I felt icky  99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    

no I don’t drink100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?    

NAH BRO YOU GOTTA UNFRIEND THE FUCK OUTTA THEM NO RAGRETS 101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?    

nope I’m a virgin102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    

Liily? did you mean Liily???? my favourite Liily song is Wash, Toro, or The Weather103. Do you have any tan lines right now?  

yeah one from the ring I wear every day  and like a shorts tan from summer104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?

hell yeah but ONLY if the cowboy boots are bright red or hot pink no exceptions

[evesbeve]

~All. Of. Them.~ ☺

99 gay-ish asks

… you know WHAT.

FINE.

I’LL DO ALL OF THEM.

LONG ANSWER UNDER THE TAG, HA V E FUN-

1. how tall are you?

I am 159cm aka 5′3ft!

2. what is your body type?

According to the first Google Image result I got, it’s between “Banana Shape” and “Apple Shape”. I have no idea who came up with these terms. But there you go.

3. what is your favorite part about your body?

My nails-

4. is your current hair color your natural hair color?

My hair is brunette, which is also my natural hair color!

5. are you more outgoing or more shy?

I’d like to think I’m outgoing, but we all know the truth rip

6. are you more femme or butch?

Depends on the day-

7. are you tol or smol?

I definitely wouldn’t call myself tol, so smol, I guess!

8. wine mom or vodka aunt?

Sober Mom

9. weird habit?

The door has to be either fully closed or fully open. Don’t fite me on this-

10. favorite meme?

Too many to count, but this is one of my favourites right now-

but also like, most of my faves at the moment are actually memes with pictures of me and my friends XD

11. do you sing in the shower?

Hell yes!!

12. ever used a bow and arrow?

Yep!

13. are/were you a theatre kid?

(Answered here)

14. have you ever seen a broadway musical?

Nope, but I’ve seen Aladdin’s counterpart to broadway in London! So it’s like, the exact same thing, but in London XD

15. do you think musicals are cheesy?

Yes. Do I think it makes them less enjoyable though? Nope.

16. have you ever been a part of a protest or a march?

It’s a complicated story, but I have!

17. favorite Cards Against Humanity Card?

Gooood, it’s been so long since I’ve played CAH! I have no idea ;;

18. last movie you watched?

I think it was Far From Home!

19. behind the camera or in front of it?

I’m usually the one taking pictures and filming my friends (they better thank me in 10 years) but to be honest, I wish they’d take some more pics of me to look back to too. I do enjoy filming though, so I guess behind!

20. favorite tv show?

Right now, it’s definitely The Umbrella Academy!

21. meaning behind your url

My name is Evelina, and I am online

22. reason you joined tumblr

To follow a project I used to like on YouTube ^^

23. who’s your closest tumblr friend?

I mean, @clumsinessinperson, @xxwhisperapplexx, @hollsheadcanons and @spinharmony started out as tumblr friends, but now we’ve known each other for more than a year and they’re my best friends in the world ;w;

24. what’s something most people love that you hate?

Olives. Peas. Crocs.

uPDATE: i READ THAT QUESTION WRONG, I THOUGHT IT SAID THE OPPOSITE, I LOVE ALL THESE THREE THINGS

I do hate BBQ sauce with PASSION though-

25. have you ever taken narcotics?

I mean, only when I got my teeth extracted XD

26. have you had sex?

Nope.

27. have you ever gotten caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

I’ve never sneaked out before, so nah. My phone caught me on my phone at 5am once, does that count?

28. worst/funniest lie you’ve ever told?

(Answered here)

29. describe your passion without mentioning it.

The ocean’s waves clash at the coast. They drown in themselves. They help the boats move. But sometimes, the ocean is quiet.

30. describe your best friend.

Nearly impossible to describe a 100 people in one sentence, but none of them have braincells.

31. give us one thing about you that no one knows.

NOT AGAIN, ANSWERED HERE.

32. how do you feel right now?

Energetic!!

33. what is your biggest fear?

Dying

34. what’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

(Answered here)

35. what is the best decision you’ve made in your life so far?

Honestly, uploading my stories.

36. have you ever tried your hardest and then been disappointed in the end?

MANY TIMES. But hey, that’s life. And that doesn’t mean that it’ll always disappoint you. Keep trying, everyone!

37. something you fantasize about.

MEETING MY ONLINE FRIENDS IRL ;W;

38. last time you cried and why

This morning because I had a fight with my mom lmao

39. what was the last thing that made you laugh?

Me.

40. do you really, truly miss someone right now?

Sure do *dabs*

41. who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

@xxwhisperapplexx​, @clumsinessinperson​, @aesthetically-bitching​ and my other irl fren who doesn’t have tumblr but he is a dumbass!!

42. the last time you felt broken?

SEE 38, RIP (I’m okay now tho, dw!)

43. are you starting to realize anything?

I wanna be a director or a scriptwriter or something!! Just work in the movies!!

44. are you more dominant or more submissive?

Dominant, but I can be just as submissive!

45. i’ll only date you if _____. (fill in the blank)

I’ll only date you if I love you?? Why would I date someone I don’t love?

46. do you prefer to date people the same age as you, younger, or older?

Uhhh look, I’m 16, so the same age, lol. And even if I was older, age doesn’t matter as long as it’s not creepy and predatory, you know?

47. describe the person you’re in love with/have a crush on in great detail.

I don’t have a crush at the moment, thANK GOD.

48. do you have any kinks?

Bye.

49. first thing you notice in a person?

(Answered here)

50. how can someone win your heart?

Step One: Stan Ben Hargreeves.

51. been rejected by a crush?

Nop. Never confessed-

52. have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?

Yes.

53. would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

No.

54. is trust a big issue for you?

I mean, I wouldn’t trust someone I just met with my life, but I do have faith in people ^^

55. did you hang out with the person you like recently?

I do not,,, have a crush,,,

56. is confidence cute?

Everything positive is cute.

57. what would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

I don’t like someone right now but if it were to happen, I wouldn’t say anything? It’s their life.

58. would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

Everyone makes me laugh. I must hate the person then XD

59. does the person you have feelings for right now know you do?

I DO NOT HAVE A CRUSH AAAAA

60. ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

Yes, like a bazillion times.

61. do you want to get married

I’m open to it!

62. worst thing you’ve ever done?

Honestly, I was trying to think of a serious answer, I PROMISE, but then I remembered that when I was little my parents had pissed me off so badly, and I quoted a Barbie movie that said “You’re ruining my life!” like an angry toddler.

Then they threatened to never let me watch Barbie again because it was a bad influence, anD I MEAN. It was what it was XD

Note: They never banned Barbie.

63. three things that turn you on.

How did you know I was an android.

64. who do you hate?

Hate is a strong word, lmao.

65. favorite term of endearment?

Unironically, it’s “boo” XD

66. who was your celebrity/fictional gay awakening?

I WAS WONDERING IF THERE WAS A QUESTION LIKE THAT, honestly I do not remember. Probably someone from Winx.

67. intimidating girls or kind girls?

Both are valid.

68. what do you look for in a possible partner?

I don’t look, they hit me in the head.

69. do you tend to like more masculine, feminine, or androgynous girls?

All. All the girls.

70. are you good at flirting?

Yes, actually XD

71. who was the first person you came out to?

Probably @aesthetically-bitching​, I think!

72. do you have any friends who are wlw?

yeet

73. is your crush wlw?

don’t have a crush, but used to-

74. last person to make you reconsider your sexuality?

I have no idea, I’ve known I was bi since 6th grade.

75. write a short love poem to your crush/self?

Not all the steps you walked on are stableBut that’s okayReaching the top requires a few

76. do you fall in love easily?

I’ve only fallen like in love twice. Crushes are way different, and I’d say kinda…?

77. is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

Yeah. But I hate talking about it.

78. are you good at hiding your feelings?

Yep. If you notice I’m sad, I want you to notice I’m sad.

79. are you a forgiving person?

Mhm!

80. what is your “type?”

Ironically, Eudora Patch from The Umbrella Academy is a very good depiction of my type. (Note: Personality wise. Looks genuinely don’t matter to me, everyone is BEAUTIFUL.)

81. fall asleep in her arms or rub her back until she falls asleep in yours?

I am a little spoon inside and out-

82. tall girls or short girls?

Doesn’t matter-

83. hugs or kisses?

Hugs!! kisses kinda make me uncomfortable most of the time to be honest

84. twirl her around or get twirled?

b O T H

85. tummy kisses or thigh kisses?

Tummy-

86. hairline kisses or neck kisses?

Hairline,,,

87. play with her hair or stroke her tummy?

Hair!!

88. making out or soft kisses?

Soft kisses, definitely. Not that I’ve kissed anyone before, but oh well XD

89. hugs around the neck or hugs around the waist?

Neck…? I’d say neck.

90. how confident are you in your sexuality?

It took me a while, but I am very confident in it right now!

91. when you like someone do you blush or get butterflies in your stomach?

Butterflies™

92. have you ever liked a friend as more than a friend? did you tell them?

I have, and I told them absolutely nothing

93. how old were you when you realized you were into girls?

*shrugs* young XD

94. most embarrassing thing you’ve done in front of a cute girl?

All girls are cute girls. So many things.

95. do you have a favorite lesbian ship? is it canon?

THIS QUESTION IS STRESSING ME OUT, I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO CHOOSE. Honestly, Alphys and Undyne are a hard one to top, aND ALSO CANON

96. what is the most aggravating thing someone has said to you about your sexuality?

“You’re just confused.”

97. when was the last time a girl made your heart flutter?

… I don’t know what to tell you.

98. what is love to you?

Love is complicated.

To me, it’s not about having a partner. Actually, loving someone regardless of romantic feelings is way more important, in my opinion. These things can co-exist, and loving a friend is just as important loving a lover.

The lack of it can hurt, especially being forced out of it. But feeling love? I don’t know. It’s one of the most beautiful feelings ever. I feel so lucky to be surrounded by it.

I really love this article on it! It’s about the 8 types of love the ancient greeks had, and as I greek person myself, I think highly of it. I highly recommend reading it!

99. ask me anything. (bUt since no one specified, I’ll ask myself: Why do this and what did I learn from this?)

I did this because I am stubborn. Also I genuinely liked the questions XD

What I learned from this experience is that I really love answering questions, oops-

If you made it this far, I don’t know what to tell you. You deserve a golden star, my dude.

ANYWAY, NEVER AGAIN.

[bfjeno]

☁️ 50 Questions Tag ☁️

1. What takes up too much of your time?

— the sims

2. What makes your day better?

— @haojuns

3. What’s the best thing to happen to you today?

— finding more peanut butter when i thought we ran out

4. What fictional place would you like to go to?

— im really drawing a blank so i guess i’ll just say i don’t know

5. Are you good at giving advice?

— uhhh? i used to be. probably not so much anymore but it depends on the situation

6. Do you have a mental illness?

— i have borderline personality disorder

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?

— nope!

8. What musician(s) inspired you the most?

— at the moment i’d say i’m the most inspired by cavetown, khai dreams, hobo johnson, twin cabins, and jack stauber

9. Have you ever fallen in love?

— yes

10. What’s your dream date?

— a chill date! pretty much just hanging out, with the right person pretty much anything can be a date. stargazing or cloud watching, a walk, taking each other to your favorite places.

11. What do others notice about you?

— i don’t know? probably my voice or something since a lot of people comment on it

12. What’s an annoying habit you have?

— when im really stressed i pull at my hair without thinking. if it’s not the hair on top of my head then it’s either my eyebrows or eyelashes which gets real inconvenient

13. Do you still talk to your first love?

— besides asking for my hoodies and shirts back not at all lmao

14. How many exes do you have?

— six or seven ?

15. How many songs are in your playlist?

— 1400? somewhere around there

16. What instruments can you play?

— ukulele and that’s about it for now

17. What do you have the most pictures of?

— memes, eli, and myself

18. Where would you like to go before you die?

— korea !!

19. What’s your zodiac?

— scorpio

20. Do you relate to it?

— yeah

21. What is happiness to you?

— accomplishing a goal, being surrounded by people or things that you love, and getting rid of the negative.

22. Are you going through anything right now?

— just some money struggles

23. What’s the worst decision you’ve ever made?

— i’ve made a lot of bad decisions but the one that first comes to mind is uh. trusting my ex girlfriend lmao

24. What’s your favorite store?

— bronners !!! or this one toy store about an hour away. for clothes probably goodwill or zumiez

25. What’s your opinion on abortions?

— a woman can do whatever she wants to her body and i don’t think anyone else should really have a say in it

26. Do you keep a bucket list?

— no because my interests change too often

27. Do you have a favorite album?

— oh boy i don’t ! i like too many artists to just pick one album

28. What do you want for your birthday?

— paints, brushes, watercolors, just art supplies really. sims 4 expansion packs as well.

29. What are most peoples first impressions of you?

— uhhhh. probably dumb and annoying or cool-ish and kinda funny.

30. What age do you seem according to most people?

— 18 or older. i’m often offered alcohol at restaurants and most people tell me i seem about 18 or 19

31. Where do you keep your phone when you sleep?

— right next to my head

32. What word do you say the most?

— “fuck” “yikes” or “oh”

33. What’s the oldest age you would date?

— 18

34. What’s the youngest you would date?

— 15 maybe?

35. What job/career do most people say would suit you?

— some sort of entertainer. a lot of people say comedian.

36. What’s your favorite music genre?

— oh man probably indie but i like just about everything!

37. If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be?

— Canada or South Korea

38. What’s your current favorite song?

— Nice Colors - khai dreams

39. How long have you had this blog?

— almost 4 months i think

40. What are you excited for?

— going to see eli this summer (hopefully) !!

41. Are you a better talker or listener?

— listener

42. What is the last productive thing you did?

— i started making korean flashcards earlier today

43. What do you want for Christmas?

— clothes, keyboard, baritone uke, electric uke !!!!! and uhh. a good microphone

44. What class do you get the best grades in?

— civics

45. On a scale of 1-10 how are you feeling right now?

— ehhh about 3 or 4

46. What can you see yourself doing in ten years?

— oh god i don’t even know what im gonna do in the next 10 minutes but. in the future i just wanna be stable and happy so hopefully i will accomplish that

47. When did you experience your first heartbreak?

— 2016 just after my first relationship ended

48. What age do you want to get married?

— no clue! just before my 30s

49. What career did you want to have as a child?

— musician

50. What do you crave right now?

— some cuddles man

thank you @ppanyangsstuff for tagging me 💞

i tag: @haojuns @wayvi @princefullsun @markheehee @yanggerm and anyone else who wants to do this i guess

[nyakusan]

tagged by @lovekuramas ! ty :-)

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 15 people

1. drink - tea :~)

2. 📱 call -  my mom probably

3. text - a couple of friends! (about hanging out i think)

4. song you listened to - no clue what the eng title is but its a vocaloid song cover by eve

5. time you 😢 - like this morning because the wind was blowing in my face

HAVE YOU EVER

6. dated someone twice - no 7. 😘 someone and regretted it - :-) 8. been cheated on - no

9. lost someone special - not really

10. been depressed - mmmm not really

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - underage drinking is bad!

FAVORITE COLORS

12. any sort of. dark-ish red

13. uhh??? purples

14. jade? green

15. h i dont know!

in the last year have you

16. made new friends - yes sir

17. fallen out of 💛 - :-)

18. 😂 until you 😢 - oh yes 19. found out someone was talking about you - no

20. met someone who changed you - not really hm

21. found out who your friends are - like my friends are secretly vampires or something? :~) 22. 😘 someone on your facebook friends list - No One Uses Facebook Anymore

GENERAL

23. how many friends from your fb friends list do you know irl - No One Uses Facebook Anymore

24. do you have any pets - i sure do! i have one of those black and white cats (he has a big fat mole on his nose) and his name is zorro bc the pattern on his face resembles zorro’s (the old movie character) mask

25. do you want to change your middle name - dont have one

26. what did you do for your last 🎂 - well . i played some pokemon bc my dad bought me x as my present and he made a cheesecake that he thought failed but tasted pretty good to me

27. what time did you wake up today - 7:30 :-) thank god for later school times, i usually wake up at 6:30

28. what were you doing last night at midnight - listening to some cronchy asmr 29. what is something you can’t wait for - uh?!? getting my history final/ap exam over with

30. what are you listening to right now - world.search(you) by mili ! its a banger

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - perhaps i have

32. something that gets on your nerves - when people like.......walk really slowly and in the middle of a narrow sidewalk/path/whatever, especially if theyre walking side by side god i hate that so much

33. most visited website - tumblr(?)

34. hair color - a solid black 35. long hair or short hair - short?? its like. at my armpits

36. do you have a crush on someone - hm

37. what do you like about yourself - idk? there’s nothing that i particularly like but ig........i can read music??? lmao

38. want any piercings - i might get more on my ears?? i dont think anything else would look good on me

39. blood type - cool question? uh a+

40. nicknames - i. dont know! lets say anri is a nickname since its not my real name

41. relationship status - :-)

42. zodiac - aquarius

43. pronouns - she/her

44. favorite 📺 show - uhhh no clue, i dont really watch shows these days

45. tattoos - maybe. just maybe. but i already know my parents (or mom, at least) arent into that 46. right handed or left - left

47. ever had surgery - i have had teeth surgery, if that counts

48. piercings - just the standard one on each earlobe 49. sports - oh man i used to do tennis but then i Stopped lol im lazy

50. vacation - like where i want to go? south america :D

51. trainers - you mean the shoes??? no sir i dont wear them

MORE GENERAL

52. eating - just ate some yum dinner

53. drinking - none ;-)

54. i’m about to watch - fnljsdljnflgjsd idk 

55. waiting for - uh spring break

56. want - those little moss ball things??? i Want

57. get married - that sure is a lot of commitment 

58. career - graphic designer hehe

WHICH IS BETTER

59. kisses or hugs - hugs!

60. 👄 or eyes - eyes!

61. shorter or taller - no preference!

62. older or younger - just. literally anything that isnt too much of a gap

63. nice arms or stomach - i dont care about either one?

64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - troublemaker is cool but like, dont die

HAVE YOU EVER

66. 😘 a stranger - no  

67. drank hard liquor - underage drinking is bad!

68. lost glasses - no

69. turned someone down - mnjlh? maybe not sure

70. sex on first date - no

71. broken someone’s ❤️- i have no clue.?

72. had your 💔 - again i have. no clue fjkgbfkd

73. been arrested - no

74. 😢 when someone died - never experienced someone i know dying

75. fallen for a friend - hm

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

76. yourself - when im eating Good? sure

77. miracles - i suppose

78. 💛 at first sight - yes? maybe? like how do u know its Love but then again, i only know how i feel about things

79. 🎅 - no

80. 😘 on a first date - no

81. angels - no

other

82. best friend’s name - uh! idk man

83. eye color - very dark brown. like on the verge of black

84. favorite movie - princess mononoke! and also coco kshkfdsf

85. favorite actor - no clue! probably no one :-)

tagging @malmaratus bc she complained about me tagging all her mutuals 

[golddplatedd]

50 Questions

tagged by @tonyrights

1. What takes up too much of your time? watching movies and scrolling through tumblr lmao

2. What makes your day better? talking to my gf! talking to my sister! thinking about oswald! lots of things!

3. What’s the best thing to happen to you today? its 12:29 am so im gonna say the best part of yesterday was getting to see so much of my family and giving my mom some pretty silver hoops that i bought for her at disneyland i love my mom

4. What fictional place would you like to go to? hhhh asgard maybe? i wanna meet heimdall

5. Are you good at giving advice? generally no but i am a god listener!!

6. Do you have any mental illness? yeah i have certified™ major depressive disorder and anxiety! probably some other stuff too but i prefer not to think about it ;V

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? nah but i kinda want to

8. What musician inspired you the most? .......fall out boy.........they have gotten me through so much its astounding

9. Have you ever fallen in love? literally every time i see a cat on the street. oh you mean with a person? maybe but id prefer not to talk about it 

10. What’s your dream date? uhhh going somewhere cute like an aquarium or a museum and then going for a walk and getting ice cream! im a simple girl.

11. What do others notice about you?

usually how short i am which is rude tbh im 5′1″ thats NOT that short

12. What is an annoying habit you have? almost everything i do is annoying!!  kidding (sorta) but i think the most . annoying thing i do is like everything obsessively and then talk about it nonstop. like i cant just. mildly enjoy something. its all or nothing babey

13. Do you still talk to your first love? no not really! that train has sailed . or however the saying goes. we are like on good ish terms though i suppose

14. How many exes do you have? 2. and a half

15. How many songs are in your playlist? i . have like 50 spottify playlists but my main one (jams from my Barbie™ Jeep™) currently has 1140 songs

16. What instruments can you play? i played flute but i dont anymore, i currently play oboe and saxophone and im trying to teach myself ukelele and thinking about trying english horn but its so expensive!!!

17. What do you have the most pictures of? i have a lot of memes, pictures of loki and oswald, and pictures of new york lmao

18. Where would you like to go before you die? the Pyramid of the Sun in Teotihuacán!!!

19. What is your zodiac? leo sun, gemini moon, aquarius rising

20. Do you relate to it? not the leo sun so much but the rest of it, yeah!!

21. What is happiness to you? coffee.

22. Are you going through anything right now? im goin thru IT man im just trying to survive till june but life is testing me

23. What’s the worst decision you ever made? everything i did in high school!

24. What’s your favorite store? goodwill or rhino records!!

25. What’s your opinion on abortion? i am pro-choice wtf kinda question is this

26. Do you keep a bucket list? yes, here is a list of my favorite buckets:

im joking i dont have one lmao

27. Do you have a favorite album? I HAVE TOO MANY here are a few:

infinity on high -  fall out boy // disintegration - the cure // three cheers for sweet revenge - mcr // saturation trilogy -  brockhampton // unknown pleasures - joy division

28. What do you want for your birthday? i like books and money

29. What are most people’s first impression of you? i have literally no idea i think people usually think im weird. im a weirdo. i dont fit in

30. What age do you seem according to most people?

like 16 people still think im in high school ;(

31. Where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? charging next to my bed

32. What word do you say the most? worm or yeehaw (its awful)

33. What’s the oldest age you would date? like 25 tbh

34. What’s the youngest age you would date? 19 (i am 19)

35. What job/career do most people say would suit you? surprisingly, psychiatry (which im interested in)

36. What’s your favorite music genre? it varies from moment to moment (generally indie or emo or new wave lmao)

37. If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be? maybe canada or france

38. What is your current favorite song? baby boy - kevin abstract

39. How long have you had this blog for? like 5 years lmao  yikes

40. What are you excited for? GOING TO PARIS AND THEN SCOTLAND TO STUDY ABROAD THIS SUMMER!!!

41. Are you a better talker or listener? definitely listener.im . an emotional bottom

42. What is the last productive thing you did? hhhh i looked over lecture slides for tomorrow

43. What do you want for christmas? world peace. halloween 2. a sense of purpose. a new brockhampton album.  simple things really

44. What class do you get the best grades in? oof . generally my cognitive science classes or like writing classes surprisingly.

45. On a scale of 1-10, how are you feeling right now? like 7  im tired

46. What can you see yourself doing in ten years?

living in new york city baby!!

47. When did you get your first heartbreak? sophomore year of hs babey!!

48. What age do you want to get married? like 27-30 ish? idc

49. What career did you want to have as a child? i wanted to be a teacher and now i cant stand the thought jskjs

50. What do you crave right now? woter

i tag: @gebbylee @moonnddust @panoscosmatoes @jobaisnotreal @lokisfatpussy @vamploki  @pixelpastry @twentycuntpilots @ink-like-starlight and whoever else wants to do it lmao

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #178

“for such a little thing, you sure are in your own way.”

What’s your favorite type of bird? Barn owls are actual deities. What was on the last sandwich you ate? Pb & j. What sort of music did you listen to when you were in high school? Same stuff I listen to now, although I had a mild screamo-ish phase. Have you ever gotten back together with an ex? No. How far away is the closest store to your house and what is it? Some cheap dollar store in the town, dunno names. What is your favorite Thai dish? Haven't tried any. When was the last time you made out with somebody? Over a month back. What month of the year was your mother born? August. Are there any candles in your bedroom, and what scent are they? No. What TV show(s) have you been watching currently? None. How many apps do you have on your phone? Six. My phone has so, so little storage ugh. Have you ever dated a smoker? If not, would you? No to both. Are there any movies you’ve seen so many times? Yeah, sure. Of course a lot as a kid, Finding Nemo and The Lion King 1 & 2 especially, then I've watched both Blair Witch Project movies a lot, Jim Carrey's How the Grinch Stole Christmas... How would you describe your sense of humor? Sarcastic. What’s your favorite type of bread? Pumpernickel. Do you share a middle name with any of your siblings? Yeah. Have there ever been any brushfires/wildfires in your area? Yeah. What did you have to eat for dinner last night? Nothing (Thanksgiving was lunch). Do you have separate emails for personal and business? No. Have you ever missed a flight? Yes. Do you know your significant other’s passwords? No, I have no reason to. Would you like to study abroad one day? No. Does someone have a crush on you but you don’t feel the same way? Idk. Who do you feel most beautiful around? Sara. /v\ What’s one makeup item you cannot live without? I could easily live without any. Is there one thing all of your ex’s had in common? All guys. Did you french kiss before you were 16? No. Imagine your spouse just died; would you get re-married? I don't know if I would. Like... I'd never stop loving her, so "moving on" to someone else just because she's no longer physically here would feel disloyal. What’s your favorite thing about life? New, fun experiences and creating strong bonds with people like you. Who pays for the first date? Idrc, but probably whoever proposed the date? Or split the bill? Have you ever had a friend that got a bf/gf, and then completely ignored you? Yeah. Do you play any computer games, if so, what ones? Not currently 'cuz my gaming laptop has to be fixed. :| When it is and I have my own income, I might return to WoW, but I'm not sure. I think the subscription is kinda high, and I have more important things to handle. What is the funniest movie you’ve ever seen? Idk why I find White Chicks so goddamn funny. What lyric means the most to you? Off the very top of my head, "A bloody war behind my eyes; I'll come all right on the other side" from "Free" by Mother Mother. Really makes me think of all I've been through but how I keep coming out stronger. Who is the smartest person you know? Girt. What’s the next movie you will see in theaters? Idk. Are you adopted? No. What band do you like that most people hate? You canNOT look me in the face and say you don't like at least one Nickelback song. I don't get the hate. Any new bands that you actually enjoy? Oh idk. What is your escape from reality? RPing. Do you have any self-inflicted scars on your arms? You can only just barely see them. Do you like “scene” hair? YEAH AND I ALWAYS FUCKING WANTED IT BUT I COULD NEVER POSE IT CORRECTLY 'CUZ MY HAIR WAS TOO THICK AND HEAVY. Have your parents ever been to jail? No. If your friend asked you to hold their drugs, would you? Definitely not. Does it scare you when a relationship moves too fast? Y E A H Would you ever consider hitchhiking? I don't know if I would even in a desperate situation... I don't trust people. Have you ever hitchhiked? No. Have you ever been to a music festival? No. What color car do you want to have? Burnt orange. Would you rather hike a mountain or explore a cave? Explore a cave!!! Would you rather wear a flower crown or veil? Probably a veil? Do you believe peace on earth is attainable? I honestly don't believe so. What type of tattoo do you want? s o  m a n y What is your favorite insect? Butterflies. Would you ever live in the desert? Nooooo. Fuck the heat. Is your town beautiful? I don't really live in one, but the closest town isn't. Which season do you want to get married in? Autumn. Are totem poles cool? YEAH! Favorite art forms? Conceptual photography. What kind of music do you enjoy? Plenty sorts of metal, rock, and alternative. Do you have any gay friends? Yeah. Where is your favorite place to go? The zoo, even though I have mixed feelings about them... Do you know your dad? Yeah. How often do you get on Facebook? At least once a day. Are you related to anyone who’s in prison? Don't think so?? What concerts are you attending in the near future? Y'ALL I MIGHT FUCKING SEE OZZY IN JANUARY. He and Megadeth are coming to Charlotte and the tickets aren't too bad. :') It's a loooong drive but Mom was like "hell yeah" when I told her and wants to buy tickets after she gets her tax return AH. Metallica is a possibility too, but Mom doesn't think she can afford it. If you were kicked out of your house, where would you go first? Dad's. What are you currently looking forward to? Sara's b-day, Christmas, hopefully getting my laptop fixed, aforementioned concerts, and school. What was the reason you got grounded for last? Idk, that was a long time ago. But most likely for "talking back" to Mom. The last two people you kissed, are they virgins? Yes; probably not. Is there a guy that knows everything or mostly everything about you? Yeah. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? A bit to the left. If you could have anything delivered to your doorstep each morning, what would it be? Um,,, money?????? What is one vacation destination that many people think is just fabulous but which you personally have no desire to visit (or revisit)? New York City. Heard from my sister it's a shithole with the craziest and rudest people known to Planet Earth. I'm not big on cities, anyway. Which animated character is your all-time favorite? Uhhhhhh... Dory, maybe? If you could own a home on the shore of any body of water in the world, which waterfront would you choose? I WANT THE PINK BEACHES OF THE BAHAMAS. But I'm scared of the Bermuda Triangle so will probably never see them. :'''''') What serves as the greatest motivation for you in your daily life? MY RECOVERY. If I got through what I have, I can't ever give up and roll back down that hill. I'm focusing to always improve. If you could have any round object in the world, what spherical item would you want? t h e  g a m e s p h e r e ,  l a d s If you were left alone for one hour with nothing more than a pen and a notepad, what would you be inclined to draw or write during those 60 minutes? Practice eyes or start a poem. If you could witness anything at all in super-slow motion, what would you want to see? Hmmm... OH, maybe a big cat's tongue licking meat. See how it actually shears tiny bits off. Cats' tongues are cool. What do you forget to do more often than anything else? Take my anxiety med at the right time. If you could teach everyone in the world one skill, what would it be? Compassion. You’ve been offered the chance to paint a billboard along a highway with any message you choose, as long as it’s only 10 words long. What is your message? Oh jeez, I'd have to think too hard on this. Who’s the last guy to give you roses? Tyler. Did your parents do drugs when they were younger? Not to my knowledge, and I doubt they would've. Do you have any relatives who live on a different continent than you? I don't believe so. What are your religious beliefs? Were you raised with those beliefs, or did you develop them on your own? I'm a theist, entailing I believe in a creator, but I know nothing about him/her/it. I personally picture them as a peaceful and sage deity that allows life to go on without it intervening anywhere, letting the world evolve on its own and see how we adapt to our unique settings and handle life. In the end, I believe we are either given some form of paradise or a type of damnation depending on how you wrote your story. I like to imagine the good go to their personal vision of "Heaven," and I wonder if the paranormal activity some experience in life are the acts of the damned, apparently confined to remain on Earth or something. Anyway, I wasn't raised with such beliefs; they were developed. I was brought up Catholic, then I turned to just simple Christianity as I didn't agree with a lot of Catholic ideas, and most recently I abruptly turned away from that in favor of theism. How did you and your significant other celebrate your last anniversary? We went out for breakfast. What has been your favorite house/apartment/etc you’ve ever lived in? My last house for location, as a house itself, my childhood one. What’s something in your house that currently needs to be cleaned? I need to vacuum my room. Do you still remember any of the dreams or nightmares you had as a child? Yup. What’s the most bizarre conspiracy theory you’ve ever heard of? The world is donut-shaped. Yeah. Do you have a good sense of direction? Not. At. All. Who was your first crush? Did you ever actually date them? Dylan, and no. What’s the weirdest, rudest, or most ridiculous thing a guest has ever done in your home? Who knows. Has anyone ever told you you’re manipulative? I don't think so. Do you know anyone who owns their own business? No. When was the last time you weren’t 100% sober? Uhhh maybe that movie night with Colleen and Chelsea. Is obtaining a college degree something that is important to you? Well, for my possible career future. Have you ever eaten at a vegan restaurant? No. Do you view substance abuse as a disease or a choice? I have... mixed feelings here. Starting something, that is indisputably a choice. Becoming addicted though, I'm not sure. Some people have addictive personalities so have a bigger inclination to become addicted, but isn't that just a personal trait/weakness you can fight?? I dunno. I know it's labelled as a disease by people way more informed than me though, so. What does the last text you sent say? Don't feel like checking. Does it bother you when people call you ‘ma'am’ or ‘sir?’ No. I live in the South, that's polite. Have you ever been obsessed with a television character? Does Dory count for movies? ha ha Do you ever wish you had powers of invisibility? Not really. What was the last thing that changed your life completely? Recovery. Do you have any step siblings? One. Have you ever been questioned by the police? No. In which state/country were you born? NC, U.S.A. Have you ever been to an amusement park out of state? Disney World. What do you normally drink when eating at a fast food restaurant? Coke or Mountain Dew. Have the police ever been looking for you? Not because I did something wrong; I've told the beach story a few times. If you chew gum, which kind is your favorite? I love the watermelon Hubba Bubba one asjfawoeu Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? Yeah. What was the last liquid that you choked on? Water, just this morning when I was taking my meds ah. How many times did you wake up today before actually getting up? Well, I woke up once in the middle of the night like usual, then I woke up at like, 6-something and went back to sleep. Who did you celebrate your last birthday with? Mom, sises, Ash's husband and kids, and Dad stopped by. Was your last kiss initiated by you or the other person? I think it was kinda a simultaneous thing. We were saying bye. Do you buy a ton of things at the store at once or just for that day? Mom does the shopping, but it depends on how much time she has and what's at the house. When getting dressed do you put your pants or shirt on first? Pants. When you kiss a person where do your hands usually go? I actually don't know if it's a consistent thing for me??? I don't kiss anyone regularly so I don't recognize a pattern. What is one song you listen to that you’re sure not many people do? "False Flags," probs. Massive Attack is so neglected of the attention they deserve. Do you use a handrail on stairs if there is one? Yes, I'm scared of tripping. What was the last thing you saw that made you smile? Teddy came right up into my face wanting attention. What is your favorite drinking game? Never played any. Do you have any tattoos that you don’t like anymore? I think I've mentioned why I don't love my "ohana" one now. I'm getting it covered at some point. My "perfectly flawed" one is probably getting covered by a much bigger piece; I picked a bad location for it to want a sleeve. I'd just maybe redesign it, put if somewhere else. Do you have a shower curtain or door? Curtain. Who was the last person from your high school graduating class you saw? Probs Colleen? Who was the last non-relative you hung out with? Sara. Are you listening to anything right now? I'm way too obsessed with "Black Wedding" by In This Moment (feat. Rob Halford). Rob makes it, and the chorus is awesome. How many keys are on your keychain? One. Who was the last person you took a photograph with? Ryder, my nephew. Are you left handed? No. What were you most scared of when you were little? Losing my mom/being separated from her. Are you biracial? No. When was the last time you painted your nails? What color(s)? I couldn't even guess. Has a stranger ever offered to buy you a drink? Thank fuck no. Have you ever overflown a bathtub? Don't think so. What’s at the top of your to-do list in life? Stay positive, never stop aiming to improve. What was the last thing you shared? Well, Thanksgiving food. Where are you most ticklish? Feet. Do not- Which cartoon character do you want to keep as a pet? Uhhhh how 'bout an Espeon. I imagine them to be calm and silently affectionate like cats and very intelligent. Have you ever considered a career in music/acting? No. When was the last time you felt seriously embarrassed? Getting food yesterday. Per usual, let things die down, but I still ended up crammed in a corner, unable to go in any direction while someone was trying to get past me. I was headed for an anxiety attack and felt like a total nuisance. I'm pretty sure it showed in how I was whipping my head around, shuffling in various directions, clearly wanting the fuck out. Have you ever liked a song, looked up the lyrics to it, then hated it? No, lyrics can't ruin a song I like the sound of. What would be the icing on the cake for you this Christmas? A PS4, omg. I have to get my laptop fixed and a new camera, so I highly doubt I'm getting that or a tablet considering cost. I want to play the Spyro Reignited trilogy beyond words, like I refuse to even watch a let's play because I want to experience it all first-hand, but. Yeah, unlikely anytime soon. If you had the opportunity to live forever, would you take it? Noooooo. Do you like quesadillas? Only chicken and/or cheese ones. Did you like the show Invader Zim? I surprisingly never saw it. What’s the greatest/most influential song you’ve ever heard? "Life Won't Wait" by Ozzy always makes me wanna get off my ass and do something. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever seen in a grocery store? A HUGE BOX OF ANIMAL HEADS IN THE MIDDLE OF WAL-MART, BECKONING THE FURRIES INTO ITS DEPTHS. Have you ever bought yourself a present on Christmas? No. Well, I've used money I've been given on Christmas, if that counts. Have you ever been on a mechanical bull? No. Do you need a key card to get into the building you live in? No. Have you ever stepped in chewing gum? Yes. Name all the people you know that you’ve seen today. Just Mom.

[wonhseoks-moved]

i was tagged by @sunbeamhope​  @vanilla-bbh and @pcycuddles​ thank you ! 💕

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

last

1. drink – iced americano

2. phone call – my friend 

3. text message – my friend asking me about plane tickets

4. song you listened to – if only by monsta x 

5. time you cried – two months ago 

ever

6. dated someone twice? - yeah...worst decision ive ever made 

7. kissed someone and regretted it – lmao yeah

8. been cheated on – no

9. lost someone special – yeah

10. been depressed – when am i not tbh 

11. gotten drunk and thrown up – gotten drunk but never thrown up

fave colours

12. colors of the sunset 

13. black

14. blue

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends – yes

16. fallen out of love – no

17. laughed until you cried – yes

18. found out someone was talking about you – yEaH

19. met someone who changed you -nope 

20. found out who your friends are - yEaH

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list – only one

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl – all of them 

23. do you have any pets – YES and i’ll never shut up about them,,ive got three dogs and a guinea pig ,,,theyre the loves of my life and i love showing them off aoiefjaoifj

24. do you want to change your name – nope

25. what did you do for your last birthday – i went out for lunch with my friends, dinner with my family, and received tickets to see mx

26. what time did you wake up today – 6:30am 

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - facetiming my friend for her birthday 

28. what is something you can’t wait for – going on my japan trip 

30. what are you listening to right now – a medications lecture 

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom- hey thats my pharmacist

32. something that gets on your nerves – uhh the list is really long but i’ll just say racists :-) 

33. most visited website – this stupid site 

34. hair color – my natural color is a medium brownish shade but i dye it jet black every 3 months or so 

35. long or short hair – long only bc i was always forced to have it short during high school for sports and got sick of it 

36. do you have a crush on someone – nope 

37. what do you like about yourself – my hair 

38. want any piercings? – nah ive got enough 

39. blood type – b+ 

40. nicknames – tenten, kay, kaykay, lin

41. relationship status – single-ish

42. zodiac -gemini sun, aries moon 

43. pronouns - she/her

44. fave tv shows – impractical jokers + anything from hgtv or food network alfaijvaji

45. tattoos – ironic that i really want one but have no idea what id get 

46. right or left handed - left

47. ever had surgery - yeahhh

48. piercings – a bunch on my ears,,,industrial, conch, helix , n two lobes

49. sport – did a bit of soccer when i was young, but did judo n wrestling during hs

50. vacation – i just wanna travel tbh 

51. trainers – i had no idea what this meant for a bit bc i just call them shoes , but uhh anything nike i guess 

more general

52. eating – sPICY AHI BOWLS 

53. drinking – water n wine

54. i’m about to watch – the ending of this stupid lecture 

55. waiting for – exo 

56. want – to graduate 

57. get married - uhhh...

58. career – nursing 

which is better

59. hugs or kisses – hugs

60. lips or eyes - eyes

61. shorter or taller - taller

62. older or younger - older,,,i’d rather say mature though bc some older ppl are still dumbasses 

63. nice arms or stomach – stomach 

64. hookup or relationship – ......

65. troublemaker or hesitant – troublemaker 

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger – no

67. drank hard liquor – yah

68. lost glasses – no

69. turned someone down – yeah

70. sex on first date – nope 

71. broken someone’s heart – yeahh

72. had your heart broken – no

73. been arrested - nope

74. cried when someone died - yes

75. fallen for a friend - no

do you believe in

76. yourself – yes

77. miracles – not really 

78. love at first sight – nope

79. santa claus – no

80. kiss on a first date – depends who it is,,but most times no

81. angels – yes

other

82. best friend’s name – ive got 4 

83. eye color – brown 

84. fave movie – any ghibli movie 

85. fave actor – i havent watched anything in a while tbh so ill just say acting king do kyungsoo 

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