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my first attempt at digital art (never again🥲) for mctober💘
Eloise Babbit✨
slytherin
5th year
favorite subjects: arithmancy & ancient runes
least favorite subject: beasts (animals make her nervous🥲)
hobbies: reading & thinking (IT’S A HOBBY OKAY??)
#if u read my fic maybe u know why animals make her nervous🥲#also…if you are the angel who left me an essay comment on my last chapter today just know I love you🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹#when I started posting my fic in January I NEVER EXPECTED PEOPLE TO READ IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!😳 but it makes me so happy#that so many people do🥹🫶 I know it’s a crazy story and doesn’t follow the game at all#so to hear these things and to catch all of the little foreshadowing things I’ve been hinting at this whole time?????????#😳💘#anyways I’m still a digital art disliker (I like seeing it but not making it)#but I wanted to try it out and this is my art documentation blog🫶#im going to be WAY less active these days as well#SO IF I MISS THINGS (WHICH I WILL) PLEASE KNOW I AM SAD I MISSED THEM😔😔😔😔#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise babbit#mctober2024#also with mctober I will post drawinfs but nothing elaborate like the amazing ones I’ve already seen#hope you like these anyways🙏💓
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anyway in uhh other news i caught up with the link click manhua!! and i think i need more people to be aware that lu guang wipes away cheng xiaoshi's goddamn tears while telling him "don't worry babe i will put things right for you" (paraphrasing)
i'm genuinely ill
#link click#shiguang#lu guang#cheng xiaoshi#link click manhua#im astounded at how gay it is hoping they will keep those good vibes going#im generally really enjoying the s1-esque tone of it being episodic dives and a little more laid back/emotional#nowhere near as intense as s2 so far which is good cos im easily stressed 😭🥲#but guys. guys. lu guang never beating the endlessly devoted to cxs allegations
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some louis tomlinsons i never posted ^_^
#louis tomlinson#louisupdates#louisprojectstracks#lfltracks#mindofwalls#tracksintheam#usertomlinsonsource#dailytomlinson#im not Getting his likeness it's making me so insane#does it look like him?!!?!? no but if i caption it louis Then u will know#anyw these r sketches that still look kinda presentable to me#souwee if these look unfinished unpolished it's bc they are shdjdjd#vans louis & chemical formula louis were way back in 2021 (when i first became a fan)#afhf one some time in 2022#all the others were drawn in feb 2023 except the aotv one which was march 2023#aotv being. the one where he's in a suit yup#i wanna practice drawing him some more. ive been practicing when i have time (not a lot) since 2021 basically. he's become my muse kinda !#i need to work on my realism🥲 it's the effect of never ever stanning a real person... so all ive drawn my whole life is anime&cartoons LOL#i have to draw him everyday i wanna like. devote all my free time into getting my fanart of him to look Right#you look like youd be easy to draw BITCH. if that's an insult then saying louis is hard to draw must be high praise!!!!!#ignore the fact that it may be just a skill issue on my end#if you read this far... erm... thanks! rbs are super appreciated thank you! ❤️#my louis#liz.art
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My Personal Headcanon On Why Amy's Love For Sonic Died Down Lately (and their dynamic)
When they were younger, Amy's love for Sonic was pretty extreme, and Sonic was, understandable, uncomfortable for the most part. He knows she means well, but that girl needs to calm down.
She can fight, but sometimes her hammer could only stun her enemies for a while. (It took her a long time to get rid of that robot that has been chasing her around Station Square.) She wasn't fully independent yet, even if she fought on her own a couple of times.
She often follows Sonic and his friends around. She is part of the team, but she was not a strong as she is now at the time yet.
She admires Sonic. A LOT. And Sonic knows that. Obviously, he could only run away from something like that, since he is NOT ready for that kind of thing, and whether Amy takes the hint or stop, she still loves him.
...BUT, I think things were slightly starting to change between her and Sonic after Lost World.
Remember this line?
You remember that? Okay, okay. Here's another totally unrelated question:
Before the events of Lost World, when was the last time Amy said "I love you" to Sonic out loud?
...YEP. 😈 (Unless I'm missing something, let me know lmao)
As more games and adventures come out, the characters get slightly older, and Amy is 12 to 13 now, and she is most certainly at that age where her body starts to change, but especially on how she views Sonic.
She knows she loves Sonic, but it was this moment during her change where she actually wanted to admit that she loves him.
I believe that Amy was all about sharing her affection to him not through confessions, but through obvious hints. Sonic totally got it, and there was no need to confess. Sonic knows she loves her.
...But she never said it. And she almost did, but she never did again for a while.
I think this was the moment in her life where, oh, God, she actually loves Sonic. SHE LOVES HIM, WHAT.
And she was looking back at all the times she had with Sonic that she can now see were unpleasant to Sonic (At least that's what she thinks) and that's probably why she isn't so expressive about her love to him than how she used to back then.
She wasn't sure what to do with this realization, and sets aside it for a while, and nearly stayed as her casual, peppy self... until the Eggman War happened.
During the 6 months of being with the Resistance, fighting Eggman's army all day and all night, all she can think of was Sonic.
She dreams that he still with not just her, but with her friends. She just wanted to see Sonic again, she just wants to be with her hero again.
But I'd like to think that she was also thinking about how she used to treat Sonic back when they were younger, how Sonic would almost always run away from her whenever she asks him out, or always look so uncomfortable whenever she gets so close to him.
Cringing at those memories big time, she wanted to change and hopefully when Sonic is okay and comes back, she can be better for him.
...Or will he still find her uncomfortable regardless? Would he even be happy to see her at all if he did survive?
But, hold on! She can't just give up her love for Sonic! He made her who she is today! A peppy, nature-loving, hammer-swinging, confident, brave... loud-mouth... annoying... Sonic obsessed... weak... pathetic... lonely little girl.
If she gives up on Sonic, it'll be like she gave up on the one hedgehog who saved her life. If she didn't she'll still be the same ol' Amy.
I also like to think she had parents a long while before she met Sonic, and was even expecting a little sister, but a robot invasion happened from where she was and attacked her parents and instead of trying to save them, after getting hurt, she ran away, hoping that they'll come back okay. But they never did.
She was all alone, and needed someone, a friend, a new family, someone who will hold her hand, anyone, to be there for her. But she was ignored by lots, and at that point, she's better off by herself, but still longed for company.
Eventually though, her tarot cards told her her future hero, and there might be hope after all. She encountered Sonic, held onto the belief of the cards tight, and the rest is history.
So, with that headcanon in mind, not only did Amy loose her parents that she didn't save because of her cowardliness (she was only so little at the time that happened) and also Sonic, who she thought will be her only hope, but now gone.
She doesn't even care if he did come back, he'd probably hate her now after everything she did to him, always talking about their "future wedding" or forcing him to go to Twinkle Park.
For the last few months of the war, it was nothing but Amy mentally beating herself up for either refusing to change or moving on, and they are both not fine choices.
She loves Sonic, but he does not love her, and she finally, finally realized it. And it's probably for the best if no body loved her at all.
But of course Sonic did survive and all of her worries wash away in an instant, she's just not expressive about her love for Sonic AT ALL now, since she's still worried about it but rather not mention it to Sonic because it doesn't matter.
If Sonic doesn't love her, then her feelings don't matter to him, and according to Amy herself, that is okay.
But also, I'd like to think that Sonic was thinking about his friends a lot up in the Death Egg for the past months, sometimes it's Tails (worried for his safety), sometimes it's Shadow (because he's wondering why he would join Eggman.) At some point, for a few days, Amy was in his mind the longest, and he felt bad about how he thought he was rude and pushy to her.
He wondered if she's not thinking about it too much, and if she is, will she give up on him? Yeah, he doesn't feel the same and still not looking for a relationship, but it's so strange but interesting how anyone could ever like someone like Sonic the Hedgehog. Amy was never afraid to show that, and she probably might be now.
He couldn't help but feel guilty. They were kids when she was like this, but he was so... arrogant at the time too. Not a lot happened at the time yet. He'd always have trouble expressing how much he value his friends, until he shattered the Paradox Prism. (I'd like to think Prime took place before Forces. It makes sense.)
She is such a sweet girl, and he probably made her believe that he didn't care for her. Just because he doesn't feel the same, that doesn't mean he hates her at all.
He wished he never ran away from Amy... Worrying for his little bro and wishing to be a good person for Amy was when Sonic cried in the Death Egg for the first and only time.
Frontiers, in my opinion, is kind of confirming their dynamic now. Sonic is a lot more sincere and kinder to Amy and she is not all hyperactive and lovey to Sonic. There is probably a real reason for this now.
They are both hiding their feelings from them, and they are both unaware of this. Amy, hiding her mental issues from Sonic, and Sonic, hiding his guilt away from Amy.
None of those things are important now. Sonic is with Amy and Amy is with Sonic. They are here with each other. They can be finally be better for each other now.
They don't care if they'll ever be something more when they get older. None of that matters anymore. They are here with each other. They can be finally be better for each other now.
Maybe someday they'll both talk about it, but for now, the present is important. They care about each other too much to think about it right now.
It's the kind of love that is unbreakable. It doesn't even have to be romantic. It's just love. Love is important for everyone, in any form. It's something Sonic and his friends need. And especially Sonic and Amy.
Amy Rose is the living embodiment of love, and without her, a lot would go downhill for Sonic and co. Heck, if it weren't for her, Shadow wouldn't have never remembered Maria's promise, which lead him to save the world with Sonic, before he temporarily disappeared from their lives for a while.
She is always there to lend a helping hand for anybody, even bad guys like Metal Sonic, and despite what she had been through, both in Forces and headcanon wise, she still fights back, even without her hammer.
She will pick you back up on your feet, reminding you that you are important and that you are loved, and that you should never give up. It's pretty much the words of encouragement she herself needed also...
She is still the happy, hyper, butt-kicking hedgehog we all know and love, but she still need someone to pick her back up on her feet after so long. Thankfully, she has her friends and her blue hero. The hero who made her who she is today.
I think Amy has no idea how important she thought she is, but Sonic does. Sonic knows fully well how important she is to a lot of people. It's about time he returns the favor to her. It's his turn to remind her how much a lot of people love her.
How much he loves her.
And I feel like The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog was the moment where their dynamic really shined, but also the starting point of their relationship not only healing, but also the next chapter of what's to come for them.
Everyone, friends old and new, gathered around for a special birthday. A birthday for the confident, unshakable, and radiant Amy Rose.
It was such a special moment in Amy's life. After years of chasing and following the people she look up to, she is part of the team, but most importantly, she is part of the family.
She is fully realized as someone more than just a fangirl, but someone strong, courageous, creative, kind and a big inspiration for others.
I feel like this moment here...
-is where Amy is eternally grateful to call her friends her family. A family she thought she'll never have again. She's not alone anymore, and as long as they're by her side, she'll never will be again.
Her chasing days are over. She's finally caught up to them. She's finally home.
And it's all thanks to Sonic.
If it weren't for him, she'd probably be alone forever. Her past moments with Sonic might be embarrassing to look back on for a while, but they are good memories regardless, because they involve him.
Sonic saved her life in more ways than one, and despite everything, he's grateful to have her too.
He cares about her. He really does... And in her eyes, that all she needed to know. As long as Sonic loves her in his own way, she'll be happy.
Amy hasn't given up on Sonic. As long as Amy always supports him, he'll be happy.
Maybe sometime in the future, they can talk about their problems, but that's a story for another time. At this point, they need to. Right now, they are happy. They are okay.
They are here for each other. They are finally better for each other now.
"You guys won't ever leave me, right?"
"Wouldn't dream of it."
#piko rambles#sonic the hedgehog#amy rose#Meant to be platonic but I don't care if you tag as ship lol#I've been meaning to post something like this for the longest time now but never really got into posting it-#-because you guys REALLY hate seeing these two together for some reason.#Well not for SOME reason. There are valid reasons why you don't ship them. Everyone has valid reason why they don't ship this or that.#But sometimes those reasons can just sound so petty to me. Like the reason why is because Amy is a stalker or Sonic hates her which is FALS#Also those age gap arguments are understandable but so goddamn annoying sometimes. Maybe when they hit their late teens or early twenties-#then they can be together if they want to. Besides a good percentage of Sonic ships are better off if they waited til they're old enough im#I love them regardless of whether they're just friends or an awkward older cringe fail couple lmao#But them being just friends and hiding away all their emotions towards each other just to keep them safe and happy with them- 😭😭😭#Son/adow is my favorite ship of all time and sonamy is my favorite childhood ship/platonic ship because they both have one thing in common.#ANGST 😀#I've been thinking about Sonic and Amy's dynamic as of late and MAN-#Mixed with some personal headcanons of mine and their dynamic as of late just makes me so emotional.#Sonic and Amy have gotten so close now and it's so sweet but so heartbreaking at the same time when you think about it.#I'm so happy they are getting along better and being there for each other but there is so much to dissect here. So much to think about.#I might be a little silly but Amy losing her parents and being alone for so long and being the reason why she's always hanging onto Sonic-#-explains SOOOOOOOOO much about her. At least that's my headcanon for WHY that is.#Amy with abandonment issues speaks to me on a personal level. I'm always afraid of being forgotten or left behind by my family.#I sometimes feel like I'm not good enough no matter how hard I try. I do not blame Amy. I relate to her a lot. It's one of the many reasons#-why Amy is my favorite character besides Sonic and Shadow.#She fights hard to prove she's a valuable member of the team and hates getting left behind but despite all that she wasn't afraid to-#-express herself and her love for people. But after the Eggman War there was some changes that made her less expressive about her love.#Yeah she still loves Sonic but she doesn't admit it because none of that matters anymore and she thought that not being loved by Sonic#-is better than being loved since she nearly wasted her life loving someone who she thought has constantly bothered. 🥲#But I think after TMoStH I think she'll be less afraid of being expressive about it. She and Sonic are just so caring for each other 😭#I love these two way too much that when I think about them for too long I'll start SOBBING 😭😭 I'M EVEN SOBBING RIGHT NOW LMAO
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Don't you just take the past and put it in a room in the basement and lock the door and never go in there? [...] And then you meet someone special and all you want to do is toss them the key. Say, "Open up. Step inside." But you can't. Because it's dark and there are demons, and if anybody saw how ugly it is...
-The Talented Mr. Ripley (1999)
#black sails#the talented mr. ripley#idk if this is anything but i just watched the talented mr. ripley and i was struck by how much tom ripley reminded me of silver#(obviously the talented mr. ripley came out first but i watched black sails first)#in the sense that you spend all this time watching this character#and then you get to the end and it's like. i'm not sure i know who this person is#and even though ripley *says* that he wants to show someone his past it's never going to happen#they will both always fundamentally be unknowable#also you do not want to know how long i spent scrubbing through the last couple of episodes of black sails for a screenshot to go with this#and the one i ended up with isn't even that good 🥲#truly i suffer for my art (by which i mean weird tumblr posts)#kvetch oc
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🫖🐭☁️🍚
#so i did meet my old friend from years ago yesterday. i was sooooo nervous omgggg. and i was waiting outside the café we agreed on#and then saw them walk in and i was like omgggg. the anxiety... but then i gathered courage and walked towards it and thry saw me thru the#window and came out and immediately hugged me. then they were like 'omg i've been so nervous. even more than before like a date!!'#so that made me relax a bit. i feel like i dont really fully estimate what i mean to them. maybe they care about me as well haha !!#then we just got our stuff and i chose a smoothie and was ready to pay but they just got it with their stuff (they work at this chain so#they got a discount). i feel so so bad & anxious when someone else pays for me. like i feel like a burden#but i asked twice if i should send them money for it and they were like no that's fine. so i had to tell myself to just shut up abt it 🥲#bc if u keep asking u make it into a thing and make them uncomfortable etc. so i really appreciated that and it was nice even if i felt bad#but yeah then we just sat down and talked. and it was so much easier to talk to them than i had been worried abt#like it flew nicely and yeah.. i feel like i forgot a lot abt them. like they're good at conversating. so they kept it going & even if i was#awkward it was fine for them. i did however get swept up in my own anxiety so as they asked me questions i answered#but then was too whirlwindy so i didnt really ask as much back and there were things i wanted to ask but didnt :')))#then they had cards and a card game with them. so we played for a bit too. and it was a lot of fun!!! (i was anxious and kinda slow lmao#bc when i dont know smth or the rules etc already my brain stops working so yeah.. even if it was simple games i was like um um what do i do#felt stupid but yeah again they didnt do anyhing to contribute to me feeling stupid but i still felt slow >.<#but i still thought that was so much fun. i wanna do more of that T-T like yeah...that was nice#then we took a lil longer walk to a bus stop before hastily said goodbye bc the busses came T-T#it was really really really nice tho. i have missed them a lot#and i didnt .. think we would ever see eachother again. i really didnt think this could happen#im so glad i somehow got brave enough to message them and im so so glad they wanted to see me too#i cant help but wish i could go back to when we were younger#and we spent every day in school together and messaged during the days and evenings and spent sm time together#when we went into the city like several times a week and took long walks. ahh... well. im glad we got to have those moments#& idk what will happen now. i really really want to see them again. even if we'll never be that close friends again i'd *wish* that we could#still be in touch. but im so bad at replying which doesnt go over great with them.. i'll try my best to reply quicker to them#*if* they message me. sadly i cant erase my avpd but i'll try my best to reply faster if and when they message)#they also complimented my sweater i was wearing (which is my fav sweater) !!!! and yeah.. they looked so cool. which they always have#and i kept thinking abt how nice their eye makeup was (i was too shy to compliment it tho bc im really bad at like 'nice' affectionate and#anything feeling related. like im so bad... so i couldnt say anything </3)#ugh it was just so nice to sit and talk with them. im so glad i went despite my fears. bc this was so good and nice :')))
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Hello Kelin, darling! How would Dabi react to a night owl s/o? Someone with some serious insomnia issues who tends be very restless at night? Asking for a friend.
did I do this right? As an ancient being, this concept of ask games confuses me
dabi x fem!reader
he doesn’t show it, but he’s actually very worried about it. because look, he doesn’t exactly go to sleep that earlier either, but as soon as his head hits the cushion it takes him very little to fall asleep, with you by his side that effect is even more immediate.
but there’s a huge difference with him staying awake until late because he wants, to you staying awake sometimes even until 5am because even if you try to fall asleep you just can’t.
which is exactly why he’s very worried about then seeing you restless, let out big sighs and yawn during the day from how bad you sleep at night.
in his own way, he starts to take more care about you, hoping he doesn’t bothers you with his actions.
he prepares you hot milk or chamomile before you two head to sleep and once in bed he decided to do things differently from usual, so he picks you up from your spot placing you between his legs with your head resting on his broad chest, confusing you totally with this move, he rest gently his hand under your jaw telling you to relax it while rubbing his thumb on it with slow movements.
he then hugs your waist, not too tight, and starts whispering into your ear to relax the muscles of your neck while caressing it tenderly, then your back and so on, until you literally don’t feel tensed up anymore, his closeness, rhythmic heartbeat, soft touch and way of talking to you with such a warm voice helped a lot in relaxing all your muscles.
dabi then finally rested his hand on top of your head starting to caress it slowly and delicately, with so much care that it moved you, while humming lowly a song that you failed to recognise because your sense started to become dull and eyes to become heavy until they didn’t close completely.
he peeked down, careful not to wake you up, before resting his cheek on your head softly and closing his eyes: “sweet dreams love, hope to help you more from now on...”
#kelin responds#answered#shade 🌌#how would—?#bnha fluff#mha fluff#dabi fluff#touya todoroki fluff#bnha x reader#mha x reader#dabi x reader#touya todoroki x reader#bnha x reader fluff#mha x reader fluff#dabi x reader fluff#touya todoroki x reader fluff#aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hope this isn't ooc guysssss#but i for real think that dabi would really do anything so his precious darling never suffers or goes through hard times#he would never want for his s/o's feelings pain and hard time go unnoticed like his were...#which is exactly why he would do anything to prevent that from happening imo 🥲#hope you like this shade 💕
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Like I genuinely feel like a lot of fans of like late 70s/early 80s new wave and post-punk especially the 'weirder' and more artsy and high concept stuff would love early they might be giants Like can you not get enough of elements of the avant-garde in pop music do you love when music is sarcastic and irreverent and witty and surreal and absurd and DARK do you like when music sounds a bit scary and challenges and unsettles you do you like when its been made with DIY production on the cheapest crunchiest instruments and is performed in gritty underground clubs and presented to audiences in novel ways do you like when artists seek to play with and redefine the relationship between artist and audience or do you also just like when frontmen get down autistic silly and sensitive style and freak everyone out with the way they incorporate performance art into their live shows like just. please contact me so we can listen to the 1983 demo tape while holding hands and I tell you all about it and then I play you a bunch of hissy staticy recordings that were ripped off of an answering machine 40 years ago and you will be changed
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i just want to write something soft and fluffy but have -24601 braincells right now 😭
#rip to the fics i will never write or finish#jk lmao#i will because i have to but afkljsdfkls in this very moment i just feel a lil' incapable and uninspired 🥲#which sucks because it's an outlet that always makes me feel better and i could use those vibes rn
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almost done... 🙏
#before yvverse i was never the kind of person to write 4-6k word chapters#i have been writing this chapter since february 6th#it was agonizingly difficult... line by line crises type of difficult D:#i still have no clue how people like write thousands of words in a day and then hit post 🥲 i have spent so long on this. i think i spent#an hour this morning writing one paragraph#but now that the finish line is in sight i just feel so ready to post it (even though it is not done. and needs at least 500 more words#on top of editing)#anyways. apologies for yapping 🙇♀️#in terms of difficulty... i feel like writing this series has been eye opening to me as to what i find difficult to write? which is#interesting. fool me twice pt5 was also hard for me in the sense that i rewrote it no fewer than 5 times... and this installment was hard#in a different way. T_T i want to claim victory! but not yet! i haven't earned it#anyways... please expect the next chapter at some point over the next week (and if it's not there i have likely fallen into another crisis)
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Have you ever considered creating a Mareach fankid?
I remember I vaguely entertained the concept once for a hypothetical flashforward post (I had sketched a few different versions centered around one or two possible avenues then), but I've never given it that much thought to be honest with you!
As fun as it is to envision a family-type scenario for these characters, my preference was always to focus on their relationship in the present and to explore Mario's natural qualities as a potential father figure towards children in general as opposed to one of his own specifically. :3
The only OC I've indulged in more than once for this universe was a small green colored toadie whose purpose was to showcase exactly that! 🤭💚
#There was a sequence I've never shared which focused on these two as well#It was one where the child gets hurt and Mario consoles him 🥲❤️🩹#I always had the biggest soft spot for scenarios that demonstrate his innate sense of gentleness and compassion#I could have gone on and on with that kind of stuff! 😄✨#I like those better than imagining Mario with a son or daughter actually#But that's just my personal opinion 😌#Mario#Fanart and fanwork#Child AU#Asks#Thoughts and ramblings
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they need to invent a medication that works on the first try and has no side effects whatsoever
#my anti migraine pills were making me so anxious I couldn’t sleep or eat 🥲#cuz like I’ve been rlly anxious before but I’ve never been unable to sleep and eat properly for a week anxious before#and nothing even fucking happened to trigger it cuz all I did was google grad school acceptance rates#which ough scary but also that shouldn’t have made me spiral like that u know#fuck my stupid baka life#sam’s ramblings#venting
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MY TOWN PASSED A CEASEFIRE RESOLUTION YESTERDAY
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#.......after passing a pro zionist resolution last year#which was overturned after intense backlash#MY TOWN DID SOMETHING GOOD FOR ONCE#and it's especially shocking because my town is hardcore republican#so you’d think everyone here would be all in for 🇮🇱#i never thought they would do anything good#🥲🥲🥲👏🇵🇸
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you can always tell the people who give social media advice who are naturally or conventionally attractive even without even having to look at a photo of them cause they're always the ones that recommend showing your face in reels or videos to promote your art and it's like,,, talk about pretty/skinny privilege lol
#it's one of those days folks#brb going on an extreme diet (jk but not really)#okay but really. all jokes aside Even if I WAS thin or lost a bunch of weight...#I'm still just fundamentally unattractive enough that I think i would lose insta followers if I showed my face in reels or posts 🥲#idk I know it's better for the algorithm but eh. i don't want to subject my subscribers to having to look at me lol#and I would wear makeup but I'm so bad at putting it on that I look worse with it on 😭😂#If i was good at make up i legit wouldn't leave the house without it#that said. i do have decent skin health �� I get like. less than 1 pimple a year IF that. So that's something to be grateful for i suppose#but if a genie offered me a chance to be pretty for ONE day but in exchange I had to give up ALL my talents. interests. personality. etc#and i could never get those aspects of myself back for the rest of my life...#I would 100% take up that opportunity LOL 👍#anyway feel free to ignore me I'm not looking for compliments (I don't think anyone on here even knows what i look like?)#(which is by design lol and trust me. be grateful you don't have to look at my face haha)#I'm just venting into the void bc a mutual on insta did a reel where she showed her face and I was like#*shocked pikachu face* oh she's pretty#oh. oh so THAT's why i never should show my face. I'm pretty toad-like in comparison 😂
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I would honestly rather these people just say “you’re rejected” & leave it at that than explain why if the criticism is going to make no fucking sense & be something I can’t even fix anyway. but that might just be the part of me that absolutely cannot handle rejection well at all & decided to pursue a goal that involves a lot of rejection by nature anyway
#I told myself I wasn’t gonna get upset today#yesterday was my day to be upset today I made a color coded spreadsheet#but I’m getting upset anyway#which. I honestly knew was going to happen#don’t ever decided WRITING is your passion folks you’ll regret everything & tear your hair out if you decide to try & make it 🥲#anyway HOW is an opening scene with a MURDER taking place too exposition heavy & telling rather than showing???? 😭#I’m not saying I’ve never been guilty of exposition heavy stuff or telling not showing I’m sure I have#but with this book???? shut uppppppp oh my god what does that even mean 🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️#I should just quit I should just abandon ship this is making me absolutely miserable & hate the hobby I used to love I’m so over it
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SORRY BUT THEY WON THIS CHALLENGE EVERYBODY ELSE CAN GO HOME
#well okay them and forcebook im not gonna slander the og nick and judy personified like that#BUT WHEN I TELL YOU I LITERALLY HONEST TO GOD FR GIGGLED PUT LOUD SEEING THIS VIDEO#of course i would get fond of another actor pair accused of having no chemistry 🥲#and taiwan doesn't do branded pairing so they're never gonna work together again#which i think it's a damn pity in this case because they're both killer actors#but i also feel uncomfortable with the level of fanservice taiwan does so maybe it's better like this#sigh#charles tu#michael chang#m: txt
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