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#here i am to rant again!#so my home has some plumbing issues#so we got a plumber in today to sus it out#essentially told us that he cant do anything and our best bet is to literally renovate the entire bathroom :')#which is gonna cost anywhere from 20k-40k#which is like. not achievable for us rn#we're a 9 person household w not a lot of income#its just really unfortunate circumstances rn i wish i could just win the lottery or smth#or i go on tinder and find a bunch of cute tradies who'd be willing to do the work for us and as payment i can blow them or smth#im kidding but like. am i? cos id do it!#on top of the actual issues going on#my ex and i recently admitted that we still love each other#and now this mf has gone radio silent on me :')#'hey i still love u and i wrote this song for u all abt how im so upset that i lost u'#'but now im gonna basically ghost u'#oh! sick! thanks so much!#u fkn dickhead#GOOOOODDDDD this is so fucking frustrating#delete later
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redrew phos, per the ancient challenge
it bugs me that this is not a very creative redraw but also i'm inexperienced with colors + was feeling kinda lazy. it still came out nice i think, and i got to spend a healthier amount of time on it :D
#houseki no kuni#phosphophyllite#phos hnk#phosphophyllite hnk#land of the lustrous#hnk#not feeling like posting this to my main drawing blog rn. idk why! i'll just reblog it to there later#.txt#the truth also is that#in order to achieve maximum nice colors#i need to use my phone as a screen. into which i look while drawing#(i did my âstaring at a strangerâ omori drawing that way)#because the colors on my ancient cheap laptop are unfortunately ass#but as much as i like how neatly colored t he drawings come out when i do that#its a pain in the neck (literally)#(and eyes)#so yeah . yeah
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it was so stupidly difficult to find any nutritionist who has experience with arfid & takes insurance so after having to go through all these referrals my therapist sent me & jumping through hoops I lowkey hate the lady lmao feels like such a waste of time & energy
#its only our third time meeting but its so beyond fucking frustrating to feel like we spent the whole hour going in circles & lowkey arguing#& like she never actually listened to any of the things ive told her. like the ENTIRW REASON i told her i was seeking extra help after#dealing w arfid type noncense all my life was 'achieving goal x is always kind of tough but im trying to do it while also achieving goal y &#im struggling with finding a way to balance the two things' like thats IT & then as shes suggesting things to try im like idk of those are#worth the effort bcus they conflict w goal y & shes like. have you considered not worrying about that so you can focus on x?#like NO bcus thats what i was previoislt doing & it doesnt fucking work for me! & she was just not understanding what i meant by adding#variety or having 'better options' shes all like. ok but even if this new thing conflicts with goal y it can just be another option for you#like thats not the POINT i already have enough options i can switch between that conflict with that like the whole point is i need to fill#the gaps w things that are nutritionally different. like if im ok with something thatll use up a significant portion of ny daily values of#shit then i already have multiple options that i actively like well enough i dont wanna waste my time adding more that are things i think#are just ok but take more work. literally whats the point of that#& im like i think rather than me just thinking of random shit i think i could try itd be helpful if I could like get some guidance on like#what are some things that fall into somewhere into this category or this adjacent category while also not being this other thing & then i#cab like determine from there what i already like & can try & add more of & things from that list that sound like sth i can try#& shes like well idk theres a lot of foods out there. YEAH ABD ISNT IT YOUR FUCKING JOB TO KNOW ABOUT FOOD? like i gave fairly specific#parameters this isnt like a 'list every food on earth' type of question what am i even paying you for if you cant come up with a list#like that. & she jept getting hung up on like well lots of things that are the most calorically dense are gonna be like that like ok it#doesnt have to be the MOST dense maybe think about it like 'the densest things in this other category' which sounded straightforward to me#but she was just like continuing to argue & also like getting hung up on reminding me that everything is dependent on portions like#I FUCKING KNOW?? like if a serving of something is like 10% of my dv id rather find something where a serving is 5% etc. idk how thats like#a hard concept like whats the point of adding something to be like oh sure ill have a third of a serving & get 50 extra calories out of it#be so fr rn im so beyond frustrated still even tho its been hours since i talked to her this is more stressful & annoying than the stress of#just trying to figure shit out on my own i fucking hate having to try & re explain nyaelf ivee & over & have someone just talk over me &#fail to understand what im getting at. im one more shitty session away from quitting & just resigining myself to 70% liquid diet#anyways#texticles
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i was lookin at a few vids about the bg3 dream visitor romance [spoilers if anyone's still early game i guess lol] and like i was so shocked people were, like, so upset and betrayed when they discovered the dream visitor's true form fksdjgkdljf like okay i forgot not every corner of the internet has monsterfuckers and also i guess normies are playing this game. and ALSO it reminded me that the % of players that even have the steam achievement of sleeping w/the emperor at all is so low. 12.7%. why is everyone a coward. i'm not even a self proclaimed monsterfucker. i dont like sex and im mildly phobic of tentacles. WHY IS EVERYONE A COWARD!!!!!
tho to be fair probably a lot of ppl are also romancing a companion and wanna be faithful - ive only gotten to that scene in multiplayer where none of us were in companion romances so it was guilt free go for it see what happens, in the discord call all together LOL..... then we had a lover's spat after the raphael fight đ
#im p sure you have to become a mindflayer to do his whole romance which i dont wanna but like it's fun to see what happens lol#but also our friend has played further and was heavily biased against the emperor#im like dude no spoilers i wanna make up my mind as we go. im gonna fuck him LOL#3/4 of us did#our friend didnt and then he was like OH WAIT I FORGOT THERES AN ACHIEVEMENT well thats what u get for being a hater i guess#p sure we are going to betray him and break that guy outta there but idk maybe we wont. gotta mix it up see what the vibes are#in the multiplayer game we kinda just let things happen in the moment it's a fun and chaotic time#sometimes we lie. like we lied to raphael. it's fine#and then we tried to lie to the emperor about the fact that we made the deal but i think we rolled bad lol#so he knew and we had to be like IT'S FINE DUDE TRUST ME WHATEVER#anyway my point was i was surprised people werent into his tentacle form i just assumed all sex enjoyers do but#i forgot about the normie allos..........#there was like ONE person in the comments that was like yeah i romance the dream visitor and YES i know đ#only real person in that comment section i s2g#anyway we havent finished a full playthru yet so idk maybe ill be a hater by the end of it but rn i have fun with him#even tho he was kind of a bitch when we had that latest talk lol he was so shamey about our raphael deal đ#i think he was mad he couldnt see what we were up to down there like bro give us some space!!!
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just saw a post that said âpasta is an antidepressantâ and my brain immediately thought of you
and i hope you and your mom are doing okay <333
THIS IS SO SWEET! đ And also hilarious because I've become so used to Pasta being my name online that my thought process as I read went ''Pasta is an antidepressant' oh hey that's me! -> wait they mean they saw a post about actual pasta -> oh but then connected it to me so it is me!' I'm hopeless. This is why I can't be in the pasta aisle at the store with anyone else, because I have and will say 'Yes?' if they mumble 'Pasta?' into their phone.
And she's doing pretty good all things considered, thank you friend! Coming home has helped her a lot, even if she's still got a lot of in-home PT ahead over the next few months and she can't really be alone in the house for a while. But even then, she's recovering a lot faster than anyone expected - they thought she'd be in the hospital for a good month even after they released her from the ICU to a normal hospital room (she's only just now realizing how really, really, really sick she was cause ironically she was too sick to realize it when it happened). So we'll all happily take it! As for me, I'm mostly tired and still kinda... idk how to describe it. Disoriented maybe. I know all those emotions are all gonna come up and slap me in the face again eventually but at least for now they're just lurking while I focus on the logistics (adjusting schedules, general caretaker duties, house projects to make things easier for mom to move around, etc).
#I AM AN ANTIDEPRESSANT#that makes me so happy#i WANT to make people happy so goal achieved???#also yeah we're rolling along at least!#mom is doing REALLY well tbh so i'm holding onto that but she had no idea until now just how sick she was#but between me and my dad (retired) and sis on afternoon/night shift at work (hours i'm usually awake)#we're able to basically always have someone with her so we're uniquely set up for this fortunately#and she's still *her*. like she's talking and joking and her happy pasta mama self which helps just as much#however not to use a trt metaphor but i know for a fact there is a trauma boar somewhere in my forest rn and it'll pop up eventually#i just gotta be ready for it
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this wee fluffy one, who you often find just đď¸đď¸ staring into your soul from behind
went and hid in the bedroom while i was practicing my flute tonight lmao roasted
#sotd#god heâs so funny we agree heâs the most delightful being in the house#see seven is always plotting scheming etc in plans that always consist of#âim gonna fuck _____ up rnâ#constantly trying to manipulate us to give him what he wants at any moment right. could be anything#whereas simon is like#playing complex 5d chess. he plots and schemes in ways that are much more complex and less straightforward#truly a surgeon where seven is a bulldozer#but the only thing heâs ever trying to achieve is to have a door opened#seven is like always trying to cause some new chaos#and then simon is like. aha i have a complex plot to request this door be opened#today he motioned very energetically to the dog waiting to be let back in from the backyard. tried to open the glass door for him and all#and when i obliged and let the dog in simon then ran over to the garage door#which heâs been squeaking (because he squeaks. he doesnât meow) for me to open & i was purposely ignoring#fully like âyou opened the door for the dog ergo you will now open a door for meâ#heâs so goofy and heâs so fluffy and soft and sweet! bit odd that he is also the politest lil mastermind!#but god. he really does just Lurk lmao what a weirdo. i love him so much
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me @ myself: if you can somehow grind to 50 pity without wrio i give you permission to whale to guaranteed
#jamie has made a statement#now that i have a guarantee im more motivated tbh#like that early keqing sucked but it gave me determination#u guys have no idea how much im using the genshin wiki#i actually enjoy when its grind time like this bc it makes me creative and engaged#genshit blogging#me making a spreadsheet for my teapot to max it out:#i think. we are at 15 pity rn. and 10 days left on the banner#plany of time#honestly i might not whale if i get to like even 65 pity and no wrio bc at that point its kinda cheating to me#like tbh i have a lot of stuff that i havent done so like. i can easily find at least 10 more pulls today if i focused#and then theres achievements which i think i can swing. maube another 5 from#if theres another event before his banner ends thats helpful. plus the five from the shop reset
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#things i am excited about at my new job#it's nice to SEE AND INTERACT WITH PEOPLE EVERY DAY#jesus between covid and working from home that was getting seriously hard for me to achieve#i find the subject matter interesting (it's medical stuff and helping patients which is way more interesting to me than the finance shit#i was doing at my last job where i just like helped financial advisors get richer)#my bosses are kinda young and cool which is nice because mostly i have worked for boomer men older than my dad#i get to people watch and learn new things and it's challenging but not TOO overwhelmingly difficult#it's admin stuff which i kinda enjoy in a dorky sim management job sort of way (i do that kind of shit for fun in video games all the time)#the one thing im worried about rn is that the person who's training me that im filling in for is leaving soon and they're my fave part#of coming to work right now because i just like hanging out with them and they have like this hypnotically soothing aura#and sweet kind personality so im afraid once theyre gone (a) i will suck at doing it all without them and#(b) it just wont be nearly as nice but#i must think positive thoughts and hopefully i can use their mentorship as inspiration too#i spent all last year failing at being a self directed online student and juggling random part time shit so i am SO GLAD#to have full time work and work that isnt horribly boring and lonely like the finance work from home one before it#ps the person who is training me worked for 12 years as a 911 emergency phone operator if you want a picture of how calm and nice they are#like they can make anything seem ok and fine and remain calm no matter what and their voice is the gentlest thing on earth lol#i get free asmr all day basically#p
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i hope 2023 goes easier on all of us, happy new year <3
#⥠hues'.#2022 was hell of a ride for me#fast ride bc i blinked and it's 5 hrs 30 mins to new year#i just think we've come so far#like ten years ago 2023 seemed like big numbers#we all probably imagined ourselves as something in these 10 years#and some people bad achieved it which is rlly amazing#for those who haven't it's fine bc you're gna reach to that point some day#idk i feel so emotional rn#bc 8 year old me had hundreds of things planned for the me from 2023#tho none of it worked; im just glad i never stopped working for it#yeah. i rlly hope 2023 goes easier on us
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Thinking abt her <333333 (oni gas range)
#rat rambles#oni posting#I <3 cooking in video games I <3 watching my calorie count go up I <3 seeing my dupes grab the new fancy food I got access to#I just got my first water weed harvest and my chefs have already cooked up over 100k calories of quiche I am experiencing bliss and whimsy#oh also over 100k calories of frostburger#these things are not necessary and I do not need the well over 3 million calories I have but I like having them#deep freezer my beloved#oh also Im so so so close to getting my radbolt rocket up and running#Im currently building my radbolt generator setup and then we'll be in business#do I know how to deal with the consequences of radiation yet? nope. will I learn? probably not#I have decided Im going to attempt to get the archeologist achievement tho#which will be hard considering my laptop is already shitting itself but I wanna give it a shot anyways#but first let me stare at my new(ish) kitchen for another 5 hours I love watching ny cooks do their thing#even if two of my current cooks arw blond ppl đ#oh another thing Im going to need to do is make a drillcone rocket so I can work towards slowing down the approach of the inevitable#dirt crisis that constantly looms over my shoulders#I don't even use dirt for that much at this point but it's still important enough that my base Will fall apart without it#its more of a matter when Ill need to switch my power generators out than if#idk maybe I can get away with switching to stone hatches but that also feels like stalling to me#idk Ill figure it out once we get there#rn I still have almost 500 tons of coal so I dont have a huge amount to worry abt#especially since my coal generators arent anywhere close to running flat out so its not like power demands are too high rn#as I've said before Ill probably have to tap into oil to rly continue my environmental ruin run lol
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life is not being silly to me rn
#⯠ę°á starry thoughts ŕťęą *¡Ë#no i'm probably just being dramatic. but. still.#kinda frustrated w one of my friends rn bcs i think she knows smth is up w us atm but girl has the nerve to be like 'smth's been off#since the start of the sy' in a shared server w another friend and uh. girl. ily but you've been weird since the start of the sy#and haven't told me or my twin why at all even when we've asked <//3 so. sigh. spending time w other friends more atm yay!!!#anyway i miss some friends a whole lot tho ..... one online friend i've grown even closer w thx to instagram surprisingly#and irls i've actually interacted a lot w in a really nice way the last two months and so :3 it's amazing really#and like ... 3 or 4 online friends i really miss (aka i am attached to them but we haven't been talking much lately for wtvr reason)#and i want to get to know more people still but i don't want to be like my friends who do that but forget other friends. i wna balance it#all which is going to be reaaal difficult esp w me being an academic high achiever w cets coming up but i have tons of hobbies#and i get tired and distracted easily and find it hard to start AND finish things and and and i still have social anxiety#but i'll try my best! <3 i am wayyy too ambitious indeed but hey i gotta try to do what i can and achieve what i want ya know!!
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oh, how dismal
#just me hi#i'm hungry :(#and it's making the world look bleak#//clip studio is being weird rn#dunno What is going on with it but i can't get the program to run ??#the icon is missing on the taskbar but it's openâ and it keeps crashing before the workspace even loads#oh misery#//trying to write anyway and i can't ~focus~ because i'm ~hungry~#fun!#//anyway my brother and i wanted to watch something animated#which was a bit hard to achieve on tubi so we just went to see what was in the anime genre#and we clicked on K because we thought the name was silly. and then the descript told us nearly nothing so we watched it just cuz of that#And It Was Fun! we liked it :) the worldbuilding was kinda vague but we got it at some point lol#we (more specifically: I) kept making jokes about the red and blue king needing to 'Go Forward With Negotiations'#and Reed (brother) said there shoulda been an episode titled âJust Kiss Alreadyâ hvhfhsh#for REAL it was so gay. like 'â:1 what are you doin my guys#hashtag WHY THOUGH. ssssssssssssobssssssssssss#sobs and criesssssssssssssssssssssss#CRYINGGGGG#ssobbinginginginginging#we started it last night and finished it today and neither of us have recovered hvhfhds#:( :(((((#they killed the reincarnated/transplanted german guy AND gaylord's consort. what IS this#blue king's nickname is gaylord btw only because Hey Buddyâ That's A Suspicious Lack Of Space You've Allowed Betwixt You And Your Enemy's#Faces. Why Are You On Top Of Him#AND LIKE#no. i've gotta calm down here hvfhhsbhvaj#i'm going!! to be chill :) [not a guarantee]#BUT LIKE. LIKE. LIIIIIIIIIIIKE. [vague frantic gestures] YOU KNOW#man. gosh. man.
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if you're still doing requests: maybe one of the genshin guys finding out you use their card in tcg? scenario or headcanons is fine, and i have no preference for who you want to write! (i will say i'm fixated in the fontanians rn though)
the perfect pair
synopsis: their reaction to finding out you use their card in tcg
characters: tighnari, cyno, neuvillette, lyney, and wriothesely x gn!reader (separately)
warnings: nothing besides fluff and cyno being an actual maniac for tcg (heâs probably a little ooc but i think itâs funny)
notes: iâm ngl i totally forgot about tcg đ i played it SO much when it came out and then barely touched it unless it was for the primos. i gotta finish those achievements still đ also i know not every one of these characters has a tcg card but we can just pretend :) thank you for the request!
part two
Tighnari:
Because he doesnât play tcg very often â at least not as much as Cyno does â he doesnât find out right away
When he does, it happens at a casual dinner between you, him, and all your friends after Collei asks to play so she can try out some of her new cards
Cyno enthusiastically agrees and you all set up after you finish eating which is when Alhaitham, whose eyes never miss anything, spots a suspiciously similarly looking guy on one of your three player cards
âYou seriously have your boyfriend as one of your cards?â heâll ask with a disbelieving smile, as if he canât comprehend why youâd have it
You smile and lift it up, proudly nodding as you list off the cardâs strengths and the nice backing it came with. You donât fail the mention the bonus that it comes with your boyfriendâs face on it
Tighnari feels his cheeks warm in slight embarrassment as he turns away in his chair. Even so, he canât help but find it really cute that you have his card
He even tells his friends to shut up and that theyâre just jealous they donât have his card and that they wish their significant others had them as cards
It actually shuts some of them up, shockingly
Meanwhile, Cyno is in utter disbelief that such a card exists and will try to buy it off of you so he can complete his collection (you donât let him have it though)
Cyno:
Ah the king of tcg himself
He has the most dramatic reaction for sure. Not even in the sense that heâs embarrassed, or teasing, or whatnot. Heâs just straight up shocked
Slams his hands down on the table and his jaw drops as he stands up. You giggle on the other side of the table at his reaction, watching him desperately try to find words
âWhere did you even get that?!â
You swear you only see him this expressive when it comes to tcg
âI donât know, I just found it at a local store when I was passing by,â you shrug carelessly, as if you arenât going to completely destroy him with his own card in about five minutes
After he gets over the initial awe of seeing himself in his favorite game in the entire world, heâs actually very internally excited, although you donât get to see that side
He thinks itâs cool that you like using his card and is honored that youâd even choose it in the first place, especially with only three slots (heâs also just happy heâs a main card and not a buff lmao)
And when you do destroy him, he slides you a pen and paper and politely demands you give him the name of the seller so he can track them down tomorrow
Neuvillette:
He doesnât even play the game so initially, heâs extremely confused why you have a playing card with his face on it
âFascinating. I did not know they made such games. Is my card good for playing?â Heâs genuinely intrigued by it and you find it rather endearing
Because he doesnât understand it though, he doesnât necessarily feel any certain way about it. Heâs too caught up in the game to realize what it means for you to be using his card
âYeah, itâs pretty powerful, but itâs representative of real life so thatâs expected given your position.â
At that, he feels very flattered. His cheeks will warm a bit, casting a light blush over his features when you speak so proudly of him
Heâll even ask if you have a card of your own hoping to take a bit of the attention off him when he begins to feel more excited about it
You shake your head no and explain that itâs unlikely given people donât know enough about you to make a full card of you or to sell it
Will later get one made for you without you knowing, only one singular copy worth a priceless amount just so you could have one to match him too <3
Lyney:
Smug little shit
Youâre playing with him and his siblings after he invited you over for a date. Lynette and Freminet were bored so you both offered to play a game, to which tcg was suggested by Freminet
Youâd played only a few times with them before, which is why you didnât realize what was such a big deal when you pulled out a card with your boyfriend on it, entirely forgetting it was new and you hadnât used it with them yet
âIs thatâŚis that Lyney?â Lynette asks, stifling a laugh as she inspects the card. Freminet leans a little closer too in order to get a better look.
And it indeed is, Lyney confirms for himself
âWoah no way, I didnât know they made this,â he smiles at it, picking it up and spinning it in his hand before smirking at you, âI knew you couldnât resist this handsome face, even on a playing card.â
You smack his arm faster than Lynette can and snatch it back out of his hand. Lyney pouts and slouches down into his seat as his siblings inquire as to where you got it
Lyney canât stop staring at you as you tell them, his chest beating faster and faster as you embarrassedly ramble on about why you got it in the first place and how you thought it was cute like a little keepsake
Even though youâd been dating for some quite some time, you both managed to keep surprising one another and falling in love all over again, even if it was over silly things like tcg cards
Lynette sighs as she notices the lovestruck look in her brotherâs eyes, âHeâs doomed.â
Wriothesley:
Heâs weirdly calm about the whole thing. Not like heâd be over dramatic or anything, but I donât think heâd be as teasing or shocked by it like the others or like some may assume
Wriothesley thinks itâs really cool when he finds it in your collection one day after you left your card case in his office by accident, a few cards slid out with his face popping out on one tucked away in the middle
Heâll examine it before a gentle smile pulls at his lips at the thought of you using it to play against others
Heâs almost proud, in a way
When you walk into his office a ten minutes later, realizing you had left your cards and a few other of your things on his desk, you stumble upon him looking at it
âOh, uh you werenât supposed to see that yet,â you say awkwardly as you pause in your step and fiddle with your hands, embarrassed he had found it. It was a somewhat new card and you actually wanted to show it to him later
But Wriothesley doesnât care. Hell, if he had known there was a card out there with him on it, he wouldâve bought it for you a long time ago
Heâll just kiss you. A nice, sweet, and to the point kiss as he slides the card back in your hand before pulling away and staring down at you, âYouâre cute.â
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lights, camera, action!
danielle marsh x actress!reader ; fluff
synopsis: you passed your media training classes but that doesnât stop you after a couple of drinks from leaking that youâre very much attracted to danielle marsh on live
warnings: alcohol ; soobin from txt but he's actually an actor (idk why i use him in my fics sm) and also other idols that are actors instead of... idols ; discovering sexuality ; reader is whipped for danielle ; danielle is whipped for reader ; gay gay gay they're so in love i hate myself ; anyhting else not mentioned ; not proofread
a/n: hi i need her so bad like sooo bad like sheâs so. like. like hey. hi hai. hi.
@/ynln is live!
the viewers catch a little glimpse of your flushed cheeks, slow blinks, and lazy smile.
youâre not drunk, not at all, youâre just naturally an idiot and even more of one after a few after-party drinks. the remnants of laughter and lively conversation from the after-party of your premiere still lingering in your ears. the giddiness hadnât left your body at all.
âheyyy guys.â you fail to set up the camera on your hotel desk, so you resort to flopping onto the bed and holding it yourself. âi hope you all are well.â
the screen was filled with comments almost immediatelyâfans were sending love, compliments, and congratulating you on the new movie, and praising your looks during the premiere. your smile grew wider, your cheeks burned a little warmer than before.
@/lnloverrr: you looked so good at the event
@/yourstruly84: a look for the books
@/ynloops: so excited for the movie! canât wait to see more action roles from you!
@/tokkilvrr: celine queen!!! you rocked the top
âaww you guys are so cute,â you say, a little more giggly than usual. the only thing illuminating you at the moment is the city glow filtering through the curtains, so you turn on a lamp in order for your fans to see you better. âiâm so happy you guys are excited about the movie. it means a looot, really.â
you scrolled through the comments, answering a few questions about your favorite scenes to shoot and what the cast was like. you went on a whole ramble about your male co-star soobin and how you almost beat him in an arm wrestling battle after two shots, which led to another ramble about how rigorous the process of working out to achieve your physique was for this film. it was fun talking about all the fun behind-the-scenes moments, one of them being how you have a video of soobin tripping over the props, one which you will definitely be posting once the movie is out.
after skimming the comments a bit more, most of them being âcan i get an i love you?â or various compliments which keep a smile plastered on your face. but then one catches your eye, making you raise a brow: do you have a celebrity crush?
âoh, a celebrity crush? well i donât know if i have a crush, but more of a friend crush if you get what i mean.â you laughed, the sound light and loose. you pause, thinking it over as more comments pop up with heart emojis and people begging for an answer. you sigh playfully, leaning against the bedframe and blinking slowly again. âokay, this is going to sound so cheesy. you know how i like newjeans? iâve mentioned it before⌠but iâve been such a fan of newjeans since their debut. like, seriously, their music is always on repeat. iâve made soobin and the rest of the cast listen to them â soyeon loves them actually. ugh i loved their debut ep so much and then they dropped ditto andââ
@/koalaln: okay so⌠itâs someone from newjeans?
@/minjiplsmarrymepls: not my fav actor being a tokki
@/phammipham: girl if you donât tell us rnâŚ
âoh yeah, celebrity crush, right.â you chuckle after reading the comments again. you bit your lip before continuing, âwell, aside from newjeans being one of my favorite groups⌠theyâre all talented and beautiful, of course, but oh my god. danielle?â
your voice dropped to a more earnest tone as you looked right at the camera again, shaking your head and blushing a little. you could blame it on the alcohol.
âdanielle is probably one of the prettiest people iâve ever seen. her visuals are like, insane. like, she has this elegance to her, sheâs glowing, but sheâs also just really cute. iâve seen some of their interviews and sheâs so bright and bubbly and i just think sheâs so adorable andâ yeah. i love her energy.â you let out a small, tipsy laugh, not realizing how much you were ramblingâagain.
âand the thing is, weâre both ambassadors for celine too, so iâve seen her from afar at events and stuff. iâve never actually met her, which is crazy, right? i mean i've met park bogum but not her! youâd think we would have bumped into each other by now, but nope. i kind of just admire from afar, like her pictures donât do her justice but they⌠do? sheâs stunning in person, at least from afar.â
the comments started blowing up with people freaking out, sending a variety of emojis that you couldnât even count on both hands. they were saying things like âomg youâre totally fangirling right now,â âokay purr y/n is danielle biased she has taste,â and even âyou and danielle interacting or collaborating would be iconic.â
you blinked at the screen, noticing the way the chat kept mentioning her name. you rubbed your face with your hand, blinking hard again. âoh my god, am i talking too much? anyway!â you waved your hand, laughing as you tried to shake off the embarrassment creeping up your neck. ânext question, next question.â
you spent a few more minutes answering questions about your movie, sharing more stories of what happens on set (making sure to include how many times jaehyun fell asleep on set â which was far too often and in the most questionable positions. you wonder how someone falls asleep leaning against a wall). by the end, your eyelids were starting to droop, and the comments were still buzzing with your confession from earlier. you blinked again, then thanked the fans for their support once more to wrap up the livesteam.
âalright, iâm about to pass out,â you say tiredly, smile turning soft. âthank you for putting up with me. love you all so much.â
the phone in your hand dropped onto the bed after ending the livestream. your head lands on the pillows and you sigh, a grin still on your face. before you knew it, you were out like a light, blissfully unaware of what youâve just started.
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the sun filtered through the hotel curtains, which warmed up the room. you stirred, eyes fluttering open as a ray hit you right in the eye, making you roll around the other way.Â
unfortunately for you, this wasnât the only thing trying to wake you up. your phone buzzed insistently next to you, and you reached for it blindly, squinting at the screen as your managerâs name flashed across it. you crinkled your brows, confused to say the least.
âhello? mark?â your voice was hoarse with sleep, tinged with last nights events.
âmorning sleepyhead,â markâs voice was calm and a little playful as always, but there was an unmistakable edge that meant business. âdo you want to tell me why youâre trending on every social media platform? and you even made it onto some entertainment sites.â
a groan slips from you as you sit up all too quickly. the memories of your late-night live stream start to flood back. âshit.â
â���shitâ is right. you do know that gushing about a girl in a kpop group â not to mention a very popular one â might get you a good amount of attention? and donât make a pun.â you hear his signature sigh from the other end of the line. âyour fans and her fans are going wild, and some press outlets are running with âactor y/nâs crush on danielle from newjeansâ headlines.â
shifting yourself to the edge of your bed so your feet can dangle off, you groan into the phone. âiâm so, so sorry. i mustâve fucked up my image like crazy, god iâm so sorry forââ
âhey, wait.â he says calmly. âitâs actually not doing anything harmful. if anything people are into how much you admire the group, considering youâre quite the celebrity.â
âoh thank godââ
âitâs just not low-profile.â
heat crept up your neck, and you covered your face with one hand, your back meeting the mattress again. âiâ yeah, i was tipsy. soobin is a terrible influence, and werenât youââ
âiâm just your manager, i just work here y/n.â
you scoff playfully at his remark, then continue, âi guess i didnât notice how much i talked about her. but itâs notâi mean, itâs not untrue, but stillâŚâ you trailed off, cringing at yourself as you placed a hand over your eyes.
mark lets out a sigh, softening a bit. âlook, itâs not the end of the world. just be prepared for questions, and try not to fan the flames further if you donât want this to become a bigger deal. but, you might want at least to have a statement or some kind of response ready.â
you nodded, even if he couldnât see you. âyeah, okay. thank you for the heads-up. sorry.â
âand next time, maybe donât go live after an after-party. donât think i didnât see you downing somaek with jennie.â he adds, the hint of amusement in his voice making you relax a bit.Â
ânoted. very much noted.â
after ending the call, you drop the phone beside you, your heart still thudding. with a deep breath, you opened twitter up, and just from your burner account you could see that you were trending. the timeline was overflowing: fans reacting to your confession, edits already circulating with your quotesâthey even managed to find every clip of you mentioning or listening to newjeans, putting it in slideshows and edited videos. you canât even lie, the effort is amazing. and even worse, or better? there were articles with headlines like âactor y/n admits to crushing on danielle from newjeansâ and âactor y/n confirms sheâs a hardcore newjeans fan.â
okay, hardcore might be a stretch.
(or maybe not.)
despite all this chaos, you couldnât help but smile a little. you tap a quick text to your manager again: sorry again. iâll be ready for whatever comes.Â
and another, more impulsive, and raw message to your group chat with your best friends and co-stars: i think i should just die. never going live again. someone needs to take my phone and burn it.
but as you scrolled and saw fans posting supportive, teasing comments like âwe love an honest crush!â ây/n is lowk so cute for thisâ âitâs so refreshing to see celebrities being transparent about who they admireâ and even a ây/n and danielle when??? y/nelle??â, you couldnât suppress the slight flutter in your chest.
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in contrast to your morning, danielleâs wasnât all that stressful. maybe a little, but it didnât have her laying in bed for an hour and pondering over every life decision sheâs made. not like you did.Â
danielle had been making eggs for her members â sunny side up for hanni, boiled for minji, and scrambled for the haerin and hyein â humming quietly to herself. the morning was relatively peaceful until hanni burst into the kitchen, phone in her hand with a mischievous grin on her face.
âdani, you wonât believe this.â hanni plops down on a stool at the kitchen island, turning the phone over. âyouâre gonna want to see it.â
danielle raises an eyebrow, turning down the heat. âwhat is it?â
minji and haerin joined, peeking over hanniâs shoulder as she played the video clip. ây/n, you know, the one from that one coming of age movie you like? what was it⌠the one withâ it doesnât even matter. just look.â
danielleâs brows furrowed with confusion until hanni hits play. the room fills with the sound of your slurred, soft voice as you gush with genuine excitement.Â
âoh yeah, celebrity crush, right. well, aside from newjeans being one of my favorite groups⌠theyâre all talented and beautiful, of course, but oh my god. danielle?â
even minji and haerin gasp, looking at danielle in surprise. danielleâs jaw drops open slightly as she takes in the information: you, l/n y/n, are mentioning her. danielle marsh. but it gets even better.
âdanielle is probably one of the prettiest people iâve ever seen. her visuals are like, insane. like, she has this elegance to her, sheâs glowing, but sheâs also just really cute. iâve seen some of their interviews and sheâs so bright and bubbly and i just think sheâs so adorable andâ yeah. i love her energy.âÂ
the spoon danielle had been holding slips from her hand and onto the counter, clattering agains the marble as she stared at the screen. âwaitâ what?â her voice was barely above a whisper, her cheeks heating up.
 âlook at you,â minji laughs, nudging her. âone of your admirers is an actorâa really popular actor, dani.â
âiââ danielleâs mind raced as she watched you on the screen, your eyes bright, cheeks flushed as you rambled on. the admiration in your tone made her heart skip a beat. it was one thing to know that you were at the same events as her, and another ot hear that youâd been paying attention to her. that you think sheâs pretty.Â
hyein seemed to pop out of nowhere, her arrival probably unnoticed from what was currently unfolding. âdani⌠someone who was in a marvel movie has a crush on you.â
danielle blinked. a smile broke out as she looked at her members. âyouâre all ridiculous.â but even as she laughed, the warmth in her chest lingered. the fact that you, the actress sheâd admired form afar and whose movies sheâs watched with her family, thought of her like thatâit was surreal.
minji raised an eyebrow knowingly. âcome on dani, donât act like you havenât been wanting to talk to her at those events.â
âyeah dude,â hanni nudged her younger member. âshe popped up in doctor strange and you started rambling about her.â
danielleâs smile turned shy as she rolled her eyes and turned back to the stove, her mind still replaying your words.Â
maybe sheâd muster up the courage to talk to you, just maybe.
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youâve been busy, to say the least.
the past week youâve been interviewed a handful of times everyday. your movie starred the choi soobin and jeong jaehyun, which earned a lot of attention. what surprised you was just how much attention youâd receive. there were various edits of you being made, some even showed up on your social media and unfortunately your group chat.Â
people had dug up scenes of you from your other projects, editing them and helping them resurface. it was safe to say you were growing as an actor, as if confessing your âloveâ for danielle marsh didnât already do enough. but who were you to complain? this was great. you were rising in popularity for not only your looks, but also your talents and personality. it was endearing â flattering you beyond comprehension.
the rise in popularity even led to you having to hop on a flight to japan, not only to be interviewed further, but also for an event for the brand you ambassador.
the celine event had an air of sophistication and elegance. it was a sort of luxurious haven where celebrities and models mingled under the crystal chandeliers, surrounded by other âfancy stuffâ as you would say. soft music played, mixing in with the sound of conversations and clicks of cameras. attendees were showcasing the brandâs newest pieces for the season, with handbags being paraded, their metallic accents catching the light.
you fit quite well into the scene, it would be a lie to say you werenât one of the main events. there was an effortless style exuded from you, clad in tailored slacks that were held perfectly by a leather celine belt. draped over your frame was a crewneck sweater with the brandâs logo, and to finish off the look you had another leather piece on your shoulder: a matching handbag to go with your belt.Â
the first hour was spent smiling for the cameras and eavesdropping on the whispers about your recent rise in popularity. more cameras flashed, and journalists angled for a glimpse, but your focus soon shifted when an all too familiar figure stepped into view. maybe youâre overwhelmed, maybe itâs not her, there so many people here. at least thatâs what you told yourself.
once you got a breather, taking the time to roam around the area, you barely had a moment to process before a gentle bump jolted you out of your thoughts.
a woman, draped in a stunning beige dress accented with a sleek grey blazer, stumbled slightly. instinct kicked in, and your hand shot out to catch her arm, steadying her. wide yes met yours, surprise softening into a shy, grateful smile as she regained her balance.
âoh my, iâm so sorry!â she breaths out, her cheeks tinting a faint pink. âi didnât see you there.â
âare you okay?â you ask, your mind catching up to the moment. your gaze lingered as recognition fell over youÂ
danielle.
the feel of her arm in your grasp made your heart stutter, but you forced yourself to stay composed.Â
âyes, iâm fine, thanks,â danielle says, straightening up and tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear. âi never expected to bump into you. not like thisânot literally.â
your smile turns sheepish. âiâ i guess i made quite an impression,â you joke lightly, withdrawing your hand slowly.
her eyes light up with recogniition. âwell, the live from last week was more of one,â she teases, her tone warm and playful. the mention of the live made your face heat up, and a laugh bubbled out as you glanced at the floor for a second.
âyou sawâŚ?â you ask, rubbing the back of your neck.Â
âi think everyone did,â she giggled, her smile softening as she added, âit was... really sweet.â
the initial nervousness faded as the two of you fell into conversation, friendly and hesitant at first, but your words quickly became more confident as you both exchanged stories and thoughts on the celine events. compliments flowed naturally, and you found yourself surprised at how easy it was to talk to her beyond the admiration you held at a distance. danielle, on the other hand, grew noticeably more flustered as you threw in subtle flirtationsâquick grins, playful remarks about how she looked so much better up close and in person.
âwow, it wasnât the drinks that make you so⌠charming, huh?â she says with a small laugh, eyes shining as she tried to regain composure.
âwell, iâm finally getting the chance to talk to someone iâve been wanting to meet for a whike,â you admitted, voice soft and genuine. âi just wanted to be transparent, is that alright with you?â
âof course.â her smile turns bashful, and for a moment, silence settled between you two, comfy and warm. the lights dimmed as the models prepared for the runway, but neither of you paid it much attention even after being separated again.
after the showcase, you two found each other again, wanting to exchange numbers.Â
âthis is the first time iâve given a fan my number.â danielle admits jokingly as you type in your contact information. you look up from the phone and smirk, sending a weird shiver down danielleâs spine.
âreally? iâm honored.â you say, handing the phone back. âletâs talk soon, okay? iâd really love to be friends, and iâm really sorry for the whole livestream incident by the way. sorry again.â
she laughs, smiling at you and itâs really strange how it makes you feel all tingly.Â
âitâs alright y/n. would you like to hangout when weâre back in korea? if thatâs alright.â
âoh, yes, of course.â you smile at her once more before looking at the text from your manager: rideâs here, you ready? the notification earns a small sigh from you. you glance back at danielle and bite your lip to prevent a frown. âwell, iâll see you.â
âwonderful.â
â
when you think youâve had your peak of attention, it just seems to grow more and more.
the morning after the celine event your phone buzzed against the nightstand of your hotel, waking you up. squinting, you reached for it, the device cool against your fingers. notifications flooded your screen, but at this point thatâs nothing new. at the top, there was a teasing text from mark:
âlooks like you made quite the impression last night. maybe your live wasnât so bad for your social life, huh?â
curiosity piqued, you scrolled through social media, your eyes widening as countless photos of the event filled your feed. comments from fans were overwhelmingly supportive, celebrating the unexpected dynamic between you and danielle.Â
most of the photos were candid shotsâthe two of you caught in conversation, eyes bright with amusement, smiles soft and natural. the internet had already begun to label you as friends (which you didnât mind at all), though some comments and posts werenât so subtle as they implied something more, playfully shipping you two as a potential couple.
you rolled your eyes â it was ridiculous â you werenât even sure whether or not she liked girls like that. even if she did, the whole livestream⢠probably weirded her out. what you sought was friendship, but the ship posts did make you smile to yourself. maybe youâre just weird. you figured you needed to snap out of it.
unfortunately for you, more photos entertained the idea of something more than friends. in them, you were gently holding danielleâs wrist, steadying her as sheâd momentarily lost her balance that night. the angle caught the way her expression softened as she looked at you, an unguarded moment that felt oddly intimate, almost cinematic.Â
youâve acted in various romance scenes, but none of them were real. neither did any of them look as⌠jaw-dropping as this.
the caption on one post read: âthe way they look at each other⌠could this be the start of something?â the reactions were a mix of heart emojis, enthusiastic comments, and threads analyzing your body language and every nuance of the pictures. your cheeks warmed as you scrolled through, noticing how even the simplest gestures were being magnified and dissected as if this were an advanced art course.
you reread the text from your mark, smiling as you typed back a short light-hearted response:
âmaybe i should go live more often? hahaâ
even as you set your phone down, your mind replayed the moments from the night beforeâher laugh, the way conversation flowed effortlessly, and that brief touch that started to flood your mind.Â
you simply had a friend crush on her, nothing more, right? probably, you hope,
â
danielle pushes open the front door of the dorm, the familiar warmth and laughter of her members greeting her as she set down her bags. before she could make it further into the living room, hanni glanced up from her phone and smirked knowingly.
âlook whoâs back! how was the celine event?â hanniâs tone was casual, but her eyes glimmered with mischief.
danielleâs brows furrowed slightly, but before she could answer, hyein popped up from the couch, waving her phone in the air. âmore importantly, how was this?â she tapped on the screen, and a slideshow of photoâs appearedâthe ones that had been trending online. danielle, dressed up elgantly, smiling up at you as your hand was on her wrist, both your expressions open and genuine.
âoh, thatâŚâ danielle felt her cheeks warm. âit was nice. we talked a bit actually, y/n is really cool!â
âreally cool?â minji echoes from the kitchen, âthatâs a new one.â
âsheâs just a new friend i made who happens to be an actor,â danielle rushed out, even as a small uncertain flutter stirred in her chest. the words felt like they were only said to cover something up, but danielle couldnât pinpoint what it was that she was trying to hide. sheâd made new friends before, but none of them left her thinking about them the whole flight back home. she felt kind of restless in a way, but maybe thatâs because you had a different kind of charm and aspect to you.
âa new friend and actor who also has a celebrity crush on you?â minji asks.
âpeople have celebrity crushes and that doesnât mean anything, minji. besides, iâm not much of a celebrity to her anymore, am i? i mean weâve met properly now.â
hanni raises a brow at danielleâs comeback, exchanging a look with hyein, who giggles. âright, just an actor who has expressed her admiration for you in great depth. okay.â hanni draws out the last word, amused. danielle crosses her arms, feigning annoyance but feeling a heat creeping up her neck.
the group finally eases off, shrugging and returning to their own chatter, but danielle couldnât shake the lingering awareness. maybe it was just the newness of it all, youâre an actor, a very famous one now at least.Â
her eyes dart to the pictures on hyeinâs phone again. the moment you had caught her from stumbling was simple, just an instinctive touch, but there was something about it that replayed in her mind. it was confusingâthis new, unfamiliar feeling. she hadnât considered herself someone who might fall for a girl, and thereâs nothing wrong with girlâs liking⌠girls. but youâre not a girl that she likes, at least not romantically. youâre just really pretty and nice, and besides, she hasnât even gotten to know you on a deeper level.
still, sheâs spiralling a little.
â
y/n: hey :-) i just got back to my apartment it was nice bumping into you! let me know when youâre free? if youâd like to grab a bite or something of course youâre really pretty in person sorry, iâm fangirling haha
soobinâs top half of his face is on the top right corner of your phone as you stare at the screen. you sigh, cringing at each text youâve sent. soobin raises a brow at the sudden change in expression, plus the small pout on your face now.
âwhat now?â he questions.
âam i doing too much? what if she blocks me. what if i just dieââ
danielle: hi! i was watching a movie with the members hehe it was really nice meeting you! iâve been a fan of your projects i really liked your scene in doctor strange as well and in your recent film youâre a very good actor!
you literally drop your phone, earning a confused noise from soobin. when you pick it up again, heâs making a face that asks for more answers, but youâre too busy waiting for texts to pop up after her little typing bubble forms.
danielle: iâm booked tomorrow, how about the day after? you can pick the time and place đ
y/n: iâm busy tomorrow and the day after unfortunately đ how about in three days?
danielle: iâm free in the evening đ
y/n: thatâs perfect! canât wait
danielle: me neither âşď¸ i really enjoyed talking to you at the event
y/n: aw, thanks youâre really cute and sweet, danielle
danielle: im blushing stop!! hahaha iâll text you in the morning y/n đâ¤ď¸
y/n: okay!Â
soobin is still on call with you when you drop the phone on your bed again. he hears a the sound of your feet kicking against the bed and a small squeal.
âwhat?â he squints at the screen as you pick your phone up again.
âdanielle and i are hanging out on friday.â
he looks surprised as he says, âreally?â
âwhy do you sound so baffled⌠i can make friends soobinâŚâ you huff, pouting at him.
â
you exhale deeply as you look at yourself in the mirror. thereâs a green, long-sleeve comme des garcon top that you spent way too much money on hugging you just right, accentuating the build of your arms that you worked very hard for due to the new movie. custom-tailored denim fits your legs loosely, held by the same celine belt you wore at the thrilling event.
to hide your identity a bit more, you wore a beanie and a zip-up hoodie on top (another piece of clothing you spent way too much money on. you need to stop buying vintage exclusively), as well as some sunglasses.
you head out of your apartment, slip a mask on, and take the elevator down.Â
itâs been a while since youâve walked around and enjoyed the area you lived in, so you decided to walk to where you agreed to meet danielle: your favorite cafe.
it was a fifteen-minute walk, a quick five-minute bus ride, then five more minutes of walking until you reached your destination. when you get there, danielle is already sat at a table. you catch her checking her phone and smile to yourself.
âhey,â you greet, sitting in front of her. âdid you wait long?â
ânot at all,â she shakes her head, then looks down at her drink. âi just got a latte actually, i was going to text you earlier. ah! i shouldâve waited to buyââ
ânoâ no, itâs fine.â you assure, grinning. âiâll buy one myself and meet you back here, give me a minute.â
âright, of course.âÂ
you give her another small grin before ordering something simple: an almond latte. you waited only two minutes for it before heading back to danielle. after placing down your mug, danielle looks amazed at the tulip design, pulling out her phone and taking a picture. itâs cute, the gesture, and herâbut thatâs for you to keep to yourself.
you meet back with danielle, whoâs in the same booth by the window. the cafe was quaint and tucked into a quiet street corner, so there wasnât usually much attention or people. you really liked that aspect, considering your status, so it easily became your favorite spot.Â
and because there wasnât much going on, it was easy for danielle to be under some sort of spotlightâin this case itâs the autumn afternoon glow hitting her features. you remind yourself that this is just a platonic hangout, obviously. itâs not exactly a date, maybe a friend dateâbut the closer you got to her the more you started to question the âfriendly meet-up.â
âthis place is so cozy,â danielle says, glancing around as she took a sip of her latte. âthanks for suggesting it! iâve been so cooped up and busy, havenât had much time to go around. plus, itâs nice to be somewhere new.â
âi um, thought you would like itâŚâ you reply, stirring your coffee absentmindedly. âi mean i like it a lot. itâs my go-to spot, a little hidden gem when i first got to korea. itâs also really quiet at this time, so no chance of anyone recognizing us.â
danielle smiled at that, her cheeks warming. âi canât tell if thatâs comforting or more nerve-warcking.â
âis that so?â you tease, âafraid youâll be stuck with me if no one interrupts?â
she laughs, shaking her head. ânot exactly⌠i actually really like being here with you.â
you grinâa bit bashfully. âaw, iâm glad im here with you too. i still canât get over the fact that iâm with newjeansâ danielle.âÂ
she shakes her head, absentmindedly stirring her straw in her iced latte as she looks at you. " well, i hope that now⌠between us... i can just be danielle, even dani, if you prefer that.â
she gives you a shy smile before dropping her gaze to her coffee, and for a second you swear you saw a faint blush on her cheeks. maybe itâs the light.Â
âso,â she says, changing the subject, âis your schedule hectic these days? with what iâve seenâyou know, your promotionsâshooting for movies and events; i donât know how you do it.â
âsometimes i donât know either,â you chuckle, shrugging. âitâs worth it though. its kind of surrealâi used to watch your performances before i was this⌠known⌠and think, âwow, she must be busy,â but now i get it.â
ââreally?â danielle raises an eyebrow, looking genuinely intrigued.
âuhâyeah. not just you! i hope i donât sound weird⌠you know i used to watch all those celebrity interviews, korean and western artists, and i thought about my future being like that. um, anyways, yeahâyou and your members are super talented. i mean, obviously youâre killing it in every way possibleâÂ
danielleâs smile grows upon seeing the visible blush and how evidently flustered you are.
you sig heavily, âiâm not beating the fangirl allegations⌠sorry.â
she looks at you with a softness in her eyes, giggling before sipping on her drink. you noticed her cheeks were definitely tinged pink now.Â
âthatâs⌠really sweet. and, um, mutual. iâve been a fan of your acting for a while now, actually. so this is all still kinda unreal.â she admits.
you both fall into comfortable conversation, sharing stories about work and laughing about awkward encounters with fans and strange industry moments. you felt completely at ease, and danielleâs laughter was contagious, filling the air with something warm. the feeling lingered even as you two left the cafe together.
the walk back was leisurely, your voices blending as the city got louder.
âdo you get nervous though?â danielle asks after a while, pulling her jacket tighter against the breeze of the evening. âwith acting, i mean. especially with bigger roles. i hope itâs not awkward to ask but⌠you know, with romance films too.â
âi get that question a lot, itâs not weird at all dani.â you nod as danielle hides the growing smile after hearing her nickname slip from your lips. âiâm always nervous. but i think iâd worry more if i didnât feel like that, you know? it kind of keeps me on my feet, makes it feel real.â
she nods in understanding. âthat makes sense.â
âyou get it.â
as you neared her dorm building, a sense of bittersweetness crept in. the evening had gone by too fast, and you werenât quite ready for it to end. you stopped a few feet from the entrance, scanning the area to make sure no one was around.
âright, i guess weâre here,â you muttered under your breath, looking back at her with a nervous expression.
she gives you a forced smile, something bittersweet. âyeah.â
âiâll let you go now, i had a lot of fun.â
âme too.â
âyeah?â
âyeah.â danielle breathes out, her smile much more shy than before now. you catch her biting the inside of her lip just barelyÂ
her eyes sparkle a bit, the streetlight reflecting off her pupils. you gaze at her for a few seconds more before nodding. before you can start to walk away, she steps forward and wraps her arms around you in a warm, gentle hug. your breath catches, but you quickly relax and reciprocate. it seems natural, like you were meant to be this close.
âthank you for today,â she murmurs, voice barely audible.
âthank you for agreeing to hangout despite my⌠unorthodox impression.â you reply with a giggle, your voice just as soft. âiâm glad we did this.â
when she pulls back, you meet her gaze, faces just inches apart. she looks at your almost dazed expression, with your cheeks flushed and lips slightly parted. you quickly caught herself and laughed, trying to play it cool.
âalright, well, i guess iâll see you soon?â you say, shifting a little on your feet.
âyes,â she says, feeling her heart pounding a bit. âi hope we can do this again.â
danielle is a touchy person, this is visible on camera and to everyone she loves. still, it surprises you when she leaps back onto you, hugging you once more before slipping inside the building.Â
you waited until she was out of sight before turning away, unable to keep the grin off your face.
â
the next day, more specifically the next evening, you have an interview at six.
you, your costars soobin and jaehyun, are all caught in an interview. thereâs a white backdrop behind you all, with makeup artists adding final touches and shifting your hair. soobinâs in a simple cardigan and jeans, while jaehyun is wearing a sweater that compliments what soobin is wearing. you, on the other hand, are clad in something that makes you stand out more: metal frames, a blazer, and slacks.Â
the cameraâs start to roll, then the director gives you the green light.
the interviewer smiled warmly, leaning forward as he kicked off with, âso, congratulations on the movie! itâs been getting amazing reviews, and your performance as a supporting lead has been a major highlight. how does it feel to finally see it out in the world?â
you smiled, shifting in your seat. âhonestly, itâs surreal. we put so much work into this film, and seeing people connect with itâitâs the best feeling. iâm really grateful.â
âletâs talk about filming,â he continues, glancing between the three of you. âwhat were the hardest and most fun parts of being on set?â
soobin jumped in first, grinning. âhardest part? probably the weather during those outdoor scenes. we were freezing half the time.â
you nod in agreement. âoh, definitely. there was this one night shoot where we were all layered up between takes, but as soon as the cameras started rolling, we had to act like it was summer. my teeth were literally chattering.â
âand the most fun?â the interviewer asks, tilting his head.
âthe cast,â you said immediately, glancing at soobin and jaehyun. âwe had such a good time together, even during the long hours. there were so many inside jokes and random moments that just made everything easier. it really felt like a family. theyâre idiots, but i love them to death.â
âjaehyun, what about you?â the interviewer asked.
he chuckles. âfor me, it was watching these two try to improvise during that one diner scene. they were so into it, and the director was loving it, but the rest of us were just trying not to laugh.â
you groan playfully. âdonât remind me! that scene was so⌠chaotic.â
the interviewer laughs, clearly enjoying the dynamic between the three of you. âspeaking of scenes, do you have a favorite?â
âhmm,â you say, thinking. âi really loved the quieter moments, like the scene where my character finally opens up to soobinâs. it was just... really emotional and rewarding to film. looking over it really surprised how well acted-out it was.â
âand you two had such great chemistry,â he adds, raising an eyebrow knowingly. âfans are already talking about it. do you think that dynamic came naturally?â
you and soobin exchanged a look, and he smirked. âwell, you know, y/n and i are professionals.â
âoh, stop,â you push him lightly, rolling your eyes with a laugh. âsoobinâs great to work with, though. he made it really easy.â
âis that why youâre so good at teasing her?â jaehyun chimed in, earning a laugh from the room.
the interviewer leaned forward, suddenly switching gears. âspeaking of fans, y/n, people have been buzzing about your recent live stream. you mentioned being a fan of danielle from newjeans, right?â
you felt your cheeks warm, but you nod. âyeah, iâve been a fan of their music since debut. theyâre insanely talented.â
soobin, your wrost enemy, grins. âshe left out the part where she called danielle one of the prettiest people sheâs ever seen.â
âsoobin!â you protest, laughing but clearly embarrassed. âheâs just jealous that i talk to her more than he talks to bebe rexha.â you retort, earning a pout from soobin.
âsheâs not wrong,â jaehyun chimes with a teasing smile. âevery time her name comes up, y/n turns into a total fangirl.â
âokay, thatâs enough,â you said, trying to shut them down but laughing too hard to be serious. âlook, danielle is really sweet. weâve texted a bit, even met in person, and sheâs just as nice as she seems.â
the interviewer didnât miss a beat. âso, whatâs it like talking to someone youâve admired for so long?â
you hesitate for a moment, then smile. âitâs honestly been really cool. sheâs interesting and kind and just... really easy to talk to. and yeah, sheâs absolutely gorgeous, but thatâs probably not news to anyone. sheâs everything i ranted about in my infamous livestreamâŚâ
the room erupted in laughter, and soobin locked eyes with the camera. âdid you hear that, danielle? she thinks youâre gorgeous.â
you buried your face in your hands, groaning. âwhy did i agree to this interview?â
the interviewer grinned, clearly loving every second. âwell, it sounds like youâve made a great new friend. and who knows? maybe weâll see her at one of your premieres and not just the celine event someday.â
âmaybe,â you said with a shy smile, trying to brush it off. but deep down, the thought made your heart race.
the cast laughs, and so do you. the interviewer continues on, teasing soobin about his bloopers and viral photos. you tease him even more, considering it karma for him doing the same to you. and when you think you canât laugh anymore, they bring up jaehyunâs old films and roles, embarassing him just a bit as well.
â
the city lights blurred outside your taxi window as you leaned back, phone pressed to your ear. danielleâs soft laugh came through the line, making your stomach flip for reasons you didnât want to admit.
danielle decided to call you after your interview. when you asked why, she simply responded with a âwhy? do i need a reason to want to talk to you?â which only made your stomach twist more.
âso,â she began, voice playful, âyou survived the interview, huh? did your costars expose your secrets?â
you groaned dramatically. âthey did. they kept teasing me about⌠well, you.âÂ
âabout me?â her tone was teasing, but you could hear the hint of curiousity hidden in it.
âtheyâre relentless dani,â you mutter, though the smile on your face was obvious in your voice. ânext time, iâm dragging them into a live stream and making them go through public humiliation.â
she laughs again, light and airy. you lean against the window and smile harder. âyouâre quite dramatic, y/n. maybe they jus like pointing out the obvious~â
âthe obvious?â you ask, feigning innocence.
âyou know, ho wmuch you like me,â she teased, her words carrying something playful.
âoh shut up,â you groan again, laughing despite yourself. âiâm never live streaming again. youâve ruined me.â
âyouâre the one who brought me up in the first place,â she counters, tone smug. âdonât blame me for how smitten you are.â
âsmitten? rightâŚâ you shoot back. âsomeoneâs confident.â
âonly because you keep giving me reasons to,â she quipped, but there was a slight softness in her voice now, like the banter was more of a cover.Â
youâre impossible,â you say, shaking your head, your your smile only widened. you bite your bottom lip, twirling your hair ever so slightly. âbut youâre also probably exhausted. you should get some rest.â
âarenât you exhausted from the interview? i only had practiceâyouâre telling me to rest?â she teases, though her tone had softened further.
âiâm serious,â you say, voice queter now. âsleep tight, danielle.â
there was a pause on the other end, not awkward but lingering. âyou two,â she said eventually, her voice just as soft.
you both stayed on the line a moment longer, neither of you wanting to hang up. finall, you broke the silence.Â
âgoodnight.â
âgoodnight,â she echoed before the call ended, âstay safe.â
leaning your head back, you sigh, letting the giddiness settle in your chest. as the taxi pulled closer to your place, you decided to send her a pictureâyour post interview outfit, slightly rumpled, hair a bit messy, and a tired peace sign held up for the camera.
a moment later, her response popped up:
danielle:Â cute
your heart skipped, and then another text followed.
danielle:Â goodnight :-)
you stared at your screen for a long moment, grinning like an idiot, before typing back a quick ânight.â you tucked your phone away, feeling like you could float the rest of the way home.
â
âmorning?â you respond tiredly, leaning against your counter. âsomething up?â
he huffs, great.Â
âmorning? try good afternoon,â your managerâs voice came through, laced with exasperation. âwe have a situation.â
you already dreaded whatever was coming next. âare you serious?â
âi donât know how you do it.â
âwhat?â
âhow have you managed to go viral again? you and soobin this time: dating rumors.â he says.Â
âwhat?â you respond in disbelief, âme andâ me and that bitcâ me and soobin? thereâs absolutely no way.â
âthere are pictures from the interview yesterday going viral,â your manager explained. âpeople are assuming that you and soobin might have something going on.â
mark hears you make a disgusted noise through the phone. âwhy the hell would they think that?â
âapparently, you two were standing close, thereâs one of you leaning on him, and another where youâre laughing while nudging him. theyâre harmless, bit fans are running with it. despite your whole danielle thing, fans are running with this. boy and girl, girl and boyâyou know the gist, things run around faster and easier.
you groan, pinching the bridge of your nose. âthatâs so grossâheâs soobin. heâs like⌠a brother to me. and iâm a lesbian.â
âi know that, trust me. but the internet doesnât,â mark says dryly. âjust be careful. maybe you two can talk to each other, clear the air?â
âokay, okay. iâll talk to you later.â you muttered before hanging up.
you check out social media for a bit, looking at the pictures going around and furrow your brows at how platonic they look. a girl canât lean on her guy friend anymore? okay⌠right.
immediately, you pull up your contacts, scrolling to soobinâs name.
y/n: we have heterosexual allegations
not even a minute later, your phone buzzed with an incoming call. you answered, alreadying rolling your eyes. âsoob.â
âwe have straight allegations?â he questions, voice filed with disbelief, even despair. âgod, no. absolutely not⌠not you, especially.â
âthanks,â you deadpanned.
âyouâre welcome,â he quips, âbut seriously, what do we do? should we post something?â
âdefinitely. letâs make this clear before is spirals. people are already clipping us from other interviews and our scenes.â you say, standing up right. âiâll post something on my instagram: the pictures we took yesterday. iâll caption it something normal and you can just reply normally. simple fix, right?â
âperfect,â soobin agrees. âyou post it, and iâll repost. weâll just step on the fire.â
within minutes, you were typing out the caption, attaching a candid picture from the event of you two laughing together. once the post was live, you refreshed your feed, watching as likes and comments poured in. soobin reposted it immediately with a laughing emoji, and soon enough, the narrative started shifting.
you couldnât help but smile in relief as you saw comments like: âokay, but their friendship is so cute,â and âbest friends of the industry!â
you texted soobin one last time: crisis = over. lunch sometime this week?
his reply was instant: only if youâre paying.
â
danielle scrolled through her phone, her face buried in the pillow as she lay on her stomach. the soft glow of the screen illuminated the quiet room, the only sounds being her occasional sighs and the muffled hum of her members beyond her closed door.Â
twitter was like a battlefield, one she didnât fully understand. the pictures of you and soobin, paired with captions like ânew favorite couple?â and âlook at their chemistry!â made her chest feel heavy in a way she couldnât explain.
youâre just friends, she thought to herself. why do i even care?
yet, despite trying to brush it off, her fingers kept scrolling. she stared at the photos for longer than she wanted to admit, her stomach twisting uncomfortably. why did it feel like this? you werenât hers, youâre your own person.
you two have only gone out together once, spent time with each other maybe twice, and havenât really indulged in anything deeper. if anything it felt right that you and soobin were a thing, considering the chemistry she noticed in interviews and whatnot. still, she frowned, thinking there was something different between the two of you. especially the way you noticed and looked at her like no one had before.
a knock on the door broke her from her spiraling thoughts. before she could answer, haerin poked her head in.
âdanielle? are you okay? you havenât come out all morning.â
danielle quickly locked her phone, shoving it under her pillow. âiâm fine,â she lied, her voice muffled against the pillow.
haerin frowned, stepping inside and sitting at the edge of the bed. âyou donât seem fine.â she gently tugged at danielleâs arm. âwhatâs going on?â
danielle groaned but didnât resist when haerin pulled the pillow away. âitâs stupid,â she muttered.
âstupid or not, youâre clearly upset. tell me,â haerin pressed, her tone soft but firm.
danielle hesitated before finally mumbling, âi saw the rumors about y/n and soobin.â
haerin raised an eyebrow, confused. âokay? why does that bother you?â
âi donât know!â danielle sat up abruptly, running a hand through her hair. âit shouldnât. but seeing those pictures⌠it just⌠it made me feel weird. i donât like it, ugh!â
haerin tilted her head, studying danielle carefully. âweird how?â
danielle hugged her knees to her chest, avoiding haerinâs gaze. âlike... sad. but that doesnât make sense, right? i mean, she can date whoever she wants.â
realization dawned on haerinâs face, and she leaned closer. âdanielle... do you like y/n?â
danielle froze, her cheeks flushing. âwhat? no! i meanâŚâ she trailed off, her heart racing. did she?
haerin waited patiently, her expression calm.
âi donât know,â danielle admitted, her voice barely above a whisper. âiâve never felt like this before. and if i do⌠isnât it weird? liking a girl? iâve never done that before, iâve never really liked anyone period⌠but if i did i figured itâd be a guy. i mean i kind of always noticed the female celebrities more andâ oh my god, am i gay? i like girls⌠i think iâve always liked girls. why am i realizing so lateââ
haerinâs eyes softened. she reached out, placing a reassuring hand on danielleâs shoulder. âitâs not weird, danielle. itâs normal. liking someoneâboy or girlâdoesnât make you any different. it just makes you human. itâs fine, itâs no big deal. like who you like.â
danielle looked at haerin, her eyes wide and uncertain. âbut what if itâs not okay? what if i ruin things by feeling this way?â
haerin shook her head. âyouâre not ruining anything. feelings can be scary, especially when theyâre new. but you donât have to figure everything out right now. take your time, okay? and no matter what, iâm here for you. iâve been there, i think there are two others in the dorm that have been too.â
danielle nodded slowly, the weight in her chest lifting slightly. âthanks, haerin. i think⌠i just need some time to think.â
âof course, i understand,â haerin said with a small smile. âbut for now, letâs get you out of bed. youâre not going to figure anything out by hiding under the covers. maybe youâll think clearly after a bit of breakfastâbrunch.â
danielle chuckled softly, letting haerin pull her to her feet. though her heart still felt heavy, haerinâs words gave her a small sense of comfort. maybe, just maybe, everything would be okay.
 â
âno way am i spending that much on something iâll only wear once,â he said, putting a jacket back on the rack.
you two were in some pop-up store downtown, meandering through racks of high-end clothing. the smell of fresh leather and faint hints of something floral lingered in the air. music hummed in the air, some type of house playlist.Â
âyou could always expensive it as a âcostume pieceâ for another project.â you laugh, fingers brushing idly against the fabric of a blazer nearby.
âif only it worked like that,â he snorted, glancing at you. âspeaking of work, whenâs the next press event? arenât we supposed to fly out soon? thereâs too much on my plate⌠but itâs worse for jaehyun.â
ânext week,â you replied absentmindedly, your attention more on your phone than the clothes. the screen buzzed in your hand, and you glanced down immediately, eyes scanning the notification. it wasnât from danielle. you frowned slightly and slipped the phone back into your pocket.
âthatâs the third time youâve done that in five minutes,â soobin noted, a small grin on his lips. âlet me guessâwaiting for a certain someone to text? a certain singer~?â
your ears burned. âwhat? no. iâm justâi donât know, checking stuff. my um,â you cough, âmy momâŚâ
âchecking stuffâŚâ he repeated, his smirk growing. âyou are not slick. itâs danielle, isnât it? waiting for her?â
he laughs when you roll your eyes at him, then raises a brow when you donât deny it.
âyouâre so obvious.â he teases, nuding your shoulder. âitâs cute though. fangirl crush to⌠whatever this isââtext flirtationâ?â
âoh my god, you donât shut up do you?â you say, though the corner of your mouth twitches into a smile. before you could retort further, your phone buzzed againâwhen you check it this time, danielleâs name lit up on the screen. without hesitation, you step away and hold up a hand to soobin.
âhold that thought,â you say, walking a few feet away for some privacy.
âhey,â you greet, trying to keep your voice casual, though you couldnât stop the slight hint of excitement.
âhi,â her voice is soft through the phone, and you could hear the faint sound of city traffic in the background. âare you busy?â
âno, not at all,â you assure her. âiâm shopping with soobin. whatâs up?â
there was a brief pause on her end before she says, âi was wondering if youâd want to go on a walk tonight? itâs been a long day, and i though itâd be nice to⌠you know, just talk. ah! i hope you donât mind⌠i just⌠missed you. i know weâve hangout only a few times, but i really like your energy! oh god, iâm rambling arenât iââ
âiâd love that.â you smile into the phone, balancing your weight on one foot then the other. âthatâs perfect, yeah of course. donât worry about rambling⌠donât ever.â
âokay,â her tone lighter now. âwell, i have a shoot. iâll text you more details, okay?â
âperfect. iâll see you.â you say, feeling a little giddy as you hang up.Â
when you walked back over to soobin, he was leaning against a rack of coats, eyebrows raised knowingly.Â
âsomeone looks happy,â he teases, âlet me guessâdate?â
ânot a date,â you correct him, though the hear rising to your cheeks betrayed you. âjust a walk, you know.â
âthatâs gay.â he mutters, earning a shove. he smirks at you, then adds, âwell whatever helps you sleep at nightâeven if thatâs a âwalk.ââ
you shoved his shoulder again, but the smile lingered on your face. even as you tried to focus on the clothes in front of you, your thoughts were already elsewhere counting down the hours until tonight.
â
the riverside was serene, the water reflecting the city lights in the rippled patterns. the air was crisp but not biting, just how you like it. you spot danielle standing by the railing, her arms wrapped around herself as she gazed out over the water. her hair caught the light, framing her face in soft wavesâher natural hair always left you in aweâand for a moment, you just stood there taking in the sight.
âhey,â you call, breaking her reverie.
she turned, her face lighting up with a warm smile. âyou made it! hi.â
âof course. why would i miss it?â you say, stepping closer until you were side by side.
the two of you started walking, the rhythm of your steps syncing naturally. conversation came easily, as it always did with her. danielle talked about her schedule, how sheâd been trying to find a balance between work and rest. you shared bits about your own projects, the highs and lows of the past week and even something you might audition for.
âitâs a lot sometimes,â she admits, glancing at you. âbut i guess itâs just part of it, you know? the good things outweigh whatever is bad.â
you nod. âfor sure. but itâs okay to feel overwhelmed too. youâre doing amazing, though. seriously.â
she looks down, a shy smile tugging at her lips. âthanks. that means a lot.â
as the conversation flowed further, the distance between the two of you shrank until your shoulders brushed with each step. the contact was subtle, but it was the only thing you could think about. you were hyper-aware of the spaceâor lack thereofâbetween you. danielle didnât pull away, and neither did you.
a light breeze swept by, and you noticed her ears twitch. without thinking, you pulled your beanie off and held it out to her.Â
âhere,â you say, âitâs not much, but i think itâll help.â
âoh, no, itâs okay,â she starts, but you were already placing it gently over her head, adjusting it so it fit snugly.
âlooks good on you,â you admit, stepping back to admire her. âactually, you look better in it than i do. i might have to let you keep it.âÂ
she laughs softly, her cheeks pink from more than just the cold. âyouâre just saying that.â
âiâm not,â you reply, voice light but sincere. âtrust me.â
she looks at you for a moment, her eyes warm and searching before breaking into a smile. âthanks.â
you resumed walking, the easy conversation picking up again, but the air between you felt different nowâwarmer, closer.Â
as the night wore on, the city seemed to fade away, which left the two of you. your steps were in rhythm and your hearts quietly beat at the same time, to another rhythm that neither of you wanted to name.
the sound of leaves rustling fills the spaces between your conversation as you and danielle continued to walk along the riverside. the path was lit by lampposts, casting a soft light that made everything seem dreamlike. danielle, however, seemed distracted, her steps just a fraction slower than before.
âsoooo,â she begins, voice tentative. âi saw something earlier.âÂ
you turned your head to look at her, curious. âyeah? what was it?â
âpictures of you and soobin had been going around on twitter,â she says, glancing sideways at you. âpeople were⌠assuming things.â
it took you a second to realize what she meant, but when you did, you let out a short laugh. âoh, that. again?â
she nods. her expression remained the same as normal, but her hands fidgeted with the sleeves of her sweater. âyeah. you two seem close.â
âweâre realy close.â you say easily, not noticing the slight edge of hesitation in her tone. âbut not like that. soobinâs like⌠my brother? maybe a favorite cousin. itâs very platonic.â
her eyes darted up to meet yours, flickering with something unreadable. âoh,â she says softly, her voice a little brighter. âi guess that makes sense.â
you tilt your head, catching the faint shift in her demeanor. âbesides,â you added, a small smirk tugging at your lips, âiâm one hundred percent gay. women only.â
danielleâs steps faltered for a brief moment again, and you noticed the way her cheeks flushed under the streetlights. she recovered quickly though, and let out a small laugh. âoh. thatâs good to know.â
âyeah,â you nod and shove your hands into your pockets. âsoobinâs great, but absolutely not my type. not even close.âÂ
danielle chuckles, her gaze fixed ahead now. âwhen did you figure that out? you know, about being gay?â
you thought for a moment, the question catching you a little off guard but not unwelcome. âprobably when i was in high school,â you admitted. âi mean, i always kind of knew, but it really hit me when i found myself completely zoning out over this one girl in my art class. she was kind of like you, pretty and nice and sweet andââ you stopped yourself, âyeahâŚâ
danielle smiels, her curiosity evident now. âwas it hard? like, coming to terms with it?â
âit had its moments,â you say honestly. âi was scared at first, like, what people would think or how my family would react. but once i told myself it was okay to just... be myself, it got easier. and iâve been luckyâmy friends and family have been super supportive. itâs normal anyway⌠being infatuated, finding girls attractive, and,â you look at her a little closer now, âhaving crushes on girls.���
danielle nods, her gaze lingering on you a beat too long before she looks away. there was something⌠softer in her expression now, a quiet kind of admiration mixed with something else. you noticed the shift but didnât comment, not wanting to break the moment.
âthatâs nice,â she says finally, her voice quieter than before. âi think itâs brave.â
you shrugged, trying to play it off, but the sincerity in her tone made your chest tighten. âjust being honest, i guess.â
the conversation pauses, but the air between you felt warmer now, more intimate. danielleâs eyes flicker to you again, her expression thoughtful, and you couldnât help but feel like you were walking closerânot just in steps, but in something unspoken between you two.
âwhy do you ask, anyway?â you question.
âah, wellââ she completely short circuits, trying to find the right words. âthereâs, well, i think i um, i like someone. i donât know, well, i do.â
you raise a brow, looking at her confusingly.
and then it hits.
sheâs avoiding your gaze, fidgeting with her fingers, and the blush on her cheeks is apparent. itâs all apparent: sheâs asking you about liking girls, calling you when she can, texting you, complimenting youâit all makes sense now, everything leading up to it. and youâve been dropping hints too, but you never noticed hers.
âand whatâs this girl like? is she nice?â
âahâ well, itâsâ i donât know. sheâs really sweet, but anyway,â she tries to shift the conversation, but you butt in.
âiâve been kind of into this girl actually.â you admit, kicking a rock on the ground nervously.Â
âreally?â
you hum.
âwhat is she like?â danielle asks, glancing at you shyly now.
âwell,â you start, sucking in the courage to continue on. âsheâs really pretty, and i managed to get closer with her in just two months. i always had a little friend crush on her, but even so i always thought she was gorgeous.â
âis that so?â danielleâs cheeks flush a bit as the realization starts to hit. âwhat else?â
âwell, the more we got to know each other the more i found myself thinking of her late at night. sheâs easy to talk to and i really like that about her. iâm pretty into her, and i think a lot of people know it despite how much i try to deny it.â you shrug, looking at the ground. âum, w-what is your girl like? the girl you like.â
thereâs a smile on her face, one that would be impossible to wipe off.
âsheâs⌠sheâs really cute.â danielle says bashfully. âsheâs kind, funny, caring, and i kind of grew to like everything about her. i canât stop thinking about her and talking about her to my members, and when she posts or something about her goes viral i canât help but go a little crazy. she accidentally revealed her crush on me to a lot of people and i couldnât believe it, even now iâm unsureâŚâ
âwell i think she likes you a lot.â
âdo you?â
âmhm.â you stop in your tracks, watching danielle take a few steps before stopping. you two stare at each other for a bit, struggling to maintain eye contact. âi think sheâs been trying to ignore the fact that sheâs in love with you, but canât because youâre impossibly easy to fall in love with.â
danielle blushes, stepping closer and pushing your shoulder as she tries to compose herself.
âokay,â she mutters quietly, looking down at the ground. âdo you think she could close her eyes?â
âmaybe.â you nervously say as you close your eyes, huffing shakily.Â
danielle stares at you, features a little tenseâreally all of you is tenseâbefore leaning up a bit and pressing a chaste kiss to your cheek.Â
she pulls away, blushing furiously.Â
you open your eyes, blinking twice to make sure none of it is a dream. danielle stands in front of you, biting down on her teeth to try to keep herself from going insane. she looks away, scared and flustered all at the same time.
âdo you think she⌠do you think she liked that?â
you nod, âyeah, but she thinks you missed.â
âwhatââ
you cut her off, tilting her chin up and pressing a quick peck to her lips.Â
danielle gasps, then looks at you with widened eyes. seconds later she leans forward, meeting you in a longer kiss.Â
she melts a bit, your bottom lip trapped between hers as she slides her hand over to your neck. and when she pulls away, she hides her face near your ear.Â
âdid she, did she think that was okay? iâve never um, kissed a girl beforeâi havenât kissed anyone before.â
âi think she wants to kiss you again.â
danielle laughs, pulling away and cupping one of your cheeks with her hand. itâs small and soft and warm all at the same time against your burning skin. you smile as she brushes her thumb over, nodding.
âi think i want to kiss her again too.â
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Live from New York, Itâs Saturday Night! - Mark Lee
Summary: In September 2024 you found out that youâll be hosting Saturday Night Live in December! Youâre a bit nervous and as time passes you realize you need to choose a musical guest. What happens when you request one of your favorite artists and he just so happens to be in NY that weekend for Jingle Ball AND has a new solo releasing the next Monday (you just donât know about the solo yet). Will he say yes?
soloist!Mark x actress!reader
warnings: implied that Y/N reads fan fiction about Mark because I thought it was funny, fluff, kissing
masterlist
authorâs note: I know all of Dream were in NY but for plot purposes Mark is a soloist in this fic because I didnât want Y/N to seem like a solo stan for inviting Mark alone
âMATT IF YOU DONâT SAY SIKE RN IâM GOING TO HIT YOUâ a womanâs loud voice echos through the apartment
âY/N WHY WOULD I JOKE ABOUT THIS. I know this has been a dream of yoursâ A males voice can be heard from the phone in the her hand.
Letâs pause and give some background context, shall we?
Y/N L/N, accomplished actress at the young age of 23 years old. Youâve been acting since a young age starting on the Disney Channel. When you were a teen you made it out of Disney and began taking more rolls outside of the image you had previously crafted for so many years. Now here you are, a multi-academy award nominated actress (youâve won a couple too đ). You grew up watching Saturday Night Live with your parents and SNL was a goal youâd always wanted to achieve in your career which brings us to the present day. Youâve been booked to host SNL and you couldnât be more excited!
"Matt can I call you back, I'm gonna go scream, cry, hyperventilate, and probably run a lap around the block" You tell your manager Matt, he's become more of your best friend in the time you've known him so he's pretty used to your dramatics.
"Yea, I'll get more details and discuss some contract related things with them and I'll swing by yours in a couple hours." He finishes hanging up the call.
You let out a squeal as you skip around your house. If you were being completely honest with yourself, you don't think you were this happy when you got nominated for your academy awards.
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As the days grow into weeks, Halloween is beginning to approach rapidly and you're on your way to meet with team at SNL to discuss of details that need to be prepared ahead of time for your episode.
your episode...
Yup! your episode in the 50th season of SNL. Things are moving quickly. It's already been almost a month since you got the call notifying you of your casting and you haven't been able to think of anything else. You're so excited to hear the pitches from the cast about the skits they want to do. Being able to work in this environment is like a dream come true.
One of the things you're nervous about is the topic of the meeting today. They want you to have a musical artist picked out so you will need to be providing a list of people that they can reach out to to ensure they get the artist booked before everyone has their schedules set for the holidays.
You arrive to the meeting greeting everyone in the room as you listen intently to what's being said. As time goes on you just get more and more excited about the process.
"... and finally the last thing we need to get ironed out today is who you'd like to have for your musical guest. As you know this episode will be airing December 14th so we'll need to be mindful of holiday plans and schedules so we really should get on this soon. For right now we'll get the name of the top artist you'd like to have and we'll have your management send over the rest of the list via email so we can get an artist booked as soon as possible."
You nod as you listen intently.
"So who is your top artist at the moment" He looks at you expectantly
"I'd like to have Mark Lee be my music guest. He's a singer and wrapper with a sizable following and I think he'd be a great fit." You try to come off confident but you know he has the power to just flat out say no if he wants
"Hmmm... I'll have to look into him before we make any calls but... we'll keep you updated." You nod in response.
You leave the building with a pep in your step and a smile on your face as you anticipate the coming months of preparation
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"Hey Matt, what's up" You ask as you pick up the phone. It's a Saturday in November so you were relaxing at home as you watch the people wrapped in their winter coats facing the cold of the coming New York winter.
"I have an update from SNL. I thought you'd like to hear this one."
"Oooh what is it?" He's piqued your interest
"They've confirmed your musical guest for your episode of SNL and the guest was from the list we gave them"
"OH MY GOD really?!?!!?! Is It Mark? Matt please tell me it's Mark." You didn't want to get your hopes up but clearly your attempts were futile for how much you were anticipating his answer.
"Stay calm Y/N... but yes... Mark's management just agreed to have him be your musical guest"
"...Matt...I'm going to mute myself real quick..." You quickly get out before muting yourself and screaming bloody murder into your pillow. THE Mark Lee... agreed to be YOUR musical guest... on YOUR episode of SNL...? Life just took a whole new turn of unreal. You've been a fan of Mark for a while now and him agreeing to join you is insane.
You clear your throat as you pick your phone back up again "...hey Matt... soo... Mark Lee... he said yes?"
"Yup he'll be in town for the jingle ball event that's happening the day before so they agreed to extend his stay for a couple of extra days"
"Great! I can't wait!"
"The SNL producers would like to hold another meeting soon to discuss the logistics with his team and with you so start preparing yourself mentally. I know you like him but don't try to jump his bones through the screen."
"Heyyyy, I would never..." You try to defend yourself.
"Yea yea... I'll talk to you soon"
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"Y/N it's good to see you again, I hope your preparations have been going well." One of the producers greets you as you enter the room
"They have! I'm excited to be back with you all again"
"Y/N this is Mark Lee and his manager, they're joining us through zoom from their company in South Korea. Today's objective is to talk over what our expectations are for Mark as the musical guest as well as clear up any questions. Shall we get started?"
You nod trying to focus on the task at hand and less of the fact that the man you've had a minor celebrity crush on for years isn't perceiving you over zoom at the moment.
"After we received your offer I put some thought into the songs I'd like to perform that day. I think this is a unique opportunity and I think the songs chosen will be perfect for the SNL stage" Mark begins
"We figured it'd be nice to start with a slower track with a nice intimate mood 200 - Minhyung's Version as it's a more unplugged acoustic vibe. For the second song we'd like to have Mark perform a single that is yet to be announced but will be releasing December 16th. It's called Fraktsiya. It's a hip hop song with a heavy 808 base and we think it would be a big draw for him and for the show to have it be the first time anyone hears it officially." Marks manager explains.
You can't help but perk up at the mention of a new song.
So does that mean I'd get to hear it for the first time in rehearsals? Before anyone else does..?
Not the time Y/N you mentally scold yourself for letting your thoughts wander during an important meeting. You shake away your thoughts and pay attention for the rest of the meeting.
"This was a very informative session, we'd like to thank you all so much for the opportunity to have Mark perform on such an iconic show" You hear his manager say as the meeting wraps up.
"It'll be our pleasure to have you here in December. We'll be in touch" The producer says before the call is cut and you're all dismissed
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December 14th, 2024, show day
Here you are, sat in your dressing room, running over your lines preparing for the final rehearsal before tonights live show. Due to his schedule at Jingle Ball yesterday night, Mark wasn't able to the join the rehearsal meaning you'll be seeing him for the first time today when you run through the show.
"Y/N it's time to head out" Matt gets your attention as you quickly get up and head towards him so the two of you can head to set
"Let's go" You say with a smile
"Keep your hormones in check when we get out there"
You slap his shoulder in response "Hey I am a very calm and composed thank you very much. It's not that big of a deal"
"Your tumblr history says otherwise" You freeze while looking at hime with your mouth agape
"MATT GET BACK HERE" You run to catch up to him
As the two of you arrive to set you're done smacking him for seeing your tumblr history and youâve been able to mostly calm the bright blush that had appeared as you slowly approach the producer.
âGood morning Y/N are you ready to get started?â He asks as you and Matt reach him
âYup! Letâs get started!â
You begin your final rehearsal with the opening monologue which goes without a hitch and finally the moment youâre waiting for, Mark is going to rehearse his songs
He comes out onto stage looking very casual as he introduces himself and checks his mic. You decide itâs for the best if you stand to the back to watch because you knew yourself. You wouldnât be able to not ogle him so you may as well do it from the sides instead of in front of everyoneâŚ
God heâs so cool
As he rehearses 200, you canât stop staring. Heâs on a stool with a spotlight on him and the guitarist playing next to him and his voice is so melodic and calming. Youâre blatantly staring at this point but you donât care, heâs so charismatic and his aura is mesmerizing, you canât help but watch intently.
âThank youâŚâ he says into the mic with a short bow as he finishes with everyone clapping for him. The producers chat with him and the band before they change the set for Weekend Update. You arenât needed for this segments rehearsal so you head back to get some snacks from your dressing room. You arrive closing the door behind you taking a breathe pulling out your phone as you scroll for about 15 minutes before you get a text from Matt.
You power your phone off and you leave the dressing room. As you close the door and start walking down the hallway youâre met with a something hard that sends you stumbling back
âOh watch out!â
You grab onto the wall next to you as you feel a gloved hand grab your arms to help stabilize you.
âYou okayâŚ?â You look up to see who you ran into and of course⌠itâs Mark
âOh! Y-yea⌠Iâm fine sorry. I wasnât looking where I was goingâ you mentally slap yourself for stuttering
âNo itâs okay, I wasnât looking eitherâ he sheepishly scratches the back of his neck
You take in his appearance and you see heâs wearing the same outfit as earlier but his hoodie has been replaced with a long leather jacket
âAre you also heading to set?â You calm your inner fan girl and ask
âYea I am, shall we?â He asks knowing that youâre heading that way too.
You nod as you walk next to him. The two of you having casual conversation. He told you about Jingle Ball yesterday and you told him about the cat you feed sometimes on your block that also happens to be named Mark (you didnt name him, you swear his collar said Mark when you found him)
âDude thereâs no wayâŚâ
âI swear. Heâs got this old collar on him and I swear it says Mark. Iâll have to show you a picture.â You laugh at his disbelief
The two of you finally arrive to set and go your separate ways so he can get onstage as you find Matt giving you a knowing look.
In response you slap him before turning turn attention towards the stage.
An unfamiliar heat starts playing through the speakers as Mark comes out looking the same as he did when you saw him only now heâs sporting some expensive looking shades and heâs got this intimidating aura around him. Heâs not the playful Mark you met in the hallway.
Your mouth fall agape as you watch him rap his new song exuding nothing but utter confidence
Yeah, how many schedules in a day? (Baby, listen)
Heâs pulled his glasses down as he tilts his head down looking at the camera above the glasses so he can make eye contact
My airline miles fling honeymoon out of space (I said listen)
He turns his head look towards you as you says the line before redirecting his eyes ahead before adjusting his glass back to cover his eyes properly again
SM got to wait (SM, listen)
Phone is buzzing, uh, SNL shoot with Y/N
I said, wait
Youâre frozen in your place as he says your name⌠did he adjust the lyrics? You know he did but it still made your heart race a little too hard. The fact that the entire song is him bragging about his accomplishments and you have a spot in the lyrics, even if itâs just an adlib for the live show. You have to calm yourself down at the thought
You continue to watch him finish his rehearsal with wide eyes. When he finished the song you clap along with the rest of the crew before continuing on with the rehearsal. You had a couple skits along with Mark who they included in one. He did really well despite the lack of rehearsal time and by the time you all finished you were feeling ready for the live show that night.
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You were sat in your dressing room after getting styled for the top of the show. Youâve got some down time so Matt left you to go probably flirt with one of the cast members he found cute (but wouldnât admit it) so youâre relaxing in your chair trying to shake the nerves. Your mom flew to New York to watch live tonight so you really wanted to do well for her.
Your thoughts are interrupted by a knock on your door
âCome inâ you say as you turn around to see who knocked and to your surprise⌠your met with the face of Mark Lee
âOh Mark? I didnât expect you to come byâŚâ you say with a smile
âYea⌠I had some downtime so I figured Iâd stop byâ he says walking in scratching the back of his neck awkwardly again.
âYou look nervousâ you laugh lightly
âNahhhh⌠well⌠maybe just a bitâ he says âbut I think Iâll do fine. I think Iâm more worried about how people will perceive the new song rather than whether Iâll do wellâ
âHmmmâ you hum in understanding âwell I do owe you a picture of little Markâ you say pulling out your phone âoh! Feel free to sit downâ you usher him over to the couch as you sit next to him
âLookâ you show him a picture of a little orange cat thatâs a bit chubby
âAwww dude heâs so cuteâ
âI know rightâ you pull back the phone and zoom in on the collar âlook what I told you⌠heâs named Markâ
âThatâs a crazy coincidence man⌠I have to meet this Mark sometime.â He laughs out
âOoooh I donât know about that. Two Marks within close proximity⌠the world might implodeâ you fake a shiver as you lean back on the couch
âMaybe your rightâ he chuckles at you before also leaning back on the couch
âNow how did you meet this Mark? Heâs not a stray is he?â
âNo⌠although thatâs what I thought at first but I called the number on his collar and he has a home. Heâs just an outdoor cat. He only comes home for foodâ You say thinking of the cat youâve begun to love âIf he was a stray I wouldâve adopted himâ
âYea⌠maybe I should get a cat and name him Markâ
you chuckled at his response. âMark and Mark. Sounds like a comic bookâ
âYou know some people think Iâm like Spider-Man⌠a superhero has gotta have a sidekickâ He laughs looking at you
âShould I call you spider-mark then? Youâve got your guy in the chair and everything it seems.â You chuckle out
âJust you wait someday Iâll be in the spider-verse moviesâ
âIâll look forward to itâ you smile âyou are missing one thing thoughâ
âWhat is it?â He raises an eyebrow as he sits up and looks back at you
âWell you need an MJ of courseâ you say sarcastically as you look at him
He quirks an eyebrow at your statement âoh yeaâŚâ he pretends to think âI think Iâve got an MJ though tooâ he says as he looks at you âso Iâm all set by your logicâ
Your eyes widen slightly at his statement âoh yea. I guess soâ you cast your eyes down for a second and when you look back up Mark is much closer to you
âYou look disappointedâ he says inching forward
âWhy would I beâŚâ you donât move towards him but⌠you also donât move away.
He smirks a little âI donât knowâŚâ he brings up his hand a gently brushed your hair behind your ears as his face is just inches from yours
âI-â you can respond before you hear Matt knocking on your door
âY/N itâs time to get backstageâ you and Mark immediately break from one another before you stand up and clear your throat
âOk⌠Iâll be out in a secondâ you walk to your vanity grabbing your water and drinking some before turning back to Mark
âI should goâŚâ you say to Mark, who has now risen from his spot on the couch and has begun to approach you
âYea⌠you shouldâŚâ
You look up and meet his gaze before beginning to walk towards the door. You donât get very far before you feel a hand grab your wrist.
You donât even have a moment to say anything before you feel a soft peck on your cheek
âGood luckâŚâ he says softly
âTh-thanksâŚâ you stutter out as your cheeks glow bright red.
You hurry out of the room and rush backstage to get ready for the start of the show
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The first half of the show goes by in a blur. All the sketches have been going really well and there has yet to be a problem. Now you're at the part you're most excited about Mark's stage
"Now introducing... Mark Lee" The audience claps as everyone becomes focused on him. He's dressed in black pants with a white button up unbuttoned with a tank top underneath. You listen as he sings 200, completely enamoured by him from your place behind the camera. You've realized you're beginning to fall for this man in the short time you've been able to really meet him and part of you wants to think he feels the same with the way (you think) his eyes shift to you behind the camera every so often. But you refuse to get your hopes up and get your heart broken.
He finishes up the song before heading back to get prepared for the next song as they bring out the Weekend Update set as usual.
You laugh as Colin and Micheal share their usual good jokes along with their bickering enjoying seeing the iconic pair in their element with your real eyes. Before you know it you're introducing Mark for his second song.
You take your place behind the camera once again as you take in his new appearance. His shirt now neatly buttoned with a tie around his neck. His thick sunglasses and his black leather clothes with his hair slicked back topping the look off made your jaw drop. He looked HOT
You watch the audience excited for their reactions to his new song and you could tell everyone loved it. You were so into the atmosphere that you almost forgot to pay attention to the stage and before you knew it, everyone was clapping and cheering for him.
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The show ends successfully as you say your goodbyes to everyone onstage before heading back to your dressing room to change into your regular clothes. As you've finished changing, you're collecting your things when you hear a knock on the door. You don't even get the chance to say come in before you see it open and Mark steps into the room.
"Sorry... I-" he sighs clearly a little unprepared
"You okay Mark?" You begin to step closer to him
"Yea yea.. I just thought you had left... someone said they saw your manager leave so I wanted to come check" He says a bit nervously
"Well I'm still here... so what do you need?' You look up at him but he's clearly avoiding your eyes.
"Well, I have to go back to Korea tomorrow... but I was wondering if... I could get your number." He says as he raises his gaze to meet yours
You softly smile at his request before you nod "give me your phone"
The two of you exchange numbers before you fall into some lighthearted conversation again. He's so easy to talk to. He laughs at your jokes and he matches your energy perfectly. He's just easy to be around.
You grab the rest of your belongings while you chat and once you're ready to go he walks you out to your car.
"This is it huh...?" He asks you hesitantly
"Well it cant be. You haven't met little Mark yet" You smile back at him. "Now you have a reason to come back to New York"
"Make that two..." He says softly
"Huh? What's the second-" You barely finish your sentence before you feel his soft lips on yours. After a moment of hesitation, you wrap your arms around his neck as his go to your waist as you reciprocate the kiss. It felt sweet, soft, careful, like he's testing the waters, but almost desparate, as he knows it'll be a while before you see each other again.
The two of you pull away "I'll see you soon... spidey..." you say softly with a smile on your face. You quickly peck his cheek before running into your car. You don't look at him out of shyness as you drive off with a bright smile on your face and 200 - Minhyung's Version blasting through the speakers of your car.
This took me way too long to write to I hope you all enjoyed this. Also yes I made up the SNL skit but it was FOR THE PLOT Iâm not too proud of that part
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I posted this on Twitter⌠BIG MISTAKE
I thought it was funny and that it would only reach the target audience⌠yeah
Now it has 10k likes and people want me DEAD!!!
But fr like theyâre saying how disgusting and harmful it is to draw Napoleon
They assume that Iâm glazing him and I think he was an awesome fella
You can check it out here
(Might go private later so do it asap)
BUT NONE OF US ACTUALLY LIKE LIKE HIM!!!
Theyâre so sensitive omg
And itâs the same fucking conversation every time cause there are always new people who had never encountered the history fandom before and think theyâll achieve something by telling me about a negative action of his (which I would obviously know about)
and calling it weird⌠yeah itâs the internet what do you expect
Maybe I shouldnât have used the word fanart (since it makes it positive ig)but it was never supposed to reach those people anyway
I might focus more on the other figures for a little while cause itâs obvious who causes the dramaaaa
This was supposed to show the struggles Iâm dealing with rn in a funi way but apparently Iâm the devil now thanks
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