#where is my positive reinforcement

[selfconsciousfangirl]

What is even the point on going to bed earlier than usual, going to sleep earlier than usual if it takes me so long to wake up I’m late for everything

[moeblob]

I love Chris so much you guys.

[measlyscrapofseafood]

thinking abt clu sometimes being affectionate towards rinzler b/c of his past feelings towards tron

[theirloveisgross]

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[averlym]

HI I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE INTO ADAMANDI HOLY SHIT. Can’t believe so few people know about this masterpiece of a musical

:OOOOO hai i agree it is criminally (haha yknow bc there are crimes..) underrated!! and really brilliant!!! discovered it literally midway through the week and akdfjgsjhdsjhjgdf

have a doodle of the saints :3

[saltpepperbeard]

Hey, felt like being angsty lol.

I was rereading your post about Stede not opening up and how people give him the opportunity to do so but he rejects it. And yes , Ed does do that in episode 6 but when else? Who looks after Stede in the way he looks after others.

This might be unpopular, but I don't think the crew feels the same found family way towards him that they do to each other. Yes, some of his behaviour rubbed off on them, but he doesn't seem like a priority to them. They like the environment he provides but not him, and that makes me sad.

Dammit I just want Stede to get mad and have it taken seriously. Like the last time was when he snapped at ed about Jack , and then Ed left (completely understand why).

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now anon, why would you Do This. was just minding my business and sipping my silly little gay person iced coffee and was Brutally Attacked PFFF.

But okay, now that my heart has been torn out and is just Chilling On The Floor, I can share your sentiments. Because for REAL; something I want so so bad is for someone to look Stede in the eye and earnestly tell him that he's doing a good job, that he matters, that he's ABLE.

I think they were getting there. I think the seeds of such had been planted. The crew were beginning to adopt his practices and act with the kindness he instilled--one of my favorite examples being Jim using the Wooden Boy story to calm Fang down. And there were some instances where his skills were acknowledged, like Ed telling Lucius and Pete that Stede had things under control, Hellcat Maggie recognizing his "people positive management style" and reacting positively to it, and even Izzy throwing the little 👌 when Stede was assertive.

But like...EARNEST recognition? The same energy he puts out to everyone else??? HE NEEDS THAT.

Like...And THIS might be an unpopular opinion lol, but Ed complimenting him after the British beach fight. Again, we're GETTING somewhere. It's headed in the right direction. But it came from Stede fishing for it, and didn't have the same energy as the exchange between Ed and Zheng. He needs that same acknowledgement, that same EXCITEMENT, that same earnest "WOW you did so well and all your effort was so fucking amazing!!!"

Because he tries so hard! And does so much!

He literally put aside his own grief to make sure the crew made it safely back to the Revenge. He took a breath and acknowledged that the crew did what they had to do for their own safety, when they had killed the very reason Stede was running around the Caribbean. He continued to provide and look out for them even when his own feelings were gnawing away at him, and continued to lift them up whenever he could.

And yet they still found it so easy to walk away from him like pLEASE,,,

Granted, I think him caring for and prioritizing Ed after the events of episode 2 probably created quite the disconnect with the crew. And I think him riding his attention high in episode 7 and subsequently acting out didn't help their perception either.

But like, that's also just it: he CARES, and wants OTHERS to see him as well. He tears out his heart, and really just wants someone to finally catch it and cradle it. He just wants it all to mean something; HE wants to mean something.

SO YES, ANON; #LET STEDE BE EARNESTLY ACKNOWLEDGED 2KFOREVER

[wonder-worker]

"Hannes Kleineke cites Dean and Canons of Windsor MS XI.B.6, rot. 2, for evidence of a deathbed codicil by Edward IV concerning a dispute between the knights and canons of Windsor"

remember when I said that we don't know what Edward IV's deathbed codicils were as they haven't survived? that there is no reason to automatically assume they were relevant to his son's minority? that it's entirely possible that they weren't very important at all considering how dismissively Croyland spoke of them ("some codicils thereto", with no emphasis or elaboration whatsoever)? I LOVE being proven right <3

[sophopolis]

i think it was rly bad for me to be on tumblr as a teenager bcuz i got totally tumblr brained like where their ideology is absolute morality. ur fav is problematic lol

im fine now im grown. and i am embarrassed of who i was as a teenager bcuz i was really annoying and stupid but thats just how shit go tbh

if ur a teenager i think u should delete tumblr its making u stupid i promise

[astriiformes]

Curse of finally having writing energy again but it's for the smallest fandom I've ever been in so I still don't get comments.

[alucardsinep]

not even joking the concept of adhd tax has literally changed my life

[absentmoon]

im FREEZING and DAMP

[blamemma]

What did you mean when you said on those tags 'it makes you just think and its not good thinking'

ohhhhhhhh wellllll.....i just....don't think....daniel....will return....to f1....

i do think part of it is just me trying to save a little bit of my sanity over this year and just accepting he won't ever race again, but that end montage of daniel in ep.10...to me he seemed at peace and accepting of the situation he had found himself in....and I just think that he's out in the world now with a plethora of free time, smiling, hanging out with friends and family whenever he wants, potential to settle down and have stability with heidi....why would you give that up, when you ultimately find joy in that....why would you come back to a sport that chewed you up and spit you out and where you ultimately have no guarantee it would ever work out again...personally, I think that he would have to have ultimate confidence in himself and in the team he would return into for him to make that decision and I only see that with Red Bull....he would have to know that the potential for success is there and I don't mean a wdc but a few race wins, being competitive, cocky overtakes...but do I see rbr kicking checo out....its honestly way too early to tell but I just....I lean towards no unless rbr really do get trounced in the constructors this year...and even then....there's a whole pool of drivers they could easily choose from...

[meet-me-in-the-kitchen]

being in my 20s is so weird sometimes because i can feel my pre-frontal cortex developing

[2colde]

i want to be paid extra for not showing my frustration when people are being obtuse SORRY but there are many such cases and i feel i should be rewarded

[bearpillowmonster]

"I think siblings getting along is just a myth created by the media." - My dad.

[cheekys-slut]

Goals for tonight: get the structure of this wig done, so that I can justify spending an age gluing hair onto it tomorrow