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thetomorrowshow · 3 months ago
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Whumptober 7 - only for emergencies
title: in which gem is the only one with normal eyes
fandom: hermitcraft smp
cw: blood and injuries, mild gore, mild cannibalism (idk if it really counts as cannibalism tho...)
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“Oh, we’ll be out of here pretty quick!” Scar declared confidently. “Xisuma won’t rest until he finds us.”
“And if he doesn’t?” Pearl questioned. Gem elbowed her.
Scar just waved her off. “If he doesn’t, then I have a back-up plan. But only for emergencies, I’m sure it’ll never come to that!”
They were stuck in here, in this concrete room, a sink and a bucket in the corner. The door was heavy and locked; the only comfort they had were three ragged blankets, which they had each dragged to separate spots in the room, marking their claim for somewhere to rest.
Gem had never been kidnapped before. Not officially, by someone who wasn’t a Hermit. But there was a first time for everything!
“I’m sorry, guys,” Pearl said after a long moment, the little feelers on her head twitching. “I shouldn’t have gone out in public with y’all.”
“Don’t say that,” Gem reprimanded, smacking Pearl on the arm.
“It wouldn’t have been the same without you!” insisted Scar.
“I just . . . if I hadn’t, then maybe—”
“Then we wouldn’t have gotten to go on this fun field trip!”
Scar grinned. “I love fun field trips. Don’t you, Pearl?”
Pearl rolled her eyes, but at least she was smiling. “Whatever.”
“My mom packed me cookies for this field trip,” Scar stage-whispered to Gem. “But I’m willing to trade.”
“My mom just gave me money to buy food.”
“Oh, that’s way better! Now my sandwich looks boring.”
“What kind of sandwich?”
“Classic peanut butter. But I’ve also—”
“I didn’t think I was kidnapped with children,” Pearl said drily. “Do you two mind?”
Scar grimaced. “I think we made the bus driver mad.”
“We? That was all—”
“I wish the torture would start, already.”
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They came for Pearl a couple of hours later, by Gem’s watch.
They’d been out on the Hub for a game of lazer tag, of all things. It was supposed to be Gem, Pearl, and Impulse, but Impulse had dropped out last second, and Scar had happened to have a coupon to the lazer tag place, so the three of them went instead.
There was another group in the arena with them, college-age kids, and they all managed to have a good time together. They had seemed like nice kids.
Gem would never stop berating herself for not paying much attention to the way one of them kept staring at Pearl’s antennae. People noticed her—it wasn’t normal at all for an alien to be found on a public world. They usually kept to themselves, as far as Gem knew.
She’d never met one other than Pearl, at any rate, nor had she known anyone who had. In fact, many people didn’t believe they even existed. The Hermitcraft server was split on the issue, with certain people like Ren and Keralis sure of their existence, and others like Cleo and Mumbo fairly dubious.
Pearl had shown up near the beginning of Season 8, and that had put a definitive end to that casual debate.
Gem had honestly forgotten how uncommon aliens were. When you lived with one like Pearl for as long as she had, it became normal. When Pearl had asked about lazer tag, she hadn’t hesitated to find a place where they could go play. She hadn’t even thought about Pearl’s less common features.
“We should’ve seen this coming,” Gem said now, fiddling with the band of her watch. She’d noticed the way that kid was looking at Pearl, but she hadn’t thought anything of it. How could she have ignored it?
Scar shrugged. “Yeah. I forgot that aliens aren’t a thing.”
“Me too.”
“Are you keeping track of how long she’s gone?”
Gem nodded. “Forty minutes, now. How long do you think until Doc and Xisuma find us?”
“Well, they took us to another world,” Scar said contemplatively. “Last time someone got kidnapped, it was . . . Grian, I think? And that only lasted a couple of days, Xisuma tracked him down fast.”
“Do people get kidnapped a lot on Hermitcraft?”
“Usually one per season, at least! Didn’t you notice when I got kidnapped last season?”
“You—what?”
Scar waved nonchalantly. “Yes, yes, I missed a Boatem company meeting for it! I was gone for . . . a week? Maybe less.”
Now that he mentioned it, she did vaguely remember hearing that Scar spent an extended period of time off-world. She didn’t know that he’d been kidnapped, though.
“So it took Xisuma a week to find you?” she said, skipping over Scar’s kidnapping for now.
“Oh, no. Xisuma didn’t find me, I broke out. I mostly stuck around so long because I needed a vacation.”
“So . . . he might not find us within the week?”
“He will! He usually figures it out, at least.”
Gem groaned in frustration, buried her face in her knees. “I hope Pearl doesn't mind waiting.”
She was really trying not to think about Pearl, about what they might have been doing to her. Pearl was strong, that was for sure, but Gem had never seen her in a situation like this. Were they experimenting on her? Observing her?
There was surely some black market out there for aliens. Would it come to that? Were they just showing Pearl to potential buyers?
Were they hurting her?
She couldn’t let herself think about it. Hopefully, Pearl would be returned to them. It was silly to think she wouldn’t be—they were presumably using Gem and Scar as leverage to get Pearl to do what they wanted. As long as the two of them were still here and fine, Pearl was likely also still here somewhere, and not auctioned off to some highest bidder.
That was what was important. Pearl was here, and they were here, and Xisuma was going to get them out of there.
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If Gem hadn’t been told, she probably wouldn’t have guessed that Pearl was an alien.
There were plenty of hybrids on Hermitcraft—avian, blaze, dog—, so Gem would have willingly believed that Pearl was some kind of bug hybrid. It wasn’t too far-fetched. She had antennae, and spines on her arms, she could crawl up walls.
The only thing that gave her pause was her eyes.
Pearl’s eyes reflected a galaxy. They spun with stars and planets and darkness, and Gem once spent all day comparing an image of their galaxy to the one in Pearl’s eyes and had found nothing similar in them. She wondered sometimes if the galaxy changed, if there was any way to map what her eyes displayed.
She wondered what Pearl saw.
Her eyes were the most beautiful things Gem had ever seen, and now, as she gently brushed Pearl’s hair back from her forehead, she wished she would open those eyes.
“Why are they keeping us around?” Scar murmured, tucking his blanket around Pearl. They only had the one thin blanket each, but Scar just buttoned up his shirt to protect against the cold.
“I don’t know, but I’m not complaining.”
Pearl groaned, shifted just slightly in Gem’s arms. “It’s because of me,” she said, not opening her eyes.
“Hm?”
“I get energy. From people. They want me to be . . . healthy.”
“Oh,” Scar said. “You’re an extrovert?”
Pearl snorted, finally opened her eyes. Yep, those stars still spun. “I draw energy from people,” she clarified. “It’s how I stay alive, being near others. They keep you here so that I can eat your delicious energy.”
“Yum,” Gem said.
“Yum yum,” Pearl confirmed. Her antennae wiggled. “I absorb it through my antennae.”
Pearl already looked a little healthier than she had when they first threw her back in the cell, and sure enough, Gem was feeling a bit sleepy.
She hadn’t looked too roughed-up, thankfully. A couple of bandages on her inner elbows and hands, a woozy look on her face. Just some tests run, probably. She’d been gone for about six hours.
But this was only the first day. What would happen tomorrow?
“Maybe we should break ourselves out,” Gem suggested. “It can’t be that hard, right? How many guards were there, Pearl?”
Pearl shrugged, her eyes slipping closed again.
Scar tugged on his sleeves. “We should wait,” he said. “I mean, Xisuma’s going to find us any day!”
Gem bit her tongue. She didn’t like to sit around and wait. She liked to get to the action, do things herself, make a push when others weren’t expecting it.
But Scar felt like they should wait, and they weren’t hurting Pearl too badly. It wouldn’t be the end of the world to wait.
Gem clenched her fist and just pulled Pearl closer.
-
“You know the drill, up against the wall.”
Every day, three people entered the room.
Scar and Gem would scoot to the back of the cell, sitting on the floor with their hands above their heads, pressed to the wall. One man would stand close to them, a stun gun trained on them. The other two would haul Pearl up by her arms and leave, the third backing up behind them. The third man always locked the door.
Gem could easily take out three men. No problem.
Every day, three people entered the room. Four went out.
This was the seventh day, and she was getting really sick of waiting.
“I’m gonna go for it tomorrow,” she told Scar. Scar shook his head rapidly, hiding a yawn.
“No—no, we should wait,” he insisted. “It’s only been a week, Xisuma’s—”
“You said to wait a week,” Gem countered. “I waited a week. Nobody’s found us.”
“We don’t have any weapons!”
“All of the guards have swords and stun guns. I’m GeminiSlay, I can take one down with my bare hands, then take his weapon!”
“I—look, I have a plan if it gets bad,” Scar said, wringing his hands. “But it isn’t bad, yet, and we just have to wait a little longer.”
Gem sighed. Sure, it wasn’t too bad so far, but Pearl was still suffering.
She now had dark bruises trailing up the insides of her arms, the evidence of many blood draws or IVs. Clinical stitched-up lines marked her arms and bare feet, and Gem was sure that she’d been cut open and stitched back up in more places than that, but she held her clothes closed (her shirt had been sliced down the back for easy removal) and shook her head whenever Gem asked if she wanted help with wounds.
She didn’t really talk much, not anymore. She just rested against their shoulders and slept. Gem and Scar usually fell asleep quickly, her drain on their energy pulling them down as well.
Maybe it wasn’t as bad as it could be, but it was still bad. They had spent days here, leaning on one another, their energy dwindling more and more as Pearl required more from them. They only got fed once a day, and the sink in the corner of the room provided water but there was nothing to drink with, and cupping their hands barely got anything.
Plus, Gem had a base to be building. She didn’t have weeks to spend locked up in here.
“I’m going to attack,” Gem decided. Scar grimaced, buried his face into his knees. “Tomorrow, when they come to get Pearl. If you want to help, you can.”
Scar didn’t respond.
So Gem just settled in with her singular blanket and started planning.
-
It went perfectly.
Until it didn’t.
Gem launched herself at the first guard through the door, wresting his stun gun from his grip. She turned it on him, holding down the trigger until he was writhing on the ground. Then she hit the following guard in the face with the hilt of the gun—and she aimed for the third one—
But it wasn’t right.
There wasn’t just a third guard.
A fourth guard followed in, then a fifth.
Coming straight for her.
Before Gem knew what was happening, she was down, electricity burning through her spasming body. She gasped—her vision went red, flashing, the only sound that echoed through her ears was a distant screaming—
Then it ended, and Gem took in a ragged breath, the world returning under layers of static.
“No more standing, for this one,” a too-loud voice growled. Gem wrenched open her eyes, looked up—
A blurry guard was holding a club over her leg—
He swung, landed with a deafening crack, and Gem screamed and screamed and screamed.
She couldn’t breathe past the pain for far too long. Long enough that black spots floated in front of her eyes, long enough that her chest strained with the lack of oxygen. She gritted her teeth hard enough that one of them gave under the strain, but after several swelling moments, she managed to draw in a breath.
“Okay, can you hear me? Gem, Gem, how many fingers am I holding up?”
She blinked several times, but couldn’t quite keep her eyes open. It hurt so much, sickening pulses spreading out from her left leg, and then it hurt even worse and fire flashed through her brain—
“It’s me, it’s okay, I’m just—I think it’s broken, and we should probably set it but I don’t know how to do that—can you look at me, Gem?”
“Hurts,” she managed, tears squeezing out of her closed eyes.
“I know, I know . . . oh, Gem, oh, this is bad—this is so bad—”
Gem swallowed, then finally forced her eyes open.
Scar was there, leaning over her, hands fluttering as he tried to decide what to do first. Eventually, he just kneeled beside her head, pulling her into his lap. Gem couldn’t restrain a small noise in the back of her throat as even that movement shifted her leg a tiny bit, but she leaned into Scar, desperate for any comfort that might help ease the pain. He wiped her forehead with his sleeve, brushing back strands of hair.
“Oh, geez. I’m sorry, Gem. This is pretty bad, huh? I’ve got you, don’t worry.”
“I’m worrying,” she choked out. Scar chuckled nervously.
“Yeah. Yeah, me too.”
-
Gem slept most of that day, but by the evening, she was more-or-less conscious and able to think through the pain. Her leg was definitely broken, but they didn’t dare set it, not without a doctor present.
She and Scar didn’t talk. Scar sat in the back corner and picked at his nails, glancing around anxiously every once in a while. Gem rested on the ground, trying not to so much as twitch her leg.
When Pearl was thrown back in, though, they were silent for a different reason.
One of her antennae was missing.
It was cut off, messy stitches closing the wound, and Gem could do nothing but gape as Pearl lay in a slumped heap on the floor, her singular antenna barely twitching.
“Oh, Pearl,” Scar said at long last, breaking the silence and diving to Pearl’s side. “Oh, Pearl. I’m so sorry.”
Pearl’s shoulders trembled in a move so foreign that Gem had never seen it before, couldn’t reconcile it with her Pearl—
She was crying. Gem saw it, briefly, as Scar lifted her into his lap—Pearl’s eyes leaked sparkling tears, each one like a miniature star rolling down her cheek.
Then Pearl’s face was hidden in Scar’s chest, and Gem almost believed that she had imagined it. Pearl didn’t cry—all the time that they’ve been here, she’d smiled and laughed almost like it was any other day (albeit more tired and with a few more winces).
If Pearl was crying, that meant things were really bad.
“They—” Pearl choked out, voice muffled by Scar’s shirt.
“Sh, sh,” he hushed. “We’ve got you.”
“They—they’re mapping my eyes,” she cried. “They can’t—they’ll find—they’ll find my home!”
Gem had never asked Pearl where she came from, how she found herself on Hermitcraft, and she never shared that information voluntarily.
Maybe it was to protect her past.
Maybe it was to protect her family.
“Scar,” Gem whispered. When he looked up, she tried to convey to him that this was serious, far too serious to wait any longer. She nodded her head toward Pearl, then toward her own leg.
Scar’s face fell. He bit his lip, glanced between Pearl and Gem.
After a moment, he nodded to himself, coming to some sort of decision.
“I’ll get us out of here,” Scar murmured, gently stroking Pearl’s hair. “I’ve got it, don’t you worry about a thing.”
-
When the guards came in the next morning, Scar didn’t move from his spot against the left wall of the room, swathed in the darkest shadows that the cell had.
“Against the back wall,” the one with the stun gun commanded, aiming it at him.
Scar smiled, just visible in the darkness. It was a smile that would be considered friendly, jovial, if the person didn’t know Scar.
Gem knew Scar. She recognized that smile from a million miles away. It was the smile he wore when he was about to close a shady deal, when someone played right into his hands, when he was in games of death.
It was hungry.
“Move!”
“No, thank you,” said Scar cordially. “I think you’ll move, actually. Right back out of here, if you want to live.”
Gem blinked, surprised at his level threats. She hugged Pearl a bit tighter, her friend limp in her arms.
The guard snorted. “Yeah, right. You have until the count of three to get against that wall.”
Scar sighed. “Don’t say I didn’t warn you,” he said regretfully.
“One.”
“Y’know, it’s always count of three. Why not count of five? Or six?”
“Two.”
“Just wondering! Gem, you might want to close your eyes.”
“Three.”
The guard strode toward Scar, gun out, finger on the trigger.
Gem did not close her eyes. Pearl didn’t look, face still buried in Gem’s shoulder, but Gem watched. She wasn’t afraid of a little bloodshed, and she had no clue what Scar was planning.
Did he really think that he could take the guards on his own, when Gem had failed so definitively just the day before? What did he have that she didn’t?
Suddenly, Scar’s eyes shone from the shadows.
And they shone blue.
Scar leapt at the guard, fangs—since when did he have fangs?—bared in a snarl, and Gem barely had time to blink before Scar’s teeth were ripping into the guard’s throat, tearing it out entirely with frankly impressive jaw strength.
The other two men shouted—one guard got out his own stun gun and hit Scar with a bolt of electricity, but Scar took it in stride without so much as a flinch. His skin rippled, fading blue to match his eyes, and as Gem watched, leathery blue wings burst from his back, shredding his shirt.
The guards barely had a chance to scream before Scar was on top of them, slashing through their flesh with his sharp teeth and black claws (sprouting from his fingertips, still growing longer and longer). He destroyed them in a matter of seconds, blood and viscera flying everywhere, spraying across Gem’s face. She choked, wiped off her eyes, then noticed, with a sense of growing horror, that Scar had stopped to—to eat one of the bodies, digging a hole into his chest and pulling out fistfuls of flesh with reckless abandon.
She opened her mouth to call to him, but no sound came out. Her lips trembled, her breath caught in her throat.
Was this creature still Scar? Blue and terrifying, wings flapping and long claws stuffed into a body, his pointed teeth dripping with blood. His hair was the same, his features still Scar’s (but for the eyes, piercing and ice-blue), the scars on his face unchanged.
Would he recognize her if she spoke to him? Or would he attack them, too?
How had Scar become this—this monster?
Another guard ran up to the cell, but instead of entering, they slammed the door shut, locking it.
That didn’t seem to do more than mildly annoy Scar and distract him from his meal. He growled animalistically, then scampered (and he moved oddly, launching himself from all-fours to flight in a couple of steps, his hands and feet pushing him along even as his wings carried him) to the door. Without warning, he stabbed his claws into the metal of the door and tore through it like it was nothing more than a leaf of paper.
Then he turned, his glowing eyes lighting on Gem and Pearl.
Gem couldn’t help it—she flinched away, pulling Pearl closer to herself. She didn’t know if Scar was a danger to her or not, but after what she just saw, she wasn’t prepared to be seen as a friend.
Oddly enough, Scar’s face twisted in regret. He offered a shrug—rather downplayed by the blood coating him. “Sorry,” he said, and his voice was entirely Scar’s (if with a bit of a lisp from the longer teeth). “I didn’t want—I didn’t want it to come to this.”
Gem wasn’t a squeamish person, but she still avoided looking down at the mutilated bodies. She couldn’t stand to think of literally eating a person—what had Scar become?
“I—I’ll explain later,” Scar said, as if he had heard her thoughts. “I’ll go find a communicator. And destroy their stuff.”
He dashed off down the hall.
Pearl moved against her, tipping her head back. “I’m tired,” she mumbled.
“I know,” Gem said, trying not to gag at the scent of blood that had begun to permeate the room. She swallowed, pushing down her fear. “We’re going home. Scar’s getting us home.”
That was all Pearl needed to hear. She fully slumped against Gem, dead asleep. Gem gently rubbed her back, buried her nose in her hair (carefully avoiding the stump of her antenna).
She hoped they got out of there quickly.
-
Pearl spent a lot more time resting than she ever had. Gem figured it was something similar to chronic fatigue, now that she was missing half of her main source of energy.
When she asked if it would grow back, Pearl had just shrugged.
“Only if I go back home.”
“Are you going to do that?”
“Probably not. It’s far away.”
Pearl still managed to create massive builds practically overnight, though, so Gem assumed it didn’t bother her too much.
Gem’s leg was still recovering, a month out from their week in captivity. It had been broken severely enough that she’d needed pins to hold the bones together, which put her at six weeks minimum in the cast. It limited her sparring and building abilities, but she did what she could on crutches to keep her skills from getting rusty.
She couldn’t spend all her time practicing, though, in order to let her body recover, so she ended up filling a lot of her time with meditation. Her impatience is what got her leg broken, after all, and she’d been beating herself up about it ever since.
Scar joined her, sometimes, at various points of interest across her base where she could look out over the valley and Pearl across the way. He would sit beside her in silence, oddly contemplative as he, too, stared at Pearl’s builds.
Gem understood, now, why Scar hadn’t wanted to act except in case of emergency. She wouldn’t want anyone to see her like that, either.
He had fully transformed back into something human (she wasn’t sure that he was human, though) by the time rescue arrived, and Cub had taken one look at the gore and taken Scar straight to his base on Hermitcraft, ignoring Xisuma’s insistence that he get checked over for injuries.
Now, as they sat on a hill, a couple of feet between them, Gem wondered what Cub knew.
Scar sighed beside her.
She wasn’t scared of him. She wondered if that was what he thought, that he kept sitting with her and sending her terribly guilty and forlorn looks because he expected to be faced with fear and disgust.
She wasn’t scared. It had been—well, it had been a shock, and she still hadn’t quite gotten the image of Scar eating a human body out of her head, but she wasn’t scared.
She just felt . . . awkward, bringing it up. Scar clearly hadn’t wanted them to see that part of him. He probably felt vulnerable, rejected. Why he kept hanging around her, she didn’t know, but she had to get rid of the barrier between them.
“How’s Scarland coming along?” she asked one day, kicking her good leg a little.
As simple as it sounded, that did it. That broke the ice, and Scar started rambling about something or other, and the next morning when she settled down to meditate, Scar was already there with blueprints in hand.
She stared at his fingers as he pointed out different aspects of his design, her mind’s eye momentarily seeing a blackened claw glistening with blood.
Well. If she ever needed help to murder someone, she knew who she was calling.
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angelspigeon · 1 year ago
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I do not know if I'm still a Zhongchi writer or not. In a way, I'm a bit afraid and I feel guilty because they are so important for me and Childe is still my little meow meow. But lately, I'm writing a lot of Renheng.
Am I a Renheng writer now?
Would you still be interested by my stuff?
I'm also posting less because I try to care more for myself, post only when a story is over so if I don't wanna finish it, I don't force me or feel guilty. At worst it can lead some people to come support me because it rest only on my patreon/kofi, I suppose.
I just think it helps me to write what I want to write instead of worrying to write what people would want me to write. Like, forcing me LESS to write seggs. I do not regret Camboy AU because the seggs was important in this one, but I do believe I wrote much more simply in hope to like buy love.
I crave love and attention. I think it's a bit normal for a Human being. More again if you get to know me a bit more but... I have to learn to not depend too much on it I guess...
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bizarrebazaar13 · 15 days ago
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what if your doppelgänger wasn’t evil it was just a person. what if your doppelgänger wasn’t trying to replace you it was just trying to learn to be a person and you were the best model it had. what if your doppelgänger looked at you with your eyes and said with your voice that it just wanted to be loved. what then.
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roboticnebula · 3 months ago
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Pros of re-reading your own fic
a good time;
Has exactly the tropes you like and the characterization you want to read;
Gratification: yes you did finish a thing and yes you did do good;
just a very fun time all around.
Cons of re-reading your own fic:
Is that another TYpO
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mysillycomics · 2 months ago
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weltenwellen · 3 months ago
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ugh why must I be always so repulsed by my own vulnerability but I find it very moving and impressive if other people are vulnerable with me????
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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years ago
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Me when I remember something I said ages ago that was wrong or my values no longer align with
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scopeystfu · 1 month ago
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naww this was lk soo satisfying. a bitch with braids it is a guarantee in life that this gonna HAPPEN TO YOU AT LEAST ONCE ESPECIALLY IN A FIGHT AHAHA
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jujubamp4 · 2 months ago
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beach episode
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hinamie · 3 months ago
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post-graduation trip airport looks
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gossippool · 4 months ago
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*steeples hands under my chin like i'm sherlock* so you see,
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kiwi · 10 months ago
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everybodys gotta get back into the practice of using pseudonyms online... i remember the time of screen names where u never ever told anyone ur real name and that was just understood as basic internet safety. plus having a screen name is fun because sometimes it sticks so well that it becomes part of ur identity that u can use in whatever facet of ur life you choose. it rocks to pick your own name
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paintedcrows · 4 months ago
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The Mystery Twins all grown up!! I love them so much. 13 forever, yet always older than me
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inkskinned · 3 months ago
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this is just my opinion but i think any good media needs obsession behind it. it needs passion, the kind of passion that's no longer "gentle scented candle" and is now "oh shit the house caught on fire". it needs a creator that's biting the floorboards and gnawing the story off their skin. creators are supposed to be wild animals. they are supposed to want to tell a story with the ferocity of eating a good stone fruit while standing over the sink. the same protective, strange instinct as being 7 and making mud potions in pink teacups: you gotta get weird with it.
good media needs unhinged, googling-at-midnight kind of energy. it needs "what kind of seams are invented on this planet" energy and "im just gonna trust the audience to roll with me about this" energy. it needs one person (at least) screaming into the void with so much drive and energy that it forces the story to be real.
sometimes people are baffled when fanfic has some stunning jaw-dropping tattoo-it-on-you lines. and i'm like - well, i don't go here, but that makes sense to me. of fucking course people who have this amount of passion are going to create something good. they moved from a place of genuine love and enjoyment.
so yeah, duh! saturday cartoons have banger lines. random street art is sometimes the most precious heart-wrenching shit you've ever seen. someone singing on tiktok ends up creating your next favorite song. youtubers are giving us 5 hours of carefully researched content. all of this is the impossible equation to latestage capitalism. like, you can't force something to be good. AI cannot make it good. no amount of focus-group testing or market research. what makes a story worth listening to is that someone cares so much about telling it - through dance, art, music, whatever it takes - that they are just a little unhinged about it.
one time my friend told me he stayed up all night researching how many ways there are to peel an orange. he wrote me a poem that made me cry on public transportation. the love came through it like pith, you know? the words all came apart in my hands. it tasted like breakfast.
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little-pissbaby · 5 months ago
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fun fact about me! I have hyperadrenergic Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (hPOTS). this means I am prone to fainting when I change positions or when I feel a strong surge of emotion, positive or negative. for me, laughing is my worst non-postural trigger.
this is a clip from playing lethal company with friends a few months ago. you can hear the eerie silence of presyncope at 0:19, and the sound at 0:23 is my face hitting the keyboard lmao. I played this for my mother and she literally pissed herself laughing and DEMANDED I show every single person I know (including my doctors, who thought it was funny to see and surprisingly helpful, especially for being audio only).
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