#when they cry kin

[silusvesuius]

nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am

[literallyangelshaw]

Judge me based on my redacted kins chat

Be brutal

Milo, Damien, Asher, Gavin, Lasko, Guy, David, Angel, Darlin, Treasure, Sweetheart, Dear, Lovely, Starlight

Credits to @moronkyne for Treasure & Dear's icon

And credits to @/ElisaCaleisa (on Pinterest) for Angel, Starlight & Sweetheart's icon

Idk who made Lovely and Darlin's but if yall do know who made them pls lmk so I can give credit if needed 💔

Now judge.

[non4ry]

look at us, you and I, back at it again.

[yellowocaballero]

Been a fan of your fics for YEARS. I was just telling my friend how despite how much I read fics I never actually love them, with some of your fics (especially TMA) as the exception. Felt the need to reread some of them and saw you reblogged some ISAT fanart. So. Any thoughts on ISAT you'd like to share?

Hope you have a wonderful day!! So happy I found your fics again!!

I avoided answering this for a while because I was trying to think of a way to cohesively and coherently vocalize my thoughts on In Stars and Time. I have given up because I don't want to hold everybody here all day and I have accepted that my thoughts are just pterodactyl screeching.

I love it so much. I have so much to say on it. It drove me bonkers for like a week straight. I have AUs. It's absolute Megbait. They're just a little Snufkin and they're having the worst experience of anybody's life. Ludonarratives my fucking beloved.

I am going to talk about the prologue.

The prologue is such a fascinating experience. You crack open the game and immediately begin checking off all of the little genre boxes: mage, warrior, researcher, you're the rogue...some little kid who's there for some reason...alright, you know the score. You're in yet another indie Earthbound RPG, these are your generic characters, let's get the ball rolling.

Except then you realize that these characters are people. You feel instantly how you've entered the game at its last dungeon, at the end of the adventure. They have their own in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They get along well and they're obviously close, but not in a twee or unrealistic way. They have so much chemistry and spirit and life. I fell in love with them so quickly.

But Sif doesn't. Sif kind of hates them, because they will not stop saying the same damn thing. They walk the same paths, do the same things, make the same jokes, expect Sif to say the same lines. They keep referencing a Sif we do not see, with jokes we never see him make and heroic personality he never shows - they reference a Sif who is dead - and Sif can't handle that, so he kills them too.

They become only an exercise in tedious frustration. Sif button mashes through their dialogue, Sif mindlessly clicks the same dialogue options, Sif skips through the tutorial, Sif blows through the puzzles. Sif turns their world into a video game. Sif is playing a generic RPG. Sif forgets their names. They are no longer people with in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They're the mage, the warrior, the researcher, and...some random kid.

I did not understand the Kid's presence at first. I had no idea what they contributed to the game. They didn't do anything. As a party member in a video game, they're a bit useless. Why is the Kid there?

Because Sif's life isn't a video game. Because the kid isn't 'the kid'. They're Bonnie. Bonnie, who the party loves. Why is Bonnie there? Because they love them. There is no room for Bonnie in the boring RPG that Sif is playing. And then you realize that Sif is wrong, and that they've lost something extremely important, and that they'll never escape without it.

Watching the prologue before watching ISAT gave ISAT the most unique air of dread and horror, because you crack open ISAT and you see the person Sif used to be. You realize that Sif used to be a person. Sif used to be the person who made jokes, who gave real smiles, who interacted with the world as if they are a part of it. And you know you are sitting down to watch Sif lose everything that made them a person, to lose everything that made them a member of this world, and turn them into a character in a video game who doesn't understand the point of Bonnie at all.

At the climax of the game, when the others realize that something is deeply wrong and that Sif physically cannot tell them, they realize that there is nothing they can do. So Bonnie declares snacktime. And for the first time they have snacktime.

What is snacktime? Classic JRPGs don't have snacktime. There's literally no point to a snacktime - not in a video game, and not in Sif's terrible life. It's not fixing this, because nothing can fix this. But Bonnie gives Sif a cookie and Sif eats it.

It's meaningless. It's a cutscene. It didn't save Sif and it didn't change a thing. It will make no difference in the end.

But it did make the difference. It made all of the difference in the world. Bonnie is a character who you really don't understand the point of before you realize that Bonnie was the entire point.

ISAT is about comfort media. Why do we play the same video games over and over again? Why do we avoid watching the finale of our favorite shows? What is truly comforting: a story with no conflict, or a story where you always know what is about to happen? Do you want to live in a scary, uncontrollable world, or do you want to play Stardew Valley? Do you want a person or a character?

When I beat Earthbound for the first time (and if you don't know, the prologue/ISAT battle system is just Mother) and watched the ending cutscene where the characters part ways and say goodbye...I felt a little bit sad. I wanted them to be together forever. But that's something only characters could ever be.

[scourgeofshadows]

Me: Loudly sobbing in the closet

My sis: Are you okay? Me: Pauses Apology Tour and looks at her with tears streaming down my face

My sis: Sees my laptop with Apology Tour paused in the bg Ohhh-

[quadrantadvisor]

Sometimes I still think about The Owl House Gang all trying to watch ATLA together but then Zuko's backstory in The Storm retraumatizes Hunter so bad they have to stop

[fruitypiestims]

Rika Furude + wine/alcohol stims

🍷 🍷 🍷 / 🍷 🍷 🍷 / 🍷 🍷 🍷

[spin-the-kin]

[stardustdiiving]

I keep forgetting to share her!! Everyone was talking about kinsonas on Twitter a while ago and I felt compelled to try making one for the lols. I’m kind of obsessed with her . Look at this specimen

[linabirb]

do you sometimes go through your posts on your old blog and see something that suddenly makes SO MUCH SENSE now that you know you're a system

[scissorcraft]

-trying to be SO normal about higurashi-

-failing-

[little-red-fool]

…Starting to think that Zevlor might be more of a comfort character for me than Astarion.

[puppypalette]

[shayandwildlifepack]

[TW: Death and shit that comes with that, idk maybe more? If you find any more things that should be in this trigger warning pls tell me.]

Also, shit is happening in my life rn. I recently [on September 11th] lost my cousin, she died and we aren't sure how exactly yet. So, yeah. Death is fucking weird and I don't think I process it normally (AuDHD). So I may end up not posting for a while or might end up posting like every day.

Just sharing so ya'll know what's going on if I disappear for a while [even though I would likely do that even without this shit happening].

We aren't sure when the funeral thing is happening yet, I slightly hope it's soon so I can see my family, I don't live by that side of the family, sadly. Probably gonna end up missing like a day of college, but whatever, my family [my pack] is more important to me.

My cousin left behind a son. He is a kid. He's younger than I was when my mom in this life died. [I was like 16 when that happened, and I won't be sharing how old my 2nd cousin is]. So I really wanna see that side of my family, so I can try and be there for him. He's gonna need people there for him, and if I could without getting in trouble, I would drop out of college rn to be around him while he is going through this. (Protective wolf/dog instincts?)

There's just a lot of shit going on rn with my life, I wish it would stop for a bit.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/xe/ze) :((

[We is referring to my family, btw]

[thelonelyfog]

One of the worst parts about all of this is the things I still can't remember.

I can't remember Sasha. I mean, I know what her voice sounds like now, but I still can't remember her. I've seen the fandom's interpretation of her and it feels right? I think? But how do I know? How do I know that any feelings of "accuracy" are her, and not some last remnants of the Not Them? How do I know if what I'm remembering is right, or if it's still whatever that thing put into my head?

I want to say I don't mind not Knowing. I never really took issue with it; not the way Jon did (which makes sense, I suppose). But something about it feels... bad? I don't know if it's a need to know so much as a guilt. Do I need to know her, or do I just feel guilty that I don't? I think it's the former, but there's no way to know. Not really.

Some of this sounds like something Jon might've said, I think. I miss him. I miss all of them.

[ezralambu]

WHO THE FUCK IS THIS MAN AND WHY ARE THEY SAYING ITS ME??!