#when I say I’m in denial…….
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How great would it have been to have Lila and Diego’s marital problems actually be that they’re both tired of normal marital life, when both of them are secretly getting back into the superhero / assassin gig behind eachother’s backs?
Like, ok Diego can still has his infidelity suspicion plot, thinking lila is cheating on him with five (which is fake. Didn’t happen at all. We all agree right?) but it turns out that Lila and Five are actually meeting up to plot, talking about old commission stuff on the downlow. Diego sneaks out to find them having dinner and he’s heartbroken, but it’s actually them eating takeout over assassination plans with files all over the table detailing how to kill someone without a trace, with pictures of alleyway vantage points and sniper rifles.
I didn’t expect this to end up being A Whole Thing but I had to write it out. Full thing under the cut:
Meanwhile, Diego’s been lying to Lila about losing his job. He hasn’t shown up for work in weeks, and recently got fired. Levaing the family financially unstable. Diego’s still showing up to be a dad during his usual scheduled times, but he hasn’t been paid in a while and both parents seem to be pulled away in different directions. And now the kids have begun to notice. This comes to a peak when one of their kids spot someone in their house at night dressed in black, and they tell Lila later that they saw Batman. Obviously Lila sees right through this and confronts Diego, who confronts her right back over her infidelity. Lila laughs in his face, because he’d have to be insane to think she’s ever do that, and with Five?? The barely-legal teenager who killed her parents? Are you stupid?? (Stares directly at the camera). But Diego’s hurt. He can’t get a clear answer on what they’re doing because she doesn’t want to admit she’s tired of being a housewife and wants to kick ass again. All they can agree on is that this isn’t working anymore, neither of them are happy, and they just hurt each others feelings.
So this fight ends in Diego storming out. They’re on a break. Lila is heartbroken, the kids don’t know what’s going on, and Diego throws himself wholeheartedly into being a vigilante again. It’s shown he’s fighting some shady organization that seems to have far reaching ties—related to Reginald, Abigail, and their new reset empire. Lila doesn’t know what to do, she gets some in-laws to stay over and look after the kids as she goes out to look for him (to no avail) and it ends up being the day she and five planned on their big assassination happening. Lila caves and says to five he’s gotta do this himself because her family is falling apart. Five is annoyed and makes a quip about how this is why he never lets romantic attachments get in in the way of him doing a job (stares directly into camera).
So five takes his sniper rifle and goes to the location early, where he’s positioned to take out their mark. Lila is out looking for Diego, and Diego is kitted up, on his way to take out these shady people he’s been making a case on, and intends to stop what they’re doing before they do it.
Anyone pick up where this is going yet?
Diego shows up at the location—a shady laboratory owned in secret by Reginald Hargreeves. The place is familiar. Diego slips into an alleyway. but what’s this? We’ve seen It’s the exact same alleyway but from a different point of view! Five is perched on the roof with a sniper, looking down at him. He gets his quarry in his sights and takes one final, steadying breath. This mission is going exactly as planned. The idiot showed up right as predicted. He didn’t even come with backup this time. It’s a textbook fish in a barrel. It’s almost disappointing how this couldn’t be an easier kill. But maybe Five’s glory days are just behind him. He puts his finger on the trigger.
Cut to diego and Lila’s house. It’s dark inside. Gracie and the twins have been put to bed and the in-laws are tired and in the living room. A phone rings, and it’s Lila, calling to say she hasn’t found Diego and is hoping he came back, but it’s not the case. Lila says she’ll be back soon and the in-laws begin packing up to go home. Gracie stands in the hallway, overhearing. To her, her whole world is falling apart, and she runs back to the twin’s bedroom in tears. She can’t believe this is happening. The lights are turned off in the hallway and the house grows quiet. The front door opens and closes and it’s implied that the in-laws have just gone home. Mum will be back soon, but the twins won’t stop crying, so Gracie gets up to get them some milk and cookies to make them happy again. She steps out into the dark hallway
To see a man dressed like Batman, in full fight gear. And she looks up at him with hope in her eyes, saying “daddy?”
Only surprise! It’s not, and they grab her as she lets out a scream. We cut to Diego as he reaches to open the door at the end of the alley only to find it locked, and realize he’s been set up. He spins around only for a gunshot to sound, and it cuts to black.
Lila comes back to the house. Finds it trashed. Finds her Inlaws murdered in horrific fashion in the driveway. Gracie and the twins are gone. And the little domestic life she and Diego made destroyed as we cut back to Diego, bleeding out in the street from what looks like a fatal gunshot.
Then five comes down from his perch to confirm his kill, only to realize what he’s just done.
So there. Here’s a dramatic, non-cheating subplot that has a similar amount of stakes that we could’ve had with season 4. Maybe Lila and Five end up going on a crusade for everyone to get their powers back so they can bring Diego back from the dead. Maybe this is what leads them to the subway, to mess with the timeline again, because as commission agents they can’t let go of the idea that time can be fixed and it isn’t theirs to mess with anymore. Maybe this sends Lila over the edge, and when trapped in the subway with five—she tries to murder him instead!! After all, he’s not only killed her parents, he’s now killed her husband! Why not have five scramble to figure out a way back for all those years while running for his life? (While a scooby-doo like soundtrack plays and they get all turned around and confused). Maybe Diego isn’t actually dead in the end, and it’s all a bait and switch to fool Reginald, who was watching and lines the whole thing up to fuck with them. Taking the kids as a deterrent so they won’t dig any deeper. But maybe in the last second before five pulls the trigger five hesitates. Maybe he doesn’t have what it takes to murder anymore. He swore it off earlier—what glory is he really chasing anyway? Maybe he recognizes the gait of the person in the alley and makes a non-killing shot to just take them out. Maybe he saw ahead that this was a setup by Reginald and made an agreement with Diego and filled his vest full of blood packets. And he fully knows Lila and Diego are both doing secret little vigilante gigs behind each others backs but tells neither because he really doesn’t want to get in the way of some stuffy marital dispute. Nooooo thanks. He had enough of that when he and Delores were together and bickering constantly. Five just wants his family alive and happy in whatever timeline they end up. (Chokes the spirit of Steve Blackman just a little bit harder)
Anyway, everyone else thinks Diego is dead; and all get together again. Weddings and funerals uniting them once more, and each of them reveal how life didn’t turn out how they wanted on their own, and they get to bond and unite to track down Gracie and the twins. “One last time” they agree, to be heroes and finally do something right. To save some little kids. Members of their family! Innocent ones, who don’t deserve to be caught up in their mess. And it culminates in confronting Reginald once and for all and destroying the ill-gotten gains he warped the universe in his favor for. And Reginald’s gone the rest of them can finally have peace of mind. Maybe the timeline genuinely gets better now that one monocoled megalomaniacal maniac isn’t in the centre of the universe anymore. The very thing that doomed the timeline before. And now the umbrellas are able to disband and go on in their lives as normal people in a timeline that exists with no favouritism at all. It’s all just what they make of it
(and hey! Maybe Diego comes back out of hiding and saves the day! And he and Lila both confess they want to take more active roles outside of being parents. And their kids are wowed by the fact that their parents are both superheroes. And it’s cool and awesome and I don’t sob at a very tragic defeatist ending of all I hold dear).
I don’t know guys. There’s so many different ways the final season could’ve gone, but not in a million years would I have chosen to make it go the way it did. That’s a whole other post—but in the end, I just know I’ll be entertaining my own little ideas for what happens to these characters I’ve grown and loved, and keep them alive in my own heart and AU story ideas. Thats the true canon for me, and the rest is just… fuss and marigold dust
#tua#the umbrella academy#diego hargreeves#lila pitts#diego/lila#number five hargreeves#five hargreeves#tua s4 spoilers#tua season 4#tua s4#txt#when I say I’m in denial…….#I am happily wedded to my alternate universes#we’re married. with kids. that ain’t changing#(the kid is my fic The Power Of Love & Incredible Violence)
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Still was probably reading early Dressrosa when I did this one. It’s wild looking at these drawings tbh lmao.
#this was when i was almost out of denial that i was gonna ship em#cuz i was very firmly in the camp of aroace luffy#but what can i say i am a bitch for this kind of ship dynamic#and I’m not NOT still aroace luffy tbh#i generally go ‘Demi-romantic ace luffy’#but also I’m just like idk man they’re queer#which is funny cuz that was my own vibe lmao like i was like I’m ace! I’m biromantic ace! I’m….queer!!!#anyway what kinda tag rambling is this#my art#lawlu#law x luffy#luffy x law#lulaw
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‘billy hargrove wouldn’t bottom’ i know him better than you
#he told me himself#essentially saying he’s too masculine to bottom is so crazy what are we doing here#me when i’m neil hargrove and in denial that my son is gay#preferences are great but this is something else entirely#bottom billy bottom steve who cares it’s never so serious you gotta get that weird about it#billy steve switching so real to me i don’t care#they’re getting crazy with it whichever way they can#billy hargrove#ickyspeaks
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He promised it to me when I was 7 years old.
SUCCESSION 4.10 WITH OPEN EYES
#successionedit#successiondaily#succession#tvedit#userlauren#kendall roy#succession spoilers#jeremy strong#my gifs!#kendall girlies how are we coping?#no seriously how? i’m still in denial 🥲#during that last scene i was waiting for him to speak to say anything but when the music went quiet all i could hear was water 😭
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Finally got around drawing Aioros :D
#saint seiya#saint seiya fanart#los caballeros del zodiaco#sagittarius aiolos#I remember reading somewhere (either a post or some wiki page idk) how aioros is often revered as the perfect saint an almost divine figure#and I’m pretty sure aioros initially refutes being the next pope saying saga would be a better fit (it’s 4am so correct me if I’m wrong)#anyway I watched some of kotz for fun and saw that scene. he seemed rather upset at the news but a sense of distress I can’t really describ#even when keeping in mind that he was only 14 I don’t think it was the responsibility that comes with being a gold saint/pope successor#but more combining the first bit of being highly viewed. he seems like a rather humble guy who’s rather content with risking his life#or has at least excepted that fact. but when seem as more than a simple soldier it makes him uneasy. because he knows he’s not a god#yet is put in such position that when adding his sacrifice at an early age he’s practically legend. and despite the initial denial he will#always be obedient enough to accept the duty placed upon him. this is all to simply say I tried drawing him smiling but it didn’t look righ#so ye. (feel bad for just leaving the thought process to the sketch in the tags but it’s not my best wording so it stays down here)#a smol trivia nugget: I still don’t know how I want to draw aioros :p actually better trivia nugget: the pose/composition is from a photo m#they saw I had taken a photo but my angle was rather bland so they decided to absolutely blow me away with one heck of a photo#theres even nice lighting and everything. real glad I finally used the reference as reference :]
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Anyone else have a *chest of denial*?
#chest of denial#comic#funny#fandom problems#growing up with animated childhood crushes#TMNT#bayverse raph#bayverse leonardo#I’m not saying I’m happy about this#but I am honest with myself#brooklyn gargoyles#kronk#prince sidon#I’m sorry how did you get through the cutscenes of him supporting you without feeling something#I’m sure there are more but that’s enough honesty for now#I broke a brain cell when I found out samwise gamgee voiced 2012 raph#and then got irrationally angry when I found out Seth green voiced le#my art#my shitposts
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i don’t think we’re ever getting out of the “we’re just friends” “oh yeah those characters are such good friends (sarcasm)” “they’re not friends they’re gay” etc etc hole. we’re never getting out of that hole
#yes it’s bad when people try to erase gay relationships to portray them as friends and nothing more#that is NOT what i mean. i’m talking about when people do the Opposite Thing and decide that when characters are romantic togethr#then suddenly they’re not friends anymore! or if they say they’re friends they’re lying!#like … i was watching nimona with my friend yesterday and like. if you’ve seen the movie you know how obviously gay and in love bal and#ambrosius are. and then there’s this one moment where ambrosius says ‘i have lost everything the man i love my best friend’ and at that#moment my friend was like It’s sad that they decided to censor their relationship even though this movie is still rly gay :( and i was like#WHAT are you saying ? these two men are clearly in love with one another BUT they’re also best friends. Like those are things that can#coexist!! and DO coexist!!! there are many cases where people consider their romantic partners their best friends . or even refer to them as#their best friends more than just partner!!!!!! LIKE WHAT ARE YOU SAYINGGGG . does anybody get it#does anybody understand#i’m so sick of amatonormativity i’ll start eating drywall#yes i love making ‘oh they seem like really good friends’ jokes because i know how most people interpret those jokes. but to me it’s like#well. they ARE really good friends. they’re just also romantic/gay about it. ghhehghh#maybe one day friendship will stop being seen as something lesser maybe one day people will realize that most romance is also friendship#and your partner can be and in most cases is your friend or your best friend even#and maybe one day we’ll stop acting like friendship & romance are two mutually exclusive things#and maybe sure that gay character is calling their love interest their Best Friend because of denial and repressed emotions and whatever#but have u considered that it’s just true and they really are best friends ?? like when crowley calls az his best friend sure that might be#gay denial but they also literally Are best friends i don’t know what to tell you. and they will always be best friends#DOES ANYBODY GET IT !!!!!!!! js any of this making sense i dont know. I love complaining#crammerposting
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being clinically diagnosed with something (like bipolar disorder), clearly/consistently displaying the symptoms, and going "no I'm not because. um <3" counts as denial to me. but idk I'm not saying all psychiatric diagnosis is an objective good
#I’m not saying he’s lived his life in the most like healthy way I also wouldn’t call not being keen on accepting labels about your mental#health from a psychiatric system you’ve dealt with on some level since you were a child in the 50s is something I don’t understand or would#constitute as flat out denial when he obviously is aware of his symptoms/issues (no matter how you feel about how he’s dealt with them)#like at that point not identifying with the diagnosis is more about refusing to buy into this constructed thing that is let’s face it often#used against you. imo. which also just being kind of in line with his contrarian/outsider nature like idk I just don’t think he should have#to publically accept a label like that he doesn’t feel suits him for whatever reason or like claim it or whatever I don’t think it’s#necessarily important
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hey!! do you have any skills aspec headcanons? :3
Heyy!! This is a great question I had to think about it, I just sorta had to go with my aroace gut was telling me. To me empathy gives me ace vibes but a hopeless romantic type(all the Psche group gives me slight ace vibes ngl). Also claiming vis calc as my aroace king, no reason other than he’s underrated and I like him :)
#mutual ask#ask tag#sorry that I don’t have a lot to say lol 😂#I jdut realized maybe I think all the psyche is some sort of ace is bc their purple lol#my subconscious#also maybe aro for Drama#as I’m putting on this theatrical performance and coming off flamboyant but not into romance despite what you think at first#also I’m biased of course for Voltion he is my ace king#totally not bc he’s my favorite or anything lol#all the red gang is all flaming homosexuals tho#physical instrument is just still in denial lol#WAIT one exception half light#he can join the aroace gang#as a treat#how could you think of sex when the world is about to end?! kinda vibe lol
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grounding techniques sound like such bs until you’re actually in the thick of it and suddenly find yourself counting shit you can touch and hear n etc and suddenly it’s like oh ok. Horrors are done
#aka. We had a moment 👍#but I’m ok now.#Helps having a very very clingy cat who sits on you as if she’s been trained to do that when she most certainly has not been#Anyyyyway. I need to get Diagnosed .#the one like non-catastrophizing thought I had in that mess ‘wow they weren’t kidding#this Girl can Need To Go Back to Therapy’#Realizing that thing ur previous therapist suggested you might have may actually have some weight to it. Like. Awww fuck#That’s like so much to deal with. I’d like to opt out of this mental health issue thanks.#Not adhd. The Other Thing. The Scary Thing (to me)#I’m dodging saying it because I’m in the phase of like ‘if I dont say it it’s not real’ where right now I can be in denial 👍#because I’m NOT diagnosed. I’ve just had two separate counselors tell me I probably have it. 👍#Which could mean nothing. <- lying to self#vent#<- I mean yes it counts so I’m tagging it as such#clamtalk#it’s 1am I need to bed . Long day tomorrow.
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Emu 🤝 Rui “I’m so selfish for pursuing the thing I want and feeling basic normal human emotions (that I don’t think I should be allowed to feel)” l… emu saying that for the longest time she felt like her dream to keep PXL (and the wonder stage) from drastically changing was selfish and feeling like she was the only one who wanted that after her grandpa died & becoming shackled to that dream & being unable to leave PXL because it’s what she’s been fighting for for so long and it’s what she has left of her grandpa and it’s so hard to let go and trust that she succeeded and isn’t abandoning or failing her grandpa if she’s not still putting everything she has into the park vs rui viewing his desire to keep his friends together and hold onto wxs as something selfish/something that is interfering with what his friends are working towards (even though they all want to stay together as well) and wishing that he didn’t have to feel any emotions because he’s spent so long without connections like these that fighting for them & being anxious about losing them is entirely alien and new to him and to wish for anything but letting wxs go is something he views as selfish. Dreams and desires as a burden and source of constant guilt instead of them being the light at the end of the tunnel. “I’m a bad person for pursuing what I want/what will make me happy but I’m still going to pursue it I’m just going to berate myself for it as I do so” & the fear of letting go of the happiness you’ve found after looking for it for so long because surely if you do you’ll be right back at square one. Emu struggling to accept that nene & tsukasa have dreams that will take them beyond the wonder stage and rui struggling to accept that all of their goals (including his own) are incompatible in the long run and to reach them they’ll have to split up.
#mine#emu#rui#we talk about nene & tsukasa dream/goal parallels it’s time to talk about the mental illness that is rui/emu parallels#there’s stuff to say abt nene & tsukasa I just have less to say beyond ‘always be on the grind never give up 💯💯’ while feeling super#inadequate compared to everyone around you even as you put your everything into improving#I’m sure when I finish up event watching & then inevitably go back and reread stuff I’ll have more to say abt both pairs#at least emu got a resolution w ohe rui is just playing the long game (denial/workarounds/etc)#‘& then they help each other deal with it’ bzzt WRONG I think rui can and should bring emu back into the mental illness zone#colopale voice the tsukasa and nene parallels can be main story and they can talk about it together#but the most blatant emu & rui parallels will be in card stories and they aren’t gonna say shit abt it
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yappped to him about my feelings for him to read in the morning……normal behavior
#When it gets late n I get tired I end up writing whole ass essays to him just so he knows how I’m feeling abt anything now#Yesterday it was abt being trans today it’s abt how lucky I am to have him as someone who is very in denial abt even the smallest of trauma#Like sometimes I hav to look myself in the eye and say “u were in an abusive relationship. Ur gonna have some sort of trauma response”#Like I wanna say I’m past it SOOOO BAD#but nuh uh….I get nervous and paranoid with my bf all the damn time cuz I’m scared things will spirlsb#But I know he’s not like that because I love him and trust him with my whole being and he’s so kind and considerate I don’t think he could#S.K’s love life#Uuushhhhhh I need to sleep so it’ll be tmrw sooner so I can yap with him
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I hate thinking about my fucking gender so much man.
#like I’m not a boy or a man and I don’t want to be but also I get sad when my wife says she’s not attracted to boys#which like is fair but why is that so upsetting to me you know?#then I wonder like maybe I am a trans man? would I be happier if I transitioned or like whatever?#I dont *think* so but like what if? what if I’m really just in denial and all my problems are from being Wrong about who I am
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“Saying DID is trauma based will make DID systems dig for trauma.”
At 19 years old, I remembered my system. We heard about DID in school, and we realized, “oh my god. That’s us.”
We panicked. Our brain tried to latch onto anything and everything to make us feel safe — and the only way for us to be safe, based on my life experiences, was if I didn’t have DID. DID was bad. It was a mental disorder, it was dangerous, I was dangerous if I had it.
I started looking into it, and I found the All Inclusive Communities, the radinclus, the pro-endos who supported every identity. And they told me “🥰 Oh, don’t be scared. It’s not scary. You don’t need trauma to have DID.”
I was so relieved. I leaned into my systemhood, because I was so happy to know it would be okay. I wasn’t dangerous, I didn’t have trauma like those other dangerous people.
Every weekend, I hid my systemhood from my abusive parents as they caused me to dissociate and split further and further, while I thought all was okay. I crashed my car while purposefully dissociating to handle the stress of going to these people while sleep deprived. I allowed myself to be screamed at, to have things thrown at me, to be horrifically emotionally neglected as I always had been, even while the Endogenic systems around me said the same thing anti-endos did: “Your mom yelling at you isn’t traumatic.”
The people around me fought hard to get me to leave. They fought so incredibly hard for me to realize I was in active danger, and I was hurting, and they were traumatizing me. I’m grateful for them, and for the parts of my system who fought back against those of us who denied it all.
This year, at age 26, I finally managed to cut off my parents. And to this day, I still have to convince myself that it is trauma that I went through.
In an alternate universe somewhere, I find a CDD community first. I ask about the possibility of me having this rare disorder. They tell me what I’ve seen said in every CDD-exclusive server I’ve joined that believes trauma is the only cause of DID.
“DID is a childhood-trauma based disorder. It also comes along with amnesia, though, so it’s possible you don’t remember the trauma you went through — or you could be downplaying what you experience, because that’s what feels safe. Our advice is to not go digging, because that’s more dangerous for you right now.”
In that alternate universe, I become knowledgeable about trauma and trauma responses before I’m 22, living with my abusers 24/7. I understand by the time that I graduate that my parents are abusive. I don’t tell my partner, “no, not yet, I can’t move in yet, I need money and I can handle my parents for a year or two, it’s not that bad.”
In that alternate universe, I don’t need to thank the fact that I got Covid, because it meant I needed to move out months earlier than expected, “to keep my family safe.”
I wish I lived there, sometimes. But at least I’m able to share my experiences here.
#syscourse#Armageddon comes while I’m sleeping#venting#but please feel free to share#I’m so tired of hearing that argument as if these people actually care about DID systems#and I see it so many times each time trauma based DID gets mentioned#stop pretending your misinformation is to care for DID systems#stop pretending that denial is better because it’s ‘safer’#I’m the system you’re saying was healthier for being abused when you use that example
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i am very weak for a specific kind of din-centric romance that i’ve yet to see anywhere (probably because it would be tedious to write). i want din to have an Arthurian romance where his Creed and his besk’ad are not obstacles for his partner to vault over into his arms, but part of him, more of him to love. i want din to have a romance where they will love him whether or not they ever get to see his face, or touch his skin, because when din said the helmet is my true face he meant it, and when his paramour said they loved all of him, they meant that, too. the Creed is his blood and the besk’ad his skin and his heart the steady tattoo blasterfire and his soul is the manda and to love a true mandalorian is to love them because of the old ways, not in spite of them. din may walk the galaxy’s gray meridian but his faith in the Creed is absolute. to love him you have to love him for that faith, too.
#this is my joker. i am going to wind up writing some absolute longfic for this man because I DON’T WANT HIM TO IMMEDIATELY DROP THE ARMOR!#romance and desire are built on longing and denial and someone wanting him#initially wanting what’s under the beskar until they realize he is the beskar too; that the reason he’s so emotive through the armor is#because he wears it like skin; maybe some pseudo magical bullshit about inhabiting beskar long enough infuses it with your soul yadda yadda#idk what i’m saying here but. for a series where hope plays a huge role i just think it’s a shame that din’s hope/faith are bypassed so#quickly in fic sometiems when that’s where so much of his character and love potential lies!#imagine the ways of showing love and care for the LI!#shining his armor! adjusting it for him when he’s hurt? finding ways to care for wounds without bypassing armor?#the chivalry and trust of turning your back on a deadly warrior so he can take care of himself?#THE CHASTITY? ITS SOOOO ARTHURIAN ITS SOOOO LITERARY ROMANCE#i’m frothing at the mouth. watch me write the gayest most romantic longfic that is about faith and desire and longing and lust and doubt#that no one but i will read because i’m crazy about this shit#idk what i’m saying. but. religion. interesting. faith. sexy. doubt. delicious.#din djarin#the Mandalorian#walkie talkie.#fic tag.
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#i never realized how bad my dissociation is#I’ve been making voice memos on my walks for a few months now#and the moments i forget what i was saying are very telling#my derealization episodes seemed to me to be completely random#only lately have i been trying to actually pay attention to what could cause them#bc there’s a difference between ‘love letter’ derealization that comes and goes quickly like a notice from your brain to relax#or stop taking things so seriously#but then there’s the times where it stays or it’s there when i first open my eyes for the day#the first time i had an episode it lasted for a month and it was awful#it says a lot more about my mental state#which seems obvious but i think I’m just that detached or in denial about my life and emotions#i truly thought i was an emotionally intelligent and in tune person but I’m really not#i need therapy so bad
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