#there’s stuff to say abt nene & tsukasa I just have less to say beyond ‘always be on the grind never give up 💯💯’ while feeling super

[ssruis]

Emu 🤝 Rui “I’m so selfish for pursuing the thing I want and feeling basic normal human emotions (that I don’t think I should be allowed to feel)” l… emu saying that for the longest time she felt like her dream to keep PXL (and the wonder stage) from drastically changing was selfish and feeling like she was the only one who wanted that after her grandpa died & becoming shackled to that dream & being unable to leave PXL because it’s what she’s been fighting for for so long and it’s what she has left of her grandpa and it’s so hard to let go and trust that she succeeded and isn’t abandoning or failing her grandpa if she’s not still putting everything she has into the park vs rui viewing his desire to keep his friends together and hold onto wxs as something selfish/something that is interfering with what his friends are working towards (even though they all want to stay together as well) and wishing that he didn’t have to feel any emotions because he’s spent so long without connections like these that fighting for them & being anxious about losing them is entirely alien and new to him and to wish for anything but letting wxs go is something he views as selfish. Dreams and desires as a burden and source of constant guilt instead of them being the light at the end of the tunnel. “I’m a bad person for pursuing what I want/what will make me happy but I’m still going to pursue it I’m just going to berate myself for it as I do so” & the fear of letting go of the happiness you’ve found after looking for it for so long because surely if you do you’ll be right back at square one. Emu struggling to accept that nene & tsukasa have dreams that will take them beyond the wonder stage and rui struggling to accept that all of their goals (including his own) are incompatible in the long run and to reach them they’ll have to split up.