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cry-ptidd · 7 months ago

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"And she had brown eyes like a lamb, innocent and golden"

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penofwildfire · 2 months ago

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Geo and Bonzle's relationship is something so nebulous and not entirely definable but so, so incredibly loving. Less father and daughter and more older brother and teen sister that he feels responsible for. She showed up when he was at his absolute lowest, barely keeping himself alive as day after day after day of agonizing loneliness went by. She knew that loneliness all too well and they found so much comfort in eachother. And even as their family grew their dynamic never really changed. I just. Hrghghhghghghgghgghgghhfjfjfhfjgjghggjjghgh ��💕💕

#god I can't stop thinking about how Geo must've felt when Cole told him Bonzle was gone #he wasn't there for her. she “died” alone and scared and he was just waiting at home for her to come back #if he'd been there.. if he'd just been able to help.. god if he'd even just gotten to say goodbye #I really do not think Geo was in a good place mentally when he met Bonzle #I mean come on. abandoned and forgotten by the geckles and munce and alone in a junkyard wasteland? I'd lose my mind #augh they're so important to me #ninjago #dragons rising #ninjago geo #ninjago bonzle #geo finder #bonzle finder #I started writing this post in the middle of the night then I blacked out and finished writing it when I woke up

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kuruna · 2 months ago

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I finally gave Xan's wife a name ^.^ miss Erenia...

#hope talks #Xanthos #I've been thinking about her lately 😭#i think its very fun for Xan who is very organized and Proper to end up with someone who is the opposite #shes kind of loud and vulgar and messy... bossy too!!#but that means shes willing to strong-arm Xan into taking a break every once in awhile which is something he'd really need in a relationship #i like the idea that xan still has her wedding ring... 💕#he misses her but knows she wouldn't want him to spend an eternity mourning her #when he has so much time to live and find joy...!#anyways im excited to figure out her design... she has black hair and is chubby thick but thats all i have rn 😭#(shes either a few years younger or a few years older than Xan who was in his late 40s when they met)

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simptasia · 5 months ago

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i love that my mum is buried in a park. a beautiful place that isn't just fulla death but lotsa pretty plants and animals too. she's near a duck pond and she'd love that, she liked to feed the ducks. and shortly after her funeral, a wallaby hopped by and that made me love the park even more

#it was months ago. that poll just got me thinking about it #i expected it to be a sad day but i was actually pretty happy #because it was a nice ceremony. full stuff mum woulda liked #pink and purple orchids. a playlist of songs she picked out #nobody was dressed in black (as per both her request and mormon tradition). it was a lovely sunny day #my hair and outfit looked really great. i gave a good eulogy #it was just a nice day. funny how things turn out #but a lot of my tears and woe happened to me on my own #i expected to cry during the eulogy but i was strong. and i'd cried when i wrote it. it being prepared helped #there is a video of it but i havent gotten a lot of it. nor any of the photos of that day #my godfather has all that and i havent met up with him since then. just how things have been. i'll get 'em eventually

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avatar-aaang · 3 months ago

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oh okay so she can send out an email about staff birthdays but not the fucking schedule. got it. Priorities.

#personal #every single new coworker ive met lately has the same opinion of her that my usual coworkers do:#she should absolutely NOT be in this position. she is bad at it and doesnt listen to any of us #also. i think her hiring was maybe... racist. like shes a white woman. fine whatever #but i was speaking to one of my coworkers whos an older Black woman (one of my new fav coworkers too shes a hoot)#and she said that she and about r or 5 others were on a panel to sit in for the interview process that hired current manager #and she started listing everyone else who was there and i was like huh. every she mentioned is also Black. interesting #and she said not a single one of them picked current manager and gave their reasons why #and it seems to me that all of their opinions were so neatly ignored. so like why invite them? for diversity points? to look inclusive?#to make it seem like we even had a choice?#bc that is not a good look!!!#id say a third to half of my entire coworker group is Black and to find out that a small group of them were ignored when actively asked for #their opinion on a very important decision? yea no that doesnt seem right #and i think when my coworker told me she knew. and im like hmm. makes me wonder what to do #i mean i will be emailing hr soon enough bc current manager is not just annoying and incompetent but also ableist lol #i just need to get together with some coworkers so we can draft one large complaint bc umm. yea fuck this stupid bitch oh my god. ive had it #with her and her antics and the librarys too since they wanna ignore my coworkers apparently!#most of whom are older and retired teachers and actively and always know what the fuck theyre doing #id trust literally any of my coworkers to do managers job before manager. bc i know literally any of them could do it

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lovethatlaiduslow · 3 months ago

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Finally met all 3 of my housemates and the sich is looking more dire by the second

#one is a total slob. like was living in filth in the house this summer before I moved in and cleaned everything #there was a ton of black mold in his bathroom apparently?? and I cleaned out his cat’s water fountain and found an INSANE. like #insaaane amount of mold. it was disgusting. and he’s so bad abt keeping the litter clean. like are u fuckinggg kidding me #I don’t want to clean after him but I can’t fucking stand people no taking care of their pets. what is wrong with u #one has an insane amnt of pets and has been describing their sex life in detail unprompted to my asexual roommate and is making her super #uncomfy #and one said a transphobic comment to me today. which is insane bc they use she/they pronouns #like it wasn’t malicious. more just bc of carelessness but it rlly rubbed me the wrong way #idk. weird situation. one of my roomies pulled out last second and we had to find some rando to move in and I just met her yesterday so.#ig I shouldn’t be so judgy buttt. the vibes r weird now. hopefully everything turns out ok #I was feeling fine abt it yesterday when we finally all met but now I’m feeling sooo anxious ugh. like my lease goes until July

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iluvbabycows · 3 months ago

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being a girl is getting a lil high and turning on music that you can cry sing to while thinking about your ex who did you so wrong even though you’re literally the happiest you’ve ever been and don’t miss him at all at all at allllll!!!!!

#hey i hope it’s sooo shitty in the black dog btw #why wasn’t i good enough #i hate that he makes me ask that #why is he doing all the things i wanted him to with her #if he’s capable why didn’t he want to for me#i am sooo thankful for music #bc when gracie abrams said and you look stupid going out if she’s got a pulse she meets your standards now…#and when she said AND ALL I EVER DID WAS CONSIDER YOU UNTIL ALL I COULD DO WAS CONSIDER ME #and when she said you really thought you would get what you wanted #and when taylor swift said does it feel alright to not know me??#and when gracie said bit the bullet didn’t hurt but i still hate the image of you kissing her…#like i’m over him why does it bother me so much he’s moved on #oh maybe it’s bc it’s with the girl he told you he was in love with all throughout high school #i’m just glad B came along when he did #lol me when i remember i was technically still in a relationship when we first met #hehehe oopsies :3 #i’m just a girl!!!#plus i was already planning on breaking up with him after he didn’t get me anything for my bday not even a card #so like i was practically single hehe #anyway time to stop feeling sad for myself bc i have a hot ass dilf who is unbelievably perfect in every way for me #B - i love you!

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p2iimon · 6 months ago

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drawing more furry fnaf art. yknow just to keep you posted. i love posting in the tags sorry these ones got away from me

#sammy is a brown bear (like freddy). his mom is white like funtime freddy #then crying child is blue (like bon bon. and to go with lizzies bonnet pink) (theyre not twins in my au but they definitely act like it. so #its like cute.) mrs. afton is blue violet (rockstar bonnie) bc i was running out of colors. i had already assigned her blue anyway.#max is black bc i seriously ran out of rabbit colors. or! no wait shadow bonnie. thats totally the inspo and not i had made his ears black #already. i think thats literally every rabbit color available. the afton family is pretty big. ig vanny. who would go with vanessa. obvi bu #shes not in my au. or at least not an afton. and therefore not a rabbit. if she was though shed be white.#and if you havent seen any previously drawn ones henry and william are yellow (obviously. they already have fursonas. theyre the reason #everyone else gets one. LOL) micheals purple like classic bonnie (who... is purple even if it was then retconned. hes purple. look at #withered bonnie. i hate ppl who say its just lighting. thats a lie by big blue bonnie. he was literally purple and then he changed his mind #like i said lizzie is pink like bonnet. and then charlie is black like lefty. because duhh.#DONT ask me about how this shit works okay. the rabbit dated the rabbit and the bear dated the bear. bc thats what happened. theres not #here. the bears got divorced. and the rabbits. the yellow rabbit and bear are fucking #no um. i like willry but i think if they were really fucking. i just think things would go differently. henry's gay in my au i dont think i #he actually had a man to fuck he'd manage to have children. its not who he is to me. will is bi but he obv thinks henry is some exception t #him being perfectly normal and straight. everyone wants to fuck their business partner. otherwise youd do it yourself #ig they can fuck after. i hate when people do these boring aus where henry and william never get married and william isnt a murderer and so #like what? theres nothing? just a couple of guys? if im looking for fics where theyre fucking im not looking for a fic where everything is #nice and clean. be serious. can we at least have some angst about it being the 70s or are you too much of a bitch for that too #anyway.....#simons spouting #simons fnaf au #OH also if anyone reads this whats the stance on this stupid idea i have where sammy pretends he has a thing for michael to annoy max. bc.#their parents had a thing for eachother. and sammy and max have a more familial relationship. and michael and charlie have a familial #relationship. but michael and sammy have barely met and do not at all. is it pushing it? i was thinking yknow from sammys perspective that'#'his sons' dad but! like you can fuck your sons dad. that's not weird. unless thats the way youre phrasing it i guess LOL. but i guess #michael would be like. thats 'my sisters' brother. and that is not someone you fuck*. BUT this isnt michaels perspective its sammy being #annoying. and from sammys perspective that is NOT his sister and there for NOT his sisters brother. *also im pretty sure this is subjective #if youre just friends. yknow. the ethics of sammy using this to bother max is not on the table because i think he deserves to be a #a bit of an ass. anyway LMAOO fkdglfg. let me know if youd like ive got anon asks on. please dont judge me for not knowing this.

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tariah23 · 5 months ago

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The pool is about to close

#I only just got out here again because of a tummy ache this sucks so bad…#rawrrrrrrre #rambling #I met this other black girl named miracle at the karaoke bar and my sis and I took a pic with her but we didn’t get her info #she looks like a kid as well even tho she’s 28 so I was like ‘one of my people…’#my sis and I are 30 now… *sorry I’m annoying and childish and complain about anime and wp too much 👎🏾😭*#but I also look younger than my age so no one takes me seriously anyway since I look like a hs kid 😭#so I was like 😭 when I saw the other girl lmfao #shoutout to her #what a fun day

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angelmichelangelo · 1 year ago

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happy five years since i spoke to my abusive grandma to me <3

#she’s sick in the hospital and people are telling me i should go make peace like #HUH? the woman who told me she hated me the most #the woman who refused to have my school photos up in her house because she said they were ugly #the woman who used to send me to bed in the middle of the afternoon so she wouldn’t have to hang out with me #the woman who used to refuse to feed us 💀#the woman who took me on a bus when i was 7 and told me to yell at the black lady for sitting down?#the woman who used to show me off to her friends as ‘the lazy grandchild’#the woman who told me i was stupid #the woman who said she wished my parents never met so i wouldn’t have been born #THAT GRANDMA?? YOU WANT ME TO MAKE PEACE WITH HER???#no thanks. die ❤️#personal #SORRY FOR RANTING I HAVE GRANDMOMMY ISSUES OK

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pissfizz · 7 months ago

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I’m going to lose my mind oh my god I am so scared for this quincenera wtf

#NOT MINE BTW I MISSED MY CHANCE LMAO #but Jesus Christ family I’ve never met before flying in from Panama…. god I’m so scared #I’ve already been dealing with some wack ass imposter syndrome ass shit cuz of how I was raised this is gonna make it SO MUCH worse #I DIDNT EVEN KNOW PANAMANIANS GOT QUINCES #i was raised with almost zero influence from any culture whatsoever I wasn’t even raised close to that side of the family #and like I’m mixed with white but I can’t even use that as an excuse cuz the cousin who’s quince it is is also mixed #and that side of the family is super tied to the culture and they speak Spanish and shit #i don’t even speak Spanish even if the family from Panama doesn’t think ima. total embarrassment what if most of them don’t speak english #when I’m surrounded by white people 24/7 I feel like a total outlier but the second I’m around anyone else latine I feel like that but WORSE #i don’t speak Spanish I don’t know anything about the culture I’m from the fucking pacific northwest and do digital art and watch anime #i am so far completely removed from everything I’m gonna be sick #my grandma is already so judgy about stuff my uncle was even WORSE and made fun of the stuff that was too white or too American about me #my cousins throwing the party are the least of my worries cuz at least their mixed and second/third Gen too #but oh my god the family I’ve never met before I’m so scared I’m so scared #i was already thinking like. can I even call myself latine bc of how I was raised and how far removed I am from everything. I’m mixed so -#-should I just associate myself more with the white side of my family. am I being fraudulent by identifying with that term just bc I have -#-the blood is that even enough maybe that kid had a point when he said I shouldn’t count as hispanic if I don’t know spanish #and thinking about showing up to my cousins quince as. me. it’s terrifying it’s awful I want to go I want to meet these people I want to -#-celebrate my cousin and be happy for her but GOD what if everyone hates us and just tolerates us cuz we’re related to them #i would say we’re the black sheep of the family but I feel like white is more fitting cuz I feel like we’re just slightly brown white people #god god god I’m so stresssd out by this #is this a weird thing to be worried about is this stupid is this selfish #and to make matters worse I DONT KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR A GIRT #vent

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weedpicnic · 10 months ago

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god damnit life is so close to fully ruining against me! For me but they will not WIN but like how can I possibly have so many negative memories associated with one band and still listen to them on purpose.

#.#there’s the Bad Ex of course and that concert we attended during which I was being deceived about their identity the entire time. was Cool #but I wanna see them live again to override that memory honestly #now tell me why the other night I worked coat check and spent much of my time there just stressing over this failed attempt #to do conflict resolution with like one of my best friends trying like hell to be strong in having any sense of self preservation #literally just trying to have. normal clearly communicated boundaries followed #and not far into this convo it’s made pretty clear that we are like not on the same page at all and she is just. not aknowledging #the fact that she hurt me and why #and then the dj starts spinning black me out as we’re closing up 😭#which me and this friend had done in karaoke like probably multiple times auuuughhhh pain #genuinely wonder if we met like a few years sooner could I have saved her. could she have saved me. could she get what she wanted without #this shit #idk #I am incapable of not idolizing people even when they give me every reason not to apparently #but it’s not even about idolizing or saving or anything I just admired her so much and I care about her so much and I feel so stupid now #can’t fucking pick up on the same between the lines unspoken shit that everybody else can apparently

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rascheln · 1 year ago

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The Monster Falls Apart & The Monster Exposed: forehead kisses and touches

#the monster falls apart #the monster exposed #ogeretsu tanaka #hadakeru kaibutsu #revisted this series because it's both hot AND heartbreaking AND fulfilling (and idc for her more recent series sdfhfnf)#anyways I really love kan-chan. I love the way his story is told from multiple POVs and how his character changed over time #I love how his story with Yumi is not just a black and white 'this person is evil this person is a helpless victim' story because it's more #complicated than that. it's about the cycle of abuse and about trauma and about how both of them were not right for each other.#sometimes loving someone isn't enough and you can't magically make them go back to the person they used to.#like I think Yumi stayed out of guilt and a false sense of pride even when he was for all intents and purposes emotionally cheating #and I think the biggest act of love Kan-chan was still capable of at that time was letting Yumi go and breaking up with him.#And then there's Shuuna. ah man. I like that he's sooo out of his depth lol #he's soo in love and he has no idea how to tackle the whole mess that an older Kan-chan is but like #the love they have for each other and the way they DO manage to get through to each other? yea.#you can really feel the difference in maturity at times and that's also a really well done characterization!!#I liked the one author's comment where it's said about him that he went through love on easy mode until he met Kan-chan haha #also the flashbacks... that's a lotta baggage. like I don't blame Yumi for not knowing and it makes sense Kan-chan won't forgive himself #but still. he was never just some evil guy who did that shit out of pure malice when he was experiencing so much abuse and pressure.#(which doesn't make his actions any more okay but it makes his character more complicated and tragic.)#oh and one final thing I love about this series and the connected stories: the thing about life is that it goes on and the people who leave #our lives still continue living in this world. and you may choose or just happen to never meet again.#and no matter who hurt who the memories of each other will remain. the bad. but also the good.#and hopefully you get to continue on making new- making good memories.

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taxus-fraud · 2 years ago

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i love seeing those posts where people are talking excitedly about how their blorbos would hang out and joke around and have a fun relationship dynamic and every single one of their headcanons is almost entirely divorced from how the characters actually are. like, i’m glad you’re having fun with these guys, but i am also confident you are not consuming the same piece of media that i am.

#this is actually specifically about posts saying the disciples of the witness are like a family #people who say rhulk is like a big brother to savathun #when in reality every interaction is rhulk saying #god i hate babysitting this little prick. she is the most insufferable thing i have met #as soon as i figure out what bullcrap she's up to i am upending her entire stupid throne world and dumping her into a black hole #and savathun is going #every day i wake up and look at that idiot rhulk being a total loser in his dumb pyramid #he is literally the most cringe being in the universe and i am going to dedicate so many schemes to pissing him off #to be fair i can see how someone might read that as a classic 'we fight all the time but deep down we love each other' sibling dynamic #but it seems a lot more like they really just straight up despise each other #rhulk #savathun

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deep-sea-anemone · 5 months ago

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Bro I was playing on an app (won't say which cause I don't want y'all to know my real name), but it was a "merge" game with a background storyline. And one of the characters had my name! I was so shocked. I thought the game was like, going through my phone to find my name. It's not a common one, but I was freaked out enough that I almost deleted the app. Figured out it was just the character's name and calmed down, but man it was a wierd experience.

So in that situation, yes it made me uncomfortable, in terms of media/context/storyline I don't really care. It's more the shock of even seeing people use the name at all that confuses me than seeing "myself" in the character

Do you get uncomfortable if your irl name is said in a piece of media?

Ex: if your name is James you get uncomfortable if there’s a character named James in a show you’re watching.

#in terms of the game #irl ive only met like 5 people with the same name #and no celebrities that I can think of either #plus everyone ive met with my same name has been white af #so the character being a black girl that appeared out of nowhere was just totally bizarre to me #and she's a villain! lol #just so like. different i guess. kinda out of left field #she's kind of an asshole though #but so far I think i like her #though she's only appeared in 2 scenes so who knows #i always wonder what people with common names like hannah or alex feel like when they meet people with the same name

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starlooove · 6 days ago

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Ok final thing forreal this is definitely not hypocrisy bc I DID vote but it’s also like. U don’t get to tell people going through a genuine crisis, the one you’re so scared of happening to you, how to react when someone who spews the same rhetoric as everyone who got them there is being called the lesser evil. Like we have the privileges to break shit down policy by policy but people actively dying don’t get that luxury and they have the right to react accordingly when the ppl who claimed to be on their side and doing everything possible suddenly decide mommala is their savior, all these fundraisers are scams, and that they’re all going to die anyways so we might as well save ourselves

#the most pathetic thing about all of this to me #is that the THREAT of withholding our vote was met with vitriol from the ‘our ancestors died so we could vote’ ppl #like idk about you but my ancestors had enough of a backbone not to call a fucking politican auntie #ig that’s what’s bothering sm. her being the exception despite everything with no evidence?#with evidence of the contrary actually?#it reminds of black men and how they treated Clarence Thomas before they found out his wife was white #YESSS bro it reminds me of the tory lanez shit #optics are important but they don’t override morality #and when optics cloud ur morality…c’mon.#like her not being trump was the deciding factor for a lot of ppl ok fine #but it’s the shit y’all made up for her #some of y’all #campaigned FOR HER #and badly at that #but she’s a politican like every other politican #IK this was gonna happen the second ppl said ‘all she does is laugh’#no u can look back really I spoke on it #along with the edits #the same way ppl call trump stupid to downplay how fucking evil he is #is the same way they’re calling her family to ignore she’s just another politican #ppl quoting we vote to choose our next enemy and then getting pissed at criticism pleeease

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