#whatever this is just me rambling.
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You didn't come back wrong, you came back late. Everything around you feels alien. The neighborhood you grew up in is gone, replaced by a facsimile of what once may have been and filled with new things you cannot recognize. The people you loved are all either dead or dying, some of which spent decades waiting for you while others feverishly searched for you in vain. The language you used has mutated - still the same bones, still many familiar words, but every so often you will say something that will make people around you titter and giggle, all the while using vocabulary you struggle to remember. The things you have lived are now history, and when they ask you about things that happened seventy years ago you only have to look back a month or two. The grief you've been carrying for barely a week is now over half a century old, and even if everyone assumes you are fine, you still lock yourself in your room to feel its weight more often than not. The feeling of wonder you could've maybe had is dampened by damn near everything else. You are a shell of a person because almost everything that made you you was left behind, and the few pieces that remain are too busy holding you back from falling apart to be doing anything else. You are here, you are now, but you are not yourself - and you might never be.
#mmmmmmm i have normal thoughts about this as you can see#maybe this is applicable to a few characters but the one i was thinking about mostly was#steve rogers#maybe also#bucky barnes#whatever this is just me rambling.#i just think maybe steve's psychological complexity was never explored properly#and an aspect that felt a bit glossed over was how soul-crushing this must've been.#imagine this happening to you and the first thing they do when they find you is isolate you in a fancy prison for a month minimum....#im starting to feel sick and depressed so maybe I'll stop
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mornings in the desert
#desert duo fanart#desert duo#scarian#kelddaa#kelds art#keld make a desertduo piece without excessive warm lighting challenge IMPOSSIBLE#itās fine tho I love warm lighting#prob couldāve spent more time on this but eh oh well#took me a long time toiling with their expressions#eventually ended up with theseā¦ grimaces#maybe bc itās so early in the morning#maybe bc itās just these two fools#and theyāve gotā¦ whatever it is theyāve got going on in third life#third life Scarian is so special to me#agh sorry Iām falling back into my desert duo phase and rambling about them#1k
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cringe culture needs to die because when i was 17 i printed out the entire player's handbook and monster manual with my unlimited school printing credit and also wore a black velvet cape the first time i ever DMed and somehow still thought i was too cool for dnd novels. who tf did i think i was fooling
#ramble#i'm 90% sure i still have it in a folder in my desk somewhere#to clarify NONE of these things are cringe but i was embarrassed bc doing anything when you're 17 is embarrassing#i'm not even exaggerating that i've become so much happier just doing whatever i want and not apologising for it#i hate that it took me 20 years to realise that people are going to think i'm weird no matter what so there's no point masking anymore#and also that i didn't read a dnd novel until this year bc i was missing out#anyway i hate tiktok for bringing back bullying in a different more terrible way#go larping nobody cares#tl;dr you will BLOSSOM the moment you stop caring
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#when we thought the atla MIGHT be ok after opla but it turns out opla is just an exception#HS9D8FUIPJLK#annie rambles#opla#one piece#avatar the last airbender#ive heard mixed reviews about the atla live action but the consensus feels like the writers werent in tune with the source enough#where opla it really feels like the writers understand op at its core so thus were able to transform it#but maybe thats just me#80U9DSFPOJKL#i have so many thoughts on how much i liked opla i should make a separate post but like. for one not disrespecting source by#saying that the new take is ''more for adults" or whatever / all that nonsense#and again just respecting source material feels like a major difference here
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i feel like poolverine easily couldāve been one of those ātheyāre flirty but itās mostly unseriousā situations, and for most of the movie yeah they were extremely gay, but wadeās been like that with other guys and it was never treated as a serious type of relationship before. theyāre willing to die for each other, but even then the romantic aspect of their relationship could be glossed over because itās a superhero movie, thatās just what they do, and theyāre working together to save a whole timelineāitās not just about them. but then the movie doesnāt end with them saving the day and moving on. i think thisās really the part that sells poolverine as a genuine relationship to meā¦ loganās leaving, and wade calls for him. he canāt stand to let him go. then he introduces him to his family, and logan stays. he doesnāt really need to stay, but theyāve both decided theyāre better off with one another than without
#donāt get me wrong#wade and vanessa are going to end up back together again if thereās ever another deadpool movie#and then heāll lose her again for whatever reason#because thatās just how it goes#ignore the fact that logan tells wade to talk to vanessa and iād be convinced that the ending was supposed to imply them being canon tbh#not gonna delude myself into believing poolverine will ever be genuinely and seriously canon#but shippingwise#i think thisās why iāve latched onto poolverine despite some of the similarities between cable & logan#with cable it was never gonna be serious#despite it being fun to ship them and enjoy their dynamic#but#with loganā¦ storywiseā¦ it makes so much sense for them to be endgame#they both were at terrible points in their lives and really needed each other#not just to fix each otherās problems. but they needed someone who was so on their own level that they could fix each other#not in a healthy way. but#yknow#anyway#idk iām kinda rambling about nothing here#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool#wolverine#wade wilson#logan#um#logan howlett#<- āā¦.i guess#poolverine#deadclaws
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Inktobertale 2024 Day 5: Camping
Cross doesn't know that the first law of the multiverse is that there's nowhere Ink can't be.
#inktobertale2024#inktobertale#utmv#utau#undertale multiverse#undertale#undertale au#my art#desert art#art tag#ink sans#ink#ink!sans#girlie too busy to do lighting does bootleg lightning (me I'm the girlie)#I really like the idea of a Cross that is so new to the bad sanses gang (and to the multiverse)#he thinks he will not be bumping into any of the 'good guys' outside of battle#he doesn't know Ink comes over to Night's castle to game nights. he's been coming over longer than Cross even knew the multiverse exists#in my vision Ink does the star sanses bit as a friend thing. he's not a full member and he doesn't exactly stand for all of its values#but he does participate ocassionally#not because he doesn't care. but because he cares enough about his friends to take part in a thing that is important to them (fighting evil#so outside of that he really is just doing whatever and being friends with whoever#ok ramble over goodbye#cross sans#cross#killer#killer sans#dust sans#dust#horror sans#horror
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this older man driving a pick up truck just eyed me up and down while i was loading up the car from the farmerās market. had me thinking about price from a small town helping a pretty city girl to settle well. telling her local lore and little tips of how to get fresh berries on sale. showing her how to avoid traffic going to the lake. brings her around to his friendsā place, saying how heās just really showing her around. sure, she doesnāt know that heās been calling her his little wife for a while now, and that this show-and-tell is practically means of staking his claim, but well. things just happen for a reason, donāt it sweetheart? youāre just gonā have to learn how to be thankful for his help, yeah?
#sun rambles#john price x reader#i just about imagined nine ways id ride that mf but he just gave me a lil smirk n left so like sure whatever ā¹ļø
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hey, remember being 18 years old and playing mass effect for the first time and it's got this like intense aura of being very small and very insignificant in a very big, very empty galaxy? remember playing mass effect for the first time and everything all of this is so new and mysterious, and it's 2am and you're sitting in a dark room in the light from your tv and you're playing through feros for the first time and you feel that this is someting very old and very ancient and you are somewhere you shouldn't be and you don't know what's going to happen or where you're going but you keep on. there's a tingling in your stomach and you're playing mass effect for the first time. the thorian is a milennia old sentient plant being. the rachni queen is old and telepathic and a hive mind and in pain. sovereign is an ancient machine that has not been built but is, and has always been, and this is something so alien and so unlike and beyond anything your human mind can comprehend, and this is something unexplainable and huge and as uncaring and indifferent as the empty galaxy around you. you're playing mass effect for the first time and you're walking on the surface of an almost completely empty planet with nothing but your two companions silently walking beside you and everything is so huge and empty and silent and you're so small and insignificant and it's so beautiful and so scary and you feel like you are on a rollercoaster about to drop down. you are playing mass effect for the first time and you're playing the mission on the moon and you stop and just look up at earth visible in the sky. you know this. this is home. you are playing mass effect for the first time, and the galaxy is so big, and you are so tiny, and everything is about to change for you.
#mass effect#wild rambles#i miss the feeling of playing that game for the first time#now i know everything and it isn't as mysterious and alluring anymore#getting lost in the tunnels on feros is one of my memories of all time. it just felt like... i was meant to get lost. there's Something her#i love the whole trilogy but man me1 really did have that sci-fi interstellar type of feeling the other two don't#also later they retconned the reapers as having actually been built by someone as opposed to ''this is so alien you can't understand it.#this is a machine without a creator. it has always existed. you are not meant to understand. this is so much bigger than you.''#which i really liked a lot more but like. whatever. im not in charge. they wanted to make things more palatable to the human mind when i#think the cosmic horror aspect of the reapers in me1 was one of the things that affected me the most#and made me stay with the series for as long as i did
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thank you for a great art fight! here's some of my final attacks. had a blast, already missing it - see you next year!
#my art#art fight#artfight#artfight2024#anthro#monster#furry#genuinely already missing it i always feel a bit empty for the first few days after art fight ends#it takes up SO much of my free time in july nowadays like july is just the art fight month. to me#hoping to fill the void by doing something that's been eating away at me for years at this point#which is to start taking some of my oc projects more seriously.....and start developing them into something...#i know i can (probably) never make money off my ocs but i think i will start eating my hands off if i don't try to tell their stories#all fun and games but also it's like an obsession 2 me i love my characters....i love them...#and unfortunately i most love my least marketable characters#but whatever i'm sure there will be a couple people who care#feel like i'm at a crossroads and i'm picking the least desirable path but also there's some release in that....#i need to follow that advice that's like make art for yourself and five other likeminded freaks#anyway i'm rambling.....again....it's what i do in the tags
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what kind of underwear do you think Erik and Charles wear (i'm not asking this to see them half naked) ((please believe me)) (((PLEASE)))
My Personal Belief is charles is a briefs guy while erik's a trunks guy. trunks/briefs kinda couple because i can
and idk just a lil bonus or somethin. as i do.
#nsft#probably. again A Promotion Would Be In Order From Me Personally but WHATEVER.#cherik#im too tired to tag everything ok this post'll find its people#snap sketches#not too tired for a tag ramble tho eUUGGHHH#i HAVE to post the second bit now or ill be editing it all night and for what. i will live#and my silly ass said i wouldnt draw that reading idea. well guess what im a LIAR who LIES.#i do wanna revisit that proper tho .. at least draw em by the fireplace someday but anyway#i think the funny thing is i had like. plans to draw charles in purple briefs just cause he wore them once and i chortled Unreasonably#so here we are. youll have to forgive me my friend i have a condition called If I Get An Excuse To Draw I Will#it is a very serious condition cause i need to SLEEEEPP truly and honestly locking in later i HAVE to#leaving all of you with this for the next idk twelve hours thats crazy#all i want to do is draw but i feel my eyes . Getting Weird and i have exams so i guess i should be a responsible person and sleep#i actually have a lot i need to catch up on so like. i prob wont be back on until this weekend when im Hopefully more free#'snap didnt you say that last night' I HAVE TO BE SERIOUS THIS TIME i got a lot. so i will see everyone saturday Hopefully#please give me the strength to focus for once thank you#for now good night everyone !!! please enjoy my doodlings from today. yesterday. i must not make any more for now
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#The Last of Us#Joel Miller#Ellie Williams#tlou fanart#Pedro Pascal#Bella Ramsey#my so called art#ramble: I love them so much I am gonna lie on legos and chew glass#old soft man Joel and Ellie are everything for me ok#to me#whatever#this is both my main source of serotonin and the reason why I need it in the first place bc jfc#the most dangerous thing is to love#sedate me#bc I cannot deal with it#or shut up about it#first the games now this dang show#* lies on the floor *#heR SQUISHED FACE AND HIS SMILE AND JUST??????????????????#GOD#fucken dang it#tlou spoilers#just to be sure!#tlou hbo
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thinking of any relationship ending as "it had just run its course" makes me so physically ill
#ik i said this after listening to kelseas ep for the first time but like. things like this make me SO SCARED to ever properly love someone#and i mean that. so legitimately#how do you love someone so wholly like that for it to just. end. to fall out of love or whatever. run its course?????? im.#sick to my stomach just thinking about it#i feel sick i want to cry#regardless of it being taylor i hATE THAT LANGUAGE IT MAKES ME ILL#taylor swift#rambling#the hits*
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#polls#personally i dont like it but thats only because i dont like fandom. the type of stuff that gets the most attention#in fandom usually just annoys me idk. how to explain it in a way that wont come off as me saying#fanfic or whatever is evil its just the fact that it just bombards alot of the conversations?#i prefer it when the thing i like has 10 fans and theyre all on one message board or forum#like for example mtvs downtown is getting popular but apart from annoying#'me and the mid nerd guy i copped by being weird and sexy' posts its not awful....#but then smth like... clone high or smth i suddenly cant remember ppl just got so annoying abt that show??#like i cant stand it i dont even bother watching it anymore plus its just weird to me now like i can't watch it regardless#im just rambling but personally i do not like it. like i dont want what i like to get a revival#i dont want anything new! i just want to enjoy the thing and move on š#fandom seems to prioritize shipping and memes over evaluating or simply just enjoying something!#this goes for anything. music film tv books....
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Thinking about how nobody noticed Ford had been replaced. Sure, Stanās a talented con-man, and sure, he would have been careful to keep them away.
But no one in town realized he wasnāt the scientist, because Ford never went into the town. His best friend chose to forget he had ever existed. His family didnāt realize heād swapped places with his brother, which means they were either already distant before the portal incident, or they just. Looked āFordā directly in the eye. And did not recognize him.
The child raised to believe he was only valuable because his intellect could produce money for his family, grew to be a man so singlemindedly focused on his research that he ended up completely alone.
A man who vanished into thin air, with only his estranged brother to grieve him.
#these two destroy me#whatever the show pulls next with them I am not ready#I need them to resolve their differences and learn to be brothers again#gah tragic siblings have ruined me again#oh yeah i am NOT done with the show yet#so uh. might be incorrect. I only just watched take of two Stans and I had thoughts I needed to express#making the unwise decision to post about a piece of media before finishing it but whatever#gravity falls#stan pines#ford pines#stanford pines#stan twins#stanley pines#grunkle stan#grunkle ford#madbard rambles
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being an adult means we can buy or make as much self-indulgent shit (as we can afford) and unironically have trinkets of our fave things cause our teen years was bullied for liking things and hiding/denying we were ever neurodivergent to the point of suicide. sucks for anyone that thinks its weird cringe but I'm going to try and allow myself to love myself in little ways now
#wish i could tell younger me that i wasnt fucked up i was just autistic#even if youre not nd i still think having things you enjoy around you is important especially for your space#so i make a notable effort to get fandom stuff for my younger siblings now#like my lil sister thinks getting demon slayer stuff is cringe cause anime and what not (havent read it sorry)#but her face still lights up when i get her a pin for her#or a blind bag with a character keychain#and very slowly the self hatred and whatever it feels like that youre not allowed to like anything and that anything you like is bad#starts to diminish#my qpp is obsessed with birds and chickens and has so many trinkets around the house for it#or my friend who loves how pretty stained glass looks that his walls are covered in thrifted stain glass pieces#i know an elderly couple who are obsessed with star trek and they have a room in the house purely for shelves stacked with collectables#my friend's dad is so obsessed with spiderman that he has 3 walls full of figurines and posters and collectables that prob amoutn to tons#like i dont get it but i get it#maybe its because im sick rn but im in my head tonight about human loving things and stories and cocepts to the point of comfort#sara shush#ramble
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katara sees her brother and bff approaching something that can make them happy and says no interruptions
based on this photo from the live action cast
#my art#i learned SO MUCH about digital coloring while working on this. i canāt wait to try to put it to practice from the start and on purpose#instead of stumbling upon leagues of info when i was already 95% done lol#anyways#zukka#idc about tagging rn tbh iām tired#fuck backgrounds dude#hate that shit#i need to do lighting studies fr tho#i canāt do interesting light i just. donāt have the knowledge#makes me sad cuz lighting really makes or breaks pieces it seems#also lol i started this then stopped for like two hours and just sketched katara a fuck ton#what i landed on here isnāt my favorite but i liked the soft + gently amused emotion sheās showing#ok whatever iām done rambling#post
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