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Triumvirate 1
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Warnings:Â this fic will include dark content such as noncon/dubcon, abuse by parental figure, kidnap, and possible untagged elements. My warnings are not exhaustive, enter at your own risk.
This is a dark!fic and explicit. 18+ only. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.
Based on this.
Summary: Three men take you away from an unhappy life.
Characters: destroyer Chris, Captain Syverson, Curtis Everett.
As per usual, I humbly request your thoughts! Reblogs are always appreciated and welcomed, not only do I see them easier but it lets other people see my work. I will do my best to answer all I can. Iâm trying to get better at keeping up so thanks everyone for staying with me.
Your feedback will help in this and future works (and WiPs, I havenât
The tearing in your roots makes you whine. Your mom twists until your scalp feels ready to split, dragging you down the hall as she snarls. He pushes open the screen door and hurls you out with every ounce of spite. You stumble down the crooked steps and land in the dirt.Â
âYou no good fucking bitch,â she spits beside you. âHow many times I gotta tell you to get out!âÂ
You turn over and look up at her. She snarls and puffs like a rabid beast. Her glare scalds. She hates you so much. She always has.Â
She slams the screen door, then the inside one. You sit up and fix the backless sneakers on your feet. You check the scrapes on your knees and sigh. Itâs not the first time, it wonât be the last time.Â
How could you know she had someone over? You didnât hear them. You thought sheâd be happy to see the dishes done but that chore only riled her. She broke three plates before she latched onto you. Scratches blaze on your head.Â
You get up and look across the street. Leah watches from her front porch, shaking her head as she puffs on a menthol. No one does anything. They only judge. Around here, itâs not exactly unusual.Â
Your purse is inside, your phone too. Shoot. Youâll have to wait her out. Whoever sheâs got in her room probably gave her some pills. Sheâll be out of it soon.Â
Youâre not proud of that thought. You should be concerned. You used to be. Now you just accept what she is. You rely on it. Her addiction keeps her weak; keeps her from hurting you worse.Â
You turn and trod along the street. You could go down to the corner shop and ask Darren to spot you a gatorade. Heâs usually pretty understanding. He knows your mom and that you always come to pay for whatever she wanders out with.Â
Twenty-one years. It doesnât feel that long, yet itâs still an eternity. Things never change, they only get worse. Your momâs hair turns gray and the lines in her face get deeper and her speech more slurred. You only get weaker, more tired, more passive. Itâs just the way is. Why fight? Fighting only gets you hurt.Â
A truck rolls by and the tires dust up dirt. You cough at the tan paint above the silver bumper. You watch the exhaust chuff out down the street and veer around the corner, just past the corner shop.Â
You approach the Penny Mart and shield your eyes against the sun. The truck idles further down the street. You shrug and continue inside.Â
Darren pop gum between his teeth. You wave and head for the fridges. You take out a red gatorade and come back to the counter.Â
âCan I come back later?â You ask. âMom locked me out again.âÂ
He gnaws on the gum and shakes his head, âuh uh.âÂ
âOh?â The door chimes as another customer enters. âYou know Iâm good for it.âÂ
âManny says no,â he shrugs. âYour mom threw a box of cereal at him.âÂ
âShe... did?â Youâre overly aware of the man behind. He clears his throat. âAlright then, guess Iâll put this back.âÂ
âWell, you know... I could bend the rules,â he smirks and winks. âCome in the back...âÂ
You grimace. âIâll put it back.âÂ
You turn and march away, skin crawling at his suggestion. Itâs not the first time but for him to do it in front of someone else, thatâs humiliating. You open the fridge as the man steps up to the counter.Â
âIâll take a pack of lites and twenty on the pump. Throw in a red gatorade,â he says.Â
You shut the door and drag your feet across the unmopped tile. This place matches the neighbourhood. Youâre sure the prices help distract from the expiry dates, too.Â
Footsteps circle around the shelves. The fridge opens. A whistle keeps you from leaving. âGirl, come get your drink.âÂ
You stop and turn to face the man. His head is shaved close but he sports a thick goatee. He wears a sleeveless flannel, the peek of a chain shimmering around his neck.Â
âUm, me?âÂ
âCome on,â he beckons you. âHot day out.âÂ
You hesitate and cross the store. People arenât all rotten around here. Mrs. Haggin fed you more times than you can count and Ted let you hang around his garage on the hotter days. Still, strangers arenât common and arenât often friendly.Â
âThanks, uh, you didnât have to do that.âÂ
âTwo bucks,â he clucks.Â
âRight.âÂ
Two bucks you donât have. Pathetic. He holds the door open and you retrieve the same bottle of Gatorade.Â
âThanks again,â you say.Â
âNever know. One day, someone might help me out,â he sniffs.Â
He lets the door fall shut. You turn and walk away. He follows. You have a bad feeling as he stays close. He pushes the door open above your shoulder before you can.Â
Stupid. He probably expects the same thing Darren wanted. You step out and to the side.Â
âI canât pay you back,â you offer the bottle.Â
âKeep it,â he waves you off and drops off the pavement ledge onto the tarmac. âHave a good one.âÂ
âOh, uh...âÂ
He walks away. Not a look back at you. You watch him approach the truck by the pumps. Tan with a silver bumper. They mustâve needed the top-up.Â
You kick off the curb and drag your feet away. Youâll go down to the park and find a table in the shade. Itâs swelter. The sun beats down on you mercilessly.Â
You peel away the wrapper and twist the nozzle on the bottle. You drink thirstily as you step on the cracks in the pavement. âStep on a crack, break your motherâs back...âÂ
The truck rumbles back at the shop and you hear it rolling toward you. It passes slowly and you pretend to examine the label of the bottle. As nice as it was, youâre not stupid. Itâs pity. Everyone feels bad for you, but they donât really care.Â
You follow the trail through the tall grasses behind the condemned donut shop down to Smithâs Park. Itâs not much of one. Mosquitoes buzz over a pond not much bigger than a puddle, tadpoles swirling in the shallows, and the trees sway over splintering benches and rotting picnic tables.Â
You sit and suck on the bottle. Couple of hours and you can go home. Home... not really where you belong, just always where youâve been.Â
The brush rustles but you donât pay any mind to it. There are coyotes around here but theyâre skittish. Squirrels too but you donât have much for them to steal.Â
You put your elbows on the table and peel off the label on the bottle as the condensation soaks through. You lay it out flat on the wood. The dingy smell of the neglected boards clings in the air.Â
A twig snaps. You look up as a shadow passes between the bushes. Some kids will come down to catch tadpoles. You did when you were young. Your mom dumped the toads down the toilet once they grew. Â
Another crack. You twitch and look over your shoulder. You grip the bottle and turn straight. Your voice catches as youâre face with an unexpected best. A man in a ski mask.Â
Itâs so absurd, you think itâs a joke. Some of the hunters like to mess around but this isnât the area for them. Itâs not thick enough. They go up north.Â
Heâs big. The epitome of burly. He wears a grey tee shirt damp with sweat and cargo pants. He stares at you through the slits of his mask.Â
âUm,â you stand. âSorry, I was just...âÂ
You step over the bench and turn to head back down the trail. Thereâs another man. Heâs in all black. He must be melting in this heat. You reel back.Â
âOh...â the back of your knees hit the bench. âI think...â you sidle along. âIâll just...âÂ
You turn and run towards the thicket of wiry bushes. Before you can reach them, another man in another mask pops out. He wears a sleeveless flannel...Â
You throw the gatorade at him and spin back. Youâre caught by the other two men.Â
âShhh,â the one behind you hushes.Â
You struggle with them, kicking the dirty, writhing as they twist your arms behind you. The man at your back secures your wrists together as the peel of duct tape tears through the hum of insects.Â
âPlease, who are you? Stop!â You whine. This canât be happening. What the hell is this?Â
The man in black keeps hold of your upper arm and signals with his other hand. A cloth covers your eyes. You whimper as itâs knotted behind your head. Another is shoved into your mouth. You gag. Youâre shushed again.Â
âItâs alright, darlinâ,â you think the bigger man says. It comes from his direction as the man behind you pets your hair. âWe ainât gonna hurt you.âÂ
âQuiet,â another warns. âGet her legs.âÂ
You fight to evade their grasp blindly. You kick out and your ankles are seized and forced together. The duct tape winds around your ankles.Â
Your eyes water behind the cloth. Itâs more than fear, itâs realisation. Youâre not going to go home, but worse, you donât think anyone will care. They wonât even notice.Â
You babble around the fabric in your mouth. You choke as youâre taken off your feet, carried between two men like luggage. Youâre just a thing. Why is this happening to you?Â
You squirm and shake, trying to break away from the arms hooked around your torso and legs. A hinge creaks, a car door, then another metallic whine. No, itâs not a car. Â
Youâre loaded into the truck bed and strapped down to the ridge metal. You blink as your eyes burn. You quiver in horror as you sense a deep darkness cast over you and the truck lurches. The door of the bed snaps shut and closes you in.Â
Weight shifts in the axel as the muffled noise of the doors opening seep through. You whimper as the engine rumbles to life. You try to roll one way or the other. You canât.Â
The way they worked, so methodical, it assures you that there is no escape. Thereâs no loophole for you to find. Youâre stuck. That suffocating realisation constricts in your chest. No, no, no. It canât be real.Â
You shudder and replay the scene in your head. It happened so fast yet as you relive it, it feels like slow motion. The large man, the man in black, the third one in his...sleeveless flannel.Â
The cloying flavour of sugary electrolytes stick to your tongue. You shudder. The man in the store. He followed you? Why?Â
Think about it. What did he see? A woman with no money. A woman alone. A woman wandering off into the shadows.Â
How stupid. You would never expect it. Never think that anyone would bother. You always just stay out of the way and no one bothers you. Only Darren and his gross leers. Only Rob next door when his wifeâs not talking to him.Â
The truck bounces over the road. You can hear the other cars around you as they head into the city. Right through the mid-afternoon rush. How many people are driving by completely unaware of you hidden in the back.Â
The pit in your stomach deepens and you whine. You try to scream. You canât. You try to kick. You canât.Â
These men are taking you who knows where to do things you canât imagine and thereâs no one coming to save you. Just like no one ever came to save you from your mom.Â
#destroyer!chris#chris x reader#dark chris#dark!chris#captain syverson#syverson x reader#dark syverson#dark!syverson#curtis everett#dark curtis everett#dark!curtis everett#curtis everett x reader#series#fic#dark fic#dark!fic#sand castle#snowpiercer#destroyer#triumverate
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Cosplay Time! LADS
Dipper's Delusions
Tags: Cosplayer Reader x LADS Want to branch out to other fandoms. Also cosplay with my friends so it's me tying my fav things together. (each character gets 2 options)
Introduction: Chaotic schedules made you both yearn for some normalcy. You cosplayed often at conventions to destress. You had an upcoming convention coming up that you planned to attend for two days. Two cosplays were in your line up to wear. It was a fun activity that you didn't really think your S/O would be interested in. But... he adores you. Letting you even pick out two cosplays for him to wear. So... what did you choose?
Rafayel (Howl: Howl's Moving castle AND Oikawa from Haikyuu): This man flaunts it. Puffing out his chest and all. He started walking around the convention taking pictures and signing autographs.
He didn't opt for a wig or contacts. He truly believes that his beautiful eyes and hair shouldn't be covered up.


Zayne (Nanami: Jujutsu Kaisen AND Law: One Piece): He doesn't put up a fight with dressing up. BUT, you did have to convince him a couple times that he didn't look ridiculous.
He doesn't wear wigs but opts for you using a bit of blonde hair chalk or spray on him. He even goes to the gym a little bit longer to fill out the costumes.


Xavier (Usui: Maid-Sama! AND Link: The Legend of Zelda): He stares at you blankly. The maid-sama bit was a bit on the nose for him. BUT... he's convinced the Link is because he convinced himself the costume looks like Lumiere. He's more delusional than us.
He looks like the characters a fair bit (I genuinely think he looks like Link so that's why I put this here). Now wigs for him BUT he does put on contacts.


Sylus (Bakugo: My Hero Academia AND Sukuna: Jujutsu Kaisen): He didn't even NEED to go to the gym. Just slapped the costumes on and called it a day. This all stemmed because of a joke where you said he looked like an adult Bakugo. The Sukuna bit was a joke from Luke and Kieran. He is the farthest thing from Sukuna... but, to those who cross him?
He actually lets you put a wig on for Sukuna but you both opted for temporary hair dye. The Bakugo cosplay didn't require him to do anything.


Caleb (Portgas D. Ace: One Piece AND Choso: Jujutsu Kaisen): This one is self explanatory (actually.. I just have a type I guess. These are my big three and I LOVE YAPPING ABOUT THEM). All three are crash outs, older brother figure, all... met their graves too soon. OOPS. All sexy too.
He got small extensions for the Choso cosplay. Opting for brown contacts for Ace and makeup to enhance his freckles. Caleb let you do WHATEVER you wanted on him.


Dip Notes: HIII!! Just wanted to give a special thanks to @xaviaurora for helping me out with Rafayel. I would NOT have thought to include Howl. Bye bye for now! I hope you all enjoyed :)
#love and deepspace#caleb love and deepspace#love and deepspace sylus#rafayel love and deepspace#xavier love and deepspace#zayne love and deepspace#caleb x reader#rafayel x reader#sylus x reader#zayne x reader#xavier x reader#lads xavier#lads caleb#lads zayne#lads sylus#lads rafayel#lads#love and deep space
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adolin kholin the man that u are...
#finished reading wind and truth tonight#dare i say he had the best arc in this book ?#i have Thoughts.#i dont think this book was as bad as some people are making it out to be but it definitely wasnt sanderson's best#like i probably rank it above rhythm of war but below the first 3 books. which is a shame but w/e#i will say i still liked it and enjoyed it but i think the writing wasnt as good#esp in the beginning it was very like overt and hand holdy lol. which i think is a problem with sandersons writing#in other books but idk it just seemed a LOT here#wasnt a huge fan of the kal szeth story in the beginning but i think there was nice payoff#adolin best arc idc....loved his whole thing....#shallan was fine idk her whole thing w the ghostbloods is so whatever i wish she had actual cool stuff to do#im a shallan defender no matter what tho i love her but yeeesh.#jasnah...gurl whatever. the debate was really dumb. like i think that was so stupid#its hard to write smart characters ig</3#and as for dalinar....okay. the whole contest thing pissed me AWF cuz wdym tOdium just snatched gav from navani#like that pissed me OFF. if it was when they got separated then fine i accept it#but being like teeheee actually i took him from u right when u got back to the physical realm. like bitch fuck off thats so stupid idc#i knew beforehand that gav was gonna be tOdium champion but in my head it was like ... baby gav LMFAOOOO im like well yeah#no way dalinar is gonna kill baby gav. fsdjhk#well he didnt kill adult gav either.#i guess i liked that this set up books 6-10 pretty well. i like the idea of forcing everyone to have to deal w retribution now#instead of ignoring it and putting it off for generations and generations#ALSOO since i read sunlit man i was kinda like omggg what the fuck did sigzil do. and it was sorta meh.#but the fact that szeths spren was auxiliary.... AUXILIARYYYYYYYYY</3#i got sad all over again. FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFF#also wait wit getting vaporized by retribution was tew good he deserved it a teeny bit.#anyways ummmmmmmmmmmm just dumping my thoughts here. wait i should tag spoilers#wind and truth spoilers#stormlight archive spoilers#wat spoilers
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Im going to be completely frank with you all... and admit that I read these options and wasn't sure how to take this chart,,, so uh. Under the cut is Another Version. I'd apologize but I've given you the option to keep scrolling ¯\_(シシ)_/¯
(If you notice characters missing on Kim's side, I probably figured she doesn't know who they are lol)
For the record,,, if they *wanted* me to pull their hair-- *is shot several times before I can continue*
Uhh Matthew is here because I have been converted fully on he/him or enby lesbian Matthew I think. He lives in my brain rent free now, very gender. I'd pull his hair but also I think he mostly just deserves to have it played with nicely.
And Scott's here because 1) I enjoy trans Scott, 2) Kim Pine Brain Rot possibly, 3) idk he's like,, the exception. God damnit, I've fallen for the inexplicable Scott Pilgrim Effect. What the fuck--
I did think about doing this chart like everyone was actually applicable to my tastes, but even if they were I think the ones I didn't put up would have to fall on the caress side bc I just don't feel that way abt them lol.
Again, not to say that's the case for the gals over on that side,,, I just think I would want to be gentle w them shxkdjsdhbd with the exception for Lynette who probably deserves to have her hair pulled, but again I fear she would Hurt Me,,, but maybe in a fun way,,,
Anyway No One Look At Me....
(,, also,,, Ramona is so far over bc I think she would enjoy it,, otherwise she'd be closer to Kim in that section. Same thing w Roxie)
If anyone actually looks at this version, I'm not opposed to doing a version like this for Kim btw! Just ask for it so I feel like I'm not just Dropping This and scurrying away
#sp comic#meme#kim pine#id tag more people but i Do Not Have The Strength....#also i like Living and I think the idea of more people seeing the suggestively taken one makes me want to Die a little#(not to say you cant reblog this or whatever im just being dramatic shdjejsdhdhgdd I am generally a fairly Reserved person)#for the kim chart- i based my other scott placement on the interaction theyve had here! i think if they interacted for real or more often +#+ he'd end up definitively in the Pull Roughly suggestion with most people#ooc#he maybe if i finish edits for everyone i could try this w the au stuff. kit's thoughts might be different here...#hey*#also let me know if i forgot anyone??? i thought abt including the robots but. no hair. and gideon the cat has Fur so. on technicality-#but like barring parents and peter i think i got most people#i guess if lainey was here she'd go somewhere in the middle or right? w/out knowing what she'd be like#FUCK I DIDNT MEAN TO POST THIS. I MEAN IT'S HERE NOW SO IM NOT REMOVING IT BUT I AM S C R E A M I N G I WASNT READY#ah i forgot crash and the boys actually. thats why i wasnt supposed to post this yet#uhhhh Pull Roughly for like all of them. except trasha. trasha gets head pats and a juice box#except for on Kim's chart. on Kim's chart she's in the pull roughly section I can't lie to myself. she hates that kid đ also on that note +#+ knives should probably be in the middle section. like she wants to pull it for her having copped her style and being stupid abt scott.#but I didn't put her there bc I feel like even if she wants to she wouldn't ya know? knives is a Precious Angel after all
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must be nice, being free for once
#character here is asuka from branch-wdk53#art#zoom in for some details :3 especially the lineart and with her face#i had to retroactively add the little chess pieces bc i drew her hands and was like. ok. what the fuck is she doing#so something here about being able to control others persnaps... with the red shoes' power and all#also liking her updated hair :3 specifically with this ego it makes me think of her like not maintaining it totally#or letting it grow out since she wouldnt care about how shes perceived - like a red shoes possessed agent wouldnt#this is more corroded-y than just her with the ego but yknow. the themes etc#i could see it happening to her considering how often she gets fucked over by the world#wanting to take agency and just do whatever she likes for a time#the perspective here was all just fuck it we ball i literally used 0 references for this. sometimes i just Do That i guess lol#also! the lineart colors come from some just like. making it all a little bluer type stuff#but i also inverted the whole color layer and put it on top and was like. oh thats awesome#since i just selected everything outside of the lineart for the base coloring layer#it also went into the lineart and made some cool stuff with the parts that were or werent colored behind the lines#i will always find a way to have 20 tags on every piece of art i make o7
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the sequel to this old doodle..?
#um. Recent Events have reminded me that drawing ur fave with a gun is really fun jdhdjh#i miss bedwars with guns#speaking of. the ACTUAL old doodle i was trying to find was about that video#all i could find was this one with little techno where did the other one go??????#cant find it in my archive. did i spell the tag wrong?#whatever it's Somewhere in my ipad if i really wanna go grab it#food is being made i had time for one more doodle#btw for the record I HAVE NO IDEA HOW GUNS LOOK OR HOW TO HOLD ONE I CLAIM ZERO ACCURACY IN THIS#might at least color this one eventually#gotta have like one gun drawing a year i guess#had the old old one. the doodle at the top here. and the resistance drawing. now this one đ#awa
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Id say it's more nuance. Like they are two halves of the same whole. The themes show a messy tragedy in the making. The whole "they can make them worse" and general toxity makes for interesting potential. The craving to place the lil guys in angsty situations that break further and further until SOMETHING bleeds
Itbjust depends on the creativity of the person making the content lol
Just some old people with beef
Iâm sorry to the anon who asked this originally, but I was going through my inbox for something, and I came across this
And I no longer have any context as to what this was about
My brain is like ââŚis this about Transformers?â, but this is too old to have been an ask about that, not to mention I donât really get Transformers asks
Honestly my best guess as to what this could have been was Golden Cheese/Burning Spice or just generally Beast/Ancient related. Some of the other surrounding asks seem to date this around the Burning Spice update, so that would make sense, but Iâm not sure why Iâd ask about that because Iâm pretty sure Iâve made my stance that I donât really like those ships
Oh wait, it might have been about me wondering why mysticcacao and goldenspice werenât that popular/generally disliked ships, but shadowvanilla/vanillamilkshake was. Iâm remembering now I didnât really understand that (tbh I still donât but I donât really care that much anymore)
#sorry just something that happened while scrolling here#again apologies to the original asker for this#though if that final guess was the answer I have to say#would this not apply to the other ships as well? like the wording is vague enough to apply to literally any of them I think#if this was specifically about shadowvanilla then it kind of shows thereâs not much difference#and doesnât really get at the question of why it specifically is different#Iâm just gonna say itâs bc the other two are straight while SV is gay#and Shadow Milk being crazy popular#idk again I donât really care anymore#and maybe Iâve just become a bit cynical#hmm but I do miss getting asks about my fandom topics#Iâve only gotten a couple on Transformers so far#even if I notice Iâm not the best at answering my asks I still at least got a bunch#is it because people cared more about my opinions or I had more meaningful contributions?#is it just because I had been talking about and playing Cookie Run for over a year and thus had cultivated an audience#one that wanted to ask me plenty of questions?#Iâm probably not contributing much to the Transformers fandom at all outside of a couple art pieces or meme redraws#maybe itâs just because Iâve become more creatively bankrupt since like July or so#saying whatever comes to mind despite it not meaning much#and Iâve become worse at articulating my thoughts#*sigh*#anyways Iâm clogging the tags too much#answers#random stuff
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My scavenge for screenshots that I might use in an upcoming video essay led me to Lilith Fairenâs blog where, lo and behold, she apparently saw this post of mine and decided she had to talk about it

Thatâs an interesting way to say âthe blog has me blocked, so I canât reblog the OG post.â Fairen, you know what a block means, right? It means I donât consent to you being on my damn blog. So either you donât understand what boundaries are or you think itâs okay to ignore them so long as itâs the right kind of person youâre invading. Neither of which reflect well on you
#rwde#lilith fairen#while i could go through her post and tear it apart point by point#i got shit to do. my essay aint gonna write itself#and itd be redundant since my essay is in part abt how people willfully misinterpret adam for their hate wanks#maybe i will anyway since i have her whole post but this is the thing thats pissing me off. dont fucking lie that rwde hates disagreements#i enjoy talking to people w different perspectives. an anti rwder and i once had a v pleasant talk despite a v rocky start#we even reached a conclusion with mutual understanding of each others positions and reasonings#but lilith doesnt want to talk. she doesnt want to look at how flawed rwby is unless its in a way that can be used to bash others#and it'd be pointless considering she's never going to change her mind no matter what any of us say#if she was here for honest. good faith discussion abt a cartoon she wouldn't be blocked by the entire damn tag#so lilith kindly take the planet sized hint and leave people the fuck alone#you wanna bitch and moan abt dex stalking or bullying or whatever to you but then you turn around and do shit like this#treat others how you want to be treated. when you act like an invasive asshole guess what people are going to start reflecting back at you
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Hmm, learnt via the "following/mutuals" icon in the activity that someone who was definitely a mutual a few months ago isn't anymore.
And it's chill. It's fine. But I'm also a people pleaser and a worrier and I just want to be loved.
#woes of emily#debated whether or not to make this post because it's truly pathetic lol#and it's probably posts just like this one that got me unfollowed#and we weren't like. close. but we'd definitely talked / tagged each other in stuff#do i unfollow? what's protocol here#makes me less sad than everyone who has deactivated though tbf#idk. I'm emotional today i guess#i don't mean this post to pressure anyone btw!!! truly do whatever you want i dont want to guilt anyone#this is just Tumblr lol#i remember. honestly probably 10+ years ago#unfollowing someone on twitter because they were being annoying#and then getting a notification from a bot being like#'list of people who unfollowed @twitteruser today!'#like. the person had set something up to auto track. and then tag/callout anyone who unfollowed them#and. even then. i thought. this is the cringiest most pathetic thing I've ever seen#trying to scare/embarrass people into not unfollowing you? get a grip
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âOneâs humanityâ is something that can be assessed and confirmed by a single action, huhâŚ
#Re-reading Rukiâs MB rn#Man; i didnât notice how weird it is; the last scene b4 the endings??#Ruki is still an intriguing character tho. The process is kinda similar to Shuâs HDB in term of climax event distributions. I guess.#One day iâll be doing an all routes review and itâll be the end for all of you / jk jk#Funny how the endings in here are⌠illogical in term of how Ruki is weaker in strength if compare to the S bros#But dudeâs able to kill all of them#In their sleep; in no time? Even Subaru whoâs highly alert all the time? I mean all of them-#But the vampire ending makes sense. Like how the fuck can they be in love đ#Thanks for confirming that you havenât been able to love each other Ruki & Yui. I think the slowburn process happened in the after ending.#The convo about whatâs kindness between them. Reminds me of whatever LaiYui had in the first two games; one about love and another bout god#Will be back to add more tags into this post cuz my brain is hyper rn. I need to confirm smth.
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*slams hands on desk* paintings of saints staring at their mortal peers with passive aggressive judgement WHEN
enough paintings of saints where they're looking heavenward in ecstatic agony or down with love and mercy on their onlookers as they ascend. we need more paintings where the martyr is looking accusatorily directly at the viewer.
#the internal conflict#like the emotional kind rather than the schism kind#but that too i guess#inherent in the entire concept of saints fascinates the fuck out of me#there's the bet-hedging of 'yeah obviously god loves us and whatever but just to be safe we'll pray to a specialist'#that alone has so much resentment and fear wrapped up in it that it's WILD#then there's the way that sainthood kind of undermines what makes jesus special#like yeah he's on a different level and all but it turns out a TON of people can perform miracles#and you have to pull off three to even be a saint!#like okay this is for the sake of buying into the bit rhetorically#but the idea that there could be people who pulled off one or two legit divine miracles but didn't quite hit the mark as saints#is such a brain-breakingly huge fuck you to normal people while simultaneously taking the wind out of jesus' sails??#like yeah if you tried harder you could be inhumanly special too but even buying into the core conceit it's a functionally impossible bar#i know the point isn't that people should seek sainthood#but you KNOOOOWWWW that's the vibe for so fucking many people#and even if it weren't! that's STILL the goalpost that people will set for other people!#idk i lost the plot somewhere along the way here but man the whole idea that there's this huuuuge gray area#between entirely divine and entirely mortal#and you'll never know where you are on that scale and you're worse off for prideful speculation but also for not pushing for divinity#is some practically calvinist damned if you do damned if you don't shit#and it's hilarious to me to picture saints as people who nailed the balance between full-throated piety and tacit holier than thou vibes#like the idea that someone is surrounded by people who are like 'yeah peaseblossom over here--'#i had to use a shakespearean fae name because it was the only way to be sure i wasn't naming a real saint#'--is sooo devout. rubbing our noses in it all the time.' a#nd someone else is like 'omg mustardseed stfu; we all know she's literally going to be a saint someday.'#and peaseblossom walks by like 'oh hey ladies i didn't see you at 5am mass today' with her i'm not like other girls vibe fully on display#idk man it's just funny to me#ffd comments#ffd tags#religion
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uh oh! itâs Sevenâs Dean Winchester Kinnie Hours again!
#cw vent#vent post#you know what that means! time to be cringe and obnoxious on main like itâs 2020 again! đ#iâve had this entire video memorized for years atp and every rewatch is just as cathartic. it doesnât get old to me.#No Sam Iâm not okay. Iâm pretty far from okay.#Look. I donât need to feel like hell for failing you.#For failing you like Iâve failed every other godforsaken thing that I care aboutâI DONâT NEED IT.#This weight on my shoulders man Iâm tired of it.#ig my only complaint abt the video is how the gun in his hand is cropped out of that clip. it added a certain Vibe yâknow#Peopleâpeople /pray/ to you.#Bobby Iâm not even supposed to BE here.#I couldnât save mom. [âŚ] I canât even save a scared little kid.#Iâm okay. IâM OKAY. I swear the next person that asks me if Iâm okayâIâm gonna start throwing punches.#ThisâInside me⌠I wish I couldnât feel anything Sammy.#The things that I saw? There arenât words. There is no âforgettingâ. Thereâs no making it better.#impressive that i can recall that many lines with the absolute trainwreck in my mind rn. the Power Of Blorbo Hyperfixation ig#anyways enough quoting a random spn amv or whatever theyâre called. i have shit to do#vent blogging#Sevenâs Public Diary#i guess#no other organization tags bc i donât want this in the fandom tags. im just venting and being cringe bc itâs all iâve got left lmao#well itâs not All iâve got but itâs one of the least destructive options#unless were talking destruction of my public perception but yâall already know iâm cringe and insane#god my head is fucking killing me. ok im done. for now. gotta go clean dog piss out of the carpet#Youtube
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i am BEGGING twitter to stop showing me doctor and clara content. begging. please. please please please. what do i have to do
#again nothing against the shippers here i just Do Not Wnat To See It and it is like HALF my dash#i follow like one (1) person who's into it for their other stuff and if it was just from them occasionally or whatever that'd be fine#but twitter thinks i hardcore ship it now for some reason and will NOT stop recommending me#various tweets and some of it REALLY annoys me#like one literally scoffing at the idea any strong relationship could be platonic ever đ#anyway it's fine. it's fine. i'm fine. it's fine.#screeeeeeeAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#like just. again. nothing against the shippers here. they're generally just minding their own business#i just want twitter to STOP. GIVING ME. ALMOST EXCLUSIVELY CONTENT I DONT WANT. PLEASE#i mean twitter literally#okay there's this youtuber i find annoying and like again it's not like 'this person is evil' i just.#dont really want to see this content right?#and like ive had to BLOCK AND MUTE this person and STILL. STILL TWITTER SENDS ME NOTIFICATIONS FOR THEIR POSTS#STILL#WHY! WHY! WHY!#like i guess they really fit into my supposed niche and i like some yuotubers that are friends with this one but like. I LITERALLY HAVE#THIS USER BLOCKED AND MUTED. WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS#i hate twitter. i basically only go there to talk to like one friend and to look at jame slance photos.#like. that's about it. i scroll sometimes and almost always regret it#anyway: the point is. this post is complaining about twitter not really about this ship specifically#but it is making me really annoyed about this ship specifically sorry ship fans#vent? i guess#vent#twitter will be like. i have brought you a post.#and it's exclusively either like. a) shit i actively obviously dont wanna see b) something batshit (my example should be censor tagged tbh#so i wont give it) c) sometihng just completely random niche and personal to some random user???????#twitter why.
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Paused my queue and started using it as a secondary drafts box but I think I'm gonna try and go through it & unpause it. I'm sorta getting confused on how to use this site and need to return to my "roots"
#Half the things I reblog I dunno how to tag anymore#I also sorta miss/like spacing out posts like I'm always on or something idk#I used to come on to tumblr schedule abunch of stuff for my queue(1 a day) and then vanish for months#I even sorta did that when I was running a blog#I scheduled whatever here and didn't super bother w/ it#& had a whole post schedule for the other blog so I could make posts ahead of time and schedule them#That's not to say I didn't sometimes just post things while I was on but I also had a tag for that on that blog#nor am I saying I'll disappear for months here. just that I might start queuing posts again#Idk I just feel really disorganized everywhere so maybe I can try to organize here a little bit#I just sorta feel like if I go back I'll be doing it wrong now that I've seen how several other people do things here...#also I'm a whole heck of a lot more self conscious then back then#(I sorta blame specific fanspace(s) but also I mainly blame the bird app)#personal thoughts#Messages from the swamp#<- I guess
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by the way when i say other cricketers i mostly mean the english players and no offence but i do not get what people see in themâŚlike i know theres english people on here who obviously are gonna post about their own team but like i refuse to believe those players are that interesting
#joe root might be the only white person on that team i care for#moeen ali and adil rashid get my support by default though because theyre fellow brown people and muslims so like they were always gonna be#included in this incredibly small list#but yeah thats it i could care less for any other english player like so many of them infuriate me for no reason#buttler and stokes are two popular ones i dont care for at all but for some reason theyre (relatively) popular on here?#in comparison to other individual players i mean#australia has fans on here too but like i dont mind them because the aus team is interesting to me#nz had some key word being had as in most of those blogs are inactive now so thats great but its a nice time capsule almost to revisit-#those blogs and see what was going on then in earlier years#as for pak i literally can count on my hands the number of blogs dedicated to pak anf its not a lot at all đ#im gonna post more about pak cricket too but thats when psl starts#indian cricket fans are probably pretty common om here too i just purposely ignore them because like as a pakistani i cant bring myself-#care about that team at all and any time i see an indian player its like a jumpscare you know#hate that team so much its in my dna but theyre also just obnoxious as people#our team just has a bunch of cuties like what has pak ever done#anyway yeah that concludes my massive rant in the tags but in conclusion i need to see more subcontinent cricket stuff#as compared to white people cricket like we should be more active than the colonizers guys#what do i tag this as#i guess cricket but like i dont want to be attacked and murdered#its okay whatever happens doesnât matter to me#cricket
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Marked in Metal

Caleb... loves ... buying you rings.
It wasnât something you directly questionedâat least, not seriously. He had always been like that, always finding little things to slip into your life as a form of joy. Bracelets, necklaces, little earrings here and there.
But ...rings?
Oh, those were his favorite.
â Princess cut, Briolette, Trilliant, Radiant.
Oval and round. The entire catalog.
And it wasnât just about the aesthetic. No, it was something else entirelyâsomething unspoken in the way he always lingered just a second longer when slipping the ring onto your finger, something in the way his eyes darkened with quiet satisfaction whenever you lifted your hand, light catching on whatever new piece he had picked out for you.
Like now for instances.
"Here," he said one afternoon, handing you a small velvet box. His voice was casual, but his fingers brushed yours when you took it from him. "Saw this new piece on my way home and thought of you."
You barely glanced up from your work before popping the box open, the soft click of the latch followed by a quiet inhale as you took in the ring nestled inside. A smooth sterling silver band, sleek and polished, with fluted rose gold prongs holding a citrine gem. The cut was extravagant, the kind of thing that should have been reserved for engagement rings, but you had long stopped questioning Calebâs taste.
"Caleb," you groaned, rolling your eyes but still sliding it onto your finger. It fit perfectly, as they always did. "You have to stop doing this."
"And why should I?" He smirked, leaning back against the couch, arm thrown over the backrest as he watched you admire the ring despite your protests. "Looks good on you."
You twisted your fingers, letting the metal catch the light. He could see it in your faceâthe way your lips curved slightly, the way your brows relaxedâthat moment of pure, genuine appreciation. He memorized that expression every time.
Because no matter how much you insisted it was too much, you never turned them down.
And he never had to worry about you asking how much they cost.
But it wasnât about the price anyway. It was about the way you wore them, the way your hands danced through the air when you talked, your fingers adorned with pieces he had chosen. It was about the quiet thrill of watching everyone else notice, of knowing that every time someone asked where you got them, your answer was always the same.
"Caleb, obviously. Heâs the reason I have half my jewelry box."
That was enough for him.
But this one was different.
"Wait, Caleb?" Your voice broke through his thoughts, amused and lilting. "Did you know this was engraved?"
You held up the ring between your fingers, tilting it just enough for the small inscription inside to catch the light.
.C.
Delicate, subtle, almost invisible unless you were looking for it.
He raised a brow, feigning nonchalance. "Oh? âŚI don't actually remember seeing that anywhere?â
You narrowed your eyes at him. "You seriously didn't notice?"
"Guess not." He shrugged, and you huffed out a laugh, shaking your head.
"I donât think I believe you."
He didnât respond, only watching as you lifted your phone, snapping a picture. Within minutes, your messages flooded with the usual teasing.
"Another one? Does Caleb just collect rings for you now?"
"Thatâs basically a proposal, babe!"
"Correction. This is the one billionth proposal"
And, as always, your reply was the same.
"Of course itâs Caleb. Who else spoils me like this constantly?"
He loved that. Loved knowing that when others have noticed the rings on your fingers, they knew exactly who put them there.
But even when he adorned your hands, his own ring was different.
It never sat on his finger. It had its own place, strung securely onto the same chain as his tags, resting against his chest beneath the layers of his uniform.
Same material, same weight.
But the chain never left his body. It was there in the dead of night, cold against his skin. There in the thick of the day, clinking softly against metal. It was there when the world was loud and chaotic, when exhaustion pulled at his bones, grounding him with the quiet weight of something real.
Something that brought him back to you.
And when he returned home?
when he was finally home, the chain came offâbut the ring never stayed in some forgotten drawer.
No, it belonged in the same place it always did.
Right where you wereâpressed close against his heart.
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