#whatever it's my blog i'll do what i wish bless

[weather-phenomenon]

uh wld u guys think i'm cringe if i tagged my posts um i guess strategically? like with the intention of making them "found"

[mcytblrsexymen]

Highlights from the Mod Chat pt 3.

[ID: discord message from a capricious and willful god, reading: shoutout to the fact that the quackity and etho girlies still seem to be deciding to ship them now love whatever was happening over there with that alliance. godbless]

[ID: discord message from LITTLE FRAUD JOCKEY, reading: I might do a little joe fraud but at most i'll do like. 20 votes. me: wow I wish I had the dedication to sit down and force myself to do a task also me, from 330am to 8am this morning: I love voter fraud I love voter fraud I love voter fraud I love voter fraud I love voter fraud I love voter fraud I love foter fraud I love voter fraud it has been reacted to nine times with the pushpin emoji]

[ID: discord message from [binarual + bisexual] I love everyone in the notes like "oh no I voted for them both how could they be in the same poll now!" Well, you see.]

[ID: discord conversation, reading: SAD GAYISMS for SEXYLAMPNAP: yeah but tumblr/4chan was more popular as a hateship Fiendish Bots/Glorious Sideblogs: there's a sentence]

[ID: discord message from [binarual + bisexual], reading: Twitter is so good at reading]

[ID: discord message from classically trained drabbler, reading: hahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahhahahhahha no you may quote me on that if you wish]

[ID: discord message from gay for infographics, reading: No and the reason is big number make me happy to put on the infographic]

[ID: Discord message from VOTE FOR TECHNOBLADE, reading: Scar would approve of the fraud]

[ID: discord message, reading: anon: like, do we have... any other plans for when the poll ends? Erotic Mushroom Indoctrination: ...nap? a capricious and willful god: yeah nap classically trained drabbler: an adult beverage (this message has been reacted to ten times with the Clap emoji) undercover weeb: pizza VOTE FOR TECHNOBLADE: Buying discount love candy after work (this message has been reacted to nine times with the elmo fire emoji)]

[ID: discord message from gay for infographics, reading: New nickname thanks to ma sœur! Now if there's ever another mod chat post and I have said a funny thing, my name doesnt have to be censored ahahaha this message has been reacted to four times with the Laugh emoji]

[ID: discord conversation, reading: Fiendish Bots/Glorious Sideblogs: I think it either has to be defaults or "recognized sexist skin" and my brain is just too slow to pick out what that means alone, right now fake GeorgeNotFound fan: beautiful typo Fiendish Bots/Glorious Sideblogs: oh no]

[ID: discord message from Fiendish Bots/Glorious Sideblogs, reading: god bless ren and martyn's open homoeroticism it has been reacted to 3 times with the pushpin emoji]

[ID: discord message from charlie slimecicile enoyer, reading: i think it'd be funny to let the blog collect dust for a few years to recover and then out of nowhere on a completely different, unrelated date, drop a series of polls where the only option for all of them is ethoslab and also one for pix. It has been reacted to 3 times with the 100 emojij]

[ID: discord message from classically trained drabbler, reading: "get your head in the game" is a very normal sportsball phrase that did not originate in high school musical y'all are just loser ners how am i a sports expert here]

[ID: discord message from classically trained drabbler, reading: also voter fraud makes autism brain go brr too good]

[ID: discord message reading: literally who the fuck is joe hills but I AM seriously considering doing it for the bit this has been reacted to with the Handshake emoji three times]

[ID: discord message from Fiendish Bots/Glorious Sideblogs, reading: Just had to explain both tumblr and Minecraft to my doctor]

[metamorphesque]

What do I do with my life

Can you please hand out any hope I can cling to?

I have notifications on for your posts and yet can't bear to open each one because I know it will hit me so hard I'll want to sink into earth

and I don't wanna die just yet

I want to live life vibrantly and with joy, grass, green, wonder, sunlight, all of the things that make it easy to breathe or at the very least, easier

pero I'm so lonely and achy and whiney and shaky I hate who I am and all that I stand for, I'm a fraud and a fake! I say I love love and then live in my hate I can't stand myself and my existence

I wish I could live inside poetry like a blog, like your blog, like a tiny post existing as it is, not real but real anyway, not real enough to touch but real enough to touch

What do I do with my life what do I do with my life why am I spending my days alienated and tested for things I'm no good for why am I doing this to my life who let me do this to my life what do I do with it now

hello, my friend! I guess we're on the same train now, plagued by the same guilt of being alive but not really living ... reading your message felt like a soliloquy, my own soliloquy for you so gently grazed your fingers on my bleeding wounds.

I myself am trying to make me live, if that makes sense. No one really tells you that you might have years when you have to actively convince yourself to stay alive, no one teaches you how to do that.

By clinging to the littlest of things is how I operate. a song, a poem, a photo, a minute, a memory, a tasty snack or a warm cup of coffee, an idea, a painting, a stupid joke I've heard somewhere — I gather all these things in my hands to keep them occupied, so that they wouldn't do something unrepairable, irreversible.

What I've understood so far is that we go through seasons of (1) living despite, (2) living for and (3) simply living.

You and I, it seems, are at the mercy of the first one. To live despite is what we should do — despite the alienation, despite the loneliness, despite these spiteful thoughts and horrors. Once this season is over, we'll move on to the second one: to live for. This one, I think, will be much easier to travel through because the days here are full of little droplets of hope that attach themselves to your skin and don't leave your side until you reach the final season: simply living. Living here is as easy as it is to breathe. This is our destination.

I know that I didn't answer your questions and that I'm not capable of doing so. I'm sorry. I myself have decided not to seek answers anymore. As Rilke said, Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer. Perhaps you do carry within you the possibility of creating and forming, as an especially blessed and pure way of living; train yourself for that — but take whatever comes, with great trust, and as long as it comes out of your will, out of some need of your innermost self, then take it upon yourself.

I'm accepting the happiest days of my life (that are yet to come) as my lighthouse and I'm sailing toward them. Hopefully you'll do the same.

Take care 🧡🌼

[motherofmisfits]

I'm glad I could give you a bit of motivation, Mother! You're very motivating, too, so I guess it's like a tit-for-tat? Anyways, I have some questions, if you don't mind!

As a deity, do you accept stuff like worship, followers, offerings, etc? Or is that something you don't like / do?

Can I know more about you as a deity? Like all the little details you have? I love details!

Also, what are your other kintypes? I know you said deitykin would be the relevant one for this blog, but I'm still curious! Only if you wanna say, and that goes for all of the questions, of course!

I don't think I've written with this many exclamation points in a while...

🪞

Hello again, my child.

I'll gladly answer your questions. Curiosity is such a beautiful thing.

For your first question, while I don't actively seek out followers or worship, it is greatly enjoyed and appreciated of those who chose to do so for me. I accept any and all forms of offerings and worship. Whether it be prayers, creative works, digital altars, physical offerings, anything really. I do enjoy the attention.

I don't remember much of my deity self, but I'll gladly tell you what I do remember. I am the deity of lost souls and the realm in between. I lived in the space between everything. Imagine the multiverse, and my home was the bridge between realities. It existed between everything, the bridge to all dimensions, realities, planes, and realms. I often helped souls who wished to travel through these realms, which is why I am so connected to lost souls.

While I have many forms, my main one is Mother. I have four arms and three eyes, though when speaking with humans, I often hid these extra limbs since they were so easily frightened. I do not remember my eye color, though I do believe it was a constant swirl of whatever colors they were. My hair was a white so pure it was a color incomprehensible to humans, so they just saw it as white. The tips of my hair faded into an iredescent black as deep as the void and shining with more colors than the universe.

As for my other kintypes, I have quite a few, though many of which I have yet to kinfirm. I do have such a bad habit of procrastinating things, especially when it comes to identity. I'll mark the ones I am questioning with a [Q] to keep them organized (though that is most of them).

But here they are.

Fictionkins:

Angel dust (Hazbin Hotel)

Roman Sanders (Sanders Sides)

Hunter (The Owl House)

Dipper Pines (Gravity Falls) [Q]

Enderman [Q]

Minecraft Void [Q]

Otherkin:

Deity (as you already know)

Video Game character (not from a specific game)

Fae [Q]

Monster/Eldrich horror [Q] (unsure which)

Shadow creature [Q]

Dragon [Q]

Siren [Q]

Conceptkins:

Nothingness

Daydreams [Q although close to kinfirming]

Silence [Q]

Hunger [Q]

Void [Q]

Theriotypes:

Raven/crow (unsure which) [Q but close to kinfirming]

Wolf [Q]

Butterfly [Q]

Cat [Q]

I'll eventually sift through these to see which do fit, but for now, I'll keep them within my questioning pile. After all, there is no rush.

Thank you for the questions. I hope you have a blessed day/night.

[cruel-kaya]

A huge rant post please block me if you don't want to see me crying over your dash

No I don't want to gain any sympathies and ik no one's gonna cure me here anon but it's my blog so I'll post whatever I want

I am done with how my life is unfolding at this rate it won't be long before I hit a new low in life. I actually have no one legit when my own parents were embarassed to embrace a girl who's into self harm

When my own mom don't care about how I feel , when my own mom slapped me not once but I just can't it's traumatising

Being in an abusive house is not easy it's not as if they don't care for me but as they say they do all this for my own better and my future self will thank them (?)

Everyone just treats me like a puppet they take my strings and start controlling me , make me do things they want and then leave

I hate everyone like not even a single person can be added in the list of people I love

Idk ki kab tak zinda rehna hai and I am just counting my days here , I wish death upon myself like it's better than this life

My scars haunt me perhaps they always will but something in me and i always end up invoking those scars again

Ik I am not perfect but I am trying to be my parent's ideal daughter but they just

If my parents think taking away my phone , all my contacts , almost everything from me will help me cope up things

Like it'll make me perfect so may God bless their mindset

I can't even say I want to be a child again cause childhood was as traumatising as my teenage

I see people my age happy and think what's wrong with me

Perhaps something really is wrong with me

I just want to crumble up and cry , this sadness has made a home in me and now it's slowly eating me inside and out , it'll make me lose my sanity , it's like taking a bit of poison everyday in hopes that it'll not kill me but it's doing something worse than that

And what do people even think of me ? A validation seeking machine ? Bhai Mai andar se khokhli ho chuki hu like completely hollow and now I can't give you anything so if anyone excepts anything from me please don't otherwise don't blame me when you end up disappointed

Cause that's what I am~ a disappointment to all

I failed my parents, friends , family, almost everyone

I failed as a person

[lalacatland]

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INTRODUCTIONs for this abomination! ❥╰┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈╯ in case anybody actually finds this!?

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lalacatland is literally just a group blog from a gang who are messing around and got no idea what they're doing ♪ if we tag anything inappropriately (when we properly tag stuff?) please send us an ask, the admin will rush to fix it~ FOR YOUR KNOWLEDGE: most of the members post whatever, be it fandoms or anything else so keep that in mind BYF now thats outta the way we can move onto each members introduction! ♡ ↓

»»———-　　———-«« @remiiox ₓ˚. the self proclaimed role-model of the group, yup. anyhow, i do not care what pronouns you use for me in the slightest so go crazy! im a closeted fool who is often lazing around on their computer or mobile device, dont fret as i dont bite. i have professionally diagnosed Autism, but for safety reasons theres no way i can send proof. i enjoy video games the most, i'll list my top interests~ Oneshot, Project Sekai, Deltarune and Undertale along with small budget franchises such as Hyperdimension Neptunia and Death end Re;Quest! MINOR but dont let that scare ya away as if im a bat in a cave~ »»———-　　———-«« @luminocitie ✩ͯ. hello! im luminocitie, but you can call me Sunny! my pronouns are they/them, if you have a gendered language, using he/him is ok! im aroace, im agender, i have ADHD my current interests are deltarune and undertale, but this may change »»———-　　———-« @crystalizepanda ˊ⸊ˎ ♡ Hi everyone! ✦ 〳 I generally go by the names Crystal and Alora, but you can refer me with any name/nickname as long as it's appropriate. I'm one of the members and friend that run the blog group, lalacatland. Pleasure to welcome you! ✦ 〳 This group consists of goofy posts and all of that sense of humor we like to engage in as we extend our silliness to the core. Nonetheless, we're here to have fun and participate in anything that entertains ourselves in constant joy and laughter :) ✦ 〳 Additionally, I'm a Christian that likes to encourage one another with passion and the Lord's strength. I am also a neurodivergent with autism spectrum disorder and my biological gender is a female. ✦ 〳 Furthermore, if you have any consistencies or concerns you would like to share with me, don't hesitate! I am here to provide and respond as soon as possible. If you want to interact with me as well, you're more than welcome to do so at your own will! No judgment intended! :) * May God bless you all and the opportunities that fulfill your life and future! ✞ ♡ »»———-　　———-«« @melodyzzx ┊ ˚｡˚

hello 🤯

js a brief introduction about me i guess

- my preferred names are calix, ace, and melody

- pronouns are they/them & he/him

- i'm aroace 🤯

- my current interests are jujutsu kaisen, mashle, and etc. 💡

- i like playing games, listening to music and drawing 🤯‼️

- my favorite colors are red and blue ‼️😋 »»———-　　———-«« @onyxvv ˊˎ﹤ | Heya, you can call me Onyx or Comet, I don't mind whichever one you prefer to call me as! | They/Them pronouns, pansexual n' nonbinary! | Your local artist n' gamer, and MLP or any animes and video games are some of my interests!! »»———-　　———-«« @crimsoncaprisun ◦ ≫ ₊˚ʚ ᗢ₊˚✧ ﾟ.〰₊⋆

┆Name.ᐟ; Rain

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[cornflowershade]

bad buddy fandom getting-to-know-you meme!

Thank you for tagging me @lamonnaie!

note: i consider "fanworks" to pretty much everything people create related to a fandom, including but not limited to meta/analysis/discussion, gifs, fanvids/edits/fancams, filk, fanart, fanfic, fan food, fan crafts, etc. please include this note with the meme unless you have a different definition!

name and whatever you want to share about yourself Sonia (she/her). 24. I love getting to know people & chatting about shows so lets goooo

when did you watch bad buddy/join the fandom? I watched Bad Buddy in one week, in late October 2022. I owe it to @airenyah honestly. I think I found their blog through an SPN post and clicked over for that reason. In my scrolling, I happened upon a lovely gifset (wish I could recall who made it) of InkPa. It was the scene where they're outside and Pa says anyone taller than her is fine and hops down off the sidewalk. :) Love that scene. Anyway I reblogged it and in the tags was like WHAT IS THIS I MUST WATCH IT. To which airenyah gave me a whole blessed reply telling me the show name, giving a small synopsis/what to expect from my first thai drama & telling me where I could watch it. I immediately watched the series and adored it. I've seen it twice thus far.

favorite ship(s) PatPran & InkPa :)

favorite character(s): Okay I adore all the main 4 but I'm gonna go with Pran. I love him. There's just something so soft about him and how on earth do his eyes communicate so much?? I think I relate to his messy little overthinking and silently in love brain—very "me the first time i had a queer crush and simply wallowed the whole time bc it was impossible" lol. Also, he's always making the funniest facial expressions which gets me every time. I could go on about everything I like about his character (for instance how clever yet sometimes oblivious he is & how he gets all annoyed lol). Though I do question his sense of interior design and that smiley face obsession.

favorite episode(s) Honestly I'm not certain if I have one?? It's all so good! I do really like their "whoever falls first loses" era though. Wait actually?? My favorite ep might be the early one where Pat thinks he's hitting on the "girl" across the hall and they end up running into each other on the roof. Also both of the beach episodes.

favorite scene(s) *pastes in the entire show* Okay okay I'll try to pick a few:

~ The scene where Pat is staying over and he and Pran are lying in the dark, counting down to say in unison whether they have a crush on Ink. Idk I remember that scene having an emotional impact on me. Pran's face??? Then when Pat asks "would you like me?" and Pran says "I hate you" and then he yanks the blanket away but you saw him crying?? ahhhghrhghgh

~ The scene in the darkroom with Ink and Pa. I remember getting so emotional. Pretty sure Pa's dialogue and acting made me cry. "I do [like you being nice to me]. I like it so much that I thought I was special to you." ARE YOU KIDDING ME ASDFGZ. And then Ink says she is special to her!! And it's so sweet!!

~ OH and how could I forget. This should be at the top of the list. I realllly like the scene where Pran stands up to his mom and they have that emotional fight in their front hall. That whole thing is just. AHHHHHH. AHHH. AHIOFJEIOsdJIO. SIJDGRIOGJRIGJORE

~ And the scene at the stairs where Pat yells how much he loves Pran in front of Pran's whole faculty. :)

(Also any scene where Pat & Pran are being silly. Like their dumb little chopstick fight :p omg or the designing the bus stop at night scene)

one thing you would change about the show if you could Ohhhh I don't know! Maybe I'd throw in a few more InkPa scenes :)

what are your some of your favorite fanworks made by other people? Ahh fun fun fun. Get ready for some fanvid recs! (What else do you expect from me, a fanvidder.)

• Just My Type (Pat x Pran) by samyvids • Physical (Pat x Pran) by coldties • Enchanted (Ink x Pa) by rheaprodz • I really like you (Pat x Pran) by dkyth73 • Rebels (Pat x Pran) by coldties • Dandelions (Pat x Pran) by hylian fanvids

(if you create fanworks) what are your favorite fanworks that you’ve made? I've made two fanvids for Bad Buddy, as well as one song cover haha. I'll stick to the fanvids here. :)

• All I Need (Ink x Pa) • That dimple is illegal (Pat x Pran)

a song that makes you think of bbs (the ones in the show don’t count lol) Physical by Dua Lipa. The fanvid using that song is my all-time favorite BBS edit, so hearing the song reminds me of it.

idk anything else you want us to know? Uhhhhhhhh. I mean I could ramble about BBS and why it means so much to me for a long time haha. Should I do that? I guess I'll do that.

Okay so BBS was the first Thai drama I watched. I was still feeling a lot from the SPN-finale/confession scene era (yes that happened 2 years prior but it's SPN okay iykyk) which had me especially sad about and aware of media censorship etc. etc.

On top of that I was still working up the courage to leave this group chat of childhood friends, some of whom liked to complain about media "making everything gay" etc. (Amazing how you can not know people are homophobic for the entirety of your childhood bc the topic just never comes up lol.) Which was of course upsetting to me for multiple reasons. However the universe decided to do something nice and Heartstopper was released. That series felt really huge to me, but after it was over, I was left with this feeling of like... what else is there to watch? Where else will I ever find a queer ship this canon where they're also the main characters?

That's when I came across BBS and it gave me this realization that OH WAIT we aren't limited to western media and OH LOOK there's so many great shows that I didn't even know about!! And they keep making them! Also it was a queer story where the main obstacle wasn't being gay (Plus, Asian leads!!). And BBS itself is just such a standout show. First of all, I love a good comedy and the series made me laugh so much. It's heartfelt but full of ANTICS [like yes lets have fun! Lets not take everything too seriously!], and Pat & Pran & Ink & Pa are just such wonderful and lovable and real feeling characters—who have this lovely friendship too—and the show is just! Such a fun ride. <3 I recall watching the series and feeling like my world just got a little bit bigger. Anyway Bad Buddy goes all in for everything it does and it's such a joy.

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Tagging @airenyah and @distant-screaming and @feralmuskyscentedhoepran if you haven't done this yet and would like to!

[creedslove]

Hello baby.

The truth is that I have been having a bad time these days. My dad gave me a car but no one wants to teach me how to drive. The car he gave me is too big for my size and I can't reach the pedals, and even though I tried to explain it, he ignored me and told me I had to used to. Now he sold the one I had and bought another one, it turned out the same or worse.

The thing is that my mom and sister talked to me and told me that I have to talk to my dad and tell him that I don't want to and that the car doesn't work for me. Besides, I have to tell him that I was not accepted at the university for which I applied for the exam.

The problem is that I am very afraid of facing people and speaking for what I want, costs me too much work, I know it is silly but I am very afraid of facing talking to people and it makes me anxious to think about how they are going to scold me. I feel that I am very weak and I would like to be firm but I can't do it. I feel like I fail at many things and I'm really not as good as I thought I was and I feel very bad.

I just wanted to tell it, reading is a safe place for me and so is this blog. I feel like the way you interact with us is too warm and safe. Even if it's anonymous, I feel like I can tell something and receive some nice and genuine response, it's like a hug that I don't dare ask for.

Anyways, I just vent here but I think there's some things I can't talk with some persons in my life, and do anon here it's a way to deal with, for me. Thank you a lot for your amazing stories, it's a safe place for me.

💗💗💗💗

I hope you're Alright and I send you hugs.

Hi baby, I'm very sorry I haven't replied to you earlier, I've been busy but I'm happy to know you feel alright and safe here, may you continue having those positive feelings and using this space to vent and talk about whatever you wish! ❤️

I completely understand you, I truly do... First of all about the car, it's a shame they don't understand why the car isn't the right fit for you and that this might add to the nervousness or insecurity you must feel when it comes to driving... May I ask you how old you are? Because I'm 27, I don't know how to drive but I'll start my driving lessons next month and I'm excited but quite nervous about the fact I might be seen as "too old" (in my country we get our driver's license at the age of 18 but I never got mine for a number of reasons)

Nonetheless, I hope this car situation is already solved by now but if it isn't, remember it isn't the end of the world, eventually you'll find someone nice enough to help you or even find an instructor and learn how to drive, you'll be able to drive off anywhere you want, be independent and not worry about this anymore honey ❤️

Now, about you being afraid of facing people, I understand it in a spiritual level because until like a month ago I was like that, even if I'm nearly 30 I was still asking for permission or approval, mostly from my dad, because I was terrified of disappointing or making him angry, but once he had the stroke and I had to handle everything, I realized I am an adult and I can do whatever I want and I don't have to keep waiting for him to give his blessing on every single step, so I've been more independent, more rational and I've been able to impose myself in situations I'd just be submissive in my personal and work life too you know? This time will come for you too, it's scary and weird to think of it, but you are strong enough and you are gonna get it honey you don't have to worry about everything at all... You'll be fine, my love! I love you and I hope you'll be fine ❤️😘

[narciesuss]

Season Two

Episode One: You thought bitch 🤪

WARNING! FULL DISCLOSURE! A message for your sensitive ass! Don’t take my advice or anything I say seriously. This is all for shits and giggles. Why you trippin?

Press play 😏

I don't wanna be carrying the weight on my shoulders

Death has come to me, kissed me on my cheek, gave me closure

Immortal by design, I'll be meeting you here every time

Back from the dead

Sorry guys. I had to put some demons to sleep real quick. In the process I fell in love with a ghost, delusions, energy leeches, and a burden masked as a soul connection. Oh and I was trapped in the spiritual realm by this demon who was super into my wings, fucking weirdo.

Anyways!

The Universe has blessed me with isolation. My circle is small and cozy now.

I’m not gonna lie, the way most of my past connections ended left me heartbroken and sometimes literally beaten 💔

I don’t wish any harm on y’all, but you made the decision to burn that bridge. You made your bed now sleep in it, slobber in it! It’s so funny how y’all keep coming back and I still don’t hear a sincere apology.

Please stay away with your negative vibes ✋ get help.

But if you really want to be lurking and keep up with me then…

Welcome to The Motherfucking Kassie Show 💜

Here you’ll find me glowing the fuck up! And dissing you because this is my blog and I’ll write whatever the fuck I want.

But yeah you can always find me here 🤗 not in your DMs, not watching your story, not asking about your dumbass, and certainly not at your front door. YOU will find ME here ✨ because that’s all the access you have.

I can’t make everyone happy ✨

I’m just one of me 🖤 I can’t split myself into twos, threes, fours…

You don’t own me. I belong to myself and myself only.

If there is something I want you to take from all of this it’s self-love.

✨🌕✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

Wednesday April 5th 2023 at 11:34 pm we had a Pink Libra Full Moon super charged with the essence of death and endings. I hope you all used this time wisely by cleansing and releasing what no longer serves you.

I sacrificed my every day journal/scrapbook/book of shadows and threw it into my Full Moon fire. I thought, I don’t longer think the same so I shouldn’t hold onto it. Shrug. Rough draft.

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Happy Easter my bunnies 💕

Repeat after me

I herby decree that my aura and chakras be cleaned and made pure

I herby decree that my soul and essence be cleaned and pure

I herby decree that my energy and power belong to only me

I call back my energy

I call back my power

I call back all that belongs to me. Anything that is no longer serving my best and higher purpose, I call back to me right now.

I demand peace for my soul

Repeat that shit every morning and every night before your pretty little eyes close for the day 💋

And!

I hope you’re setting those boundaries and walking in your true power. Claim it all because you’re going to need every drop where we’re going 🙃

👸🏻🤍

End Credits:

I wanna thank my coworkers for encouraging me to keep the series alive.

I wanna thank my cute dealer for being there through the ups and downs. You’re a real one 💚

I wanna thank my cat for doing the vibration thing that triggers the happy cells in my brain 🤓😺

I wanna thank the Universe for this glow baaaybeeeeee 😈

☠️💀☠️💀☠️💀☠️💀☠️💀☠️💀☠️💀☠️💀☠️💀☠️💀

Next time on The Kassie Show!:

I interview your mom 😮‍💨

Jk

We’re talking about Angel numbers and spiritual downloads and your mom 🫶

Episode Two is up Monday April 10th

[gladstones-corner]

A Crisis of Material

I've built up a small queue of posts that would ordinarily serve this blog well, but for some reason or another they all lack something. Be it voice or conviction, I can't put my finger on what's missing.

As a ritual magician, I pride myself on being able to fold material from open practices into my own tradition. Further, I push myself to serve as an example to magicians who are no longer beginners but struggle to break out in their own right. However, to summarize my own practice succinctly is anathema to the very practice I purport to have.

I think it's because my own practice is not anchored by any specific tradition. I'm taken by the winds of my fancy, writing commentary on whatever I study with little thought to overall cohesion. I'd become someone who looks at traditions for what can be used rather than for what they are.

In short, I became a cultural cannibal.

So what brought this to my attention? Believe it or not, my Thelemic studies did. To fully grasp Crowley's meaning takes far more research than I was doing for a normal post (which was mostly taken from my own 15 years of experience).

This was the first time in a while that I found myself exhilarated by the research process. What secrets lie behind the riddles of The Beast?

Turns out, despite the complexity and density of Crowley's writings, a few themes surface that can be traced back to Book of the Law:

Everything is an emanant manifestation of the Godhead

Everything has a destiny that they can achieve or ignore

Love is the primary nature of each manifestation and its destiny

The natures of the manifestations, their destinies, and love within context are an infinite myriad of combinations.

So how does this relate to my miniature crisis of material? I think its because, for the first time in a while, I'm digging into a tradition deeply and meeting it on its terms--not mine. And in doing so, I think I found what I was lacking. Not authority, not conviction, but depth.

If I am to truly provide value to other magicians in the fashion that I wish to, I have to be willing to dig deeper into the texts and find those deeper threads that connect so many of our traditions at their core.

So for the near future, please expect deeper commentary. For now, it will be Thelemic in nature because that is what I'm studying. But once I wrap up Thelema, maybe I'll dig into Chaos Magic and lay some foundational groundwork for building your own tradition.

As always, thank you for reading. Blessed be~

[leighlew3]

I thought a lot about what I was going to write to you. I wish I could say something to you. I know whatever I write is not gonna do much. But I hope it'll remind you, that you're greatly admired and also to take care of yourself. Grief isn't linear, and no two grief are ever the same. I too have lost someone close to me and I've seen a lot of your followers sharing their stories with you lately. I find it beautiful that your followers come here and share their own grief and sorrows in your time of grief. It's almost like sitting around a fire and holding space for all of the grief we collectively hold and holding each other. Even if it's never gonna be the same, we get better at holding that grief. I sincerely hope we all do. I'm here to say that I'm sorry for your loss and all that you're going through now. When you're sad, believe that I'm offering a hand for you to hold. Even if virtually, the feeling still stands. Take care of yourself and surround yourself with good people and of course your beautiful pets. Much love 💜

( I'm a very shy person and when I usually write something from my heart like this, I'd be on anon. But even if there aren't many personal details on my Tumblr page, I just wanted to send it without the anon for you. Just to put a face to your new internet friend. Even if it's 2 weird looking blobs with eyes 😶‍🌫️)

Thank you so much for these kind words. Honestly. 💜

I feel so blessed to have connected with people who have gone through similar loss, or even just offered such wonderful support during this time of crushing grief I'm in.

I appreciate you. All of you.

And I'm... trying my best to hang in there. To be honest (as I always am to a fault, hello overshare)... it's not been getting easier with the passage of time. It's been getting HARDER. And at times very dark. So, I'm giving therapy a shot and have my first session tomorrow.

I'm sure I'll practically be live tweeting/blogging my therapy results as well, lol. It's partly all been cathartic to me to share what I'm going through and also partly been me wanting to try to help others who may be going through similar things, because I've noticed there's elements of intense grief that a lot of people don't always talk about, so if I can paint a picture that prepares people -- maybe it'll help. I dunno. But anyway. My hope is that others don't have to feel THIS level of despair after their loss, but everyone is different. Every loss is unique, because every relationship is unique. So. Yeah.

Anyway, again, I truly thank you.

[works-of-magic]

WARNING: THIS FACILITY BREEDS MISDREAVUS

If you have an anxiety disorder, heart condition, or otherwise do not wish to be startled during your stay, please let me know and we will give you a special lanyard to wear. This indicates to our resident ghosts not to scare you, so don’t take it off!

The Mismagius, on the other hand, don’t like being told what to do.

Just kidding, wear that and they’ll leave you alone too.

~*~

Hello! If you're having trouble finding Something Spooky, we're quite a ways off the path in Eterna Forest. Please reach out for directions; it's hard to find us by design, but we don't want any visitors getting lost!

My name is Jess, I host the resident ghosts around here at Something Spooky Breeding and Developement Center! Xe/xir, 25+, Sinnoh native. Breeder by profession, and a hobbyist coordinator in yesteryear, though I've been a battler too. (How else would I be able to raise Misdreavus for both purposes?)

We also sell accessories handcrafted by me and the Mimikyu, poffins, dusk stones, spell+cleanse tags, and various tea and powder blends inspired by the ghost magic practiced by me and three of my Mismagius. We do take custom spell commissions! (Just please don't ask us for a blessing. Legendaries were never my thing. I also won't do love spells.)

We do keep visitor hours and take volunteers with some light vetting! If you'd like a transcript for one of my seminars, I only ask that you specify which one.

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{{ Heya! Mun Zira here. This blog dabbles a little in pokemonIRL, traditional prose RP, and general tribute fun.

Magic Anons: Open!

Pelipper Mail: Open!

Pelipper Malice: Open!

I'm an adult. Mun and muse are both nonbinary. (If you click any of the links for A Work of Magic, that tells the story when Jess was 14 and will probably stop at about age 18, so it's before xe knew xe's nonbinary.) We both prefer xe/xir, but they/them is fine too! Other options include xe/xem, ey/em, or basically anything besides it/its.

Jess's past is being reworked somewhat, but if you'd like to know more about xir, you can read the bio (though it was also written before the decision to let Jess be nonbinary):

I rp with the "Yes, and" rule of improv! Headcanons may clash, and I will always keep mine for my characters, but I'll roll with almost anything, and I'm not afraid to employ multiversal shenaigans. If your blog seems fun to RP with, I'm okay rping with you! Talking Pokemon, legendaries with blogs, crossovers, magic, scifi tech, and whatever other oddball quirks exist in fiction are totally legal here. Jess's Mismagius can canoically speak English. This Is for Fun!

Canon for this blog is a custom blend of games, anime, movies, and whatever bits from the manga or tcg I like and decide to keep. There's also a hefty dose of headcanon here.

And that's about it. Lastly, if you need ANYTHING tagged, please let me know! And if I forget, please don't be afraid to remind me. I have an awful memory sometimes, but I promise, I will try.

If you're on mobile and can't see the custom links, they are:

About+Rules: https://works-of-magic.tumblr.com/about

My Partners and Friends: https://works-of-magic.tumblr.com/partners

Our Adventures: https://works-of-magic.tumblr.com/adventures

Tags (under construction): https://works-of-magic.tumblr.com/tags

Main headcanons tags:

studies (Pokemon biology/etc.), headcanons list (usually worldbuilding), about us (about Jess and xir team)

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Image credits:

Trainer card created on: https://tcm.pokecharms.com/modern

Trainer card picture: https://www.dolldivine.com/mega-anime-avatar-creator (With light editing to get Jess's bangs their signature black.)

[thefoxtrot008]

The Reader's Blog

Me, trying to convince you guys to read The Unwind series (by Neal Shusterman) based on the playlist I made for it and this meme alone;

Something Real (Post Malone) "So tell me how the fuck am I still alive, it's a miracle" "I would trade my life just to be at peace" "It's a double-edged sword cutting' off ties with the ones I know" I feel like this one would be good if they made like a movie/tv show about it, and they pan to different point of views at the very end of it. I think it would be cool.

2. Litlost (X Ambassadors) Um... literally the entire song is lit and a vibe. It's pretty sad though, which fits the whole series. (fair bit of warning: you might need tissues) "And your grandfather clock is still ticking, but the chime never rings" "And I'll never be whole again" "What have I done? With my heart on the floor, I must be out of my mind."

3. The Phoenix (Fall Out Boy) "So, we can take the world back from a heart attack one maniac at a time we will take it back." "Doesn't it feel like our time is running out?" For this one, (I'm not gonna be specific because of spoilers) but that whole fight scene in book 2, would be great. Or in book 3, when they start to take over the camps.

4. The Kids Aren't Alright (Fall Out Boy) "blessed be the boys time can't capture" "I'm not passive but aggressive, and I still feel that rush in my veins. All the people in those old photographs I've seen are dead." This could be the theme song. For reals.

5. Clocks (Coldplay) "The lights go out and I can't be saved, tides that I tried to swim against, have brought me down upon my knees" "Cursed missed opportunities, am I part of the cure, or am I a part of the disease? Singin'"

6. Devil I Know (Allie X) "I want to, wanna get free" "But you bring me down to my knees when push comes to shove" Could be used when kids get rounded up by the police and they try to fight or run.

7. Hopeless Opus (Imagine Dragons) "It's not a picture perfect life, not what I had in mind" "Let me write my own line, I've got this place that I've filled with empty space"

8. Paradise (Coldplay) "In the night, the stormy night, away she'd fly; and dream of para-para paradise" For this one, again, perhaps another theme song? Maybe it's what every AWOL kid secretly wishes for.

9. Can't Feel My Face (The Weeknd) "And I know she'll be the death of me, at least, we'll both be numb" I think this one is kinda funny to add. I think it would be good to use it, because it would sort of show the opposite side of the problem, those that think unwinding is good. Maybe if they show the adds like they do in the books, then this song could be a background song to it. Who knows.

10.. Eat Your Young (Hozier) "There's money to be made, whatever's still to come." "Come and get some, skinning the children for a war drum." "It's quicker and easier to eat your young." For some reason, this song makes me think of the fancy parts-pirate in book 5.

11. Ends and Begins (Labrinth) "I hear your name, I hear a melody, I'll never forget, ah. 'Cause it's carved in my memory. Ah, forevermore. And infinity, ah." "Like a brand-new start, baby" So, this one would be PERFECT for the end scene in book 5. I also think that it's perfect for all the main characters. Lev, Risa, Connor, and Hayden. Their names will go down in history. Especially after everything they've all been through. That'll all I've got to say.

AND THAT'S ALL FOLKS! Let me know if you do end up reading this series, it's amazing! Or if you have any thoughts on any of these artists!

[mythundermeme]

100 lyric starters

notes: feel free to tweak details to fit the muses. do not add to this list. other meme blogs, please don’t reblog. (content warning: sexual themes, violence, death, suicide)

"Tell me, does that sexy gown say what she's got in store for her man?"

"I thought you would always be there to hold."

"The longer i must wait for justice, I grow ever hungry in the cold."

"Take from them just what they took from me."

"It’s hard to see a future when your purpose is your past."

"Shoot to kill and live to last."

"If loneliness is prison, every touch is liberation."

"I know good deeds don’t guarantee a path to some salvation."

"I’ve reclaimed just what they took from me."

"What I'd give and what I'd trade for all your flickers, your flickers of the light."

"You're just a bunch of lies."

"Oh, I have run to the letters that you wrote me."

"Oh, help me sleep at night."

"The morning fog and waking sun have healing ways."

"Gave up our lives just to find that it was not enough."

"Hope has no place here."

"Maybe the end we tried to avoid is already here."

"Some evil will never ever die."

"Even if it's in broken speech, I want you to tell me your pain."

"Pretending that the pain's worn off doesn't make you an adult."

"You're so precious to me it almost brings me to tears."

"All I fear means nothing."

"My heart's a battleground."

"You know that you're my super star."

"No one else can take me this far."

"You're giving me too many things lately. You're all I need."

"Don't get me wrong, I love you. But does that mean I have to meet your father?"

"Wish I could prove I love you, but does that mean I have to walk on water?"

"Whatever lies beyond this morning is a little later on."

"That's right, I heard the story. Don't really like how it ends."

"Did you think all this time that I wouldn't find out about you?"

"I'm the loser of the game you didn't know you were playing."

"It used to feel like a fairy tale, now it seems we were just pretending."

"Let's just live day by day and not be conquered by our sorrows."

"Can we get back to a happy place? We've suffered so much pain and sorrow."

"People make a history by threading the threads of love into it."

"We're the same, you and me."

"Love's the choice we made."

"Death can't bind our endless story."

"Pain is your reward for being near me."

"I am no one's blessing, I'll just bring you harm."

"Brother, you're safe now."

"Don't try to make yourself remember, darling."

"When I'm better, we'll do everything."

"I gotta stop making promises I can't keep."

"But if I was gone tomorrow, won't the waves crash on?"

"I told you to forget me, but you stayed by my side."

"I quite enjoy the life you say I'm trapped in."

"Well it's intriguing, but to go would cost me greatly."

"Your clothes might be dirty and covered with blood but i’ll still have a hot meal here waiting."

"Your heart is a safe place for others to land."

"You have two hands made to raise others up, and you have two clear eyes to see others with love."

"I’ll always be holding your heart and your hand."

"Without regret, I’d offer up my life."

"I would fly into the sun if that would keep our dream alive ."

"I will fight for you, no matter how I am despised ."

"No sleep until I'm done with finding the answer."

"I've been living for tomorrows all my life."

"They say that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe."

"I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave."

"Feel me, touch me, heal me."

"Pretty little flower, won't you sit back down and go play nice?"

"My, oh my, look at who ends up bigger this time."

"Keep talking, keep laughing. One day you'll see what happens."

"Bury your doubts under the ground."

"Know I'm all bite, no bark."

"I'll stay so deep inside your brain and take you somewhere far away."

"Is it really a surprise if I'm playing with your mind?"

"Never had a soul, so you ain't taking anything from me when you go."

"A man learns who is there for him when the glitter fades and the walls won't hold."

"What are you willing to lose?"

"You're out of time, make your move."

"Kiss your perfect day goodbye."

"I had one thing, and you've taken it from me."

"You sent me back to nothing."

"Your best stuff looks like my worst."

"You look like you could use some more."

"What’s higher than the top? That's me."

"Wanna leave this hell, take me out, please."

"I’ll show you what I’m made of, rise to the occasion."

"You know your own worth very wel."

"You're not suited for the rage of war."

"Gonna break rules and hearts in twos."

"Only took a minute for me to get what you had."

"Way that I look should be breakin' the law."

"You know that I love the sound of applause."

"Sorry not sorry for bein' the best."

"I wanna hide the truth, I wanna shelter you."

"Don't wanna let you down, but I am hell-bound."

"Your eyes, they shine so bright. I wanna save that light."

"I can't escape this now, unless you show me how."

"Why would you dare me to do it again?"

"Don't ever say it's over if I'm breathin'."

"They said I wouldn't make it out alive, they told me I would never see the rise."

"Why worship legends when you know that you can join 'em?"

"You stood me up, who do you think you are?"

"Now it hurts to meet your gaze."

"Nobody showed me how to return the love you give to me."

"I never wanted to ever bring you down."

"You touched my body once, it burns me still softly."

[improvingtrainwreck]

Ig. All these posts w images I blog or reblog... they're manifestations of what I wish my own life to be and experiences I am deeply hoping and looking forward to expereincing.

They have to come true. They, have to.✨



🪄believe in life's magic, good karma from putting beautiful energy out into the universe, God's blessings, and the universe's will to manifest your wildest dreams n dream life. I love you universe, even though it's been mostly hard lately(lately as in the past couple or just the past years of my life- mostly). Even then I'm still holding my head up, believing, knowing it's going to get way better than I ever even wished for, or dared to dream...

Just as those ''The Alchemist" posts said

 “When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it.”(Coelho, 2014, pg.24)

Speaking of which I fell in love with the before ever having read it. I wasn't really a bug reader but I'm trying to get into it... Y'all but when I tell you luckily enough for me, the most random opportunity presented itself and I was able to borrow it from a sweet soul. I finally got my hands on a copy and when I tell you I'm about halfway through and the book's made me so emotional quite a bit of times already... ugh beautifull. Anyway it's been a lil bit I really needa finish it, I wanna finish it soon. Also I'm kinda on a sm break rn so it's gonna be interesting and growth inspiring seeing what I do w that time

And OHMYGORF

I ALMOST FORGOT. I wrote the most beautiful, moving poem the other day. Somedays I literally forget that I'm a poet. Like i often forget it's a big part of what makes me me. Like I am actually a full blown, poetic soft deep loving romantic soul having, poet. Just like these pros I'll see/ hear about on social media. That'ss why I can start writing abt literally the most mundane thing and it turns into a beautifully written, "🥹" ,long paragraph or twoo. Like I literally can't help itt. I don't necessarily like the process of actually writing/typing this long but it just happens. most. or. every. time. Then the reality really hit. I am. A poet. Isn't that interesting. It's crazy to think that for the rest of the point though that isn't exactly a selling point or somethin they'd love or cherish in a partner or peer. Really interesting to think abt, in fact for those who haven't exactly met themselves or the world that deeply yet, they'd probably just pull a u turn in fact. N ig while it's a little sad it's just kinda like repellant for souls that wouldn't exactly mesh well with mine sooo, blessing in a disguise? I feel like not many things feel better than meeting persons you truly connect with🥹.

Yeah and I know it sounds weird, like "how do you forget you're a poet?" ik ik, but it happens. Not that I have to explain delicate matters like this, oof the heart aka my art, w anyone but just on like a homie, transparent level... I think it's because after seeing the grand works of these truly talented, especially published poets out there and ig after subconsciously comparing my works and achievements or lack thereof (in the field) to them... it just doesn't feel the same ig? Sometimes when you're new to something, a field, career, area of study- whatever, it can feel and be really intimidating seeing all the well established persons and veterans in the are and not feel anywhere near them. Even if your talent is but you're just not as sugared or decorated yet. And I feel like it's also bc I've felt I've had to turn down the poet inside me for the day by day, either to not come off as weird or bc my deep feelings and writing or speaking lingo would standout way too much and tbh anything slightly different and we know how mean ppl can get. Anywho I'm getting over that now bc it's so evident how "trying to fit in or be 'normal' kills character", it's just been saddeningly hard trying to get back in touch with me. The me that was before society made feel weird for being me and learned all the way to fit in perfectly and be socially acceptable. Ngl, I've been on this 'getting back to me' path for a while now and it's crazy how you'll think all the work to undo the damage that was done, is done but then it's not and you'll always discover another way or area you missed. Like it's soo hard to uncap my personality and the entirety of my soul once it's been capped, esp for so long- so I can be at my fullest basking in self-love and existing entirely, soul without unclipped wings and radiating the most beautiful aura (that'll attract all the healthy beautiful souls aligned w me that'll bring love, great thing and reciprocated energy into my life🥹,) shining in all her glory as she should, and always deserved to be. Fully me unapologetically like I never had the chance to be before. I want that so muchh, I will not stop just lovingly working on it. I know it'll happen someday soon and it'll be the most wonderful. I already felt a glimmer of that sun peeking through a cloud the other day and it is divine, I can sense the perfect confidence🥰...

Ykw too, I swr every time I start writing these post I truly neverr expect them to be this long but then I start writing and my brain brings up more and more and I jus have to type it and so I end up with these reallly long journal type entries, with it's content deeper than expected fr. *satisfying sigh, turns head to the right, looks into space* I wouldn't change it for anything though...

Also as one of my signature touches to these posts... one of the really cool parts about it being online... here's the very recent masterpiece from 2 of my favs

What was I made for by Billie Eilish. Her writing along with Finneas' and his production🥹😭😭💗

I love that duo. I also find Jeremy Zucker's beautiful, lovee me some Ed Sheeran. Can't remember who else in this category for now, but trust me y'all. Every time Billie and Finneas make music I love it, feel something and relate to it somehow, they're like angels at this, I am truly in love with their work and their artistry.

My forearm is lowkey burning from all this typing chile oml, honestly pretty normal is the crazy part

Mémoire. Nora Attal photographed by Brydie Mack for Faithfull the Brand Summer 2020.

[thepetiteninja]

Welcome to 2024

Hello again!

My most recent post was from 4 years ago. And so much had happened since, so I guess it's time for another update. I'm writing this for me who will be reading this entry after a few years, maybe when I remember to dig up my old tumblr account again just because I felt like reminiscing.

So anyway, I'm turning thirty this year. That hasn't sunk yet because more than anything — I'm getting married this year too. It's still to the guy I have been writing about years before. We're turning 9 years this 2024, and are tying the knot this October. He proposed to me two years ago. On top of the Singapore Flyer, 11.11.22. Damn, what a date.

But the past few years weren't all about butterflies and happiness. These past few years were actually some of the worst ones of my life so far. I'm in debt. But fortunately on a good payment plan now that I haven't missed. I risked a really good job to pursue hosting full time — that only lasted for 3 months. Then shifted industries because I wanted to still give myself a chance. And so now I'm still hosting but for e-commerce livestreams. Got promoted twice in a year. I'm now a trainer. But I still do copywriting on the side because it makes good money. At least now I've flipped it up. Doing my passions full time then writing on the side. I'm tired though, to tell you the truth.

Mind-wise, I'm confident. I know what I can bring to the table and what I'm capable of. I don't second guess myself too much now. I still work hard and multi-task. I know my worth. I know my strengths. I learned my lessons well. I've been through difficult times and now I've gained stability. I know I'm ready to fly. In a smarter, more mature way.

Life-wise could be better. Because the wedding is right around the corner, everything I'm earning is being poured to it. So you can say I'm still living paycheck to paycheck after all the great things I take pride on. I'd like to think I've planted a lot of seeds that I'm just waiting to harvest soon. Hopefully the wedding turns out great, so I could finally enjoy the fruits of my labor completely. To be honest tonight, dinner was just a pack of pancit canton and cup noodles. It's petya de peligro and I don't know where to get tomorrow's fare to work. But I'll get by. After a day, salary's gonna come. I really hope it gets so much better soon.

So these things, y'know. It's entirely great but minutely terrifying. And every single time God proves to me that there's guidance from above. You won't believe how many conveniently unexpected blessings I've gotten over the past tumultuous years. I can't even comprehend how I've weathered through all the moments I worried about. But I'm here, sitting on my couch, safe, satiated, typing whatever comes to mind. It's these reflective, peaceful pauses that makes you realize that despite the chaos, I'm actually okay. Barely breathing but pushing on.

I'd like to think future me who would be reading this somehow, someday, would look at me and say: "just wait, it's going to be better". Because I would be saying the same thing to myself who started this blog 10+ years ago. It had gotten so much better. Crazier, but better. I wish future me would say, "babe, we're a millionaire". But more importantly would love her to say, "we still love what we do". No matter what that looks like.

So there. I think that's an ample update about how I am now. And hopefully in a few years tumblr would still be here so I'd be able to read all this again. It's a good self-therapy shit. And also I just missed writing my thoughts like this.

Ok, I'm just rambling now. Until the next update!