mamabirbsnz

[mamabirbsnz]

Quite literally please seek out DBT instead of asking people should I hurt myself online

I have weekly therapy sessions and access to a mental hospital, thank you. I don't have it on demand, and I have to make it work around my work schedule, but my work accommodates me for it.

I genuinely can't tell if you're trying to be helpful, but I don't think you are because the tone of this anon comes off as "just kys already."

Again, if this is who I think it is, I still have all the screenshots of your deleted posts of you gaslighting and bullying me publicly. Keep it up and I'll post all of them :)

[mamabirbsnz]

Sneezing with big bouncing b r e a t s popping out of smaller bras is hot and all, but please consider,,,

Small tiddy sneezes where the bra is oversized and slipping off the shoulder. Each sneeze revealing more and more. They don't bounce as much, but they are just as lovely. 💖

[mamabirbsnz]

Oliver x Nolan ٩( ᐛ )و

Take 5 of posting this 😭

Minors DNI

Link to un-split image

Supposed to be posted in February uhhh, art studies and life wow- So now, nearly a month later after my bday, here is the art lol I’m still studying but like- I wanted to post this so it’s not quite as fine tuned but I still like it..

[mamabirbsnz]

Hurting yourself won’t fix anything, because you don’t have to pay for what you did. You’re not some terrible person who goes around hurting people intentionally. You’re human, you’re bound to make mistakes. The best thing you can do is acknowledge when you messed up (which you already did!) and move forward from there. You can’t change what happened in the past, but you can learn from it. That’s how life works! So no, you’re not a terrible person, and you don’t need to hurt yourself to pay for what you did. From someone who’s been sober from sh for a little over a year now, you got this. People love you.

Anon, thank you so so much for the kind words. I am happy to know that there are still people who love me. Sometimes I lose touch with reality and forget about how the people closest to me are the ones that matter the most, and they love me more than anything in the world. Sometimes I get a little caught up in the community and people's public opinion of me, especially after so many lies were spread about me that I didn't do. (Not referring to being rude, that I did do and I'm sorry about it. I'm referring to something I got falsely accused of doing in a discord server and then got banned over nothing.)

Thank you so much. I am feeling a lot better today, and I'll try to combat any negative feelings with my anxiety meds if I have to. (Doesn't help that my coworkers constantly push me towards the edge of insanity, purposefully making me feel insecure about shit I don't do on purpose (i.e. staring, stimming, etc). It's hard to ignore, but I have to try.)

[mamabirbsnz]

Imagine someone coming up to you and asking if you can spare a bump and then you give them a small pile of chhinkni to snort off your house key

[mamabirbsnz]

TW// mental health, s3lf h4rm, su1c1dal tendencies

Someone please tell me what to do...

I've been having feelings of self harm again... I'm really scared of relapsing and going back to the hospital... not that it's bad, it's a nice place that cares about their patients... I'm just afraid of possibly staying longer and leaving my friends and family behind for a month or something... the anxiety medication can only help so much...

I've been carrying so much guilt for like 7 months now because I've made people in this community uncomfortable for things I've said, and for things I've been falsely accused of. I've hurt some people emotionally, and because of that, I've wanted to hurt myself physically... that's actually the main reason I went to the mental hospital in the first place... I feel like I've let my community down by being rude in snz discord servers... I want to apologize directly to some of those people I've hurt because I realize now I was being manipulative, even though I wasn't trying to be. But I'm so terrified of confrontation and rejection that it's holding me back from doing the right thing and apologizing... I have no idea how they would react or if they still hate me, or if I would just be publicly humiliated if they decide to post screenshots or something...

My family and close friends all believe I'm a good person. I don't know if I think that way about myself anymore with all the guilt I have pent up...

I don't know what to do... if anyone has any advice on what I should do, please let me know...

[mamabirbsnz]

Catching up on L/ast We/ek To/night after like years of not watching and what the fuck is going on here on this day

[mamabirbsnz]

@Special-K posted:

Dressed to kill, but apparently, I’m on bedrest instead. 🖤🥀

So someone (aka @InToadWeTrust, aka Rexar, my overprotective ass of a boyfriend) decided that I’m "too sick to be shaking ass for cash tonight." 🙄 Like okay, yes, I might have a fever, and maybe I’ve been sneezing my brains out all day, and possibly I almost passed out trying to do my eyeliner…but that’s beside the point. I was READY, okay?? Red “Hello Tiddy” top, oversized jacket, perfect messy-but-hot vibes—looking so good for absolutely no one because my bossy man has revoked my club privileges for the night. 😤

Now I’m just dramatically lounging in bed, looking sickly stunning, vaping my frustrations away, and contemplating whether I should sneeze directly into Rexar’s mouth as revenge. 🤔💨 He’s lucky I’m too weak to fight back right now because this level of injustice cannot stand. Someone PLEASE tell him that I can, in fact, survive one (1) night of work without dying. Or at least revoke his Bossy Boyfriend™ privileges until further notice. 🫠

Sorry to anyone I owe a dance to—rain check? 😘 IOU.

#SickAndSexy #FreeMe #BabygirlDown #RexarFangIsTheSicknessPolice #SendHate

[mamabirbsnz]

Seconding this to hopefully signal boost at least a little bit. I really don't know what to do to help... this situation is just horrible...

Veer, you were one of my very first friends in the community. I'm not saying this to make it about me, I'm saying it because you deserve friends too. You deserve love, you deserve happiness.

@veersnz if you are still out there, please... PLEASE reach out to someone who lives close to you. Hopefully they can talk you out of this because, like poni said, it's not your time. Please.

Cw : d3ath

If you're reading this, it probably means I've already crossed the rainbow bridge by now. Or sometime very soon at least. I hesitated for a long time on whether or not I should tell everyone or keep my disappearance to myself. But now I think I rather have my passing be acknowledged rather than remain a mystery and branded as "they found something better to do, some better people". Or let people wonder aimlessly as to where I could've gone or why I abandoned them. My heart aches at the thought that I'll never get to meet any of you, never laugh with you again, never share details of my stupid life and pictures of my cat.

I know that this is kind of sudden and I'm sorry about leaving, I wish I had done more for this community, for this place so dear to my heart. You all accompanied me for 5 years in the prime of my youth ever since I joined in 2020 and I met so many incredible people during my stay. I loved every moment spent speaking another language, sharing and talking and loving with so many different people. People I hope I won't forget in that next place. Thank you for everything you've done for me, I remember every art piece, every conversation, every laughter.

To the people on the discord server; Hachi, Dye, Reed, Moon, El, Mari, Summer, Opposum and every other person, thank you, thank you for everything. For helping me with the loneliness I felt throughout my time. And for providing me with so much laughter and joy every day. I'm sorry in advance for the absence my disappearance will cause.

I'm sorry, I know my decision will question and sadden some of you and I'm sorry for the hurt it will cause. But please remember me. And most of all don't feel guilty, there was nothing to be done with my case. You all have brought me so much happiness. The only truth is that I've fought for too long in meaningless battles with my mental and physical health I think it's time I rest a little. I'm sorry I wasn't stronger. I just can't bear it anymore

-Alice (Veer)

[mamabirbsnz]

I'M BACK FROM THE LOONEY BIN!!! LFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!🗣️🗣️🗣️

We are so back 🔥🔥🔥. I'm not gonna let anything stop me from getting the Pillow Talk Part 2 wav out before GTA 6 no siree not me!

[mamabirbsnz]

I'll be on an indefinite hiatus. Do not worry about me. I am safe. I'm admitting myself into a mental hospital. I really need it. I've been unhappy for too long now, and these people are going to try to fix me... Hopefully, I'm going to come back as a happier person.

Please take care of yourselves.

Signing out

-Macaw...

[mamabirbsnz]

Who put this on my Twitter feed

[mamabirbsnz]

Derel vs. Winter

CW for mess

This is Derel's first time experiencing such a cold winter on planet Earth. They have never had a cold before, so this sudden revelation has left them confused, and such a powerful sneeze has left them dizzy.

This oc belongs to the lovely and very talented @veersnz ! Thank you veer for letting me draw your oc for you! You rock! Everyone please show veer some love! They deserve it! <3

MINORS AND NON-SNZ ACCOUNTS DNI!! PLEASE DO NOT RB TO NON-SNZ BLOGS!!

[mamabirbsnz]

first SNZ art post… (m)

helloooo I am normally a lurker but today i share my depraved art

nsfw but not graphic m/f (m snz) I may delete this !! (shy)

almost but not quite nsfw under the cut!

sorry it kind of sucks! I am a beginner in anatomy Hope someone might enjoy it at least 👍

Anyways, werewolf guy has a cold and yeah.

[mamabirbsnz]

there’s something so validating about seeing other trans and/or autistic people on snzblr because i feel like we’re so often excluded kink/sexual spaces

shoutout to all my other neurodivergent and queer sneezefuckers, ily and you’re hot as fuck 🫶

[mamabirbsnz]

DISCLAIMER!

This is a reupload of one of my old wavs that was originally uploaded to SoundCloud. I have been informed that SoundCloud is unavailable in some countries. Therefore, I am reuploading the wav straight to tumblr so it is easily accessible to everyone!

If you'd like to access the original post with the SoundCloud link, click here.

CW: sneezing (obvi), sniffling, allergy denial, allergic! T/odd, OCs, LOTS of holdbacks/buildups, potentially startling door/window sfx, T/odd simps for E/ggie a little bit (he’s also kinda stupid), B/axter’s a little mean in this one

Summary:  Eggie comes home after a girl’s night out with her Russian friend Hornet for Valentines day. She comes home bearing chamomile flowers, which Todd is very allergic to, but he’s too stubborn to admit it.

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Hello! OvO

So this is my first wav, and I’ll eventually upload art of the ocs here. But for now, here is my wav! I hope you like it! >~

Edit: I FORGOT TO MENTION! T/odd is voiced by my wonderful boyfriend! This may be a one off deal, or just something we’ll do together every so often. We’ll see!

[mamabirbsnz]

CW: T/odd x Listener, allergy denial, pollen allergies, sniffling, sneezing (obviously), harsh-ish sneezes, breathy (sometimes wheezy) buildups, false starts, stuck sneezes, whiny hitching, (late) Valentine's Day wav

Summary: T/odd got you your favorite flowers for Valentine's Day. Unfortunately, your favorite flowers just happened to be the kind he is most allergic to: chrysanthemums. He refuses to admit his allergy, being the stubborn man that he is.

Happy Valentine's Day!- Oh wait, it's over? I KNOW I KNOW I'M SORRY OKAY?? 😭😭😭 I was busy spending time with my bf and I prioritized that because he can only come up to visit a few times a year. One of the things we did was make this wav tho (yes that's my bf voicing T/odd) 😏 in which I induced him LIVE in our hotel room 🫨🫨🫨

It was awesome and very hot, too bad y'all couldn't see his big ol nose twitch like an adorable little rabbit. 🫠🫠🫠 I included a bonus blooper too. Yknow, to be cute :P I guess it's not really a blooper, just a silly thing I said to him at the end of the recording.

And yes I know it's similar to my original valentine's day wav from 2 years ago, but hey. T/odd is my most popular oc on here and flowers make sense for valentine's day so here you go 😂🫠

Please enjoy!

-Macaw 🦜