#what's the point of anything anymore?
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#once again feeling the weight of EVERYTHING that's completely out of my control#from general things like the state of the world that's just ready to implode and kill us all both from enviromental hell#but also because the people controlling it don't give a shit in a political sense#but also from little tiny personal things like my inhability yo find a job that's recurrent at least and pays even minimal wage#amongst others...#and i just want to kill myself#like in a non serious way but also in a serious way idk how to explain it#(i'm not in actual danger tho don't worry)#and it might be because i'm on my period and that's when the suicidal thoughts peak usually#but i'm just not handling things well lately#and i'm getting increasingly more and more overwhelmed#to the point that i can't work#i'm drawing one line every 2hs pretty much and i have fast approaching deadlines i'm struggling to meet#and just everything seems so pointless right now#... yeah#welp happy sunday sorry to be a bummer#although by now y'all know so i'm just gonna ask y'all to ignore me#;)#i just need to scream at the void sometimes ya know?#and yeah a much healthier option would be to journal and not put it on the internet forever but whatever#what's the point of anything anymore?#personal#angel talks
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cringe culture needs to die because when i was 17 i printed out the entire player's handbook and monster manual with my unlimited school printing credit and also wore a black velvet cape the first time i ever DMed and somehow still thought i was too cool for dnd novels. who tf did i think i was fooling
#ramble#i'm 90% sure i still have it in a folder in my desk somewhere#to clarify NONE of these things are cringe but i was embarrassed bc doing anything when you're 17 is embarrassing#i'm not even exaggerating that i've become so much happier just doing whatever i want and not apologising for it#i hate that it took me 20 years to realise that people are going to think i'm weird no matter what so there's no point masking anymore#and also that i didn't read a dnd novel until this year bc i was missing out#anyway i hate tiktok for bringing back bullying in a different more terrible way#go larping nobody cares#tl;dr you will BLOSSOM the moment you stop caring
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When in doubt, Soup it out.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan wangji#a-yuan.#wei wuxian#Yes I am skipping over LWJ's panic at WWX joking about giving birth to A-Yuan. It's funny bit but there are many more to come!#The last time these two sat down together the tensions were so high. The peace is nothing more than a layer of cold fat on the surface.#It's not 'really' them coming to see eye to eye. It's them not having the energy to say what they really want anymore.#LWJ is very defined by his jealousy and the conflict it creates with his need to put his feelings aside for the perceived greater good.#To live a life where you are always second and never ever allowing yourself to be first...#If other people can be at peace and happy - it has to be worth it right?#If he orders a plate of food that he will struggle to eat but is the favourite thing of the person sitting across from him#Is it not worth the sacrifice?#But remember! You can't take anything for yourself ever. No matter how much you want it.#He did it once before and he regrets it so much. So all he can do is accommodate.#And WWX? Well. You can't let anyone in if there isn't enough water to splash around in.#Keep things shallow and they just move on. Even if you'll miss them when they go - this is just how things are now.#No more teasing and trying to pull a reaction from LWJ anymore. You'll never be more than someone he can't stand so what's the point.
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your name seems to echo in my head guiding through the errors, pulling into light
#i won't render anything anymore#bc what's the point IT'S EXHAUSTING#and looks off#o14#destiny 2 echoes#the final shape spoilers#echoes spoilers#saint-14#osiris#osiris destiny#destiny 2#destiny 2 fanart#artists on tumblr#my art
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I must say this first. Having your heart broke does not excuse mental abuse. What Seven is doing to mc is atrocious, I do not understand the community fans love for Seven. Deliberately using words, actions, lyrics to inflict pain because they are hurting is cruel an inexcusable. It also feels like they use Alina as a tool.
G is an alcoholic egotistical rockstar. B is an asshole pure and simple. E and S feel like background characters and kind of dull and lifeless. O is okay but still not interesting enough to pursue to me. V is not my preference. Oh, and A. Forgot A because sadly they seem forgettable. I can hope for single route maybe?
Interesting story, fun and entertaining, but I mean no offense or attack to you but you write better friends and side characters than love interests.
#inbox#If you were expecting anything other than imperfect people doing not so good things#Then I’m not sure what to tell you anymore at this point#It’s been over a year of me reiterating that point#and I never lied about that pls start taking my warnings seriously lol
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i started thinking abut marina a little too long and got emotional
#marina ida#you know that on e lik eummm 'whats the point anymore. OMG HIIIII KITTY' pic thats how i feel about marina#instant dopamine hit idc idc idc SHES SILLY !!!!!!!! /pos#splat2n#splatoon#off the hook#marina splatoon#if anything happens to her in side order im killing everyone
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bug doodles so i can say i drew something
#oc#original character#alien oc#artists on tumblr#art#aliens#sketch#nyx#having a rough month creatively. and mentally. like a really really rough month. but i'm tired of saying that too#i made like three things this year i was excited about and that's it. where did the fun go. im supposed to enjoy it right#if i dont enjoy it then what is the point !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! of anything !!!! i dont enjoy Anything anymore even !!!!!!!!!#why is it already august. almost september. i dont even remember most of 2023 let alone 2024.#i got no drive to draw let alone to push through a drawing when it gets challenging or doesn't turn out right. i barely drew this month#just kinda hated everything. nothing is fulfilling#IF IM NOT HAVING FUN !!! THEN WHAT IS THE POINT !!! WHAT AM I DOING IT FOR#more and more i consider taking a hiatus from art. but what the fuck else do i do with my time then. what if i never come back to it#i got a list of stuff i could draw but either i try and i dont like it or i sit there and wonder why even bother because i wont enjoy it#guys im tired. im so exhaustingly overwhelmingly depressingly fucking tired and i feel no joy in my art#or videogames. or anything.#i need to go to bed
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thinking about jayce arcane and the way he manages to make completely fucked up decisions through nothing more than base instincts. like. he doesn’t want to lose funding for hextech so he leans into the council. he feels powerless and wants to defend his city so he winds up accidentally killing a kid. he doesn’t want to lose viktor so he turns him into a void aberration without a second thought. do you hear me. is this thing on
#there’s a more intelligent way of wording this but my brain is just brrrrr#anyway free my man he did all that but i love him#the point is that it’s not a case of him being a fundamentally bad or selfish person he’s just incredibly shortsighted#i’ve seen ppl say that what he did to viktor was selfish and just another way of using him and like! yeah that’s kind of true!#but it was never intentional! none of it was!#he acts from base instinct - love and protectiveness and duty - and doesn’t think twice#and that’s as much a weakness as it is a strength#god the absolute duality. bleeding heart scientist and the man who cannot feel anything anymore because of the consequences of love.#arcane#arcane s2 spoilers#jayvik#kinda#p
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no dude. because percy had to have been going through it post-TBOTL. like, imagine being told you may not live to see sixteen. and imagine knowing that everyone else knows that, and having to watch them grieve you retroactively. that alone is enough to make anyone lose their will to live. except, he needed to stay alive. not for himself, but for his family and friends. for the world. it's like everyone wants him to step up and be a beacon of hope for demigods, a hero. and he's just a kid who's barely hanging on.
#my headcanon is he was most definitely flunking all of his classes bc 'what's the point of anything anymore'#but his teachers don't know that so they just assume he's this lowlife trouble makers who couldn't give a damn about anything#except the only thing he doesn't give a damn about is himself#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo#pjo text post#pjo headcanon#percy jackson#percy jackson headcanon#percy jackson hurt#percy jackson angst#leave this child alone#i'll fight you myself#🤺🤺 bitch begone! 🤺🤺#🤺🤺 begone foul beast! 🤺🤺
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#gif#why do I have to spend every christmas and every birthday alone#for what am I being punished#I am a good person#and I don’t think this suffering has any sense#it’s just that in life the happy people have good things coming their way#and the sad people always just get more trauma#I know I could have a relationship if I didn’t have such a traumatic childhood#my trauma lets me reject the good guys and waste my time with the aholes#but i don’t know what to do about it#every nice guy I met absolutely wasn’t attractive to me#and we also didn’t have anything in common#so I’m not even regretting rejecting them cause it wouldn’t have worked out#and they deserve someone who actually fancies them#i just wonder why I never met a nice guy that I have common interests with#or who matched my preferences lookwise#it really feels like I’m simply not allowed to ever meet the right person#and gotten to the point where I swipe for hours have a lot of matches and then ghost everyone#as I just know it either will be someone nice but not attractive to me or an ahole#I just don’t have any energy left anymore#I just want to experience love so bad but can’t do these dates anymore#I’m so so tired
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Fanfic prompt: during the final fight of windwaker daphnes didn’t antagonize ganondorf
And he , wind and tetra all came to an agreement that he can bring his people to Hyrule (or what remains of them because he was gone for a while)
And he quickly realized that the Gerudo and hylians cooperated enough that now there is nearly no full blood hylians and Gerudo
Because both were people and in enough desperation to throw race separation into the Dead Sea
Because there is no way both could survive by themselves (inspired by wind waker's round but pointy ear art style like they are SO round )
And now he has to drag everyone into Hyrule because he did say all his people would find a safe haven in his kingdom
And all the people are happy to go because living room is getting smaller with the rising population and Hyrule has a ton of land to offer
So many people go to Hyrule and the triforce wearers build the government up again
Tetra still has problems with ganondorf but she is also under no circumstances giving up her freedom to rule
So they just go and drag wind into the position of heir so that ganondorf has to give up the throne to someone she trusts with her entire life
Because she doesn’t want to be Zelda so he can be princess Zelda if he is this obsessed with fulfilling the king’s wish of a new land (she established the new land she did her part already now leave her alone destiny)
She does sometimes appear to throw in her five cents in during discussions
The Rito are happy to make peace but only if their savior who has saved their great Valoo ends up as part of the leading group
Everything’s going well and a small settlement has already been made and trade with the islands is going well
Ganondorf is insisting on reviving cultural traditions of the Gerudo tribe
And phantom hourglass was over in 10 minutes anyway so it still can happen in this story
Then linked universe happens and with the heir of new Hyrule just gone
Everyone freaks out badly because without the “princess” all agreements and alliances would be in danger
And a massive search happens
Everyone is pinching in because the new settlement could fall apart and the people can’t afford to lose their new homes
The Rito who probably consider the hero of the winds the next best thing after sliced bread
Ganondorf has to give the throne to the one who holds the name Zelda to appease the king (who hasn’t left and stayed salty over ganondorf living in his land
And Tetra and her crew are not going to lose their baby crew mate and she also genuinely doesn’t want to be Zelda
So when the chain appears in Wind's Hyrule they immediately get arrested for stealing the heir of new Hyrule
And time and the chain flips out when seeing ganondorf as the king of Hyrule
Because that looks like an uprising in the making
Time and ganondorf officially hate eachother because they remember each other
Divorced couple goals
Time gets wind every weekend
#linked universe#lu wind#lu time#lu legend#lu sky#lu warriors#lu wild#lu hyrule#lu four#lu twilight#ww ganondorf#the hero spirit is a curse#and without it#the triforce is not forced to fight to the death over and over again#wind collects parental figures like it is his mission#the Rito consider the hero of the wind as the next best thing after sliced bread#the hero of time#time broke the curse by going to get milk and never returning from the grocery store#good ganondorf#gerudo#and hylians don’t really matter anymore because everyone is related to a Gerudo or hylian at some point#i just realized#what power I have to simply write anything that I want and nobody can stop me from writing something like this#king of red lions#wind waker#phantom hourglass
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Zenos viator Galvus and him trying to deal with actually feeling things for once (Even if he doesn't really understand how to handle the comfort he receives from others for it)
I am also giving this man a dad that actually cares, because this brainworm have gotten me and there is no saving me from them.
#ffxiv#sketch#zenos yae galvus#adventurer zenos#durante#zero#local man learns how to feel again... and is regretting it immensely-#as his old habits of “ignore” or “shut down” dont work that well anymore#because#at least from what I've personally looked into#unironically zenos' method of reaper contract was the smartest way to go about- he wouldnt have had the context that they used to be people#but I also write Zenos with the thought that he would abhor becoming anything like Varis-#and I dont think he'd like being directly responsible for turning another person into a weapon or a tool like how he was- intentional or no#and I think its just a neat point of tension between adventurer zenos and zero#and it just ends feeding into what I write one of his main hurdles being#his resignation that he may never change- or that he isnt worth compassion because of the circumstances he grew up in#and him being so ready to take blame and resign the possibility of apologizing because (given context) i dont doubt#that Varis had constantly blamed him for Carosa's death#and it also just gives me a bit of reasoning why him being called a monster (specifically thinking of the scene with Krile) sets him off#I also just like the idea of Durante taking him in as a hesitant mentor and accidently bonding with him- even beyond the theories I have#(and this is totally me being biased because I ADORE durante as a character)#but I think helping Zenos and the way Zenos and Wol would later interact with each other would give him a measure of peace#of being able to guide someone and be there for someone like it seemed golbez was for him#I also think zenos deserves at least one warm fatherly hug#and who better than the strange old ass voidsent who could honestly probably rotate him any moment his guard is down
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just learned that David Jenkins’ first show, People of Earth, aired for two seasons and was greenlit for a third, and he scripted the entire third season before the network changed its mind and cancelled it. That is fucking maddening actually.
#bit of a personal rant in the tags here:#I went to school for creative writing and graduated last May#and I got that degree because I want to be a screenwriter#im not doing anything in that field rn because it’s SO hard to get into that industry even at an amateur level#but seeing people who are already in the industry like djenks who are also WAY more talented than me#getting constantly sidelined for the sake of corporate greed#it’s just so goddamn disheartening#it makes it hard to even want to *try* to break into that industry anymore#because like. what’s the point#if anything remotely envelope pushing or interesting or original is cancelled prematurely then what’s the fucking point!#anyway. gonna go check out this show I think#people of earth#david jenkins#save ofmd
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longlegs fucking sucked 😭
#talkys#sorry for movie opinions post#i didnt know anything abt it going in other than serial killer and Mystery and i was soooooo so interested and enthralled#for a good chunk bc wow i like the framing the pacing the shots!#and then it gets to a point where its like oh...!#and then 📉📉📉📉↘️↘️↘️⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️#like how did that movie feel like 3 hrs long#all that build up for the most eyerolly unsatisfying payoff#do u guys think its possible for horror movies to be Satisfying anymore?#saying dis as someone not as acquainted with the genre#we were talking about how like hereditary was Good but it wasn't...Scary....but its fine bc it was good#idek what im saying anymore but we regret seeing it we shouldve gone with our parents to bingo 😭💔#the main character rocked though...so awesome will graham#so extremely funny seeing ppl being like ''ummm sorry ur someone who thinks horror movies need to be jumpscares and dont like psychological#horror :/'' this was NOT psychological horror. it was a really interesting like Mystery for a good chunk and then at that Certain Point its#like oh. horror movie version of the ''and then he woke up'' cop-out to me. how boring. what a boring conclusion#not worth the whole previous hour of Good#i will say the shots of the hooded figure with the eyes unnerved me tho i had to look away 😭#MY SISTER LITERALLY FELL ASLEEP LMAO but at that point i was still very interested and hopeful#and then.
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nightmare and his stupid mascot that is basically him but with even less redeeming qualities.
#I really like that one trope where villains argue with their reflection and then smash the mirror at some point.#nightmare 100% would do that. although his reflection is also his mascot that is plastered on all of his products and city-#-so it's pretty much inescapable.#the mascot isn't actually sentient or anything. nightmare is hallucinating or dreaming it.#edit: it's not 3am anymore my thoughts are finally coherent and I can add stuff :3#what the mascot represent is nightmare's outer facade. the sanitized and simplified version of nightmare that he shows the world.#it's all of his bad habits and morals and whatnot personified. everytime nightmare starts feeling guilty-#-that thing appears and tells him to suppress it.#all of that is imaginary. nobody is telling nightmare to suppress his feelings but nightmare himself.#just that nightmare isn't very fond of taking blame.#it makes sense for him to make up an imaginary culprit to put the blame on for even his terrible coping mechanisms.#I'm not sure if I should give the mascot a name. something like ntm™ maybe.#nightmare sans#HOME#sans au#undertale au#utmv#🖍️
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