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baambastic · 5 months ago

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Alright, so the current planned chapter count for Scales of Justice is sitting at a tentative 108. Jesus.

#what the hell have I gotten myself into #i mean it’s super subject to change ofc #impossible to be very definitive this early into a 2+ years project #scales of justice #my wips #tim drake #red robin #dc red robin #batman #dc #dc comics #🐍

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throughhazeleyesofgreen · 1 year ago

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So I'm coming back after a long hiatus. Turns out real life and college can be very demanding. I'm also getting back into writing which has been its own relearning process.

Not sure if anyone is interested but I'll be working on a Sam centered SPN fic series that crosses over with the Buffyverse. Basically, the PTB see signs of the apocalypse engineered by Azazel along with some other threats so they send Sam back (along with other special children) in time to the Hellmouth to circumvent it. It's technically AU from season 1 but will reference quite a bit from season 1 and 2 of SPN along with some other crossovers. I've technically been marinating this idea since Kripke ditched the idea of the special children in Season 2.

So fair warning on the insane ramblings and comments you might see on this blog in the next few months.

#sam winchester #spn #my fic #what the hell have i gotten myself into #my writing #buffyverse spn crossover verse

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izztreme-art-n-stuff · 2 years ago

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I have pulled THE ULTIMATE AUTISM!!!

Basically I had this one clip from the Barbie movie trailer playing in my head for a while and decided to take a bunch of Morphmen and throw them in.

Aka Edward can't handle all the other Morphmen

Design credits below read more

(Designs in order of appearance: The Og Morphman (yes, if you pay close attention, the torso is covered in wireframes like the arms and legs, though let's be honest, the red shirt's better), Ben Satt's design (@/stuffbendrew on Twitter), Matt Radway for both Merph and the unfortunate eagle Morphman (@/matt_radway on Twitter), Toast's design (@crispytoastyt , also on Twitter) and finally, Edward Henson/my design, the one having a mental breakdown right now.)

Imma die now

death

#izztreme #the mighty misadventures of morphman #mmm #morphman #edward henson #morphmen #many morphmen #of different designs #what the hell have i gotten myself into #the pinnacle of my autism #these designs belong to their respective designer #and once again the original is the original #just a mini comic #just a drawing

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sashthesloth · 3 months ago

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I'm going to rotate them in my mind.. the angst potential for my poor poor Rook . .... .

#dragon age #datv #dragon age veilguard #datv spoilers #veilguard spoilers #Alios Ingellvar #they are going to go through so much post game and post Davrin.. they were gonna build a future together #god #if i do keep dav dead then i feel like Rook is gonna get closer to Bellara after everything #they were already pretty close #but i also want to have Dav alive like what i say and what Rook says that theyre almost hopeful Dav and Assan are okay because no body #so im like NO BODY NO DEATH and maybe things happened post Ghilain'ain fight that they survive #or i keep them dead oh my rook is going to spend so much time with uncle and the griffons at arlathan forest #please it was so criminal to have their last convo being about the future #I thouGHT THEY WERE GONNA MAKE IT it makes sense letting a leader lead the other team . i was going with Mass Effect 2 logic #Dragon Age Davrin #ive gotten so much brain worms #the way i drew yhese sketches yesterday before the final and i was SO HOPEFUL #girl im reloading to see the romance scenes at the end i am putting myself through that all over again just for that my god i will #4 hours of hell for this man

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spotaus · 1 month ago

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Posting this pre-emptively since I might doodle in the meantime- Happy new years eve y'all!

And my shenanigans? The ones I mentioned? Got my hair dyed! N is going to need a new upgrade in her aesthetic in the coming year and I'm going to enjoy my new vibes <3

#spot!drawn #my art #utmv oc #ichor #ichor sans #N #oc #persona #I wanted to draw these two this year because last year I did a Lot of ocs in one big sketch #but this feels more fitting to 'reconnect' in a way with an old character who I've been coming back to again + again #just.... yeag #also for the sillies?#I walked into that place with low expectations (the other dye I did before. silver. used to be too subtle against my natural colors)#but my stylist was so excited to be doing my color and she was willing to do more than I had expected and so!!#it's bright and bold and perfect!#first time in my life I actually have color in my hair... woah....#+ it helps that i didn't have a parent hovering over my shoulder this time around lmao-#but yeah!!! yippeee!!!!#parents were startled by how much color I had gotten done but it's manageable- however I forgot I #am seeing my bro later and I have NO clue what his opinion will be soooo wish me luck lmao #anyways it's not rainbow. but it's bright and I'm happy!!#last note: I'm goofy af. put blue+purple into N's design claiming I'm not a huge fan of those colors #like hell I'm not! they're on my head now!!#I think I tricked myself into liking them haha-#this does mean I have to change her pants on the human design I think because. they do not look that great lmao-

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californiaquail · 21 days ago

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anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before

#like it was one thing when i was in high school and college like wasn't socialized as a child due to not receiving schooling and growing up #sda blah blah whatever but like i'm almost 27 and i am barely functioning lol like i feel like i'm struggling to have a normal conversation #even more than i used to and i think my speech cadence is noticably off which i don't think it always has been #some of it is definitely from chronic exhaustion from having to get up too early and the stress of having a frequently panic inducing boss #but like. come on now. i can't even drive despite finally having a license because i'm too scared/distractible/poor reaction time #over a dozen antidepressants have not worked. adderall is not working great either #i'm SO much dumber than i used to be and it's driving me quite literally insane #i don't even think it's from getting covid in july because i was noticing it before although it definitely became way more noticeable after #i got this job. i've never been this bad at a job in my life and it's something anyone who knows me would assume i'd be good at #it's embarrassing. i cannot fucking remember anything i struggle to do the most basic of arithmetic to fill prescriptions i make the same #silly mistakes multiple times i am constantly asking stupid questions and still somehow fucking up all the time #it's not as bad as it was a couple months ago and frankly i'm shocked i haven't gotten fired i keep thinking that's going to happen #of course i wanted to quit this job four months ago but now i'm at like a sunk cost fallacy point unfortunately #this is obviously not like any kind of career position for many reasons but i don't know what else to do unless i move across the country #again. i'm not even qualified for anything besides animal related things and summer camp which are fine obviously but not great if you want #things like benefits or paid leave or not to get burned out as hell lmao #i don't even feel like i could do any customer service jobs because i literally struggle to put a coherent sentence together on the spot #everything is so slow. soooo slow i'm literally losing my mind which is catastrophic because my mind is all i've ever had going for me #and i'm having kind of a horrible existence lately which is exacerbating all my problems except the problems make it mostly impossible to d #anything to fix it. ok going out and doing some fun stuff for a day makes me feel better that's great. except then i need a day after that #to recover from doing things the previous day. so the only feasible day for doing things would be saturday. except on saturdays i'm #recovering from working. i literally only work 4 days and barely over 30 hours it's Not that crazy. i mean the boss is crazy and the job ca #also be crazy obviously but 30 hours a week is minimal compared to other work schedules i've maintained before #anyway but the most i can do after work is go to the store if i need to but i almost never have energy for anything fun #and the fucking bus doesn't run on sundays and walking miles to get literally anywhere takes a lot of energy i don't have #i'm about to move next weekend and i'm dreading it because it's going to be so much work and i'm so fucking tired #and i don't have any friends to help me with cleaning i might be able to get help moving my stuff but i'm not even confident about that #i might have to rent a uhaul but i would honestly rather pay somebody to help because i'm that scared of driving even for one 30 min trip #whatever....sorry i had to feel bad for myself in the tumblr dot edu tags again i'm not in therapy rn #(<- guy who should be in therapy)

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orcelito · 2 months ago

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Hey I'm graduating college in may and I just kinda realized that I'll be Done Done with school after that. Not fake-done like I was graduating high school, where I'd have to go to college at the start of the fall. And not fake-done like I was in any of my semesters I took off.

Done Done. As in I accomplished my degree, and I won't ever have to go back to school if I don't want to. What a beautiful, beautiful thought.

#speculation nation #i enjoy learning but not in school. school is the soul killer. there's a reason it's taking me 10 years to get my bachelors.#failed classes and switched majors and part time school (so i could work and pay my way thru) and semesters taken off...#for 9 and a half years now it's been a fucking shadow hanging over my head.#just gotta keep going just gotta persevere. slow and steady wins the race.#and well im nearly there now. holy fuck tho i didnt miss full time school lmfao #i went to part time a few years back to save my fuckin self bc it was just *impossible* to do full time school And work to support myself.#and even part time school plus a job was horrible. but i did it anyways.#and here i am now with my lovely life insurance from my awful paternal death. life sure happens as it will huh.#which will let me complete school in a neat 10 years. graduated high school in 2015 and college in 2025. wild.#not glad my dad died but im grateful that ive gotten this opportunity afterwards.#sure is strange the ways life goes.#anyways yeah im in deadlines hell rn with all these fucking projects but ONCE I FINISH THEM #i will be done with this semester. my second to last semester.#theyre releasing class schedules today for next semester too and im a little antsy. cant edit until next week regardless #but i wanna KNOWWWWW what i got. best case scenario i get my 3 classes i need to graduate #plus my orchestra and bowling. so i have a full 12 credit hours. to be full time still.#im scared of not having gotten 3 classes bc theyre selectives yea so i dont need These classes Specifically #but also it'll be a pain in my fucking ass if i have to go scrounging. and i wanna have my first choices...#but we'll see. i selected several fall-through options and i dont need any single specific class to graduate.#so long as i have 3... thatll be enough...#AUGHHHHH college!!!! im almost done!!!!! i might get straight As this semester!!!!!! exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i need to email my professor about setting up the book meeting lol. i should do that today.

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chiimeramanticore · 3 days ago

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#before anything else i must warn this is going to be. unorganized thoughts mostly #in the last year or so ive tried to regain confidence that i am in fact plural and am not just faking it #or mistaking other symptoms for DID. shake off the denial y'know. as is so signature for this damn disorder #a diagnosis probably wouldnt even make me feel more sure lol. and also getting diagnosed for this specifically is like #the final boss of psychiatry to put it lightly lol #but when it quiets down in headspace ur always gonna feel like. maybe its over. whatever that was #it was just me and brandy for a while #but guess who had a godawful night and then a godawful morning and split a new alter ‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥🔥#he hates it here! he might hate me for creating him! im not sure !#hell im not even rly sure if im juno or brandy rn lol. my mind is just so messy today #i woke up.. when did i wake up. like 9:30 i think and its 1pm now and i haven't gotten out of bed #i don't even remember all that time passing . i couldve sworn its only been like an hour. two at most #on the one hand this has all been kinda terrible and mentally exhausting but at the same time. hey cant say im faking now LMAO #the other hand is brandy. the other hand is absolutely brandy. i am tired lol #im only posting this here so i can just like. process it i guess #ive had a weird time finding an outlet to just spew random thoughts into since leaving twitter so. sorry #idk if anyone's expecting this of me but i always kinda feel like i need some level of professionalism on this account #keyword some. i know this is tumblr #but idk if these very open posts are. annoying? weird? uncomfortable? entertaining somehow?#i know I know theres no point in worrying abt how others percieve you . knowing that hasnt stopped me from doing it lol #i dont remember where i was going w this. maybe i didnt have a goal in the first place #idk if you read this far i dont rly need u to act like u didnt see it cuz like. wouldnt have posted it otherwise #but idk why i am posting. idk what i want out of anyone who has read all this #maybe just. interact w this post in some way idk. it's actually kinda grounding for me if you can believe it #bleghh im thinkin of cheating on my weed break just to treat myself after all this. weed + a long walk would fix me

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blujayonthewing · 18 days ago

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this is such a tiny stupid petty dumb sticking point but why do people act like hot-water baths are ludicrously unrealistic in a DnD setting no matter what the setting or context actually is

one time in melliwyk's campaign we were staying in a luxury inn in a dwarven stronghold partially populated by warforged and built inside a volcano and each room had its own private bath with running water on tap and when I/ melliwyk was like 'hot water? 👀' the DM gave me a scathingly incredulous 'no??' like that was the world's dumbest question

what do you mean NO. they've figured out PRESSURIZED INDOOR PLUMBING but not GETTING THE WATER HOT????

#I'M the asshole????#I have to build a fire under my bathtub like a cartoon witch is going to make soup out of me if I want a hot bath??????#there are so so so many things that ARE unique to the modern world and a post-industrial society that just get glossed as 'normal'#and it's fine! to be clear! sure yeah of course you can Buy Clothes at The Clothes Store and that's normal and not a big deal #we're playing by ren faire rules here it's a lot of aesthetics and vibes and that's fine #but if I invoke something actually historical-- not even WEIRD or INCONGRUOUS (I THOUGHT??)-- it's a coinflip whether I get pushback #like WELLLL OKAY IF YOU'RE GOING TO FIGHT ME ABOUT HOT SHOWERS I'M GONNA TALK ABOUT ANCIENT SOCIETIES THAT HAD THEM #'GETTING WATER HOT' IS A PRETTY FUNDAMENTAL TECHNOLOGY DO YOU REALLY WANNA OPEN THE DOOR TO HISTORICAL QUIBBLING #BECAUSE WE CAN TALK ABOUT THE OFF-THE-RACK NONMAGICAL ARMOR AND WHERE THE HELL YOU THINK THAT CAME FROM #IF YOU WANNA PLAY THAT GAME #it's so weird and arbitrary what Feels to people like it has to be Too Modern to exist in a Ye Olde fantasy setting and what doesn't #I've gotten pushback on pocket watches before pointing out that that's straight up a thing that exists in base 5e #(Juniper said something to the sorcerer about them and someone was like 'hmmmmmm' and I had to remind him that the sorcerer owns one)#don't fucking 'mmmmmm I don't knooooow if that's realistiiiiic' ME sir that's her trinket off the trinket table in the PHB.#and accurate mechanical clocks are a LOT more modern and more challenging in real life history than getting WATER HOT.#ANYWAY. rabbitholing wikipedia because I had the thought 'maybe gnomes do sauna. what's up with saunas' three hours ago #and then found myself on a History of Public Bathing timeline and made myself mad looking at all the hot water throughout history lmao #about me

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thepixarau · 9 months ago

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“Welcome to Heaven” is the Disneys’ vibe

“Hell is Forever” is the Pixars’ vibe

#new Disneys be like ‘ooo this place is so cool and everybody’s singing!’#meanwhile new Pixars show up and go ‘what have I gotten myself into’#pixar #the pixar au #pixar au memes #my au #disney #hazbin hotel #welcome to heaven #hell is forever #lady luxo rambles

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swag-system · 6 months ago

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ill never get over how fucking awesome it is to be an adult. the horrors persist and life can still suck sometimes but now when i have a bad day i can get in my car and go on a drive to get myself a treat and i can buy myself fun stuff and yeah shits hard but id take this over being a kid or teenager any day every day forever.

#herbert speaks #being a kid was the worst thing ever. being a teenager was complete and absolute hell #but now? i finally know what its like to be alive and free #and yknow what??? im glad i lived #im glad i didnt kms #because if i died before adulthood i never would have known what its like to drive to the grocery store and buy whatever i want #if i died before adulthood i would never have gotten to see a cool thing online and check my bank account n see its in my budget and BUY IT #being a teenager is literally hell but oh my god they mean it when they say shit does get better #like i didnt believe it at the time but holy shit independence and freedom is AWESOME #im so fucking glad i didnt kill myself when i was 15 because i never would have even know what this is like

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shutup-andletme-go · 7 months ago

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I cannot rely on one person for me to be happy my happiness isn't allowed to be only triggered by one person I can be happy at every little thing it doesn't matter about this one person