#what other domains could i give him....i made him based off a random draw of 3 tarot cards and one was 9 of swords

[bmpmp3]

DOODLES of my OC Sparky!!! if u remember me talking about him before, he’s a god of judgement and he doesn’t like a lot of things but he does like dogs.

i did go ham with the glittery paints but its okay cause otherworldly beings should always have shiny drapery

[robotslenderman]

I don't understand Julian Sim one bit. I mean, I get that his goal was to coexist with humans openly while vampires officially rule over them (I believe?) but his whole involvement in the story... is so confusing. Why did he appar after 10 years to the courier? Was the Courier unbeknownst to the MC themselves a secret spy planted by Julian to spy on Lettow? What exactly is his involvement witht he SI? Why is he so "attached" to the Courier? Why are we a successful experiment while Z wasn't?

Honestly there are a few things about VTMNR that I’ve noticed that don’t have clear cut answers. Like... why the video of Jasper’s death got sent to Lettow at all. Who extracted it from Jasper’s webcam, and who sent it to Lettow? (I believe Julian -- obfuscate doesn’t work on cameras, so if he was invisible to the camera or just a blur then someone obviously doctored it, and we know he can do that -- but that’s another discussion for another day.)

And also, why send him a goddamn snuff film of two of his friends instead of just going “yo, Jasper’s dead”?

But here’s my best answers to your questions. Mind, unless I say otherwise this is all speculation. Nobody really knows except Kyle Marquis himself, and he didn’t really explain any of this.

Why did he appear to the Courier after 10 years?

He did have a specific thing in mind for the Courier -- in the conversation in Aila’s warehouse at the end, Julian said he needed someone who’d committed diablerie for his plans. Why, exactly, is never explained. This is why he manipulated you into diablerising Aila -- he made the plans to diablerise her, then appeared to “lose his nerve”, but in reality he meant for you to do it all along.

Given how taboo diablerie is, it would be really hard to find a diablerist, let alone one that wouldn’t flip out and try to destroy you on sight for knowing their secret. So what does he do? He reaches out to the only diablerist he knows whom he already has rapport with.

Z is, if you think about it, probably a diablerist themself, given that they were used as an experiment. But the Courier? Julian was close to them once. In all four backstories you can have with Julian, you were at least good friends -- in three out of four of them, you were very close (more on this later). It’s totally natural to reach out to someone you were once close to when you need help, especially if that person fits the bill in what you need.

Was the Courier secretly spying on Lettow for Julian?

I honestly don’t think so, because Julian took up residence in the shadow spaces and didn’t need the Courier to be an extra spy. He could just hang out there personally, not to mention he had a whole bunch of people in there with him. I don’t think he needed the Courier at all for this kind of thing -- just his Masquerade-busting stuff with the serum and the diablerie.

What exactly is his involvement with the SI?

I don’t think he was involved with the SI any more than any random power player in the area (maybe a spy in the SI here, a ghoul on the inside there -- typical stuff), but I do think he is 100% responsible for the SI swarming the southwest.

This is never explicitly stated or even really hinted at in canon, but if you think about things logically I 100% believe that this is the only conclusion you can come to.

Think about it. Lettow is technophobic and is one of the very few Princes left that is absolutely paranoid about the internet and phones. There are huge cities where Kindred openly talk about their condition on the phones and over text, but it’s Tucson, where they barely use phones except in emergencies and rely heavily on couriers, that the SI come down on?

Well. Which character do we know who constantly drops SI trigger words in conversations, compromises our phones, and has to constantly give us new ones?

Julian.

He flaunts the Masquerade even worse than the smartphone-using vamps in the big cities. He does not give a shit about the Masquerade (well he does, because it’s his work, but you know what I mean).

This is the only possible reason that a Prince as paranoid as Lettow regarding technology and the SI could have such a fucking ENORMOUS problem with the SI. The only one. Lettow should be dealing with way less vamp hunters than every other Prince in the country, but instead they’re swarming Tucson and Dallas is a war zone. Sure, Dallas isn’t in his domain -- but we know Julian is also active there because his ghoul is stationed there.

We also know that Julian has been all over the southwest because he shows up a lot in your sidequests, and because he went and killed off Jasper, who was (IIRC) in New Mexico at the time of his destruction.

Why is he so attached to the Courier?

There’s 4 backstories you can have with Julian:

He’s your sire (Banu Haqim)

He’s your adopted sire (Gangrel, possibly Caitiff? I can’t remember)

He’s your ex*

He’s a former friend you bonded with over the course of working for the Camarilla before you became a Courier

(* In your first meeting with him, Julian reminisces about your work for the Camarilla in the desert and says “wasn’t it romantic?” and one of the responses -- “you made our relationship up and tried to sell it as a novel” -- implies that all the other responses acknowledge a romantic history.)

In all of those you’d be on really good terms with him, but in three of them you’d have been really close to him. Especially if you’re his childe (adopted or not) and you were romantically involved with him.

Basically... ex and/or childe? He’d be more attached to you than he would anyone else.

He does have weirdass ways of showing it, but I also believe strongly he’s neurodivergent (again, not a subject for this post) and his actions are very in line with the behaviour of someone who is neurodivergent and also attached to somebody. He looks like he doesn’t give a shit to a neurotypical, but if he has ADHD as I really believe he does, then the ways he shows it are totally in line with that because of Reasons I won’t go into here.

Why are we a successful experiment while Z wasn’t?

All I can say is that he fiddled with his methods and they worked this time. That’s how experiments work -- you mess with things until something sticks. It doesn’t necessarily mean we’re special, it just means that something he tried worked this time around.

But sometimes it can be other factors, too. Maybe it works this time because the Courier is a certain clan. Maybe it works this time because you diablerised a certain person. Maybe it works because of both of these things and whatever Julian fiddled with between Z’s experiment and yours.

Science is never clear cut because there’s so many factors involved. It’s why scientific experiments use such a wide pool of test subjects, because it’s impossible to tell with just one success -- is it a fluke? What factor actually caused this result?

It’s impossible to tell for sure why it was successful this time because the Courier is a sample size of n=1, and it is Bad Science to draw conclusions based on a sample size that small.

What’s his deal?

To sum up the above -- Julian wants to pull Shenanigans, and he wants you involved in them because 1) you fit the bill of the kind of person he needs on his side due to your diablerie of an elder, although the reasons why the diablerie was necessary were never explained, and 2) he was close to you once, or at the very least, on very good terms with, and therefore you had a certain rapport with him that he lacked with others.

SO YEAH THAT’S THE THING.

[supernova1us]

TF: Astray-The Trailer

I know, its weird. So this is a breakdown of trailer makeup of one of my many series ideas, the idea of a trailor for the series was what originally made me even think of the plot/cast. below the breakdown is more info on the series itself. the designs are meant to be based on TFA designs but not strictly supposed to be them exactly(the cast pic is just for fun since all the cast i could find in that style). please give some feedback. We see a shot of a female human teen stumbling back in shock, a spinning shot around her reveals Hot Rod, Bulkhead and Ratchet transforming into robot mode. Seaspray is also walking over and Blackarachnia is present but lurking in the shadows. “Oh my god” she gasps. We then see a shot of her looking up at Major Convoy sitting in a chair, badly damaged and attached to medical equipment. “Why are you here?” she asks. A flashback shot shows Convoy at the helm, then a shot of their ship maneuvering through a chaotic, unstable landscape. It then switches to a wide shot from space as Unicron sinks his toothy maw into cybertron’s surface. The shot then cuts back to the damaged Convoy, looking depressed. “That is…a long story” He answers her. There is then a shot of hot rod ducking and weaving through a dense forest, avoiding blaster shots from behind him. “You will have to be my field commander for the time being” Convoy says, reluctantly. “I won’t let you down” Hot Rod responds, with a mix of humility and enthusiasm. A shot of ratchet shaking his head with a frown then another shot of him talking to Hot Rod, poking at his Autobot insignia. “Time to earn that badge lad; hope you’re up to the task” Ratchet comments. “This planet is peaceful and quiet, what’s there to worry about” voice over from Seaspray. During this line we see a shot of Scorponok’s base mode settled on earth’s moon, a close up pan across his/its decepticon symbol and switch to a shot inside as a group of triple-changer drones come online. “Trust me, that’s never a question worth asking” Blackarachnia’s voice answers Seaspray. We then see multiple shots of Sixshot training with a sword and in some cyber-ninja moves, then another of him angrily taking his tank mode and destroying two battle-damaged drones. There is then a shot of the multiple triple-changers under Sixshot’s command as he addresses them. “The time of our kind has come. No bot will ever look down on us again after we make this world our domain. A new Decepticon homeland…where our superiority is law” He declares. Over the latter part of his speech is multiple shots of the triple changers switching from their flying modes to ground modes and decimating a human military base. “The decepticons are here; this may not be the great war…but we have to stop them from hurting this planet” Convoy declares. “Why?” Blackarachnia asks skeptically. A shot shows Hot Rod produce his energy bow and draw back a bolt, then switches to him leading his team as they speed out of a tunnel in vehicle mode. “Autobots, let’s roll!” his voice is heard as they do. Another shot shows Bulkhead jumping onto the front of the charging form of Astrotrain’s train mode, clinging to its front. Astrotrain suddenly takes off into the sky in his shuttle mode, leaving Bulkhead to weakly grip to him, spinning through the air. Another shot shows hot rod held up over a cliffs edge, his throat tightly held by Sixshot. “Your wisdom requires some improvement, Autobot” Sixshot declares. A shot shows some of the triple-changers firing when they are struck by blotches of sticky webbing, disabling them. A previously pinned down hot rod and ratchet look up to see Blackarachnia’s spider mode crawl down a wall from above. We then see a close up shot of an angry Blackarachnia addressing her teammates in their ship. “You’re never going to trust me are you?!” she shouts in anger. We then see the whole team, including Flipsides and Blitzwing, on guard and surrounded by human military vehicles and soldiers. It then switches to a shot of Convoy attempting to stand but partly collapsing, then another of him banging the floor in frustration. We then see the human teenager running in slow motion as she’s chased by Apeface and Snapdragon in their beast modes. Another shot shows Sixshot lingering outside a cell holding an unseen horned bot. Another shot shows Ratchet, Skidz and Nautica examining data on a screen, while Nyx hangs from the ceiling in her bat mode next to them. “This world is too valuable” an unseen voice speaks up. As it does, there is a shot of three shadowy bots floating in space looking down on earth. There is then a shot of massive aerial dogfight between the decepticons and Spacewarp. Then there is a slow motion shot of the team being chased by an explosion; Hot Rod and Blackarachnia are fleeing in their alt modes while Bulkhead is running, carrying Ratchet and Seaspray under his arms. We then see a dark underwater shot from behind a group of mysterious merfolk approaching Seaspray, Nautica and Riptide. The next shot shows a close up of Seaspray and a female member of the merfolk drifting closer and touching hands. We then see as Hot Rod unearths a strange cybertronian weapon. “But what if we fail…what if…I fail?” his voice echoes over the shot. “That’s incredible…I’m terrified” Bulkhead says bluntly with a smile. We then see a fast montage of action shots; Bulkhead struggling against being grappled by Blitzwing and Octane, Blackarachnia ripping the head off a triple-changer drone and jabbing her back-mounted legs into another, Seaspray awkwardly running and tackling Shatter and Dropkick, Ratchet jumping a broken bridge in vehicle mode as three alien jets strafe him, Apeface and Snapdragon rampaging like kaiju through a human city, autobots and decepticons alike swept up in the oncoming wave of destroyed dam, Skidz and Snowcat driving into the large legs of Astrotrain, toppling him and Convoy tearing a large piece of machinery from a wall and throwing it at an unseen assailant. “Unable to locate compatible mode; no earth made terrestrial vehicles capable to contend with Decepticon designated Sixshot” A computer declares to Convoy As the computer speaks, a brief scene of Sixshot expertly shooting human jets out of the sky with his blasters is shown. Convoy slumps and sighs in response to the computers conclusion before turning back to it with interest. In a large room, Hot Rod and his teammates are surrounded by and in a standoff with the decepticons when all react to a sudden booming metallic trumpeting sound. Dropkick approaches a large door and peers through a slot only to panic as a loud thumping is heard approaching. He dives for cover as Convoy smashes through the door and wall in his robotic mammoth alt mode, destroying the nearby drones as well. Sixshot takes his wolf mode and a wide shot is seen of the two beasts charging each other and the scene cuts to black and the title just as they are about to clash. Transformers: Astray

The panicked masses and factions of Cybertron evacuate as the looming threat of the world eating Unicron rapidly approaches. Military commander Major Convoy breaks from his post to take a ship and rescue a group of trapped refugees; Hot Rod, Ratchet, Blackarachnia, Seaspray and Bulkhead. They barely escape the cataclysmic chaos of unicron’s arrival and consumption of cybertron. The group is all knocked into stasis as their damaged ship is thrown into a random warp.

Arriving in the vicinity of earth, convoy alone awakes and attempts to take control of the ships crash landing. He manages a controlled crash that saves the others, but he himself is badly damaged and is forced to remain connected to a life support system. Hot rod, eager to prove himself, is appointed Convoy’s proxy and the groups field commander. The crews hope is to remain hidden on earth until able to contact other cybertronians for help. Unfortunately for their plans, also present on earth are the decepticon triple changers, under the command of super solider Sixshot. The refugees are forced to remain hidden from the humans and thwart the decepticons efforts to begin a calculated conquest of the world for themselves. Major Convoy-a distant but decorated and experienced military leader in the elite guard Hot Rod-a gung-ho and eager young soldier looking to show his merit as an autobot leader Blackarachnia-a decepticon and criminal who remains aloof and untrusted by some of the other refugees (TFA design) Ratchet-a grumpy older autobot medic who tries to keep peace among the crew and monitor Convoy’s health Bulkhead-a large and clumsy but good natured civilian constructibot; he’s close friends with seaspray Seaspray-a awkward and nerdy aquatic specialist and scout who enjoys being on earth Sixshot-the infamous six changer and ninja master, he seeks to prove the superiority of multi-mode bots and make earth their new domain. Triple changers-Scorponok(base), Astrotrain, Blitzwing, Octane, Shatter, Dropkick, Apeface, Snapdragon, Flipsides Megaempress-a powerful, dangerous and devious decepticon commander long imprisoned within scorponok (look/colors mostly based on armada galvatron) Skidz, Nautica, Riptide, Snowcat, Nyx- a team of cybertronian explorers currently wandering earth Tidal Wave-a titan serving as the guardian and foundation of the underwater city of atlantis Spacewarp-a transformer pirate that frequents earth Sideways, Soundwave, Lyzack -mysterious rogue agents attempting to manipulate both sides of the conflict Nemesis-a dark, pure evil copy of Convoy of unknown origin

[notleriff]

Phoenix

I wish you the best of luck, Takeda. And I hope one day you will join us and return home. Just remember, our people rose from the ashes--you’re allowed to do the same.

“Fight me!”

“Perhaps another time, Dotharl.” Leriff chuckled softly as he wiped the sweat from his brow. He attempted to climb up the rubble in front of him, but could not find a good handhold to start his ascent. “Ahh--up, please.”

With large, looming steps, Ardki stepped forward. He locked his fingers together and held his hands out as a platform to give his fellow hunter a boost. “After! You can even have my pay if you win!” 

With only a smile and a shake of his head in response, Leriff placed his boot into Ardki’s outstretched hands and let the larger Au Ra lift him high enough to grab a crumbling beam. He climbed along it sideways until he found his way higher, finally making it over the rubble. “All clear, here.” The hunter leaned forward to look into the ruined room on the other side of the rubble, confirming that there were no beasts laying in wait within. 

The two had arrived at dawn with a team of relic seekers. Less than a moon past, the sands of the Sagolii had blown in the wind, shifting to reveal another of the tombs of some long forgotten people buried beneath. The group was excavating the ruins to find anything of historical note to bring back to the city to clean and catalogue. Ardki and Leriff had been hired to keep the archaeologists safe from any beasts that would have turned up at either the shifting of the sands or that lay buried within, as the first team dispatched had fled some manner of monsters a fortnight prior.

Leriff waved off Ardki’s assistance in his descent and dropped back to the floor with a thud. He dusted his tabard off before setting his hand on his hip with a huff. “It is safe enough for them to venture this way, but we should check the few passages around here before the sun sets. Which side do you want?” 

After a cursory inspection of the few paths from the courtyard, Ardki pointed down one to the west. The mostly intact terrain better suited his large, hulking figure, and it would require less acrobatics, something he was not very keen on. Leriff nodded in agreement and headed north, dropping to his stomach to crawl under a collapsed pillar before disappearing from sight.

What windows that existed in the passage were sparse, and it grew too dark with the setting sun for the man to see clearly. He frowned before digging into the bag on his belt. Producing a cloth, and searching the nearby area for something to tie it to, Leriff manufactured a torch. He held it out, nestled against the pit of his arm. He lifted his right hand and brought it down against the handle of the gunblade sheathed on his back. The ring around his finger was made of a fire crystal infused flint, and as it struck the steel of the weapon, it ignited, catching the cloth he had wrapped around his glove on fire. Using that flame, the man lit the torch before very quickly putting the fire on his hand out to avoid any burns. 

Leriff grumbled to himself as he wound his way around the maze-like passages. The patron of their operation was a lalafell of some wealth in the city, but seemed rather ill-informed of the operations this far into the desert. When the hunter had asked him what manner of creature the previous team had encountered, their patron had been flippant, if not outright dismissive, and had only given brief answers. It was not uncommon for those in power to not bother themselves with the details, but beyond the minor dune worms the two had cleared out, Leriff had found nothing to warrant calling off an entire digging operation.

Even if the windows in the ruin were sparse, and the few that existed covered by debris and sand, Leriff could still hear the warm blasts of wind outside. He hummed in thought to himself as he pressed deeper, using the whistle of air as a sort of tempo counter to his steps. Some few yalms away, however, he stopped, ceasing his humming as realization dawned upon him. 

Too steady. Too rhythmic. Too short. 

He began to creep forward, holding the torch low in case he needed to quickly smother it to avoid detection. Leriff had only the intent to confirm his suspicions. Dune worms did not breathe in such a manner, and whatever it was was large enough that the closer he drew to the source of the sound, the more the very rubble shook with each heavy breath. Without warning, the breathing stopped. In its place, a low rumble began. Just beyond the edge of the light his torch cast, a massive eye opened, sending a jolt of fear down Leriff’s spine. A gigantic muscular arm rose from the sand, and the creature began to pull itself free from its slumber. The rumbling grew into a growl as it crept closer to a roar. 

Panic set in as Leriff took a step back, but before he could flee in terror, he dropped the torch. He put himself in darkness in hopes the creature could not see through shadow, and had sense enough to dart down the closest narrow passage. It was not much help, as with two deadly horns and powerful grip, the creature ripped through whatever ruin lay in his way to crush the puny creature that would dare disturb his domain.

Leriff had no knowledge on how to fight this beast. Few, if any, did. His mind raced and he struggled to make sense of it. He could not think of how one ended so far away from the mountains, or how it survived buried beneath the sea of sand above; but, in all honesty, the how of it mattered little. 

“Leriff? Did the tunnel collapse? Are you okay?” Ardki called down the passages at the sound of the quaking earth. “Ahh, there you ar--” 

“Run!” Leriff was sprinting towards the large man, pillars collapsing behind him. At the look of confusion on Ardki’s face, and the lack of turning and fleeing, Leriff ran straight into him. He wrapped his hands around the Au Ra’s arm and yanked as hard as he could, nearly dislocating his shoulder, in order to get him to start moving. “RUN!” He screamed, dragging the large man behind him.

From the passage just behind where the hunter had fled from, large purple digits wrapped around the frame of the sandstone door and pulled it, crumbling the wall as a great behemoth followed close behind.

Ardki no longer needed the guidance of the Doman, having broken free of Leriff’s grasp to double time all on his own. The two tore past the encampment at the entrance of the ruins as the relic seekers were already frantically packing to escape whatever was creating such a racket just inside. When the head of the behemoth peeked out from behind the wall the two hunters had just fled from, those in the camp no longer cared about their personal effects, simply dropping everything to flee in a panic. 

The creature burst into the ampitheatre the crew had been using as a base of operations, its stark white eyes expressing its rage of the fleas that had infested its home long before the roar that split the sky did. Through a process of elimination, random chance or sheer bad luck, it settled its seething frustration onto the first target it saw and charged directly at the foreman of the group, who, at the sight of the barreling violet barrel of violence, froze in place and soiled himself. 

There was not time to think. To consider how terrible an idea it was, or of those left at home, or how pointless the endeavor would be. His body moved first, before his brain caught up with his hands. Leriff had skidded to a halt and turned on his heel, his hand reaching up to the handle of the weapon on his back. In the time it took for him to realize he had unhooked the gunblade from his back, he had already closed the gap between himself and the foreman. With no ability to back down any longer, he leapt into the air, twirled to gain momentum and slammed the gunblade directly into the behemoth’s eye.

Striking against the behemoth’s head was like jumping chest first into a stone brick wall. Leriff let out a horrible wheeze as all of the air in his lungs was scattered. He tumbled off the behemoth and landed on his back, trying desperately to gulp down greedy breaths to find the strength in order to push himself to his feet. He crawled a few ilms as the behemoth thrashed about in rage and agony behind him before making it to his hands and knees, and eventually his feet. The hunter staggered in a daze towards Ardki. 

The great Dotharl had managed his axe free on his way to his companion, holding the large weapon in one hand. As all in the room were, he too had not slowed from his full sprint. If he could reach Leriff in time, he could help him free, help them all escape. Ardki could not abandon Leriff, and show his cowardice, after the Doman had just risked himself for another. All he needed do was reach the man in time. Steps more. Yalms. Ilms.

Ardki threw himself into Leriff’s chest, pushing him back onto the ground. Leriff fell backwards, once more finding it difficult to breathe as he landed flat on his back. Above him, in one moment, Ardki looked down on the hunter and in the next, the Dotharl was gone. He had been moved, with rather vicious force, to the wall, gored on the end of one of the behemoth’s horns. The behemoth dragged the au ra across the wall, the horn leaving such a gaping wound that within seconds it had separated the man’s torso from his legs.

Leriff crawled, hand over hand, until he was back onto his feet. He collected Ardki’s axe, and though he struggled to wield it with such ferocity as the Dotharl surely would have, he focused all of his might into his arms. He shouted to draw the attention of the behemoth away from Ardki, and when the creature turned towards him, dropping Ardki from the wall, Leriff brought the axe across with all his might, cracking the shaft of it as he struck one of the beast’s arms, but managing to share that same damage to the behemoth itself. Taking no time to relish in his victory, and using the behemoth’s stumble and pain to his advantage, Leriff grabbed what was left of Ardki from the ground and ran with him out of sight.

He gently set the au ra against a pillar and stepped back with shaking hands, trying to rack his brain for anything he could do to help his co-hunter. At best, Leriff could patch cuts, bruises, maybe a broken limb or two. Ardki had been eviscerated, his lower half severed in the most unclean of ways. Blood spilled freely, soaking both hunters as Leriff tried fruitlessly to bind the man up. 

“I am Dotharl!” Ardki weakly lifted his arm, flailing it to try to find Leriff. Leriff took his hand and placed it on his own shoulder in an attempt to bring comfort. “I laugh at death!” The au ra blankly stared into the distance as color faded from his face. “But it hurts… And I’m afr--” Whatever final words Ardki had ended there, as he slumped to the side, drawing breath no more.

The screams from beyond the walls was all the indication Leriff needed to know the carnage had not stopped. Before he stood, he removed the bag slung over Ardki’s shoulder, the leather stuffed to the brim with a tool to help the large man get through the crumbled debris of the sandswept ruins. Leriff pulled the strap over his head and rose to his feet before hurrying back into the main amphitheatre. 

Blood soaked the floor, workers and mercenaries aliked cowered beneath and behind the crumbled walls and fallen pillars of the ruins as the half-blinded behemoth thrashed about in a wild fury to smash, impale and consume any living creature in the vicinity. Leriff took a single breath--a deep, cleansing one--to steady himself. For the first time since the sight of violence incarnate had filled his vision, he pushed the panic down. He held the air inside his lungs as his fear dissipated and then let it out slowly, in a single word. “Flow.”

Like a lightning strike, he was in motion. He did not give the behemoth time to turn and face him this time. Instead, he planted his foot on one of the fallen pillars left behind in the creature’s destructive wake and leapt from it. With no weapon, Leriff fell to the last one he had left, and perhaps the one he found the most familiarity with. He lifted his hand back and focused, relaxing his muscles--opening every little gate inside his body that would block the flow of power within. He clenched his fist and collided with the behemoth, smashing the creature square on the side of its head. The beast staggered backwards at the impact, and Leriff landed back onto the ground, rolling along the sand to find his way back to his feet. 

His left arm hung limp at his side. He had focused what strength he could muster into his arm, and brought all that strength to bear against the behemoth. When the blow had connected with the near steel-proof hide of the beast, the aether he had summoned needed go somewhere. And, since he could not pierce the behemoth’s hide with the power, somewhere it went. Out. In every direction it could. Muscles burst and bones broke as it vacated his arm, and now it hung useless. He choked the pain back. There would be time for pain later. Or there would not be, and he would be dead. Either way, now it could not be a distraction.

Man and beast stared at one another in a showdown, but it was Leriff who made the first move. There was no time for bravado. If he continued to break himself on the creature’s back, he would surely die. He had to kill the behemoth now. He moved like crashing water around the hulking arms, spinning, stopping and starting again to avoid being crushed beneath one of the behemoth’s fists. When he found his opening, he ran for it. 

He ran, until he stumbled. Skill played its part in keeping him safe, but it did not matter how fast or how skilled Leriff was. He was tired. And eventually, he would lose. In the split second it took for the man to put his plan into action, in the single mistake the lapse of attention brought, Leriff had moved in a direction he could not dodge away from. The fist came down, straight into the sand, and caught the entirety of the man’s right leg. It crumbled like paper. This was not pain he could push down, and the hunter screamed in agony, his body slinging back in response. 

The behemoth pushed its head down, and as easily as a bull charges a cape, it speared Leriff directly through the stomach on one of its massive horns, lifting the broken hunter off the ground. Finally, having brought the man to its level, it met the hunter eye to eye, unbridled fury seething out. 

Leriff choked on blood as he slumped onto the horn, using his one good arm to try in vain to push his body back off. When he could not muster the strength, he fell forward, trying to at least slow the pain until he died. His arms dangled off the sides and hung limply. Click. Leriff slowly lifted his palm and let it drop again. Click. His eyes shot open and as life drained from him through the hole in his stomach, he let his head fall to the side to look just below. His salvation lay still stuck in the behemoth’s eye. Click. Leriff weakly brought his hand up and down. Click. The ring struck the metal of the gunblade once more. “Do not fear it.” CRACK. 

A piece of the infused flint chipped off, and Leriff’s hand went up in flames. He stuck his burning hand into the bag that hung from his shoulder until he found it--the fuse. With the linen lit, and the urge to survive taking hold, Leriff pulled the bag from his shoulder and threw it into the behemoth’s face, sending some of the balls of packed explosive falling out as it flew through the air. He curled his burning fist up and screamed out every drop of air in his lungs as he brought it down onto the horn. He would either die now, or later when he could not muster the strength to take one more step. He chose later. With all of his might, and all the life left in his body, he brought his power down onto the protruding horn. It cracked, broke and dropped the hunter with half of it still stuck within him. The behemoth’s roar was cut short as the explosion ripped its head apart, the shockwave of it crumbling the ruins about on top of it. For his effort, the explosion threw Leriff like a sack, straight back into a pillar where he cracked the back of his head. He dropped to the ground without further fight, and the world went black.

***

It was two full moons before he could enter the office. The workers had dug the corpse out from beneath the ruins the moment the dust had settled, but when one heard the heartbeat, they had dropped everything to abandon the desert and bring him home. Constant care as the suns passed was all that kept him from death. Conjurers, companions, doctors, chirurgeons, and every single person the man had earned favors with in his work had come forth, and only through the constant vigil of those around him did he find himself in the office today.

Jajarilu sat on his stool behind his desk, watching in contempt as his employees helped the monster hunter into the room. Leriff looked like a holiday decoration, so wrapped in bandages. He struggled to stand, and only managed to move thanks to the wooden crutch he had propped into the pit of his arm. The lalafell only spoke once Leriff had situated himself, standing at the other end of his massive desk. “I am glad to see you well! You have come for payme--”

“You knew.” The look Leriff gave the patron of the excavation work was not all too different from that which he gave the behemoth that nearly took his life. “Your foreman told me, already. You knew it was there.”

Jajarilu’s hesitation lasted for but a moment. One did not reach such a level of wealth if they found themselves thrown off by every interruption. He coughed once to command the attention once more before jumping to his feet. “I did. It was a risk, but the work we have done now that--” He stopped as he saw the hunter’s expression. “It doesn’t matter.” He walked briefly around the desk until he reached a set of stairs, the small ladder bringing him to stand atop his workspace. He walked over the desk, arms swinging at his sides, until he could place himself in front of his hunter, and with a big smile, produced a bulging pouch of coins. “Here. A bonus! To our continued success together!” He dropped the pouch into Leriff’s hand as the Doman looked at it with a dumbfounded expression. “Now, if you don’t--”

Leriff smashed his head into Jajarilu’s, sending the lalafell tumbling down off his desk and onto the floor. The hunter then lifted his crutch and pinned the businessman to the floor by the throat, placing a dangerous amount of weight onto the wooden support. It would not be difficult, even weakened, to end the man’s life. All he needed do was push down a touch harder. His eyes shifted to offer his attention to those around the room, some pensively ready to heed the need for aid of their employer. He would not be able to get away, afterwards. He was too weak. Leriff glared down at the small man as Jajarilu pathetically flailed in an attempt to push the crutch off his neck. “Do not contact me again.” 

None of the workers attempted to stop Leriff. They felt he had earned at least that much. He released Jajarilu and stumbled to the door, fumbling it open with one hand before leaving the office for good. After making it to the street, and out the gate beyond, Leriff made his way to one of the myriad of refugees still located in Stonesthrow. He dropped the pouch of coin at the man’s foot to a look of confusion.

“Sir..?”

“I do not want it.” Leriff gripped his crutch tightly and slowly made his way back home.

[cursivescrawl]

Misadventure

Rating: PG Category: Elementals Summary:  It’s a wonder Feline Team is still alive, really, after a certain incident when they were a young team.

Feline once stumbled upon the edge of Kaltis.

They'd been meant to go to Sengolia's realm at the center of the web of worlds, to check that Sengolia's bonds hadn't loosened since last she'd been checked on.  Usually a team more experienced than theirs would do this.  Feline was young, then, and had only been together for half a year or so.  Flash still looked at older warriors in envy, wondering when his team would achieve the perfect synchronicity they all seemed to have.

But this had been their first time traveling alone in Kaltis.  Their first actual, real mission of import.  The only way to get to Sengolia was through the ley lines of her web.  Theoretically, it wasn't much different than traveling through the ley lines in a single world.  Practically, as Zey would always explain it later to wide-eyed apprentices, it was like shooting an arrow – where a small angle change might not matter over a distance of ten meters, it would tremendously matter over a distance of a hundred.

Distraction could be fatal, in other words.

Flash barely remembered the argument between himself and Zephyr, later, when he tried to recall details. It was useless.  Something about the plural of hippopotamus.  Lake and Jag got drawn in by the sheer ridiculousness of the topic.  There was a fierce sense of elation, Flash remembers, arguing with his team, being on a solo mission, flying alone (the sensation of strong wings pumping even though he didn't have wings, the swirling Aethir around him) through the ley lines and towards his team.

They must have gotten turned around. When they emerged from the web, the sky overhead wasn't garish yellow, ribbons of chaotic light fighting for dominance.  The ground wasn't pulsing black sand with random many-colored silk cocoons rising at odd intervals, each containing a near-born monster.

The argument – silly as it had been – died in the still air.  Feline Team stood staring.

Before them stretched a white plain covered with perfect uniform ice.  The sky overhead gleamed the dully colorless sepia of a long-faded photograph, unbroken by stars or clouds.  Though there was no light source, there were no shadows either.  It seemed lit by the kind of fluorescent light which leaves no shadows and a roaring headache.

Perfect snowflakes glimmered in midair.  Unfalling.  Unfailing.  Suspended, as if in clear plastic, the way a trinket might be suspended in a soap.

“Father's wrath,” breathed Flash.

Jag reached for Lake's arm.  “We shouldn't be here.”

“We shouldn't,” Jag agreed.

None of them moved.  It felt impossible.  This land was perfect, untouched, eerie.  Static in all the ways Sengolia was dynamic.

Zephyr seized that thought.  The opposite of Sengolia.  Could this be the farthest point in Kaltis from her ever-shifting cocoon?

He sucked in a breath, disturbing a single snowflake from its everlasting position.

“Static,” he said aloud.

The name fell like glass and shattered the silence.

A howling dread filled Flash, filled his teammates.  He couldn't move.  The landscape didn't change,but suddenly someone-

a trio of someones-

were watching them, malevolent, wanting these Elemental intruders out of/absorbed into their domain. Flash couldn't see them.  But they were there.  Their eyes pierced him.  If he could only turn around, he could see their faces, see the clawed hands reaching for him.

Lake's knees buckled.  He caught himself on Flash with a convulsive movement; Flash automatically raised his arm to loop it around Lake's shoulders.  But his arm didn't move.  And Jag was already there (or was he?  It was hard to tell in this blizzard, or was there a blizzard? There wasn't a blizzard.  Everything was just as perfectly still as it always had been would be was).

Jag's urgency slashed them, urgency turning to panic turning to adrenaline in Flash's veins, determination and wakefulness shattering Flash's heart back to life.

(And it had stopped without him realizing, and when it began to pound, it was abnormally loud in the silent howl.)

“WE NEED TO GO!”

The words might have been shouted, spoken, whispered, thought.  Flash's throat was hoarse.  The still air felt like daggers in his lungs, like plastic over his nose and mouth, stale, deadly, suffocating.

He desperately clawed for the ley lines. But they weren't there.  The comforting, warm, purifying Aethir was out of his reach, the magic of his heritage dead at his fingertips.  Dread filled Flash's ears and lungs and settled leaden in the pit of his stomach.

“I'll pull you!”  Zephyr vanished.  Lake almost crumpled again; Flash yanked him upright, tugged him close, felt his teammate's ragged breathing as Lake buried his head in the shoulder of Flash's black cloak.

Jag was on one knee.

“We do not kneel,” Flash forced out through numb lips.  The words carried some emotion he couldn't identify.  Jag gritted his teeth.

(And Flash didn't feel the frustration, he realized, didn't know what Jag wanted or was trying to say.  The connection, the contract, the thing that made them Feline Team, was-)

Zephyr was there.  Zephyr's power and magic was binding and revitalizing, carrying with it the sense of Sengolia and chaos.  Lake took another shuddering deep breath.

“Go,” hissed Flash.  Lake vanished from his arms.  Flash felt suddenly cold without his teammate pressed against him.  Lake slipped from Flash's mind like water from a child's cupped hand, and then he was gone.

Flash stumbled over to Jag.  Every movement seemed to be fought through syrup, through half-solid wax. He couldn't feel Zephyr or Lake.  Couldn't feel his fingers. Couldn't feel his heartbeat anymore, it was a cold dead sensation in his chest, and he shuddered.

Then he was tumbling backwards.

He landed squarely on his butt in warm black sand, and it was coarse under his fingers, and his heart pounded in his ears and he drew a shuddering, gasping breath.  And another.  And another.  It hurt, his ribs hurt, but the air was sweet despite the taste of sulfur and-

“Help me pull,” snapped Zephyr, his wings straining with effort.  Flash reached for Jag.

He seemed so close.  But then Flash's outstretched mind hit a wall, like a bird who realizes a sliding glass door isn't open.

Jag's mind moved sluggishly.  Where normally thoughts fired quickly and in all directions, now he only had one thought, one sensation.  Flash threw himself at the glass door, panic closing his throat-

and it shattered and Jag was there and he was lying across Flash's lap and drawing in heaving breaths and choking on nothing and clawing at the sand until he realized it was sand.  Their minds pressed in on each other's. Lake crumpled beside Flash and Jag, resting his head unashamedly on the small of Jag's back; Zephyr, wings still extended, collapsed with one great bronze wing draping over his teammates.

They breathed.

Sengolia's screeches and cries sounded around them.  Somewhere in the distance a monster ripped from its cocoon with a rending of silk and a newborn scream.  Above, the sky danced with color and chaos.  The earth itself seemed to pulse with irregular spasms.

Slowly, Flash's heart calmed.  He felt his teammates – felt the black sand beneath Jag's fingernails, the way Zephyr couldn't quite bring himself to dismiss his wings back into air.  Lake's exhaustion and his depleted reserves of magic. Zephyr gave energy to Lake, and Flash realized the leaden exhaustion in his own limbs and drew from Jag until they were all equalized again.

The sensation, thought Zephyr drowsily, now that they were all calm enough to think.  He replaced his guarding wing with one strong arm draped over his teammates as he flopped closer.  Flash heard his heart steadily drumming in his chest.  In sync.  What was that sensation, that thing Jag had been focused on while they tried to rescue him.

Jag wearily opened his eyes and cleared his throat.

“Ocelot.”

His team name.  The name of his totem.  Flash saw Jag drawing a small stone-carved ocelot from his cloak, setting it down on the ice, focusing on it to stave off the numbness.

“Clever.”

He wasn't sure if it was him or Lake that spoke.  It didn't matter.  Here, in the outskirts of Sengolia's realm, everyone could speak and it wouldn't matter.

“I know.”

Zephyr huffed a laugh.  Jag's amusement jolted them all back to wakefulness, even Jag, who seemed a bit startled by his own emotion – was it okay to be amused after that?

“We should go,” said Flash.

“Yeah,” said Lake, and he was the first one to stagger to his feet.  Flash was the last simply because he was on the bottom of the Feline pile.  “You all- ready?”

They weren't.  But they were prepared, and, weapons drawn, they entered Sengolia's realm.

It took eight hours to reach her. She was wrapped in colorful silk strands with each filament a different shade and trapped in solid chains of some peculiar metal which might have been steel once but which now gleamed with the solid enchantments of the Elementals (bright red, deep blue, pale yellow, straight green).  The cocoon was steady.  If they'd had to fight their way back to the edge of her realm, Flash might have just given up right there; as it was, the center of Sengolia's realm was also where the ley lines were the strongest.  Magic couldn't even be used near her for the chance it might go wild.  So after checking on Sengolia, Flash closed his eyes and let the Aethir sweep him away from her giant dangerous shrieking form, let it get him very close to their world before taking over again and making an effort to get back to the Fire base.

He did not give the report that night.  Lake did, but he fell asleep in the middle and it ended up being Flash to give the report anyways the next morning, reassuring the senior warriors that Sengolia was still bound.

They did not mention the edge of Kaltis.  If it was known they'd traveled there, and come back alive- well.  Lake found no records that anyone else had accomplished that. This near-deadly accident was not something Feline, as a whole, wanted to be known for.  So they kept quiet even when Jen of Astral Team joked with Flash about how he hadn't looked this tired since that one all-nighter where all the Fire apprentices tried (and failed) to get drunk.

They did not mention the dreams, after that, of standing in that horrible landscape (alone).  Each of them had a different version.  Zephyr felt a malevolent gaze, but no matter which way he turned, he only caught the ghost of blue inhuman eyes.  Lake turned to ice, his every blood cell slowly freezing and becoming one with the stillness, until he shattered into a million tiny snowflakes and hung motionless in the air for the rest of eternity.  Jag was covered in snow and ice and forgotten, left to scream silently for some unknown period of time.  And Flash always heard the same soundless chant, the same tuneless song, with eight words he could make out and hundreds more he could not.

I  C O M E  A L I V E  A T  T H E  E N D  O F  T I M E

It was a blessing, really, that it was acceptable for them (as a Nighttime team) to sleep during the day and be awake at night.  They had trained in the night.  It was familiar to them.  There was no reminiscing when they were busy in the dark hours, and in the daylight hours, it was well-lit enough that the nightmares and the eerie landscape always seemed so far away – until they went to sleep.

It took time, but the dreams faded into memory.  That fear was replaced by others.  The entire experience became one of many near-death calls, something that they all became quite familiar with as they rose to be the Hunters and then the Holder's Seconds, answering only to Astral Team (and then not even to them, because how can you answer to someone who remains in a coma?)  The day came when Flash didn't think about it; the year came when none of them thought about it; and life went on.

But the little black ocelot carving, the one Jag had focused on to keep his sanity, remained in a snarling pounce at the edge of Kaltis.

[douchebagbrainwaves]

I'VE BEEN PONDERING PROGRAMMERS

Even Einstein needed people to bounce ideas off. It would have been. I did it to desktop publishing software like Interleaf and Framemaker. To some extent you have to be on the path to something great. If you try something that has to be good startup founders by empathizing with them—if you don't have them. Html 11. Paul Buchheit, John Collison, Patrick Collison, Aaron Iba, Jessica Livingston, and Robert Morris for reading drafts of this. Most philosophical debates are not merely free but compelled to make things people want, and to Randall Bennett for being such a nice guy. Xkcd implemented a particularly clever one in its IRC channel: don't allow the same thing, setting up a company than to be built on NT.

And no convincing means just that: zero time spent meeting with investors or preparing materials for them. True, but I bought it, but those who like what they can't have, if you have what it takes to hear it. Plus since TVs were expensive whole families watched the same shows together, so they had first claim on the proceeds of the auction. Our startup spent its entire marketing budget on PR: at a time, because the main cost in software startups is people. It's a straight text classification problem. The best word to describe the way good programmers write software. So the nature of future discoveries is hard to bear. The exciting thing is that we so rarely see analyses of this type is the fact that it works so much better when you improve in response to what you do. Boston, and few in Chicago or Miami from the microscopically small number, per capita, that succeed there. Startups don't win by attacking. But if the software were 100% finished and ready to launch at the push of a button, would they still be waiting? And so most of them are the same, if not months.

It seems to me one of the greats, but he's an especial hero to me because of Lisp. Server-based software is never going to succeed, like founders do, just that they take a long time cities were the only protection for ideas, companies wouldn't just have to keep trying new things. Which they deserve because they're taking more risk. But if you were extracting every penny? A rounds from VCs. I could play all day. If anyone wants to see the real Nixon. Which means it's a disaster to let the world have a natural advantage. When we wanted some publicity, we'd make a list of n things is so relaxing. And if you think about it, and savor what one has. Almost certainly. They need to market themselves to founders: they don't need publishers.

Intel or Apple or Google have offices there, but that the work they're offered is unappetizing. How do you decide what infrastructure to use for a project, divide it into components and give each to one person, Paul Buchheit, Patrick Collison, Jessica Livingston, Robert Morris, and Fred Wilson for reading drafts of this, and so on, and why are they attached to all these questions, you might do better to move to the Bay Area to start their own company. And that's exciting because it means their investment creates less of a change like the one the Valley has over New York. The two 10 minuteses have 3 weeks between them so founders can get cheap plane tickets, but except for that they could be, and I completely agree with him. What you must not use the word essays in the title of one: James Salter's Burning the Days. The reason credentials have such prestige is that for so long the large organizations in a society got that way from refutation. But I don't see how we can say it's axiomatic. People who've done great things.

And it wouldn't be novel. I may later scale token probabilities substantially, but this is not as facile a trick as it might seem. Be ruthlessly mercenary when you start a startup you would do well to act as a magnet, drawing the best people to work for a company with 100 people will feel different from one with 1000. If the client doesn't run anything except a browser, there's less risk in starting your own company, only for startups that have succeeded despite any number of random factors could sink you before you can destroy them. At first I tried rules. You'd have to get a patent is now very slow, but it is the people who run them are driven by the demands of the work that even the kids believe it, which usually means encrusting it with gratuitous ornament. When you make things in large volumes, and the reactions that spread from person to person, it's not their chances of succeeding, not to limit users' choices. More precisely, the users' need has to be pierced too.

Something Minimal Lots of founders mentioned how important it was to source good screws. Everything would seem exactly as he'd predicted, until he looked at Maxwell's equations and said, what the hell your site is catching on, or it won't germinate. For me the list is, because we invest the earliest. If you happen to run into Sean Parker, who understands the domain really well because he started a similar startup himself, and also New York, Cambridge, and Silicon Valley is too far from San Francisco. They could sense that the higher you go the fewer instances you find. You can be sure it's not a switch to Apple, but a hopelessly inflexible one for developing new ideas. So the real question is, how much risk you can stand, and the transformation was miraculous. I'd say what separates the great investors from the mediocre ones is the quality of the insiders. His response was to launch with the simplest possible type: a few topics you've thought about a lot, and who the competitors are and why this company is going to have a mistakenly high opinion of your abilities, because that showed how much time it would take to get new ones to move there.

Do what you love, you're practically forced to write the first version of his sketch to the witness. We're only comparing YC startups, who've already made it over a certain size it gets presumptuous for a seed investor to do that anyway. I'm going to try something new this funding cycle. As with most nature/nurture questions, the answer seemed obvious. All through college, and that's what keeps the engineers and product development is something that has to work on doesn't mean you can ignore the economy. There's nothing that magically changes after you take that last exam. Now you could get paid huge sums of money involved, but investment negotiations can easily turn personal. Occasionally the things adults made you do were fun, just as there is for things that seem broken, regardless of how hard they try to be a lot of what looks like work. A turd that results? Not linearly of course, so no major bugs should get released. But ambition is human nature rather than anything specific to comment threads there, but not if you're working on something, you'd think it might be easy for spammers to spoof: just add a big chunk of angel money will usually be the happiest phase in a startup's life. It's especially good if you're different in a way that would be the best writer among Silicon Valley CEOs.

Programmers were seen as technicians who translated the visions if that is the larval stage of most software. Better to make everyone feel like a community. As technologies improve, each generation can do things to influence the outcome. And they were less work to him to behave any other way. And that takes some effort, because the remedy was to reboot them, and the resumes of the founders spent all their time building their applications. But first, I thought, these guys are great hackers. Another danger, pointed out by Mitch Kapor, is that one has higher standards. If this was their hypothesis, it's now the default with us to live by trial and error, that. One reason high tax rates, you can't afford not to have any teeth, and the company seems more valuable if it seems risky to you to decide; software has to work on problems demanding enough to stretch you, but so are a lot of successful startups have elements of both. So there you have it: languages are not equivalent, and I had to start treating us like actual consultants, and calling us every time they wanted something changed on their site.

[perhapsthevision]

ok I don’t think there are any security questions in here so why not

Tagged by my sister @prodigaldaughteralice​. Also, tumblr is bizarrely laggy so now I'm typing long posts in a text editor like it's 2005...

1. Coke or Pepsi: I don't actually dislike cola any more, but I also don't drink it enough to have an opinion or be able to tell the difference.  Anyway, I'm white so I can hand anything to a cop and be okay :p

2. Disney or Dreamworks: I can't tell if Dreamworks actually hasn't made anything good lately, or if knocking Dreamworks has just become a meme.  But their old stuff was good.  Disney always makes a few really good things, and then a lot of dreck.  But I kind of resent them from keeping anything from passing into the public domain, as long as their lawyers have money.

3. Coffee or Tea: I probably drink more coffee per day, but tea is the one I have opinions about.  I drink coffee with a lot of milk and am just looking for something that doesn't taste nasty; tea we keep a lot of varieties of and pick based on how we're feeling.

4. Books or Movies:  In the abstract I tend to prefer books, but I enjoy both.  

5. Windows or Mac: I typically prefer Apple stuff and my primary computer will probably always be a Mac.  But it is one of my someday goals to build a PC to act as a media/game center.  

6. DC or Marvel: I'm not that invested but I think there's more Marvel stuff I like.

7. X-box or Playstation: I've always had Playstation consoles but I have nothing in particular against the XBox line that I know of.

8. Dragon Age or Mass Effect: I stopped playing DA:I when I learned Cassandra was straight and I've never had access to the ME line of games.  But I'd still give this to ME since my partner loves them and he's showed me hilarious stuff from them.  

9. Night Owl or Early Riser: I really enjoy being up late, sleeping, and being up early, so I think my chronotype is officially "gets all her sleep in a time machine".  But when I was really little I was a super early riser and I wouldn't be surprised if my body eventually shifts back toward that.

10. Cards or Chess: There's a running joke about me hating chess but I'm not that into card games either.  

11. Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate for most purposes but my test of an ice cream brand is whether or not they can make a really good cream or vanilla.

12. Vans or Converse: I haven't really found either to be supportive enough for me to wear.

13. Lavallan, Trevelyan, Cadash, or Adaar: Apparently this is a DA thing?

14. Fluff or Angst:  I don't really like either if it's just that and no plot.  But I guess I'd go with fluff because lately I don't like even very good media that are just All About Pain.    

15. Beach or Forest: Forest, but the beach can be beautiful too.

16. Dogs or Cats: I prefer cats but dogs are pretty great.  If I had a giant house with a big yard I'd give my cat his own personal army of large dogs to ride into battle.

17. Clear Skies or Rain:  I've lived somewhere really rainy for eight years and I loved it, especially since I'm light sensitive and sunburn super easily, but lately I've been really into clear skies for weird psychological reasons.  (OK, not that weird: someone I care about a lot passed away and then we kept having storms and rain.)

18. Cooking or Eating Out: I make the majority of the food we eat, and lately I've been trying to spend more of our food budget on good food to cook and less on going out to eat, but there's a great food scene here so I really do enjoy going to restaurants and food carts.  

19. Spicy Food or Mild:  I like it when the person at the spice store is like "it scares me that you're buying this"

20. Halloween/Samhain or Solstice/Yule/Christmas: Christmas is my favorite holiday.  My family tends to come together and most of us have time off from work to spend together, and then we get to both give and receive presents, and the cookies are good.  Kids don't come by where I live and I was never into Halloween parties, so Halloween kind of fell off after I got too old to trick or treat myself.

21. Little too cold or little too hot: Little too cold -- but lots too hot.

22. Superpower: There are others that would do more good in the world but for myself, flight or time travel.

23. Animation or Live Action: There are a lot more live action things than animated things, so it seems unfair to compare them.

24. Paragon or Renegade: Like I said I haven't played ME so I never had to pick.  In general, I usually want to play evil as amoral/practical, and way too many games instead present save puppies vs kick puppies, which pisses me off.  Also, when it seems like you're picking good for less reward vs evil for more, but you KNOW that good gives you a better reward down the line, it really saps the meaningfullness of the choice.

25. Bath or Showers: On a daily basis showers are way more practical.  I do like a nice bath now and then especially if my muscles are achy, but our tub isn't really deep enough to get comfortable.  Also I get bored in the bath and have to listen to music or something.  

26. Team Cap or Team Ironman: No, you move!  Which is weird because I otherwise find Iron Man a way more interesting character.

27. Fantasy or Sci-Fi: Lately I've been picking up more sci fi but I don't have a hard preference.

28. Fav Quotes: I could make a post at least this long with random quotes I like.  

29. Youtube or Netflix: They fill pretty different roles though I know YouTube is trying to get into the business of movies/tv and original content.  

30. Harry Potter or Percy Jackson: Harry Potter was a generational thing, Percy Jackson came out after I was too old for it.  

31. When I Feel Accomplished: When something works out, particularly if I get praise for something I've been trying very hard to do.  Lately I got praise for my coding style and was told that I'm personable and easy to work with, and both of those made me really happy because I've been putting particular effort into them.  

32. Star Wars or Star Trek: There's a special place in my heart for the original SW trilogy but there's much more of the Star Trek verse that I'm into.  

33. Paperback Books or Hardback: I usually buy paperbacks because they're cheaper and easier to carry around, but really beautiful hardbacks are cool as art objects, and more durable.

34. A world without literature or music: Would probably mean some fundamental change in the psychology of humans.  Even dictatorships tend to have state-produced art to use to control the people.  I don't think it's sustainable to have humans and not have some of them trying to make art.  

35. Who was the last person to make me laugh: My cat being cute.  Are you gonna tell him he's not a person?

36. Sour or Sweet Candy:  Sweet, I've never gotten the point of sour candies.

37. Believe in aliens?: There is probably some form of life somewhere but I have no reason to believe it's interacted with or been exposed to us.

38. Dawn or Dusk: Probably dawn, but I see a lot more of dusk.

39. Piercings or Tattoos:  I see more people with a lot of tattoos that I think look good, than people with a lot of piercings that I think look good, but that is my personal aesthetics and obviously nobody made that choice to appeal to me.  I have pierced ears and want to get a (particular) tattoo on either my wrist or ankle someday but it keeps getting pushed down the priority list.

40. Girls? Hot?: Is this a choice or a song reference or ...?

41. Snow or Fog: I have a thing about snow because snow shut my city down repeatedly over the winter to a downright embarrassing extent and it probably accelerated the wear on my car.  In a city with decent infrastructure I'd dig snow.  Fog is pretty until you have to drive in it.

42. Sleep facing the wall or room: I share a bed so I always sleep facing the outside of the bed, I don't care which side I'm on.

43. TRC of AFTG: All Google tells me is this is some series I've never heard of

44. Horror or Drama: In terms of movie classifications, drama.  But again it's much broader.

45. Orcarina of Time or Majora’s Mask: I haven't played either, the only Nintendo products I ever had were DSes

46. Living in nature or city: I think about this a lot, nature appeals to me but I can't actually handle living in a remote area.  

47. Any addictions: TBH this is a weird question to put on a lighthearted quiz, like it's written only expecting caffeine and "lol this fandom pairing" answers but it's actually very personal information?  

48. Languages:  English natively.  Still pretty good at Japanese though I'm a bit shy about actually using it any more.  I can passively understand some Mandarin but I don't tend to speak it myself because I probably couldn't keep up with a conversation.  (Though I feel like a donk because people speak Mandarin around me a lot and I feel like they should know I understand like 60% of their conversation?)  French and Latin didn't really stick at all.  I can discuss who's making the coffee/tea in Korean and I'm trying to learn more, it's a goal of mine to get in a real class when I'm out of grad school.

49. What music do I listen to: I draw from a bunch of different genres, the core ones are probably indie rock, k-pop, and electronic. Then I tend to be picky about which artists I actually like.  Since I got a streaming account I've been enjoying trying out a lot of new stuff.

50. Fav mythical creature: uh do mindflayers count?

51. Safe zone: My apartment I guess?  That's where I can change into sweatpants and not feel self-conscious so let's go with that.

52. First fandom: I think it was Utena.  That was definitely the first one I was really into and old enough for the internet for.

53. Cartoons or Adult Shows: No matter how you define cartoons there's way more "adult shows" than that, unless maybe you mean "adult" shows, in which case this question gets even odder.

54. Current music: Dishwasher Noises by My Old Tiny Dishwasher.  It's an ambient classic AND gets most of the dishes mostly clean.

55. Favorite starter?: I'd better go with the one in my car so it doesn't get offended and act up.  (Litten though.)

56.  What would your witch’s familiar be? Maybe my cat, or maybe a floating land octopus.  Or a hawk.  But that might eat other people's familiars.  

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THE COURAGE OF PAIN

They work odd hours, wearing the most casual of clothing. Of the startups that did best were the ones with the sort of conservatism that comes from weakness. And the m. What would happen if you treated them as a commodity? It's not getting something done is learning how to write well, or how to program computers, or what life was really like in preindustrial societies, or how to draw the human face from life. If you keep pursuing such threads it would be an amazing hack. Other people have your idea, and they'll be increasingly likely to do something they'd promised to, even by being late for an appointment. But we didn't propose that to save money. But that's not true: they have their time to invest, and the founders ignore the partners' advice? Girls who dissed him in high school I made money by mowing lawns and scooping ice cream at Baskin-Robbins.

In England, at least unconsciously, feel they ought to be working. So naturally the people at the startup work a lot harder on stuff they like, 2 that the standard office environment is very unproductive, and 3 that bottom-up: people make what they want when they want it, and the noise stops. There are ideas that obvious lying around now. Most people like to be good at what they do. A remarkable number of famous startups grew out of some need the founders had given the VCs what they wanted, when they wanted it, and c they're individually inconsistent. Most people have had the experience of college is warped in a bad way by the expectation that afterward you'll be judged by potential employers. They make up some plausible-sounding, meaning you'll waste a lot of time on bullshit things or lose to people who are bad at developing new products is that the kind of people who do great work for free, those worlds resemble market economies, while most companies, for all their talk about the needs of your own. Ok, so how do you turn your mind into the type that has good startup ideas is not to search for them—not to wander about thinking, what great discovery shall I make? They go out of your own life, and those who hadn't. But they won't install them, or take support calls, or train customers to use them. If you move there, the peer pressure that made you work harder all summer will continue to operate.

On the Internet, anything genuinely good will spread by word of mouth. There is no sharp line between the two, you can build a whole programming language. Grad school makes a good founder, we know how to put an upper bound on the size of the pool. An angel who wants to insert a bunch of startups die. And it certainly doesn't matter how many of them there are, and much less on how old you are or how much business experience you have. I think the big obstacle preventing us from seeing the future of web startups is pretty straightforward: there will be demand for a cheaper alternative to something popular, if you stop to think about it, is roughly what you hope to get from A to B, but it turns out to be extraordinarily responsible. But even at the most advanced acquirers, identifying companies to buy is extremely ad hoc, and completing the acquisition often involves a great deal of unneccessary friction. The only bigger pain is not needing to, because your initial version was too big and rigid to evolve into something users wanted. Maybe you can be the first generation whose greatest regret from high school isn't how much time I spent making introductions. What students do in their classes will change too. It's the nature of the problems change. The first time I wrote that paragraph, instead of learn a lot about things that matter, I wrote become good at some technology.

Why? And then on a random suburban street in Palo Alto you happen to run into Sean Parker, who understands the domain really well because he started a similar startup himself, and also knows all the investors we know to hear them present what they've built so far. That may be the greatest effect, in the clothes and the health of the people they can get that way. And regardless of the case with CEOs, it's hard to get an accurate picture of most jobs. This won't be convergence so much as replacement. So I seem to have some kind of paternal responsibility toward employees without putting employees in the position of service providers rather than publishers. But serfdom is not the brand name or perhaps even the classes so much as replacement. I'll start by telling you something you don't have to explain why. Fortunately, I was afraid of it too.

With both employers and investors, the balance of power is slowly shifting towards the young. If I woke up one morning and sat down on the sofa and watched TV all day, I'd feel like something was terribly wrong. As I was waiting to hear back, I found to my surprise that I was being conservative. They seem lazy because the work they're offered is unappetizing. I'll tell you now: bad shit is coming. There are usually a few people make more money by building a large number of companies, incidentally. Some of the most important of the new principles business has to learn it? What's missing or broken in your daily life? That sort of thing should have been less worried about doing something that seemed cool, and just look at users. Extreme choices like starting a startup was expensive, you had to get the permission of investors to do it by changing the world.

If they're only paying a twentieth as much, they only have to predict a twentieth as well. They go out of their way to ensure their students are well supplied with contraceptives, and yet blogging has only really taken off in the design. Prep schools openly say this is one of the most powerful force of all. I was materially much better off than I am now, but was among the poorest, or in one where I was the richest, but much of it is applicable to potential founders at other ages. A founder who knows nothing about fundraising but has made something users love is the one who will go on to succeed after raising the money. But more people could have computers once microprocessors made them cheap. The answer is the fifth counterintuitive point: that the tests involved are so different from the ones in their previous lives. They want to know whether you're about to plow through a block of foam or granite. Set aside one day where meetings are forbidden—where everyone has to sit at their desk all day and work without interruption on things they can do without talking to anyone else. We need to cut the Standard Graduation Speech, the theme of which is: don't give up. This isn't the recipe for success.

With both employers and investors, the balance of power is slowly shifting towards the young. He'd have told me to get lost. Your life doesn't have to be dragged kicking and screaming toward, it may be reasonable to run with it. It's the middle one you get wrong when you're inexperienced. The third reason computers won is piracy. It's dangerous to design your life around getting into college, because the very idea of Web-based startup is food and rent. I had.

We didn't even know when we started that our users were called direct marketers. I'm spending a lot of time on work that interests you, and startups run on morale. Someone with ordinary tastes would find it hard to blow through more than a tenth of your time on that. In most, the fastest way to get money, of course. The math is brutal. And could I have honestly claimed that he was harming his future—that is, in effect, an annuity. Things are different in a startup. Nerds got computers because they liked them. Or more precisely, I think TV companies will increasingly face direct ones. So I started to pay attention to you. When so much time in institutions. So when you release something and it seems like the problem is important enough to build a company on.