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[Image description from alt: A drawing template titled: "Favorite characters in each unit of Project Sekai: Colorful Stage!" Below are six boxes, each one listed with a unit with digitally drawn half body, flat color characters inside. Most are in their original unit outfits. The unit Virtual Singer has Rin grinning and winking, holding a peace sign to her head. The unit Leo/Need has Honami smiling nervously, tilting her head to the side. The unit More More Jump has Shizuku in her "Draw Your Bow in this White World" event outfit, smiling and holding a hand to her chin. The unit Vivid Bad Squad had Toya in his 2023 birthday outfit happily. The unit Wonderlands x Showtime has Emu cheerfully waving her hand in the air out of the box. The unit Nightcord at 25:00 has Mizuki and Mafuyu; Mizuki is smiling with a cat mouth (:3) while making a heart sign with both hands, and Mafuyu looks at them neutrally from behind. End image description.]
*throws this out of my WIP folder* and STAY out!!!! No but seriously this was actually really fun figuring out how to draw everyone!!!
#but also took SOOO LONG#i started this mid september. then spent like 10 days on it and got halfway thru.#took a long break where I did a full render half body and a full render full body and maybe a doodle or two I forget#wild. I was like no fucking way I'm rendring this I'll die. no outline coloring for you either. go be free#what is an optimal posting time anyways.#norstrume art#pjsekai#proseka#project sekai#are we tagging everyone? yes#kagamine rin#honami mochizuki#shizuku hinomori#toya aoyagi#emu otori#mafuyu asahina#mizuki akiyama#i do like how they all came out tho :)#ALSO I DON'T KNOW THE ACTUAL TEMPLATE SOURCE SO LIKE. if anyone knows pls tell me#i tried searching but only found other ppl reposting the blank#which is how I found it#I'll try searching more later#norstrum art
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On Our Terms- Chapter 4
Pairings: Carlos/Lando
Rating: E
Tags: Football Player Carlos, Artist Lando, More specifically Lando does pottery, Unintentional Outing, Explicit Sexual Content, Established Relationship, Minor Angst, Always a Happy Ending, Fluff and Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Euro Cup
Chapter: 4/?
The prospect of traveling to Germany for the Euro Cup is surreal to put it lightly. Lando’s never been to Germany— had never even been out of England until he’d traveled to Spain to meet Carlos’ family way back when. But here he is now in Berlin with the entire Spanish National Football Team trying to blend in like he belongs.
Read Chapter 4 || Read from the beginning
#carlando#football au#husbands™#what are optimal og posting times? anyway this has finally been proofed after working ahead and too much schoolwork
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Spirit animal SQH
#svsss#shang qinghua#but mainly I'm just here to vague post LMAO I don't like to vague post its not very effective in terms of venting but#but basically I guess I'm becoming hyperaware of my like... cognitive dissonance codependency and derealization ee#also my general laziness ig and where it overlaps into executive dysfunction or whatever like I may genuinely have some issues but#I am also a lazy son of a bitch jfjfkgkg and i need to figure out how to figure it out so I can work on both in more effective ways hhggg#oh yeah but basically the thing to remember for later is the silence in the call and the immediate unmute and chat activity once I left#I should remember this and stop interacting I think? I should try to give em space I think I'm being too clingy or something#or maybe my own silence is too awkward and dampens the call? I was kinda just spacing out and not doing anything so I get its kinda weird#LMAO so I should just like try not to be in call for those times mm#I just like being in call with my friends jdhfkg but I suppose its not very good either#I overindulge I suppose another friend pointed it out to me before too haha but fjfjjt its just easier than facing bouts of dread by myself#eehh and that's why I gotta do something about my Metnal Ailneses hfjfj but ngl I don't really know how to go about it...#I get embarrassed looking stuff up djfnfkg and half the time I don't even know what to look up I just draw ?s and I give up#I suppose I also have commitment issues too but that ones not new which is an issue of itself aaaaaaaa#man idk idk I just don't really get it I guess djdjfjf and I've got existential dreads and think maybe it doesn't really matter whats wrong#cause there's no point to fixing them because ultimately I'm gonna die alone and a failure anyways? so like ehfjgkg idk#its depressing and I know its like sabotage cause my brain is being a little silly a little goofy and its not a shared sentiment#with the better half of me and the entirety of my friends but yknow its just ee harder sometimes to believe in the optimism ig#and i can talk about it somewhat normally and without like having a ✨️break down#but yknow djfjgkg I'm very emotional a person ya? I think sqh is relatable for gods sake 💀#irrationality sentimentality nihilism and existential dreads... wanting to die because living is too hard despite all my hopes for living...#just the ol regulars yknow?#and another thing... do I talk to my friends about these things? I vent them out here a lot but what do I really want?#I'm not strong enough to keep it to myself clearly but I'm also too proud to share these thoughts? I dump them out in the open and for what?#whenever someone reaches out with concern and care I don't respond in kind and refuse to elaborate?#so like what do I want with this? I guess I want someone to know I'm going insane half the time I'm awake? but not do anything about it?#that's pretty unfair I guess... and stupid I think I do want to share my thoughts with someone but I'm too scared of the ramifications#and that my pride can't stand the fact I might be looked differently by my friends even tho the image they have of me is already quite silly#man.... idk.... I'll come to conclusions myself and do nothing about them so I guess that'll happen again aah idk idk idk
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her ass is not listening
#art#whitefang art#sorry i dont believe in posting things at optimal times. whatever#my characters#corrin#amaia#This is a redo of something i made last june and thank god i didnt even post that one#anyway. what if your wife was everything and you were just some rat she tripped over in the woods
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I've got too many games I want to play and not enough free time 😭 I still need to finish my BG3 playthrough but since Endless Ocean: Luminous came out I've been playing a lot of that instead. Also just got back into Wizard101 last night. Started playing House Flipper again last weekend. Still need to finish BOTW so I can start a TOTK playthrough and finish Pokemon Shield so I can start on Pokemon Violet. I've been fighting off the urge to start up a new Skyrim playthrough for weeks. My brother just told me that Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door is getting ported to the Switch. And now I'm suddenly feeling inspired to replay DAI... And throughout all of this I'm also playing the hell out of DragonVale on my phone. Someone just pay me to play video games all day please
#and before anyone suggests it: no i cant try to get into streaming#the way i play video games is extremely frustrating for other people to watch ahdjsksl#no one is going to give me money for producing a video where i spend two hours checking every barrel in the map while juggling my inventory#and then immediately give up on a puzzle and just sit in silence for 30 minutes while i look up a walkthrough instead#i need a situation that pays me $200 a day just to be autistic at the screen alone in the comfort of my own home#rambling#a few years ago i made it a mission to play all of the dragon age games and dlcs in order and i did not complete it#i got all the way to inquisition before i quit#i had already played it on ps3 but i wanted to replay on my new gaming laptop and unfortunately my computer decided it was too complicated#and also i just wanted to play as an elf again and i was resisting that urge bc i played as an elf the first time and wanted something new#so i didnt connect to my character as much#BUT ive learned a lot about optimizing my games from getting bg3 to run on my computer#so i think i could get it to handle dai now. especially if i upgrade to ssd like ive been wanting#and i just saw a dai post on my dash that made me daydream about possible characters and i was struck with inspiration#when i first played through on ps3 i didnt know anything about da lore. it was my first dragon age game#i was just doing whatever i thought seemed coolest#so i basically modeled my inquisitor after my dnd oc and then just picked a vallaslin i thought was pretty#and then when it came time to pick a specialization i was just like 'i mean my hand has rift magic right? seems obvious enough'#but now i know the LORE. and the dalish really interest me. and i want to make an inquisitor thats their own character#i didnt want to replay another elf mage bc i thought it would be too similar#but at the same time i wanted to re-experience dai (and experience trespasser for the first time) now that i knew more about the dalish#(with mods that fix the annoying bits where your character seems to not know about their own religion of course lol...)#i was thinking about that and i just got hit with some inspiration#instead of 'my dnd character but with a cool tattoo and rift magic and they kinda roll with the inquisitor stuff bc idk whats going on'#what if i made a more intentional character with a much different personality and their own backstory#theyre still the first of their clan but i know what that means now so theyre not really into the herald of andraste stuff#theyre a devotee of falon'din with his vallaslin and fittingly choose necromancy specialization (tho theyre annoyed by all the maker talk)#they can look cool and goth and maybe they even make some different choices about the well of sorrows 👀#i could keep rambling but im running out of tags gah#anyways ive got lots of ideas now and i think the playthrough would be unique enough to be worth it
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tagged by my girl alice @transfemininomenon!
last song: Black Betty, but the caravan palace cover
currently reading: :( I haven't done much non-academic reading in a hot minute unfortunately which means my answer is thoroughly meh: Forensic Accounting and Fraud Examination, 2nd ed.
currently watching: oh man tagging me in this post is just a trap to expose me for being boring, clearly. as some of you already know I hardly ever watch shows, so the closest thing I have to an answer is that I've been watching NBA summer league games because I have no better basketball to watch right now. OR my parents have been binging Monk lately and I occasionally catch bits of episodes if I happen to be eating when they start watching
currently craving: actually just had some chocolate covered raisins like five minutes ago so not craving anything all that much rn! also if I think too hard about this I WILL start craving something else which would be bad so I'll leave it there
coffee or tea: oh my god this one really was designed to make me specifically have the most boring possible answers.. I don't drink either of them, mostly on account of my adhd but also I don't feel particularly drawn to them even putting that aside. my mom has a coffee problem though so I will say coffee as a show of solidarity, but really it's neither
standard disclaimer that you are free to completely ignore this if you don't feel like briefly reliving the mid-2010s via this post, but I'll tag @raeii @loz @fieldlands @firedell @hungwy @poguniversity @legofrans @ingleaisle @romcommunist and @captoring! and also any friends and mutuals bored on a tuesday morning (timezones do not interact) that want to do this, just assume I tagged you too
#i think tagging 10 people is already taking up a decent amt of space so i stopped there to not just tag like. everyone ykwim#but MENTALLY i tagged all of you. if you wanted to be tagged. im not the boss of you#anyway thank you alice my friend alice ily#also this wasnt in the post already but i would have added currently playing: unicorn overlord (still)#i'm pretty much at endgame but uh. clocking in at a little under 200 hours for my first playthrough.#dont look at me like that i indecisively fiddle around in menus for hours at a time trying to pick who gets what gear and optimizing tactics#i will probably take a break and play something else before i come back to do a True Zenoiran playthrough though
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#vent post#ok to rb without screenshotting the tags but idk why you'd do that anyways#I'm once again wishing every fellow adult living with their parents a very 'I'm sorry o7'#mom's getting on my case about 'not wanting to be part of the family'#but if dinners are always silent and uncomfortable with all of us not talking then I think it's normal for me to leave the table#when I'm done eating. it's not 'not wanting to be part of the family' it's just not wanting to be somewhere awkward as hell lmfao#like oh okay sorry let me sit here for another fifteen minutes silently bc y'all ignore every conversation I try to start. jesus christ.#goddddddddddddddddddd fuck the housing market lmao#I love my family but I'd like them a hell of a lot more if I didn't live here#a little distance does wonders#anywaysssss sending love to everyone else who is perpetually stuck at home. esp oldest siblings and ill folk 🤝#we'll get out eventually#no more silent dinners and people who find your optimism and attempts to lighten the mood to be juvenile#stay miserable and pragmatic and 'realist'. no joy or whimsy. fucking whatever. I'm not sinking down to cynicism.#what's the opposite of being the moody black sheep of the family lmao. I'm the only one who seems to enjoy being unserious#ok. vent over but fr anyone else stuck at home when they don't want to be: i love you and we'll figure it out in time. things WILL work out#delete later???
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So humiliating, I was gonna play UFO 50 all night, while optimizing a route for Night Manor, I got a deathless run and took notes, then spent... THE REST OF THE NIGHT writing this route which I then posted on the subreddit 😓 so I might as well post it here too lol UFO 50 is so amazing even fucking TALKING about it can eat up your time like nothing, now it's almost 2 AM
Beware spoilers for Night Manor, the horror game in UFO 50:
Night Manor route optimization (for fun)
What a good game first of all, so IMO Night Manor is a very easy cherry and they should've made the cherry a deathless run.. that being said after I cherried it I noticed a lot of bait in the game vs what you need to at least kill the guy (after killing him make all the noise you want, play the piano, listen to the jukebox, flush the toilets and watch tv the world is yours) here's some things I found when I rebooted and messed around till I got a deathless run, for any who maybe want to go deathless but have trouble (infodump incoming):
Aside from the initial trigger in the kitchen (you have to do this, you can't sneak past and you can only do some of bed and bathroom before this) I counted 3 mandatory noise triggers you need to do to get to the point where you can erase him, unfortunately he may still find you, idk if it's just rng or there's something that says "get the player after x minutes" with some good luck and quick play you only need to worry about the noise triggers
These are: crowbar on cabinet to get egg, music box to get 3d glasses (highly important don't forget this little item it gives you directions for the maze), and crowbar on mirror in second bathroom (very tense area, very quick solution if you know what you're doing)
Avoid clock, piano, jukebox, all tvs and toilets, anything that could creak just to be safe, garage door and car, in fact outside of the items you get there, garage is all bait, 2 noise triggers and for what? A bad ending that's unrelated to the rest of the game
Now a tip on the baddie himself, I recommend you hide at least twice, more if you get bad rng and he won't leave you alone, but I found out if you attack him with a weapon like knife or basic hook, then immediately leave the area, he immediately de-aggros, you get a message and can go right back to the room you were in and he's gone, this works at least twice but if you keep doing this eventually he swats it away and instakills you (that's why you should throw in a hide or two at the beginning the earlier the better so you can reset if you get unlucky) in the cramped bathroom this is very useful, and to give you a better chance because of needing the right inventory item you can run to another room first, get the right inventory screen for say, knife, wait for him to pop up, stab, then run. Also try to make sure you don't run into a room with a hiding spot as this will trigger the hiding instead of an instant de-aggro.
Now, your goal is going to be loaded crossbow% lol meaning you need crossbow, bolt, and because bolt is in the hedgemaze sadly, all 4 gems and directions (idk if you can manually go through the maze if you know the way, I find it easier and faster to just tank the music box aggro for the glasses) I recommend (if you won't get confused and forget to go back and comb through rooms) leaving all items alone that don't help with these conditions, it helps with inventory management, keeping an eye on your knife at all times for a quick stick and run (e.g shovel just gets car keys, leave it) you still need shed it's very useful, the first time you go to garage too it's also useful grab all items (duct tape, oil can, gas can, crowbar, flashlight) (if you don't know where batteries are it's bedroom near entrance, I was thorough writing this but in general it assumes you've played before)
Ruby is basically free, gas and matches in fireplace gas is in garage matches right on mantle
Emerald also pretty free but you need shed so hook (room near start) duct tape (garage) and pool cue (upstairs lounge room with beaten looking door) to grab corpse in pool, that gives copper key which unlocks shed, I BELIEVE sack in shed gives bronze key which you need for crossbow in attic, iirc hacksaw is greenhouse box so grab shears and chop up the greenhouse box (I could be mixing up bronze key and hacksaw but either way you should have both), stab sack in shed with knife, grab shears and if you were bold enough to already smash the cabinet in dining room with the crowbar for egg (one noise trigger done), the vice is there to crack it, popping it shouldn't be a noise trigger I checked, and that gives gold key which is massive, it unlocks master bedroom from the lounge room where you found pool cue, you need it for 2 gems so yes at some point, you are gonna have to smash and grab in the dining room with the crowbar, you can do this very early on so you might as well try to hide this one out.. FINALLY hacksaw gets the ring off the mummy hand in bathroom which is used outside of house on fountain statue to give emerald
Topaz and diamond are where you're ringing the dinner bell left and right, topaz is in body bag so that's hacksaw and balcony, which is accessed through master bedroom, unlocked by gold key from egg, see? Still easier than diamond
Diamond is in safe behind painting in master bedroom HOWEVER you need safe code, which is in the secret-looking bathroom connected to the master bedroom, a door goes from bedroom to office, a gold book on bookshelf in office opens the way to the bathroom from there.. Now a couple words here, it's cramped and frankly pretty tense, this is the pivotal moment of a deathless run, if you hid a couple times first and haven't stabbed him too much, before anything, hit the bottom arrow to unlock the bathroom door to the hallway, then what I like to do is smash the window, he spawns, don't try to read code just gtfo, then you have a brief moment in the next room, make sure knife is on your inventory screen, he'll pop up again, don't miss lol grab it and stab him then run again, to any room.. if he didn't bat it away you should be in the clear, you can go back to bathroom and read the code then enter it in master bedroom on the safe behind painting for diamond
Now directions, I usually do this pretty early but playroom I think has doll in rightmost corner, stab with knife, gives music box key, go to kid's room, use on music box, get ready for him to pop up, either stab or hide, do the opposite of whatever you did for the egg cabinet just so you're not spamming him with attacks lol, remember it's very easy to stab if you run to another room first to buy time to find your knife, then wait then stab then run again to clear him.. either way music box gives glasses, use on scribbles on wall (one of the kid's rooms I always mix them up)
If you still haven't grabbed crossbow go to attic (upstairs to the right, looks like stairs) use bronze key on chest for crossbow (it should be in sack in shed you cut it open with knife let me know if I mixed that up)
So, with gems, directions and crossbow, get your ass to the lion statues outside, order is obvious but left to right: emerald, ruby, topaz, diamond, enter gate, use directions in hedge maze, takes you to the statue with crossbow bolt, grab and load into crossbow, keep it on your inventory screen, ring the dinner bell (use a tv, toilet, etc hell you can even play the jukebox for him) he shows up, pop him with the crossbow, personally that's when I went and grabbed coins from couch and played the song, sit back relax, play out the rest of the game, content in the fact that the rest of it is free, just splash that ugly lil bro in the basement with fungicide whenever you're ready to finish the run
*A fun fact, though I recommend hiding early, you can totally grab the hook before triggering the guy, and use the hook to stab him then run outside, that's how I learned about the insta-clear
(Now for self-deprecation, I know I'm not the first or only one who figured this route out, I just haven't seen any posts on it, and this is what I really love doing with these types of games, so let the kid have it ok? How'd I do?)
#ufo 50#night manor#night manor spoilers#ufo 50 spoilers#infodump#she's ufo 50 posting omg#route optimization#speedrun tech? huge?#my secret cringe thought is what if no one has been speedrunning this till now and they use this guide lmao imagine?#not bloody likely though there is surprisingly little on walkthroughs for it#probably because most people enjoy the atmosphere and joy of solving the mystery lol#not me I enjoy destroying these types of games.. grinding and honing to get more efficient times#having all the pieces click together asap with minimal backtracking that's what gets me hard#anyway gn gn#night manor walkthrough
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last couple of weeks of fieldwork happened but were filled with chaos that included a crew of interns, hiring nonsense, permitting nonsense, and extreme weather including both a record-breaking heat wave and thunderstorms. we were bouncing up and down the east side of the sierra (at one point we crossed the CA/NV border, like, six times over the span of two days because the mountains we were in were very precisely bisected by it.) the epic highs & lows of fieldwork included:
sampling in Death Valley National Park during the heat wave. this was actually less bad than when we were sampling across the way from Death Valley, because 8000 feet vs. 5000 feet of elevation is a very noticeable difference when it's over ninety degrees out.
we had a team of interns who were remarkably good sports and helped tide us over when our crew was briefly down to just 2 people!
i later found out that the interns had been, uh, maybe misled about how much work they'd be doing, which went a long way to explaining why they had a chronically exhausted air about them. that's academia for you i guess
got to see the ancient bristlecone pine forest on our days off!
ditched some gear in the field at one point bc i didn't feel like carrying a long metal thingy through an Active Thunderstorm while we were a couple hundred feet off a mountain peak
ditched our camp overnight bc didn't feel like taking the car back up a muddy road following an Active Thunderstorm, since the tires had real bad traction on mud
got told by a motel manager the night that we ditched camp that i? smell like pine? which. was not the worst thing. and makes sense given my constant layer of pine sap residue. but sure was an interaction that happened
got to swim in alpine lakes on our days off!
stopped taking my lunch breaks because it was the only way to even slightly keep up once our crew was back up to 4 people
and by 'keep up' i mean i was still consistently finishing 30 minutes behind the other
i don't. recommend this
a couple nights in various spots, we heard coyote packs yipping somewhere around our camp, which is a haunting and unexpectedly lovely experience. genuinely highly recommend waking up to the sound of coyotes at three a.m.
#field notes#long post#workflow optimization is an important and underrated part of fieldwork organization and#boy howdy was there a failure of optimization this time around#the upside was it meant the rest of the crew was getting like. a normal amount of breaks for what was being asked of them?#given that my bit of the protocol was less physically intense#but it was still starting to wear on me by the end#i was happy to be doing some quiet intervention to let them have work days of reasonable length compared to the formal expectations#i just wish it had not been happening somewhat at the expense of my own sanity#since apart from the extra 30 minutes in the field i averaged 30 minutes - 1 hour over back at camp doing data management / plant pressing#anyway if anyone wants the full-length rant about the Numerous Labor Rights Issues we had this summer u know where to find me
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fav shot of reigen in this comic i think
#qktalks#he's so canonically sexy and depressed but also very very ugly and sweaty <3#why do i like him so much what is wrong w me#i like drawing him he's fun to draw#which is good cuz i have to draw him a lot rn#anyway life update (it's not an update i just started playing animal crossing again) (absolutely riveting commentary jay)#forgot how relaxing n fun this game is#yaknow when im not . stressed as hell abt it VGEYAGVUIEA#gonna do my best this time around to like . just play the game like a normal person#stop min-maxing jay it's fucking animal crossing. just cross the animals it's not that deep#sometimes i forget to have fun in games and instead i optimize the enjoyment out of them#jay if u don't like collecting the art then don't do it. it's that simple !#sorry for acnh-rambling on my mob psycho 100 reigen post. it might happen again despite the specific criteria
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I need a massive sudden hyperfixation shock to happen again
#that era when i'd just got out of the onceler divorce of summer 2021. and then listened to everywhere at the end of time in october#and it was ruining my life and i couldn't sleep and there was nothing really good happening#like it wasn't Bad bc at least i wasn't depressed anymore like i was in the summer but it was still just dead. and i couldn't get#the last 6 minutes of eateot out of my head#and then. suddenly. got shot with the *blurry screenshot of stan and kyle as adults* beam#south park post covid trailer released. everyone who had ever been in that fandom was awakening from their graves#it was like 'future episode??' 'why have they got noses' 'what the fuckkkk' 'is anything real anymore?' etc#it was such big news that it instantly shocked me out of my existential crisis and reawakened that hyperfixation for the 9347384th time#and i vividly remember going on tumblr the morning after it aired and trying to avoid spoilers bc i hadn't watched it yet#but i accidentally saw a sentence something along the lines of 'kenny's a billionaire philanthropist now' and. ok i had to see a picture?#so i did and he looked like the epitome of a cool uncle#and then i was walking to uni that morning probably looking like i was crying or something bc like. kenny successful future#and the whole thing just brought my general mood up so much?? so by the time it was 2022 i was absolutely fine#and then 2022 was so good. up until like august and september#and things got a bit dangerous again like my mood was alright but the slightest thing could bring it down#and then my best friend/housemate got a girlfriend and it was that whole drama and her existence basically ruined my last year of uni#and since then i've become so bitter and cynical and all victimy and it's so annoying and i don't even realise i'm doing it#so now i only ever notice negative things happening and have done since like the end of 2022#and i just need one of my old hyperfixations to do something insane again. like sp post covid.#i need. idk victor hugo to come back to life and publish notre dame de paris 2. or something#or for pip to come back to south park. that would actually fix me forever tbh#or the golden ratio to announce they're touring the uk for free. okay no ykw that would fix me#orrrrrrrrr idk. secret history made into a film but it's actually good#anyway. the south park kids as adults with noses set off an entire like 8 months of Pure Optimism in 2022 and i need her back more than ever#ramble
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comic is done btw except that i need to fix guys leg hair in two panels. typical blunder. itll be posted tomorrow evening though im not doing that shite rn!!!
#txt157#its too late to post anyways#tho idrc about 'optimal posting times' cuz the only people interested in seeing what i ahve to say abt nrto are already following me#and ill rb it plenty dont u worry ^_^
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oh man, owning a body is way scarier than being in one while not owning it is
#wow it is so inconvenient to have a concept of autonomy that isn’t restricted#like it is better yes I get it but that doesn’t mean it isn’t an adjustment#I’m panicking less drastically with more time in between#but it’s still so hard to retain a grasp on the fullness of This Is Totally Only Your Body You Have The Ultimate Control Over It#because there’s just SO MUCH MORE that comes along WITH that and I have very little#processing power to sore as is#*spare#I don’t even know what a body is optimally supposed to be like how am I supposed to know how to make my way over to that?#and that’s all I have to say about that#shh katie#trauma recovery#and I just like. get to make every ultimate decision about it forever. like how close people can get or whether to do an activity or what#clothes I get to choose#and I get to say no to things and I get to defend myself if I want and I get to do fun scary new things in it if I want etc etc#and I love getting all these things! I love that it’s ‘I get’#but most of the time what I actually feel is ‘I HAVE’#I HAVE to decide each moment if I want someone to touch me I HAVE to decide if something feels good or not I HAVE to defend myself if I need#to be defended I HAVE to choose clothes with JUST me making my decisions I HAVE to change my body to be healthier I HAVE to etc etc#but then I feel ashamed and unworthy because I feel like I’m doing something wrong by acting or appearing ungrateful while#having such lucky amazing incredible way-more-than-I-could-have-imagined change in the past year#and so much to be grateful for beyond words#anyway there’s no lesson here it’s just a post it note saying where I’m at#I’ll move on from this to something else in a new stage as time passes#it’s chill#cult survivor#add to journal#cult escapee
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The idea that my historical AUs are just all the characters reincarnating at different times (sometimes at overlapping ones in different places) still holds intrigue for me. Simply because I love the idea of them spending their afterlives in liminal spaces and only THEN remembering their prior lifes, which leads to post-Imperial Rome AU Michele chasing Lovino around, yelling "I DIDN'T DIE FOR THE REPUBLIC SO THAT YOU LITTLE SHIT COULD RULE OVER ITS CORPSE!!!!!!!". Benny Hill type scenario.
#beablabbers#storie nostre#miche#lovi#soulmate post made me remember this#oh but now that I think about it the Time Portal AU has a Michele and Lovino before the res publica AU#Time Portal AU fucks with the idea anyways though. but the liminal space might as well be non-linear#still. Michele died in the civil war in the late republic on the optimate side and for what? for that pedarii banker to become emperor
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i always forget naegi/togami is like... a popular ship i guess so theres ppl who think like Deeply about togami and i just wha
#just saw a post that was like 'is byakuya smart? absolutely' and i cant stop laughing and being like ?????????? what#bc 1. whos thinking about togami enough to be like Oh Yea Hes Smart 2. hes Not????????????/ he has like financial knowledge but how is that#a measure of intelligence esp in the context of danganronpa universe (+ esp in the context of like dr1 killing game)#like how do u finish the second chapter of dr1 being like Yes This Guy Is A Thinker HOW#and 3. really out of all the characters in dr who the fuck is thinking abt togami#-> and the answer is just idk basic main male character x 2nd most relevant male character shipping I GUESS#also the post this was in was criticizing the black+white view ppl have with 'smart' vs 'dumb' characters so no ill will there or anything#will queue it in a bit#just funny bc like I Do Not think abt togami much let alone think of him as the Smart One of anything#like tbh naegi is probably 'smarter' but i have a feeling his optimism makes him have like the stupid label between them w.e#(which in turn makes togami the smart one i guess?)#so yea just a moment of someone being like 'heres an issue in the fandom' and me being like 'mhm agree' but that example being like what#bc its something i dont really see/never seek out/not how i think of the character/dont interact w fanon for this character etc#lol anyways time to fill my queue up sorry it ran out on the weekend but i only like to reblog stuff when im at work lmao#time theft my beloved <3#my posts
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me @ myself: i do not need more gw2 character ideas. i do not need more gw2 character ideas. i do not need more gw2 character ideas. i do not n
my brain, ignoring me: but consider: a sentient jade-powered watchknight construct affiliated with the Tideturners, matching with the watchwork wings
#my posts#gw2#Guild Wars 2#will i make this? probably not#it'd be a LONG long time off no matter what#since I Do Not Have The Helm#and it comes from clearing the challenge mode Old Lion's Arch strike#and. i do not have a group to do that with.#rip... someday maybe.#anyway!#about the character. thinking the name Prototype Halcyon...#it/its and they/them pronouns. genderless construct entity.#can talk like a jade mech with a heavily synthesized voice#but is significantly more intelligent and entirely self-aware#it has a fully optimized 'brain' that is every bit as complex as the real deal.#just made out of electronics and circuitry instead of biomatter...#Halcyon would be the first of them. the test project so-to-speak.#and while ASP can talk to it from a distance she CANNOT control it.#everything they do is of their own volition!#they like to travel :3#things they've never seen before absolutely fascinate them.#it also speaks steam creature! they have the same operational parameters#so they tend to naturally understand each other and bond quickly!#anyway. //adds this to my pile of 74847484 character ideas i'll never make#i still need to decide if i want to make a bunch of other characters in-game too#Mist Operative D (catalyst) would be a fun one#since that's Tideturner Dessa who is Actually a revenant channeling Ai#and i also want to do Flourish Saoirse (Firebrand)#and the Unnamed Hero from GW1 (a ghostly Healscourge)#blah. i get too many ideas ok
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