#what if i just edit stuff i already wrote instead

[im-still-watching-anime]

ughhhhh writing is so HARD what do you MEAN it took me two and a half hours to write 900 words

[seventh-district]

several days and 15 thousand words later, i am relieved to report that the suffocating urge to Write Something has been sated and no longer has me in a chokehold

[livelaughlovesubs]

Hiii, Nini! Can I please request a Sigma x male reader fic with impact play? We've seen Sigma in fics getting absolutely decimated by the reader LMAO- I almost feel bad, so here's a twist, this is light impact play. Instead of spanks/floggers he can brace for, nope, feathers that make him jump out of his skin every time, giggling despite himself because wtf he's taken so much worse-. I think he'd absolutely lose it with the lighter/gentler stuff more so than the harder stuff purely because of how flustered he'd get XD. Ps I'm making it canon, you cannot look at him and tell me that stressed-as-hell man ain't ticklish.

Ahhhh so true!!! I imagine him as very sensitive and ticklish as well, like 🤤🤤 also since the gender wasn’t mentioned anywhere, you can interpret it however you want :]

Dom!reader x sub!sigma - reader is gn neutral

Warning: tickling/soft impact play, teasing, humiliation, slight dacryphilia (can’t write a fic without good’ol dacryphilia), using his hair as a brush???

Edit: started & finished this in the middle of the night, I’m so tired and I didn’t proof read it, also my brain is cooked idk what I did here

It’s been too quiet these days. Too boring, too mundane, too relaxing. There were many adjectives that would fit this little dilemma you were facing, called ‘dying of boredom’. You’ve been waiting around for your sweetheart to make a mistake, just so you’d have a reason to punish him. Yet how could it be that he’s so perfect in every way possible? You weren’t even exaggerating or meaning to sing his praises, heck you wanted him to be a little more human!

Otherwise you couldn’t think of a good reason to pull him out of his busy schedule, just to have him all to yourself, in such a selfish way. He wouldn’t agree, everyone knows how he puts his work above everything else. Such a horrible work ethic he has. Whatever, no one is perfect, even the manager of the sky casino will have to slip up somewhere, and you were way too eager to find it.

Sigma was just signing some documents as you watched him over his shoulder, taking sneaky peeks as if he hasn’t noticed you already. At this point he was probably wondering what you were doing. It didn’t bother you in the slightest, in fact, you knew due to you being so close, he’d get nervous and overthinking again. Something along the lines of: Did you want something from him? Why were you watching him all silently, so creepily?

And there it was— what you’ve been waiting for! “Sigma~ gosh, you clumsy thing! You wrote down the wrong date there, look.” You pointed it out a little too enthusiastically, eyes sparkling like morning sunlight, reflecting how excited you were. He glanced at you funnily, probably baffled why you were so happy about it. “Ah- yes, I see, uhh.. thanks, y/n.” Sigma furrowed his brows for a split second, then turned his attentions back to the papers. Though before he could continue writing, you snatched the pen out of his hand.

“Nope, you made a mistake sigma, and such a simple one as well. Tsk tsk tsk.” You faked a disappointment sigh, and facepalmed, putting your acting skills to use, “I’ll need to punish you, don’t you think?” So that’s what you’ve been waiting for, and probably the reason why you were so full of glee earlier. “A-are you serious..? For such a small thing?” Sigma looked taken aback, leaning his head back until he met your eyes. A slight blush was already convering his pale cheeks, such a naughty boy, he was excited as well.

“Why of course, it was a grave mistake after all. Stand up.” He was more ready to comply than you thought, not making any fuss as he stood up. “Good boy, now sit on the table.” You moved the chair away, pinning his body between your arms and gripping the edge of the furniture. Sigma glanced at you a few times, seemingly surprised with your demand. To be honest he expected you to bend him over your lap. This was fine as well, in fact, this position would prove itself to be more comfortable than what he initially predicted.

You were close, all up in his intimate space. He swore he could feel the heat radiating off your body. A slight blush covered his cheeks as he waited for your orders, already feeling the effects you had on him. It was almost terrifying how much control you had with just a few words. “Come on, you know how it goes. Strip.” After waiting for what felt like forever, you smirked as you whispered to him. “Ah- right. Sorry.” The boy replied half-minded, hands moving up to unbutton his vest.

This wouldn’t have been all that humiliating if it wasn’t for the fact that you were staring him up and down like some prey, watching his every move as he peeled off one layer after another. “Can’t you.. look in the other way?” He muttered in a meek voice, currently taking his pants off. “I’ve seen you nude plenty times darling,” you reached for his hands and helped him undress, “why are you still embarrassed?”

“You- stop teasing me..” The way his face flushed even more while he desperately tried to shake your hands off was so precious, you couldn’t stop grinning. “Ever thought it’s part of the punishment?” You asked, grabbing his thighs and spreading them apart. They were soft to the touch, and so squishy, his skin was flawless. “Ah-ahh… I’m- I’m really getting punished… over that little mistake?” He bawled his hands into fists, biting his lips to stop the trembling.

“I mean what I said.” He inhaled shakily, and breathed an equally unsure exhale. Eyes glossed over and half-lidded, body burning under your every touch. Poor boy was just preparing for the worst. You gave him a reassuring smile, then raised your hand right over his thighs. So it was going to be spanking, he thought and squeezed his eyes together. To his surprise, instead of the painful slap he expected, he was met with a teasing one. In response his body twitched involuntarily, and his eyes ripped open.

He didn’t flinch because of the pain, no there was no pain to speak of. There were only a soft, faintly red mark that gradually appeared on his inner thigh. Pretty much nothing worth mentioning, you left more marks when you grabbed his skin to spread his legs. “Erm… Y/n?” He couldn’t help but question your actions. That was a slip up, right? He’s taken so much worse, compared to all that you were basically caressing him.

Suddenly, another slap, though just as soft and gentle as the first one, making him jump out of his seat. “Wait- y/n, what are you doing?” It was such a light slap, can you even call it one? Wouldn’t tap be a more fitting description? “Punishing you. Why, do you want to be bullied instead?” You teased, followed by another slap, this time on the other thigh, and his toes curled. Why did this feel even more embarrassing than anything else? The sound was way louder and more dramatic than the actual impact.

“Ah- no but, seriously, what are you doing?” Out of nowhere you slapped his chest, once again it wasn’t painful in the slightest. He tensed together, still able to feel your touch in the places you’ve touched. “Shhh, be good and endure it for me, alright?” Instead of answering him, you stroked his fluffy hair, and smiled all self confident. The look on his face screamed confusion, but he trusted you, and so he simply swallowed the lump in his throat.

You grabbed a strain of his hair, one of the longer locks, sliding your hand through them, a little amazed at how untangled his hair was. As soon as you reached the ends, you held it fairly firm in your hand, and used it like a brush to graze over his skin. First over his cheeks just to annoy him, earning yourself a glare from him, then a feather-light brush over his nipples. He really didn’t know where you were going with this, but god did it rile him up.

It tickled, and it was so foreign, he couldn’t help but subconsciously clench his thighs together. Hands trembling from clenching his fists too hard, the pounding of his own heart echoing in his ears. You made sure to not touch him anywhere except with your hands, which made him all the more sensitive. Those touches were driving him mad, and that fact itself made him all the more flustered. You were barely doing anything, how could it be that he wanted to cry amidst all these sensations?

Soft, muffled whimpers slipped from his swollen lips, he arched his back forward whenever everything became too much. “Hnng- please, ah.. stop the t-teasing…! Hmm..!!” You carefully traced a line down his belly, resting your makeshift brush around his pelvis and moving it in a circling motion. As if all this wasn’t humiliating enough, he now knew why you had him sit on the table. All so you could observe his every move, every shameful expression and listen to every shaky breath he exhaled.

“Look at you getting all excited just from a few touches, you are way more needy than you’d like to admit, aren’t you?” “HnnGh..~ p-please.. ah-!!”He whined again, feeling you finally, finally giving his neglected dick some attention. Only using one finger to lazily rub his tip a few times, before using his hair to brush over the already sticky gland. His precum slowly dribbled from his slit, down his shaft before getting smeared around by you. “So messy.” Was all you had to say.

“Y/n, y-you’re so Mnn.. mean,” he squirmed around, shaking his head as tears rolled down his crimson cheeks, “I-i wanna cum…” you tilted your head to the side, sliding the bush of hair over his inner thighs, “that’s not how you ask for things, baby.” Then you used your other hand to rub his tears away, it ended up with him crying even more. “Such a crybaby, why don’t you try asking nicely?”

He gulped, trying to cease the sobbing for a moment, bending forwards as he let his head drop. The shame was eating at him, but he really couldn’t do this anymore~ which is why he looked up at you like a lost puppy, with glistening eyes and rosy lips, shaking ever so slightly as he begged, “please.. ha-Ahhh…I-i wanna cum♥︎ please m-make me c-cum..!!♡♡♥︎”

You smiled, staying quiet for a moment to raise the intensity and anticipation, then wrapped your arms around his shivering body. “You’ve been so good for me, and good boys deserve to be rewarded.”

[iamlostsomewhereinthegarden]

Obey Me Brothers and when you feeling their sin turns them on

So as a community we’ve mostly assumed that the brothers can feel when we use or feel their sin so what about times when they get turned on when feeling you feel their sin their certain times

Btw this was written so fast it’s not even funny, it just took me a lot of time to edit and post to tumblr because I wrote this all in one day in one session

TW: GN!Reader, Nsfw not actually in there but is heavily implied and meantioned(I mean look at the title dude)

Lucifer

Lucifer gets harder when he sees and feels how prideful you are when you bottom out on dick, and gets hard when he knows you’re doing indecent stuff with his brothers and feel pride. The thought of you feeling his sin while doing something so sinful turns him on so quick

Mammon

Mammon, when he has to go somewhere with someone or for something but you don’t want him to go because he’s yours and you want him, want him now, want him under you in your arms because you’re greedy and right now you don’t want to share your first man. That gets Mammon rock fucking hard and when you are just being greedy without meaning to fuck him well he ignores that raging hard-on for more time with you. Hey, he can be greedy too~

Leviathan

Levi (Funnily enough this was just going to be a Levi thing because he’s my fave and I started off thinking/daydreaming about this idea with him but there’s potential with all the brothers), when you feel envious of whoever is with him. He feels you being envious of something or someone and turns around to look at what you’re jealous of only to see that you’re already looking in his direction, he freaks out wondering what he did only to realize the focus isn’t on him but on the person that’s with him right now instead of you and that immediately makes his cock rock hard. You mean you want to be with this smelly loser otaku and that you’re jealous of the person whose with him right now hoooooooly fuck. Also when you see his body and the rock hard abs he has despite gaming 24/7 and not doing anything compared to your body that even if you tried to reach his figure the slightest thing done wrong or not managed properly will ruin that figure gets him so fucking hard because you want his body? Holy shit you want to be like him, you want him, you’re jealous of him, well come on MC there’s something else on his body you should look at, won’t you come and see?

Satan

Satan similar to Levi gets turned on when you’re pissed at someone for being with him, or bothering him when you have his attention. You feel this for him? You’re pissed that you can’t have him all for yourself? Don’t worry you can spend all the time you want with him in his room, and while you guys are there why don’t you take care of the boner you gave him with your cute little anger. Gets hard when arguing with you, the wrath and anger you are sending in his direction is absolutely fucking delicious, he just fuck it out of you to make you pliant and calm to his whims. Satan also gets hard when you’re pissed at him for not giving you attention, well, if it’s attention you want then it’s attention you have hun! Don’t worry you’ll get love soon.

Asmodeous

Asmo is always horny and he definitely gets hard or harder when feeling your lust, you want to fuck don’t you? You want loving, don't you? Don’t worry if someone is not providing it for you he’s there to help you with it, and even if you are being assisted you’ll still find him there lurking and ready to pounce once he gets the chance to. As the avatar of lust he feels it the most and makes it his duty for it to all be okay~

Beelzebub

Beelzebub’s is when you’re already fucked out but you want more, you want more of whatever they can give you whether it’s in a sex scenario or a regular scenario, seeing you want more and more and more gets him going, you’re just like him right now, hungering for more and more even if you might not be able to take it and seeing as he’s a big boy that thought gets his dick really hard. Good luck with whatever hole you’re dealing with, or Beel’s dealing with.

Belphie

Belphie is when you’re so tired but so determined to do what you want when fucking, it’s cute to him that you’re fighting sleep because you’re so determined and so want to fuck, awwww such a little minx you are. Also loves when you’re tired and wants to fuck but has him do the work for once in his life, ofc he’ll do the week for his sleepy darling. He especially gets hard though when you’re asleep and you have wet dreams or just become incredibly horny in your sleep, because he feels that lust mixing in with your sleepy tiredness. The things you do to this sleepy boy makes him not so sleepy anymore you know~

Taglist: @kisakis-boyfriend

[kedreeva]

Hello, I've been following you since Good Omens~ I'm currently writing a fic, and it is growing bigger than I expected. So much so that I'm kind of at a lost on how to outline/draft it. If you have any tips you don't mind sharing on how to better plot a story, I would really appreciate it. :)

I can tell you what I do! It requires a little background.

Back in HS, I had a class about writing essays. Basically, it goes like this- you write on a page "intro, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, conclusion." Then you go back, and after each #1 (or as many as you want), you fill in a major argument/point you're making on your topic, and then under each #1, you write 2, 2, 2, 2, or however many you want. The trick is that each #2 must relate to what was said in its matching #1. If needed, you can add #3s under any #2 that needs it, again each #3 must relate to what was said in #2. It's mostly fill-in-the blank writing from there, and then you go back and fill in the intro/conclusion to match what you wrote.

ANYWAY story PLOTTING is kind of the same thing, to me, except instead of the intro/conclusion being the last thing I do, they're the anchors of the rest. I look at where I want the characters to be at the start, and where I want them to be at the end, and then I look at what needs to happen in the middle to get from point A to point B. I write down what major events need to happen (like #1s), and then under those, which building events need to lead up to them (like adding #2s), and if any minor events/character developments need to happen to get to the building events (like #3s).

Once i know what needs to happen, I block out any chapters, particularly if I know I need to get certain chapters to end on certain notes, and once i know what the chapter frames look like, I do a quick "first draft" kind of sketchy write up (as if I'm quickly summarizing for/telling a friend what happened) of a scene-by-scene. That way I know what to expect going into a chapter, and I know what to expect for the overall.

Importantly, if I don't really know what happens, I leave that room in the outline. USUALLY it becomes apparent what needs to happen, as I go through writing, because stuff happens (in the story) while I'm writing that makes it clearer. if not, then I write it wrong and see why it's wrong, and that sometimes makes something clearer. If THAT doesn't work, then I go to friends or strangers and ask for help. There's a lot of people out there happy to rubber duck with you, or to be beta readers, you just have to be very clear about what you actually need from them (for example, if you want storybuilding advice you can tell them to avoid picking at grammar or spelling, especially since whatever it is may change as you edit or rewrite).

Also importantly, it's okay to change your mind AND it's okay to edit previous chapters as needed while you are writing. EVEN if they are already posted to AO3. Anyone reading a WIP is likely to understand that the story is under construction and sometimes that means stuff changes. Sometimes, when you're writing along, you find out if you make a change to something in the past, it rewires a bunch of stuff down the line, or at least opens a door for you to get where you wanna go with the plot.

And sometimes... sometimes you just need to take a break. Sometimes you're trying to pour from an empty cup.

Good luck with it!

[ckret2]

hey sorry if this is annoying but are the later chapters of goldilocks tbob compatible? like will i be totes super confused if i read it on ao3 and then start off on the next chapter on tumblr? like what’s da vibe

It gets 100% tbob compatible starting from ch 61 onward.

but before then it's 98% tbob compatible.

As in like, "i gave bill a rare mutation that let him see the stars in the third dimension and his family treated it like a weird medical condition, and even though he was allegedly admired and adored by all as a child he still felt like a misunderstood pariah and it was Bill's determination to show everyone he was right about everything he said about the third dimension that led to him doing the thing that caused his home dimension to be destroyed—and i did this half a year before tbob was announced" levels of tbob compatible.

"In spring 2023 I wrote a post that says Bill likes Mabel because her dreams are like a collaboration between Lisa Frank and Hieronymus Bosch and TBOB has Bill word-for-word say the same thing about Mabel" levels of tbob compatible.

"there's like a dozen incidents in the fic that read like I was alluding to Theraprism and when I get to them I don't even need to edit them, they're already perfect" levels of tbob compatible.

The 2% that isn't compatible between ch 12 and 61 is mainly like, isolated incidents where I get a big detail wrong that we only learned in TBOB. Like I made his mom and dad a line and a trapezoid instead of two triangles. (They'll be changed to triangles when I get to those chapters.) I gave Amorphous Shape they/them pronouns, made them a scientist, and everyone can see and understand them. And there's a conversation with the Axolotl that says the Ax reincarnated Bill directly, rather than sending Bill to Theraprism where Bill reincarnated himself—that one is big enough that I put a warning at the top of the chapter like "chapter 6 rendered this entire chapter wrong but I haven't had a chance to edit it yet so be patient." So, stuff like that.

But like, genuinely, most of the fic—and the important stuff, the themes and the plot and the characterization and relationship dynamics and all—just got supported and backed up by TBOB.

All that said though? I'd suggest waiting for the AO3, for a personal selfish reason: I want people to actually look at the AO3 fic and actually come back to it each chapter, and all the people who started on AO3 and moved over here will never go back to the AO3 again because why would they need to? So instead of like, idk, 100 people reading on AO3 each time a chapter comes out, it'd be 3-4 people reading each time a chapter comes out and only until they're caught up and then they never come back either.

So, if you're on the fence about whether to keep pace with AO3 or charge through the backlog on tumblr: it'd be a favor to me if you read the AO3 version lmfao. And it'll guarantee you'll get the most accurate version of the fic. but i can't control where you click.

[akanegotlost]

Prolouge (Batman x Aunt!Reader)

This is a few of origin I wrote for reader and will be edit in the future if I decide a few changes but so far this my perspective. Pardon my first time my writing like fr. Any ideas are welcome :D (I need friend in DC fandom ngl) warning: My eng is bad and possible multiple typos

Reader is little sister of Bruce. She's only few months old when their parents gone. Reader's existence is secret.

Unlike Bruce cold stare, she's a walking ball of sunshine but still inherit those features but only use it on necessary times

Reader live in the manor and get get proper education like a normal person to not make it suspicious

Reader known as grandchild of Alfred and study in medical course. Also involve with Batman stuff and work as a spy for him (Alfred teach her :))

Bruce afraid the recognition of reader to the media so he make a new identity so that she can live normally. Reader didn't get mad when she know, she saw how Bruce facing those medias and paparazzis make her uncomfortable. (found out herself out of curiosity)

Strongly against Bruce idea to get a kid (robins) involved in the activities that they doing

Become mother figure to the Robins instead. Always be in touch when the Robins out to mission and get their injuries shecked every patrol they did

Getting more protective after listening to their (Robins) story and traumas. Accidentally calling them as "baby/baby bird" many times and end up used to it

Jason's death making a huge impact to reader. Set an attempt to kill Joker herself but got stopped by Batman himself

Reader choose to live outside the manor to cool off her head from grieving. After 2 months living alone, she decided to settle things out with Bruce

Once she get to the Batcave and saw another Robin (Tim) instead of Bruce make her rage when she saw him just arrive. (imagine she punch shit outta him and pull his collar down to her level to talk some shit out)

She knows there was a tracker planted in her body as well during 2 months of her absence within manor before. She get furious when she found out about the tracker and operate to pull it out herself and bring it everywhere she go to play along

End up arguing infront of the new Robin (Tim) and accidentally get him into the arguments. After realize what she let out, she walk out from the manor

With a heavy heart, reader push away Alfred's word of advise and plea. She left the tracker and all of electronic stuff in an empty apartment (gurl i would torture myself if i ever did that)

Already prepared a new identity and passport just in case. Dressed up and move out from the city (to Blüdhaven we go-)

Put up a new mask and suit to make things right in her own way as ...

[the-s1lly-corner]

How do you think the digital circus crew would react to a new member who genuinely to want to stay and doesn't want to leave at all?

TADC cast x reader who doesnt wanna leave the circus !

i lied about the previous post being the nights last post, imma spit out one more before i call it a night!! hope this is okay anon, this one may be a little on the short side; maybe.. i always write these notes before everything and forget to edit them accordingly

wrote this as general reactions instead of platonic/romantic/whatever relationship stuff! i like to imagine reader says this when the topic of trying to find an exit comes up... like imagine the atmosphere the looks the !!

CAINE:

hey i mean, hes not gonna stop you from not leaving! caines part is a little weird, since ive seen so many theories on his whole deal and i like them all, i cant settle on just one idea and roll with it... i think he would be thrilled that you want to stay, though.. doesnt have to remind you there is no escape because youre not interested in it... i think he would casually ask why you dont want to leave, though, its not often he finds someone whos content, at least not content without the loss of hope

POMNI:

she was the one who brought up trying to find an exit, again.. she kind of just looks at you with confusion written all over her face. she asks you if you meant that you have given up on trying to escape. you assure her that you just dont want to leave, giving up has nothing to do with it. she just gapes her mouth, before closing. blinks twice, and just asks why. why stay in a program like this? you cant provide an answer that seems to appease her, though... definitely some weird and confused looks from her

RAGATHA:

she doesnt know what to think of it. ragatha herself has come to terms with her position. like sure if there were a plan to escape that truly seemed like it would work, i think she would jump on it and try to leave.. i dont think she would pry you for answers, she believes you have your own personal reasons

JAX:

honestly i dont think he would care, assuming this is as i said in the note above where the topic of escape comes up and you guys arent dating or like best friends. i mean its your life and hes not going to argue with you, if you wanna be stuck in this shithole thats your business. oddly enough doesnt use it as ammo against you, though, and he bullies everyone over just about anything... maybe he cant come up with a cool nickname that makes sense, or otherwise find a way to make fun of you... but. idk

KINGER:

i think kinger would like to escape but i think he just accepted hes going to be stuck here forever. now if he had someone to fight for and be with and they wanted to leave, he would follow them. otherwise hes content with staying put because he doesnt have much incentive or desire remaining to leave. being there for years and seeing so many people fall does that to a person

ZOOBLE:

very similar to jax, in the case that its your business, of course this is assuming you guys arent close to one another. theyre not going to lecture you on how to go about your life. nothing to say here that wasnt already said in jax's segment

GANGLE:

gives you a soft and meek "but why" when you speak up to the group that you dont plan on leaving when pomni brings the topic up. you offer a shrug, or just say you dont want to leave. true utter confusion, and in a dark way believes that you prefer this world over the real one; even when your memories are smeared and burned, if any remain at all

[wings-of-ink]

I apologise if you have answered similar or stated your plans already in regards to this but about the kidnapping in chapter 5, will be there be more around the happenings, talks etc. That was a lot of trauma to go through, it feels like it moved forward from it fast? I get why a need to keep the story pushing and not have another break would be felt and be a reasoning for that and also just the fact it’s a demo and in development so it’s not necessarily complete/without edits!

They are working based on a troublesome timeline where there’s a urgency and rush, so I was wondering if you were thinking about/planning adding in those moments on their way back and when they’re back home instead of from the point where when mc and Aster arrived and they were reunited to them setting off. Maybe even flashbacks in chapter 6?

I hope you’re taking care and I wish you the best. Your work is beyond a treat, I wouldn’t want to be in a world without what you’ve put out there, thank you again 🫵⭐️

Hello dear! No apologies necessary, I did address this in another post but I could not tell you when or where it is, lol. But I'll answer and also go a bit deeper than what I've said before.

There might be a teeny tiny spoiler/teasers for chapter 6 in the explanation below, so just be warned if you don't want to know anything. It's merely some generalizations and nothing super specific.

So, when I wrote the end of chapter 5, I was very stressed (about other things not the IF) and quite tired (terrible time of year for me). I was sooo close to the end though that I didn't want to take a break yet. Winter is unpredictable for me, and I worried that taking the break would delay the update significantly. It was one of those deals where I just really excited to release it and have it off my plate too. Those areas that feel rushed, are because I took the outline for them and squished them into a few sentences.

When chapter 6 goes in, these sections of chapter 5 will also see an update. I have already gone through and fixed some things and added some code in preparation.

And in my book - there's always time for a breakdown, lol.

Some of the ramifications of MC's latest trauma will poke through when the chapter 5 edits go in, but most of it may fester. I'm still balancing how I want it to play out. The compounding of what your MC is going through will be bleeding through future chapters as well. A fun thing about trauma, anxiety, and panic is that sometimes you don't feel the full effect of them until after - when things are calm - when the reality settles in - when you sleep.

I'm also keeping in mind that MC's mind is pretty constantly on 'go.' When you're in a perpetual state of keeping busy (physically, emotionally, mentally), you may not be processing those horrible things like you should. And there's another thing or two that will occur at the beginning of chapter 6 which further serves as distractions for MC's healing and coping. The ROs are a blessing and a curse here. Though they are trying to help, they also have their own problems and your MC may be taking that on as well.

Thank you for checking in my dear and for the fabulous question! I am trying my hardest to take care of myself. I'll be doing a public post in the near future about some of that stuff and about chapter progress. I'm glad to treat you and I look forward to feeding you more tasty ones! ^_^

[kate-inthedarkness]

hii!! could you please write something about robert hard launching his longtime girlfriend. like she was a bit scared before because she’s never really been on the public eye or anything but turns out his fans love her and they’re going crazy about them. and it’s just like fluff or anything you like, you can add whatever you want. love u, thank!!

I had so much fun writing this I’m giggling hehehe!!!

Enjoy 💋💋

Secret No More - Robert Keating

Summary: I genuinely wrote exactly what the request was so that's technically the summary LOL.

Warnings: None! xxx

You never thought a simple post could make your heart race so fast.

You're curled up on the couch in Rob's flat, his arm slung lazily around your shoulder, fingers tracing soft shapes along your arm as some old film hums quietly in the background.

His phone buzzes, lighting up the room for a second before he turns it screen-down again.

You don't think much of it—he's always getting messages. Band stuff, group chats, someone sending him a dumb meme. It's background noise at this point.

What you do notice is how he keeps glancing over at you. The kind of look that's all warm eyes and slightly parted lips, like he's about to say something but hasn't quite worked up to it.

"What?" you laugh, nudging him gently. "You're staring."

"Yeah," he shrugs, a soft smirk tugging at his lips. "Can't help it."

You roll your eyes, but your cheeks are already heating up.

He sits up slightly, shifting so he can look at you better, his voice a bit more serious now. "I was thinking about posting something."

"Okay...?" you say, eyebrow raised.

"Of us."

You blink. "like... on your Instagram?"

He nods, eyes flickering down for a second. "Only if you're okay with it. Just... I dunno. I want people to know. Want them to see how lucky I am."

Your heart does a full somersault. He's never hidden you—not really. The band have always known, and so have the rest of his friends. And of course his family knows. But this would be different.

This would be thousands of people. The fans. The internet.

The thought makes your stomach twist, but not in a bad way. You're just extremely nervous. Not about him, but about you. About being seen.

Rob must notice the way your face changes, because he tucks a strand of hair behind your ear, his thumb brushing your cheek. "Hey. We don't have to. Seriously."

"No," you say, surprising yourself. "I want to. I'm just... a little scared."

"Yeah, I get it. I'll be right here though," he promises, smiling softly. "I always am."

He snaps the photo while you're tangled in his hoodie, half-asleep, your face hidden against his neck. All you can see of yourself is your hand wrapped around his shirt and the slope of your nose.

His caption reads:

"No.1 Mardy Bum 💙"

You try to ignore the notifications that start pouring in. But a few hours later, curiosity wins, and you crack open your phone.

The comments weren't what you expected at all.

"OMGGGGG BOBBY??? SHE'S GORGEOUS" "This is the softest thing I've ever seen, I'm crying 😭" "They look so in love I'm gonna crash out." "I need a Robert in my life istg!"

There are fan edits within minutes. TikToks. Tweets. Someone found your old Spotify playlist from around the time you and Rob first started seeing each other, and is already analysing the "romantic vibes" for clues.

But instead of feeling overwhelmed like you thought you would, you just... smile.

You feel seen. Not as a headline or a rumour, but as someone who loves and is loved in return.

Rob leans over your shoulder, chuckling at one of the comments. "'They look like they smell like vanilla, cigarettes, and love'?" he grins. "I mean, they're not wrong."

You elbow him lightly, but your cheeks hurt from smiling. "This is insane."

He presses a kiss to your temple, then your cheek, then right at the corner of your mouth. "It's just the beginning of all the madness, love."

And in that moment, wrapped in his arms, surrounded by love in every direction—on the screen, in the room, in your heart—you believe him.

[bomikalover]

Did my yearly rewatch of Austin and Ally (all 4 seasons) and now I’m hyper fixated on it. So I decided to yap my head off on here so if you don’t care for anything A&A specific then just scroll and enjoy my other posts or edits of the stuff you do like 🫶🏾

Anywaysss, why I’m here.

AUSTIN AND ALLY’S PARENTS ARENT GOOD PARENTS!!

There i said it.

The only one I give slack is Ally’s mom as she mostly lives in Africa for work (I think?? I kinda black out the parents storyline since I’m here for any else but the parents) plus she wrote a book and when she was in Miami with Ally she spent all her time WITH HER DAUGHTER. She gave advice, presents, and even gave her an opportunity to sing at her event which was the event she overcame her greatest fear. She was polite and sweet to all the kids, put effort to talking to them, and getting to known them. We’ve seen her for maybe 2-3 episodes TOPS in the whole show but I never disliked her. Do I think she could have had a talk with her ex-husband and made him work at his own business?? Yes but they spilt for a reason and maybe she was just already mentally clocked out of anything dealing with him…cuz I know I am.

Her dad on the other hand I majorly dislike. He opened a business just to leave in the hands of his only daughter between ages 14-18 while she was already occupied with school and then her career as an artist. Plus she had friends and a young life that she wanted to live. Fortunately Ally was lucky her 3 friends stuck around all day in Sonic Boom helping out and hanging there instead of completely leaving Ally out since she was constantly busy with work.

He was also extremely cheap. Like being cheap with urself is fine but with ur daughter is a whole nother thing. Like when he gave her emergency funds for when she went to go on tour with Austin and she actually needed it as she was stranded in an unknown state. Just to find out that her dad only gave her $6 and an expired coupon. She once again was on her own and performed for her own well-being.

And he was also unsupportive of Ally sometimes. Like in the first episode when he said that she had one in a billion chance of making it into the music industry. (Austin’s dad said that as well, but we’ll get to him later) WHAT?! Is it so hard to be supportive of ur daughter. (He does support her in future episodes but for me it’s says a lot that the first impression we get of her father is that he’s unsupportive and only wants her to run the family store)

Speaking of no support and forcing their child to follow their footsteps…Mike and Mimi Moon.

They also came out the bat being unsupportive but seemed to care enough to not force Austin to work at the Mattress Kingdom. But they heavily offered the job every time something went slightly off course with Austin’s Career. (Him getting vocal nodes or when he chose loving Ally over his career that he’s been passionately working on for years)

Both of A&A’s parents were just letting their kids travel by themselves or go on tour by themselves. (It’s EXTREMELY common for parents to be MIA in kids tv but these rubbed me the wrong way) like we rarely saw Mr.Dawson at Ally’s performances Vice versa with Austin and his parents. It took Austin having to go the doctors or Ally moving away super far to accomplish her goals to get their attention.

I’m not surprised Auslly has such a strong unbreakable bond when they’re two only children with neglectful parents who are unsupportive of their dreams. They have no one to relate to and share the passion with beside each other. They both have best friends that have been in their lives YEARS before each other yet Auslly talk of each other as if that’s all they have is each other. (Side note: the way Auslly write their songs make me question how much stuff they truly went through together. Like “You can come to me” lyrics are so sweet and intimate but also so deep but it’s extremely evident that they are singing these lyrics to each other and only each other. Like they surpassed hurdles that Dez and Trish weren’t there to surpass with them. I wonder how much of Auslly we haven’t seen and will never see.)

Dez and Trish aren’t only children like Austin & Ally. Dez has a (older?) sister and Trish has a little brother. Both their families seemed extremely happy, loving, and outwardly supportive of them…I can’t say the same for Austin and Ally.

I could go on and on about this topic alone but I’ll spare your eyes from all the reading and stop yapping. But I’ll gladly talk about all my other thoughts about certain A&A things. Like the Auslly dynamic in a whole, why Austin’s passion for music is so strong, or even why Trish can’t keep a job.

But that’s a yapper-sation for another time.

[trashisstillhere]

Now while I currently do really need and want to work on the things I want to draw, I’ll just give yall the currently uncolored, official ref of the New Ninja!

I mostly did this cuz I thought it was about time they got an actual ref. I mean, I have drawn them many times before yet never made an actual drawing of their full body. So I did it now! And since they’re officially one of my Rc9gn ocs, I kept the ‘UnNinja’ version of them that I drew for ask (it was about what NN looks like without the ninja suit on) long ago which was at first ‘unofficial’ since I basically said you could imagine them in any way all of you wanted but now, that’s how they’ll REALLY look like!

They don’t have any official colors yet, that is one of the parts that will take quite awhile..

Like I did with Serenity, here’s some info about them! (Mostly for the ones who may not be aware of New Ninja and all the posts I did about them before along with a few more stuff I haven’t really either told or shown before about them before I had completely stopped drawing them I guess(??).)

-New Ninja is…well, a new ninja chosen to be Norrisville’s new protector in the future right after Randy, their story is supposed to take place in a few years after all the events in season 1 and 2 in the show. (All the canon characters are like kinda older at this time, the other teens like Randy are about 17-18 now, not in 9th grade anymore but in 12th grade). Randy is actually still a ninja here, still has his mask and everything even though he soon isn’t gonna quite be the main one anymore. However the Nomicon let him keep his mask for now, especially now that he’s currently helping the new Ninja. Plus he absolutely refuses to let Nomicon stop him from doing so, he refuses to just sit back and watch another random kid struggle out there as the new ninja.

-New Ninja’s real name is ?????????… yeah…. They don’t have a official name yet either, no last name, nothing. that part will also take too damn long to figure out and work on so for now, just call them ‘New Ninja’ or NN for short. (Edit: they do have a name now! Nobu! Nobu Chiharu-Sirius! But you can still call them NN!)

-they go by any pronouns! And by any I mean ANY. I know I wrote they/them there on the ref and I mostly use those for them right now too but still, I said before they can still be called by anything and I ain’t changing it. So go ahead, use any other pronouns for this kid if ya like. But I will still keep using they/them for them. (I totally didn’t just make them gender natural who is okay with any other pronouns cuz i had no clue what gender or whatever to make them identify as. Pfft- totally not-)

-as the new Ninja for Norrisville, you’d probably expect them to either be excited to be the new hero and/or take it seriously like a pro….but they’re not, they’re the complete opposite. Instead of them being giddy about this like Randy pretty much was, they’re scared for their life. This new job of theirs has not only already changed their whole life but put so much pressure on the poor kid, they already had struggles in their normal life and now they have gotten even MORE.

-New Ninja isn’t really confident, brave, social, just nothing like the out going kids out there. They’re insecure, a coward and pretty anti social. They get stressed and overwhelmed easily when they’re the center of attention, they often have bad thoughts when they think they’re not doing good enough and worry too much about not being ‘perfect’ enough. This is exactly how they were at first, before and after becoming the next chosen one. But now with Randy being there for them as support, they’re slowly starting to work on themselves to overcome their fears. Will it easily get rid of all of their problems? No. But will it help a lot? Yes!

-Randy calls New Ninja ‘Kid’ quite a lot, it was mostly just a little nickname for them at first during his time trying to help them that just came out but now he can’t help but keep calling them that every time they are together, even acting like a brother/father figure to them! New Ninja is an only child so they never knew how it felt to have any siblings of any kind. (Found family trope my beloved)

-New Ninja gets easily flustered by all sorts of praise such as compliments, affections, etc. they aren’t really used to have so much love and support from other people, not even used to have many fans yet (even though they know that the ninja always had fans for years to begin with-). Now with Randy pretty much doing this, the kid feels like some random kid being embarrassed by their parent or something.

-New Ninja hasn’t ever really gotten to have any sort of fun times and memories during their life, they don’t even know how to play video games at Greg’s Gamehole! Poor kid. But thankfully with Randy’s and Howard’s (yes, even him,) help, they’re learning.

-and uh yeah, they do know Howard too. At first they didn’t, to them he was this random guy that Randy seemed to talk a lot to so much and couldn’t help but be curious by their relationship. After some little investigation and all that crap, they’re more aware of the chubby guy now. How? That’s another part I still haven’t worked on yet.

-because of Randy pretty much being their mentor, New Ninja can’t help but mostly cling onto them. They often feel helpless without him, always asking him for help. They do learn to not always ask him for help later on during their development, yet there are times where the kid still can’t help but feel safer around him. Not just because he is the one who gives him tons of help with ninja stuff, but also cuz they really trust him and may or may not start to feel attached to him.

And that’s pretty much all I’m gonna say for now! Because if I wrote even more, it would take WAY too damn long and this would never get to be posted here. So yeah. Sorry if there will end up being some misspelled words or grammar mistakes, I’m too lazy to read all this again to check for them.

Will a colored version of this ref be done soon? Who tf knows!

[ach-sss-no]

Schrödinger's Hobbit extemporaneous liveblog chapter 1

(It's extemporaneous because I'm queueing some of these posts and lightly editing for coherence, it's just easier for me to do things this way) I decided to read through a fanfic of mine and make notes for personal reasons.

[A couple people were kind enough to express interest in this! so I wanted to add, if you have any questions about anything in the fic please ask, because I might leave stuff out. Sometimes we all gloss over things that seem obviously notable to someone else. We've all had that embarassing incident where we forget to mention that the marsh we're navigating is cursed and full of dead people]

I'm not reading any of the author's notes. The beginning one is long.

I remember I tried to make it really clear right away that this is book canon because I was starting it off at the canon divergence point which is a scene PIVOTAL TO THIS CHARACTER that is NOT IN THE MOVIES.

This story exists because I assumed there would be Gollum redemption fics out there already and I didn't see any, and I was disappointed because I was curious to see how people would solve this problem and no one had even tried. I mean that. There were a few 'what if he was good?' oneshots and I did really enjoy them but they ALL took place, IIRC, AFTER the redemption point (he was just hanging out inthe Shire or something.) There was just a total dearth of actual-heart-change-character-arc Gollum fic. So I decided to take a crack at it myself, but since I did write it myself, this fic still doesn't fill the desire for wanting to see how other people would do it. I read & write fanfiction mostly as a social thing and my own work never meets the craving for seeing someone else's story. I'm harping on that because nowadays the response to 'I wish there was [x fic]' is usually 'write it yourself! :) :) :)' but that doesn't help me personally. Because what I want is specifically not my own story. I get different kinds of reinforcement from writing than reading.

Alas! I still wrote this story.

I remember thinking I wanted to start off right away firmly in GOllum's POV because, in part, I think fanfic and transformative works should be about things that were not and should not have been in the original, and for what I think were solid artistic reasons, LOTR stays firmly out of Gollum's POV. His POV would be interesting, but doesn't serve his role in the original story. (We do see a glimpse of it in The Hobbit, in a scene which studio executives thru Peter Jackson absolutely desecrated. But we're not here to talk about THEIR AU. This is MY AU. I'm kind of stalling from actually reading it.)

It starts in Cirith Ungol. My take was that Gollum's true, final heel turn was there, what with the 'fleeting moment gone beyond recall' talk.

There is a sticky bit here which is that Gollum's final push towards evil was facilitated by Sam, who sees a moment of real emotional vulnerability and says something snappish. But it's important to me that a redemption story follow from free will choices only. (at least, this one.) So I have a problem where Gollum isn't exactly doing anything wrong at a moment where I need him to make a different decision. I don't want the 'good turn' moment to come from Sam, but it also didn't seem fitting for Gollum to just not snap when he's called a sneak. So, instead, I decided to make it so that Gollum decides he's unworthy to touch Frodo and he doesn't and he doesn't trigger Sam.

What Gollum is thinking in canon in this scene is, as I have said, an utter mystery. I chose a characterization where he's not thinking anything morally deep but just seeking connection.

Just like the mud, when he had come back to the hobbits after finding some worms to eat and the mud had been on his face and hands, and they had looked so sad, and so horrified;

I'm calling back to this moment because there are three moments in the trilogy where GOllum quietly watches Sam and Frodo interacting. Cirith Ungol is the climactic one. The first one is when he comes back from eating bugs and he's covered in mud and for a moment he watches Sam and Frodo interacting instead of saying 'hi I'm back I was eating bugs'

He pulled away, finally. He almost considered reaching back, voice or no voice… but then it occurred to him: his hands were dirty. He ought not to touch the nice Master with dirty hands.

So, like, I want him to make a free will choice, but obviously, if not interrupted, the scene will run as it did in canon and end in lava. I'm trying to go for 'Gollum's attention is diverted for a moment by the mysterious voice and he rethinks what he's doing and chooses a different action which has a different series of consequences' rather than 'Gollum is briefly wrenched out of character by an outside force that is definitely not the author'. It may be weak, but it is a fanfiction AU and we all know why we're here and you're either on board with it or you're not. Whatever.

So Gollum sat there huddled and alone while Sam and Frodo were together just a few feet away.

My thesis is that Gollum is damaged almost more by the isolation than by the soul-stealing ring. The rest of the fic turned out to revolve around him (spoiler) discovering he's an extravert. This is not subtle.

Master said: "Sméagol, I am not worthy of such veneration, even from you. I am only a hobbit. Please get up."

One of the most difficult things about this fic was Gollum's POV. Not writing his inner monologue- that wasn't difficult. That was delightful. Everyone loves writing in MietteGollumspeak. Rather, his limitations in perceiving others' motivations and moods were even more difficult than usual in limited POV, because Gollum has difficulty interpreting social signals that goes beyond the norm, and also, at the same time, everyone needs to be in character. Also, also, Gollum isn't always aware of what he DOESN'T know, and can't always tell the reader 'someone is emoting but I can't tell! :)' That needs to be left implied unless he's really getting confused to the point where he understands he's missing something.

What I'm getting at is that Frodo is telling Gollum to stop bowing in part because it's creeping him out, but Frodo is being very tactful about it and at this point in the story Gollum can't read tone of voice well (and he's not looking at Frodo's face).

There were many points in this fic where I had to just be okay with things being ambiguous or unclear. That's usually for the better anyway.

Gollum heard this and his wretched mind thought: How great must Master really be, if he does not even want me to grovel, to show him his greatness. Not like Her! He must know how great he is, and not need me to tell him, and he is being very polite to Sméagol by telling him he needn't bother. How could I have thought of taking him to Her? She would rip him up like a bit of paper and then he would be gone, yes precious, and She would still be a nasty big spider and I would still be hungry. I will always be hungry, and She will only tell me that She is hungrier, and Master is telling me I needn't bow.

I'm trying to be very clear up front that this is unreliable narrator fic that's deep in POV and you are getting exactly this kind of thing for the rest of the story and if you don't like it leave now. I'm a big believer that stories should tell you very quickly what they are and what you're in for.

To that end, I also slapped a massive wall of AO3 classification tags on this thing. One of them is 'crack treated seriously'. Some people thought it was odd to characterize the fic as crack at all. I think the premise is cracky enough, but I wouldn't consider a Boromir Lives or Wormtongue Lives or Denethor Lives to be crack...

Gollum's situation is a little different though.

Skip ahead: ring scene. A lot of things happen but essentially Gollum chooses to throw the Ring away rather than trying to keep it. (He still wrestled it away from Frodo, but without maiming him)

"Sméagol!" A thin hobbit voice that he should not have heard over the cries of 'my precious o my precious' that he did not realize he was babbling, but he heard. A desperate voice, one that did not expect to be heeded. "Cast it away, Sméagol! Please!"

I wanted to leave it ambiguous whether this is Frodo or Sam or even a hallucination. For all I know this is Deagol talking.

Later on, Gandalf says 'you cast [the Ring] into the fire with your own hand, unbidden' which is a contradiction, because someone did in fact tell/beg him to throw it away. I don't remember whether I was trying to imply that this voice was not real or if it's just a mistake.

I feel like anything that's straight from LOTR with changes to fit the AU is probably the weakest part of this because I'm just copying something from a much stronger writer and changing it a little and the seams show. But I think people are (or should be) a little forgiving because it's a fanfic and the establishing purpose of this should be obvious.

That nasty old Sam's going to let go of me, isn't he. More fool him! I am dying. Sméagol is dead already. 

Another purpose of the fic is supposed to be to draw out and highlight the aspects of book!Gollum's character that I enjoy (and to indulge in playing with them). Sometimes it feels like I can say more about a work through a transformative work than I could by just quote-dumping from it and going 'hey look at that!', which is another reason I write fanfic.

Anyway I like it when he cracks wise. In the way that Scrooge makes cracks about underdone potato when faced with Jacob Marley, Smeagol has the audacity to make digs at Sam while he believes he's actively dying. 'He's gonna let go of me. Joke's on him, you can't kill what's already dead!' It's also characterizing that Gollum is so convinced of the basic meanness of life and such a vindicitve little snot at this point that he really thinks Sam would pull him back from the brink in order to say 'lmao' and let go again.

Oh, one thing I did in this fic that I thought for sure would get at least one confused comment was writing Smeagol without any sign of disassociative identity/multiple personality. He's one integrated person. That was how I felt about him reading the book (at least 95% of the time) and the movies went real hard with their own thing and I thought for sure SOMEONE would say (well-meaningly) that they expected to see multiple personalities. But they haven't! Not so far. (I almost said something about this in the author's note, but I didn't want it to become a topic of conversation unless someone else brought it up, so I didn't.) I believe a new PJ-verse movie with Gollum is set for release soonish? and that will probably drive interest in the character and might lead to movieverse fans finding my fic and finally getting confused by it. I haven't yet seen any confusion from anyone encountering the book canon's version of the events in the fic (which came in for this chapter and also comes in later, much later, when Faramir appears), but the future is unknown!

Anyway when I talk about the character I tend to use Gollum and Smeagol interchangeably as two names for the same guy and if that confuses you I apologize. I am not going to remember to stay consistent.

My fic just uses Gollum as his name in the narration because TOlkien always used the name Gollum in the narration.

"Master!" There was a pause here, for emotion that could not be expressed in words. Then: "I've just been fetching Sméagol, in case you still want him, but I'm not sure he's going to be any good to anyone, ever again. The poor wretch!"

It's kind of difficult to write Sam from Gollum's POV because I like Sam and Gollum just straight out hates him. It's hard not to either dial back with 'but Sam is a good person I don't hate him pleeease' or overcompensate for my personal bias and have him come off worse than he should. (to be fair, Sam is genuinely a huge jerk to Gollum at times in canon. It's hilarious. Also sad though.) It looks like I cheated a little here and dipped into omniscient POV. Gollum might be unconscious already.

Cut to Gollum being carried away by Gandalf (on an eagle; but Gollum can't tell this due to being half-conscious, and later on I'm pretty sure someone tells him he escaped on an eagle and he goes 'sounds fake 🙃' )

Gone! Forever! Without it he was a husk, a shell, the discarded bits left after prying open an oyster- wet things to clack together and then toss into the mud and leave.

I'm reaching for MetaphorsTM because I thought Gollum would think in sensory and emotional terms more than clear speech.

Gandalf is reading his mind because I need a conversation to happen here and my POV character cannot speak due to vague volcano-related injuries.

Time skips happen, Gollum is recuperating and Frodo comes to visit. (Gollum is still half-conscious and there are no visual descriptions from his POV.)

But Master's voice was calm. "You were keeping it from him when I could not. I am not angry. You have kept your promise, and you have done more besides that I did not ask. I thank you. Many have cause to thank you, whether or not they shall ever know it."

Frodo doesn't ouright say this and Gollum doesn't infer it, but Frodo is being so nice because he thinks Gollum is going to die. Like, any minute now.

Essentially, from Frodo's perspective he is in a Disney Death scene. You know. Where people say 'oh he was so great' because they think their friend is dead but then he's not and they have to deal with it.

"It sounds like you shouldn't talk," said Frodo.

That might be a 'please. oh please don't talk'

"Is the nice Master well?" It must have hurt Master to have the Precious go into the fire, too- it must have hurt him very badly. Gollum felt as if the fire was burning in his own skin, even now. And the emptiness, the loss of it.

I was trying to go for 'Gollum's thoughts are more eloquent than his speech can express' (he's having detailed interior worries and self-identification with Frodo that ends up flattened into 'How you doin' on the way out of his mouth) and as the story goes on he begins to be able to say more of what he's thinking. Actually this is something Tolkien does with Sam to some extent (look for passges where there's some flower beautiful thing and then 'But Sam didn't know how to say that'. Through the meta 'oh but Sam wrote the account later on!' we get the insinuation that Sam later learned how to articulate these things.)

"I have heard you are not. I was told that perhaps I should not even see you," said Frodo. "I came anyway because it's possible that I won't have another chance."

"Because I was told you're going to go live on a farm. with Boromir [who is also alive though spolerss]"

Another voice interceded here: "I believe you will have opportunity to see him again, Frodo. Do not worry yourself on that account."

I may have intended that Frodo (who in the book does in fact want Gollum dead! or is at least tempted to want him dead! see: waterfall scene!) is sort of counting on an imminent demise, because he's acting like he thinks the end is near even though Gandalf is saying that's just. not true

Gollum wanted to say you never goes anywhere without your nasty old Sam or something in that vein, because it seemed so odd that Sam was not there if Sam was alive, but he started coughing instead.

Gollum is in Fanfiction Invalid Mode for the beginning part of the fic for a few reasons, one, I thought it would be inevitable for any sense of realism because Frodo and Sam were also in invalid mode in canon after the destruction of the Ring and if Gollum didn't literally crumble to dust he would at least be suffering severe dehydration and other things. But it's also because he is such a stubborn arrogant nasty little bugger. I thought that if I wanted a premise of 'Gollum's presence is tolerated' I had to severely break him down. So he's ill to the point of relying on others for survival moment to moment.

And it's already helping him, because it stops him making rude comments about Sam to Frodo, which would have been a poor strategic move, relationally.

Gollum notes Sam's absence as odd because he did in canon (see again: waterfall scene; frodo shows up to get him out of the pool and into the cop car, and gollum asks something like 'where is the other hobbit, the cross rude one' or something equally uncomplimentary)

Gollum knows Sam and Frodo are inseparable.

Gollum understands their characters better than New Line Cinema did.

And I have cause to thank you as well, not only for your deeds, but because due to your actions I can handily win many arguments I have been having

In the book Gandalf had a difficult time convicing Frodo that Gollum shouldn't be put to death. I doubt Frodo was the only one who thought he was irredeemable. Because uhh he was. in the real timeline. Still worked out well not to kill him though.

Perhaps his time was better spent sleeping than in trying to figure out wizards. "I think you are right," said Gandalf, "for you will never figure out wizards.

Gandalf is still reading his mind, or maybe reading expressions/cues Gollum doesn't know he's giving off. Gandalf can canonically read minds though. See: Denethor.

To be honest he's doing this partly just because I thought it was funny.

The extensive timeskips here are meant to reduce the amount of time I'm spending on writing whump, by the way. There's more of that here and then Gollum is roused by Gandalf and Aragorn so they can have a little chat about... how awkward it is that Gollum saved the world and lived to tell about it.

"Dare I ask why he is still alive?" "Dear me, it was not my decision.

I'm trying to imply that the Valar cheat-coded additional hit points for Gollum because by the laws of the story the destruction of the Ring absolutely should have killed him but I need him alive for my silly little fanfiction. But without outright stating that. Because it feels a liiiiittle bit cheap.

I think there's another place ten or more chapters from now where Gandalf implies it a little more strongly.

"And if my ears or my brain have not lost their sense, I am to believe that you, you yourself, cast the Ring into the fire. And on that point I cannot see how anyone could be mistaken, for if Sam or Frodo had done it they would certainly not have given the credit to you. You did this deed." Gollum had heard the phrase 'you did this deed' before, and no one who had said it had ever been pleased with him. He recalled that Gandalf and Aragorn had had an interest in the Precious, but he could not be certain whether they had been guarding Frodo because they endorsed his mission to destroy it, or if they wanted it for themselves. One of the two big Men traveling in the elf-boats on the River had tried to take the Precious from Master at one point, he had, and Gollum couldn't really tell two tall, dark-haired, gray-eyed, fit Men apart from one another at a distance. He decided to reply with: "Don't hurt us!"

I'm trying to imply through omission of description of Aragorn's tone of voice that Gollum can't read it and is getting no information from it, or else he probably wouldn't think Aragorn is angry.

(Also, Aragorn referring to the brain as the seat of thought/sense is a little off for the time period of LOTR. I wouldn't make that choice if I were writing this now. It's a minor problem, though, I think.)

Gollum is just as confused as everyone else about the fact that he saved the world and everyone has to be nice to him now. Aragorn and Gandalf have to keep explaining it and they ask him to recount events to see if he can start figuring out what happened.

Sam saw me, he was not pleased, oh no, and he pulled Sméagol, yes he grabbed me with his big rough hands and that hurt us, it did, but I had the Precious in my handses when he pulled me, and it came away!"

I decided in the 'Gollum lives and is niceys' AU he should somehow get away with not biting off Frodo's finger because it seemed somehow mean-spirited to put Frodo in a position where he has to reconcile with the person who bit his finger off. Gollum is hard enough to get along with already.

I think the intended alternate chain of events here was: Gollum does not knock Sam out when he runs to stop Frodo claiming the Ring, because he didn't make a break from their party and doesn't have to ambush them -> Sam is awake and alert, intervenes in the fight and inadvertently helps Gollum steal the Ring while doing so -> Gollum does not have to go to the extreme of biting off Frodo's finger. Although given the force involced he probably broke Frodo's finger by doing this and everyone was too classy to tell him.

...I missed an opportunity to have Gollum bite his own finger off instead but even if it had occurred to me I probably wouldn't have done it because it would be too dark in tone to have him deal with the pain and loss of a finger for the whole rest of the fic. Gollum would be very preoccupied with that kind of injury and devote a lot of POV space to it. There would be no plausible, in-character way to get around that.

Gollum's voice dropped low again. "We could have bitten our hand off. O no! Sméagol's nice hand. I would not like that, I would starve without it, so the way I chose was better, yes, it is dreadful to starve, and it is hard to chew through wristses, it is, precious! So many little bones there, and there was no time."

Okay never mind I guess I did include at least a partial 'he could have maimed himself instead but it would have been cringe' (also, Gollum did not put the Ring on- not here, and not even in the canon version of the scene either)

"The fact remains," said Gandalf, "no matter what your reasons, you saved Frodo from an evil end, and saved many others from similar ends. Do you desire a reward?" "A reward! From Gandalf the Grey," said Gollum. "He is offering us a reward! He would have burned Sméagol in fires, he had us dragged to him on a leassh like a dog, and he called us a liar and a thief, now he wants to give us treats and presents." [There's a lot more dialog because Gollum still does not get it] Gollum heard himself speaking, though he was not aware that he had chosen to say anything. "I want to eat and drink and rest when I wish. And I do not want to wear my poor fingers to stubs with wandering, wandering and searching, wandering and searching, and hiding, and sneaking." Even to his own ears he sounded weary.

This caused me to change the whole plot of this fic later on, I'll tell you when we get there.

And that's chapter 1.

[jetra4ivor]

3-4 of my posts regarding the Minecraft Movie have gone viral. And as someone who has never had a post go viral before I gotta say…

I do not like it.

Maybe on other websites it’s not a big deal, but here on tumblr it is a nightmare.

The biggest issue is that it’s really hard to filter the reblogs and be able to respond to things. If I’m like scrolling down through the reblogs to see what people are saying or writing, the SECOND a new reblog or like comes in tumblr INSTANTLY jumps me back up to the top. Because tumblr wants me to see that someone new is reblogging my posts.

And when you’re only dealing with 1 or 2 new reblogs or likes every few minutes or hours… not a problem.

But when it’s literally multiple times a SECOND? Omg… I can’t scroll down. I can’t keep up. It’s just CONSTANTLY snapping me back up to the top and I can’t scroll through anything and see what people are saying!!!

I was hoping after a few days it would slow down… BUT IT HASN’T. The only way I’ve been able to respond to anything lately is by manually finding the individual posts or reblogs themselves and scrolling through the comments there instead.

The second issue is that tumblr keeps your post as it was reblogged. Even if you edit the post later to fix a spelling or grammar mistake, tumblr keeps the incorrect version of the post if that was reblogged before you corrected things.

And for example, in one of the viral posts my phone auto corrected “Piglins” to “pigeons.” And I didn’t notice it at first until the post was well into being viral and someone pointed it out. But even after I corrected the mistake, it had been reblogged so many times now that the incorrect version is all anyone sees. So I’m still getting people telling me I wrote it wrong LONG after I already fixed it 😭

I post primarily about gay MCSM content. Specifically involving female Jessie and Petra. I don’t generally post about other Minecraft stuff, as I try to keep my blog focused on MCSM related content. I probably wouldn’t mind too much if going viral meant more people saw some of the gay MCSM content I reblog or talk about…

But none of the viral reblogging has transferred over into any of my other posts. Which is sad because one of the viral posts is about people talking about how good MCSM is. After nearly a decade of people talking down on MCSM it’s so fantastic to see so many people stepping up and defending it and saying it was good… but none of that positivity is spreading into any of my other posts about the game!

You guys actually liked MCSM? Please… come into the MCSM fandom! Inject your love of the game into this fandom! We NEED you here! We’ve felt so isolated and small! Where have you all been? Why won’t you join us here and create new art or talk about your favorite characters or moments?

Why hasn’t any of my viral success transferred into more fans of the game joining the MCSM community? 😭 It’s so gratifying to see the love of MCSM in the comments to the Minecraft Movie trailer… why isn’t that resulting in more people coming into the fandom on tumblr?

Don’t get me wrong… it’s nice that people liked some of my posts enough for them to go viral. But the way tumblr works makes going viral really difficult to deal with and I’m not seeing the cross pollination of MCSM fans into any of the OTHER posts I’ve made about MCSM!

I just want more people talking about the lesbian block people! You came here for the Minecraft Movie Trailer dissing… please stay for the lesbian block people!

[she-who-fights-and-writes]

Do you have any advice for writing your first draft?

I’ve just finished an outline for a fic of mine, and like all my projects I abandoned them at the first draft because I lose interest in the story.

So, how can I stay interested long enough to complete my draft and move on to actually finishing the story?

HOW TO WRITE A FIRST DRAFT

A first draft is the hardest draft you will ever write; it’s creating something from nothing, without the benefit of using a previous draft as a base. Obstacles such as writer’s block and motivation may oppose you at every turn, and it can be easy to get sidetracked and frustrated when you have ideas for the “middle” of the story but somehow can’t get to it. 

Just know that everyone is different and writes in a way that works for them, so don’t feel pressured if these tips don’t work for you or don't fit your style of writing!

1. Start With a Good Outline

Since you don’t have a previous draft as a foundation for your writing, your outline will take the place of this! Refer to my posts below:

How to Outline

Plotting for Pansters and Pantsing for Plotters

You can also refer to my FAQ, which includes a variety of resources on getting started. This includes posts on how to get into writing fiction, how to write consistently, and how to combat writer's block!

2. Know that You Don’t Have to Write in Chronological Order

Write what inspires you! If you have no idea what your first scene is going to be but have very specific ideas about a coffee shop interaction during the middle of the book,  write the coffee shop scene instead of staring at your blank word doc for an hour and giving up!

Writing is better than not writing, even if it’s not the part of your story that you “need” to get done. In fact, it can be easier (and more cohesive!) to write all of the major scenes you’re excited about first and connect them together, than to write out everything in the order from start to finish.

3. Give Yourself Permission to Write Incomprehensible Garbage

This goes hand-in-hand with the tips I highlight in my post about overcoming writer’s block. When it comes to a first draft, DONE IS BETTER THAN PERFECT, and QUANTITY OVER QUALITY. It is totally okay if your first draft is covered in placeholders for scenes and conversations that you don’t feel like writing.

For example, rather than getting stuck on writing about your characters on the car ride to the carnival, just write and highlight in red “THEY DRIVE TO THE CARNIVAL” and come back to it later. That way, you can have fun actually writing the carnival scene instead of struggling to write the stuff leading up to it. Momentum is the key to getting your first draft done, not producing writing that “sounds good.”

If you’re just going to go back and edit it later, why bother getting stuck on that now? This leads me into my next point:

4. STOP EDITING!!!

When it comes to a first draft, opening up the doc and editing the things you already wrote for the 712123979843th time is not progress; now you just have one REALLY good scene and no rest of the story. Save the editing for later; you’re more likely to lose steam and feel stuck if you keep getting caught on the same things over and over again. 

I am calling myself out on this one, as I am INCREDIBLY guilty of using editing and rewriting as an excuse to not write new material, but unfortunately it has to be said. Having it in your mind that you’re making progress when in reality you’re using editing as an avoidant technique will not help you in the long run (as much as I wish it would). 

This can sometimes be helped by writing each chapter (or scene that’s getting you stuck) in a new document so that you have no choice but to focus on what you’re currently writing; sometimes the temptations of editing are too great to resist when you have all of your writing in one place!

5. Set Specific Goals and Document Your Progress

Setting goals helps you break up the huge task of “writing a book” into more manageable chunks. 

For example, heading into a writing session with the goal “finish this chapter” or “finish this scene” or “write this dialogue” can make it easier to overcome writer’s block; you are solely dedicating your focus on doing this specific task, and are less likely to get distracted. It’s better than barging head-first into it with no direction, and may also have the added bonus of keeping your writing cohesive.

Documenting your progress can help hold you accountable for reaching the goals that you set. If you like to perform under pressure, maybe you can document your progress online or with a friend; that way, you feel a bit of a pushback from outside sources to get things done! Keeping consistent will also help in maintaining a steady flow of inspiration—you’re always thinking ahead!

However, you should remember that life happens, so don’t beat yourself up if you’re struggling to reach your goals or deadlines! Nobody is a writing machine!

Hope this helps, and happy writing!

[wlwanakin]

all your fics sound so fun!! but i am going with obi-wan microaggressions or, if that's already taken, no, sferatu

@cheesenames

for the wip ask game i posted at the beginning of the month lmaoooo. i’ve been swamped with work and planning my upcoming vacation and you asked about the two that i have written the least of!! like genuinely these files are so empty and illegible and i was planning on carving out a day to work on them and then answer my asks with what i added but i have had ZERO time and therefore a) wrote a lot less than i would’ve liked and b) am only answering right now instead of three weeks ago

i feel like i’ll disappoint not having huge chunks to share like with the other au lmao but they’re both fun so i will share anyway (and i’m still breaking the rules bc these are not a sentence they are Paragraphs). also anakin is a trans woman in both of them #predictable and it’s an essential aspect of the microaggressions one and completely trivial and serves only to alienate my audience in the nosferatu one. anyway here’s the rundown for both:

obi-wan microaggressions is a fic entirely inspired by twitter convos i had with @lesbiananidalas about how obi-wan would respond sooo badly to anakin coming out as trans not out of bigotry or malice but because he is chronically incapable of understanding anakin or challenging his own perception of things. so the basic premise is that it’s a post-rots happy au where anakin leaves the order to fuck off to naboo with padmé and the twins and blah blah and this leads to a falling out with obi-wan and then they don’t talk for a few years. and then by circumstances i haven’t decided yet he re-enters anakin’s life only to be completely blindsided by anakin having transitioned in the years they were not speaking (so blindsided that he straight up doesn’t notice until a few days later and just assumes anakin is like, unusually well-rested and haircut averse and that is why she looks so radiant and womanly these days). and he puts his foot in his mouth about that repeatedly, naturally. but it’s a lot less about gender and a lot more about growing apart from someone you thought you knew and realizing that you did not know them all that well. here is a kinda whatever paragraph:

She hasn’t changed all that dramatically, in many ways not at all. She smiles more, and wider, and she seems taller even though Padmé says she’s shrunk half an inch. The bags under her eyes are the lightest they’ve been since she was a child. She’s the exact opposite of what Obi-Wan imagined an Anakin outside the order to be; he’s still waiting for the cracks to show through.

no, sferatu is literally just my nosferatu au that i have discussed on here exclusively through tags. calling it a nosferatu au isn’t entirely accurate bc it’s also inspired by dracula (the novel) and i’m not sticking to either version of the story strictly at all but it is an idea sparked mostly by 2024 nosferatu because of ellen’s connection to the supernatural and all the grooming-esque stuff going on and blah blah you get the gist. i just wanted to do a very classical vampire thing with gothic heroine anakin and her and padmé having an idyllic little (boston) marriage that’s threatened by this looming monstrous figure cuz that’s just revenge of the sith.

this one is very much in the “jotting stuff down non-chronologically to remind myself i had the idea and edit it later” stage and not really in the style i want the final product to be in at all. there’s no real context for this, i just had a visual of anakin and padmé lying in bed together in what i imagine is the beginning of the third act?:

She sleeps with her hand on Padmé’s chest, palm pressed flat so she can feel her heartbeat. She needs the assurance that it’s still there, that it hasn’t been stolen away in the dead of night. Her mind wanders back to the depths of the black sea it always returns to, back to Sidious, to his gnarled, lifeless hand on her shoulder and time-worn voice scraping her ears. She wonders if his pulse can be felt under his cold, waxen skin; she doubts he has one at all.

idk this would be after padmé returns from her jonathan harker/thomas hutter esque business trip (that i have yet to decide the circumstances of) half-dead and in my mind there’s also like an equivalent to that scene in the herzog movie where dracula visits lucy one night that happens between anakin and sidious except it’s more manipulative so it’s more like the eggers scene between ellen and orlok? but i’m not doing the three nights thing and it’s not as sensual as the eggers scene. i don’t know. i haven’t even decided what decade this is set in much less the plot structure. dracula!