#what if i just dont do my exams what then

[youuthh]

tw: talks of sh, su1c1d3, possible depression, sharp objects, academic stress, emotional detachment , a lot of grammatical errors and maybe more

dunno if i can do this anymore. something inside me is broken and idk what it is. my eyes sting. my heart burns. my mind immediately thinks of cvttng myself when i see or hold a knife even though I’ve never done it before. i cant sleep before 1 am. the thought of facing lofe without having my mind occupied by exams is terrifying cus i dont want to face my feelings. not a single person has noticed how im losing mtseld. i cant open up to anyone amd whenever i do im always hit with “just move on” like its that fuccking essy. im constantly switching between wanting to punch anyone who touches me and just wanting to be held by soemone as i cry my heart out. i cant eat even when im starbing. ive either not been feeling anything or been feeling everything at once. im nostalgic for something i remember feeling but forgot how it feels. Ive been crying myself to sleep everynight. i hate exams cus they put so much oressure on me and expectations fron my parents even when im struggling but right now theyre my only distraction. i dont knwo whag ill do once my exams get over. they get over on her birthday…. her birthday. two days before mjne. i dont think ill make jt tikk then. im trying, im trying so fucking hard but my parenst dont care. my friends dont care. and im lying here at 1 am wondering if anyone would even care if i just died.

[witheringhouls]

I need whatever my history teacher is smoking it wouldn't get me through my exams but I would die happy .

[regular-gnome]

U alive?

somewhat

[plasticsandwich]

thank you for over 1k followers!! wrapped up this special gift for yous

[slavhew]

skirts suit strider

[incorrect-riordanverse]

It's really disheartening that Rick Riordan stance on the war I understand that he wants to be neutral on this stance but in my opinion by becoming neutral he only worsening the issue as many Palestines are dying that are mostly children, how the majority of Israeli are supporting the Genocide of Palestine, and how the government is trying so hard (but miserably failing) to justified the genocide. I will hold him accountable for what he said on this issue as during this period the choice is basically "you are with us or against us."

Part of me wishes he will realize what he said was wrong and understand the bigger issue that plays at hand. I will criticism for his actions as how can a man who promotes LGBTQIA and representation of minorities and disabilities in his books turn a blind eyes to Genocide of people. However we can only wait and see on his next move.

One last thing about your previous you said you don't group Riordan with other authors where do you would group him with? Also this is more on an opinion base answer but many people are boycotting companies that support Israel there as been another post on Twitter on boycotting authors. Rick Riordan happens to be one of them. Do you believed that he should be boycotted with other authors or he should be properly educated and apologized for his previous statement? If you believed he should be boycotted what do tou have to say to those who might have the mentality of "separate the art from the artist"

thank you for this ask, and i completely agree with you! it is extremely hypocritical of him considering what he preaches for in his books. i think he’s convinced he has properly addressed the apartheid by using very vague language that can be applied to anything, and in doing so, he’s addressed nothing really.

your first question on who i would group him with— probably other authors who are doing the exact same as him in their virtue signalling. i always like to link my other blogs to each other, so i don’t think it’s a secret that i have a red queen account and i’m pretty passionate about that. unfortunately, victoria aveyard is another fantasy author who has literally wrote a whole four-book series on the uprising against oppression but is now playing neutral in her address of the apartheid. rebecca yarros is in the same boat, although i haven’t read ‘fourth wing,’ fans have said there are large themes of oppression within the book. so if i had to group riordan it would probably be in the ‘i-like-to-write-about-it-for-profit-and-praise-only’ group.

in terms of boycotting, i think that’s a great idea! i would also like to remind everyone that the percy jackson tv show is coming out in a little over a month, but disney is a huge industry financially supporting israel as well ($2 million in funding), which is obviously far more damning than a poorly written address by one person. there is a boycott happening for disney as well— and the pjo show will be released on disney + . i implore everyone to not watch it on that platform!! personally i will be pirating it online (idk if i’ll get into trouble saying that here but lol oh well), because im pretty sure the boycott is only for withdrawing financial support, not simply consuming media.

i feel like separating art from the artist only works if that artist is… like, dead, and you’re using that art and its values as a historical insight to how the world was during its time. you can still like a piece of work that has a problematic artist, you can engage with the work (to an extent). but separating art from the artist barely works because either:

to engage with the art is to support the artist in some way, so that artist is making money based on your interaction with that (particularly in the case for singers and streaming of songs)

that artists’ views and values are so rancid that it’s literally embedded within the text itself. to ignore it is harmful.

harry potter is my all-time favourite example to use, because jkr is the scum of the earth, and her views are entrenched in her work. a lesser known example is sarah j maas and her books (she’s also not as dogshit as jkr, but then again, its not hard to be a better person than her). i’m not going to bag on these people for liking things by problematic people (would be hypocritical of me), i just think it’s cowardly not to address it when you come across it, or at least admit to it. to simply write things off as ‘separate to the artist’ is like purposefully turning off your critical thinking skills.

on whether boycotting or an apology is enough— if riordan did apologise and used specific language and not the nonsense he had in that blog, expressed his remorse for his ignorance and then actually did or said something to support the people of palestine then, yeah. that’s fine and that’s how we learn ig. but he should educate himself, too many activists, people from the arab community and especially palestinians are expected to be all-knowing and to educate everyone else on an already draining and personal tragedy. it’s been exhausting for me, i can’t imagine what they’re going through. if riordan (or anyone) needs to be educated, he should do it himself, and (at least in my opinion) i don’t think the info is very hard to find now. it’s just about weeding out the misinformation.

i think boycotting is a good idea as of now. it can serve to be a catalyst for self reflection for many people. also, as much as i hate most online discourses, talking about it online needs to happen. i don’t want these authors to forget, for a moment, about the ignorance they posted online during a time of international crisis.

[21fallouts-atmychemicaldisco]

Yes, guys… You know what? You know what I've came to do this entry? You know what I've came to do this entry, guys? I've came to admit, finally… to ALLL MY EVIL PLAN. IT'S COME.. T⁰gETHER!..

Heh… All of the members on Marble Hornets? ARE UNDER NDA! AND THEY HAVE BEEN, FOR YEARS! And I've been SIPHENING. EVERY. DOLLAR. THEY'VE MADE..FROM ALLLL OF THE CLOUT THAT I GAVE THEM! 'Cause I made.. EVERY. SINGLE. ONE OF THEM. And I have their parents' numbers… And I will… HAVE THEM EXECUTED!!!

EXECUTED.

IF THEY SAY ANOTHER BAD W⁰RD. ANOTHER BAD WORD. They..will perish. I will kill all of them. And also, secretly?…I hate all of you.

All of you, because of your GENDER and your SEX and because I'm HOMOPHOBIC. I HATE ALL OF YOU, AND I ALWAYS HAVE. YOU GOT ME, BUT IT'S TOO LATE, IT'S GONE THROUGH. THE PLAN HAS BEEN EXECUTED! Aha… I'll see you guys soon!

Heh…in hell…

[ev-enhotterthanyou]

french speaking makes me want to kms

[unabletomakedecisions]

Just watched Black Friday by Starkid, and now I'm wondering which Fear this would be a manifestation of. (I think Extinction would probably be in there, but what else?)

Actually, what would *all* the starkid productions be?

Nerdy Prudes Must Die would have at least a bit of Hunt... The Guy Who Didn't Like Musicals would have some Corruption...

[jiraikitten]

studying for my mocks tomorrow. . . im so scared of failing my exams :(

also im SO mad that im not allowed to wear jirai kei to school, that i have to wear a stupid jumper and basic clothes !! let me be jirai in peace PLEASE !!!!

[moonlit-orchid]

Sitting here wishing my ADHD was more severe just so people could realise I actually have a problem-

[pubwegf]

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[faaun]

procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

[paging-possum]

I just need to fucking survive the next 24 hours dude.

[snixx]

i miss stupid rafaela

[lesbianralzarek]

i got 99% on an exam i was dreading and i was sooo brave and i only threw up a little bit :) unfortunately i had to take 2 tabs of adderall at 4pm and subsequently i will not be escaping my dogshit sleep schedule tonight :( but i got 99% :)