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Recovery isn’t for me. I don’t know how to eat like a normal person.

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New year, same bullshit.

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I’m trying so hard to maintain my cool around food while staying with family, but when I sit down to dinner and there are 15+ meatballs in an oily sauce on rice please tell me how I’m supposed to keep calm??

That’s at least 3 servings and then they’re shocked that I don’t want to eat it!!

Im already struggling without scales and this is only adding to my anxiety

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RIP to all of us with divorced parents, who have to celebrate Christmas twice 😭

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So I’m stressing. I’ve signed up for a marathon that’s in 14 weeks and I have no idea what to do about food.

I’m not stupid and I know that to actually train for, run and complete that distance I need to fuel my body properly but the other part of me just wants to keep losing more and more weight

Everything I look at goes on about how most people who train for a marathon actually end up gaining weight and I don’t want that to be me but I really want to do this - I love running and I felt so proud of myself when I completed a half-marathon but I’m terrified to gain…

I think I’m going to restrict a bit higher and see how it goes, I just need to keep losing

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I am 1lbs away from the UGW that I’ve had for the last 10 years!!! Gonna lose another 5 after that as well..

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Woke up this morning at 117.8lbs. I don’t know what happened but I’ve lost 2 1/2 lbs since my weigh in yesterday morning 🙌 This is the lowest I have ever been!

I am so close to breaking out of the 120’s

I just need to stay strong

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Just weighed myself, I’m officially 119! BMI 17.5 is only 4lbs away 😍

I am so close to breaking out of the 120’s

I just need to stay strong

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I want to see my chest bones

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I am so close to breaking out of the 120’s

I just need to stay strong

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I feel disgusting

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I was complaining about how cold the building was today and one of my colleagues turned to someone else and said that if I put on some actual weight I wouldn’t be so cold…

I hate that they commented on my weight but I also love it 😍

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Just had the best 50cal peppermint hot chocolate 😍

7g cocoa powder 26cal

100ml soya milk 26cal

Sweetener 0cal

Peppermint extract 0cal

52 Calories

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Don’t worry I kept under my calories, it turns out darkness is great when you’re pretending to eat

Not my friends deciding to order Dominos on our movie night! I’d pre-planned for snacks but not pizza 🤢

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Not my friends deciding to order Dominos on our movie night! I’d pre-planned for snacks but not pizza 🤢

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Who needs antidepressants when you can run

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I’ve come to the conclusion that my face has actually changed as I’ve lost weight..

I don’t know if it’s the body dysmorphia, but recently I’ve been looking in the mirror and my face looks deformed.

Just another insecurity to add to the list ✨